’Therefore,Arthur,’saidhismother,’thegentlemancomeshereasanacquaintance,andnostranger;anditismuchtoberegrettedthatyourunreasonabletempershouldhavefoundoffenceinhim。I
regretit。Isaysotothegentleman。Youwillnotsayso,I
know;thereforeIsayitformyselfandFlintwinch,sincewithustwothegentleman’sbusinesslies。’
Thekeyofthedoorbelowwasnowheardinthelock,andthedoorwasheardtoopenandclose。InduesequenceMrFlintwinchappeared;onwhoseentrancethevisitorrosefromhischair,laughingloud,andfoldedhiminacloseembrace。
’Howgoesit,mycherishedfriend!’saidhe。’Howgoestheworld,myFlintwinch?Rose-coloured?Somuchthebetter,somuchthebetter!Ah,butyoulookcharming!Ah,butyoulookyoungandfreshastheflowersofSpring!Ah,goodlittleboy!Bravechild,bravechild!’
WhileheapingthesecomplimentsonMrFlintwinch,herolledhimaboutwithahandoneachofhisshoulders,untilthestaggeringsofthatgentleman,whounderthecircumstanceswasdryerandmoretwistedthanever,werelikethoseofateetotumnearlyspent。
’Ihadapresentiment,lasttime,thatweshouldbebetterandmoreintimatelyacquainted。Isitcomingonyou,Flintwinch?Isityetcomingon?’
’Why,no,sir,’retortedMrFlintwinch。’Notunusually。Hadn’tyoubetterbeseated?Youhavebeencallingforsomemoreofthatport,sir,Iguess?’
’Ah,Littlejoker!Littlepig!’criedthevisitor。’Hahahaha!’
AndthrowingMrFlintwinchaway,asaclosingpieceofraillery,hesatdownagain。
Theamazement,suspicion,resentment,andshame,withwhichArthurlookedonatallthis,struckhimdumb。MrFlintwinch,whohadspunbackwardsometwoorthreeyardsundertheimpetuslastgiventohim,broughthimselfupwithafacecompletelyunchangedinitsstolidityexceptasitwasaffectedbyshortnessofbreath,andlookedhardatArthur。NotawhitlessreticentandwoodenwasMrFlintwinchoutwardly,thanintheusualcourseofthings:theonlyperceptibledifferenceinhimbeingthattheknotofcravatwhichwasgenerallyunderhisear,hadworkedroundtothebackofhishead:whereitformedanornamentalappendagenotunlikeabagwig,andgavehimsomethingofacourtlyappearance。
AsMrsClennamneverremovedhereyesfromBlandoisonwhomtheyhadsomeeffect,asasteadylookhasonalowersortofdog,soJeremiahneverremovedhisfromArthur。Itwasasiftheyhadtacitlyagreedtotaketheirdifferentprovinces。Thus,intheensuingsilence,JeremiahstoodscrapinghischinandlookingatArthurasthoughheweretryingtoscrewhisthoughtsoutofhimwithaninstrument。
Afteralittle,thevisitor,asifhefeltthesilenceirksome,rose,andimpatientlyputhimselfwithhisbacktothesacredfirewhichhadburnedthroughsomanyyears。ThereuponMrsClennamsaid,movingoneofherhandsforthefirsttime,andmovingitveryslightlywithanactionofdismissal:
’Pleasetoleaveustoourbusiness,Arthur。’
’Mother,Idosowithreluctance。’
’Nevermindwithwhat,’shereturned,’orwithwhatnot。Pleasetoleaveus。Comebackatanyothertimewhenyoumayconsideritadutytoburyhalfanhourwearilyhere。Goodnight。’
Shehelduphermuffledfingersthathemighttouchthemwithhis,accordingtotheirusualcustom,andhestoodoverherwheeledchairtotouchherfacewithhislips。Hethought,then,thathercheekwasmorestrainedthanusual,andthatitwascolder。Ashefollowedthedirectionofhereyes,inrisingagain,towardsMrFlintwinch’sgoodfriend,MrBlandois,MrBlandoissnappedhisfingerandthumbwithoneloudcontemptuoussnap。
’Ileaveyour——yourbusinessacquaintanceinmymother’sroom,MrFlintwinch,’saidClennam,’withagreatdealofsurpriseandagreatdealofunwillingness。’
Thepersonreferredtosnappedhisfingerandthumbagain。
’Goodnight,mother。’
’Goodnight。’
’Ihadafriendonce,mygoodcomradeFlintwinch,’saidBlandois,standingastridebeforethefire,andsoevidentlysayingittoarrestClennam’sretreatingsteps,thathelingerednearthedoor;
’Ihadafriendonce,whohadheardsomuchofthedarksideofthiscityanditsways,thathewouldn’thaveconfidedhimselfalonebynightwithtwopeoplewhohadaninterestingettinghimundertheground——myfaith!noteveninarespectablehouselikethis——unlesshewasbodilytoostrongforthem。Bah!Whatapoltroon,myFlintwinch!Eh?’
’Acur,sir。’
’Agreed!Acur。Buthewouldn’thavedoneit,myFlintwinch,unlesshehadknownthemtohavethewilltosilencehim,withoutthepower。Hewouldn’thavedrunkfromaglassofwaterundersuchcircumstances——noteveninarespectablehouselikethis,myFlintwinch——unlesshehadseenoneofthemdrinkfirst,andswallowtoo!’
Disdainingtospeak,andindeednotverywellable,forhewashalf-choking,Clennamonlyglancedatthevisitorashepassedout。
Thevisitorsalutedhimwithanotherpartingsnap,andhisnosecamedownoverhismoustacheandhismoustachewentupunderhisnose,inanominousanduglysmile。
’ForHeaven’ssake,Affery,’whisperedClennam,assheopenedthedoorforhiminthedarkhall,andhegropedhiswaytothesightofthenight-sky,’whatisgoingonhere?’
Herownappearancewassufficientlyghastly,standinginthedarkwithherapronthrownoverherhead,andspeakingbehinditinalow,deadenedvoice。
’Don’taskmeanything,Arthur。I’vebeeninadreamforeversolong。Goaway!’
Hewentout,andsheshutthedooruponhim。Helookedupatthewindowsofhismother’sroom,andthedimlight,deadenedbytheyellowblinds,seemedtosayaresponseafterAffery,andtomutter,’Don’taskmeanything。Goaway!’
ALetterfromLittleDorritDearMrClennam,AsIsaidinmylastthatitwasbestfornobodytowritetome,andasmysendingyouanotherlittlelettercanthereforegiveyounoothertroublethanthetroubleofreadingitperhapsyoumaynotfindleisureforeventhat,thoughIhopeyouwillsomeday,Iamnowgoingtodevoteanhourtowritingtoyouagain。Thistime,IwritefromRome。
WeleftVenicebeforeMrandMrsGowandid,buttheywerenotsolongupontheroadaswewere,anddidnottravelbythesameway,andsowhenwearrivedwefoundtheminalodginghere,inaplacecalledtheViaGregoriana。Idaresayyouknowit。
NowIamgoingtotellyouallIcanaboutthem,becauseIknowthatiswhatyoumostwanttohear。Theirsisnotaverycomfortablelodging,butperhapsIthoughtitlesssowhenIfirstsawitthanyouwouldhavedone,becauseyouhavebeeninmanydifferentcountriesandhaveseenmanydifferentcustoms。Ofcourseitisafar,farbetterplace——millionsoftimes——thananyIhaveeverbeenusedtountillately;andIfancyIdon’tlookatitwithmyowneyes,butwithhers。Foritwouldbeeasytoseethatshehasalwaysbeenbroughtupinatenderandhappyhome,evenifshehadnottoldmesowithgreatloveforit。
Well,itisaratherbarelodginguparatherdarkcommonstaircase,anditisnearlyallalargedullroom,whereMrGowanpaints。Thewindowsareblockedupwhereanyonecouldlookout,andthewallshavebeenalldrawnoverwithchalkandcharcoalbyotherswhohavelivedtherebefore——oh,——Ishouldthink,foryears!
Thereisacurtainmoredust-colouredthanred,whichdividesit,andthepartbehindthecurtainmakestheprivatesitting-room。
WhenIfirstsawherthereshewasalone,andherworkhadfallenoutofherhand,andshewaslookingupattheskyshiningthroughthetopsofthewindows。PraydonotbeuneasywhenItellyou,butitwasnotquitesoairy,norsobright,norsocheerful,norsohappyandyouthfulaltogetherasIshouldhavelikedittobe。
OnaccountofMrGowan’spaintingPapa’spicturewhichIamnotquiteconvincedIshouldhaveknownfromthelikenessifIhadnotseenhimdoingit,IhavehadmoreopportunitiesofbeingwithhersincethenthanImighthavehadwithoutthisfortunatechance。
Sheisverymuchalone。Verymuchaloneindeed。
ShallItellyouaboutthesecondtimeIsawher?Iwentoneday,whenithappenedthatIcouldrunroundbymyself,atfourorfiveo’clockintheafternoon。Shewasthendiningalone,andhersolitarydinnerhadbeenbroughtinfromsomewhere,overakindofbrazierwithafireinit,andshehadnocompanyorprospectofcompany,thatIcouldsee,buttheoldmanwhohadbroughtit。HewastellingheralongstoryofrobbersoutsidethewallsbeingtakenupbyastonestatueofaSaint,toentertainher——ashesaidtomewhenIcameout,’becausehehadadaughterofhisown,thoughshewasnotsopretty。’
IoughtnowtomentionMrGowan,beforeIsaywhatlittlemoreI
havetosayabouther。Hemustadmireherbeauty,andhemustbeproudofher,foreverybodypraisesit,andhemustbefondofher,andIdonotdoubtthatheis——butinhisway。Youknowhisway,andifitappearsascarelessanddiscontentedinyoureyesasitdoesinmine,Iamnotwronginthinkingthatitmightbebettersuitedtoher。Ifitdoesnotseemsotoyou,IamquitesureIamwhollymistaken;foryourunchangedpoorchildconfidesinyourknowledgeandgoodnessmorethanshecouldevertellyouifshewastotry。Butdon’tbefrightened,Iamnotgoingtotry。
OwingasIthink,ifyouthinksotootoMrGowan’sunsettledanddissatisfiedway,heapplieshimselftohisprofessionverylittle。
Hedoesnothingsteadilyorpatiently;butequallytakesthingsupandthrowsthemdown,anddoesthem,orleavesthemundone,withoutcaringaboutthem。WhenIhaveheardhimtalkingtoPapaduringthesittingsforthepicture,Ihavesatwonderingwhetheritcouldbethathehasnobeliefinanybodyelse,becausehehasnobeliefinhimself。Isitso?Iwonderwhatyouwillsaywhenyoucometothis!Iknowhowyouwilllook,andIcanalmosthearthevoiceinwhichyouwouldtellmeontheIronBridge。
MrGowangoesoutagooddealamongwhatisconsideredthebestcompanyhere——thoughhedoesnotlookasifheenjoyeditorlikeditwhenheiswithit——andshesometimesaccompanieshim,butlatelyshehasgoneoutverylittle。IthinkIhavenoticedthattheyhaveaninconsistentwayofspeakingabouther,asifshehadmadesomegreatself-interestedsuccessinmarryingMrGowan,though,atthesametime,theverysamepeople,wouldnothavedreamedoftakinghimforthemselvesortheirdaughters。Thenhegoesintothecountrybesides,tothinkaboutmakingsketches;andinallplaceswheretherearevisitors,hehasalargeacquaintanceandisverywellknown。Besidesallthis,hehasafriendwhoismuchinhissocietybothathomeandawayfromhome,thoughhetreatsthisfriendverycoollyandisveryuncertaininhisbehaviourtohim。Iamquitesurebecauseshehastoldmeso,thatshedoesnotlikethisfriend。Heissorevoltingtome,too,thathisbeingawayfromhere,atpresent,isquitearelieftomymind。Howmuchmoretohers!
ButwhatIparticularlywantyoutoknow,andwhyIhaveresolvedtotellyousomuchwhileIamafraiditmaymakeyoualittleuncomfortablewithoutoccasion,isthis。Sheissotrueandsodevoted,andknowssocompletelythatallherloveanddutyarehisforever,thatyoumaybecertainshewilllovehim,admirehim,praisehim,andconcealallhisfaults,untilshedies。Ibelievesheconcealsthem,andalwayswillconcealthem,evenfromherself。
Shehasgivenhimaheartthatcanneverbetakenback;andhowevermuchhemaytryit,hewillneverwearoutitsaffection。Youknowthetruthofthis,asyouknoweverything,farfarbetterthanI;