Sothatkeptmebeyondmytime,chaps。““Didyouhearwherethewifelivedatlast?“askedmanyanxiousvoices。“No!hewentontalkingtoher,tillhiswordscutmyheartlikeaknife。
Iaxedth’nursetofindoutwhoshewas,andwhereshelived。ButwhatI’mmoreespecialnamingitnowforisthis,——foronethingIwantedyoualltoknowwhyIweren’tatmypostthismorning;foranother,Iwishtosay,thatI,forone,ha’seenenoughofwhatcomesofattackingknob-sticks,andI’llha’noughttodowithitnomore。Thereweresomeexpressionsofdisapprobation,butJohndidnotmindthem。“Nay!I’mnocoward,“hereplied,“andI’mtruetoth’backbone。WhatI
wouldlike,andwhatIwoulddo,wouldbetofightthemasters。There’soneamongyocalledmeacoward。Well!everymanhasarighttohisopinion;
butsinceI’vethoughtonth’matterto-day,I’vethoughtwehanallonusbeenmorelikecowardsinattackingthepoorlikeourselves;themashasnonetohelp,butmunchoosebetweenvitriolandstarvation。Isaywe’remorecowardlyindoingthatthaninleavingthemalone。No!whatIwoulddoisthis。Haveatthemasters!“Againheshouted,“Haveatthemasters!“Hespokelower;alllistenedwithhushedbreath。“It’sthemastersashaswroughtthiswoe;it’sthemastersasshouldpayforit。Himascalledmecowardjustnow,maytryifIamoneornot。Setmetoserveoutthemasters,andseeifthere’saughtI’llstickat。““Itwouldgiveth’mastersabitonafrightifoneofthemwerebeatenwithinaninchofhislife,“saidone。“Aye!orbeatentillnolifewereleftinhim,growledanother。Andsowithwords,orlooksthattoldmorethanwords,theybuiltupadeadlyplan。Deeperanddarkergrewtheimportoftheirspeeches,astheystoodhoarselymutteringtheirmeaningout,andglaring,witheyesthattoldtheterrortheirownthoughtsweretothem,upontheirneighbours,Theirclenchedfists,theirsetteeth,theirlividlooks,alltoldthesufferingwhichtheirmindswerevoluntarilyundergoinginthecontemplationofcrime,andinfamiliarizingthemselveswithitsdetails。ThencameoneofthosefierceterribleoathswhichbindmembersofTrades’
Unionstoanygivenpurpose。Then,undertheflaringgaslight,theymettogethertoconsultfurther。Withthedistrustofguilt,eachwassuspiciousofhisneighbour;eachdreadedthetreacheryofanother。Anumberofpiecesofpapertheidenticalletteronwhichthecaricaturehadbeendrawnthatverymorningweretornup,andonewasmarked。Thenallwerefoldedupagain,lookingexactlyalike。Theywereshuffledtogetherinahat。
Thegaswasextinguished;eachdrewoutapaper。Thegaswasre-lighted。
Theneachwentasfarashecouldfromhisfellows,andexaminedthepaperhehadwithoutsayingaword,andwithacountenanceasstonyandimmovableashecouldmakeit。Then,stillrigidlysilent,theyeachtookuptheirhatsandwenteveryonehisownway。Hewhohaddrawnthemarkedpaperhaddrawnthelotoftheassassin!andhehadsworntoactaccordingtohisdrawing!Butnoone,saveGodandhisownconscience,knewwhowastheappointedmurderer。TheEndofPartOne
Mournfulis’ttosayFarewell,Thoughforfewbriefhourswepart;Inthatabsence,whocantellWhatmaycometowringtheheart!ANONYMOUS。TheeventsrecordedinthelastchaptertookplaceonaTuesday。OnThursdayafternoonMarywassurprised,inthemidstofsomelittlebustleinwhichshewasengaged,bytheentranceofWillWilson。Helookedstrange,atleastitwasstrangetoseeanydifferentexpressiononhisfacetohisusualjoyousbeamingappearance。Hehadapaperparcelinhishand。Hecamein,andsatdown,morequietlythanusual。“Why,Will!what’sthematterwithyou?Youseemquitecutupaboutsomething!““AndIam,Mary!I’mcometosaygood-bye;andfewfolkliketosaygood-byetothemtheylove。““Good-bye!Blessme,Will,that’ssudden,isnotit?“Maryleftoffironing,andcameandstoodnearthefireplace。ShehadalwayslikedWill;butnowitseemedasifasuddenspringofsisterlylovehadgushedupinherheart,sosorrydidshefeeltohearofhisapproachingdeparture。“It’sverysudden,isn’tit?“saidshe,repeatingthequestion。“Yes,it’sverysudden,“saidhe,dreamily。“No,itisnot“;rousinghimself;
tothinkofwhathewassaying。“Thecaptaintoldme,inafortnighthewouldbereadytosailagain;butitcomesverysuddenonme,Ihadgotsofondofyouall。“MaryunderstoodtheparticularfondnessthatwasthusgeneralisedShespokeagain。“Butit’snotafortnightsinceyoucame。NotafortnightsinceyouknockedatJaneWilson’sdoor,andIwasthere,youremember。Nothinglikeafortnight!““No;Iknowit’snot。But,yousee,IgotaletterthisafternoonfromJackHarris,totellmeourshipsailsonTuesdaynext;andit’slongsinceIpromisedmyunclemymother’sbrother,himthatlivesatKirk-Christ,beyondRamsay,intheIsleofManthatI’dgoandseehimandhis,thistimeofcomingashore。Imustgo。I’msorryenough;butImustn’tslightpoormother’sfriends。Imustgo。Don’ttrytokeepme,“saidhe,evidentlyfearingthestrengthofhisownresolution,ifhardpressedbyentreaty。“I’mnota-going,Will。Idaresayyouareright;onlyIcan’thelpfeelingsorryyou’regoingaway。Itseemssoflattobeleftbehind。Whendoyougo?““To-night。Ishan’tseeyouagain。““To-nightIandyougotoLiverpool!Maybeyouandfatherwillgotogether。
He’sgoingtoGlasgow,bywayofLiverpool。““No!I’mwalking;andIdon’tthinkyourfatherwillbeuptowalking。““Well!andwhyonearthareyouwalking?Youcangetbyrailwayforthree-and-sixpence。““Aye,butMary!thoumustn’tletoutwhatI’mgoingtotelltheeIhavenotgotthreeshillings,no,norevenonesixpenceleft,atleastnothere:
beforeIcameIgavemylandladyenoughtocarrymetotheislandandback,andmaybeatrifleforpresents,andIbroughttheresthere;andit’sallgonebutthis,“jinglingafewcoppersinhishand。“Nay,neverfretovermywalkingamatterofthirtymile,“addedhe,ashesawshelookedgraveandsorry。“It’safineclearnight,andIshallsetoffbetimes,andgetinaforetheManxpacketsails。Where’syourfathergoing?ToGlasgow,didyousay?PerhapsheandImayhaveabitofatriptogetherthen,for,iftheManxboathassailedwhenIgetintoLiverpool,IshallgobyaScotchpacket。What’shegoingtodoinGlasgow?——Seekforwork?Tradeisasbadthereashere,folksay。““No;heknowsthat,“answeredMarysadly。“Isometimesthinkhe’llnevergetworkagain,andthattradewillnevermend。It’sveryhardtokeepupone’sheart。IwishIwereaboy,I’dgotoseawithyou。Itwouldbegettingawayfrombadnewsatanyrate;andnow,there’shardlyacreaturethatcrossesthedoor-step,buthassomethingsadandunhappytotellone。
FatherisgoingasadelegatefromhisUnion,toaskhelpfromtheGlasgowfolk。He’sstartingthisevening。“Marysighed,forthefeelingagaincameoverherthatitwasveryflattobeleftalone。“Yousaynoonecrossesthethresholdbuthassomethingsadtosay;youdon’tmeanthatMargaretJenningshasanytrouble?“askedtheyoungsailor,anxiously。“No!“repliedMary,smilingalittle;“she’stheonlyoneIknow,Ibelieve,whoseemsfreefromcare。Herblindnessalmostappearsablessingsometimes;
shewassodownheartedwhenshedreadedit,andnowsheseemssocalmandhappy,whenit’sdownrightcome。No!Margaret’shappy,Idothink。““Icouldalmostwishithadbeenotherwise,“saidWill,thoughtfully。“I
couldhavebeensogladtocomforther,andcherishher,ifshehadbeenintrouble。““Andwhycan’tyoucherishher,eventhoughsheishappy?“askedMary。“Oh!Idon’tknow。SheseemssomuchbetterthanIam!Andhervoice!WhenIhearit,andthinkofthewishesthatareinmyheart,itseemsasmuchoutofplacetoaskhertobemywife,asitwouldbetoaskanangelfromheaven。“Marycouldnothelplaughingoutright,inspiteofherdepression,attheideaofMargaretasanangel;itwassodifficulteventoherdressmakingimaginationtofancywhere,andhow,thewingswouldbefastenedtothebrownstuffgown,ortheblueandyellowprint。Willlaughed,too,alittle,outofsympathywithMary’sprettymerrylaugh。
Thenhesaid——“Aye,youmaylaugh,Mary;itonlyshowsyou’veneverbeeninlove。“InaninstantMarywascarnationcolour,andthetearssprangtohersoftgreyeyes。Shethatwassufferingsomuchfromthedoubtsarisingfromlove。Itwasunkindofhim。Hedidnotnoticeherchangeoflookandofcomplexion。Heonlynoticedthatshewassilent,sohecontinued:“Ithought——Ithink,thatwhenIcomebackfromthisvoyage,Iwillspeak。
It’smyfourthvoyageinthesameshipandwiththesamecaptain,andhe’spromisedhe’llmakemeasecondmateafterthistrip;thenIshallhavesomethingtoofferMargaret;andherfather,andAuntAlice,shalllivewithher,andkeepherfrombeinglonesomewhileI’matsea。I’mspeakingasifshecaredforme,andwouldmarryme;d’yethinkshedoescareatallforme,Mary?“askedheanxiously。Maryhadaverydecidedopinionofherownonthesubject,butshedidnotfeelasifshehadanyrighttogiveit。Soshesaid——“YoumustaskMargaret,notme,Will;she’snevernamedyournametome。“
Hiscountenancefell。“ButIshouldsaythatwasagoodsignfromagirllikeher;I’venorighttosaywhatIthink;but,ifIwasyou,Iwouldnotleavehernow,withoutspeaking。““No!Icannotspeak!Ihavetried。I’vebeenintowishthemgood-bye,andmyvoicestuckinmythroat。IcouldsaynoughtofwhatI’dplannedtosay;andIneverthoughtofbeingsoboldastoofferhermarriagetillI’dbeenmynexttrip,andbeenmademate。Icouldnotevenofferherthisbox,“saidhe,undoinghispaperparcelanddisplayingagaudilyornamentedaccordion;“Ilongedtobuyhersomething,andIthought,ifitweresomethinginthemusicline,shewouldmaybefancyitmore。So,willyougiveittoher,Mary,whenI’mgone?and,ifyoucanslipinsomethingtender,——something,youknow,ofwhatIfeel,——maybeshewouldlistentoyou,Mary?“Marypromisedthatshewoulddoallthatheasked。“Ishallbethinkingonhermanyandmanyanight,whenI’mkeepingmywatchinmid-sea;Iwonderifshewilleverthinkonme,whenthewindiswhistling,andthegalerising。You’lloftenspeakofmetoher,Mary?
AndifIshouldmeetwithanymischancetellherhowdear,howverydear,shewastome,andbidher,forthesakeofonewholovedherwell,tryandcomfortmypoorauntAlice。Dearoldaunt!youandMargaretwilloftengoandseeher,won’tyou?She’ssadlyfailedsinceIwaslastashore。
Andsogoodasshehasbeen!WhenIlivedwithher,alittleweechap,Iusedtobewakenedbytheneighboursknockingherup;thisonewasill,orthatbody’schildwasrestless;andforastiredasevershemightbe,shewouldbeupanddressedinatwinkling,neverthinkingofthehardday’swashaforehernextmorning。Themwerehappytimes!HowhappyIusedtobewhenshewouldtakemeintothefieldswithhertogatherherbs!
I’vetastedteainChinasincethen,butitwasn’thalfsogoodastheherbteasheusedtomakeformeo’Sundaynights。Andsheknewsuchadealaboutplantsandbirds,andtheirways!Sheusedtotellmelongstoriesaboutherchildhood,andweusedtoplanhowwewouldgosometime,pleaseGodthatwasalwaysherword,andlivenearheroldhomebeyondLancaster;