water,anditflewnearontoahundredyards。ButIsay,oldgentleman,Iha’gottenonedried,andifyou’lltakeit,whyI’llgiveityou;only,“
headdedinalowertone,“I’dwishyou’djustgiemecreditfortheMermaidicus。“Ireallybelieve,iftheassumingfaithinthestoryofthemermaidhadbeenmadetheconditionofreceivingtheflyingfish,JobLegh,sinceremanthatbewas,wouldhavepretendedbelief;hewassomuchdelightedattheideaofpossessingthisspecimen。Hewonthesailor’sheartbygettinguptoshakebothhishandsinhisvehementgratitude,puzzlingpooroldAlice,whoyetsmiledthroughherwonder;forsheunderstoodtheactiontoindicatesomekindlyfeelingtowardshernephew。Jobwantedtorovehisgratitude,andwaspuzzledhowtodoit。HefearedtheyoungmanwouldnotappreciateanyofhisduplicateAraneides;noteventhegreatAmericanMygale,oneofhismostprecioustreasures;orelsehewouldgladlyhavebestowedanyduplicateonthedonorofarealdriedExocetus。Whatcouldhedoforhim?HecouldaskMargarettosing。
Otherfolksbesideherolddoatinggrandfatherthoughtadealofhersongs。
SoMargaretbeganSomeofhernobleo]d-fashionedsongs。Sheknewnomodernmusic,forwhichherauditorsmighthavebeenthankful,butshepouredherrichvoiceoutinSomeoftheoldcanzonetsshehadlatelylearntwhileaccompanyingthemusicallectureronhistour。Marywasamusedtoseehowtheyoungsailorsatentranced;mouth,eyes,allopen,inordertocatcheverybreathofsound。Hisverylidsrefusedtowink,Iasifafraidinthatbriefproverbialintervaltoloseaparticleoftherichmusicthatfloatedthroughtheroom。ForthefirsttimetheideacrossedMary’smindthatitwaspossibletheplainlittlesensibleMargaret,soprimanddemure,mighthavepowerovertheheartofthehandsome,dashing,spiritedWillWilson。Job,too,wasrapidlychanginghisOpinionofhisnewguest。Theflyingfishwentagreatway,andhisundisguisedadmirationforMargaret’ssingingcarriedhimstillfurther。Itwasamusingenoughtoseethesetwo,withinthehoursobarelyciviltoeachother,endeavouringnowtobeultra-agreeable。Will,assoonashehadtakenbreathalong,deepgaspofadmirationafterMargaret’ssong,sidleduptoJob,andaskedhiminasortofdoubtingtone,“Youwouldn’tlikealiveManxcat,wouldye,master?““Awhat?“exclaimedJob。“Idon’tknowitsbestname,“saidWill,humbly。“Butwecall’emjustManxcats。They’recatswithouttails。“NowJob,inallhisnaturalhistory,hadneverheardofsuchanimals;soWillcontinued,“BecauseI’mgoing,aforejoiningmyship,toseemother’sfriendsintheisland,andIwouldgladlybringyouone,ifsobeyou’dliketohaveit。
Theylookasqueerandouto’natureasflyingfish,or“——hegulpedthewordsdownthatshouldhavefollowed。“Especiallywhenyouseeemwalkingaroof-toprightagainthesky,whenacat,asisapropercat,issuretostickhertailstiffoutbehind,likeaslack-ropedancera-balancing;
butthesecatshavingnotail,cannotstickitout,whichcaptivatessomepeopleuncommonly。Ifyo’llallowme,I’llbringoneforMissthere,“jerkinghisheadatMargaret。Jobassentedwithgratefulcuriosity,wishingmuchtoseethetaillessphenomenon。“Whenareyougoingtosail?“askedMary。“Icannotjustlysay;ourship’sboundforAmericanextvoyage,theytellme。Amessmatewillletmeknowwhenhersailing-dayisfixed;butI’vegottogototh’Isleo’Manfirst。IpromisedunclelasttimeIwereinEnglandtogothisnexttime。ImayhavetohoisttheBluePeteranyday;
somakemuchofmewhileyouhaveme,Mary。“JobaskedhimifhehadeverbeeninAmerica。“Haven’tI?NorthandSouthboth!Thistimewe’reboundtoNorth。Yankee-Land,aswecallit,whereUncleSamlives。““Unclewho?“askedMary“Oh,it’sawaysailorshaveofspeaking。IonlymeanI’mgoingtoBoston,U。S。,that’sUncleSam。“Marydidnotunderstand,soshelefthimandwenttositbyAlice,whocouldnothearconversationunlessexpresslyaddressedtoher。Shehadsatpatientlythegreaterpartofthenight,andnowgreetedMarywithaquietsmile。“Where’syo’rfather?“askedshe。“Iguesshe’sathisUnion?he’stheremostevenings。“Aliceshookherhead;butwhetheritwerethatshedidnothear,orthatshedidnotquiteapproveofwhatsheheard,Marycouldnotmakeout。ShesatsilentlywatchingAlice,andregrettingoverherdimmedandveiledeyes,formerlysobrightandspeaking。AsifAliceunderstoodbysomeothersensewhatwaspassinginMary’smind,sheturnedsuddenlyround,andansweredMary’sthought。“Yo’remourningforme,mydear;andthere’snoneed,Mary。I’mashappyasachild。IsometimesthinkIamachild,whomtheLordishushabyingtomylongsleep。ForwhenIwereanurse-girl,mymissisalwaystelledmetospeakverysoftandlow,andtodarkentheroomthatherlittleonemightgotosleep;andnowallnoisesarehushedandstilltome,andthebonnyearthseemsdimanddark,andIknowit’smyFatherlullingmeawaytomylongsleep。I’mverywellcontent,andyomustn’tfretforme。I’vehadwellnigheveryblessinginlifeIcoulddesire。“MarythoughtofAlice’slong-cherished,fondwishtorevisitthehomeofherchildhood,sooftenandoftendeferred,andnowprobablynevertotakeplace。Orifitdid,howchangedfromthefondanticipationofwhatitwastohavebeen!ItwouldbeamockerytotheblindanddeafAlice。Theeveningcamequicklytoanend。Therewasthehumblecheerfulmeal,andthenthebustling,merryfarewell,andMarywasoncemoreinthequietnessandsolitudeofherowndingy,dreary-lookinghome;herfatherstillout,thefireextinguished,andherevening’staskofworklyingallundoneuponthedresser。Butithadbeenapleasantlittleinterludetothinkupon。Ithaddistractedherattentionforafewhoursfromthepressureofmanyuneasythoughts,ofthedark,heavy,oppressivetimes,whensorrowandwantseemedtosurroundheroneveryside:ofherfather,hischangedandalteredlooks,tellingsoplainlyofbrokenhealth,andanembitteredheart;ofthemorrow,andthemorrowbeyondthat,tohespentinthatclosemonotonousworkroom,withSallyLeadbitter’sodiouswhispershissinginherear;andofthehuntedlook,sofullofdread,fromMissSimmonds’
door-stepupanddownthestreet,lestherpersecutinglovershouldbenear;forhelayinwaitforherwithwonderfulperseverance,andoflatehadmadehimselfalmosthateful,bytheunmanlyforcewhichhehadusedtodetainhertolistentohim,andtheindifferencewithwhichheexposedhertotheremarksofthepassers-by,anyoneofwhommightcirculatereportswhichitwouldbeterribleforherfathertohear-andworsethandeathshouldtheyreachJemWilson。Andallthisshehaddrawnuponherselfbyhergiddyflirting。Oh!howsheloathedtherecollectionofthehotsummerevening,when,wornoutbystitchingandsewing,shehadloiteredhomewardswithwearylanguor,andfirstlistenedtothevoiceofthetempter。AndJemWilson!Oh,Jem,Jem,whydidyounotcometoreceivesomeofthemodestlooksandwordsoflovewhichMarylongedtogiveyou,totryandmakeupforthehastyrejectionwhichyouashastilytooktobefinal,thoughbothmournedoveritwithmanytears。Butdayafterdaypassedaway,andpatienceseemedofnoavail;andMary’scrywasevertheoldmoanoftheMoatedGrange,“Whycomeshenot,“shesaid,“Iamaweary,aweary。IwouldthatIweredead。“
chapter14CHAPTERXIVJEM’SINTERVIEWWITHPOORESTHERKnowthetemptationereyoujudgethecrime!Lookonthistree——’twasgreen,andfairandgraceful;Yetnow,savethesefewshoots,howdryandrotten!Thoucanstnottellthecause。Notlongago,Aneighbouroak,withwhichitsrootsweretwined,Infailingwrenchedthemwithsuchcruelforce,Thatthoughwecoveredthemagainwithcare,Itsbeautywithered,anditpinedaway。So,couldwelookintothehumanbreast,Howoftthefatalblightthatmeetsourview,Shouldwetracedowntothetorn,bleedingfibresOfatootrustingheart——whereitwereshame,Forpityingtears,togivecontemptorblame。StreetWalks。Themonthwasover;——thehoneymoontothenewlymarried;theexquisiteconvalescencetothe“livingmotherofalivingchild“;“thefirstdarkdaysofnothingness“tothewidowandthechild-bereaved;thetermofpenance,ofhardlabour,andsolitaryconfinement,totheshrinking,shivering,hopelessprisoner。“Sick,andinprison,andyevisitedme。“Shallyou,orI,receivesuchblessing?Iknowonewhowill。Anoverseerofafoundry,anagedman,withhoaryhair,hasspenthisSabbaths,formanyyears,invisitingtheprisonersandtheafflictedinManchesterNewBailey;notmerelyadvising,andcomforting,butputtingmeansintotheirpowerofregainingthevirtueandthepeacetheyhadlost,becominghimselftheirguaranteeinobtainingemployment,andneverdesertingthosewhohaveonceaskedhelpfromhim。Esther’stermofimprisonmentwasended。Shereceivedagoodcharacterinthegovernor’sbooks;shehadpickedherdailyquantityofoakum,hadneverdeservedtheextrapunishmentofthetreadmill,andhadbeencivilanddecorousinherlanguage。Andoncemoreshewasoutofprison。Thedoorclosedbehindherwithaponderousclang,andinherdesolationshefeltasifshutoutofhome-fromtheonlysheltershecouldmeetwith,houselessandpennilessasshewas,onthatdrearyday。Butitwasbutforaninstantthatshestoodtheredoubting。Onethoughthadhauntedherbothbynightandbyday,withmonomaniacalincessancy;
andthatthoughtwashowtosaveMaryherdeadsister’sonlychild,herownlittlepetinthedaysofherinnocencefromfollowinginthesamedownwardpathtovice。Towhomcouldshespeakandaskforaid?SheshrankfromtheideaofaddressingJohnBartonagain;herheartsankwithinher,attheremembranceofhisfiercerepulsingaction,andfarfiercerwords。
ItseemedworsethandeathtorevealherconditiontoMary,elseshesometimesthoughtthatthiscoursewouldbethemostterrible,themostefficientwarning。Shemustspeak;tothatshewassoul-compelled;buttowhom?Shedreadedaddressinganyofherformerfemaleacquaintance,evensupposingtheyhadsense,orspirit,orinterestenoughtoundertakehermission。Towhomshalltheoutcastprostitutetellhertale?Whowillgiveherhelpinthedayofneed?Hersistheleper-sin,andallstandaloofdreadingtobecountedunclean。Inherwildnightwanderings,shehadnotedthehauntsandhabitsofmanyaonewholittlethoughtofawatcherinthepoorforsakenwoman。Youmayeasilyimaginethatadoubleinterestwasattachedbyhertothewaysandcompanionshipsofthosewithwhomshehadbeenacquaintedinthedayswhich,whenpresent,shehadconsideredhardly-workedandmonotonous,butwhichnowinretrospectionseemedsohappyandunclouded。Accordingly,shehad,aswehaveseen,knownwheretomeetwithJohnBartononthatunfortunatenight,whichhadonlyproducedirritationinhim,andamonth’simprisonmenttoher。ShebadalsoobservedthathewasstillintimatewiththeWilsons。
Shehadseenhimwalkingandtalkingwithbothfatherandson;heroldfriendstoo;andshehadshedunregarded,unvaluedtears,whensomeonehadcasuallytoldherofGeorgeWilson’ssuddendeath。Itnowflashedacrosshermindthattotheson,toMary’splayfellow,herelderbrotherinthedaysofchildhood,hertalemightbetold,andlistenedtowithinterest,andsomemodeofactionsuggestedbyhimbywhichMarymightbeguardedandsaved。Allthesethoughtshadpassedthroughhermindwhileyetshewasinprison;
sowhenshewasturnedout,herpurposewasclear,andshedidnotfeelherdesolationoffreedomasshewouldotherwisehavedone。ThatnightshestationedherselfearlynearthefoundrywheresheknewJemworked;bestayedlaterthanusual,beingdetainedbysomearrangementsforthemorrow。Shegrewtiredandimpatient;manyworkmenhadcomeoutofthedoorinthelong,dead,brickwall,andeagerlyhadshepeeredintotheirfaces,deaftoallinsultorcurse。Hemusthavegonehomeearly;
onemoreturninthestreet,andshewouldgo。Duringthatturnbecameout,andinthequietofthatstreetofworkshopsandwarehouses,shedirectlyheardhissteps。Howherheartfailedherforaninstant,butstillshewasnotdauntedfromherpurpose,painfulasitsfulfilmentwassuretobe。Shelaidherhandonhisarm。Assheexpected,afteramomentaryglanceatthepersonwhothusendeavouredtodetainhim,hemadeanendeavourtoshakeitoff,andpasson。But,tremblingasshewas,shehadprovidedagainstthisbyafirmandunusualgrasp。“Youmustlistentome,JemWilson,“shesaid,withalmostanaccentofcommand。“Goaway,missis;I’venoughttodowithyou,eitherinhearkeningortalking。“Hemadeanotherstruggle。“Youmustlisten,“shesaidagain,authoritatively,“forMaryBarton’ssake。““Thespellofhernamewasaspotentasthatofthemariner’sglitteringeye。“Helistenedlikeathree-yearchild。““Iknowyoucareenoughforhertowishtosaveherfromharm。“Heinterruptedhisearnestgazeintoherface,withtheexclamation——“AndwhocanyobetoknowMaryBarton,ortoknowthatshe’saughttome?“TherewasalittlestrifeinEsther’smindforaninstant,betweentheshameof