`St。PeterandSt-St。MaryMagdalen。’
`Well-nowcomedowntotea,andgoandfinishthatorgan-text,ifthere’slightenoughafterwards。’
TheselittleobstaclestotheindulgenceofwhathadbeenthemerestpassingfancycreatedinSueagreatzestforunpackingherobjectsandlookingatthem;andatbedtime,whenshewassureofbeingundisturbed,sheunrobedthedivinitiesincomfort。Placingthepairoffiguresonthechestofdrawers,acandleoneachsideofthem,shewithdrewtothebed,flungherselfdownthereon,andbeganreadingabookshehadtakenfromherbox,whichMissFontoverknewnothingof。ItwasavolumeofGibbon,andshereadthechapterdealingwiththereignofJuliantheApostate。
Occasionallyshelookedupatthestatuettes,whichappearedstrangeandoutofplace,therehappeningtobeaCalvaryprinthangingbetweenthem,and,asifthescenesuggestedtheaction,sheatlengthjumpedupandwithdrewanotherbookfromherbox-avolumeofverse-andturnedtothefamiliarpoem-Thouhastconquered,OpaleGalilean:
Theworldhasgrowngreyfromthybreath!whichshereadtotheend。Presentlysheputoutthecandles,undressed,andfinallyextinguishedherownlight。
Shewasofanagewhichusuallysleepssoundly,yetto-nightshekeptwakingup,andeverytimesheopenedhereyestherewasenoughdiffusedlightfromthestreettoshowherthewhiteplasterfigures,standingonthechestofdrawersinoddcontrasttotheirenvironmentoftextandmartyr,andtheGothic-framedCrucifix-picturethatwasonlydiscerniblenowasaLatincross,thefigurethereonbeingobscuredbytheshades。
Ononeoftheseoccasionsthechurchclocksstrucksomesmallhour。Itfellupontheearsofanotherpersonwhosatbendingoverhisbooksatanotverydistantspotinthesamecity。BeingSaturdaynightthemorrowwasoneonwhichJudehadnotsethisalarm-clocktocallhimathisusuallyearlytime,andhencehehadstayedup,aswashiscustom,twoorthreehourslaterthanhecouldaffordtodoonanyotherdayoftheweek。JustthenhewasearnestlyreadingfromhisGriesbach’stext。
AttheverytimethatSuewastossingandstaringatherfigures,thepolicemanandbelatedcitizenspassingalongunderhiswindowmighthaveheard,iftheyhadstoodstill,strangesyllablesmumbledwithfervourwithin-wordsthathadforJudeanindescribableenchantment:inexplicablesoundssomethinglikethese:-
`Allheminheistheoshopater,exhoutapanta,kaihemeiseisauton:’
Tillthesoundsrolledwithreverentloudness,asabookwasheardtoclose:-
`KaiheisKuriosIesousChristos,dihoutapantakaihemeisdiautou!’
JudetheObscureChapter15II-ivHewasahandymanathistrade,anall-roundman,asartizansincountry-townsareapttobe。InLondonthemanwhocarvesthebossorknobofleafagedeclinestocutthefragmentofmouldingwhichmergesinthatleafage,asifitwereadegradationtodothesecondhalfofonewhole。WhentherewasnotmuchGothicmouldingforJudetorun,ormuchwindow-traceryonthebankers,hewouldgooutletteringmonumentsortombstones,andtakeapleasureinthechangeofhandiwork。
Thenexttimethathesawherwaswhenhewasonaladderexecutingajobofthissortinsideoneofthechurches。Therewasashortmorningservice,andwhentheparsonenteredJudecamedownfromhisladder,andsatwiththehalf-dozenpeopleformingthecongregation,tilltheprayershouldbeended,andhecouldresumehistapping。HedidnotobservetilltheservicewashalfoverthatoneofthewomenwasSue,whohadperforceaccompaniedtheelderlyMissFontoverthither。
Judesatwatchingherprettyshoulders,hereasy,curiouslynonchalantrisingsandsittings,andherperfunctorygenuflexions,andthoughtwhatahelpsuchanAnglicanwouldhavebeentohiminhappiercircumstances。
Itwasnotsomuchhisanxietytogetonwithhisworkthatmadehimgouptoitimmediatelytheworshipersbegantotaketheirleave:itwasthathedarednot,inthisholyspot,confrontthewomanwhowasbeginningtoinfluencehiminsuchanindescribablemanner。ThosethreeenormousreasonswhyhemustnotattemptintimateacquaintancewithSueBridehead,nowthathisinterestinherhadshownitselftobeunmistakablyofasexualkind,loomedasstubbornlyasever。Butitwasalsoobviousthatmancouldnotlivebyworkalone;thattheparticularmanJude,atanyrate,wantedsomethingtolove。Somemenwouldhaverushedincontinentlytoher,snatchedthepleasureofeasyfriendshipwhichshecouldhardlyrefuse,andhavelefttheresttochance。NotsoJude-atfirst。
Butasthedays,andstillmoreparticularlythelonelyevenings,draggedalong,hefoundhimself,tohismoralconsternation,tobethinkingmoreofherinsteadofthinkinglessofher,andexperiencingafearfulblissindoingwhatwaserratic,informal,andunexpected。Surroundedbyherinfluenceallday,walkingpastthespotsshefrequented,hewasalwaysthinkingofher,andwasobligedtoowntohimselfthathisconsciencewaslikelytobetheloserinthisbattle。
Tobesureshewasalmostanidealitytohimstill。Perhapstoknowherwouldbetocurehimselfofthisunexpectedandunauthorizedpassion。
Avoicewhisperedthat,thoughhedesiredtoknowher,hedidnotdesiretobecured。
Therewasnottheleastdoubtthatfromhisownorthodoxpointofviewthesituationwasgrowingimmoral。ForSuetobethelovedoneofamanwhowaslicensedbythelawsofhiscountrytoloveArabellaandnoneotheruntohislife’send,wasaprettybadsecondbeginningwhenthemanwasbentonsuchacourseasJudepurposed。Thisconvictionwassorealwithhimthatonedaywhen,aswasfrequent,hewasatworkinaneighbouringvillagechurchalone,hefeltittobehisdutytoprayagainsthisweakness。Butmuchashewishedtobeanexemplarinthesethingshecouldnotgeton。Itwasquiteimpossible,hefound,toasktobedeliveredfromtemptationwhenyourheart’sdesirewastobetempteduntoseventytimesseven。Soheexcusedhimself。`Afterall,’hesaid,`itisnotaltogetheranerotolepsythatisthematterwithme,asatthatfirsttime。Icanseethatsheisexceptionallybright;anditispartlyawishforintellectualsympathy,andacravingforloving-kindnessinmysolitude。’Thushewentonadoringher,fearingtorealizethatitwashumanperversity。ForwhateverSue’svirtues,talents,orecclesiasticalsaturation,itwascertainthatthoseitemswerenotatallthecauseofhisaffectionforher。
Onanafternoonatthistimeayounggirlenteredthestone-mason’syardwithsomehesitation,and,liftingherskirtstoavoiddragglingtheminthewhitedust,crossedtowardstheoffice。
`That’sanicegirl,’saidoneofthemenknownasUncleJoe。
`Whoisshe?’askedanother。
`Idon’tknow-I’veseenherabouthereandthere。Why,yes,she’sthedaughterofthatcleverchapBrideheadwhodidallthewroughtironworkatSt。Silas’tenyearsago,andwentawaytoLondonafterwards。
Idon’tknowwhathe’sdoingnow-notmuchIfancy-asshe’scomebackhere。’
MeanwhiletheyoungwomanhadknockedattheofficedoorandaskedifMr。JudeFawleywasatworkintheyard。ItsohappenedthatJudehadgoneoutsomewhereorotherthatafternoon,whichinformationshereceivedwithalookofdisappointment,andwentawayimmediately。WhenJudereturnedtheytoldhim,anddescribedher,whereuponheexclaimed,`Why-that’smycousinSue!’
Helookedalongthestreetafterher,butshewasoutofsight。
Hehadnolongeranythoughtofaconscientiousavoidanceofher,andresolvedtocalluponherthatveryevening。Andwhenhereachedhislodginghefoundanotefromher-afirstnote-oneofthosedocumentswhich,simpleandcommonplaceinthemselves,areseenretrospectivelytohavebeenpregnantwithimpassionedconsequences。Theveryunconsciousnessofaloomingdramawhichisshowninsuchinnocentfirstepistlesfromwomentomen,orviceversa,makesthem,whensuchadramafollows,andtheyarereadoverbythepurpleorluridlightofit,allthemoreimpressive,solemn,andincases,terrible。
Sue’swasofthemostartlessandnaturalkind。SheaddressedhimasherdearcousinJude;saidshehadonlyjustlearntbythemerestaccidentthathewaslivinginChristminster,andreproachedhimwithnotlettingherknow。Theymighthavehadsuchnicetimestogether,shesaid,forshewasthrownmuchuponherself,andhadhardlyanycongenialfriend。
Butnowtherewaseveryprobabilityofhersoongoingaway,sothatthechanceofcompanionshipwouldbelostperhapsforever。
AcoldsweatoverspreadJudeatthenewsthatshewasgoingaway。
Thatwasacontingencyhehadneverthoughtof,anditspurredhimtowriteallthemorequicklytoher。Hewouldmeetherthatveryevening,hesaid,onehourfromthetimeofwriting,atthecrossinthepavementwhichmarkedthespotoftheMartyrdoms。
Whenhehaddespatchedthenotebyaboyheregrettedthatinhishurryheshouldhavesuggestedtohertomeethimoutofdoors,whenhemighthavesaidhewouldcalluponher。Itwas,infact,thecountrycustomtomeetthus,andnothingelsehadoccurredtohim。Arabellahadbeenmetinthesameway,unfortunately,anditmightnotseemrespectabletoadeargirllikeSue。However,itcouldnotbehelpednow,andhemovedtowardsthepointafewminutesbeforethehour,undertheglimmerofthenewlylightedlamps。
Thebroadstreetwassilent,andalmostdeserted,althoughitwasnotlate。Hesawafigureontheotherside,whichturnedouttobehers,andtheybothconvergedtowardsthecrossmarkatthesamemoment。
Beforeeitherhadreacheditshecalledouttohim:
`Iamnotgoingtomeetyoujustthere,forthefirsttimeinmylife!Comefurtheron。’
Thevoice,thoughpositiveandsilvery,hadbeentremulous。Theywalkedoninparallellines,and,waitingherpleasure,Judewatchedtillsheshowedsignsofclosingin,whenhedidlikewise,theplacebeingwherethecarriers’cartsstoodinthedaytime,thoughtherewasnoneonthespotthen。
`IamsorrythatIaskedyoutomeetme,anddidn’tcall,’beganJudewiththebashfulnessofalover。`ButIthoughtitwouldsavetimeifweweregoingtowalk。’
`Oh-Idon’tmindthat,’shesaidwiththefreedomofafriend。
`Ihavereallynoplacetoaskanybodyinto。WhatImeantwasthattheplaceyouchosewassohorrid-IsupposeIoughtnottosayhorrid-I
meangloomyandinauspiciousinitsassociations……Butisn’titfunnytobeginlikethis,whenIdon’tknowyouyet?’Shelookedhimupanddowncuriously,thoughJudedidnotlookmuchather。
`YouseemtoknowmemorethanIknowyou,’sheadded。
`Yes-Ihaveseenyounowandthen。’
`AndyouknewwhoIwas,anddidn’tspeak?AndnowIamgoingaway!’
`Yes。That’sunfortunate。Ihavehardlyanyotherfriend。Ihave,indeed,oneveryoldfriendheresomewhere,butIdon’tquiteliketocallonhimjustyet。Iwonderifyouknowanythingofhim-Mr。Phillotson?
AparsonsomewhereaboutthecountyIthinkheis。’
`No-IonlyknowofoneMr。Phillotson。Helivesalittlewayoutinthecountry,atLumsdon。He’savillageschoolmaster。’
`Ah!Iwonderifhe’sthesame。Surelyitisimpossible!Onlyaschoolmasterstill!DoyouknowhisChristianname-isitRichard?’
`Yes-itis;I’vedirectedbookstohim,thoughI’veneverseenhim。’
`Thenhecouldn’tdoit!’
Jude’scountenancefell,forhowcouldhesucceedinanenterprisewhereinthegreatPhillotsonhadfailed?HewouldhavehadadayofdespairifthenewshadnotarrivedduringhissweetSue’spresence,butevenatthismomenthehadvisionsofhowPhillotson’sfailureinthegranduniversityschemewoulddepresshimwhenshehadgone。
`Aswearegoingtotakeawalk,supposewegoandcalluponhim?’
saidJudesuddenly。`Itisnotlate。’
Sheagreed,andtheywentalongupahill,andthroughsomeprettilywoodedcountry。Presentlytheembattledtowerandsquareturretofthechurchroseintothesky,andthentheschool-house。TheyinquiredofapersoninthestreetifMr。Phillotsonwaslikelytobeathome,andwereinformedthathewasalwaysathome。Aknockbroughthimtotheschool-housedoor,withacandleinhishandandalookofinquiryonhisface,whichhadgrownthinandcarewornsinceJudelastseteyesonhim。
ThatafteralltheseyearsthemeetingwithMr。Phillotsonshouldbeofthishomelycomplexiondestroyedatonestrokethehalowhichhadsurroundedtheschool-master’sfigureinJude’simaginationeversincetheirparting。ItcreatedinhimatthesametimeasympathywithPhillotsonasanobviouslymuchchastenedanddisappointedman。Judetoldhimhisname,andsaidhehadcometoseehimasanoldfriendwhohadbeenkindtohiminhisyouthfuldays。
`Idon’trememberyouintheleast,’saidtheschool-masterthoughtfully。
`Youwereoneofmypupils,yousay?Yes,nodoubt;buttheynumbersomanythousandsbythistimeofmylife,andhavenaturallychangedsomuch,thatIrememberveryfewexceptthequiterecentones。’
`ItwasoutatMarygreen,’saidJude,wishinghehadnotcome。
`Yes。Iwasthereashorttime。Andisthisanoldpupil,too?’
`No-that’smycousin……Iwrotetoyouforsomegrammars,ifyourecollect,andyousentthem?’