Hewasnotawarewhetherhesleptorno,butsuddenlysunlightwasintheroom,thebath-waterwasrunning,thecanarywassingingandHamletwasscratchinguponhisdoor。Hejumpedoutofbedandletthedogin。ThenheheardRose’svoicefromthenextroom:
“……and’e’stakeneverything,’e’as。AllthesilvercandlesticksandtheplatewhatwasgivetomasterbytheTemp’ranceSociety,andMasterJeremy’smugwhathe’adat’ischristeningandalltheknivesandforks——’e’as——andthegoldclockouto’thedrorin’-room,andthemess!Why,IsaystoCook’ecouldn’t’avemademoremess,Isay,notif’e’dcometodonothin’else。Greaseeverywhere,youneverseenothin’likeit,andallthedrawersopenandthepapersscatteredabout。Thank’Eaven’eneverfoundCook’searrings。Realgoldtheywas,eversomanycaratandgivetoCookeversomanyyearsagoby’erJohn。Poorwoman!She’d’avebeeninaterribletakin’ifshe’dlost’em……Andsoquiettoo——notasoundandeveryonesleepin’allround’im。Wonderful’owtheydoesit!I
thanktheLordIdidn’t’ear’im;I’d’avediedoffright-shouldn’tlike!Why,Cooksayssheknewa’ouseonce……“
ButJeremydidnotlisten,hedidnotcare。AsHamletsprangabouthimandlickedhishandhethoughtofonethingalone。
TheCaptainwasgone!TheCaptainwasgone!Hewasfree!TheCaptainhadnottakenhim,andhewasfreeatlast!
CHAPTERVI
FAMILYPRIDE
I
Iamafraidthattoogreatapartofthisbookisaboutoldmaids,butitishardforanyonewhoknowsonlythethrivingbustlingworldoftodaytorealisehowlargelywechildrenwerehemmedinandsurroundedbyaproperphalanxofelderlysingleladiesandclergymen。Idon’tbelievethatwewereanytheworseforthat,andtosuchheroinesasMissJaneMaple,MissMaryTrefusisandoldMissJessaminTrenchard,Iherepubliclyacknowledgedeepandlastingdebt-butitdidmakeourlifealittlemonotonous,alittleunadventurous,alittlecircumscribed-andbecauseTamdeterminedtogivethewholetruthandnothingbutthetruthabouttheyearofJeremy’slifethatIamdescribing,thisbookwillalso,Iamafraid,bealittlecircumscribed,alittleunadventurous。
TheelderlyladywhomostthoroughlycircumscribedJeremywas,ofcourse——puttingMissJones,whowasagovernessandthereforedidnotcount,aside——AuntAmy。
NowAuntAmywasprobablythemostconceitedwomaninPolchester。
Thereisofcourseordinaryhumanconceit,ofwhicheverylivingbeinghashisorhershare。Iamnotspeakingofthat;MissAmyTrefusismightbesaidtobefanaticallyconceited。
Althoughshewasnowareallyplainelderlywomanitispossiblethatwhenshewasalittlegirlshewaspretty。Inanycase,itiscertainthatshewasspoiledwhenshewasalittlegirl,andbecauseshewasdelicateandselfishshereceivedagooddealmoreattentionandobediencefromweakandvacillatingeldersthanshedeserved。
Afterhergrowingupshehadayearortwoofmoderatelooksandshereceived,duringthisperiod,severalproposals;thesesherefusedbecausetheywerenotgoodenoughandsomethingbettermustbecomingveryshortly,butwhatreallycameveryshortlywasmiddle-
age,anditcameofcourseentirelyunperceivedbythelady。Shedressedandbehavedasthoughshewerestilltwenty,althoughherbrotherSamueltriedtolaughheroutofsuchabsurdities。Butnosistereverpaysattentiontoabrotheronsuchmatters,andAuntAmyworecolouredribbonsandwenttoballsandmadeeyesbehindherfanforseasonafterseason。Thenastimepassedshewascompelledbyhermirrortorealisethatshewasnotquitesoyoungasshehadoncebeen,soshehurriedlyinventedathrillingpasthistoryforherself,alludingtoaffairafteraffairthathadcometonothingonlybecausesheherselfhadruthlesslyslainthem,anddressingherselfmorereasonably,butwithlittlesignsandhints,intheshapeofchainsandcolouredbowsandrings,thatshecouldstillbeyoungifshesopleased,andthatshewasopentooffers,althoughshecouldnotpromisethemmuchencouragement。ShelikedthesocietyofCanons,andwastobeseenagreatdealwitholdCanonBorlase,whowasasgreataflirtashewasanegotist,sothatitdidnotmattertohimintheleastwithwhomheflirted,andsatatthefeetofoldCanonMorpheu,whowassocrazyaboutthediscoveriesthathehadmadeinthelifeofEzekielthatitwasquiteimmaterialtohimtowhomheexplainedthem。
Shedescendedfromtheseclericalflightsintothebosomoffamilylifewithsomenaturaldiscontent。HerbrotherSamuelshehadalwaysdislikedbecausehelaughedather;hersistershedidnotcareforbecauseshewasveryinnocently,poorlady,flauntinghersuperiormarriedstate;andherbrother-in-lawshedidnotlikebecausehealwaysbehavedasthoughshewereoneofavastpublicofelderlyladieswhowereusefulforhelpinginclericaldisplays,butwereotherwisenon-existent。Thenshehatedchildren,sothatshereallyoftenwonderedwhyshecontinuedtolivewithherbrother-in-law,butitwascheap,comfortableandsafe,andalthoughsheassuredherselfandeveryoneelsethattherewerecountlesshomeswildlyeagertoreceiveher,itwasperhapsjustaswellnottoputtheireagernesstooabruptlytothetest。
TherehadbeenwarbetweenherandJeremysinceJeremy’sbirth,butithadbeenwarofarathermildandinoffensivecharacter,consistinglargelyinJeremyonhissideputtingouthistongueatherwhenshecouldnotseehim,andsheonhersidesendinghimtowashhisearswhentheyreallydidnotrequiretobewashed。ShehadfeltalwaysinJeremyanobstinatedislikeofher,andashehadseemedtoherneitheraveryclevernorintelligentchildshehadconsoledherselfveryeasilywiththethoughtthathedidnotlikehersimplybecausehewasstupid。Soithadbeenuntilthisyear,andthensuddenlytheyhadbeenflungintosharperopposition。Itwashardtosaywhathadbroughtthisabout,butitwasperhapsthatJeremyhadsprungsuddenlyfromtheunconsciousindifferenceofayoungchildintotheactiveparticipationofagrowingboy。Whateverthetruthmighthavebeen,thecomingofHamlethaddrawntheirattitudesintopositiveconflict。
AuntAmyhadfeltfromthefirstthatHamletlaughedather。Hadyouaskedhertostate,asapartofhergeneralexperience,thatshereallybelievedthatdogscouldlaughathumanbeingsshewouldindignantlyhaverepudiatedanyideasofantastic,nevertheless,unanalysedandunconfronted,thatwasherconviction。Thedoglaughedather,heinsultedherbywalkingintoherbedroomwithhismuddyfeetandthenpretendingthathehadn’tknownthatitwasherbedroom,regardingherthroughhishairwithanironicalandmaliciousglance,barkingsuddenlywhenshemadesomestatementasthoughheenjoyedimmenselyanexcellentjoke,but,aboveall,despisingher,shefelt,sothatthewallofillusionthatshehadbuiltaroundherselfhadbeenpulleddownbyatleastonecreature,morehuman,sheknew,inspiteofherself,thanmanyhumanbeings。
Therefore,shehatedHamlet,andscarcelyadaypassedthatshedidnottrytohavehimflungfromthehouse,oratleastkeptinthekitchenoffices。
Hamlethad,however,wontheheartsofthefamily;itwas,indeed,AuntAmyalonetowhomhehadnotthoughtitworthwhiletopaycourt。Toheralonehewouldnotcomewhenshecalled,byheralonehewouldnotbecajoled,eventhoughsheofferedhimsugarytea,hisdeadliesttemptation。No,hesatandlookedatherthroughhishair,hisfieryeyeglinting,hispeakedbeardironicallyhumorous,hislegstuckoutfromhisbody,apointingsignalofderision。
SheresolvedtowaitforanopportunitywhenshemightconquerHamletandJeremytogether,butherpowerinthehousewasslight,solongasMr。andMrs。Colewerethere。“IfIonlyhadthechildrentomyself,“shewouldsay,“Iwouldimprovetheirmannersinmanyways。PoorAlice——!“Thensuddenlyshedidhavethem。AtthebeginningofMayMr。ColewassummonedtotakeamissiontotheseamenofDrymouth,andMrs。Cole,whohadrelationsinDrymouth,accompaniedhim。TheywouldbeabsentfromPelchesterawholeweek。
“Oh,won’tAuntAmybeanuisance,“saidJeremy,realisingthesituation。ThenturningtoMaryheadded:“We’llpretendtodowhatshetellsusandnotdoitreally。That’smuchtheeasiest。“
Aweekisashorttime,especiallyatthebeginningofashiningandburningMay,butAuntAmydidherbestnotonlywiththechildrenbutwiththeservants,andevenoldJordan,thegardener,whohadbeenwiththeColefamilyfortwentyyears。Duringthatshortweekthecook,theparlourmaid,Rose,thehousemaid,andthebootboyallgavenotice,andMrs。Colewasonlyabletokeepthemonherreturnbyraisingthewagesofallofthem。Jordan,whowasanoldmanwithalongwhitebeard,saidtoherwhensheadvisedhimtoplantpinkswherehehadplantedtulipsandtulipswherehehadplantedpinks,andfurtherinquiredwhythecauliflowerthathesentinwassopoorandthecabbagessosmall:“Leavethingsalone,Miss,Nature’swiserthanwebe,notbutwhatyoumayn’tmeanwell,butfussin’sneverdoneanygoodwhereNature’sconcerned,norneverwill“;andwhenshesaidthathewasveryrudetoher,heshookhisheadandanswered:
“Maybeyes,andmaybeno。What’srudetooneain’trudetoanother“——
outofwhichanswershecouldmakenothingatall。
Intheschoolroomshesustainedcompletedefeat。AttheveryoutsetshewasbaffledbyMissJones。ShehadalwaysdespisedMissJonesasapoorunfortunatefemalewhowasforcedtoteachchildreninheroldagebecauseshemustearnherliving——astupid,sentimental,cowed,oldwomanatwhomthechildrenlaughed。Shefoundnowthatthechildreninsteadoflaughingatherlaughedwithher,formedaphalanxofprotectionaroundherandrefusedtobedisobedient。MissJonesherselfwasdiscoveredtohaveadry,rathercaustic,senseofhumourthatAuntAmyfelttobeimpertinence,butcouldnotpenetrate。
“Andisthatreallyhowyouteachthemhistory,MissJones?Notquitethesimplestway,surely……Irememberanexcellentgovernesswhomweoncehad——“
“Perhaps,“saidMissJones,gently,“youwouldgivethemahistorylessonyourself,MissTrefusis。Iwouldbesogladtopickupanylittlehints——“
“Ihave,ofcourse,notime,“saidAuntAmyhurriedly,“but,speakinggenerally,IamafraidIcan’tapprovealtogetherofyoursystem。“
“Itisn’tverygood,I’mafraid,“saidMissJonesweakly。“Thechildrenwouldbeglad,Iknow,tohaveafewhintsfromyouifyoucouldspareamoment——“
Jeremy,whowaslistening,giggled,triedtoturnthegiggleintoasneezeandchoked。
“Jeremy!“saidAuntAmyseverely。
“Oh,dolook,AuntAmy!“criedMary,alwaysJeremy’sfaithfulally,“allyourhairpinsaredroppingout!“
ShedevotedherselfthentoJeremyandworriedhimineverypossibleway,andaftertwodaysofthishehatedherwithadeepandbitterhatred,verydifferentfromthatearlierteasingofMissJones。Thathadsprungfromasuddendeliciousdiscoveryofpower,andhadbeendirectedagainstnoone。ThiswasarealpersonalhatredthatchildrenofalesssolidandtenacioustemperamentthanJeremywouldhavebeenincapableoffeeling。
Hedidnotlaughather,hedidnotteaseher,henolongerputouthistongueather。Hewasolderthanthatnow——hewassimplyreservedandsilent,watchingherwithhislargeeyes,hissquarebodyset,andresolvedasthoughheknewthathismomentwouldcome。
Herexperiencewithhimwasbaffling。Shepunishedhim,pettedhim,sheignoredhim,shestormedathim;itseemedthatshewoulddoanythingcouldsheonlywinfromhimanacknowledgmentofherpower,hercapability。Butshecouldnot。Heonlysaid:“Yes,AuntAmy。“
“No,AuntAmy。“
Sheburstout:“You’reasullen,wickedlittleboy,Jeremy。Doyouknowwhathappenstolittleboyswhosulk?“
“No,AuntAmy。“
“Theygrowintocross,bad-temperedmenwhomnobodylikesandnobodytrusts。Doyouwanttobelikethatwhenyou’reaman?“
“Idon’tcare。“
“Youknowwhathappenedto’Don’tCare。’Ishallhavetopunishyouifyou’rerudetome。“