’Butthisisnot,’sheadded,withthequieteffortagain,’whatI
  havecometotroubleyouwith,sir。Mysister’shavingfoundafriend,aladyshehastoldmeofandmademeratheranxiousabout,wasthefirstcauseofmycomingawayfromhome。Andbeingaway,andcomingonpurposeroundbywhereyoulivedandseeingalightinthewindow——’
  Notforthefirsttime。No,notforthefirsttime。InLittleDorrit’seyes,theoutsideofthatwindowhadbeenadistantstaronothernightsthanthis。Shehadtoiledoutofherway,tiredandtroubled,tolookupatit,andwonderaboutthegrave,browngentlemanfromsofaroff,whohadspokentoherasafriendandprotector。
  ’Therewerethreethings,’saidLittleDorrit,’thatIthoughtI
  wouldliketosay,ifyouwerealoneandImightcomeup-stairs。
  First,whatIhavetriedtosay,butnevercan——nevershall——’
  ’Hush,hush!Thatisdonewith,anddisposedof。Letuspasstothesecond,’saidClennam,smilingheragitationaway,makingtheblazeshineuponher,andputtingwineandcakeandfruittowardsheronthetable。
  ’Ithink,’saidLittleDorrit——’thisisthesecondthing,sir——I
  thinkMrsClennammusthavefoundoutmysecret,andmustknowwhereIcomefromandwhereIgoto。WhereIlive,Imean。’
  ’Indeed!’returnedClennamquickly。Heaskedher,aftershortconsideration,whyshesupposedso。
  ’Ithink,’repliedLittleDorrit,’thatMrFlintwinchmusthavewatchedme。’
  Andwhy,Clennamasked,asheturnedhiseyesuponthefire,benthisbrows,andconsideredagain;whydidshesupposethat?
  ’Ihavemethimtwice。Bothtimesnearhome。Bothtimesatnight,whenIwasgoingback。BothtimesIthoughtthoughthatmayeasilybemymistake,thathehardlylookedasifhehadmetmebyaccident。’
  ’Didhesayanything?’
  ’No;heonlynoddedandputhisheadononeside。’
  ’Thedeviltakehishead!’musedClennam,stilllookingatthefire;’it’salwaysononeside。’
  Herousedhimselftopersuadehertoputsomewinetoherlips,andtotouchsomethingtoeat——itwasverydifficult,shewassotimidandshy——andthensaid,musingagain:
  ’Ismymotheratallchangedtoyou?’
  ’Oh,notatall。Sheisjustthesame。IwonderedwhetherIhadbettertellhermyhistory。IwonderedwhetherImight——Imean,whetheryouwouldlikemetotellher。Iwondered,’saidLittleDorrit,lookingathiminasuppliantway,andgraduallywithdrawinghereyesashelookedather,’whetheryouwouldadvisemewhatIoughttodo。’
  ’LittleDorrit,’saidClennam;andthephrasehadalreadybegun,betweenthesetwo,tostandforahundredgentlephrases,accordingtothevaryingtoneandconnectioninwhichitwasused;’donothing。Iwillhavesometalkwithmyoldfriend,MrsAffery。Donothing,LittleDorrit——exceptrefreshyourselfwithsuchmeansastherearehere。Ientreatyoutodothat。’
  ’Thankyou,Iamnothungry。Nor,’saidLittleDorrit,ashesoftlyputherglasstowardsher,’northirsty——IthinkMaggymightlikesomething,perhaps。’
  ’Wewillmakeherfindpocketspresentlyforallthereishere,’
  saidClennam:’butbeforeweawakeher,therewasathirdthingtosay。’
  ’Yes。Youwillnotbeoffended,sir?’
  ’Ipromisethat,unreservedly。’
  ’Itwillsoundstrange。Ihardlyknowhowtosayit。Don’tthinkitunreasonableorungratefulinme,’saidLittleDorrit,withreturningandincreasingagitation。
  ’No,no,no。Iamsureitwillbenaturalandright。IamnotafraidthatIshallputawrongconstructiononit,whateveritis。’
  ’Thankyou。Youarecomingbacktoseemyfatheragain?’
  ’Yes。’
  ’Youhavebeensogoodandthoughtfulastowritehimanote,sayingthatyouarecomingto-morrow?’
  ’Oh,thatwasnothing!Yes。’
  ’Canyouguess,’saidLittleDorrit,foldinghersmallhandstightinoneanother,andlookingathimwithalltheearnestnessofhersoullookingsteadilyoutofhereyes,’whatIamgoingtoaskyounottodo?’
  ’IthinkIcan。ButImaybewrong。’
  ’No,youarenotwrong,’saidLittleDorrit,shakingherhead。’Ifweshouldwantitsovery,verybadlythatwecannotdowithoutit,letmeaskyouforit。’
  ’IWill,——IWill。’
  ’Don’tencouragehimtoask。Don’tunderstandhimifhedoesask。
  Don’tgiveittohim。Savehimandsparehimthat,andyouwillbeabletothinkbetterofhim!’
  Clennamsaid——notveryplainly,seeingthosetearsglisteninginheranxiouseyes——thatherwishshouldbesacredwithhim。
  ’Youdon’tknowwhatheis,’shesaid;’youdon’tknowwhathereallyis。Howcanyou,seeinghimthereallatonce,dearlove,andnotgradually,asIhavedone!Youhavebeensogoodtous,sodelicatelyandtrulygood,thatIwanthimtobebetterinyoureyesthaninanybody’s。AndIcannotbeartothink,’criedLittleDorrit,coveringhertearswithherhands,’Icannotbeartothinkthatyouofalltheworldshouldseehiminhisonlymomentsofdegradation。’
  ’Pray,’saidClennam,’donotbesodistressed。Pray,pray,LittleDorrit!Thisisquiteunderstoodnow。’
  ’Thankyou,sir。Thankyou!Ihavetriedverymuchtokeepmyselffromsayingthis;Ihavethoughtaboutit,daysandnights;butwhenIknewforcertainyouwerecomingagain,Imadeupmymindtospeaktoyou。NotbecauseIamashamedofhim,’shedriedhertearsquickly,’butbecauseIknowhimbetterthananyonedoes,andlovehim,andamproudofhim。’
  Relievedofthisweight,LittleDorritwasnervouslyanxioustobegone。Maggybeingbroadawake,andintheactofdistantlygloatingoverthefruitandcakeswithchucklesofanticipation,Clennammadethebestdiversioninhispowerbypouringheroutaglassofwine,whichshedrankinaseriesofloudsmacks;puttingherhanduponherwindpipeaftereveryone,andsaying,breathless,withhereyesinaprominentstate,’Oh,ain’titd’licious!Ain’tithospitally!’Whenshehadfinishedthewineandtheseencomiums,hechargedhertoloadherbasketshewasneverwithoutherbasketwitheveryeatablethinguponthetable,andtotakeespecialcaretoleavenoscrapbehind。Maggy’spleasureindoingthisandherlittlemother’spleasureinseeingMaggypleased,wasasgoodaturnascircumstancescouldhavegiventothelateconversation。
  ’Butthegateswillhavebeenlockedlongago,’saidClennam,suddenlyrememberingit。’Whereareyougoing?’
  ’IamgoingtoMaggy’slodging,’answeredLittleDorrit。’Ishallbequitesafe,quitewelltakencareof。’
  ’Imustaccompanyyouthere,’saidClennam,’Icannotletyougoalone。’
  ’Yes,prayleaveustogotherebyourselves。Praydo!’beggedLittleDorrit。
  Shewassoearnestinthepetition,thatClennamfeltadelicacyinobtrudinghimselfuponher:therather,becausehecouldwellunderstandthatMaggy’slodgingwasoftheobscurestsort。’Come,Maggy,’saidLittleDorritcheerily,’weshalldoverywell;weknowthewaybythistime,Maggy?’
  ’Yes,yes,littlemother;weknowtheway,’chuckledMaggy。Andawaytheywent。LittleDorritturnedatthedoortosay,’Godblessyou!’Shesaiditverysoftly,butperhapsshemayhavebeenasaudibleabove——whoknows!——asawholecathedralchoir。
  ArthurClennamsufferedthemtopassthecornerofthestreetbeforehefollowedatadistance;notwithanyideaofencroachingasecondtimeonLittleDorrit’sprivacy,buttosatisfyhismindbyseeinghersecureintheneighbourhoodtowhichshewasaccustomed。Sodiminutiveshelooked,sofragileanddefencelessagainstthebleakdampweather,flittingalongintheshufflingshadowofhercharge,thathefelt,inhiscompassion,andinhishabitofconsideringherachildapartfromtherestoftheroughworld,asifhewouldhavebeengladtotakeherupinhisarmsandcarryhertoherjourney’send。
  IncourseoftimeshecameintotheleadingthoroughfarewheretheMarshalseawas,andthenhesawthemslackentheirpace,andsoonturndownaby-street。Hestopped,feltthathehadnorighttogofurther,andslowlyleftthem。Hehadnosuspicionthattheyrananyriskofbeinghouselessuntilmorning;hadnoideaofthetruthuntillong,longafterwards。
  But,saidLittleDorrit,whentheystoppedatapoordwellingallindarkness,andheardnosoundonlisteningatthedoor,’Now,thisisagoodlodgingforyou,Maggy,andwemustnotgiveoffence。Consequently,wewillonlyknocktwice,andnotveryloud;andifwecannotwakethemso,wemustwalkabouttillday。’
  Once,LittleDorritknockedwithacarefulhand,andlistened。
  Twice,LittleDorritknockedwithacarefulhand,andlistened。
  Allwascloseandstill。’Maggy,wemustdothebestwecan,mydear。Wemustbepatient,andwaitforday。’
  Itwasachilldarknight,withadampwindblowing,whentheycameoutintotheleadingstreetagain,andheardtheclocksstrikehalf-pastone。’Inonlyfivehoursandahalf,’saidLittleDorrit,’weshallbeabletogohome。’Tospeakofhome,andtogoandlookatit,itbeingsonear,wasanaturalsequence。Theywenttotheclosedgate,andpeepedthroughintothecourt-yard。
  ’Ihopeheissoundasleep,’saidLittleDorrit,kissingoneofthebars,’anddoesnotmissme。’
  Thegatewassofamiliar,andsolikeacompanion,thattheyputdownMaggy’sbasketinacornertoserveforaseat,andkeepingclosetogether,restedthereforsometime。Whilethestreetwasemptyandsilent,LittleDorritwasnotafraid;butwhensheheardafootstepatadistance,orsawamovingshadowamongthestreetlamps,shewasstartled,andwhispered,’Maggy,Iseesomeone。
  Comeaway!’Maggywouldthenwakeupmoreorlessfretfully,andtheywouldwanderaboutalittle,andcomebackagain。
  Aslongaseatingwasanoveltyandanamusement,Maggykeptupprettywell。Butthatperiodgoingby,shebecamequerulousaboutthecold,andshiveredandwhimpered。’Itwillsoonbeover,dear,’saidLittleDorritpatiently。’Ohit’sallveryfineforyou,littlemother,’returnedMaggy,’butI’mapoorthing,onlytenyearsold。’Atlast,inthedeadofthenight,whenthestreetwasverystillindeed,LittleDorritlaidtheheavyheaduponherbosom,andsoothedhertosleep。Andthusshesatatthegate,asitwerealone;lookingupatthestars,andseeingthecloudspassoverthemintheirwildflight——whichwasthedanceatLittleDorrit’sparty。
  ’Ifitreallywasaparty!’shethoughtonce,asshesatthere。
  ’Ifitwaslightandwarmandbeautiful,anditwasourhouse,andmypoordearwasitsmaster,andhadneverbeeninsidethesewalls。
  AndifMrClennamwasoneofourvisitors,andweweredancingtodelightfulmusic,andwereallasgayandlight-heartedaseverwecouldbe!Iwonder——’Suchavistaofwonderopenedoutbeforeher,thatshesatlookingupatthestars,quitelost,untilMaggywasquerulousagain,andwantedtogetupandwalk。