Shebrightenedwithalittleglowoftriumph,swepthimalmosttenderlywithhereyesinturning,andretracingherstepsdownthebrooksidegrassrejoinedhercompanions。
JudeFawleyshoulderedhistool-basketandresumedhislonelyway,filledwithanardouratwhichhementallystoodatgaze。Hehadjustinhaledasinglebreathfromanewatmosphere,whichhadevidentlybeenhangingroundhimeverywherehewent,forheknewnothowlong,buthadsomehowbeendividedfromhisactualbreathingasbyasheetofglass。
Theintentionsastoreading,working,andlearning,whichhehadsopreciselyformulatedonlyafewminutesearlier,weresufferingacuriouscollapseintoacorner,heknewnothow。
`Well,it’sonlyabitoffun,’hesaidtohimself,faintlyconsciousthattocommonsensetherewassomethinglacking,andstillmoreobviouslysomethingredundantinthenatureofthisgirlwhohaddrawnhimtoherwhichmadeitnecessarythatheshouldassertmeresportivenessonhispartashisreasoninseekingher-somethinginherquiteantipathetictothatsideofhimwhichhadbeenoccupiedwithliterarystudyandthemagnificentChristminsterdream。Ithadbeennovestalwhochosethatmissileforopeningherattackonhim。Hesawthiswithhisintellectualeye,justforashort;fleetingwhile,asbythelightofafallinglamponemightmomentarilyseeaninscriptiononawallbeforebeingenshroudedindarkness。Andthenthispassingdiscriminativepowerwaswithdrawn,andJudewaslosttoallconditionsofthingsintheadventofafreshandwildpleasure,thatofhavingfoundanewchannelforemotionalinteresthithertounsuspected,thoughithadlainclosebesidehim。HewastomeetthisenkindlingoneoftheothersexonthefollowingSunday。
Meanwhilethegirlhadjoinedhercompanions,andshesilentlyresumedherflickingandsousingofthechitterlingsinthepellucidstream。
`Catchedun,mydear?’laconicallyaskedthegirlcalledAnny。
`Idon’tknow。IwishIhadthrownsomethingelsethanthat!’
regretfullymurmuredArabella。
`Lord!he’snobody,thoughyoumedthinkso。HeusedtodriveoldDrusillaFawley’sbread-cartoutatMarygreen,tillhe’prenticedhimselfatAlfredston。Sincethenhe’sbeenverystuckup,andalwaysreading。
Hewantstobeascholar,theysay。’
`Oh,Idon’tcarewhatheis,oranythingabout’n。Don’tyouthinkit,mychild!’
`Oh,don’tye!Youneedn’ttrytodeceiveus!Whatdidyoustaytalkingtohimfor,ifyoudidn’twantun?Whetheryoudoorwhetheryoudon’t,he’sassimpleasachild。Icouldseeitasyoucourtedonthebridge,whenhelookedat’eeasifhehadneverseenawomanbeforeinhisborndays。Well,he’stobehadbyanywomanwhocangethimtocareforherabit,ifshelikestosetherselftocatchhimtherightway。’
JudetheObscureChapter07I-viiThenextdayJudeFawleywaspausinginhisbedroomwiththeslopingceiling,lookingatthebooksonthetable,andthenattheblackmarkontheplasterabovethem,madebythesmokeofhislampinpastmonths。
ItwasSundayafternoon,four-and-twentyhoursafterhismeetingwithArabellaDonn。Duringthewholebygoneweekhehadbeenresolvingtosetthisafternoonapartforaspecialpurpose,-there-readingofhisGreekTestament-hisnewone,withbettertypethanhisoldcopy,followingGriesbach’stextasamendedbynumerouscorrectors,andwithvariorumreadingsinthemargin。Hewasproudofthebook,havingobtaineditbyboldlywritingtoitsLondonpublisher,athinghehadneverdonebefore。
Hehadanticipatedmuchpleasureinthisafternoon’sreading,underthequietroofofhisgreat-aunt’shouseasformerly,wherehenowsleptonlytwonightsaweek。Butanewthing,agreathitch,hadhappenedyesterdayintheglidingandnoiselesscurrentofhislife,andhefeltasasnakemustfeelwhohassloughedoffitswinterskin,andcannotunderstandthebrightnessandsensitivenessofitsnewone。
Hewouldnotgoouttomeether,afterall。Hesatdown,openedthebook,andwithhiselbowsfirmlyplantedonthetable,andhishandstohistemplesbeganatthebeginning:
HKAINHDIAQHKHHadhepromisedtocallforher?Surelyhehad!Shewouldwaitindoors,poorgirl,andwasteallherafternoononaccountofhim。Therewasasomethinginher,too,whichwasverywinning,apartfrompromises。Heoughtnottobreakfaithwithher。EventhoughhehadonlySundaysandweek-dayeveningsforreadinghecouldaffordoneafternoon,seeingthatotheryoungmenaffordedsomany。Afterto-dayhewouldneverprobablyseeheragain。Indeed,itwouldbeimpossible,consideringwhathisplanswere。
Inshort,asifmaterially,acompellingarmofextraordinarymuscularpowerseizedholdofhim-somethingwhichhadnothingincommonwiththespiritsandinfluencesthathadmovedhimhitherto。Thisseemedtocarelittleforhisreasonandhiswill,nothingforhisso-calledelevatedintentions,andmovedhimalong,asaviolentschoolmasteraschoolboyhehasseizedbythecollar,inadirectionwhichtendedtowardstheembraceofawomanforwhomhehadnorespect,andwhoselifehadnothingincommonwithhisownexceptlocality。
HKAINHDIAQHKHwasnomoreheeded,andthepredestinateJudesprangupandacrosstheroom。Foreseeingsuchaneventhehadalreadyarrayedhimselfinhisbestclothes。Inthreeminuteshewasoutofthehouseanddescendingbythepathacrossthewidevacanthollowofcorn-groundwhichlaybetweenthevillageandtheisolatedhouseofArabellainthedipbeyondtheupland。
Ashewalkedhelookedathiswatch。Hecouldbebackintwohours,easily,andagoodlongtimewouldstillremaintohimforreadingaftertea。
Passingthefewunhealthyfir-treesandcottagewherethepathjoinedthehighwayhehastenedalong,andstruckawaytotheleft,descendingthesteepsideofthecountrytothewestoftheBrownHouse。Hereatthebaseofthechalkformationhenearedthebrookthatoozedfromit,andfollowedthestreamtillhereachedherdwelling。Asmellofpiggeriescamefromtheback,andthegruntingoftheoriginatorsofthatsmell。
Heenteredthegarden,andknockedatthedoorwiththeknobofhisstick。
Somebodyhadseenhimthroughthewindow,foramalevoiceontheinsidesaid:
`Arabella!Here’syouryoungmancomecoorting!Mizzle,mygirl!’
Judewincedatthewords。Courtinginsuchabusiness-likeaspectasitevidentlyworetothespeakerwasthelastthinghewasthinkingof。Hewasgoingtowalkwithher,perhapskissher;but`courting’wastoocoollypurposefultobeanythingbutrepugnanttohisideas。Thedoorwasopenedandheentered,justasArabellacamedownstairsinradiantwalkingattire。
`Takeachair,Mr。What’s-your-name?’saidherfather,anenergetic,black-whiskeredman,inthesamebusinessliketonesJudehadheardfromoutside。
`I’drathergooutatonce,wouldn’tyou?’shewhisperedtoJude。
`Yes,’saidhe。`We’llwalkuptotheBrownHouseandback,wecandoitinhalfanhour。’
Arabellalookedsohandsomeamidheruntidysurroundingsthathefeltgladhehadcome,andallthemisgivingsvanishedthathadhithertohauntedhim。
Firsttheyclamberedtothetopofthegreatdown,duringwhichascenthehadoccasionallytotakeherhandtoassisther。Thentheyboreofftotheleftalongthecrestintotheridgeway,whichtheyfollowedtillitintersectedthehigh-roadattheBrownHouseaforesaid,thespotofhisformerferviddesirestobeholdChristminster。Butheforgotthemnow。HetalkedthecommonestlocaltwaddletoArabellawithgreaterzestthanhewouldhavefeltindiscussingallthephilosophieswithalltheDonsintherecentlyadoreduniversity,andpassedthespotwherehehadknelttoDianaandPhoebuswithoutrememberingthattherewereanysuchpeopleinthemythology,orthatthesunwasanythingelsethanausefullampforilluminatingArabella’sface。Anindescribablelightnessofheelservedtolifthimalong;andJude,theincipientscholar,prospectiveD。D。,professor,bishop,orwhatnot,felthimselfhonouredandglorifiedbythecondescensionofthishandsomecountrywenchinagreeingtotakeawalkwithhiminherSundayfrockandribbons。
TheyreachedtheBrownHousebarn-thepointatwhichhehadplannedtoturnback。Whilelookingoverthevastnorthernlandscapefromthisspottheywerestruckbytherisingofadensevolumeofsmokefromtheneighbourhoodofthelittletownwhichlaybeneaththematadistanceofacoupleofmiles。
`Itisafire,’saidArabella。`Let’srunandseeit-do!Itisnotfar!’
ThetendernesswhichhadgrownupinJude’sbosomlefthimnowilltothwartherinclinationnow-whichpleasedhiminaffordinghimexcuseforalongertimewithher。Theystartedoffdownthehillalmostatatrot;butongaininglevelgroundatthebottom,andwalkingamile,theyfoundthatthespotofthefirewasmuchfurtheroffthanithadseemed。
Havingbeguntheirjourney,however,theypushedon;butitwasnottillfiveo’clockthattheyfoundthemselvesonthescene,-thedistancebeingaltogetherabouthalf-a-dozenmilesfromMarygreen,andthreefromArabella’s。Theconflagrationhadbeengotunderbythetimetheyreachedit,andafterashortinspectionofthemelancholyruinstheyretracedtheirsteps-theircourselyingthroughthetownofAlfredston。
Arabellasaidshewouldlikesometea,andtheyenteredaninnofaninferiorclass,andgavetheirorder。Asitwasnotforbeertheyhadalongtimetowait。Themaid-servantrecognizedJude,andwhisperedhersurprisetohermistressinthebackground,thathe,thestudent`whokepthisselfupsoparticular,’shouldhavesuddenlydescendedsolowastokeepcompanywithArabella。Thelatterguessedwhatwasbeingsaid,andlaughedasshemettheseriousandtendergazeofherlover-thelowandtriumphantlaughofacarelesswomanwhoseessheiswinninghergame。
Theysatandlookedroundtheroom,andatthepictureofSamsonandDelilahwhichhungonthewall,andatthecircularbeer-stainsonthetable,andatthespittoonsunderfootfilledwithsawdust。ThewholeaspectofthescenehadthatdepressingeffectonJudewhichfewplacescanproducelikeatap-roomonaSundayeveningwhenthesettingsunisslantingin,andnoliquorisgoing,andtheunfortunatewayfarerfindshimselfwithnootherhavenofrest。
Itbegantogrowdusk。Theycouldnotwaitlonger,really,forthetea,theysaid。`Yetwhatelsecanwedo?’askedJude。`Itisathree-milewalkforyou。’
`Isupposewecanhavesomebeer,’saidArabella。
`Beer,ohyes。Ihadforgottenthat。Somehowitseemsoddtocometoapublic-houseforbeeronaSundayevening。’
`Butwedidn’t。’
`No,wedidn’t。’Judebythistimewishedhewasoutofsuchanuncongenialatmosphere;butheorderedthebeer,whichwaspromptlybrought。
Arabellatastedit。`Ugh!’shesaid。
Judetasted。`What’sthematterwithit?’heasked。`Idon’tunderstandbeerverymuchnow,itistrue。Ilikeitwellenough,butitisbadtoreadon,andIfindcoffeebetter。Butthisseemsallright。’
`Adulterated-Ican’ttouchit!’Shementionedthreeorfouringredientsthatshedetectedintheliquorbeyondmaltandhops,muchtoJude’ssurprise。
`Howmuchyouknow!’hesaidgood-humouredly。
Neverthelessshereturnedtothebeeranddrankhershare,andtheywentontheirway。Itwasnownearlydark,andassoonastheyhadwithdrawnfromthelightsofthetowntheywalkedclosertogether,tilltheytouchedeachother。Shewonderedwhyhedidnotputhisarmroundherwaist,buthedidnot;hemerelysaidwhattohimselfseemedaquiteboldenoughthing:`Takemyarm。’
Shetookit,thoroughly,uptotheshoulder。Hefeltthewarmthofherbodyagainsthis,andputtinghisstickunderhisotherarmheldwithhisrighthandherrightasitrestedinitsplace。
`Nowwearewelltogether,dear,aren’twe?’heobserved。
`Yes,’saidshe;addingtoherself:`Rathermild!’
`HowfastIhavebecome!’hewasthinking。
Thustheywalkedtilltheyreachedthefootoftheupland,wheretheycouldseethewhitehighwayascendingbeforetheminthegloom。FromthispointtheonlywayofgettingtoArabella’swasbygoinguptheincline,anddippingagainintohervalleyontheright。Beforetheyhadclimbedfartheywerenearlyrunintobytwomenwhohadbeenwalkingonthegrassunseen。
`Theselovers-youfind’emouto’doorsinallseasonsandweathers-loversandhomelessdogsonly,’saidoneofthemenastheyvanisheddownthehill。
Arabellatitteredlightly。
`Arewelovers?’askedJude。
`Youknowbest。’
`Butyoucantellme?’
Foranswersheinclinedherheaduponhisshoulder。Judetookthehint,andencirclingherwaistwithhisarm,pulledhertohimandkissedher。
Theywalkednownolongerarminarmbut,asshehaddesired,claspedtogether。Afterall,whatdiditmattersinceitwasdark,saidJudetohimself。Whentheywerehalf-wayupthelonghilltheypausedasbyarrangement,andhekissedheragain。Theyreachedthetop,andhekissedheroncemore。
`Youcankeepyourarmthere,ifyouwouldliketo,’shesaidgently。
Hedidso,thinkinghowtrustingshewas。
Thustheyslowlywenttowardsherhome。Hehadlefthiscottageathalf-pastthree,intendingtobesittingdownagaintotheNewTestamentbyhalf-pastfive。Itwasnineo’clockwhen,withanotherembrace,hestoodtodeliverherupatherfather’sdoor。
Sheaskedhimtocomein,ifonlyforaminute,asitwouldseemsooddotherwise,andasifshehadbeenoutaloneinthedark。Hegaveway,andfollowedherin。Immediatelythatthedoorwasopenedhefound,inadditiontoherparents,severalneighbourssittinground。Theyallspokeinacongratulatorymanner,andtookhimseriouslyasArabella’sintendedpartner。
Theydidnotbelongtohissetorcircle,andhefeltoutofplaceandembarrassed。Hehadnotmeantthis:amereafternoonofpleasantwalkingwithArabella,thatwasallhehadmeant。Hedidnotstaylongerthantospeaktoherstepmother,asimple,quietwomanwithoutfeaturesorcharacter;
andbiddingthemallgoodnightplungedwithasenseofreliefintothetrackoverthedown。
Butthatsensewasonlytemporary:Arabellasoonre-assertedherswayinhissoul。HewalkedasifhefelthimselftobeanothermanfromtheJudeofyesterday。Whatwerehisbookstohim?whatwerehisintentions,hithertoadheredtosostrictly,astonotwastingasingleminuteoftimedaybyday?`Wasting!’Itdependedonyourpointofviewtodefinethat:
hewasjustlivingforthefirsttime:notwastinglife。Itwasbettertoloveawomanthantobeagraduate,oraparson;ay,orapope!
Whenhegotbacktothehousehisaunthadgonetobed,andageneralconsciousnessofhisneglectseemedwrittenonthefaceofallthingsconfrontinghim。Hewentupstairswithoutalight,andthediminteriorofhisroomaccostedhimwithsadinquiry。Therelayhisbookopen,justashehadleftit,andthecapitallettersonthetitle-pageregardedhimwithfixedreproachinthegreystarlight,liketheunclosedeyesofadeadman:
HKAINHDIAQHKH*****Judehadtoleaveearlynextmorningforhisusualweekofabsenceatlodgings;