Hildalikedjazz,becauseshecouldplasterherstomachagainstthestomachofsomeso-calledman,andlethimcontrolhermovementfromthevisceralcentre,hereandthereacrossthefloor,andthenshecouldbreaklooseandignore`thecreature’。Hehadbeenmerelymadeuseof。PoorConniewasratherunhappy。Shewouldn’tjazz,becauseshesimplycouldn’tplasterherstomachagainstsome`creature’s’stomach。ShehatedtheconglomeratemassofnearlynudefleshontheLido:therewashardlyenoughwatertowetthemall。ShedislikedSirAlexanderandLadyCooper。ShedidnotwantMichaelisoranybodyelsetrailingher。
  ThehappiesttimeswerewhenshegotHildatogowithherawayacrossthelagoon,faracrosstosomelonelyshingle-bank,wheretheycouldbathequitealone,thegondolaremainingontheinnersideofthereef。
  ThenGiovannigotanothergondoliertohelphim,becauseitwasalongwayandhesweatedterrificallyinthesun。Giovanniwasverynice:affectionate,astheItaliansare,andquitepassionless。TheItaliansarenotpassionate:
  passionhasdeepreserves。Theyareeasilymoved,andoftenaffectionate,buttheyrarelyhaveanyabidingpassionofanysort。
  SoGiovanniwasalreadydevotedtohisladies,ashehadbeendevotedtocargoesofladiesinthepast。Hewasperfectlyreadytoprostitutehimselftothem,iftheywantedhint:hesecretlyhopedtheywouldwanthim。Theywouldgivehimahandsomepresent,anditwouldcomeinveryhandy,ashewasjustgoingtobemarried。Hetoldthemabouthismarriage,andtheyweresuitablyinterested。
  Hethoughtthistriptosomelonelybankacrossthelagoonprobablymeantbusiness:businessbeingl’amore,love。Sohegotamatetohelphim,foritwasalongway;andafterall,theyweretwoladies。Twoladies,twomackerels!Goodarithmetic!Beautifulladies,too!Hewasjustlyproudofthem。AndthoughitwastheSignorawhopaidhimandgavehimorders,heratherhopeditwouldbetheyoungmiladywhowouldselecthintforl’amore。Shewouldgivemoremoneytoo。
  ThematehebroughtwascalledDaniele。Hewasnotaregulargondolier,sohehadnoneofthecadgerandprostituteabouthim。Hewasasandolaman,asandolabeingabigboatthatbringsinfruitandproducefromtheislands。
  Danielewasbeautiful,tallandwell-shapen,withalightroundheadoflittle,close,pale-blondcurls,andagood-lookingman’sface,alittlelikealion,andlong-distanceblueeyes。Hewasnoteffusive,loquacious,andbibulouslikeGiovanni。Hewassilentandherowedwithastrengthandeaseasifhewerealoneonthewater。Theladieswereladies,remotefromhim。Hedidnotevenlookatthem。Helookedahead。
  Hewasarealman,alittleangrywhenGiovannidranktoomuchwineandrowedawkwardly,witheffusiveshovesofthegreatoar。HewasamanasMellorswasaman,unprostituted。Conniepitiedthewifeoftheeasily-overflowingGiovanni。ButDaniele’swifewouldbeoneofthosesweetVenetianwomenofthepeoplewhomonestillsees,modestandflower-likeinthebackofthatlabyrinthofatown。
  Ah,howsadthatmanfirstprostituteswoman,thenwomanprostitutesman。Giovanniwaspiningtoprostitutehimself,dribblinglikeadog,wantingtogivehimselftoawoman。Andformoney!
  ConnielookedatVenicefaroff,lowandrose-coloureduponthewater。
  Builtofmoney,blossomedofmoney,anddeadwithmoney。Themoney-deadness!
  Money,money,money,prostitutionanddeadness。
  YetDanielewasstillamancapableofaman’sfreeallegiance。Hedidnotwearthegondolier’sblouse:onlytheknittedbluejersey。Hewasalittlewild,uncouthandproud。SohewashirelingtotheratherdoggyGiovanniwhowashirelingagaintotwowomen。Soitis!WhenJesusrefusedthedevil’smoney,heleftthedevillikeaJewishbanker,masterofthewholesituation。
  Conniewouldcomehomefromtheblazinglightofthelagooninakindofstupor,tolindlettersfromhome。Cliffordwroteregularly。Hewroteverygoodletters:theymightallhavebeenprintedinabook。AndforthisreasonConniefoundthemnotveryinteresting。
  Shelivedinthestuporofthelightofthelagoon,thelappingsaltinessofthewater,thespace,theemptiness,thenothingness:buthealth,health,completestuporofhealth。Itwasgratifying,andshewaslulledawayinit,notcaringforanything。Besides,shewaspregnant。Sheknewnow。Sothestuporofsunlightandlagoonsaltandsea-bathingandlyingonshingleandfindingshellsanddriftingaway,awayinagondola,wascompletedbythepregnancyinsideher,anotherfullnessofhealth,satisfyingandstupefying。
  ShehadbeenatVeniceafortnight,andshewastostayanothertendaysorafortnight。Thesunshineblazedoveranycountoftime,andthefullnessofphysicalhealthmadeforgetfulnesscomplete。Shewasinasortofstuporofwell-being。
  FromwhichaletterofCliffordrousedher。Wetoohavehadourmildlocalexcitement。ItappearsthetruantwifeofMellors,thekeeper,turnedupatthecottageandfoundherselfunwelcome。Hepackedheroff,andlockedthedoor。Reporthasit,however,thatwhenhereturnedfromthewoodhefoundthenolongerfairladyfirmlyestablishedinhisbed,inpurisnaturalibus;oroneshouldsay,inimpurisnaturalibus。Shehadbrokenawindowandgotinthatway。Unabletoevictthesomewhatman-handledVenusfromhiscouch,hebeataretreatandretired,itissaid,tohismother’shouseinTevershall。
  MeanwhiletheVenusofStacksGateisestablishedinthecottage,whichsheclaimsisherhome,andApollo,apparently,isdomiciledinTevershall。
  Irepeatthisfromhearsay,asMellorshasnotcometomepersonally。
  Ihadthisparticularbitoflocalgarbagefromourgarbagebird,ouribis,ourscavengingturkey-buzzard,MrsBolton。Iwouldnothaverepeatedithadshenotexclaimed:herLadyshipwillgonomoretothewoodifthatwoman’sgoingtobeabout!
  IlikeyourpictureofSirMalcolmstridingintotheseawithwhitehairblowingandpinkfleshglowing。Ienvyyouthatsun。Hereitrains。
  ButIdon’tenvySirMalcolmhisinveteratemortalcarnality。However,itsuitshisage。Apparentlyonegrowsmorecarnalandmoremortalasonegrowsolder。Onlyyouthhasatasteofimmortality——ThisnewsaffectedConnieinherstateofsemi-stupefiedellbeingwithvexationamountingtoexasperation。Nowsheadgottobebotheredbythatbeastofawoman!Nowshemuststartandfret!ShehadnoletterfromMellors。
  Theyhadagreednottowriteatall,butnowshewantedtohearfromhimpersonally。Afterall,hewasthefatherofthechildthatwascoming。
  Lethimwrite!
  Buthowhateful!Noweverythingwasmessedup。Howfoulthoselowpeoplewere!Howniceitwashere,inthesunshineandtheindolence,comparedtothatdismalmessofthatEnglishMidlands!Afterall,aclearskywasalmostthemostimportantthinginlife。
  Shedidnotmentionthefactofherpregnancy,eventoHilda。ShewrotetoMrsBoltonforexactinformation。
  DuncanForbes,anartistfriendoftheirs,hadarrivedattheVillaEsmeralda,comingnorthfromRome。Nowhemadeathirdinthegondola,andhebathedwiththemacrossthelagoon,andwastheirescort:aquiet,almosttaciturnyoungman,veryadvancedinhisart。
  ShehadaletterfromMrsBolton:Youwillbepleased,Iamsure,myLady,whenyouseeSirClifford。
  He’slookingquitebloomingandworkingveryhard,andveryhopeful。Ofcourseheislookingforwardtoseeingyouamongusagain。ItisadullhousewithoutmyLady,andweshallallwelcomeherpresenceamongusoncemore。
  AboutMrMellors,Idon’tknowhowmuchSirCliffordtoldyou。Itseemshiswifecamebackallofasuddenoneafternoon,andhefoundhersittingonthedoorstepwhenhecameinfromthewood。Shesaidshewascomebacktohimandwantedtolivewithhimagain,asshewashislegalwife,andhewasn’tgoingtodivorceher。Buthewouldn’thaveanythingtodowithher,andwouldn’tletherinthehouse,anddidnotgoinhimself;hewentbackintothewoodwithouteveropeningthedoor。
  Butwhenhecamebackafterdark,hefoundthehousebrokeninto,sohewentupstairstoseewhatshe’ddone,andhefoundherinbedwithoutaragonher。Heofferedhermoney,butshesaidshewashiswifeandhemusttakeherback。Idon’tknowwhatsortofascenetheyhad。Hismothertoldmeaboutit,she’sterriblyupset。Well,hetoldherhe’ddieratherthaneverlivewithheragain,sohetookhisthingsandwentstraighttohismother’sonTevershallhill。Hestoppedthenightandwenttothewoodnextdaythroughthepark,nevergoingnearthecottage。Itseemsheneversawhiswifethatday。ButthedayaftershewasatherbrotherPan’satBeggarlee,swearingandcarryingon,sayingshewashislegalwife,andthathe’dbeershavingwomenatthecottage,becauseshe’dfoundascent-bottleinhisdrawer,andgold-tippedcigarette-endsontheash-heap,andIdon’tknowwhatall。ThenitseemsthepostmanFredKirksaysheheardsomebodytalkinginMrMellors’bedroomearlyonemorning,andamotor-carhadbeeninthelane。
  MrMellorsstayedonwithhismother,andwenttothewoodthroughthepark,anditseemsshestayedonatthecottage。Well,therewasnoendoftalk。SoatlastMrMellorsandTomPhillipswenttothecottageandfetchedawaymostofthefurnitureandbedding,andunscrewedthehandleofthepump,soshewasforcedtogo。ButinsteadofgoingbacktoStacksGateshewentandlodgedwiththatMrsSwainatBeggarlee,becauseherbrotherDan’swifewouldn’thaveher。AndshekeptgoingtooldMrsMellors’
  house,tocatchhim,andshebeganswearinghe’dgotinbedwithherinthecottageandshewenttoalawyertomakehimpayheranallowance。
  She’sgrownheavy,andmorecommonthanever,andasstrongasabull。
  Andshegoesaboutsayingthemostawfulthingsabouthim,howhehaswomenatthecottage,andhowhebehavedtoherwhentheyweremarried,thelow,beastlythingshedidtoher,andIdon’tknowwhatall。I’msureit’sawful,themischiefawomancando,onceshestartstalking。Andnomatterhowlowshemaybe,there’llbesomeaswillbelieveher,andsomeofthedirtwillstick。I’msurethewayshemakesoutthatMrMellorswasoneofthoselow,beastlymenwithwomen,issimplyshocking。Andpeopleareonlytooreadytobelievethingsagainstanybody,especiallythingslikethat。Shedeclaredshe’llneverleavehimalonewhilehelives。ThoughwhatIsayis,ifhewassobeastlytoher,whyisshesoanxioustogobacktohim?Butofcourseshe’scomingnearherchangeoflife,forshe’syearsolderthanheis。Andthesecommon,violentwomenalwaysgopartlyinsanewhetsthechangeoflifecomesuponthem——ThiswasanastyblowtoConnie。Hereshewas,sureaslife,cominginforhershareofthelownessanddirt。ShefeltangrywithhimfornothavinggotclearofaBerthaCoutts:nay,foreverhavingmarriedher。
  Perhapshehadacertainhankeringafterlowness。Connierememberedthelastnightshehadspentwithhim,andshivered。Hehadknownallthatsensuality,evenwithaBerthaCoutts!Itwasreallyratherdisgusting。
  Itwouldbewelltoberidofhim,clearofhimaltogether。Hewasperhapsreallycommon,reallylow。
  Shehadarevulsionagainstthewholeaffair,andalmostenviedtheGuthriegirlstheirgawkyinexperienceandcrudemaidenliness。Andshenowdreadedthethoughtthatanybodywouldknowaboutherselfandthekeeper。
  Howunspeakablyhumiliating!Shewasweary,afraid,andfeltacravingforutterrespectability,evenforthevulgaranddeadeningrespectabilityoftheGuthriegirls。IfCliffordknewaboutheraffair,howunspeakablyhumiliating!Shewasafraid,terrifiedofsocietyanditsuncleanbite。
  Shealmostwishedshecouldgetridofthechildagain,andbequiteclear。
  Inshort,shefellintoastateoffunk。
  Asforthescent-bottle,thatwasherownfolly。Shehadnotbeenabletorefrainfromperfuminghisoneortwohandkerchiefsandhisshirtsinthedrawer,justoutofchildishness,andshehadleftalittlebottleofCoty’sWood-violetperfume,halfempty,amonghisthings。Shewantedhimtorememberherintheperfume。Asforthecigarette-ends,theywereHilda’s。
  ShecouldnothelpconfidingalittleinDuncanForbes。Shedidn’tsayshehadbeenthekeeper’slover,sheonlysaidshelikedhim,andtoldForbesthehistoryoftheman。
  `Oh,’saidForbes,`you’llsee,they’llneverresttillthey’vepulledthemandownanddonehimits。Ifhehasrefusedtocreepupintothemiddleclasses,whenhehadachance;andifhe’samanwhostandsupforhisownsex,thenthey’lldohimin。It’stheonethingtheywon’tletyoube,straightandopeninyoursex。Youcanbeasdirtyasyoulike。Infactthemoredirtyoudoonsexthebettertheylikeit。Butifyoubelieveinyourownsex,andwon’thaveitdonedirtto:they’lldownyou。It’stheoneinsanetabooleft:sexasanaturalandvitalthing。Theywon’thaveit,andthey’llkillyoubeforethey’llletyouhaveit。You’llsee,they’llhoundthatmandown。Andwhat’shedone,afterall?Ifhe’smadelovetohiswifeallendson,hasn’thearightto?Sheoughttobeproudofit。Butyousee,evenalowbitchlikethatturnsonhim,andusesthehyenainstinctofthemobagainstsex,topullhimdown。Youhaveasnivelandfeelsinfulorawfulaboutyoursex,beforeyou’reallowedtohaveany。Oh,they’llhoundthepoordevildown。’
  Conniehadarevulsionintheoppositedirectionnow。Whathadhedone,afterall?whathadhedonetoherself,Connie,butgiveheranexquisitepleasureandasenseoffreedomandlife?Hehadreleasedherwarm,naturalsexualflow。Andforthattheywouldhoundhimdown。
  Nono,itshouldnotbe。Shesawtheimageofhim,nakedwhitewithtannedfaceandhands,lookingdownandaddressinghiserectpenisasifitwereanotherbeing,theoddgrinflickeringonhisface。Andsheheardhisvoiceagain:Tha’sgotthenicestwoman’sarseofanybody!Andshefelthishandwarmlyandsoftlyclosingoverhertailagain,overhersecretplaces,likeabenediction。Andthewarmthranthroughherwomb,andthelittleflamesflickeredinherknees,andshesaid:Oh,no!Imustn’tgobackonit!Imustnotgobackonhim。ImuststicktohimandtowhatIhadofhim,througheverything。Ihadnowarm,flamylifetillhegaveitme。AndIwon’tgobackonit。
  Shedidarashthing。ShesentalettertoIvyBolton,enclosinganotetothekeeper,andaskingMrsBoltontogiveithim。Andshewrotetohim:Iamverymuchdistressedtohearofallthetroubleyourwifeismakingforyou,butdon’tmindit,itisonlyasortofhysteria。Itwillallblowoverassuddenlyasitcame。ButI’mawfullysorryaboutit,andIdohopeyouarenotmindingverymuch。Afterall,itisn’tworthit。Sheisonlyahystericalwomanwhowantstohurtyou。Ishallbehomeintendays’time,andIdohopeeverythingwillbeallright。AfewdayslatercamealetterfromClifford。Hewasevidentlyupset。IamdelightedtohearyouarepreparedtoleaveVeniceonthesixteenth。Butifyouareenjoyingit,don’thurryhome。Wemissyou,Wragbymissesyou。Butitisessentialthatyoushouldgetyourfullamountofsunshine,sunshineandpyjamas,astheadvertisementsoftheLidosay。
  Sopleasedostayonalittlelonger,ifitischeeringyouupandpreparingyouforoursufficientlyawfulwinter。Eventoday,itrains。