Mr。LaurencecamehurryingbackwithBeth,bringingeverycomfortthekindoldgentlemancouldthinkoffortheinvalid,andfriendliestpromisesofprotectionforthegirlsduringthemother’sabsence,whichcomfortedherverymuch。Therewasnothinghedidn’toffer,fromhisowndressinggowntohimselfasescort。Butthelastwasimpossible。Mrs。Marchwouldnothearoftheoldgentleman’sundertakingthelongjourney,yetanexpressionofreliefwasvisiblewhenhespokeofit,foranxietyillfitsonefortraveling。
Hesawthelook,knithisheavyeyebrows,rubbedhishands,andmarchedabruptlyaway,sayinghe’dbebackdirectly。Noonehadtimetothinkofhimagaintill,asMegranthroughtheentry,withapairofrubbersinonehandandacupofteaintheother,shecamesuddenlyuponMr。Brooke。
“I’mverysorrytohearofthis,MissMarch,“hesaid,inthekind,quiettonewhichsoundedverypleasantlytoherperturbedspirit。“Icametooffermyselfasescorttoyourmother。
Mr。
LaurencehascommissionsformeinWashington,anditwillgivemerealsatisfactiontobeofservicetoherthere。“
Downdroppedtherubbers,andtheteawasverynearfollowing,asMegputoutherhand,withafacesofullofgratitudethatMr。
Brookewouldhavefeltrepaidforamuchgreatersacrificethanthetriflingoneoftimeandcomfortwhichhewasabouttotake。
“Howkindyouallare!Motherwillaccept,I’msure,anditwillbesucharelieftoknowthatshehassomeonetotakecareofher。Thankyouvery,verymuch!“
Megspokeearnestly,andforgotherselfentirelytillsomethinginthebrowneyeslookingdownathermadeherrememberthecoolingtea,andleadthewayintotheparlor,sayingshewouldcallhermother。
EverythingwasarrangedbythetimeLauriereturnedwithanotefromAuntMarch,enclosingthedesiredsum,andafewlinesrepeatingwhatshehadoftensaidbefore,thatshehadalwaystoldthemitwasabsurdforMarchtogointothearmy,alwayspredictedthatnogoodwouldcomeofit,andshehopedtheywouldtakeheradvicethenexttime。Mrs。Marchputthenoteinthefire,themoneyinherpurse,andwentonwithherpreparations,withherlipsfoldedtightlyinawaywhichJowouldhaveunderstoodifshehadbeenthere。
Theshortafternoonworeaway。Allothererrandsweredone,andMegandhermotherbusyatsomenecessaryneedlework,whileBethandAmygothtea,andHannahfinishedherironingwithwhatshecalleda`slapandabang’,butstillJodidnotcome。Theybegantogetanxious,andLauriewentofftofindher,fornooneknewwhatfreakJomighttakeintoherhead。Hemissedher,however,andshecamewalkinginwithaveryqueerexpressionofcountenance,fortherewasamixtureoffunandfear,satisfactionandregretinit,whichpuzzledthefamilyasmuchasdidtherollofbillsshelaidbeforehermother,sayingwithalittlechokeinhervoice,“That’smycontributiontowardmakingFathercomfortableandbringinghimhome!“
“Mydear,wheredidyougetit?Twenty-fivedollars!Jo,I
hopeyouhaven’tdoneanythingrash?“
“No,it’sminehonestly。Ididn’tbeg,borrow,orstealit。
I
earnedit,andIdon’tthinkyou’llblameme,forIonlysoldwhatwasmyown。“
Asshespoke,Jotookoffherbonnet,andageneraloutcryarose,forallherabundanthairwascutshort。
“Yourhair!Yourbeautifulhair!““Oh,Jo,howcouldyou?
Youronebeauty。““Mydeargirl,therewasnoneedofthis。“
“Shedoesn’tlooklikemyJoanymore,butIloveherdearlyforit!“
Aseveryoneexclaimed,andBethhuggedthecroppedheadtenderly,Joassumedanindifferentair,whichdidnotdeceiveanyoneaparticle,andsaid,rumplingupthebrownbushandtryingtolookasifshelikedit,“Itdoesn’taffectthefateofthenation,sodon’twail,Beth。
Itwillbegoodformyvanity,Igettingtooproudofmywig。Itwilldomybrainsgoodtohavethatmoptakenoff。Myheadfeelsdeliciouslylightandcool,andthebarbersaidIcouldsoonhaveacurlycrop,whichwillbeboyish,becoming,andeasytokeepinorder。I’msatisfied,sopleasetakethemoneyandlet’shavesupper。“
“Tellmeallaboutit,Jo。Iamnotquitesatisfied,butIcan’tblameyou,forIknowhowwillinglyyousacrificedyourvanity,asyoucallit,toyourlove。But,mydear,itwasnotnecessary,andI’mafraidyouwillregretitoneofthesedays,“saidMrs。March。
“No,Iwon’t!“returnedJostoutly,feelingmuchrelievedthatherprankwasnotentirelycondemned。
“Whatmadeyoudoit?“askedAmy,whowouldassoonhavethoughtofcuttingoffherheadasherprettyhair。
“Well,IwaswildtotosomethingforFather,“repliedJo,astheygatheredaboutthetable,forhealthyyoungpeoplecaneateveninthemidstoftrouble。“IhatetoborrowasmuchasMotherdoes,andIknewAuntMarchwouldcroak,shealwaysdoes,ifyouaskforaninepence。Meggaveallherquarterlysalarytowardtherent,andIonlygotsomeclotheswithmine,soIfeltwicked,andwasboundtohavesomemoney,ifIsoldthenoseoffmyfacetogetit。“
“Youneedn’tfeelwicked,mychild!Youhadnowinterthingsandgotthesimplestwithyourownhardearnings,“saidMrs。MarchwithalookthatwarmedJo’sheart。
“Ihadn’ttheleastideaofsellingmyhairatfirst,butasI
wentalongIkeptthinkingwhatIcoulddo,andfeelingasifI’dliketodiveintosomeoftherichstoresandhelpmyself。Inabarber’swindowIsawtailsofhairwiththepricesmarked,andoneblacktail,notsothickasmine,wasfortydollars。ItcametomeallofasuddenthatIhadonethingtomakemoneyoutof,andwithoutstoppingtothink,Iwalkedin,askediftheyboughthair,andwhattheywouldgiveformine。“
“Idon’tseehowyoudaredtodoit,“saidBethinatoneofawe。
“Oh,hewasalittlemanwholookedasifhemerelylivedtooilhishair。Heratherstaredatfirst,asifhewasn’tusedtohavinggirlsbounceintohisshopandaskhimtobuytheirhair。Hesaidhedidn’tcareaboutmine,itwasn’tthefashionablecolor,andheneverpaidmuchforitinthefirstplace。Theworkheputitintoitmadeitdear,andsoon。Itwasgettinglate,andIwasafraidifitwasn’tdonerightawaythatIshouldn’thaveitdoneatall,andyouknowwhenIstarttodoathing,Ihatetogiveitup。SoIbeggedhimtotakeit,andtoldhimwhyIwasinsuchahurry。Itwassilly,Idaresay,butitchangedhismind,forIgotratherexcited,andtoldthestoryinmytopsy-turvyway,andhiswifeheard,andsaidsokindly,`Takeit,Thomas,andobligetheyounglady。I’ddoasmuchforourJimmyanydayifIhadaspireofhairworthselling。“
“WhowasJimmy?“askedAmy,wholikedtohavethingsexplainedastheywentalong。
“Herson,shesaid,whowasinthearmy。Howfriendlysuchthingsmakestrangersfeel,don’tthey?Shetalkedawayallthetimethemanclipped,anddivertedmymindnicely。“
“Didn’tyoufeeldreadfullywhenthefirstcutcame?“askedMeg,withashiver。
“Itookalastlookatmyhairwhilethemangothisthings,andthatwastheendofit。Ineversnivelovertrifleslikethat。
Iwillconfess,though,IfeltqueerwhenIsawthedearoldhairlaidoutonthetable,andfeltonlytheshortroughendsofmyhead。
ItalmostseemedasifI’danarmorlegoff。Thewomansawmelookatit,andpickedoutalonglockformetokeep。I’llgiveittoyou,Marmee,justtorememberpastgloriesby,foracropissocomfortableIdon’tthinkIshalleverhaveamaneagain。“
Mrs。Marchfoldedthewavychestnutlock,andlaiditawaywithashortgrayoneinherdesk。Sheonlysaid,“Thankyou,deary,“
butsomethinginherfacemadethegirlschangethesubject,andtalkascheerfullyastheycouldaboutMr。Brooke’skindness,theprospectofafinedaytomorrow,andthehappytimestheywouldhavewhenFathercamehometobenursed。
Noonewantedtogotobedwhenatteno’clockMrs。Marchputbythelastfinishedjob,andsaid,“Comegirls。“Bethwenttothepianoandplayedthefather’sfavoritehymn。Allbeganbravely,butbrokedownonebyonetillBethwasleftalone,singingwithallherheart,fortohermusicwasalwaysasweetconsoler。
“Gotobedanddon’ttalk,forwemustbeupearlyandshallneedallthesleepwecanget。Goodnight,mydarlings,“saidMrs。
March,asthehymnended,fornoonecaredtotryanother。
Theykissedherquietly,andwenttobedassilentlyasifthedearinvalidlayinthenextroom。BethandAmysoonfellasleepinspiteofthegreattrouble,butMeglayawake,thinkingthemostseriousthoughtsshehadeverknowninhershortlife。Jolaymotionless,andhersisterfanciedthatshewasasleep,tillastifledsobmadeherexclaim,asshetouchedawetcheek……
“Jo,dear,whatisit?Areyoucryingaboutfather?“
“No,notnow。“
“Whatthen?“
“My……Myhair!“burstoutpoorJo,tryingvainlytosmotherheremotioninthepillow。
ItdidnotseematallcomicaltoMeg,whokissedandcaressedtheafflictedheroineinthetenderestmanner。
“I’mnotsorry,“protestedJo,withachoke。“I’ddoitagaintomorrow,ifIcould。It’sonlythevainpartofmethatgoesandcriesinthissillyway。Don’ttellanyone,it’sallovernow。
I
thoughtyouwereasleep,soIjustmadealittleprivatemoanformyonebeauty。Howcameyoutobeawake?“
“Ican’tsleep,I’msoanxious,“saidMeg。
“Thinkaboutsomethingpleasant,andyou’llsoondropoff。“
“Itriedit,butfeltwiderawakethanever。“
“Whatdidyouthinkof?“
“Handsomefaces——eyesparticularly,“answeredMeg,smilingtoherselfinthedark。
“Whatcolordoyoulikebest?“
“Brown,thatis,sometimes。Bluearelovely。“
Jo,laughed,andMegsharplyorderedhernottotalk,thenamiablypromisedtomakeherhaircurl,andfellasleeptodreamoflivinginhercastleintheair。
Theclockswerestrikingmidnightandtheroomswereverystillasafigureglidedquietlyfrombedtobed,smoothingacoverlethere,settlingapillowthere,andpausingtolooklongandtenderlyateachunconsciousface,tokisseachwithlipsthatmutelyblessed,andtopraytheferventprayerswhichonlymothersutter。Assheliftedthecurtaintolookoutintothedrearynight,themoonbrokesuddenlyfrombehindthecloudsandshoneuponherlikeabright,benignantface,whichseemedtowhisperinthesilence,“Becomforted,dearsoul!Thereisalwayslightbehindtheclouds。“
Chapter16CHAPTERSIXTEEN
Inthecoldgraydawnthesisterslittheirlampandreadtheirchapterwithanearnestnessneverfeltbefore。Fornowtheshadowofarealtroublehadcome,thelittlebookswerefullofhelpandcomfort,andastheydressed,theyagreedtosaygoodbyecheerfullyandhopefully,andsendtheirmotheronheranxiousjourneyunsaddenedbytearsorcomplaintsfromthem。Everythingseemedverystrangewhentheywentdown,sodimandstilloutside,sofulloflightandbustlewithin。Breakfastatthatearlyhourseemedodd,andevenHannah’sfamiliarfacelookedunnaturalassheflewaboutherkitchenwithhernightcapon。Thebigtrunkstoodreadyinthehall,Mother’scloakandbonnetlayonthesofa,andMotherherselfsattryingtoeat,butlookingsopaleandwornwithsleeplessnessandanxietythatthegirlsfounditveryhardtokeeptheirresolution。Meg’seyeskeptfillinginspiteofherself,Jowasobligedtohideherfaceinthekitchenrollermorethanonce,antthelittlegirlsworeagrave,troubledexpression,asifsorrowwasanewexperiencetothem。
Nobodytalkedmuch,butasthetimedrewverynearandtheysatwaitingforthecarriage,Mrs。Marchsaidtothegirls,whowereallbusiedabouther,onefoldinghershawl,anothersmoothingoutthestringsofherbonnet,athirdputtingonherovershoes,andaforthfasteninguphertravellingbag……
“Children,IleaveyoutoHannah’scareandMr。Laurence’sprotection。Hannahisfaithfulnessitself,andourgoodneighborwillguardyouasifyouwerehisown。Ihavenofearsforyou,yetIamanxiousthatyoushouldtakethistroublerightly。Don’tgrieveandfretwhenIamgone,orthinkthatyoucanbeidleandcomfortyourselvesbybeingidleandtryingtoforget。Goonwithyourworkasusual,forworkisablessedsolace。Hopeandkeepbusy,andwhateverhappens,rememberthatyounevercanbefatherless。“
“Yes,Mother。“
“Meg,dear,beprudent,watchoveryoursisters,consultHannah,andinanyperplexity,gotoMr。Laurence。Bepatient,Jo,don’tgetdespondentordorashthings,writetomeoften,andbemybravegirl,readytohelpandcheerall。Beth,comfortyourselfwithyourmusic,andbefaithfultothelittlehomeduties,andYouAmy,helpallyoucan,beobedient,andkeephappysafeathome。“
“Wewill,Mother!Wewill!“
Therattleofanapproachingcarriagemadethemallstartandlisten。Thatwasthehardminute,butthegirlsstooditwell。
Noonecried,nooneranawayorutteredalamentation,thoughtheirheartswereveryheavyastheysentlovingmessagestoFather,remembering,astheyspokethatitmightbetoolatetodeliverthem。
Theykissedtheirmotherquietly,clungabouthertenderly,andtriedtowavetheirhandscheerfullywhenshedroveaway。
Laurieandhisgrandfathercameovertoseeheroff,andMr。
Brookelookedsostrongandsensibleandkindthatthegirlschristenedhim`Mr。Greatheart’onthespot。
“Goodby,mydarlings!Godblessandkeepusall!“whisperedMrs。March,asshekissedonedearlittlefaceaftertheother,andhurriedintothecarriage。
Assherolledaway,thesuncameout,andlookingback,shesawitshiningonthegroupatthegatelikeagoodomen。Theysawitalso,andsmiledandwavedtheirhands,andthelastthingshebeheldassheturnedthecornerwasthefourbrightfaces,andbehindthemlikeabodyguard,oldMr。Laurence,faithfulHannah,anddevotedLaurie。
“Howkindeveryoneistous!“shesaid,turningtofindfreshproofofitintherespectfulsympathyoftheyoungman’sface。
“Idon’tseehowtheycanhelpit,“returnedMr。Brooke,laughingsoinfectiouslythatMrs。Marchcouldnothelpsmiling。
Andsothejourneybeganwiththegoodomensofsunshine,smiles,andcheerfulwords。
“Ifeelasiftherehadbeenanearthquake,“saidJo,astheirneighborswenthometobreakfast,leavingthemtorestandrefreshthemselves。
“Itseemsasifhalfthehousewasgone,“addedMegforlornly。
Bethopenedherlipstosaysomething,butcouldonlypointtothepileofnicelymendedhosewhichlayonMother’stable,showingthateveninherlasthurriedmomentsshehadthoughtandworkedforthem。Itwasalittlething,butitwentstraighttotheirhearts,andinspiteoftheirbraveresolutions,theyallbrokedownandcriedbitterly。
Hannahwiselyallowedthemtorelievetheirfeelings,andwhentheshowershowedsignsofclearingup,shecametotherescue,armedwithacoffeepot。
“Now,nydearyoungladies,rememberwhatyourmasaid,anddon’tfret。Comeandhaveacupofcoffeeallround,andthenlet’sfalltoworkandbeacredittothefamily。“
Coffeewasatreat,andHannahshowedgreattactinmakingitthatmorning。Noonecouldresistherpersuasivenods,orthefragrantinvitationissuingfromthenoseofthecoffeepot。Theydrewuptothetable,exchangedtheirhandkerchiefsfornapkins,andintenminuteswereallrightagain。
“`Hopeandkeepbusy’,that’sthemottoforus,solet’sseewhowillrememberitbest。IshallgotoAuntMarch,asusual。
Oh,won’tshelecturethough!“saidJo,asshesippedwithreturningspirit。
“IshallgotomyKings,thoughI’dmuchratherstayathomeandattendtothingshere,“saidMeg,wishingshehadn’tmadehereyessored。
“Noneedofthat。BethandIcankeephouseperfectlywell,“
putinAmy,withanimportantair。
“Hannahwilltelluswhattodo,andwe’llhaveeverythingnicewhenyoucomehome,“addedBeth,gettingouthermopanddishtubwithoutdelay。
“Ithinkanxietyisveryinteresting,“observedAmy,eatingsugarpensively。
Thegirlscouldn’thelplaughing,andfeltbetterforit,thoughMegshookherheadattheyoungladywhocouldfindconsolationinasugarbowl。
ThesightoftheturnoversmadeJosoberagain,andwhenthetwowentouttotheirdailytasks,theylookedsorrowfullybackatthewindowwheretheywereaccustomedtoseetheirmother’sface。Itwasgone,butBethhadrememberedthelittlehouseholdceremony,andthereshewas,noddingawayatthemlikearosyfacedmandarin。