AtthisdifficultpointoftheconversationBobgavein,andchangedthesubjecttohard-bake:alwayshislastresourcewhenhefoundhislittlefriendgettinghimintoapolitical,social,ortheologicalcorner。ButthiswastheoriginofaseriesofSundayexcursionsthatthesetwocuriouscompanionsmadetogether。TheyusedtoissuefromthelodgeonalternateSundayafternoonswithgreatgravity,boundforsomemeadowsorgreenlanesthathadbeenelaboratelyappointedbytheturnkeyinthecourseoftheweek;andthereshepickedgrassandflowerstobringhome,whilehesmokedhispipe。Afterwards,thereweretea-gardens,shrimps,ale,andotherdelicacies;andthentheywouldcomebackhandinhand,unlessshewasmorethanusuallytired,andhadfallenasleeponhisshoulder。
Inthoseearlydays,theturnkeyfirstbeganprofoundlytoconsideraquestionwhichcosthimsomuchmentallabour,thatitremainedundeterminedonthedayofhisdeath。Hedecidedtowillandbequeathhislittlepropertyofsavingstohisgodchild,andthepointarosehowcoulditbeso’tiedup’asthatonlysheshouldhavethebenefitofit?Hisexperienceonthelockgavehimsuchanacuteperceptionoftheenormousdifficultyof’tyingup’moneywithanyapproachtotightness,andcontrariwiseoftheremarkableeasewithwhichitgotloose,thatthroughaseriesofyearsheregularlypropoundedthisknottypointtoeverynewinsolventagentandotherprofessionalgentlemanwhopassedinandout。
’Supposing,’hewouldsay,statingthecasewithhiskeyontheprofessionalgentleman’swaistcoat;’supposingamanwantedtoleavehispropertytoayoungfemale,andwantedtotieitupsothatnobodyelseshouldeverbeabletomakeagrabatit;howwouldyoutieupthatproperty?’
’Settleitstrictlyonherself,’theprofessionalgentlemanwouldcomplacentlyanswer。
’Butlookhere,’quoththeturnkey。’Supposingshehad,sayabrother,sayafather,sayahusband,whowouldbelikelytomakeagrabatthatpropertywhenshecameintoit——howaboutthat?’
’Itwouldbesettledonherself,andtheywouldhavenomorelegalclaimonitthanyou,’wouldbetheprofessionalanswer。
’Stopabit,’saidtheturnkey。’Supposingshewastender-hearted,andtheycameoverher。Where’syourlawfortyingitupthen?’
Thedeepestcharacterwhomtheturnkeysounded,wasunabletoproducehislawfortyingsuchaknotasthat。So,theturnkeythoughtaboutitallhislife,anddiedintestateafterall。
Butthatwaslongafterwards,whenhisgod-daughterwaspastsixteen。Thefirsthalfofthatspaceofherlifewasonlyjustaccomplished,whenherpitifulandplaintivelooksawherfatherawidower。Fromthattimetheprotectionthatherwonderingeyeshadexpressedtowardshim,becameembodiedinaction,andtheChildoftheMarshalseatookuponherselfanewrelationtowardstheFather。
Atfirst,suchababycoulddolittlemorethansitwithhim,desertingherlivelierplacebythehighfender,andquietlywatchinghim。Butthismadehersofarnecessarytohimthathebecameaccustomedtoher,andbegantobesensibleofmissingherwhenshewasnotthere。Throughthislittlegate,shepassedoutofchildhoodintothecare-ladenworld。
Whatherpitifullooksaw,atthatearlytime,inherfather,inhersister,inherbrother,inthejail;howmuch,orhowlittleofthewretchedtruthitpleasedGodtomakevisibletoher;lieshiddenwithmanymysteries。Itisenoughthatshewasinspiredtobesomethingwhichwasnotwhattherestwere,andtobethatsomething,differentandlaborious,forthesakeoftherest。
Inspired?Yes。Shallwespeakoftheinspirationofapoetorapriest,andnotoftheheartimpelledbyloveandself-devotiontothelowliestworkinthelowliestwayoflife!
Withnoearthlyfriendtohelpher,orsomuchastoseeher,buttheonesostrangelyassorted;withnoknowledgeevenofthecommondailytoneandhabitsofthecommonmembersofthefreecommunitywhoarenotshutupinprisons;bornandbredinasocialcondition,falseevenwithareferencetothefalsestconditionoutsidethewalls;drinkingfrominfancyofawellwhosewatershadtheirownpeculiarstain,theirownunwholesomeandunnaturaltaste;theChildoftheMarshalseabeganherwomanlylife。
Nomatterthroughwhatmistakesanddiscouragements,whatridiculenotunkindlymeant,butdeeplyfeltofheryouthandlittlefigure,whathumbleconsciousnessofherownbabyhoodandwantofstrength,eveninthematterofliftingandcarrying;throughhowmuchwearinessandhopelessness,andhowmanysecrettears;shedrudgedon,untilrecognisedasuseful,evenindispensable。Thattimecame。Shetooktheplaceofeldestofthethree,inallthingsbutprecedence;wastheheadofthefallenfamily;andbore,inherownheart,itsanxietiesandshames。
Atthirteen,shecouldreadandkeepaccounts,thatis,couldputdowninwordsandfigureshowmuchthebarenecessariesthattheywantedwouldcost,andhowmuchlesstheyhadtobuythemwith。
Shehadbeen,bysnatchesofafewweeksatatime,toaneveningschooloutside,andgothersisterandbrothersenttoday-schoolsbydesultorystarts,duringthreeorfouryears。Therewasnoinstructionforanyofthemathome;butsheknewwell——noonebetter——thatamansobrokenastobetheFatheroftheMarshalsea,couldbenofathertohisownchildren。
Tothesescantymeansofimprovement,sheaddedanotherofherowncontriving。Once,amongtheheterogeneouscrowdofinmatesthereappearedadancing-master。Hersisterhadagreatdesiretolearnthedancing-master’sart,andseemedtohaveatastethatway。Atthirteenyearsold,theChildoftheMarshalseapresentedherselftothedancing-master,withalittlebaginherhand,andpreferredherhumblepetition。
’Ifyouplease,Iwasbornhere,sir。’
’Oh!Youaretheyounglady,areyou?’saidthedancing-master,surveyingthesmallfigureandupliftedface。
’Yes,sir。’
’AndwhatcanIdoforyou?’saidthedancing-master。
’Nothingforme,sir,thankyou,’anxiouslyundrawingthestringsofthelittlebag;’butif,whileyoustayhere,youcouldbesokindastoteachmysistercheap——’
’Mychild,I’llteachherfornothing,’saidthedancing-master,shuttingupthebag。Hewasasgood-naturedadancing-masteraseverdancedtotheInsolventCourt,andhekepthisword。Thesisterwassoaptapupil,andthedancing-masterhadsuchabundantleisuretobestowuponherforittookhimamatteroftenweekstosettohiscreditors,leadoff,turntheCommissioners,andrightandleftbacktohisprofessionalpursuits,thatwonderfulprogresswasmade。Indeedthedancing-masterwassoproudofit,andsowishfultodisplayitbeforehelefttoafewselectfriendsamongthecollegians,thatatsixo’clockonacertainfinemorning,aminuetdelacourcameoffintheyard——thecollege-
roomsbeingoftooconfinedproportionsforthepurpose——inwhichsomuchgroundwascovered,andthestepsweresoconscientiouslyexecuted,thatthedancing-master,havingtoplaythekitbesides,wasthoroughlyblown。
Thesuccessofthisbeginning,whichledtothedancing-master’scontinuinghisinstructionafterhisrelease,emboldenedthepoorchildtotryagain。Shewatchedandwaitedmonthsforaseamstress。Inthefulnessoftimeamillinercamein,andtohersherepairedonherownbehalf。
’Ibegyourpardon,ma’am,’shesaid,lookingtimidlyroundthedoorofthemilliner,whomshefoundintearsandinbed:’butI
wasbornhere。’
Everybodyseemedtohearofherassoonastheyarrived;forthemillinersatupinbed,dryinghereyes,andsaid,justasthedancing-masterhadsaid:
’Oh!Youarethechild,areyou?’
’Yes,ma’am。’
’IamsorryIhaven’tgotanythingforyou,’saidthemilliner,shakingherhead。
’It’snotthat,ma’am。IfyoupleaseIwanttolearnneedle-work。’
’Whyshouldyoudothat,’returnedthemilliner,’withmebeforeyou?Ithasnotdonememuchgood。’
’Nothing——whateveritis——seemstohavedoneanybodymuchgoodwhocomeshere,’shereturnedinallsimplicity;’butIwanttolearnjustthesame。’
’Iamafraidyouaresoweak,yousee,’themillinerobjected。
’Idon’tthinkIamweak,ma’am。’
’Andyouaresovery,verylittle,yousee,’themillinerobjected。
’Yes,IamafraidIamverylittleindeed,’returnedtheChildoftheMarshalsea;andsobegantosoboverthatunfortunatedefectofhers,whichcamesoofteninherway。Themilliner——whowasnotmoroseorhard-hearted,onlynewlyinsolvent——wastouched,tookherinhandwithgoodwill,foundherthemostpatientandearnestofpupils,andmadeheracunningwork-womanincourseoftime。
Incourseoftime,andintheveryself-samecourseoftime,theFatheroftheMarshalseagraduallydevelopedanewflowerofcharacter。ThemoreFatherlyhegrewastotheMarshalsea,andthemoredependenthebecameonthecontributionsofhischangingfamily,thegreaterstandhemadebyhisforlorngentility。Withthesamehandthathepocketedacollegian’shalf-crownhalfanhourago,hewouldwipeawaythetearsthatstreamedoverhischeeksifanyreferenceweremadetohisdaughters’earningtheirbread。So,overandaboveotherdailycares,theChildoftheMarshalseahadalwaysuponherthecareofpreservingthegenteelfictionthattheywereallidlebeggarstogether。
Thesisterbecameadancer。Therewasaruineduncleinthefamilygroup——ruinedbyhisbrother,theFatheroftheMarshalsea,andknowingnomorehowthanhisruinerdid,butacceptingthefactasaninevitablecertainty——onwhomherprotectiondevolved。
Naturallyaretiredandsimpleman,hehadshownnoparticularsenseofbeingruinedatthetimewhenthatcalamityfelluponhim,furtherthanthatheleftoffwashinghimselfwhentheshockwasannounced,andnevertooktothatluxuryanymore。Hehadbeenaveryindifferentmusicalamateurinhisbetterdays;andwhenhefellwithhisbrother,resortedforsupporttoplayingaclarionetasdirtyashimselfinasmallTheatreOrchestra。Itwasthetheatreinwhichhisniecebecameadancer;hehadbeenafixturetherealongtimewhenshetookherpoorstationinit;andheacceptedthetaskofservingasherescortandguardian,justashewouldhaveacceptedanillness,alegacy,afeast,starvation——
anythingbutsoap。
Toenablethisgirltoearnherfewweeklyshillings,itwasnecessaryfortheChildoftheMarshalseatogothroughanelaborateformwiththeFather。