“Therestofthishistoryiscountedinmymindbyfourdays——Wednesday,Thursday,Friday,Saturday。Afterthatitallfadesofflike,andthenewyearscomewithastrangelook,beingtheyearsofanewlife。
  “Whatabouttheoldlifefirst?WhatdidIfeel,inthehorridquietofthemorning,whenIhaddoneit?
  “Idon’tknowwhatIfelt。Ican’trememberit,orIcan’ttellit,Idon’tknowwhich。Icanwritethehistoryofthefourdays,andthat’sall。
  “Wednesday——Igavethealarmtowardnoon。Hoursbefore,Ihadputthingsstraightandfittobeseen。Ihadonlytocallforhelp,andtoleavethepeopletodoastheypleased。Theneighborscamein,andthenthepolice。Theyknocked,uselessly,athisdoor。Thentheybrokeitopen,andfoundhimdeadinhisbed。
  “Nottheghostofasuspicionofmeenteredthemindofanyone。
  Therewasnofearofhumanjusticefindingmeout:myoneunutterabledreadwasdreadofanAvengingProvidence。
  Ihadashortsleepthatnight,andadream,inwhichIdidthedeedoveragain。Foratimemymindwasbusywiththoughtsofconfessingtothepolice,andofgivingmyselfup。IfIhadnotbelongedtoarespectablefamily,Ishouldhavedoneit。Fromgenerationtogenerationtherehadbeennostainonourgoodname。Itwouldbedeathtomyfather,anddisgracetoallmyfamily,ifIownedwhatIhaddone,andsufferedforitonthepublicscaffold。Iprayedtobeguided;andIhadarevelation,towardmorning,ofwhattodo。
  “Iwascommanded,inavision,toopentheBible,andvowonittosetmyguiltyselfapartamongmyinnocentfellow-creaturesfromthatdayforth;toliveamongthemaseparateandsilentlife,todedicatetheuseofmyspeechtothelanguageofprayeronly,offeredupinthesolitudeofmyownchamberwhennohumanearcouldhearme。Alone,inthemorning,Isawthevision,andvowedthevow。Nohumanear_has_heardmefromthattime。Nohumanear_will_hearme,tothedayofmydeath。
  “Thursday——Thepeoplecametospeaktome,asusual。Theyfoundmedumb。
  “Whathadhappenedtomeinthepast,whenmyheadhadbeenhurt,andmyspeechaffectedbyit,gavealikelierlooktomydumbnessthanitmighthaveborneinthecaseofanotherperson。Theytookmebackagaintothehospital。Thedoctorsweredividedinopinion。Somesaidtheshockofwhathadtakenplaceinthehouse,comingonthebackoftheothershock,might,foralltheyknew,havedonethemischief。Andotherssaid,’Shegotherspeechagainaftertheaccident;therehasbeennonewinjurysincethattime;thewomanisshammingdumb,forsomepurposeofherown。’Iletthemdisputeitastheyliked。Allhumantalkwasnothingnowtome。Ihadsetmyselfapartamongmyfellow-creatures;Ihadbegunmyseparateandsilentlife。
  “Throughallthistimethesenseofacomingpunishmenthangingovermeneverleftmymind。Ihadnothingtodreadfromhumanjustice。ThejudgmentofanAvengingProvidence——therewaswhatI
  waswaitingfor。
  “Friday——Theyheldtheinquest。Hehadbeenknownforyearspastasaninveteratedrunkard,hehadbeenseenovernightgoinghomeinliquor;hehadbeenfoundlockedupinhisroom,withthekeyinsidethedoor,andthelatchofthewindowboltedalso。Nofire-placewasinthisgarret;nothingwasdisturbedoraltered:
  nobodybyhumanpossibilitycouldhavegotin。Thedoctorreportedthathehaddiedofcongestionofthelungs;andthejurygavetheirverdictaccordingly。
  “Saturday——Markedforeverinmycalendarasthememorabledayonwhichthejudgmentdescendedonme。Towardthreeo’clockintheafternoon——inthebroadsunlight,underthecloudlesssky,withhundredsofinnocenthumancreaturesallaroundme——I,HesterDethridge,saw,forthefirsttime,theAppearancewhichisappointedtohauntmefortherestofmylife。
  “Ihadhadaterriblenight。MymindfeltmuchasithadfeltontheeveningwhenIhadgonetotheplay。Iwentouttoseewhattheairandthesunshineandthecoolgreenoftreesandgrasswoulddoforme。ThenearestplaceinwhichIcouldfindwhatI
  wantedwastheRegent’sPark。Iwentintooneofthequietwalksinthemiddleofthepark,wherethehorsesandcarriagesarenotallowedtogo,andwhereoldpeoplecansunthemselves,andchildrenplay,withoutdanger。
  “Isatmedowntorestonabench。Amongthechildrennearmewasabeautifullittleboy,playingwithabrand-newtoy——ahorseandwagon。WhileIwaswatchinghimbusilypluckingupthebladesofgrassandloadinghiswagonwiththem,Ifeltforthefirsttime——whatIhaveoftenandoftenfeltsince——acreepingchillcomeslowlyovermyflesh,andthenasuspicionofsomethinghiddennearme,whichwouldstealoutandshowitselfifIlookedthatway。
  “Therewasabigtreehardby。Ilookedtowardthetree,andwaitedtoseethesomethinghiddenappearfrombehindit。
  “TheThingstoleout,darkandshadowyinthepleasantsunlight。
  AtfirstIsawonlythedimfigureofawoman。Afteralittleitbegantogetplainer,brighteningfromwithinoutward——brightening,brightening,brightening,tillitsetbeforemethevisionofMYOWNSELF,repeatedasifIwasstandingbeforeaglass——thedoubleofmyself,lookingatmewithmyowneyes。Isawitmoveoverthegrass。Isawitstopbehindthebeautifullittleboy。Isawitstandandlisten,asIhadstoodandlistenedatthedawnofmorning,forthechimingofthebellbeforetheclockstruckthehour。Whenitheardthestrokeitpointeddowntotheboywithmyownhand;anditsaidtome,withmyownvoice,’Killhim。’
  “Atimepassed。Idon’tknowwhetheritwasaminuteoranhour。
  Theheavensandtheearthdisappearedfrombeforeme。Isawnothingbutthedoubleofmyself,withthepointinghand。Ifeltnothingbutthelongingtokilltheboy。
  “Then,asitseemed,theheavensandtheearthrushedbackuponme。Isawthepeoplenearstaringinsurpriseatme,andwonderingifIwasinmyrightmind。
  “Igot,bymainforce,tomyfeet;Ilooked,bymainforce,awayfromthebeautifulboy;Iescaped,bymainforce,fromthesightoftheThing,backintothestreets。Icanonlydescribetheoverpoweringstrengthofthetemptationthattriedmeinoneway。
  Itwasliketearingthelifeoutofmetotearmyselffromkillingtheboy。Andwhatitwasonthisoccasionithasbeeneversince。Noremedyagainstitbutinthattorturingeffort,andnoquenchingtheafter-agonybutbysolitudeandprayer。
  “Thesenseofacomingpunishmenthadhungoverme。Andthepunishmenthadcome。IhadwaitedforthejudgmentofanAvengingProvidence。Andthejudgmentwaspronounced。WithpiousDavidI
  couldnowsay,Thyfiercewrathgoethoverme;thyterrorshavecutmeoff。“
  Arrivedatthatpointinthenarrative,Geoffreylookedupfromthemanuscriptforthefirsttime。Somesoundoutsidetheroomhaddisturbedhim。Wasitasoundinthepassage?
  Helistened。Therewasanintervalofsilence。HelookedbackagainattheConfession,turningoverthelastleavestocounthowmuchwasleftofitbeforeitcametoanend。
  Afterrelatingthecircumstancesunderwhichthewriterhadreturnedtodomesticservice,thenarrativewasresumednomore。
  Itsfewremainingpageswereoccupiedbyafragmentaryjournal。
  ThebriefentriesreferredtothevariousoccasionsonwhichHesterDethridgehadagainandagainseentheterribleapparitionofherself,andhadagainandagainresistedthehomicidalfrenzyrousedinherbythehideouscreationofherowndistemperedbrain。Intheeffortwhichthatresistancecostherlaythesecretofherobstinatedeterminationtoinsistonbeingfreedfromherworkatcertaintimes,andtomakeitaconditionwithanymistresswhoemployedherthatsheshouldbeprivilegedtosleepinaroomofherownatnight。Havingcountedthepagesthusfilled,Geoffreyturnedbacktotheplaceatwhichhehadleftoff,toreadthemanuscriptthroughtotheend。
  Ashiseyesrestedonthefirstlinethenoiseinthepassage——intermittedforamomentonly——disturbedhimagain。
  Thistimetherewasnodoubtofwhatthesoundimplied。Heheardherhurriedfootsteps;heheardherdreadfulcry。HesterDethridgehadwokeinherchairinthepallor,andhaddiscoveredthattheConfessionwasnolongerinherownhands。
  Heputthemanuscriptintothebreast-pocketofhiscoat。On_this_occasionhisreadinghadbeenofsomeusetohim。Needlesstogoonfurtherwithit。NeedlesstoreturntotheNewgateCalendar。Theproblemwassolved。
  Asherosetohisfeethisheavyfacebrightenedslowlywithaterriblesmile。Whilethewoman’sConfessionwasinhispocketthewomanherselfwasinhispower。“Ifshewantsitback,“hesaid,“shemustgetitonmyterms。“Withthatresolution,heopenedthedoor,andmetHesterDethridge,facetoface,inthepassage。