Judethendroppedbehind，waitedafewminutestorecoverbreath，andwenthomewithaconsciousnessofhavingstruckablowforChristminster。
　　Throughtheinterveningfortnightheranaboutandsmiledoutwardlyathisinwardthoughts，asiftheywerepeoplemeetingandnoddingtohim-smiledwiththatsingularlybeautifulirradiationwhichisseentospreadonyoungfacesattheinceptionofsomegloriousidea，asifasupernaturallampwereheldinsidetheirtransparentnatures，givingrisetotheflatteringfancythatheavenliesaboutthemthen。
　　Hehonestlyperformedhispromisetothemanofmanycures，inwhomhenowsincerelybelieved，walkingmileshitherandthitheramongthesurroundinghamletsasthePhysician’sagentinadvance。Ontheeveningappointedhestoodmotionlessontheplateau，attheplacewherehehadpartedfromVilbert，andthereawaitedhisapproach。Theroad-physicianwasfairlyuptotime；but，tothesurpriseofJudeonstrikingintohispace，whichthepedestriandidnotdiminishbyasingleunitofforce，thelatterseemedhardlytorecognizehisyoungcompanion，thoughwiththelapseofthefortnighttheeveningshadgrownlight。Judethoughtitmightperhapsbeowingtohiswearinganotherhat，andhesalutedthephysicianwithdignity。
　　`Well，myboy？’saidthelatterabstractedly。
　　`I’vecome，’saidJude。
　　`You？whoareyou？Ohyes-tobesure！Gotanyorders，lad？’
　　`Yes。’AndJudetoldhimthenamesandaddressesofthecottagerswhowerewillingtotestthevirtuesoftheworld-renownedpillsandsalve。
　　Thequackmentallyregisteredthesewithgreatcare。
　　`AndtheLatinandGreekgrammars？’Jude’svoicetrembledwithanxiety。
　　`Whataboutthem？’
　　`Youweretobringmeyours，thatyouusedbeforeyoutookyourdegree。’
　　`Ah，yes，yes！Forgotallaboutit-all！Somanylivesdependingonmyattention，yousee，myman，thatIcan’tgivesomuchthoughtasIwouldliketootherthings。’
　　Judecontrolledhimselfsufficientlylongtomakesureofthetruth；andherepeated，inavoiceofdrymisery，`Youhaven’tbrought’em！’
　　`No。Butyoumustgetmesomemoreordersfromsickpeople，andI’llbringthegrammarsnexttime。’
　　Judedroppedbehind。Hewasanunsophisticatedboy，butthegiftofsuddeninsightwhichissometimesvouchsafedtochildrenshowedhimallatoncewhatshoddyhumanitythequackwasmadeof。Therewastobenointellectuallightfromthissource。Theleavesdroppedfromhisimaginarycrownoflaurel；heturnedtoagate，leantagainstit，andcriedbitterly。
　　Thedisappointmentwasfollowedbyanintervalofblankness。Hemight，perhaps，haveobtainedgrammarsfromAlfredston，buttodothatrequiredmoney，andaknowledgeofwhatbookstoorder；andthoughphysicallycomfortable，hewasinsuchabsolutedependenceastobewithoutafarthingofhisown。
　　AtthisdateMr。Phillotsonsentforhispianoforte，anditgaveJudealead。Whyshouldhenotwritetotheschoolmaster，andaskhimtobesokindastogethimthegrammarsinChristminster？Hemightslipaletterinsidethecaseoftheinstrument，anditwouldbesuretoreachthedesiredeyes。Whynotaskhimtosendanyoldsecond-handcopies，whichwouldhavethecharmofbeingmellowedbytheuniversityatmosphere？
　　Totellhisauntofhisintentionwouldbetodefeatit。Itwasnecessarytoactalone。
　　Afterafurtherconsiderationofafewdayshedidact，andonthedayofthepiano’sdeparture，whichhappenedtobehisnextbirthday，clandestinelyplacedtheletterinsidethepacking-case，directedtohismuch-admiredfriend，beingafraidtorevealtheoperationtohisauntDrusilla，lestsheshoulddiscoverhismotive，andcompelhimtoabandonhisscheme。
　　Thepianowasdespatched，andJudewaiteddaysandweeks，callingeverymorningatthecottagepostofficebeforehisgreat-auntwasstirring。
　　Atlastapacketdidindeedarriveatthevillage，andhesawfromtheendsofitthatitcontainedtwothinbooks。Hetookitawayintoalonelyplace，andsatdownonafelledelmtoopenit。
　　EversincehisfirstecstasyorvisionofChristminsteranditspossibilities，Judehadmeditatedmuchandcuriouslyontheprobablesortofprocessthatwasinvolvedinturningtheexpressionsofonelanguageintothoseofanother。Heconcludedthatagrammaroftherequiredtonguewouldcontain，primarily，arule，prescription，orclueofthenatureofasecretcipher，which，onceknown，wouldenablehim，bymerelyapplyingit，tochangeatwillallwordsofhisownspeechintothoseoftheforeignone。Hischildishideawas，infact，apushingtotheextremityofmathematicalprecisionwhatiseverywhereknownasGrimm’sLaw-anaggrandizementofroughrulestoidealcompleteness。Thusheassumedthatthewordsoftherequiredlanguagewerealwaystobefoundsomewherelatentinthewordsofthegivenlanguagebythosewhohadthearttouncoverthem，suchartbeingfurnishedbythebooksaforesaid。
　　When，therefore，havingnotedthatthepacketborethepostmarkofChristminster，hecutthestring，openedthevolumes，andturnedtotheLatingrammar，whichchancedtocomeuppermost，hecouldscarcelybelievehiseyes。
　　Thebookwasanoldone-thirtyyearsold，soiled，scribbledwantonlyoverwithastrangenameineveryvarietyofenmitytotheletterpress，andmarkedatrandomwithdatestwentyyearsearlierthanhisownday。
　　ButthiswasnotthecauseofJude’samazement。Helearntforthefirsttimethattherewasnolawoftransmutation，asinhisinnocencehehadsupposedtherewas，insomedegree，butthegrammariandidnotrecognizeit，butthateverywordinbothLatinandGreekwastobeindividuallycommittedtomemoryatthecostofyearsofplodding。
　　Judeflungdownthebooks，laybackwardalongthebroadtrunkoftheelm，andwasanutterlymiserableboyforthespaceofaquarterofanhour。Ashehadoftendonebefore，hepulledhishatoverhisfaceandwatchedthesunpeeringinsidiouslyathimthroughtheintersticesofthestraw。ThiswasLatinandGreek，then，wasitthisgranddelusion！
　　ThecharmhehadsupposedinstoreforhimwasreallyalabourlikethatofIsraelinEgypt。
　　WhatbrainstheymusthaveinChristminsterandthegreatschools，hepresentlythought，tolearnwordsonebyoneuptotensofthousands！
　　Therewerenobrainsinhisheadequaltothisbusiness；andasthelittlesun-rayscontinuedtostreaminthroughhishatathim，hewishedhehadneverseenabook，thathemightneverseeanother，thathehadneverbeenborn。
　　Somebodymighthavecomealongthatwaywhowouldhaveaskedhimhistrouble，andmighthavecheeredhimbysayingthathisnotionswerefurtheradvancedthanthoseofhisgrammarian。Butnobodydidcome，becausenobodydoes；andunderthecrushingrecognitionofhisgiganticerrorJudecontinuedtowishhimselfoutoftheworld。
　　JudetheObscureChapter05I-vDuringthethreeorfoursucceedingyearsaquaintandsingularvehiclemighthavebeendiscernedmovingalongthelanesandby-roadsnearMarygreen，driveninaquaintandsingularway。
　　InthecourseofamonthortwoafterthereceiptofthebooksJudehadgrowncalloustotheshabbytrickplayedhimbythedeadlanguages。
　　Infact，hisdisappointmentatthenatureofthosetongueshad，afterawhile，beenthemeansofstillfurtherglorifyingtheeruditionofChristminster。
　　Toacquirelanguages，departedorlivinginspiteofsuchobstinaciesashenowknewtheminherentlytopossess，wasaherculeanperformancewhichgraduallyledhimontoagreaterinterestinitthaninthepresupposedpatentprocess。Themountain-weightofmaterialunderwhichtheideaslayinthosedustyvolumescalledtheclassicspiquedhimintoadogged，mouselikesubtletyofattempttomoveitpiecemeal。
　　Hehadendeavouredtomakehispresencetolerabletohiscrustymaidenauntbyassistinghertothebestofhisability，andthebusinessofthelittlecottagebakeryhadgrowninconsequence。Anagedhorsewithahangingheadhadbeenpurchasedforeightpoundsatasale，acreakingcartwithawhity-browntiltobtainedforafewpoundsmore，andinthisturn-outitbecameJude’sbusinessthriceaweektocarryloavesofbreadtothevillagersandsolitarycottersimmediatelyroundMarygreen。
　　Thesingularityaforesaidlay，afterall，lessintheconveyanceitselfthaninJude’smannerofconductingitalongitsroute。ItsinteriorwasthesceneofmostofJude’seducationby`privatestudy。’Assoonasthehorsehadlearnttheroadandthehousesatwhichhewastopauseawhile，theboy，seatedinfront，wouldslipthereinsoverhisarm，ingeniouslyfixopen，bymeansofastrapattachedtothetilt，thevolumehewasreading，spreadthedictionaryonhisknees，andplungeintothesimplerpassagesfromCaesar，Virgil，orHorace，asthecasemightbe，inhispurblindstumblingway，andwithanexpenditureoflabourthatwouldhavemadeatender-heartedpedagogueshedtears；yetsomehowgettingatthemeaningofwhatheread，anddiviningratherthanbeholdingthespiritoftheoriginal，whichoftentohismindwassomethingelsethanthatwhichhewastaughttolookfor。
　　TheonlycopieshehadbeenabletolayhandsonwereoldDelphineditions，becausetheyweresuperseded，andthereforecheap。But，badforidleschoolboys，itdidsohappenthattheywerepassablygoodforhim。
　　Thehamperedandlonelyitinerantconscientiouslycoveredupthemarginalreadings，andusedthemmerelyonpointsofconstruction，ashewouldhaveusedacomradeortutorwhoshouldhavehappenedtobepassingby。AndthoughJudemayhavehadlittlechanceofbecomingascholarbytheseroughandreadymeans，hewasinthewayofgettingintothegroovehewishedtofollow。
　　Whilehewasbusiedwiththeseancientpages，whichhadalreadybeenthumbedbyhandspossiblyinthegrave，diggingoutthethoughtsofthesemindssoremoteyetsonear，thebonyoldhorsepursuedhisrounds，andJudewouldbearousedfromthewoesofDidobythestoppageofhiscartandthevoiceofsomeoldwomancrying，`Twoto-day，baker，andI
　　returnthisstaleone。’
　　Hewasfrequentlymetinthelanesbypedestriansandotherswithouthisseeingthem，andbydegreesthepeopleoftheneighbourhoodbegantotalkabouthismethodofcombiningworkandplaysuchtheyconsideredhisreadingtobe，which，thoughprobablyconvenientenoughtohimself，wasnotaltogetherasafeproceedingforothertravellersalongthesameroads。Thereweremurmurs。Thenaprivateresidentofanadjoiningplaceinformedthelocalpolicemanthatthebaker’sboyshouldnotbeallowedtoreadwhiledriving，andinsistedthatitwastheconstable’sdutytocatchhimintheact，andtakehimtothepolicecourtatAlfredston，andgethimfinedfordangerouspracticesonthehighway。ThepolicemanthereuponlayinwaitforJude，andonedayaccostedhimandcautionedhim。
　　AsJudehadtogetupatthreeo’clockinthemorningtoheattheoven，andmixandsetinthebreadthathedistributedlaterintheday，hewasobligedtogotobedatnightimmediatelyafterlayingthesponge；sothatifhecouldnotreadhisclassicsonthehighwayshecouldhardlystudyatall。Theonlythingtobedonewas，therefore，tokeepasharpeyeaheadandaroundhimaswellashecouldinthecircumstances，andslipawayhisbooksassoonasanybodyloomedinthedistance，thepolicemaninparticular。Todothatofficialjustice，hedidnotputhimselfmuchinthewayofJude’sbread-cart，consideringthatinsuchalonelydistrictthechiefdangerwastoJudehimself，andoftenonseeingthewhitetiltoverthehedgeshewouldmoveinanotherdirection。
　　OnadaywhenFawleywasgettingquiteadvanced，beingnowaboutsixteen，andhadbeenstumblingthroughthe`CarmenSaeculare，’onhiswayhome，hefoundhimselftobepassingoverthehighedgeoftheplateaubytheBrownHouse。Thelighthadchanged，anditwasthesenseofthiswhichhadcausedhimtolookup。Thesunwasgoingdown，andthefullmoonwasrisingsimultaneouslybehindthewoodsintheoppositequarter。Hismindhadbecomesoimpregnatedwiththepoemthat，inamomentofthesameimpulsiveemotionwhichyearsbeforehadcausedhimtokneelontheladder，hestoppedthehorse，alighted，andglancingroundtoseethatnobodywasinsight，kneltdownontheroadsidebankwithopenbook。Heturnedfirsttotheshinygoddess，whoseemedtolooksosoftlyandcriticallyathisdoings，thentothedisappearingluminaryontheotherhand，ashebegan：