Youcan’tblamemymothersomuch。Shemusthavebeentiredofbabiesanddislikedtogobackandbeginalloverafterrestingsixyears。Andyoumustn’tbetoohardonmyfatherifhewasnotjustoverjoyed。Hefeltsurethecookwouldleave,andshedid。HeknewSallywouldobjecttoababy,whenshewantedtobeginhavingbeaus,soheandmothertalkeditoverandsentherawayforalongvisittoOhiowithfather’speople,andnevertoldher。TheyintendedtoleaveherthereuntilIwasoverthecolic,atleast。Theyknewthebigmarriedbrothersandsisterswouldobject,andtheydid。Theysaiditwouldbeembarrassingfortheirchildrentobetheniecesandnephewsofanauntoruncleyoungerthanthemselves。Theysaiditsooftenandsoemphaticallythatfatherwasprovokedandmothercried。Shelleydidn’tlikeitbecauseshewasgoingtoschoolinGroveville,whereLucy,oneofourmarriedsisters,lived,andshewasafraidIwouldmakesomuchworkshewouldhavetogiveupherbooksandfriendsandremainathome。ThereneverwasababybornwhowasanylesswantedthanIwas。Iknewasmuchaboutitasanyoneelse,becausefromthedayIcouldunderstand,allofthem,father,mother,Shelley,SarahHood,everyonewhoknew,tookturnstellingmehowbadlyIwasnotwanted,howmuchtroubleI
made,andhowLaddiewastheonlyonewholovedmeatfirst。
BecauseofthatIwasonthecordwoodtryingtofindcouragetogofarther。OverandoverLaddiehadtoldmehimself。HehadbeentovisitourbigsisterElizabethoverSundayandabouteighto’clockMondaymorninghecameridingdowntheroad,andsawthemostdreadfulthing。Therewasnotacurlofsmokefromthechimneys,notatableclothorpillowslipontheline,notablindraised。Laddiesaidhisheartwent——justlikeminedidwhentheSomethingjumpedinthecreekbed,nodoubt。Thenhelaidonthewhipandrode。
Heflungthereinoverthehitchingpost,leapedthefenceandreachedthebackdoor。Theyounggreengirl,whowasallfathercouldgetwhenthecookleft,wascrying。SowereShelleyandlittleMay,althoughshesaidafterwardshehadaboilonherheelandtherewasnoonetopoulticeit。Laddieleanedagainstthedoorcasing,anditiseasyenoughtounderstandwhathethought。Hetoldmehehadtotrytwicebeforehecouldspeak,andthenhecouldonlyask:“What’sthematter?“
ProbablyMayneverthoughtshewouldhavethechance,buttheothersweresobusycryingharder,nowthattheyhadanaudience,thatshewasfirsttotellhim:“Wehavegotalittlesister。“
“GreatDay!“criedLaddie。“Youmademethinkwehadafuneral!
Whereismother,andwhereismyLittleSister?“
Hewentboltingrightintomother’sroomandkissedherlikethegladdestboyalive;becausehewasonlyaboythen,andhetoldherhowhappyhewasthatshewassafe,andthenheASKEDforme。
HesaidIwastheonlylivingcreatureinthathousewhowasnotsheddingtears,andIdidn’tbeginforaboutsixmonthsafterward。Infact,notuntilShelleytaughtmebypinchingmeifshehadtorockthecradle;thenIwouldcrysohardmotherwouldhavetotakeme。Hesaidhedidn’tbelieveI’deverhavelearnedbymyself。
Hetookapillowfromthebed,fixeditintherockingchairandlaidmeonit。WhenhefoundthatfatherwashitchingthehorsestosendLeonforDoctorFenner,LaddierodebackafterSarahHoodandspoiledherwashing。Itmaybethattheinteresthealwaystookinmehaditsbeginninginallofthemscaringhimwiththeirweeping;evenSally,whomfatherhadtotelegraphtocomehome,wasupstairscrying,andshewasalmostawoman。ItmaybethatallthetearstheyshedovernotwantingmesoscaredLaddiethathewentfartherinhiswelcomethanheeverwouldhavethoughtofgoingifhehadn’tdoneitforjoywhenhelearnedhismotherwassafe。Idon’tcareaboutthereason。ItisenoughformethatfromthehourofmybirthLaddienamedmeLittleSister,seldomcalledmeanythingelse,andcaredformeallhepossiblycouldtorestmother。Hetookmetothefieldswithhiminthemorningandbroughtmebackonthehorsebeforehimatnoon。Hecouldplowwithmeridingthehorse,driveareaperwithmeonhisknees,andhoecornwhileIsleptonhiscoatinafencecorner。Thewintershewasawayatcollegeleftmelonely,andwhenhecamebackforavacationIwastoohappyforwords。
Maybeitwaswrongtolovehimmost。Iknewmymothercaredforandwantedmenow。AndallmysecretswerenotwithLaddie。I
hadonewithfatherthatIwasnevertotellsolongashelived,butitwasabouttheonehelovedbest,nextaftermother。
PerhapsIshouldnevertellit,butIwouldn’tbesurprisedifthefamilyknew。IfollowedLaddielikeafaithfuldog,whenI
wasnotgrippinghiswavinghairandridingintriumphonhisshoulders。Heneverhadtogosofasthecouldn’ttakemeonhisback。Heneverwasintoobigahurrytobekind。Healwayshadpatiencetoexplaineveryshell,leaf,bird,andflowerIaskedabout。Iwasjustasmuchhiswhenprettyyounggirlswerearound,andthehousefullofcompany,aswhenwewerealone。
ThatwasthereasonIwasshiveringonthecordwood,grippinghisletterandthinkingofallthesethingsinordertoforcemyselftogofarther。
IwasexcitedabouttheFairiestoo。Ioftenhadclosechancesofseeingthem,butIalwaysjustmissed。NowherewasLaddiewritinglettersandexpectinganswers;ourBigWoodsEnchanted,aMagicCarpetandtheQueen’sdaughterbecomingoursizesoshecouldspeakwithhim。NodoubttheQueenhadhergrowbigasShelley,whenshesentheronanerrandtotellLaddieabouthowtomakesunshine;becauseshewasafraidifshewentherrealsizehewouldaccidentallysteponher,hewassodreadfullybig。
Ormaybehervoicewassofinehecouldnothearwhatshesaid。
HehadtoldmeIwastohurry,andIhadgoneasfastasIcoulduntilSomethingjumped;since,IhadbeensettledonthatcordwoodlikeRobinsonCrusoeonhisdesertisland。Ihadtogetdownsometime;Imightaswellstart。
Igrippedtheletter,slidtotheground,andrantowardthebiggatestraightbeforeme。Iclimbedit,clutchedthenoteagain,andranblindlydowntheroadthroughtheforesttowardthecreek。Icouldhurrythere。OneithersideofitIcouldnothaveruntenstepsatatime。ThebigtreesreachedsohighabovemeitseemedasiftheywouldpushthroughthefloorofHeaven。ItriedtoshutmyearsandrunsofastIcouldn’thearasound,andsogoing,Isooncametothecreekbank。ThereI
turnedtomyrightandwentslower,watchingforthepawpawthicket。OnleavingtheroadIthoughtIwouldhavetocrawloverlogsandmakemyway;butthereseemedtobekindofapathnotveryplain,buttravelledenoughtofollow。Itledstraighttothethicket。AttheedgeIstoppedtolookforthebeech。Itcouldbereachedinonebreathlessdash,butthereseemedtobeagreenenclosure,soIwalkedarounduntilIfoundanentrance。
OncethereIwassoamazedIstoodandstared。Iwashalfindignanttoo。
Laddiehadn’tdoneathingbutmakeanexactcopyofmyplayhouseunderthebiggestmaiden’s-blushinourorchard。Heusedtheimmensebeechforonecorner,whereIhadtheappletree。HisMagicCarpetwaswoolly-dogmoss,andallthemagicaboutit,wasthatonthedampwoodsfloor,inthedeepshade,themosshadtakenrootandwasgrowingasifitalwayshadbeenthere。HehadbeenabletocutandstickmuchlargerwillowsproutsforhiswallsthanIcould,andinthewetblackmouldtheydidn’tlookasiftheyeverhadwilted。Theyweresofreshandgreen,nodoubttheyhadtakenrootandweregrowing。WhereIhadalowbenchundermytree,hehadusedalog;buthehadhewedthetopflat,andmadeamosscover。Ineachcornerhehadsetafernashighasmyhead。Oneithersideoftheentrancehehadplantedaclusterofcardinalflowerthatwasinfullbloom,andaroundthewallsinafewplacesthriftybunchesofOswegoteaandfoxfire,thatIwouldhavewalkedmilestosecureformywildgardenundertheBartlettpeartree。Itwassobeautifulittookmybreathaway。
“IftheQueen’sdaughterdoesn’tlikethis,“Isaidsoftly,“she’llhavetogotoHeavenbeforeshefindsanythingbetter,fortherecan’tbeanotherplaceonearthsopretty。“
Itwaswonderfulhowthesoundofmyownvoicegavemecourage,evenifitdidseemalittlestrange。SoIhurriedtothebeech,kneltandslippedtheletterinthebox,andputbackthebarkandstone。LaddiehadsaidthatnothingcouldhurtmewhileI
hadtheletter,somyprotectionwasgoneassoonasitleftmyhands。
Therewasnothingbutmyfeettosavemenow。IthankedgoodnessIwasafinerunner,andstartedforthepawpawthicket。Oncethere,Ipausedonlyoneminutetoseewhetherthewaytothestreamwasclear,andwhilestandingtenseandgazing,Iheardsomething。Foraninstantitwaseverybitasbadasatthedrycreek。ThenIrealizedthatthiswasasoftvoicesinging,andI
forgoteverythingelseinaglowofdelight。ThePrincesswascoming!
NeverinallmylifewasIsosurprised,andastonished,andbewildered。ShewasevenlargerthanourSally;herdresswaspalegreen,likeIthoughtaFairy’sshouldbe;hereyesweredeepanddarkasLaddiehadsaid,herhairhungfromapartinthemiddleofherforeheadoverhershoulders,andifshehadbeeninthesun,itwouldhavegleamedlikeablackbird’swing。
ShewasjustasLaddiesaidshewouldbe;shewassomuchmorebeautifulthanyouwouldsupposeanywomancouldbe,Istoodtheredumblystaring。Iwouldn’thaveaskedforanyonemoreperfectlybeautifulormorelikeLaddiehadsaidthePrincesswouldbe;butshewasnomorethedaughteroftheFairyQueenthanIwas。ShewasnotanymoreofaPrincess。Iffathereverwouldtellallaboutthelittlebaublehekeptinthetillofhisbigchest,maybeshewasnotasnear!ShewasnooneonearthbutoneofthosenewEnglishpeoplewhohadmovedonthelandthatcorneredwithoursonthenorthwest。Shehadriddenovertheroads,andbeenatourmeetinghouse。Therecouldbenomistake。
Andneitherfathernormotherwouldwantheronourplace。Theydidn’tlikeherfamilyatall。Mothercalledthemtheneighbourhoodmystery,andfatherspokeofthemastheInfidels。
Theyhaddroppedfromnowhere,mothersaid,boughtthatsplendidbigfarm,movedonandshutouteveryone。Beforeanyoneknewpeoplewereshutout,mother,dressedinherfinest,withLaddiedriving,wentinthecarriage,allshining,tomakefriendswiththem。Thisverygirlopenedthedoorandsaidthathermotherwas“indisposed,“andcouldnotseecallers。“In-dis-posed!“
That’sagoodwordthatfillsyourmouth,butourmotherdidn’tlikehavingitusedtoher。Shesaidthe“saucychit“wasinsulting。Thenthemancame,andhesaidhewasverysorry,buthiswifewouldseenoone。Hedidinvitemotherin,butshewouldn’tgo。Shetoldusshecouldseepasthimintothehouseandtherewassuchfineryasneverinallherdayshadshelaideyeson。Shesaidhewasmannerlyascouldbe,buthehadthecoldest,severestfacesheeversaw。
Theyhadtwomenandawomanservant,andnoonecouldcoaxawordfromthem,aboutwhythosepeopleactedastheydid。Theysaid’orse,and’ouse,andHengland。Theytalkedsofunnyyoucouldn’thaveunderstoodthemanyway。Theyneverplowedorputinacrop。Theymadeeverythingintoameadowandhadmorehorses,cattle,andsheepthanacountyfair,andeverythingyoueverknewwithfeathers,evenpeacocks。Wecouldhearthemscreamwheneveritwasgoingtorain。Fathersaidtheysoundedheathenish。Iratherlikedthem。Themanhadstacksofmoneyortheycouldn’thavelivedthewaytheydid。Hecametoourhousetwiceonbusiness:oncetoseeaboutroadlaws,andagainabouttaxrates。Fatherwasmightilypleasedatfirst,becauseMr。
Pryorseemedtohavebooks,andtoknoweverything,andfatherthoughtitwouldbefinetobeneighbours。ButtheminuteMr。
Pryorfinishedbusinesshebegantoarguethateverysinglethingfatherandmotherbelievedwaswrong。HesaidrightoutinplainEnglishthatGodwasamyth。Fathertoldhimprettyquicklythatnomancouldsaythatinhishouse;soheleftsuddenlyandhadnotbeenbacksince,andfatherdidn’twanthimevertocomeagain。
Thentheirneighboursoftensawthewomanaroundthehouseandgarden。Shelookedandactedquiteaswellasanyone,soprobablyshewasnothalfsosickasmymother,whohadnursedthreeofusthroughtyphoidfever,andthenhaditherselfwhenshewasalltiredout。Shewouldn’tletasoulknowshehadapainuntilshedroppedoverandcouldn’ttakeanotherstep,andfatherorLaddiecarriedhertobed。Butshewenteverywhere,sawallherfriends,anddidmoregoodfromherbedthananyotherwomaninourneighbourhoodcouldonherfeet。SowethoughtmightylittleofthosePryorpeople。
Everyonesaidthegirlwaspretty。Thenherclothesdrovetheotherwomencrazy。Someofourneighbourhoodcamefromfardowneast,likemymother。Ourpeoplebackalittlewerefromoverthesea,andtheyknewhowthingsshouldbe,toberight。ManyoftheotherswerefromKentuckyandVirginia,andtheywerewelldressed,proud,handsomewomen;nonebetterlookinganywhere。
Theyfollowedthefashionsandspentmuchtimeandmoneyontheirclothes。WhenitwasQuarterlyMeetingortheBishopdedicatedthechurchortheywenttotownoncourtdays,youshouldhaveseenthem——untilPryorscame。Thensomethingnewhappened,andnotawomaninourneighbourhoodlikedit。PamelaPryordidn’tfollowthefashions。Shesetthem。Ifeveryotherwomanmadelongtightsleevestotheirwrists,shelethersflowtotheelbowandfilledthemwithsilklining,ruffledwithlace。Iftheyworehighneckbands,shehadnone,andusedaflatlacecollar。Iftheycuttheirwaistsstraightaroundandgatheredtheirskirtsonsixyardsfull,sheranhersdowntoalittlepointfrontandback,thatmadeherlookslenderer,andputonlyhalfasmuchgoodsinherskirt。MaybeLaddierodeaswellasshecould;hecouldn’tmanageahorseanybetter,andasidefromhimtherewasn’tamanweknewwhowouldhavetriedtoridesomeoftheanimalsshedid。