’PoorEdward!’sighedLittleDorrit,withthewholefamilyhistoryinthesigh。
’Yes。Andpooryouandme,too,’returnedFanny,rathersharply。
’Verytrue!Then,mydear,wehavenomother,andwehaveaMrsGeneral。AndItellyouagain,darling,thatMrsGeneral,ifImayreverseacommonproverbandadaptittoher,isacatingloveswhoWILLcatchmice。Thatwoman,Iamquitesureandconfident,willbeourmother-in-law。’
’Icanhardlythink,Fanny-’Fannystoppedher。
’Now,don’targuewithmeaboutit,Amy,’saidshe,’becauseIknowbetter。’Feelingthatshehadbeensharpagain,shedabbedhersister’sforeheadagain,andblewuponitagain。’Toresumeoncemore,mydear。ItthenbecomesaquestionwithmeIamproudandspirited,Amy,asyouverywellknow:toomuchso,Idaresay
whetherIshallmakeupmymindtotakeituponmyselftocarrythefamilythrough。’
’How?’askedhersister,anxiously。
’Iwillnot,’saidFanny,withoutansweringthequestion,’submittobemother-in-lawedbyMrsGeneral;andIwillnotsubmittobe,inanyrespectwhatever,eitherpatronisedortormentedbyMrsMerdle。’
LittleDorritlaidherhanduponthehandthatheldthebottleofsweetwater,withastillmoreanxiouslook。Fanny,quitepunishingherownforeheadwiththevehementdabsshenowbegantogiveit,fitfullywenton。
’Thathehassomehoworother,andhowisofnoconsequence,attainedaverygoodposition,noonecandeny。Thatitisaverygoodconnection,noonecandeny。Andastothequestionofcleverornotclever,Idoubtverymuchwhetheracleverhusbandwouldbesuitabletome。Icannotsubmit。Ishouldnotbeabletodefertohimenough。’
’O,mydearFanny!’expostulatedLittleDorrit,uponwhomakindofterrorhadbeenstealingassheperceivedwhathersistermeant。
’Ifyoulovedanyone,allthisfeelingwouldchange。Ifyoulovedanyone,youwouldnomorebeyourself,butyouwouldquiteloseandforgetyourselfinyourdevotiontohim。Ifyoulovedhim,Fanny——’Fannyhadstoppedthedabbinghand,andwaslookingatherfixedly。
’O,indeed!’criedFanny。’Really?Blessme,howmuchsomepeopleknowofsomesubjects!Theysayeveryonehasasubject,andI
certainlyseemtohavehituponyours,Amy。There,youlittlething,Iwasonlyinfun,’dabbinghersister’sforehead;’butdon’tyoubeasillypuss,anddon’tyouthinkflightilyandeloquentlyaboutdegenerateimpossibilities。There!Now,I’llgobacktomyself。’
’DearFanny,letmesayfirst,thatIwouldfarratherweworkedforascantylivingagainthanIwouldseeyourichandmarriedtoMrSparkler。’
’Letyousay,mydear?’retortedFanny。’Why,ofcourse,Iwillletyousayanything。Thereisnoconstraintuponyou,Ihope。Wearetogethertotalkitover。AndastomarryingMrSparkler,I
havenottheslightestintentionofdoingsoto-night,mydear,orto-morrowmorningeither。’
’Butatsometime?’
’Atnotime,foranythingIknowatpresent,’answeredFanny,withindifference。Then,suddenlychangingherindifferenceintoaburningrestlessness,sheadded,’Youtalkabouttheclevermen,youlittlething!It’sallveryfineandeasytotalkabouttheclevermen;butwherearethey?Idon’tseethemanywherenearme!’
’MydearFanny,soshortatime——’
’Shorttimeorlongtime,’interruptedFanny。’Iamimpatientofoursituation。Idon’tlikeoursituation,andverylittlewouldinducemetochangeit。Othergirls,differentlyrearedanddifferentlycircumstancedaltogether,mightwonderatwhatIsayormaydo。Letthem。Theyaredrivenbytheirlivesandcharacters;
Iamdrivenbymine。’
’Fanny,mydearFanny,youknowthatyouhavequalitiestomakeyouthewifeofoneverysuperiortoMrSparkler。’
’Amy,mydearAmy,’retortedFanny,parodyingherwords,’IknowthatIwishtohaveamoredefinedanddistinctposition,inwhichIcanassertmyselfwithgreatereffectagainstthatinsolentwoman。’
’Wouldyoutherefore——forgivemyasking,Fanny——thereforemarryherson?’
’Why,perhaps,’saidFanny,withatriumphantsmile。’Theremaybemanylesspromisingwaysofarrivingatanendthanthat,MYdear。
Thatpieceofinsolencemaythink,now,thatitwouldbeagreatsuccesstogethersonoffuponme,andshelveme。But,perhaps,shelittlethinkshowIwouldretortuponherifImarriedherson。
Iwouldopposeherineverything,andcompetewithher。Iwouldmakeitthebusinessofmylife。’
Fannysetdownthebottlewhenshecametothis,andwalkedabouttheroom;alwaysstoppingandstandingstillwhileshespoke。
’OnethingIcouldcertainlydo,mychild:Icouldmakeherolder。
AndIwould!’
Thiswasfollowedbyanotherwalk。
’Iwouldtalkofherasanoldwoman。Iwouldpretendtoknow——ifIdidn’t,butIshouldfromherson——allaboutherage。Andsheshouldhearmesay,Amy:affectionately,quitedutifullyandaffectionately:howwellshelooked,consideringhertimeoflife。
Icouldmakeherseemolderatonce,bybeingmyselfsomuchyounger。Imaynotbeashandsomeassheis;Iamnotafairjudgeofthatquestion,Isuppose;butIknowIamhandsomeenoughtobeathorninherside。AndIwouldbe!’
’Mydearsister,wouldyoucondemnyourselftoanunhappylifeforthis?’
’Itwouldn’tbeanunhappylife,Amy。ItwouldbethelifeIamfittedfor。Whetherbydisposition,orwhetherbycircumstances,isnomatter;Iambetterfittedforsuchalifethanforalmostanyother。’
Therewassomethingofadesolatetoneinthosewords;but,withashortproudlaughshetookanotherwalk,andafterpassingagreatlooking-glasscametoanotherstop。
’Figure!Figure,Amy!Well。Thewomanhasagoodfigure。Iwillgiveherherdue,andnotdenyit。Butisitsofarbeyondallothersthatitisaltogetherunapproachable?Uponmyword,Iamnotsosureofit。Givesomemuchyoungerwomanthelatitudeastodressthatshehas,beingmarried;andwewouldseeaboutthat,mydear!’
Somethinginthethoughtthatwasagreeableandflattering,broughtherbacktoherseatinagayertemper。Shetookhersister’shandsinhers,andclappedallfourhandsaboveherheadasshelookedinhersister’sfacelaughing:
’Andthedancer,Amy,thatshehasquiteforgotten——thedancerwhoborenosortofresemblancetome,andofwhomIneverremindher,ohdearno!——shoulddancethroughherlife,anddanceinherway,tosuchatuneaswoulddisturbherinsolentplacidityalittle。
justalittle,mydearAmy,justalittle!’
MeetinganearnestandimploringlookinAmy’sface,shebroughtthefourhandsdown,andlaidonlyoneonAmy’slips。
’Now,don’targuewithme,child,’shesaidinasternerway,’becauseitisofnouse。Iunderstandthesesubjectsmuchbetterthanyoudo。Ihavenotnearlymadeupmymind,butitmaybe。
Nowwehavetalkedthisovercomfortably,andmaygotobed。Youbestanddearestlittlemouse,Goodnight!’WiththosewordsFannyweighedherAnchor,and——havingtakensomuchadvice——leftoffbeingadvisedforthatoccasion。
Thenceforward,AmyobservedMrSparkler’streatmentbyhisenslaver,withnewreasonsforattachingimportancetoallthatpassedbetweenthem。ThereweretimeswhenFannyappearedquiteunabletoendurehismentalfeebleness,andwhenshebecamesosharplyimpatientofitthatshewouldallbutdismisshimforgood。Therewereothertimeswhenshegotonmuchbetterwithhim;
whenheamusedher,andwhenhersenseofsuperiorityseemedtocounterbalancethatoppositesideofthescale。IfMrSparklerhadbeenotherthanthefaithfullestandmostsubmissiveofswains,hewassufficientlyhardpressedtohavefledfromthesceneofhistrials,andhavesetatleastthewholedistancefromRometoLondonbetweenhimselfandhisenchantress。Buthehadnogreaterwillofhisownthanaboathaswhenitistowedbyasteam-ship;
andhefollowedhiscruelmistressthroughroughandsmooth,onequallystrongcompulsion。
MrsMerdle,duringthesepassages,saidlittletoFanny,butsaidmoreabouther。Shewas,asitwere,forcedtolookatherthroughhereye-glass,andingeneralconversationtoallowcommendationsofherbeautytobewrungfromherbyitsirresistibledemands。
ThedefiantcharacteritassumedwhenFannyheardtheseextollingsasitgenerallyhappenedthatshedid,wasnotexpressiveofconcessionstotheimpartialbosom;buttheutmostrevengethebosomtookwas,tosayaudibly,’Aspoiltbeauty——butwiththatfaceandshape,whocouldwonder?’
Itmighthavebeenaboutamonthorsixweeksafterthenightofthenewadvice,whenLittleDorritbegantothinkshedetectedsomenewunderstandingbetweenMrSparklerandFanny。MrSparkler,asifinattendancetosomecompact,scarcelyeverspokewithoutfirstlookingtowardsFannyforleave。Thatyoungladywastoodiscreetevertolookbackagain;but,ifMrSparklerhadpermissiontospeak,sheremainedsilent;ifhehadnot,sheherselfspoke。
Moreover,itbecameplainwheneverHenryGowanattemptedtoperformthefriendlyofficeofdrawinghimout,thathewasnottobedrawn。Andnotonlythat,butFannywouldpresently,withoutanypointedapplicationintheworld,chancetosaysomethingwithsuchastinginitthatGowanwoulddrawbackasifhehadputhishandintoabee-hive。
TherewasyetanothercircumstancewhichwentalongwaytoconfirmLittleDorritinherfears,thoughitwasnotagreatcircumstanceinitself。MrSparkler’sdemeanourtowardsherselfchanged。Itbecamefraternal。Sometimes,whenshewasintheoutercircleofassemblies——attheirownresidence,atMrsMerdle’s,orelsewhere——
shewouldfindherselfstealthilysupportedroundthewaistbyMrSparkler’sarm。MrSparklerneverofferedtheslightestexplanationofthisattention;butmerelysmiledwithanairofblundering,contented,good-naturedproprietorship,which,insoheavyagentleman,wasominouslyexpressive。
LittleDorritwasathomeoneday,thinkingaboutFannywithaheavyheart。Theyhadaroomatoneendoftheirdrawing-roomsuite,nearlyallirregularbay-window,projectingoverthestreet,andcommandingallthepicturesquelifeandvarietyoftheCorso,bothupanddown。Atthreeorfouro’clockintheafternoon,Englishtime,theviewfromthiswindowwasverybrightandpeculiar;andLittleDorritusedtositandmusehere,muchasshehadbeenusedtowhileawaythetimeinherbalconyatVenice。
Seatedthusoneday,shewassoftlytouchedontheshoulder,andFannysaid,’Well,Amydear,’andtookherseatatherside。Theirseatwasapartofthewindow;whentherewasanythinginthewayofaprocessiongoingon,theyusedtohavebrightdraperieshungoutofthewindow,andusedtokneelorsitonthisseat,andlookoutatit,leaningonthebrilliantcolour。Buttherewasnoprocessionthatday,andLittleDorritwasrathersurprisedbyFanny’sbeingathomeatthathour,asshewasgenerallyoutonhorsebackthen。
’Well,Amy,’saidFanny,’whatareyouthinkingof,littleone?’
’Iwasthinkingofyou,Fanny。’
’No?Whatacoincidence!Ideclarehere’ssomeoneelse。Youwerenotthinkingofthissomeoneelsetoo;wereyou,Amy?’