Therewas,indeed,sodeepablushoverFanny’sfaceatthatmomentasmightwarrantstrongsuspicioninapredisposedmind。
“Excellentcreature!Iwillnotteaseyou。Everythingshalltakeitscourse。But,dearFanny,youmustallowthatyouwerenotsoabsolutelyunpreparedtohavethequestionaskedasyourcousinfancies。Itisnotpossiblebutthatyoumusthavehadsomethoughtsonthesubject,somesurmisesastowhatmightbe。Youmusthaveseenthathewastryingtopleaseyoubyeveryattentioninhispower。
Wasnothedevotedtoyouattheball?Andthenbeforetheball,thenecklace!Oh!youreceiveditjustasitwasmeant。Youwereasconsciousasheartcoulddesire。
Irememberitperfectly。“
“Doyoumean,then,thatyourbrotherknewofthenecklacebeforehand?Oh!MissCrawford,_that_wasnotfair。“
“Knewofit!Itwashisowndoingentirely,hisownthought。
Iamashamedtosaythatithadneverenteredmyhead,butIwasdelightedtoactonhisproposalforbothyoursakes。“
“Iwillnotsay,“repliedFanny,“thatIwasnothalfafraidatthetimeofitsbeingso,fortherewassomethinginyourlookthatfrightenedme,butnotatfirst;
Iwasasunsuspiciousofitatfirst——indeed,indeedIwas。
ItisastrueasthatIsithere。AndhadIhadanideaofit,nothingshouldhaveinducedmetoacceptthenecklace。
Astoyourbrother’sbehaviour,certainlyIwassensibleofaparticularity:Ihadbeensensibleofitsomelittletime,perhapstwoorthreeweeks;butthenIconsidereditasmeaningnothing:Iputitdownassimplybeinghisway,andwasasfarfromsupposingasfromwishinghimtohaveanyseriousthoughtsofme。Ihadnot,MissCrawford,beenaninattentiveobserverofwhatwaspassingbetweenhimandsomepartofthisfamilyinthesummerandautumn。
Iwasquiet,butIwasnotblind。IcouldnotbutseethatMr。Crawfordallowedhimselfingallantrieswhichdidmeannothing。“
“Ah!Icannotdenyit。Hehasnowandthenbeenasadflirt,andcaredverylittleforthehavochemightbemakinginyoungladies’affections。Ihaveoftenscoldedhimforit,butitishisonlyfault;andthereisthistobesaid,thatveryfewyoungladieshaveanyaffectionsworthcaringfor。Andthen,Fanny,thegloryoffixingonewhohasbeenshotatbysomany;ofhavingitinone’spowertopayoffthedebtsofone’ssex!Oh!Iamsureitisnotinwoman’snaturetorefusesuchatriumph。“
Fannyshookherhead。“Icannotthinkwellofamanwhosportswithanywoman’sfeelings;andtheremayoftenbeagreatdealmoresufferedthanastander-bycanjudgeof。“
“Idonotdefendhim。Ileavehimentirelytoyourmercy,andwhenhehasgotyouatEveringham,Idonotcarehowmuchyoulecturehim。ButthisIwillsay,thathisfault,thelikingtomakegirlsalittleinlovewithhim,isnothalfsodangeroustoawife’shappinessasatendencytofallinlovehimself,whichhehasneverbeenaddictedto。
AndIdoseriouslyandtrulybelievethatheisattachedtoyouinawaythatheneverwastoanywomanbefore;
thathelovesyouwithallhisheart,andwillloveyouasnearlyforeveraspossible。Ifanymaneverlovedawomanforever,IthinkHenrywilldoasmuchforyou。“
Fannycouldnotavoidafaintsmile,buthadnothingtosay。
“IcannotimagineHenryevertohavebeenhappier,“
continuedMarypresently,“thanwhenhehadsucceededingettingyourbrother’scommission。“
ShehadmadeasurepushatFanny’sfeelingshere。
“Oh!yes。Howvery,verykindofhim。“
“Iknowhemusthaveexertedhimselfverymuch,forIknowthepartieshehadtomove。TheAdmiralhatestrouble,andscornsaskingfavours;andtherearesomanyyoungmen’sclaimstobeattendedtointhesameway,thatafriendshipandenergy,notverydetermined,iseasilyputby。WhatahappycreatureWilliammustbe!
Iwishwecouldseehim。“
PoorFanny’smindwasthrownintothemostdistressingofallitsvarieties。TherecollectionofwhathadbeendoneforWilliamwasalwaysthemostpowerfuldisturberofeverydecisionagainstMr。Crawford;
andshesatthinkingdeeplyofittillMary,whohadbeenfirstwatchinghercomplacently,andthenmusingonsomethingelse,suddenlycalledherattentionbysaying:
“Ishouldliketosittalkingwithyouhereallday,butwemustnotforgettheladiesbelow,andsogood-bye,mydear,myamiable,myexcellentFanny,forthoughweshallnominallypartinthebreakfast-parlour,Imusttakeleaveofyouhere。AndIdotakeleave,longingforahappyreunion,andtrustingthatwhenwemeetagain,itwillbeundercircumstanceswhichmayopenourheartstoeachotherwithoutanyremnantorshadowofreserve。“
Avery,verykindembrace,andsomeagitationofmanner,accompaniedthesewords。
“Ishallseeyourcousinintownsoon:hetalksofbeingtheretolerablysoon;andSirThomas,Idaresay,inthecourseofthespring;andyoureldestcousin,andtheRushworths,andJulia,Iamsureofmeetingagainandagain,andallbutyou。Ihavetwofavourstoask,Fanny:oneisyourcorrespondence。Youmustwritetome。
Andtheother,thatyouwilloftencallonMrs。Grant,andmakeheramendsformybeinggone。“
Thefirst,atleast,ofthesefavoursFannywouldrathernothavebeenasked;butitwasimpossibleforhertorefusethecorrespondence;itwasimpossibleforherevennottoaccedetoitmorereadilythanherownjudgmentauthorised。
Therewasnoresistingsomuchapparentaffection。
Herdispositionwaspeculiarlycalculatedtovalueafondtreatment,andfromhavinghithertoknownsolittleofit,shewasthemoreovercomebyMissCrawford’s。Besides,therewasgratitudetowardsher,forhavingmadetheir_tete-a-tete_somuchlesspainfulthanherfearshadpredicted。
Itwasover,andshehadescapedwithoutreproachesandwithoutdetection。Hersecretwasstillherown;
andwhilethatwasthecase,shethoughtshecouldresignherselftoalmosteverything。
Intheeveningtherewasanotherparting。HenryCrawfordcameandsatsometimewiththem;andherspiritsnotbeingpreviouslyinthestrongeststate,herheartwassoftenedforawhiletowardshim,becausehereallyseemedtofeel。
Quiteunlikehisusualself,hescarcelysaidanything。
Hewasevidentlyoppressed,andFannymustgrieveforhim,thoughhopingshemightneverseehimagaintillhewerethehusbandofsomeotherwoman。
Whenitcametothemomentofparting,hewouldtakeherhand,hewouldnotbedeniedit;hesaidnothing,however,ornothingthatsheheard,andwhenhehadlefttheroom,shewasbetterpleasedthatsuchatokenoffriendshiphadpassed。
OnthemorrowtheCrawfordsweregone。
Mr。Crawfordgone,SirThomas’snextobjectwasthatheshouldbemissed;andheentertainedgreathopethathisniecewouldfindablankinthelossofthoseattentionswhichatthetimeshehadfelt,orfancied,anevil。
Shehadtastedofconsequenceinitsmostflatteringform;
andhedidhopethatthelossofit,thesinkingagainintonothing,wouldawakenverywholesomeregretsinhermind。Hewatchedherwiththisidea;buthecouldhardlytellwithwhatsuccess。Hehardlyknewwhethertherewereanydifferenceinherspiritsornot。
Shewasalwayssogentleandretiringthatheremotionswerebeyondhisdiscrimination。Hedidnotunderstandher:
hefeltthathedidnot;andthereforeappliedtoEdmundtotellhimhowshestoodaffectedonthepresentoccasion,andwhethersheweremoreorlesshappythanshehadbeen。
Edmunddidnotdiscernanysymptomsofregret,andthoughthisfatheralittleunreasonableinsupposingthefirstthreeorfourdayscouldproduceany。
WhatchieflysurprisedEdmundwas,thatCrawford’ssister,thefriendandcompanionwhohadbeensomuchtoher,shouldnotbemorevisiblyregretted。HewonderedthatFannyspokesoseldomof_her_,andhadsolittlevoluntarilytosayofherconcernatthisseparation。
Alas!itwasthissister,thisfriendandcompanion,whowasnowthechiefbaneofFanny’scomfort。IfshecouldhavebelievedMary’sfuturefateasunconnectedwithMansfieldasshewasdeterminedthebrother’sshouldbe,ifshecouldhavehopedherreturnthithertobeasdistantasshewasmuchinclinedtothinkhis,shewouldhavebeenlightofheartindeed;butthemoresherecollectedandobserved,themoredeeplywassheconvincedthateverythingwasnowinafairertrainforMissCrawford’smarryingEdmundthanithadeverbeenbefore。Onhissidetheinclinationwasstronger,onherslessequivocal。Hisobjections,thescruplesofhisintegrity,seemedalldoneaway,nobodycouldtellhow;