Oh,Mr。Crawford,weareinfinitelyobligedtoyou!
  Dearest,dearestWilliam!“Shejumpedupandmovedinhastetowardsthedoor,cryingout,“Iwillgotomyuncle。
  Myuncleoughttoknowitassoonaspossible。“Butthiscouldnotbesuffered。Theopportunitywastoofair,andhisfeelingstooimpatient。Hewasafterherimmediately。
  “Shemustnotgo,shemustallowhimfiveminuteslonger,“
  andhetookherhandandledherbacktoherseat,andwasinthemiddleofhisfartherexplanation,beforeshehadsuspectedforwhatshewasdetained。
  Whenshedidunderstandit,however,andfoundherselfexpectedtobelievethatshehadcreatedsensationswhichhishearthadneverknownbefore,andthateverythinghehaddoneforWilliamwastobeplacedtotheaccountofhisexcessiveandunequalledattachmenttoher,shewasexceedinglydistressed,andforsomemomentsunabletospeak。Sheconsidereditallasnonsense,asmeretriflingandgallantry,whichmeantonlytodeceiveforthehour;shecouldnotbutfeelthatitwastreatingherimproperlyandunworthily,andinsuchawayasshehadnotdeserved;butitwaslikehimself,andentirelyofapiecewithwhatshehadseenbefore;andshewouldnotallowherselftoshewhalfthedispleasureshefelt,becausehehadbeenconferringanobligation,whichnowantofdelicacyonhispartcouldmakeatrifletoher。
  WhileherheartwasstillboundingwithjoyandgratitudeonWilliam’sbehalf,shecouldnotbeseverelyresentfulofanythingthatinjuredonlyherself;andafterhavingtwicedrawnbackherhand,andtwiceattemptedinvaintoturnawayfromhim,shegotup,andsaidonly,withmuchagitation,“Don’t,Mr。Crawford,praydon’t!I
  begyouwouldnot。Thisisasortoftalkingwhichisveryunpleasanttome。Imustgoaway。Icannotbearit。“
  Buthewasstilltalkingon,describinghisaffection,solicitingareturn,and,finally,inwordssoplainastobearbutonemeaningeventoher,offeringhimself,hand,fortune,everything,toheracceptance。Itwasso;
  hehadsaidit。Herastonishmentandconfusionincreased;
  andthoughstillnotknowinghowtosupposehimserious,shecouldhardlystand。Hepressedforananswer。
  “No,no,no!“shecried,hidingherface。“Thisisallnonsense。
  Donotdistressme。Icanhearnomoreofthis。
  YourkindnesstoWilliammakesmemoreobligedtoyouthanwordscanexpress;butIdonotwant,Icannotbear,Imustnotlistentosuch——No,no,don’tthinkofme。
  Butyouare_not_thinkingofme。Iknowitisallnothing。“
  Shehadburstawayfromhim,andatthatmomentSirThomaswasheardspeakingtoaservantinhiswaytowardstheroomtheywerein。Itwasnotimeforfartherassurancesorentreaty,thoughtopartwithheratamomentwhenhermodestyaloneseemed,tohissanguineandpreassuredmind,tostandinthewayofthehappinesshesought,wasacruelnecessity。Sherushedoutatanoppositedoorfromtheoneherunclewasapproaching,andwaswalkingupanddowntheEastroomilltheutmostconfusionofcontraryfeeling,beforeSirThomas’spolitenessorapologieswereover,orhehadreachedthebeginningofthejoyfulintelligencewhichhisvisitorcametocommunicate。
  Shewasfeeling,thinking,tremblingabouteverything;
  agitated,happy,miserable,infinitelyobliged,absolutelyangry。Itwasallbeyondbelief!
  Hewasinexcusable,incomprehensible!Butsuchwerehishabitsthathecoulddonothingwithoutamixtureofevil。Hehadpreviouslymadeherthehappiestofhumanbeings,andnowhehadinsulted——sheknewnotwhattosay,howtoclass,orhowtoregardit。
  Shewouldnothavehimbeserious,andyetwhatcouldexcusetheuseofsuchwordsandoffers,iftheymeantbuttotrifle?
  ButWilliamwasalieutenant。_That_wasafactbeyondadoubt,andwithoutanalloy。Shewouldthinkofitforeverandforgetalltherest。Mr。Crawfordwouldcertainlyneveraddresshersoagain:hemusthaveseenhowunwelcomeitwastoher;andinthatcase,howgratefullyshecouldesteemhimforhisfriendshiptoWilliam!
  ShewouldnotstirfartherfromtheEastroomthantheheadofthegreatstaircase,tillshehadsatisfiedherselfofMr。Crawford’shavingleftthehouse;
  butwhenconvincedofhisbeinggone,shewaseagertogodownandbewithheruncle,andhaveallthehappinessofhisjoyaswellasherown,andallthebenefitofhisinformationorhisconjecturesastowhatwouldnowbeWilliam’sdestination。SirThomaswasasjoyfulasshecoulddesire,andverykindandcommunicative;
  andshehadsocomfortableatalkwithhimaboutWilliamastomakeherfeelasifnothinghadoccurredtovexher,tillshefound,towardstheclose,thatMr。Crawfordwasengagedtoreturnanddinetherethatveryday。
  Thiswasamostunwelcomehearing,forthoughhemightthinknothingofwhathadpassed,itwouldbequitedistressingtohertoseehimagainsosoon。
  Shetriedtogetthebetterofit;triedveryhard,asthedinnerhourapproached,tofeelandappearasusual;
  butitwasquiteimpossibleforhernottolookmostshyanduncomfortablewhentheirvisitorenteredtheroom。
  ShecouldnothavesupposeditinthepowerofanyconcurrenceofcircumstancestogivehersomanypainfulsensationsonthefirstdayofhearingofWilliam’spromotion。
  Mr。Crawfordwasnotonlyintheroom——hewassoonclosetoher。Hehadanotetodeliverfromhissister。
  Fannycouldnotlookathim,buttherewasnoconsciousnessofpastfollyinhisvoice。Sheopenedhernoteimmediately,gladtohaveanythingtodo,andhappy,asshereadit,tofeelthatthefidgetingsofherauntNorris,whowasalsotodinethere,screenedheralittlefromview。
  “MydearFanny,——forsoImaynowalwayscallyou,totheinfinitereliefofatonguethathasbeenstumblingat_Miss__Price_foratleastthelastsixweeks——
  Icannotletmybrothergowithoutsendingyouafewlinesofgeneralcongratulation,andgivingmymostjoyfulconsentandapproval。Goon,mydearFanny,andwithoutfear;
  therecanbenodifficultiesworthnaming。Ichusetosupposethattheassuranceofmyconsentwillbesomething;
  soyoumaysmileuponhimwithyoursweetestsmilesthisafternoon,andsendhimbacktomeevenhappierthanhegoes——Yoursaffectionately,M。C。“
  ThesewerenotexpressionstodoFannyanygood;
  forthoughshereadintoomuchhasteandconfusiontoformtheclearestjudgmentofMissCrawford’smeaning,itwasevidentthatshemeanttocomplimentheronherbrother’sattachment,andevento_appear_tobelieveitserious。Shedidnotknowwhattodo,orwhattothink。
  Therewaswretchednessintheideaofitsbeingserious;
  therewasperplexityandagitationeveryway。
  ShewasdistressedwheneverMr。Crawfordspoketoher,andhespoketohermuchtoooften;andshewasafraidtherewasasomethinginhisvoiceandmannerinaddressingherverydifferentfromwhattheywerewhenhetalkedtotheothers。Hercomfortinthatday’sdinnerwasquitedestroyed:shecouldhardlyeatanything;
  andwhenSirThomasgood-humouredlyobservedthatjoyhadtakenawayherappetite,shewasreadytosinkwithshame,fromthedreadofMr。Crawford’sinterpretation;
  forthoughnothingcouldhavetemptedhertoturnhereyestotherighthand,wherehesat,shefeltthat_his_
  wereimmediatelydirectedtowardsher。
  Shewasmoresilentthanever。ShewouldhardlyjoinevenwhenWilliamwasthesubject,forhiscommissioncameallfromtherighthandtoo,andtherewaspainintheconnexion。
  ShethoughtLadyBertramsatlongerthanever,andbegantobeindespairofevergettingaway;butatlasttheywereinthedrawing-room,andshewasabletothinkasshewould,whileherauntsfinishedthesubjectofWilliam’sappointmentintheirownstyle。
  Mrs。NorrisseemedasmuchdelightedwiththesavingitwouldbetoSirThomasaswithanypartofit。
  “_Now_Williamwouldbeabletokeephimself,whichwouldmakeavastdifferencetohisuncle,foritwasunknownhowmuchhehadcosthisuncle;and,indeed,itwouldmakesomedifferencein_her_presentstoo。ShewasverygladthatshehadgivenWilliamwhatshedidatparting,veryglad,indeed,thatithadbeeninherpower,withoutmaterialinconvenience,justatthattimetogivehimsomethingratherconsiderable;thatis,for_her_,with_her_limitedmeans,fornowitwouldallbeusefulinhelpingtofituphiscabin。Sheknewhemustbeatsomeexpense,thathewouldhavemanythingstobuy,thoughtobesurehisfatherandmotherwouldbeabletoputhiminthewayofgettingeverythingverycheap;
  butshewasverygladshehadcontributedhermitetowardsit。“
  “Iamgladyougavehimsomethingconsiderable,“
  saidLadyBertram,withmostunsuspiciouscalmness,“for_I_gavehimonly10。“
  “Indeed!“criedMrs。Norris,reddening。“Uponmyword,hemusthavegoneoffwithhispockets1welllined,andatnoexpenseforhisjourneytoLondoneither!“
  “SirThomastoldme10wouldbeenough。“
  Mrs。Norris,beingnotatallinclinedtoquestionitssufficiency,begantotakethematterinanotherpoint。