`Soit’s`Eatmydearbirdies,’isit,youngman?`Eat,dearbirdies,’
indeed!I’lltickleyourbreeches,andseeifyousay,`Eat,dearbirdies,’
againinahurry!Andyou’vebeenidlingattheschoolmaster’stoo,insteadofcominghere,ha’n’tye,hey?That’showyouearnyoursixpenceadayforkeepingtherooksoffmycorn!’
WhilstsalutingJude’searswiththisimpassionedrhetoric,Trouthamhadseizedhislefthandwithhisownleft,andswinginghisslimframeroundhimatarm’s-length,againstruckJudeonthehindpartswiththeflatsideofJude’sownrattle,tillthefieldechoedwiththeblows,whichweredeliveredonceortwiceateachrevolution。
`Don’t’ee,sir-pleasedon’t’ee!’criedthewhirlingchild,ashelplessunderthecentrifugaltendencyofhispersonasahookedfishswingingtoland,andbeholdingthehill,therick,theplantation,thepath,andtherooksgoingroundandroundhiminanamazingcircularrace。
`I-I-sir-onlymeantthat-therewasagoodcropintheground-
Isaw’emsowit-andtherookscouldhavealittlebitfordinner-andyouwouldn’tmissit,sir-andMr。PhillotsonsaidIwastobekindto’em-oh,oh,oh!’
ThistruthfulexplanationseemedtoexasperatethefarmerevenmorethanifJudehadstoutlydeniedsayinganythingatall,andhestillsmackedthewhirlingurchin,theclacksoftheinstrumentcontinuingtoresoundallacrossthefieldandasfarastheearsofdistantworkers-whogatheredthereuponthatJudewaspursuinghisbusinessofclackingwithgreatassiduity-andechoingfromthebrand-newchurchtowerjustbehindthemist,towardsthebuildingofwhichstructurethefarmerhadlargelysubscribed,totestifyhisloveforGodandman。
PresentlyTrouthamgrewtiredofhispunitivetask,anddepositingthequiveringboyonhislegs,tookasixpencefromhispocketandgaveithiminpaymentforhisday’swork,tellinghimtogohomeandneverlethimseehiminoneofthosefieldsagain。
Judeleapedoutofarm’sreach,andwalkedalongthetrackwayweeping-notfromthepain,thoughthatwaskeenenough;notfromtheperceptionoftheflawintheterrestrialscheme,bywhichwhatwasgoodforGod’sbirdswasbadforGod’sgardener;butwiththeawfulsensethathehadwhollydisgracedhimselfbeforehehadbeenayearintheparish,andhencemightbeaburdentohisgreat-auntforlife。
Withthisshadowonhismindhedidnotcaretoshowhimselfinthevillage,andwenthomewardbyaroundabouttrackbehindahighhedgeandacrossapasture。Herehebeheldscoresofcoupledearthwormslyinghalftheirlengthonthesurfaceofthedampground,astheyalwaysdidinsuchweatheratthattimeoftheyear。Itwasimpossibletoadvanceinregularstepswithoutcrushingsomeofthemateachtread。
ThoughFarmerTrouthamhadjusthurthim,hewasaboywhocouldnothimselfbeartohurtanything。Hehadneverbroughthomeanestofyoungbirdswithoutlyingawakeinmiseryhalfthenightafter,andoftenre-instatingthemandthenestintheiroriginalplacethenextmorning。
Hecouldscarcelybeartoseetreescutdownorlopped,fromafancythatithurtthem;andlatepruning,whenthesapwasupandthetreebledprofusely,hadbeenapositivegrieftohiminhisinfancy。Thisweaknessofcharacter,asitmaybecalled,suggestedthathewasthesortofmanwhowasborntoacheagooddealbeforethefallofthecurtainuponhisunnecessarylifeshouldsignifythatallwaswellwithhimagain。Hecarefullypickedhiswayontiptoeamongtheearthworms,withoutkillingasingleone。
Onenteringthecottagehefoundhisauntsellingapennyloaftoalittlegirl,andwhenthecustomerwasgoneshesaid,`Well,howdoyoucometobebackhereinthemiddleofthemorninglikethis?’
`I’mturnedaway。’
`What?’
`Mr。TrouthamhaveturnedmeawaybecauseIlettherookshaveafewpeckingsofcorn。Andthere’smywages-thelastIshalleverhae!’
Hethrewthesixpencetragicallyonthetable。
`Ah!’saidhisaunt,suspendingherbreath。Andsheopeneduponhimalectureonhowshewouldnowhavehimallthespringuponherhandsdoingnothing。`Ifyoucan’tskeerbirds,whatcanyedo?There!don’tyelooksodeedy!FarmerTrouthamisnotsomuchbetterthanmyself,cometothat。But’tisasJobsaid,`NowtheythatareyoungerthanIhavemeinderision,whosefathersIwouldhavedisdainedtohavesetwiththedogsofmyflock。’Hisfatherwasmyfather’sjourneyman,anyhow,andI
musthavebeenafooltolet’eegotoworkfor’n,whichIshouldn’tha’
donebuttokeep’eeoutofmischty。’
MoreangrywithJudefordemeaningherbycomingtherethanforderelictionofduty,sheratedhimprimarilyfromthatpointofview,andonlysecondarilyfromamoralone。
`NotthatyoushouldhaveletthebirdseatwhatFarmerTrouthamplanted。Ofcourseyouwaswronginthat。Jude,Jude,whydidstn’tgooffwiththatschoolmasterofthinetoChristminsterorsomewhere?But,ohno-pooror’narychild-thereneverwasanysprawlonthysideofthefamily,andneverwillbe!’
`Whereisthisbeautifulcity,Aunt-thisplacewhereMr。Phillotsonisgoneto?’askedtheboy,aftermeditatinginsilence。
`Lord!yououghttoknowwherethecityofChristminsteris。Nearascoreofmilesfromhere。Itisaplacemuchtoogoodforyouevertohavemuchtodowith,poorboy,I’ma-thinking。’
`AndwillMr。Phillotsonalwaysbethere?’
`HowcanItell?’
`CouldIgotoseehim?’
`Lord,no!Youdidn’tgrowuphereabout,oryouwouldn’tasksuchasthat。We’veneverhadanythingtodowithfolkinChristminster,norfolkinChristminsterwithwe。’
Judewentout,and,feelingmorethaneverhisexistencetobeanundemandedone,helaydownuponhisbackonaheapoflitternearthepig-sty。Thefoghadbythistimebecomemoretranslucent,andthepositionofthesuncouldbeseenthroughit。Hepulledhisstrawhatoverhisface,andpeeredthroughtheintersticesoftheplaitingatthewhitebrightness,vaguelyreflecting。Growingupbroughtresponsibilities,hefound。Eventsdidnotrhymequiteashehadthought。Nature’slogicwastoohorridforhimtocarefor。Thatmercytowardsonesetofcreatureswascrueltytowardsanothersickenedhissenseofharmony。Asyougotolder,andfeltyourselftobeatthecentreofyourtime,andnotatapointinitscircumference,asyouhadfeltwhenyouwerelittle,youwereseizedwithasortofshuddering,heperceived。Allaroundyouthereseemedtobesomethingglaring,garish,rattling,andthenoisesandglareshituponthelittlecellcalledyourlife,andshookit,andwarpedit。
Ifhecouldonlypreventhimselfgrowingup!Hedidnotwanttobeaman。
Then,likethenaturalboy,heforgothisdespondency,andsprangup。Duringtheremainderofthemorninghehelpedhisaunt,andintheafternoon,whentherewasnothingmoretobedone,hewentintothevillage。
HereheaskedamanwhereaboutsChristminsterlay。
`Christminster?Oh,well,outbythereyonder;thoughI’veneverbinthere-notI。I’veneverhadanybusinessatsuchaplace。’
Themanpointednorth-eastward,intheverydirectionwherelaythatfieldinwhichJudehadsodisgracedhimself。Therewassomethingunpleasantaboutthecoincidenceforthemoment,butthefearsomenessofthisfactratherincreasedhiscuriosityaboutthecity。Thefarmerhadsaidhewasnevertobeseeninthatfieldagain;yetChristminsterlayacrossit,andthepathwasapublicone。So,stealingoutofthehamlet,hedescendedintothesamehollowwhichhadwitnessedhispunishmentinthemorning,neverswervinganinchfromthepath,andclimbingupthelongandtediousascentontheothersidetillthetrackjoinedthehighwaybyalittleclumpoftrees。Heretheploughedlandended,andallbeforehimwasbleakopendown。
JudetheObscureChapter03I-iiiNotasoulwasvisibleonthehedgelesshighway,oroneithersideofit,andthewhiteroadseemedtoascendanddiminishtillitjoinedthesky。
Attheverytopitwascrossedatrightanglesbyagreen`ridgeway’-
theIckneildStreetandoriginalRomanroadthroughthedistrict。Thisancienttrackraneastandwestformanymiles,anddownalmosttowithinlivingmemoryhadbeenusedfordrivingflocksandherdstofairsandmarkets。
Butitwasnowneglectedandovergrown。
Theboyhadneverbeforestrayedsofarnorthasthisfromthenestlinghamletinwhichhehadbeendepositedbythecarrierfromarailwaystationsouthward,onedarkeveningsomefewmonthsearlier,andtillnowhehadhadnosuspicionthatsuchawide,flat,low-lyingcountrylaysonearathand,undertheveryvergeofhisuplandworld。Thewholenorthernsemicirclebetweeneastandwest,toadistanceoffortyorfiftymiles,spreaditselfbeforehim;abluer,moisteratmosphere,evidently,thanthathebreatheduphere。
Notfarfromtheroadstoodaweather-beatenoldbarnofreddish-greybrickandtile。ItwasknownastheBrownHousebythepeopleofthelocality。
Hewasabouttopassitwhenheperceivedaladderagainsttheeaves;andthereflectionthatthehigherhegot,thefurtherhecouldsee,ledJudetostandandregardit。Ontheslopeoftherooftwomenwererepairingthetiling。Heturnedintotheridgewayanddrewtowardsthebarn。
Whenhehadwistfullywatchedtheworkmenforsometimehetookcourage,andascendedtheladdertillhestoodbesidethem。
`Well,mylad,andwhatmayyouwantuphere?~’
`IwantedtoknowwherethecityofChristminsteris,ifyouplease。’
`Christminsterisoutacrossthere,bythatclump。Youcanseeit-atleastyoucanonaclearday。Ah,no,youcan’tnow。’
Theothertiler,gladofanykindofdiversionfromthemonotonyofhislabour,hadalsoturnedtolooktowardsthequarterdesignated。
`Youcan’toftenseeitinweatherlikethis,’hesaid。`ThetimeI’venoticeditiswhenthesunisgoingdowninablazeofflame,anditlookslike-Idon’tknowwhat。’
`TheheavenlyJerusalem,’suggestedtheseriousurchin。
`Ay-thoughIshouldneverha’thoughtofitmyself……ButI
can’tseenoChristminsterto-day。’
Theboystrainedhiseyesalso;yetneithercouldheseethefar-offcity。Hedescendedfromthebarn,andabandoningChristminsterwiththeversatilityofhisagehewalkedalongtheridge-track,lookingforanynaturalobjectsofinterestthatmightlieinthebanksthereabout。WhenherepassedthebarntogobacktoMarygreenheobservedthattheladderwasstillinitsplace,butthatthemenhadfinishedtheirday’sworkandgoneaway。
Itwaswaningtowardsevening;therewasstillafaintmist,butithadclearedalittleexceptinthedampertractsofsubjacentcountryandalongtheriver-courses。HethoughtagainofChristminster,andwished,sincehehadcometwoorthreemilesfromhisaunt’shouseonpurpose,thathecouldhaveseenforoncethisattractivecityofwhichhehadbeentold。Butevenifhewaitedhereitwashardlylikelythattheairwouldclearbeforenight。Yethewaslothtoleavethespot,forthenorthernexpansebecamelosttoviewonretreatingtowardsthevillageonlyafewhundredyards。
Heascendedtheladdertohaveonemorelookatthepointthemenhaddesignated,andperchedhimselfonthehighestrung,overlyingthetiles。Hemightnotbeabletocomesofarasthisformanydays。Perhapsifheprayed,thewishtoseeChristminstermightbeforwarded。Peoplesaidthat,ifyouprayed,thingssometimescametoyou,eventhoughtheysometimesdidnot。Hehadreadinatractthatamanwhohadbeguntobuildachurch,andhadnomoneytofinishit,kneltdownandprayed,andthemoneycameinbythenextpost。Anothermantriedthesameexperiment,andthemoneydidnotcome;buthefoundafterwardsthatthebreecheshekneltinweremadebyawickedJew。Thiswasnotdiscouraging,andturningontheladderJudekneltonthethirdrung,where,restingagainstthoseaboveit,heprayedthatthemistmightrise。
Hethenseatedhimselfagain,andwaited。Inthecourseoftenorfifteenminutesthethinningmistdissolvedaltogetherfromthenorthernhorizon,asithadalreadydoneelsewhere,andaboutaquarterofanhourbeforethetimeofsunsetthewestwardcloudsparted,thesun’spositionbeingpartiallyuncovered,andthebeamsstreamingoutinvisiblelinesbetweentwobarsofslatycloud。Theboyimmediatelylookedbackintheolddirection。
Somewaywithinthelimitsofthestretchoflandscape,pointsoflightlikethetopazgleamed。Theairincreasedintransparencywiththelapseofminutes,tillthetopazpointsshowedthemselvestobethevanes,windows,wetroofslates,andothershiningspotsuponthespires,domes,freestone-work,andvariedoutlinesthatwerefaintlyrevealed。
ItwasChristminster,unquestionably;eitherdirectlyseen,ormiragedinthepeculiaratmosphere。