Thenhesatnearthefire-placefromhabit,smoking,orchewingopium。
Oh,howMaryloathedthatsmell!Andinthedusk,lustbeforeitmergedintotheshortsummernight,shehadlearnedtolookwithdreadtowardsthewindow,whichnowherfatherwouldhavekeptuncurtained;fortherewerenotseldomseensightswhichhauntedherinherdreams。Strangefacesofpalemen,withdarkglaringeyes,peeredintotheinnerdarkness,andseemeddesiroustoascertainifherfatherwasathome。Orahandandarmthebodyhiddenwasputwithinthedoor,andbeckonedhimaway。Healwayswent。Andonceortwice,whenMarywasinbed,sheheardmen’svoicesbelow,inearnest,whisperedtalk。Theywerealldesperatemembersoftrades’unions,readforanything;
madereadybywant。WhileallthischangeforgloomyetstruckfreshandheavyonMary’sheart,herfatherstartledheroutofareverieoneevening,byaskingherwhenshehadbeentoseeJaneWilson。Fromhismannerofspeaking,shewasmadeawarethathehadbeen;butatthetimeofhisvisithehadnevermentionedanythingaboutit。Now,however,hegrufflytoldhertogonextdaywithoutfail,andaddedsomeabuseofherfornothavingbeenbefore。Thelittleoutwardimpulseofherfather’sspeechgaveMarythepushwhichsheinthisinstancerequired;andaccordingly,timinghervisitsoastoavoidJem’shoursathome,shewentthefollowingafternoontoAncoats。Theoutsideofthewell-knownhousestruckherasdifferent;forthedoorwasclosed,insteadofopen,asitoncehadalwaysstood。Thewindow-plants,GeorgeWilson’sprideandespecialcare,lookedwitheringanddrooping。
Theyhadbeenwithoutwaterforalongtime,andnow,whenthewidowhadreproachedherselfseverelyforneglect,inherignorantanxietyshegavethemtoomuch。Onopeningthedoor,Alicewasseen,notstirringaboutinherhabitualway,butknittingbythefire-side。Theroomfelthot,althoughthefireburntgreyanddim,underthebrightraysoftheafternoonsun。MrsWilsonwas“siding“thedinnerthings,andtalkingallthetime,inakindofwhining,shoutingvoice,whichMarydidnotatfirstunderstand。
Sheunderstoodatonce,however,thatherabsencehadbeennoted,andtalkedover;shesawaconstrainedlookonMrsWilson’ssorrow-strickenface,whichtoldherascoldingwastocome。“DearMary,isthatyou?“shebegan。“Why,whowouldha’dreamtofseeingyou!Wethoughtyou’dcleanforgottenus;andJemhasoftenwonderedifheshouldknowyou,ifhemetyouinthestreet。“Now,poorJaneWilsonhadbeensorelytried;andatpresenthertrialshadhadnooutwardeffect,butthatofincreasedacerbityoftemper。ShewishedtoshowMaryhowmuchshewasoffended,andmeanttostrengthenhercause,byputtingsomeofherownsharpspeechesintoJem’smouth。Maryfeltguilty,andhadnogoodreasontogiveasanapology;soforaminuteshestoodsilent,lookingverymuchashamed,andthenturnedtospeaktoAuntAlice,who,inhersurprised,heartygreetingtoMary,haddroppedherballofworsted,andwasbusytryingtosetthethreadtorights,beforethekittenhaden-tangleditpastredemption,onceroundeverychair,andtwiceroundthetable。“Youmunspeaklouderthanthat,ifyoumeanhertohear;she’sbecomeasdeafasapostthislastfewweeks。I’dha’toldyou,ifI’drememberedhowlongitweresin’you’dseenher。““Yes,mydear,I’mgettingveryhardo’hearingoflate,“saidAlice,catchingthestateofthecase,withherquick-glancingeyes。“Isupposeit’sthebeginningofth’end。““Don’ttalko’thatway,“screamedhersister-in-law。“We’vehadenowofendsanddeathswithoutforecastingmore。“Shecoveredherfacewithherapron,andsatdowntocry。“Hewassuchagoodhusband,“saidshe,inalessexcitedtone,toMary,asshelookedupwithtear-streamingeyesfrombehindherapron。“NoonecantellwhatI’velostinhim,fornooneknewhisworthlikeme。“Mary’slisteningsympathysoftenedher,andshewentontounburdenherheavy-ladenheart。“Eh,dear,dear!NooneknowswhatI’velost。Whenmypoorboyswent,I
thoughtth’Almightyhadcrushedmetoth’ground,butIneverthoughto’losingGeorgeIdidnathinkIcouldha’bornetoha’livedwithouthim。AndyetI’mhere,andhe’s——“Afreshburstofcryinginterruptedherspeech。“Mary,“——beginningtospeakagain,——“didyoneverhearwhatapoorcreatureIwerewhenhemarriedme?AndhesuchahandsomefellowIJem’snothingtowhathisfatherwereathisage。Yes!Maryhadheard,andsoshesaid。Butthepoorwoman’sthoughtshadgonebacktothosedays,andherlittlerecollectionscameout,withmanyinterruptionsofsighs,andtears,andshakesofthehead。“Therewerenoughtaboutmeforhimtochooseme。Iwerejustwellenoughaforethataccident,butatafterIweredownrightplain。AndtherewasBessyWitteraswouldha’givenhereyesforhim;sheasisMrsCarsonnow,forshewereahandsomelass,althoughInevercouldseeherbeautythen;andCarsonwarn’tsomuchaboveher,asthey’rebothaboveusallnow。Marywentveryred,andwishedshecouldhelpdoingso,andwishedalsothatMrsWilsonwouldtellhermoreaboutthefatherandmotherofherlover;butshedurstnotask,andMrsWilson’sthoughtsSoonreturnedtoherhusband,andtheirearlymarrieddays。“Ifyou’llbelieveme,Mary,thereneverwassuchaborngooseathouse-keepingasIwere;andyethemarriedme!Ihadbeeninafactorysin’fiveyearsolda’most,andIknewnoughtaboutcleaning,orcooking,letalonewashingandsuch-likework。Thedayafterweweremarried,hegoestohisworkatafterbreakfast,andsayshe,’Jenny,we’llha’th’coldbeef,andpotatoes,andthat’sadinnerforaprince。’Iwereanxioustomakehimcomfortable,Godknowshowanxious。AndyetI’dnonotionhowtocookapotato。Iknow’dtheywereboiled,andIknow’dtheirskinsweretakenoff,andthatwereall。SoItidiedmyhouseinaroughkindo’way,thenIlookedatthatveryclockupyonder,“pointingatonethathungagainstthewall,“andIseeditwerenineo’clock,so,thinksI,th’potatoesshallbewellboiledatanyrate,andIgets’emonth’fireinajiffythat’stosay,assoonasIcouldpeel’em,whichwereatoughjobatfirst,andthenIfelltounpackingmyboxes!andattwentyminutespasttwelve,hecomeshome,andIhadth’beefreadyonth’table,andIwenttotakethepotatoesouto’th’pot;butoh!Mary,th’waterhadboiledaway,andtheywereallanastybrownmess,assmeltthroughallthehouse。Hesaidnought,andwereverygentle;but,oh,Mary,Icriedsothatafter-noon。Ishallne’erforgetit;no,never。Imademanyablunderatafter,butnonethatfrettedmelikethat。““Fatherdoesnotlikegirlstoworkinfactories,“saidMary。“No,Iknowhedoesnot;andreasongood。Theyoughtn’ttogoatafterthey’remarried,thatI’mveryclearabout。Icouldreckonup“countingwithherfinger,“aye,ninemenIknow,ashasbeendriventoth’public-housebyhavingwivesasworkedinfactories;goodfolk,too,asthoughttherewasnoharminputtingtheirlittleonesoutatnurse,andlettingtheirhousegoalldirty,andtheirfiresallout;andthatwasaplaceaswastemptingforahusbandtostayin,wasit?Hesoonfindsoutgin-shops,wherealliscleanandbright,andwhereth’fireblazescheerily,andgivesamanawelcomeasitwere。“Alice,whowasstandingnearfortheconvenienceofhearing,hadcaughtmuchofthisspeech,anditwasevidentthesubjecthadpreviouslybeendiscussedbythewomen,forshechimedin。“IwishourJemcouldspeakawordtoth’Queen,aboutfactoryworkformarriedwomen。Eh!buthecomesitstrongwhenonceyogethimtospeakaboutit。Wifeo’his’nwillneverworkawayfra’home。““Isayit’sPrinceAlbertasoughttobeaskedhowhe’dlikehismissistobefromhomewhenhecomesill,tiredandworn,andwantingsomeonetocheerhim,andmaybe,hertocomeinbyandby,justastiredanddowninth’mouth;andhowhe’dlikeforhernevertobeathometoseetoth’
cleaningofhishouse,ortokeepabrightfireinhisgrate。Letalonehismealsbeingallhugger-mugger,andcomfortless。I’dbebound,princeasheis,ifhismississervedhimso,he’dbeofftoagin-palace,orsummuto’thatkind。Sowhycan’themakealawagainpoorfolks’wivesworkinginfactories?“MaryventuredtosaythatshethoughttheQueenandPrinceAlbertcouldnotmakelaws,buttheanswerwas,“Pooh!don’ttellmeit’snottheQueenasmakeslaws;andisn’tsheboundtoobeyPrinceAlbert?Andifhesaidtheymustn’t,whyshe’dsaytheymustn’t,andthenallfolkwouldsay,oh,no,wenevershalldoanysuchthingnomore。“Jem’sgettenonrarely,“saidAlice,whohadnotheardhersister’slastburstsofeloquence,andwhosethoughtswerestillrunningonhernephew,andhisvarioustalents。“He’sfoundoutsummutaboutacrankortank,Iforgotrightlywhichitis,butth’master’smadehimforeman,andheallthewhileturningoffhands;buthesaidhecouldnapartwi’Jem,nohow。He’sgoodwagenow;Itellhimhe’llbethinkingofmarryingsoon,andhedeservesarightdowngoodwife,thathedoes。“Marywentveryred,andlookedannoyed,althoughtherewasasecretspringofjoydeepdowninherheart,athearingJemsospokenof。Buthismotheronlysawtheannoyedlook,andwaspiquedaccordingly。Shewasnotoverandabovedesirousthathersonshouldmarry。Hispresenceinthehouseseemedarelicofhappiertimes,andshehadsomelittlejealousyofhisfuturewife,whoevershemightbe。StillshecouldnotbearanyonenottofeelgratifiedandflatteredbyJem’spreference,andfullwellsheknewhowaboveothershepreferredMary。NowshehadneverthoughtMarygoodenoughforJem,andherlateneglectincomingtoseeherstillrankledalittleinherbreast。Soshedeterminedtoinventalittle,inordertodoawaywithanyideaMarymighthavethatJemwouldchooseherfor“hisrightdowngoodwife,“asauntAlicecalledit。“Aye,he’llbefortakingawifesoon,“andthen,inalowervoice,asifconfidentially,butreallytopreventanycontradictionorexplanationfromhersimplesister-in-law,sheadded,“It’llnotbelongaforeMollyGibsonthat’sheratth’provisionshoproundthecornerwillhearasecretaswillnotdispleaseher,I’mthinking。
She’sbeencastingsheep’seyesatourJemthismanyaday,buthethoughtherfatherwouldnotgivehertoacommonworkingman;butnowhe’sgoodasher,everybit。Ithoughtoncehe’dafancyforthee,Mary,butIdonnotthinkyo’deverha’suited,soit’sbestasitis。“ByaneffortMarymanagedtokeepdownhervexation,andtosay,“ShehopedhewouldbehappywithMollyGibson。Shewasveryhandsome,forcertain。““Aye,andanotablebody,too。I’lljuststepup-stairsandshowyouthepatchworkquiltshegavemebutlastSaturday。“Marywasgladshewasgoingoutoftheroom。Herwordsirritatedher;perhapsnotthelessbecauseshedidnotfullybelievethem。Besides,shewantedtospeaktoAlice,andMrsWilsonseemedtothinkthatshe,asthewidow,oughttoabsorballtheattention。“DearAlice,“beganMary,“I’msogrievedtofindyousodeaf;itmusthavecomeonveryrapid。““Yes,dear,it’satrial;I’llnotdenyit。PrayGodgivemestrengthtofindoutitsteaching。IfeltitsoreonefinedaywhenIthoughtI’dgogathersomemeadow-sweettomaketeaforJane’scough;andthefieldsseemedsodreeandstill;andatfirstIcouldna’makeoutwhatwaswanting;
andthenitstruckmeitwereth’songo’thebirds,andthatInevershouldheartheirsweetmusicnomore,andIcouldna’helpcryingabit。ButI’vemuchtobethankfulfor。IthinkI’macomforttoJane,ifI’monlysomeonetoscoldnowandthen;poorbody!Ittakesoffherthoughtsfromhersorelosseswhenshecanscoldabit。IfmyeyesareleftIcandowellenough;Icanguessatwhatfolkaresaying。“Thesplendidredandyellowpatchquiltnowmadeitsappearance,andJaneWilsonwouldnotbesatisfiedunlessMarypraiseditallover,border,centre,andground-work,rightsideandwrong;andMarydidherduty,sayingallthemore,becauseshecouldnotworkherselfuptoanyveryheartyadmirationofherrival’spresent。Shemadehaste,however,withhercommendations,inordertoavoidencounteringJem。Assoonasshewasfairlyawayfromthehouseandstreet,sheslackenedherpace,andbegantothink。DidJemreallycareforMollyGibson?Well,ifhedid,lethim。PeopleseemedalltothinkhewasmuchtoogoodforherMary’sownself。Perhapssomeoneelse,farmorehandsome,andfarmoregrand,wouldshowhimonedaythatshewasgoodenoughtobeMrsHenryCarson。Sotemper,orwhatMarycalled“spirit,“ledhertoencourageMrCarsonmorethanevershehaddonebefore。Someweeksafterthistherewasameetingofthetrades’uniontowhichJohnBartonbelonged。Themorningofthedayonwhichitwastotakeplacehehadlainlateinbed,forwhatwastheuseofgettingup?Hehadhesitatedbetweenthepurchaseofmealoropium,andhadchosenthelatter,foritsusehadbecomeanecessitywithhim。Hewantedittorelievehimfromtheterribledepressionitsabsenceoccasioned。Alargelumpseemedonlytobringhimintoanaturalstate,orwhathadbeenhisnaturalstateformerly。