“HewasonceortwicecrosswithmewhenIsaiditseemedapitytobespendingthemoneyinthebankwhichmightbeafterwardwantedinsteadofearningmoreinbusiness。GoodMr。Bapchild,happeningaboutthistimetobeinLondon,staidoverSunday,andcametodinewithusbetweentheservices。Hehadtriedtomakemypeacewithmyrelations——buthehadnotsucceeded。Atmyrequesthespoketomyhusbandaboutthenecessityofexertinghimself。Myhusbandtookitill。Ithensawhimseriouslyoutoftemperforthefirsttime。GoodMr。Bapchildsaidnomore。Heappearedtobealarmedatwhathadhappened,andhetookhisleaveearly。
“Shortlyafterwardmyhusbandwentout。Igotteareadyforhim——buthenevercameback。Igotsupperreadyforhim——buthenevercameback。ItwaspasttwelveatnightbeforeIsawhimagain。Iwasverymuchstartledbythestatehecamehomein。Hedidn’tspeaklikehimself,orlooklikehimself:hedidn’tseemtoknowme——wanderedinhismind,andfellallinalumplikeonourbed。Iranoutandfetchedthedoctortohim。
“Thedoctorpulledhimuptothelight,andlookedathim;
smelledhisbreath,anddroppedhimdownagainonthebed;turnedabout,andstaredatme。’What’sthematter,Sir?’Isays。’Doyoumeantotellmeyoudon’tknow?’saysthedoctor。’No,Sir,’
saysI。’Whywhatsortofawomanareyou,’sayshe,’nottoknowadrunkenmanwhenyouseehim!’Withthathewentaway,andleftmestandingbythebedside,allinatremblefromheadtofoot。
“ThiswashowIfirstfoundoutthatIwasthewifeofadrunkenman。
“Ihaveomittedtosayanythingaboutmyhusband’sfamily。
“Whilewewerekeepingcompanytogetherhetoldmehewasanorphan——withanuncleandauntinCanada,andanonlybrothersettledinScotland。Beforeweweremarriedhegavemealetterfromthisbrother。ItwastosaythathewassorryhewasnotabletocometoEngland,andbepresentatmymarriage,andtowishmejoyandtherestofit。GoodMr。Bapchildtowhom,inmydistress,Iwrotewordprivatelyofwhathadhappenedwrotebackinreturn,tellingmetowaitalittle,andseewhethermyhusbanddiditagain。
“Ihadnotlongtowait。Hewasinliquoragainthenextday,andthenext。Hearingthis,Mr。Bapchildinstructedmetosendhimtheletterfrommyhusband’sbrother。HeremindedmeofsomeofthestoriesaboutmyhusbandwhichIhadrefusedtobelieveinthetimebeforeIwasmarried;andhesaiditmightbewelltomakeinquiries。
“Theendoftheinquirieswasthis。Thebrother,atthatverytime,wasplacedprivatelybyhisownrequestunderadoctor’scaretogetbrokenofhabitsofdrinking。Thecravingforstrongliquorthedoctorwrotewasinthefamily。Theywouldbesobersometimesformonthstogether,drinkingnothingstrongerthantea。Thenthefitwouldseizethem;andtheywoulddrink,drink,drink,fordaystogether,likethemadandmiserablewretchesthattheywere。
“ThiswasthehusbandIwasmarriedto。AndIhadoffendedallmyrelations,andestrangedthemfromme,forhissake。Herewassurelyasadprospectforawomanafteronlyafewmonthsofweddedlife!
“Inayear’stimethemoneyinthebankwasgone;andmyhusbandwasoutofemployment。Healwaysgotwork——beingafirst-ratehandwhenhewassober——andalwayslostitagainwhenthedrinking-fitseizedhim。Iwaslothtoleaveournicelittlehouse,andpartwithmyprettyfurniture;andIproposedtohimtoletmetryforemployment,bytheday,ascook,andsokeepthingsgoingwhilehewaslookingoutagainforwork。Hewassoberandpenitentatthetime;andheagreedtowhatIproposed。
And,morethanthat,hetooktheTotalAbstinencePledge,andpromisedtoturnoveranewleaf。Matters,asIthought,begantolookfairlyagain。Wehadnobodybutourtwoselvestothinkof。
Ihadbornenochild,andhadnoprospectofbearingone。Unlikemostwomen,Ithoughtthisamercyinsteadofamisfortune。InmysituationasIsoongrewtoknowmybecomingamotherwouldonlyhaveprovedtobeanaggravationofmyhardlot。
“ThesortofemploymentIwantedwasnottobegotinaday。GoodMr。Bapchildgavemeacharacter;andourlandlord,aworthymanbelonging,Iamsorrytosay,tothePopishChurch,spokeformetothestewardofaclub。Still,ittooktimetopersuadepeoplethatIwasthethoroughgoodcookIclaimedtobe。NighonafortnighthadpassedbeforeIgotthechanceIhadbeenlookingoutfor。Iwenthomeingoodspiritsformetoreportwhathadhappened,andfoundthebrokersinthehousecarryingoffthefurniturewhichIhadboughtwithmyownmoneyforsalebyauction。Iaskedthemhowtheydaredtouchitwithoutmyleave。
Theyanswered,civillyenoughImustown,thattheywereactingundermyhusband’sorders;andtheywentonremovingitbeforemyowneyes,tothecartoutside。Iranupstairs,andfoundmyhusbandonthelanding。Hewasinliquoragain。Itisuselesstosaywhatpassedbetweenus。Ishallonlymentionthatthiswasthefirstoccasiononwhichheliftedhisfist,andstruckme。
“Havingaspiritofmyown,Iwasresolvednottoendureit。I
ranouttothePoliceCourt,hardby。
“Mymoneyhadnotonlyboughtthefurniture——ithadkeptthehousegoingaswell;payingthetaxeswhichtheQueenandtheParliamentaskedforamongotherthings。InowwenttothemagistratetoseewhattheQueenandtheParliament,inreturnforthetaxes,woulddofor_me。_
“’Isyourfurnituresettledonyourself?’hesays,whenItoldhimwhathadhappened。
“Ididn’tunderstandwhathemeant。Heturnedtosomepersonwhowassittingonthebenchwithhim。’Thisisahardcase,’hesays。’Poorpeopleinthisconditionoflifedon’tevenknowwhatamarriagesettlementmeans。And,iftheydid,howmanyofthemcouldaffordtopaythelawyer’scharges?’Uponthatheturnedtome。’Yoursisacommoncase,’hesaid。’InthepresentstateofthelawIcandonothingforyou。’
“Itwasimpossibletobelievethat。Commonornot,Iputmycasetohimoveragain。
“’Ihaveboughtthefurniturewithmyownmoney,Sir,’Isays。
’It’smine,honestlycomeby,withbillandreceipttoproveit。
Theyaretakingitawayfrommebyforce,tosellitagainstmywill。Don’ttellmethat’sthelaw。ThisisaChristiancountry。
Itcan’tbe。’
“’Mygoodcreature,’sayshe,’youareamarriedwoman。Thelawdoesn’tallowamarriedwomantocallanythingherown——unlessshehaspreviouslywithalawyer’shelpmadeabargaintothateffectwithherhusbandbeforemarryinghim。Youhavemadenobargain。Yourhusbandhasarighttosellyourfurnitureifhelikes。Iamsorryforyou;Ican’thinderhim。’
“Iwasobstinateaboutit。’Pleasetoanswermethis,Sir,’I
says。’I’vebeentoldbywiserheadsthanminethatweallpayourtaxestokeeptheQueenandtheParliamentgoing;andthattheQueenandtheParliamentmakelawstoprotectusinreturn。I
havepaidmytaxes。Why,ifyouplease,istherenolawtoprotectmeinreturn?’
“’Ican’tenterintothat,’sayshe。’ImusttakethelawasI
findit;andsomustyou。Iseeamarkthereonthesideofyourface。Hasyourhusbandbeenbeatingyou?Ifhehas,summonhimhereIcanpunishhimfor_that。_’
“’Howcanyoupunishhim,Sir?’saysI。
“’Icanfinehim,’sayshe。’OrIcansendhimtoprison。’
“’Astothefine,’saysI,’hecanpaythatoutofthemoneyhegetsbysellingmyfurniture。Astotheprison,whilehe’sinit,what’stobecomeofme,withmymoneyspentbyhim,andmypossessionsgone;andwhenhe’s_out_ofit,what’stobecomeofmeagain,withahusbandwhomIhavebeenthemeansofpunishing,andwhocomeshometohiswifeknowingit?It’sbadenoughasitis,Sir,’saysI。’There’smorethat’sbruisedinmethanwhatshowsinmyface。Iwishyougood-morning。’
“WhenIgotbackthefurniturewasgone,andmyhusbandwasgone。
Therewasnobodybutthelandlordintheemptyhouse。Hesaidallthatcouldbesaid——kindlyenoughtowardme,sofarasIwasconcerned。WhenhewasgoneIlockedmytrunk,andgotawayinacabafterdark,andfoundalodgingtolaymyheadin。Ifevertherewasalonely,broken-heartedcreatureintheworld,Iwasthatcreaturethatnight。
“Therewasbutonechanceofearningmybread——togototheemploymentofferedmeunderamancook,ataclub。Andtherewasbutonehope——thehopethatIhadlostsightofmyhusbandforever。
“Iwenttomywork——andprosperedinit——andearnedmyfirstquarter’swages。Butit’snotgoodforawomantobesituatedasIwas;friendlessandalone,withherthingsthatshetookaprideinsoldawayfromher,andwithnothingtolookforwardtoinherlifetocome。Iwasregularinmyattendanceatchapel;
butIthinkmyheartbegantogethardened,andmymindtobeovercastinsecretwithitsownthoughtsaboutthistime。Therewasachangecoming。TwoorthreedaysafterIhadearnedthewagesjustmentionedmyhusbandfoundmeout。Thefurniture-moneywasallspent。Hemadeadisturbanceattheclub,IwasonlyabletoquiethimbygivinghimallthemoneyIcouldsparefrommyownnecessities。Thescandalwasbroughtbeforethecommittee。
Theysaid,ifthecircumstanceoccurredagain,theyshouldbeobligedtopartwithme。Inafortnightthecircumstanceoccurredagain。It’suselesstodwellonit。Theyallsaidtheyweresorryforme。Ilosttheplace。Myhusbandwentbackwithmetomylodgings。ThenextmorningIcaughthimtakingmypurse,withthefewshillingsIhadinit,outofmytrunk,whichhehadbrokenopen。Wequarreled。Andhestruckmeagain——thistimeknockingmedown。