Whatevermightbeitseffect,however,shemuststandthebruntofitagainthatveryday。
Thefirstregularrehearsalofthethreefirstactswascertainlytotakeplaceintheevening:Mrs。GrantandtheCrawfordswereengagedtoreturnforthatpurposeassoonastheycouldafterdinner;andeveryoneconcernedwaslookingforwardwitheagerness。Thereseemedageneraldiffusionofcheerfulnessontheoccasion。
Tomwasenjoyingsuchanadvancetowardstheend;
Edmundwasinspiritsfromthemorning’srehearsal,andlittlevexationsseemedeverywheresmoothedaway。
Allwerealertandimpatient;theladiesmovedsoon,thegentlemensoonfollowedthem,andwiththeexceptionofLadyBertram,Mrs。Norris,andJulia,everybodywasinthetheatreatanearlyhour;andhavinglighteditupaswellasitsunfinishedstateadmitted,werewaitingonlythearrivalofMrs。GrantandtheCrawfordstobegin。
TheydidnotwaitlongfortheCrawfords,buttherewasnoMrs。Grant。Shecouldnotcome。Dr。Grant,professinganindisposition,forwhichhehadlittlecreditwithhisfairsister-in-law,couldnotsparehiswife。
“Dr。Grantisill,“saidshe,withmocksolemnity。
“Hehasbeenilleversincehedidnoteatanyofthepheasanttoday。Hefanciedittough,sentawayhisplate,andhasbeensufferingeversince“。
Herewasdisappointment!Mrs。Grant’snon-attendancewassadindeed。Herpleasantmannersandcheerfulconformitymadeheralwaysvaluableamongstthem;
but_now_shewasabsolutelynecessary。Theycouldnotact,theycouldnotrehearsewithanysatisfactionwithouther。
Thecomfortofthewholeeveningwasdestroyed。
Whatwastobedone?Tom,asCottager,wasindespair。
Afterapauseofperplexity,someeyesbegantobeturnedtowardsFanny,andavoiceortwotosay,“IfMissPricewouldbesogoodasto_read_thepart。“
Shewasimmediatelysurroundedbysupplications;
everybodyaskedit;evenEdmundsaid,“Do,Fanny,ifitisnot_very_disagreeabletoyou。“
ButFannystillhungback。Shecouldnotenduretheideaofit。WhywasnotMissCrawfordtobeappliedtoaswell?
Orwhyhadnotsherathergonetoherownroom,asshehadfelttobesafest,insteadofattendingtherehearsalatall?Shehadknownitwouldirritateanddistressher;shehadknownitherdutytokeepaway。
Shewasproperlypunished。
“Youhaveonlyto_read_thepart,“saidHenryCrawford,withrenewedentreaty。
“AndIdobelieveshecansayeverywordofit,“
addedMaria,“forshecouldputMrs。Grantrighttheotherdayintwentyplaces。Fanny,Iamsureyouknowthepart。“
Fannycouldnotsayshedid_not_;andastheyallpersevered,asEdmundrepeatedhiswish,andwithalookofevenfonddependenceonhergood-nature,shemustyield。
Shewoulddoherbest。Everybodywassatisfied;andshewaslefttothetremorsofamostpalpitatingheart,whiletheotherspreparedtobegin。
They_did_begin;andbeingtoomuchengagedintheirownnoisetobestruckbyanunusualnoiseintheotherpartofthehouse,hadproceededsomewaywhenthedooroftheroomwasthrownopen,andJulia,appearingatit,withafaceallaghast,exclaimed,“Myfatheriscome!
Heisinthehallatthismoment。“
Howistheconsternationofthepartytobedescribed?
Tothegreaternumberitwasamomentofabsolutehorror。
SirThomasinthehouse!Allfelttheinstantaneousconviction。
Notahopeofimpositionormistakewasharbouredanywhere。
Julia’slookswereanevidenceofthefactthatmadeitindisputable;andafterthefirststartsandexclamations,notawordwasspokenforhalfaminute:eachwithanalteredcountenancewaslookingatsomeother,andalmosteachwasfeelingitastrokethemostunwelcome,mostill-timed,mostappalling!Mr。Yatesmightconsideritonlyasavexatiousinterruptionfortheevening,andMr。Rushworthmightimagineitablessing;buteveryotherheartwassinkingundersomedegreeofself-condemnationorundefinedalarm,everyotherheartwassuggesting,“Whatwillbecomeofus?whatistobedonenow?“
Itwasaterriblepause;andterribletoeveryearwerethecorroboratingsoundsofopeningdoorsandpassingfootsteps。
Juliawasthefirsttomoveandspeakagain。Jealousyandbitternesshadbeensuspended:selfishnesswaslostinthecommoncause;butatthemomentofherappearance,FrederickwaslisteningwithlooksofdevotiontoAgatha’snarrative,andpressingherhandtohisheart;
andassoonasshecouldnoticethis,andseethat,inspiteoftheshockofherwords,hestillkepthisstationandretainedhersister’shand,herwoundedheartswelledagainwithinjury,andlookingasredasshehadbeenwhitebefore,sheturnedoutoftheroom,saying,“_I_neednotbeafraidofappearingbeforehim。“
Hergoingrousedtherest;andatthesamemomentthetwobrotherssteppedforward,feelingthenecessityofdoingsomething。Averyfewwordsbetweenthemweresufficient。Thecaseadmittednodifferenceofopinion:theymustgotothedrawing-roomdirectly。
Mariajoinedthemwiththesameintent,justthenthestoutestofthethree;fortheverycircumstancewhichhaddrivenJuliaawaywastoherthesweetestsupport。
HenryCrawford’sretainingherhandatsuchamoment,amomentofsuchpeculiarproofandimportance,wasworthagesofdoubtandanxiety。Shehaileditasanearnestofthemostseriousdetermination,andwasequaleventoencounterherfather。Theywalkedoff,utterlyheedlessofMr。Rushworth’srepeatedquestionof,“ShallIgotoo?HadnotIbettergotoo?Willnotitberightformetogotoo?“buttheywerenosoonerthroughthedoorthanHenryCrawfordundertooktoanswertheanxiousinquiry,and,encouraginghimbyallmeanstopayhisrespectstoSirThomaswithoutdelay,senthimaftertheotherswithdelightedhaste。
FannywasleftwithonlytheCrawfordsandMr。Yates。
Shehadbeenquiteoverlookedbyhercousins;andasherownopinionofherclaimsonSirThomas’saffectionwasmuchtoohumbletogiveheranyideaofclassingherselfwithhischildren,shewasgladtoremainbehindandgainalittlebreathing-time。Heragitationandalarmexceededallthatwasenduredbytherest,bytherightofadispositionwhichnoteveninnocencecouldkeepfromsuffering。Shewasnearlyfainting:
allherformerhabitualdreadofherunclewasreturning,andwithitcompassionforhimandforalmosteveryoneofthepartyonthedevelopmentbeforehim,withsolicitudeonEdmund’saccountindescribable。Shehadfoundaseat,whereinexcessivetremblingshewasenduringallthesefearfulthoughts,whiletheotherthree,nolongerunderanyrestraint,weregivingventtotheirfeelingsofvexation,lamentingoversuchanunlooked-forprematurearrivalasamostuntowardevent,andwithoutmercywishingpoorSirThomashadbeentwiceaslongonhispassage,orwerestillinAntigua。
TheCrawfordsweremorewarmonthesubjectthanMr。Yates,frombetterunderstandingthefamily,andjudgingmoreclearlyofthemischiefthatmustensue。Theruinoftheplaywastothemacertainty:theyfeltthetotaldestructionoftheschemetobeinevitablyathand;
whileMr。Yatesconsidereditonlyasatemporaryinterruption,adisasterfortheevening,andcouldevensuggestthepossibilityoftherehearsalbeingrenewedaftertea,whenthebustleofreceivingSirThomaswereover,andhemightbeatleisuretobeamusedbyit。
TheCrawfordslaughedattheidea;andhavingsoonagreedontheproprietyoftheirwalkingquietlyhomeandleavingthefamilytothemselves,proposedMr。Yates’saccompanyingthemandspendingtheeveningattheParsonage。
ButMr。Yates,havingneverbeenwiththosewhothoughtmuchofparentalclaims,orfamilyconfidence,couldnotperceivethatanythingofthekindwasnecessary;andtherefore,thankingthem,said,“hepreferredremainingwherehewas,thathemightpayhisrespectstotheoldgentlemanhandsomelysincehe_was_come;andbesides,hedidnotthinkitwouldbefairbytheotherstohaveeverybodyrunaway。“
Fannywasjustbeginningtocollectherself,andtofeelthatifshestaidlongerbehinditmightseemdisrespectful,whenthispointwassettled,andbeingcommissionedwiththebrotherandsister’sapology,sawthempreparingtogoasshequittedtheroomherselftoperformthedreadfuldutyofappearingbeforeheruncle。
Toosoondidshefindherselfatthedrawing-roomdoor;
andafterpausingamomentforwhatsheknewwouldnotcome,foracouragewhichtheoutsideofnodoorhadeversuppliedtoher,sheturnedthelockindesperation,andthelightsofthedrawing-room,andallthecollectedfamily,werebeforeher。Assheentered,herownnamecaughtherear。SirThomaswasatthatmomentlookingroundhim,andsaying,“ButwhereisFanny?WhydonotIseemylittleFanny?“——andonperceivingher,cameforwardwithakindnesswhichastonishedandpenetratedher,callingherhisdearFanny,kissingheraffectionately,andobservingwithdecidedpleasurehowmuchshewasgrown!
Fannyknewnothowtofeel,norwheretolook。Shewasquiteoppressed。Hehadneverbeensokind,so_very_
kindtoherinhislife。Hismannerseemedchanged,hisvoicewasquickfromtheagitationofjoy;andallthathadbeenawfulinhisdignityseemedlostintenderness。
Heledhernearerthelightandlookedatheragain——
inquiredparticularlyafterherhealth,andthen,correctinghimself,observedthatheneednotinquire,forherappearancespokesufficientlyonthatpoint。Afineblushhavingsucceededthepreviouspalenessofherface,hewasjustifiedinhisbeliefofherequalimprovementinhealthandbeauty。Heinquirednextafterherfamily,especiallyWilliam:andhiskindnessaltogetherwassuchasmadeherreproachherselfforlovinghimsolittle,andthinkinghisreturnamisfortune;andwhen,onhavingcouragetolifthereyestohisface,shesawthathewasgrownthinner,andhadtheburnt,fagged,wornlookoffatigueandahotclimate,everytenderfeelingwasincreased,andshewasmiserableinconsideringhowmuchunsuspectedvexationwasprobablyreadytoburstonhim。