Jeremylistened,andgraduallytheregrewbeforehiseyesthefigureofastrangeandterribleGod。Thiswasnonewfigure。HehadneverthoughtdirectlyaboutGod,butforaverylongtimenowhehadhadHiminthebackgroundofhislifeasPolchesterTownHallwasinthebackground。ButnowhedefinitelyandactivelyfiguredtohimselfthisGod,thisGodWhowastakinghismotherawayandwasintendingapparentlytoputherintosomedarkplacewhereshewouldknownobody。Itmustbesomehorribleplace,becausehisfatherlookedsofrightened,whichhewouldnotlookifhismotherwassimplygoing,withagoldenharp,tosinghymns。JeremyhadalwaysheardthatthisGodwaslovingandkindandtender,butthefigurewhomhisfatherwasnowdrawingforthebenefitofthecongregationwasnoneofthesethings。
  Mr。ColespokeofaGodjustandterrible,butaGodWhoapparentlyforthemerestfancyputHisfaithfulservanttoterribleanguishanddistress,andthenforanotherfancy,aslightasthefirst,sparedhimhissorrow。Mr。Coleemphasisedthenecessityforobedience,theneedforawillingsurrenderofanythingthatmaybedeartous,“becausetheloveofGodmustbegreaterthananythingthatholdsushereonearth。“ButJeremydidnotlistentotheseremarks;hismindwasfilledwiththispictureofavastshadowyfigure,seatedinthesky,hiswhitebeardflowingbeneatheyesthatfrownedfromdarkrockyeyebrowsoutuponpeoplelikeJeremywho,althoughdoingtheirbest,wereneverthelessatthemercyofanywhimthatHemighthave。Thisterriblefigurewastheauthorofthehotday,authorofthesilenthouseandtheshimmeringdarkenedchurch,authorofthedecisiontotakehismotherawayfromallthatshelovedandputhersomewherewhereshewouldbealoneandcoldandsilent——“simplybecauseHewishes……“
  “Fromthisbeautifulpassage,“concludedMr。Cole,“welearnthatGodisjustandmerciful,butthatHedemandsourobedience。Wemustbereadyatanyinstanttogiveupwhatwelovemostandbest……“
  Afterwardstheyalltroopedoutintothesplendidsunshine。
  IV
  TherewasahorribleSundaydinnerwhen——thesilenceandtheroastbeefandYorkshirepudding,andthedining-roomquiveringwithheat,emphasisedeveryminuteofthesolemntickingclock——Marysuddenlyburstintotears,chokedoveraglassofwater,andwasledfromtheroom。Jeremyatehisbeefandricepuddinginsilence,exceptthatonceortwiceinalow,hoarsevoicewhispered:“Passthemustard,please,“or“Passthesalt,please。“MissJones,watchinghiswhitefaceandthetrembleofhisupperlip,longedtosaysomethingtocomforthim,butwiselyheldherpeace。
  AfterdinnerJeremycollectedHamletandwenttotheconservatory。
  This,likesomanyotherEnglishconservatories,wasadesolateanddesperatelittleplace,whereboxesofsand,drycorded-lookingbulbs,andanunhappyplantortwolanguished,forgottenandforlorn。Ithadbeeninheritedwiththehousemanyyearsago,and,atfirst,theColeshadhadtheambitiontomakeitblazewithcolour,togrowtherethemostmarvellousgrapes,therichesttomatoes,andeven——althoughitwasalittleoutofplaceinthehouseofaclergymanoftheChurchofEngland——themostsinisteroforchids。Veryquicklythelittleconservatoryhadbeenabandoned;
  theheatingapparatushadfailed,theplantshadrefusedtogrow,thetomatoesneverappeared,thebulbswouldnotburstintocolour。
  ForJeremytheplacehadhadalwaysanindescribablefascination。
  Whenhewasveryyoungtherehadbeenabsolutetrustthatthingswouldgrow;thateverykindofwondermightspringbeforeone’seyesatanymomentoftheday。Then,whennowondercame,therehadbeenthethrilloftheemptyboxesofearth;theprobingwithone’sfingerstoseewhatthefunny-lookingbulbswouldbe,andwatchingthefrondsofthepalevine。Afterwards,therewasanotherfascination——thefascinationofsomestrangeandsinisteratmospherethathewasmuchtooyoungtodefine。Theplace,heknew,wasdifferentfromtherestofthehouse。Itprojected,conventionallyenough,fromthedrawing-room;buttheheavydoorwiththickwindowsofredglassshutitofffromthewholeworld。ItsratherdirtyandobscurewindowslookedoverthesamecountrythatJeremy’sbedroomwindowcommanded。Italsocaughtallthesun,sothatinthesummeritwasterriblyhot。ButJeremylovedtheheat。HewasdiscoveredoncebythescandalisedJampotquitenakeddancingonthewoodenboards,hisfaceandhandsblackwithgrime。Noonecouldeverunderstand“whathesawinthedirtyplace,“andatonetimehehadbeenforbiddentogothere。Thenhehadcriedandstampedandshouted,sothathehadbeenallowedtoreturn。Amongstthethingsthathesawtherewerethereflectionsthattheoutsideworldmadeupontheglass;itwouldbestained,sometimes,withastrange,greenreflectionofthefieldsbeyondthewall;sometimesitwouldcatchtheblueofthesky,ortheredandgoldofthesettingsun;
  sometimesitwouldbegreywithwavingshadowsacrossitssurface,asthoughonewereunderwater。Throughthedirtywindowsthecountry,onfinedays,shonelikedistanttapestry,andintheglassthatcoveredthefarthersideoftheplacestrangereflectionswerecaught:ofcows,horses,walls,andtrees——asthoughinakindofmagicmirror。
  AnotherthingthatJeremyfeltthere,wasthathewasinaglasscageswingingoverthewholeworld。Ifoneshutone’seyesonecouldeasilyfancythatonewasswingingout——swinging——swinging,andthat,suddenlyperhaps,thecagewouldbedetachedfromthehouseandgosailing,likeamagiccarpet,toArabiaandPersia,andanywhereyoupleasedtocommand。
  To-daytheglassburntlikefire,andthegreenfieldscamefloatinguptobotransfiguredtherelikerunningwater。Thehousewasutterlystill;theredglassdoorshutofftheworld。Jeremysat,hisarmstightlyroundHamlet’sneck,onthedirtyfloor,astrangemixtureofmisery,weariness,fright,andanger。Therewasalreadyinhimastrainofimpatience,sothathecouldnotbearsimplytositdownandbewailsomethingas,forinstance,bothhissistersweredoingatthismoment。Hemustact。Theycouldnotbohappywithouttheirmother;hehimselfwantedhersobadlythatevennow,thereintheflamingconservatory,ifhehadallowedhimselftodosuchathing,hewouldhavesatandcriedandcriedandcried。Buthewasnotgoingtocry。MaryandHelencouldcry——theyweregirls;
  hewasgoingtodosomething。
  Ashesatthere,gettinghotterandhotter,theregrew,largerandlargerbeforehiseyes,thefigureofTerribleGod。ThatimageofSomeoneofavastsizesittinginthered-hotsky,hiswhitebeardflowing,hiseyesfrowning,grewevermoreandmoreawful。Jeremystaredupintotheglass,hiseyesblinking,thesweatbeginningtopourdownhisnose,andyethisbodyshiveringwithterror。ButhehadstrunghimselfuptomeetHim。Somehowhewasgoingtosavehismotherandhinderherdeparture。Ataninstant,insidehim,hewascrying:“Iwantmymother!Iwantmymother!“likealittleboywhohadbeenleftinthestreet,andattheother,“Youshan’thaveher!
  Youshan’thaveher!“asthoughsomeoneweretryingtostealhisToy-VillageorHamletawayfromhim。Hissleepy,bemused,heatedbrainwandered,indazedfashion,backtohisfather’ssermonofthatmorning。AbrahamandIsaac!AbrahamandIsaac!
  AbrahamandIsaac!Suddenly,asthoughthroughtheflamingglasssomethinghadbeenflungtohim,anideacame。PerhapsGod,thathuge,uglyGodwasteasingtheColesjustasonceHehadteasedAbraham。PerhapsHewishedtoseewhethertheyweretrulyobedientastheJampothadsometimeswishedintheolddays。Hewasonly,itmightbe,pretending。PerhapsHewasdemandingthatoneofthemshouldgiveupsomething——somethingofgreatvalue。EvenJeremy,himself!……
  Ifhehadtosacrificesomethingtosavehismother,whatwouldbethehardestsacrifice?WoulditbehisToy-Village,orMaryorHelen,orhissoldiers,orhispaint-box,orhisgoldfishthathehadinabowl,or——No,ofcourse,hehadknownfromthefirstwhatwouldbehardest——itwould,ofcourse,beHamlet。
  AtthisstageinhisthinkingheremovedhisarmfromHamlet’sneckandlookedattheanimal。Atthesamemomentthelightthathadfilledtheglass-housewithafieryradiancethatburnttotheveryheartoftheplacewasclouded。Above,inthesky,black,smokyclouds,rollinginfoldafterfold,asthoughsomedemonwereflingingthemoutacrosstheskyasoneflingsacarpet,piledupandup,eachonedarkerthanthelast。Thelightvanished;theconservatorywasfilledwithathick,murkyglow,andfaracrossthefields,fromtheheartoftheblackwood,camethelowrumbleofthunder。ButJeremydidnothearthat;hewasbusywithhisthoughts。liestaredatthedog,whowaslyingstretchedoutonthedirtyfloor,hisnosebetweenhistoes。ItcannottruthfullybesaidthattheresolvethatwasforminginJeremy’sheadhaditsbirthinanyfine,nobleidealisms。Itwasasthoughsomebully,seizinghisbestmarbles,hadsaid:“I’llgiveyouthesebackifyouhandoverthisweek’spocket-money!“Hisattitudetothebullycouldnottruthfullybedescribedasoneofhomageorreverence;ratherwasitoneofangerandimpotentrebellion。
  HelovedHamlet,andhelovedhismothermorethanHamlet;buthewasnotmovedbysentiment。Grimly,hislegsapart,hiseyesshuttight,astheywerewhenhesaidhisprayers,hemadehischallenge。
  “I’llgiveyouHamletifyoudon’ttakeMother——“Apause。“OnlyI
  can’tcutHamlet’sthroat。ButIcouldlosehim,ifthatwoulddo……Onlyyoumusttakehimnow——Icouldn’tdoitto-morrow。“Hisvoicebegantotremble。Hewasfrightened。Hecouldfeelbehindhisclosedeyesthatthedarknesshadgathered。Theplaceseemedtobefilledwithrollingsmoke,andthehousewassoterriblystill!
  Hesaidagain:“YoucantakeHamlet。He’smybestthing。Youcan——
  Youcan——“
  Therefollowedthen,withthepromptitudeofamostadmirablymanagedtheatricalclimax,apealofthunderthatseemedtostrikethehousewiththeironhandofagiant。Twomorecame,andthen,forasecond,asilence,moredeadlythanalltheearlierhavoc。
  JeremyfeltthatGodhadleaptuponhim。Heopenedhiseyes,turnedasthoughtorun,andthensaw,withafreezingcheckupontheverybeatofhisheart,thatHamletwasgone。
  V
  TherewasnoHamlet!
  InthatsecondoffranticunreasoningterrorhereceivedaconvictionofGodthatnorationalistictraininginlateryearswasabletoremove。
  TherewasnoHamlet!——onlytheduskydirtyplacewithablacktorrent-drivenworldbeyondit。Witharushasofathousandwhipsslashingtheair,theraincamedownupontheglass。Jeremyturned,crying“Mother!Mother!IwantMother!“andflunghimselfattheredglassdoors;fumblinginhisterrorforthehandle,hefeltasthoughtheendoftheworldhadcome;suchapanichadseizedhimasonlybelongstothemostdesperateofnightmares。Godhadansweredhim。HamletwasgoneandinamomentJeremyhimselfmightbeseized……
  Hefeltfranticallyforthedoor;hebeatupontheglass。
  Hecried“Mother!Mother!Mother!“
  Hehadfoundthedoor,butjustasheturnedthehandlehewasawareofanewsound,hearddistantly,throughtherain。Lookingbackhesaw,frombehindarampartofdustyflower-pots,firstahead,thenaroughtousledbody,thenatailthatmightberecognisedamongstallthetailsofChristendom。
  Hamletwhohadtrainedhimselftomeetwithafinenaturalshowofbraveryeverypossibleviolencesaveonlythundercreptashamed,dirtyandsmilingtowardshismaster。GodhadonlyplayedHistrick——
  AbrahamandIsaacafterall。
  ThenwithafinesenseofvictoryanddefianceJeremyturnedback,lookedupattheslashingrain,gazedoutupontheblackcountry,atlastseizedHamletanddragginghimoutbyhishind-legs,kneltthereinthedustandsufferedhimselftobelickeduntilhisfacewasasthoughasnailhadcrossedoverit。
  Thethunderpassed。Bluepushedupintothegrey。Acoolairblewthroughtheworld。
  Nevertheless,deepinhisheart,theterrorremained。InthatmomenthehadmetGodfacetoface;hehaddeliveredhisfirstchallenge。
  P。S——TotheincredulousandcynicalofheartauthoritativeevidencecanbeshowntoprovethatitwasontheeveningofthatSundaythatMrs。Coleturnedthecornertowardsrecovery。
  CHAPTERVIII
  TOCOWFARM!