Bertram,Iamgoinghome。’
Billy!’
Iam。’
Billy,forheaven’ssakedon’tbeasillygoose!
Theplay’shalfoveralready。We’llsoonbegoing,anyway。’
Billy’slipscametogetherinathinlittledeterminedline。
Bertram,Iamgoinghomenow,please,’shesaid。Youneedn’tcomewithme;Icangoalone。’
Bertramsaidtwowordsunderhisbreathwhichitwasjustaswell,perhaps,thatBilly——andtheneighbors——didnothear;thenhegathereduptheirwrapsand,withBilly,stalkedoutofthetheater。
Athomeeverythingwasfoundtobeabsolutelyasitshouldbe。Bertram,Jr。,waspeacefullysleeping,andDelia,whohadcomeupfromdownstairs,wassewinginthenextroom。
There,yousee,’observedBertram,alittlesourly。
Billydrewalong,contentedsigh。
Yes,Isee;everythingisallright。Butthat’sexactlywhatIwantedtodo,Bertram,youknow——to_seeformyself_,’shefinishedhappily。
AndBertram,lookingatherraptfaceasshehoveredoverthebaby’scrib,calledhimselfabruteandabeasttomind_anything_thatcouldmakeBillylooklikethat。
CHAPTERXXV
SHOULDAULDACQUAINTANCEBEFORGOT’
BertramdidnotaskBillyverysoonagaintogotothetheater。Forsomedays,indeed,hedidnotaskhertodoanything。Then,oneevening,hedidbegforsomemusic。
Billy,youhaven’tplayedtomeorsungtomesinceIcouldremember,’hecomplained。I
wantsomemusic。’
Billygaveamerrylaughandwriggledherfingersexperimentally。
Mercy,Bertram!Idon’tbelieveIcouldplayanote。YouknowI’malloutofpractice。’
Butwhy_don’t_youpractice?’
Why,Bertram,Ican’t。InthefirstplaceI
don’tseemtohaveanytimeexceptwhenBaby’sasleep;andIcan’tplaythen-I’dwakehimup。’
Bertramsighedirritably,rosetohisfeet,andbegantowalkupanddowntheroom。Hecametoapauseatlast,hiseyesbentatrifledisapprovinglyonhiswife。
Billy,dear,_don’t_youwearanythingbutthosewrapperthingsnowadays?’heaskedplaintively。
AgainBillylaughed。Butthistimeatroubledfrownfollowedthelaugh。
Iknow,Bertram,Isupposetheydolookdowdy,sometimes,’sheconfessed;but,yousee,Ihatetowearareallygooddress——Babyrumplesthemupso;andI’musuallyinahurrytogettohimmornings,andthesearesoeasytoslipinto,andsomuchmorecomfortableformetohandlehimin!’
Yes,ofcourse,ofcourse;Isee,’mumbledBertram,listlesslytakinguphiswalkagain。
Billy,afteramoment’ssilence,begantotalkanimatedly。Babyhaddoneawonderfullycunningthingthatmorning,andBillyhadnothadachanceyettotellBertram。Babywasgrowingmoreandmorecunninganyway,thesedays,andtherewereseveralthingsshebelievedshehadnottoldhim;soshetoldthemnow。
Bertramlistenedpolitely,interestedly。Hetoldhimselfthathe_was_interested,too。Ofcoursehewasinterestedinthedoingsofhisownchild!Buthestillwalkedupanddowntheroomalittlerestlessly,comingtoahaltatlastbythewindow,acrosswhichtheshadehadnotbeendrawn。
Billy,’hecriedsuddenly,withhisoldboyisheagerness,there’sagloriousmoon。Comeon!Let’stakealittlewalk——arealfellow-and-
his-best-girlwalk!Willyou?’
Mercy!dear,Icouldn’t,’criedBillyspringingtoherfeet。I’dloveto,though,ifIcould,’
sheaddedhastily,asshesawdisappointmentcloudherhusband’sface。ButItoldDeliashemightgoout。Itisn’therregularevening,ofcourse,butItoldherIdidn’tmindstayingwithBabyabit。SoI’llhavetogorightupnow。
She’llbegoingsoon。But,dear,yougoandtakeyourwalk。It’lldoyougood。Thenyoucancomebackandtellmeallaboutit——onlyyoumustcomeinquietly,sonottowakethebaby,’
shefinished,givingherhusbandanaffectionatekiss,asshelefttheroom。
Afteradisconsolatefiveminutesofsolitude,Bertramgothishatandcoatandwentoutforhiswalk——buthetoldhimselfhedidnotexpecttoenjoyit。
BertramHenshawknewthattheoldrebelliousjealousyofthesummerhadhimfastinitsgrip。
Hewasheartilyashamedofhimself,buthecouldnothelpit。HewantedBilly,andhewantedherthen。Hewantedtotalktoher。Hewantedtotellheraboutanewportraitcommissionhehadjustobtained;andhewantedtoaskherwhatshethoughtoftheideaofabrand-newFaceofaGirl’fortheBohemianTenExhibitionnextMarch。Hewanted——butthen,whatwouldbetheuse?Shewouldlisten,ofcourse,buthewouldknowbytheverylooksofherfacethatshewouldnotbereallythinkingofwhathewassaying;andhewouldbewillingtowagerhisbestcanvasthatintheveryfirstpauseshewouldtellaboutthebaby’snewesttoothorlatesttoy。Notbutthathelikedtohearaboutthelittlefellow,ofcourse;andnotbutthathewasproudasPunchofhim,too;butthathewouldlikesometimestohearBillytalkofsomethingelse。Thesweetestmelodyintheworld,ifdinnedintoone’searsdayandnight,becamesomethingtobefledfrom。
AndBillyoughttotalkofsomethingelse,too!
Bertram,Jr。,wonderfulashewas,reallywasnottheonlythingintheworld,oreventheonlybaby;
andotherpeople——outsiders,theirfriends——
hadarighttoexpectthatsometimesothermattersmightbeconsidered——theirown,forinstance。ButBillyseemedtohaveforgottenthis。
NomatterwhetherthesubjectofconversationhadtodowiththelatestnoveloratriptoEurope,underBilly’sguidanceitinvariablyledstraighttoBaby’sJack-and-Jillbook,ortoaperambulatorjourneyinthePublicGarden。Ifithadnotbeensoserious,itwouldhavebeenreallyfunnythewayallroadsledstraighttoonegoal。Hehimself,whenalonewithBilly,hadstartedthemostunusualandforeignsubjects,sometimes,justtoseeiftherewerenotsomewherealittlebypaththatdidnotbringupinhisownnursery。
Henever,however,foundone。
Butitwasnotfunny;itwasserious。Wasthisgloriousgiftonparenthoodtowhichhehadlookedforwardasthecrowningjoyofhisexistence,tobenothingbutatragedythatwouldfinallywreckhisdomestichappiness?Itcouldnotbe。Itmustnotbe。Hemusthepatient,andwait。
Billylovedhim。Hewassureshedid。Byandbythisobsessionofmotherhood,whichhadhersofastinitsgrasp,wouldrelax。Shewouldrememberthatherhusbandhadrightsaswellasherchild。Onceagainshewouldgivehimthecompanionship,love,andsympatheticinterestsodeartohim。Meanwhiletherewashiswork。
Hemustburyhimselfinthat。Andfortunate,indeed,hewas,hetoldhimself,thathehadsomethingsoabsorbing。
ItwasatthispointinhismeditationsthatBertramroundedacornerandcamefacetofacewithamanwhostoppedhimshortwithajovial:
Isn’tit——byGeorge,itisBertieHenshaw!
Well,whatdoyouthinkofthatforluck?——andmeonlytwodayshomefrom`GayParee’!’
Oh,Seaver!Howareyou?You_are_astranger!’
Bertram’svoiceandhandshakewereabitmorecordialthantheywouldhavebeenhadhenotatthemomentbeenfeelingsoabusedandforlorn。IntheolddayshehadlikedthisBobSeaverwell。Seaverwasanartistlikehimself,andwasgoodcompanyalways。ButSeaverandhiscrowdwerealittletooBohemianforWilliam’staste;
andafterBillycame,she,too,hadobjectedtowhatshecalledthathorridSeaverman。’Inhisheart,Bertramknewthattherewasgoodfoundationfortheirobjections,sohehadavoidedSeaverforatime;andforsomeyears,now,themanhadbeenabroad,somewhattoBertram’srelief。To-night,however,Seaver’sgenialsmileandheartyfriendlinesswerelikeasuddenburstofsunshineonarainyday——andBertramdetestedrainydays。Hewasfeelingnow,too,asifhehadjusthadawholeweekofthem。
Yes,Iamsomethingofastrangerhere,’
noddedSeaver。ButItellyouwhat,littleoldBostonlooksmightygoodtome,allthesame。
Comeon!You’rejustthefellowwewant。I’monmywaynowtotheoldstampingground。
Come——rightaboutface,oldchap,andcomewithme!’
Bertramshookhishead。
Sorry——butIguessIcan’t,to-night,’hesighed。Bothgestureandwordswereunhesitating,butthevoicecarriedthediscontentofasmallboy,who,whilethesunisstillshining,hasbeentoldtocomeintothehouse。
Oh,rats!Yes,youcan,too。Comeon!
Lotsoftheoldcrowdwillbethere——Griggs,Beebe,JackJenkins,andTully。Weneedyoutocompletetheshow。’
JackJenkins?Ishehere?’AneweagernesshadcomeintoBertram’svoice。
Sure!HecameonfromNewYorklastnight。
Greatboy,Jenkins!JustbackfromParisfairlycoveredwithmedals,youknow。’
Yes,soIhear。Ihaven’tseenhimforfouryears。’
Bettercometo-nightthen。’
No-o,’beganBertram,withobviousreluctance。It’salreadynineo’clock,and——’
Nineo’clock!’cutinSeaver,withabroadgrin。Sincewhenhasyourlimitbeennineo’clock?I’veseenthetimewhenyoudidn’tmindnineo’clockinthemorning,Bertie!What’sgot——Oh,Iremember。ImetanotherfriendofyoursinBerlin;chapnamedArkwright——
andsay,he’ssomesinger,youbet!You’regoingtohearofhimoneofthesedays。Well,hetoldmeallabouthowyou’dsettleddownnow——
sonandheir,firesidebliss,prettywife,andallthefixings。But,Isay,Bertie,doesn’tsheletyouout——_any_?’
Nonsense,Seaver!’flaredBertraminannoyedwrath。
Well,then,whydon’tyoucometo-night?
IfyouwanttoseeJenkinsyou’llhaveto;he’sgoingbacktoNewYorkto-morrow。’
ForonlyabriefminutelongerdidBertramhesitate;thenheturnedsquarelyaboutwithanairoffinality。
Ishe?Well,then,perhapsIwill,’hesaid。
I’dhatetomissJenkinsentirely。’
Good!’exclaimedhiscompanion,astheyfellintostep。Haveacigar?’
Thanks。Don’tmindifIdo。’
IfBertram’schinwasalittlehigherandhisstepalittlemoredecidedthanusual,itwasallmerelybywayofaccompanimenttohisthoughts。
Certainlyitwasrightthatheshouldgo,anditwassensible。Indeed,itwasreallyalmostimperative——duetoBilly,asitwere——afterthatdisagreeabletauntofSeaver’s。Asifshedidnotwanthimtogowhenandwherehepleased!Asifshewouldconsentforamomenttofigureintheeyesofhisfriendsasatyrannicalwifewhoobjectedtoherhusband’spassingasocialeveningwithhisfriends!Tobesure,inthisparticularcase,shemightnotfavorSeaver’spresence,butevenshewouldnotmindthisonce——
and,anyhow,itwasJenkinsthatwastheattraction,notSeaver。Besides,hehimselfwasnoundevelopedboynow。Hewasaman,presumedlyabletotakecareofhimself。Besides,again,hadnotBillyherselftoldhimtogooutandenjoytheeveningwithouther,asshehadtostaywiththebaby?Hewouldtelephoneher,ofcourse,thathehadmetsomeoldfriends,andthathemightbelate;thenshewouldnotworry。
Andforthwith,havingsettledthematterinhismind,andtohiscompletesatisfaction,BertramgavehisundividedattentiontoSeaver,whohadalreadyplungedintoanaccountofarecentArtExhibitionhehadattendedinParis。