“HewasonceortwicecrosswithmewhenIsaiditseemedapitytobespendingthemoneyinthebankwhichmightbeafterwardwantedinsteadofearningmoreinbusiness。GoodMr。Bapchild,happeningaboutthistimetobeinLondon,staidoverSunday,andcametodinewithusbetweentheservices。Hehadtriedtomakemypeacewithmyrelations——buthehadnotsucceeded。Atmyrequesthespoketomyhusbandaboutthenecessityofexertinghimself。Myhusbandtookitill。Ithensawhimseriouslyoutoftemperforthefirsttime。GoodMr。Bapchildsaidnomore。Heappearedtobealarmedatwhathadhappened,andhetookhisleaveearly。
  “Shortlyafterwardmyhusbandwentout。Igotteareadyforhim——buthenevercameback。Igotsupperreadyforhim——buthenevercameback。ItwaspasttwelveatnightbeforeIsawhimagain。Iwasverymuchstartledbythestatehecamehomein。Hedidn’tspeaklikehimself,orlooklikehimself:hedidn’tseemtoknowme——wanderedinhismind,andfellallinalumplikeonourbed。Iranoutandfetchedthedoctortohim。
  “Thedoctorpulledhimuptothelight,andlookedathim;
  smelledhisbreath,anddroppedhimdownagainonthebed;turnedabout,andstaredatme。’What’sthematter,Sir?’Isays。’Doyoumeantotellmeyoudon’tknow?’saysthedoctor。’No,Sir,’
  saysI。’Whywhatsortofawomanareyou,’sayshe,’nottoknowadrunkenmanwhenyouseehim!’Withthathewentaway,andleftmestandingbythebedside,allinatremblefromheadtofoot。
  “ThiswashowIfirstfoundoutthatIwasthewifeofadrunkenman。
  “Ihaveomittedtosayanythingaboutmyhusband’sfamily。
  “Whilewewerekeepingcompanytogetherhetoldmehewasanorphan——withanuncleandauntinCanada,andanonlybrothersettledinScotland。Beforeweweremarriedhegavemealetterfromthisbrother。ItwastosaythathewassorryhewasnotabletocometoEngland,andbepresentatmymarriage,andtowishmejoyandtherestofit。GoodMr。Bapchildtowhom,inmydistress,Iwrotewordprivatelyofwhathadhappenedwrotebackinreturn,tellingmetowaitalittle,andseewhethermyhusbanddiditagain。
  “Ihadnotlongtowait。Hewasinliquoragainthenextday,andthenext。Hearingthis,Mr。Bapchildinstructedmetosendhimtheletterfrommyhusband’sbrother。HeremindedmeofsomeofthestoriesaboutmyhusbandwhichIhadrefusedtobelieveinthetimebeforeIwasmarried;andhesaiditmightbewelltomakeinquiries。
  “Theendoftheinquirieswasthis。Thebrother,atthatverytime,wasplacedprivatelybyhisownrequestunderadoctor’scaretogetbrokenofhabitsofdrinking。Thecravingforstrongliquorthedoctorwrotewasinthefamily。Theywouldbesobersometimesformonthstogether,drinkingnothingstrongerthantea。Thenthefitwouldseizethem;andtheywoulddrink,drink,drink,fordaystogether,likethemadandmiserablewretchesthattheywere。
  “ThiswasthehusbandIwasmarriedto。AndIhadoffendedallmyrelations,andestrangedthemfromme,forhissake。Herewassurelyasadprospectforawomanafteronlyafewmonthsofweddedlife!
  “Inayear’stimethemoneyinthebankwasgone;andmyhusbandwasoutofemployment。Healwaysgotwork——beingafirst-ratehandwhenhewassober——andalwayslostitagainwhenthedrinking-fitseizedhim。Iwaslothtoleaveournicelittlehouse,andpartwithmyprettyfurniture;andIproposedtohimtoletmetryforemployment,bytheday,ascook,andsokeepthingsgoingwhilehewaslookingoutagainforwork。Hewassoberandpenitentatthetime;andheagreedtowhatIproposed。
  And,morethanthat,hetooktheTotalAbstinencePledge,andpromisedtoturnoveranewleaf。Matters,asIthought,begantolookfairlyagain。Wehadnobodybutourtwoselvestothinkof。
  Ihadbornenochild,andhadnoprospectofbearingone。Unlikemostwomen,Ithoughtthisamercyinsteadofamisfortune。InmysituationasIsoongrewtoknowmybecomingamotherwouldonlyhaveprovedtobeanaggravationofmyhardlot。
  “ThesortofemploymentIwantedwasnottobegotinaday。GoodMr。Bapchildgavemeacharacter;andourlandlord,aworthymanbelonging,Iamsorrytosay,tothePopishChurch,spokeformetothestewardofaclub。Still,ittooktimetopersuadepeoplethatIwasthethoroughgoodcookIclaimedtobe。NighonafortnighthadpassedbeforeIgotthechanceIhadbeenlookingoutfor。Iwenthomeingoodspiritsformetoreportwhathadhappened,andfoundthebrokersinthehousecarryingoffthefurniturewhichIhadboughtwithmyownmoneyforsalebyauction。Iaskedthemhowtheydaredtouchitwithoutmyleave。
  Theyanswered,civillyenoughImustown,thattheywereactingundermyhusband’sorders;andtheywentonremovingitbeforemyowneyes,tothecartoutside。Iranupstairs,andfoundmyhusbandonthelanding。Hewasinliquoragain。Itisuselesstosaywhatpassedbetweenus。Ishallonlymentionthatthiswasthefirstoccasiononwhichheliftedhisfist,andstruckme。
  “Havingaspiritofmyown,Iwasresolvednottoendureit。I
  ranouttothePoliceCourt,hardby。
  “Mymoneyhadnotonlyboughtthefurniture——ithadkeptthehousegoingaswell;payingthetaxeswhichtheQueenandtheParliamentaskedforamongotherthings。InowwenttothemagistratetoseewhattheQueenandtheParliament,inreturnforthetaxes,woulddofor_me。_
  “’Isyourfurnituresettledonyourself?’hesays,whenItoldhimwhathadhappened。
  “Ididn’tunderstandwhathemeant。Heturnedtosomepersonwhowassittingonthebenchwithhim。’Thisisahardcase,’hesays。’Poorpeopleinthisconditionoflifedon’tevenknowwhatamarriagesettlementmeans。And,iftheydid,howmanyofthemcouldaffordtopaythelawyer’scharges?’Uponthatheturnedtome。’Yoursisacommoncase,’hesaid。’InthepresentstateofthelawIcandonothingforyou。’
  “Itwasimpossibletobelievethat。Commonornot,Iputmycasetohimoveragain。
  “’Ihaveboughtthefurniturewithmyownmoney,Sir,’Isays。
  ’It’smine,honestlycomeby,withbillandreceipttoproveit。
  Theyaretakingitawayfrommebyforce,tosellitagainstmywill。Don’ttellmethat’sthelaw。ThisisaChristiancountry。
  Itcan’tbe。’
  “’Mygoodcreature,’sayshe,’youareamarriedwoman。Thelawdoesn’tallowamarriedwomantocallanythingherown——unlessshehaspreviouslywithalawyer’shelpmadeabargaintothateffectwithherhusbandbeforemarryinghim。Youhavemadenobargain。Yourhusbandhasarighttosellyourfurnitureifhelikes。Iamsorryforyou;Ican’thinderhim。’
  “Iwasobstinateaboutit。’Pleasetoanswermethis,Sir,’I
  says。’I’vebeentoldbywiserheadsthanminethatweallpayourtaxestokeeptheQueenandtheParliamentgoing;andthattheQueenandtheParliamentmakelawstoprotectusinreturn。I
  havepaidmytaxes。Why,ifyouplease,istherenolawtoprotectmeinreturn?’
  “’Ican’tenterintothat,’sayshe。’ImusttakethelawasI
  findit;andsomustyou。Iseeamarkthereonthesideofyourface。Hasyourhusbandbeenbeatingyou?Ifhehas,summonhimhereIcanpunishhimfor_that。_’
  “’Howcanyoupunishhim,Sir?’saysI。
  “’Icanfinehim,’sayshe。’OrIcansendhimtoprison。’
  “’Astothefine,’saysI,’hecanpaythatoutofthemoneyhegetsbysellingmyfurniture。Astotheprison,whilehe’sinit,what’stobecomeofme,withmymoneyspentbyhim,andmypossessionsgone;andwhenhe’s_out_ofit,what’stobecomeofmeagain,withahusbandwhomIhavebeenthemeansofpunishing,andwhocomeshometohiswifeknowingit?It’sbadenoughasitis,Sir,’saysI。’There’smorethat’sbruisedinmethanwhatshowsinmyface。Iwishyougood-morning。’
  “WhenIgotbackthefurniturewasgone,andmyhusbandwasgone。
  Therewasnobodybutthelandlordintheemptyhouse。Hesaidallthatcouldbesaid——kindlyenoughtowardme,sofarasIwasconcerned。WhenhewasgoneIlockedmytrunk,andgotawayinacabafterdark,andfoundalodgingtolaymyheadin。Ifevertherewasalonely,broken-heartedcreatureintheworld,Iwasthatcreaturethatnight。
  “Therewasbutonechanceofearningmybread——togototheemploymentofferedmeunderamancook,ataclub。Andtherewasbutonehope——thehopethatIhadlostsightofmyhusbandforever。
  “Iwenttomywork——andprosperedinit——andearnedmyfirstquarter’swages。Butit’snotgoodforawomantobesituatedasIwas;friendlessandalone,withherthingsthatshetookaprideinsoldawayfromher,andwithnothingtolookforwardtoinherlifetocome。Iwasregularinmyattendanceatchapel;
  butIthinkmyheartbegantogethardened,andmymindtobeovercastinsecretwithitsownthoughtsaboutthistime。Therewasachangecoming。TwoorthreedaysafterIhadearnedthewagesjustmentionedmyhusbandfoundmeout。Thefurniture-moneywasallspent。Hemadeadisturbanceattheclub,IwasonlyabletoquiethimbygivinghimallthemoneyIcouldsparefrommyownnecessities。Thescandalwasbroughtbeforethecommittee。
  Theysaid,ifthecircumstanceoccurredagain,theyshouldbeobligedtopartwithme。Inafortnightthecircumstanceoccurredagain。It’suselesstodwellonit。Theyallsaidtheyweresorryforme。Ilosttheplace。Myhusbandwentbackwithmetomylodgings。ThenextmorningIcaughthimtakingmypurse,withthefewshillingsIhadinit,outofmytrunk,whichhehadbrokenopen。Wequarreled。Andhestruckmeagain——thistimeknockingmedown。