ChapterFiveThebrickfrontwasjustinalinewiththestreet,orrathertheroad。Behindthedoorhungacloakwithasmallcollar,abridle,andablackleathercap,andonthefloor,inacorner,wereapairofleggings,stillcoveredwithdrymud。Ontherightwastheoneapartment,thatwasbothdiningandsittingroom。A
canaryyellowpaper,relievedatthetopbyagarlandofpaleflowers,waspuckeredeverywhereoverthebadlystretchedcanvas;
whitecalicocurtainswitharedborderhungcrosswaysatthelengthofthewindow;andonthenarrowmantelpieceaclockwithaheadofHippocratesshoneresplendentbetweentwoplatecandlesticksunderovalshades。OntheothersideofthepassagewasCharles’sconsultingroom,alittleroomaboutsixpaceswide,withatable,threechairs,andanofficechair。Volumesofthe“DictionaryofMedicalScience,“uncut,butthebindingrathertheworseforthesuccessivesalesthroughwhichtheyhadgone,occupiedalmostalongthesixshelvesofadealbookcase。
Thesmellofmeltedbutterpenetratedthroughthewallswhenhesawpatients,justasinthekitchenonecouldhearthepeoplecoughingintheconsultingroomandrecountingtheirhistories。
Then,openingontheyard,wherethestablewas,camealargedilapidatedroomwithastove,nowusedasawood-house,cellar,andpantry,fullofoldrubbish,ofemptycasks,agriculturalimplementspastservice,andamassofdustythingswhoseuseitwasimpossibletoguess。
Thegarden,longerthanwide,ranbetweentwomudwallswithespalieredapricots,toahawthornhedgethatseparateditfromthefield。Inthemiddlewasaslatesundialonabrickpedestal;
fourflowerbedswitheglantinessurroundedsymmetricallythemoreusefulkitchengardenbed。Rightatthebottom,underthesprucebushes,wasacureinplasterreadinghisbreviary。
Emmawentupstairs。Thefirstroomwasnotfurnished,butinthesecond,whichwastheirbedroom,wasamahoganybedsteadinanalcovewithreddrapery。Ashellboxadornedthechestofdrawers,andonthesecretarynearthewindowabouquetoforangeblossomstiedwithwhitesatinribbonsstoodinabottle。Itwasabride’sbouquet;itwastheotherone’s。Shelookedatit。
Charlesnoticedit;hetookitandcarriedituptotheattic,whileEmmaseatedinanarm-chairtheywereputtingherthingsdownaroundherthoughtofherbridalflowerspackedupinabandbox,andwondered,dreaming,whatwouldbedonewiththemifsheweretodie。
Duringthefirstdayssheoccupiedherselfinthinkingaboutchangesinthehouse。Shetooktheshadesoffthecandlesticks,hadnewwallpaperputup,thestaircaserepainted,andseatsmadeinthegardenroundthesundial;sheeveninquiredhowshecouldgetabasinwithajetfountainandfishes。Finallyherhusband,knowingthatshelikedtodriveout,pickedupasecond-handdogcart,which,withnewlampsandsplashboardinstripedleather,lookedalmostlikeatilbury。
Hewashappythen,andwithoutacareintheworld。Amealtogether,awalkintheeveningonthehighroad,agestureofherhandsoverherhair,thesightofherstrawhathangingfromthewindow-fastener,andmanyanotherthinginwhichCharleshadneverdreamedofpleasure,nowmadeuptheendlessroundofhishappiness。Inbed,inthemorning,byherside,onthepillow,hewatchedthesunlightsinkingintothedownonherfaircheek,halfhiddenbythelappetsofhernight-cap。Seenthusclosely,hereyeslookedtohimenlarged,especiallywhen,onwakingup,sheopenedandshutthemrapidlymanytimes。Blackintheshade,darkblueinbroaddaylight,theyhad,asitwere,depthsofdifferentcolours,that,darkerinthecentre,grewpalertowardsthesurfaceoftheeye。Hisowneyeslostthemselvesinthesedepths;hesawhimselfinminiaturedowntotheshoulders,withhishandkerchiefroundhisheadandthetopofhisshirtopen。Herose。Shecametothewindowtoseehimoff,andstayedleaningonthesillbetweentwopotsofgeranium,cladinherdressinggownhanginglooselyabouther。Charles,inthestreetbuckledhisspurs,hisfootonthemountingstone,whileshetalkedtohimfromabove,pickingwithhermouthsomescrapofflowerorleafthatsheblewoutathim。Thenthis,eddying,floating,describedsemicirclesintheairlikeabird,andwascaughtbeforeitreachedthegroundintheill-groomedmaneoftheoldwhitemarestandingmotionlessatthedoor。Charlesfromhorsebackthrewherakiss;sheansweredwithanod;sheshutthewindow,andhesetoff。Andthenalongthehighroad,spreadingoutitslongribbonofdust,alongthedeeplanesthatthetreesbentoverasinarbours,alongpathswherethecornreachedtotheknees,withthesunonhisbackandthemorningairinhisnostrils,hisheartfullofthejoysofthepastnight,hismindatrest,hisfleshatease,hewenton,re-chewinghishappiness,likethosewhoafterdinnertasteagainthetruffleswhichtheyaredigesting。
Untilnowwhatgoodhadhehadofhislife?Histimeatschool,whenheremainedshutupwithinthehighwalls,alone,inthemidstofcompanionsricherthanheorclevererattheirwork,wholaughedathisaccent,whojeeredathisclothes,andwhosemotherscametotheschoolwithcakesintheirmuffs?Lateron,whenhestudiedmedicine,andneverhadhispursefullenoughtotreatsomelittlework-girlwhowouldhavebecomehismistress?
Afterwards,hehadlivedfourteenmonthswiththewidow,whosefeetinbedwerecoldasicicles。Butnowhehadforlifethisbeautifulwomanwhomheadored。Forhimtheuniversedidnotextendbeyondthecircumferenceofherpetticoat,andhereproachedhimselfwithnotlovingher。Hewantedtoseeheragain;heturnedbackquickly,ranupthestairswithabeatingheart。Emma,inherroom,wasdressing;hecameupontiptoe,kissedherback;shegaveacry。
Hecouldnotkeepfromconstantlytouchinghercomb,herring,herfichu;sometimeshegavehergreatsoundingkisseswithallhismouthonhercheeks,orelselittlekissesinarowallalongherbarearmfromthetipofherfingersuptohershoulder,andsheputhimawayhalf-smiling,half-vexed,asyoudoachildwhohangsaboutyou。
Beforemarriageshethoughtherselfinlove;butthehappinessthatshouldhavefollowedthislovenothavingcome,shemust,shethought,havebeenmistaken。AndEmmatriedtofindoutwhatonemeantexactlyinlifebythewordsfelicity,passion,rapture,thathadseemedtohersobeautifulinbooks。
ChapterSixShehadread“PaulandVirginia,“andshehaddreamedofthelittlebamboo-house,theniggerDomingo,thedogFiddle,butaboveallofthesweetfriendshipofsomedearlittlebrother,whoseeksredfruitforyouontreestallerthansteeples,orwhorunsbarefootoverthesand,bringingyouabird’snest。
Whenshewasthirteen,herfatherhimselftookhertotowntoplaceherintheconvent。TheystoppedataninnintheSt。
Gervaisquarter,where,attheirsupper,theyusedpaintedplatesthatsetforththestoryofMademoiselledelaValliere。Theexplanatorylegends,chippedhereandtherebythescratchingofknives,allglorifiedreligion,thetendernessesoftheheart,andthepompsofcourt。
Farfrombeingboredatfirstattheconvent,shetookpleasureinthesocietyofthegoodsisters,who,toamuseher,tookhertothechapel,whichoneenteredfromtherefectorybyalongcorridor。Sheplayedverylittleduringrecreationhours,knewhercatechismwell,anditwasshewhoalwaysansweredMonsieurleVicaire’sdifficultquestions。Livingthus,withouteveryleavingthewarmatmosphereoftheclassrooms,andamidthesepale-facedwomenwearingrosarieswithbrasscrosses,shewassoftlylulledbythemysticlanguorexhaledintheperfumesofthealtar,thefreshnessoftheholywater,andthelightsofthetapers。Insteadofattendingtomass,shelookedatthepiousvignetteswiththeirazurebordersinherbook,andshelovedthesicklamb,thesacredheartpiercedwithsharparrows,orthepoorJesussinkingbeneaththecrosshecarries。Shetried,bywayofmortification,toeatnothingawholeday。Shepuzzledherheadtofindsomevowtofulfil。
Whenshewenttoconfession,sheinventedlittlesinsinorderthatshemightstaytherelonger,kneelingintheshadow,herhandsjoined,herfaceagainstthegratingbeneaththewhisperingofthepriest。Thecomparisonsofbetrothed,husband,celestiallover,andeternalmarriage,thatrecurinsermons,stirredwithinhersouldepthsofunexpectedsweetness。
Intheevening,beforeprayers,therewassomereligiousreadinginthestudy。Onweek-nightsitwassomeabstractofsacredhistoryortheLecturesoftheAbbeFrayssinous,andonSundayspassagesfromthe“GenieduChristianisme,“asarecreation。Howshelistenedatfirsttothesonorouslamentationsofitsromanticmelancholiesreechoingthroughtheworldandeternity!
Ifherchildhoodhadbeenspentintheshop-parlourofsomebusinessquarter,shemightperhapshaveopenedherhearttothoselyricalinvasionsofNature,whichusuallycometousonlythroughtranslationinbooks。Butsheknewthecountrytoowell;
sheknewthelowingofcattle,themilking,theploughs。
Accustomedtocalmaspectsoflife,sheturned,onthecontrary,tothoseofexcitement。Shelovedtheseaonlyforthesakeofitsstorms,andthegreenfieldsonlywhenbrokenupbyruins。
Shewantedtogetsomepersonalprofitoutofthings,andsherejectedasuselessallthatdidnotcontributetotheimmediatedesiresofherheart,beingofatemperamentmoresentimentalthanartistic,lookingforemotions,notlandscapes。
Attheconventtherewasanoldmaidwhocameforaweekeachmonthtomendthelinen。Patronizedbytheclergy,becauseshebelongedtoanancientfamilyofnoblemenruinedbytheRevolution,shedinedintherefectoryatthetableofthegoodsisters,andafterthemealhadabitofchatwiththembeforegoingbacktoherwork。Thegirlsoftenslippedoutfromthestudytogoandseeher。Sheknewbyheartthelovesongsofthelastcentury,andsangtheminalowvoiceasshestitchedaway。
Shetoldstories,gavethemnews,wenterrandsinthetown,andontheslylentthebiggirlssomenovel,thatshealwayscarriedinthepocketsofherapron,andofwhichthegoodladyherselfswallowedlongchaptersintheintervalsofherwork。Theywerealllove,lovers,sweethearts,persecutedladiesfaintinginlonelypavilions,postilionskilledateverystage,horsesriddentodeathoneverypage,sombreforests,heartaches,vows,sobs,tearsandkisses,littleskiffsbymoonlight,nightingalesinshadygroves,“gentlemen“braveaslions,gentleaslambs,virtuousasnooneeverwas,alwayswelldressed,andweepinglikefountains。Forsixmonths,then,Emma,atfifteenyearsofage,madeherhandsdirtywithbooksfromoldlendinglibraries。
ThroughWalterScott,lateron,shefellinlovewithhistoricalevents,dreamedofoldchests,guard-roomsandminstrels。Shewouldhavelikedtoliveinsomeoldmanor-house,likethoselong-waistedchatelaineswho,intheshadeofpointedarches,spenttheirdaysleaningonthestone,chininhand,watchingacavalierwithwhiteplumegallopingonhisblackhorsefromthedistantfields。AtthistimeshehadacultforMaryStuartandenthusiasticvenerationforillustriousorunhappywomen。JoanofArc,Heloise,AgnesSorel,thebeautifulFerroniere,andClemenceIsaurestoodouttoherlikecometsinthedarkimmensityofheaven,wherealsowereseen,lostinshadow,andallunconnected,St。Louiswithhisoak,thedyingBayard,somecrueltiesofLouisXI,alittleofSt。Bartholomew’sDay,theplumeoftheBearnais,andalwaystheremembranceoftheplatespaintedinhonourofLouisXIV。