“Come,“saidhe,“let’sbegin。“
  Hewrote——
  “Courage,Emma!courage!Iwouldnotbringmiseryintoyourlife。“
  “Afterall,that’strue,“thoughtRodolphe。“Iamactinginherinterest;Iamhonest。“
  “Haveyoucarefullyweighedyourresolution?DoyouknowtowhatanabyssIwasdraggingyou,poorangel?No,youdonot,doyou?
  Youwerecomingconfidentandfearless,believinginhappinessinthefuture。Ah!unhappythatweare——insensate!“
  Rodolphestoppedheretothinkofsomegoodexcuse。
  “IfItoldherallmyfortuneislost?No!Besides,thatwouldstopnothing。Itwouldallhavetobebegunoveragainlateron。
  Asifonecouldmakewomenlikethatlistentoreason!“Hereflected,thenwenton——
  “Ishallnotforgetyou,ohbelieveit;andIshalleverhaveaprofounddevotionforyou;butsomeday,soonerorlater,thisardoursuchisthefateofhumanthingswouldhavegrownless,nodoubt。Lassitudewouldhavecometous,andwhoknowsifI
  shouldnotevenhavehadtheatrociouspainofwitnessingyourremorse,ofsharingitmyself,sinceIshouldhavebeenitscause?Themereideaofthegriefthatwouldcometoyoutorturesme,Emma。Forgetme!WhydidIeverknowyou?Whywereyousobeautiful?Isitmyfault?OmyGod!No,no!Accuseonlyfate。“
  “That’sawordthatalwaystells,“hesaidtohimself。
  “Ah,ifyouhadbeenoneofthosefrivolouswomenthatonesees,certainlyImight,throughegotism,havetriedanexperiment,inthatcasewithoutdangerforyou。Butthatdeliciousexaltation,atonceyourcharmandyourtorment,haspreventedyoufromunderstanding,adorablewomanthatyouare,thefalsenessofourfutureposition。NorhadIreflecteduponthisatfirst,andI
  restedintheshadeofthatidealhappinessasbeneaththatofthemanchineeltree,withoutforeseeingtheconsequences。“
  “Perhapsshe’llthinkI’mgivingitupfromavarice。Ah,well!somuchtheworse;itmustbestopped!“
  “Theworldiscruel,Emma。Whereverwemighthavegone,itwouldhavepersecutedus。Youwouldhavehadtoputupwithindiscreetquestions,calumny,contempt,insultperhaps。Insulttoyou!Oh!
  AndI,whowouldplaceyouonathrone!Iwhobearwithmeyourmemoryasatalisman!ForIamgoingtopunishmyselfbyexileforalltheillIhavedoneyou。Iamgoingaway。WhitherIknownot。Iammad。Adieu!Begoodalways。Preservethememoryoftheunfortunatewhohaslostyou。Teachmynametoyourchild;letherrepeatitinherprayers。“
  Thewicksofthecandlesflickered。Rodolphegotupto,shutthewindow,andwhenhehadsatdownagain——
  “Ithinkit’sallright。Ah!andthisforfearsheshouldcomeandhuntmeup。“
  “Ishallbefarawaywhenyoureadthesesadlines,forIhavewishedtofleeasquicklyaspossibletoshunthetemptationofseeingyouagain。Noweakness!Ishallreturn,andperhapslateronweshalltalktogetherverycoldlyofouroldlove。Adieu!“
  Andtherewasalast“adieu“dividedintotwowords!“ADieu!“
  whichhethoughtinveryexcellenttaste。
  “NowhowamItosign?“hesaidtohimself。“’Yoursdevotedly?’
  No!’Yourfriend?’Yes,that’sit。“
  “Yourfriend。“
  Here-readhisletter。Heconsidereditverygood。
  “Poorlittlewoman!“hethoughtwithemotion。“She’llthinkmeharderthanarock。Thereoughttohavebeensometearsonthis;
  butIcan’tcry;itisn’tmyfault。“Then,havingemptiedsomewaterintoaglass,Rodolphedippedhisfingerintoit,andletabigdropfallonthepaper,thatmadeapalestainontheink。
  Thenlookingforaseal,hecameupontheone“Amornelcor。“
  “Thatdoesn’tatallfitinwiththecircumstances。Pshaw!nevermind!“
  Afterwhichhesmokedthreepipesandwenttobed。
  Thenextdaywhenhewasupatabouttwoo’clock——hehadsleptlate,Rodolphehadabasketofapricotspicked。Heputhisletteratthebottomundersomevineleaves,andatonceorderedGirard,hisploughman,totakeitwithcaretoMadameBovary。Hemadeuseofthismeansforcorrespondingwithher,sendingaccordingtotheseasonfruitsorgame。
  “Ifsheasksafterme,“hesaid,“youwilltellherthatIhavegoneonajourney。Youmustgivethebaskettoherherself,intoherownhands。Getalongandtakecare!“
  Girardputonhisnewblouse,knottedhishandkerchiefroundtheapricots,andwalkingwithgreatheavystepsinhisthickiron-boundgaloshes,madehiswaytoYonville。
  MadameBovary,whenhegottoherhouse,wasarrangingabundleoflinenonthekitchen-tablewithFelicite。
  “Here,“saidtheploughboy,“issomethingforyou——fromthemaster。“
  Shewasseizedwithapprehension,andasshesoughtinherpocketforsomecoppers,shelookedatthepeasantwithhaggardeyes,whilehehimselflookedatherwithamazement,notunderstandinghowsuchapresentcouldsomoveanyone。Atlasthewentout。
  Feliciteremained。Shecouldbearitnolonger;sheranintothesittingroomasiftotaketheapricotsthere,overturnedthebasket,toreawaytheleaves,foundtheletter,openedit,and,asifsomefearfulfirewerebehindher,Emmaflewtoherroomterrified。
  Charleswasthere;shesawhim;hespoketoher;sheheardnothing,andshewentonquicklyupthestairs,breathless,distraught,dumb,andeverholdingthishorriblepieceofpaper,thatcrackledbetweenherfingerslikeaplateofsheet-iron。Onthesecondfloorshestoppedbeforetheatticdoor,whichwasclosed。
  Thenshetriedtocalmherself;sherecalledtheletter;shemustfinishit;shedidnotdareto。Andwhere?How?Shewouldbeseen!“Ah,no!here,“shethought,“Ishallbeallright。“
  Emmapushedopenthedoorandwentin。
  Theslatesthrewstraightdownaheavyheatthatgrippedhertemples,stifledher;shedraggedherselftotheclosedgarret-window。Shedrewbackthebolt,andthedazzlinglightburstinwithaleap。
  Opposite,beyondtheroofs,stretchedtheopencountrytillitwaslosttosight。Downbelow,underneathher,thevillagesquarewasempty;thestonesofthepavementglittered,theweathercocksonthehousesweremotionless。Atthecornerofthestreet,fromalowerstorey,roseakindofhummingwithstridentmodulations。
  ItwasBinetturning。
  Sheleantagainsttheembrasureofthewindow,andrereadtheletterwithangrysneers。Butthemoreshefixedherattentionuponit,themoreconfusedwereherideas。Shesawhimagain,heardhim,encircledhimwithherarms,andthrobsofherheart,thatbeatagainstherbreastlikeblowsofasledge-hammer,grewfasterandfaster,withunevenintervals。Shelookedaboutherwiththewishthattheearthmightcrumbleintopieces。Whynotenditall?Whatrestrainedher?Shewasfree。Sheadvanced,lookingatthepaving-stones,sayingtoherself,“Come!come!“
  Theluminousraythatcamestraightupfrombelowdrewtheweightofherbodytowardstheabyss。Itseemedtoherthatthegroundoftheoscillatingsquarewentupthewallsandthatthefloordippedonendlikeatossingboat。Shewasrightattheedge,almosthanging,surroundedbyvastspace。Theblueoftheheavenssuffusedher,theairwaswhirlinginherhollowhead;shehadbuttoyield,toletherselfbetaken;andthehummingofthelatheneverceased,likeanangryvoicecallingher。
  “Emma!Emma!“criedCharles。
  Shestopped。
  “Whereverareyou?Come!“
  Thethoughtthatshehadjustescapedfromdeathalmostmadeherfaintwithterror。Sheclosedhereyes;thensheshiveredatthetouchofahandonhersleeve;itwasFelicite。
  “Masteriswaitingforyou,madame;thesoupisonthetable。“
  Andshehadtogodowntositattable。
  Shetriedtoeat。Thefoodchokedher。Thensheunfoldedhernapkinasiftoexaminethedarns,andshereallythoughtofapplyingherselftothiswork,countingthethreadsinthelinen。
  Suddenlytheremembranceoftheletterreturnedtoher。Howhadshelostit?Wherecouldshefindit?Butshefeltsuchwearinessofspiritthatshecouldnoteveninventapretextforleavingthetable。Thenshebecameacoward;shewasafraidofCharles;
  heknewall,thatwascertain!Indeedhepronouncedthesewordsinastrangemanner:
  “WearenotlikelytoseeMonsieurRodolphesoonagain,itseems。“
  “Whotoldyou?“shesaid,shuddering。