“Iamgoingoutbyandby。IamgoingtodineandspendtheeveningwithBarbaraHowe。ButIamnotgoingyet。Won’tyousitdown?“
“Iwillifyou’resureyoucansparethetime。Ihopeyoucan,because——well,becauseIdowanttotalktoyou。I’vehadbadnewsfromhome。Myfatherisill——andinthedoctor’scare。“
“Oh,I’msosorry。Ihopeitisn’tserious。“
“Idon’tknowwhetheritisornot。Itcan’tbedesperatelyserious,becausehewrotetheletterhimself。Butatanyrateit’sseriousenoughforme。HewantsmetogiveupmyworkhereattheHarvardMedicalandcomeWest。“
Marygasped。“Giveitup!“sherepeated。“Giveupyourstudies?
Giveupmedicine?Surelyhedoesn’twantyoutodothat!“
Crawfordshookhishead。“No,notquitethat,“hereplied。“I
wouldn’tdothat,evenforhim。Buthewritesthatheisnotwellandisnotlikelytobebetterforagoodwhile,ifever,andhewouldbeverymuchhappierifIwerenearerathand。HewantsmetogiveuphereattheHarvardMed。andtakeupmyworkagainatDenverorSaltLakeCityorsomewhereoutthere。EvenChicagowouldseemmuchnearer,hesays。It’sapitifulsortofletter。Theoldchapseemsdreadfullydowninthedumps。Hewantsme,that’splainenough,andheseemstothinkheneedsme。SaysifIwereatDenverIcouldcomehomeeverylittlewhile,whereashereIcan’t。WhatoughtItodo?Ihatetosayno,andIhatejustasmuchtosayyes。“
Maryconsidered。
“Ithinkyoumustdecideforyourself,“shesaidafteramoment。
“Youhaveyourcareertoconsider,ofcourse。“
“Yes,Ihave。But,tobeperfectlyhonest,IsupposemycareerwouldnotbeinfluencedgreatlyifIwent。ThereareplentyofgoodmedicalcollegesintheWest。ItisonlythatIamaHarvardmanandIhopedtofinishattheHarvardschool,thatisall。ButI
COULDgo。Whatdoyouadvise?“
AgainMarytooktimeforconsideration。Herfacenowwasasgraveashis。Atlastshesaid,withoutraisinghereyes:“Ithinkyououghttogo。“
Hegroaned。“Iwasafraidyouwouldsaythat,“headmitted。“AndI
supposeyouareright。“
“Yes,IthinkIam。Ifyourfatherneedsyouandwantsyou,andifyourcareerwillnotbeinfluencedforharm,I——well,Ithinkyoushoulddoashewishes。“
“Andmyownwishesshouldn’tcount,Isuppose?“
“Why,no,notinthiscase;notmuch,atanyrate。Doyouthinktheyshould?“
“Perhapsnot。But——butyours?“
“Mine?“
“Yes。DoYOUwantmetogoaway?“Heleanedforwardinhischairandrepeatedearnestly:“Doyou,Mary?“
Shelookedathimandhereyesfellbeforethelookinhis。Herheartbegantobeatquicklyandsheglancedapprehensivelytowardthepartlyopeneddoor。Heroseandclosedit。Thenhecameclosetoher。
“Mary,“hesaid,earnestly,“doyouknowwhythisappealofDad’shashitmesoveryhard?Whyitisgoingtobesomightydifficulttosayyesandleavehere?Itisn’tbecauseIhatetogiveupHarvard。Idohatethat,ofcourse,butI’ddoitinaminuteforDad。Itisn’tthat。It’sbecauseIcan’t——Ijustcan’tthinkofleavingyou。Youhavecometobe——“
Sheinterrupted。“Pleasedon’t,“shebegged。“Please!“
Hewenton,unheeding:
“Youhavecometomeanaboutallthereisinlifeforme,“hedeclared。“Itisn’tmoneyorsuccessorreputationI’vebeenworkingandpluggingfortheselastfewmonths;it’sjustyou。I
didn’tthinksoonce——Iusedtothinksuchthingswerejustinbooks——butnowIknow。Iloveyou,Mary。“
Againsheprotested。“Oh,Crawford,“shebegged,“please!“
“No;you’vegottohearme。It’strue;Iloveyou,andifyoucancareforme,Iamgoingtomarryyou。Notnow,ofcourse;I’vegotmywaytomakefirst;butsomeday,ifIlive。“
Histeethsetinthedeterminedfashionshehadlearnedtoknowmeantunswervingpurpose。Shelookedup,sawtheexpressionofhisface,andfortheinstantforgoteverythingexceptherprideinhimandherjoythatsheshouldhaveawakenedsuchfeelings。Thensherememberedotherthings,thingswhichshehadspentmanyhoursofmanynightsindebatingandconsidering。Ashebenttowardhersheevadedhimandrose。
“Don’t,Crawford!Please!“shesaidagain。“Youmustn’tsaysuchthingstome。Itisn’trightthatyoushould。“
Helookedpuzzled。“Whynot?“heasked。“Atanyrate,rightorwrong,Imustsaythem,Mary。I’vebeenholdingtheminformonthsandnowI’vejustgottosaythem。IloveyouandIwanttomarryyou。MayI?“
“Oh,no,Crawford!No!Itisimpossible。“
“Impossible!Why?Isit——isitbecauseyoudon’tcareforme?
Don’tyou,Mary?“
Shedidnotanswer。
“Don’tyou?“herepeated。“Lookatme!Can’tyoucare,Mary?“
Shewassilent。Butwhenhetookasteptowardhersheraisedherhandsinprotest。
“Pleasedon’t!“shepleaded。“No,youmustn’t——wemustn’tthink——
Oh,no,itisimpossible!“
“Itisn’timpossible。IfyoulovemeasIdoyouitistheonlypossiblethingintheworld。Listen,dear——“
“Hush!Imustn’tlisten。Besensible,Crawford!think!Wearebothsoyoung。Youareonlybeginningyourstudies。Itwillbeyearsbeforeyoucan——beforeyoushouldconsidermarrying。“
“Butwecanwait。Iamwillingtowaitifyouwillonlypromisetowaitforme。I’llwork——HOWI’llwork!——and——“
“Iknow,butwebothhaveothersbesidesourselvestoconsider。I
havemyuncles。Theyhavedoneeverythingforme。Andyouhaveyourfather。Doesheknow——aboutme——aboutwhatyouhavejustsaidtome?“
AndnowCrawfordhesitated。Notlong,butlongenoughforMarytoknowwhattheanswerwouldbebeforeitwasspoken。
“Hedoesn’tknow,“shesaid。“Ithoughtnot。Doyouthinkhewillapprove?“
“Ihopehewill。Thereiseveryreasonwhyheshouldandabsolutelynonewhyheshouldn’t。Ofcoursehe’llapprove;he’ssensible。“
“Yes,buthemayhaveplansofhisownforyou,andyourmarryinganEasterngirlmaynotbeoneofthem。YouhaveoftentoldmehowprejudicedheisagainsttheEastandEasternpeople。Hemaydisapprovestrongly。“
Crawfordsquaredhisshoulders。Therewasnohesitationordoubtinhisnextspeech。
“Ifhedoesitwillmakenodifference,“hedeclared。“IcareawholelotforDadandI’ddoanythingonearthforhim——anythingbuttheonething,thatis:Iwon’tgiveyouup——providedyoucareforme——forhimorforanyoneelse。That’sfinal。“
Hecertainlylookedasifitwere。ButMaryonlyshookherhead。
Inthenewthoughtsandnewimaginingswhichhadcometoherduringthepastwintertherehadbeenavagueforeshadowingofapossiblesituationsomewhatlikethis。Shehadheranswerready。
“Oh,no,itisn’t,“shesaid。“Youarehisson,hisonlychild,Crawford。Hecaressomuchforyou。Youhaveoftentoldmethat,and——andIknowhemust。Andyouandhehavebeensohappytogether。DoyouthinkIwouldbethecauseofbreakingthatrelationship?“
Hewavedthequestionasideandaskedoneofhisown。
“Doyouloveme,Mary?“heasked。
“Youmustn’taskme,Crawford。Writeyourfather。Tellhimeverything。Willyou?“
“Yes,Iwill。Ishouldhavedoneit,anyway。IfIgohome,andI
supposeImust,Ishalltellhim;itwillbebetterthanwriting。
ButIwantyouranswerbeforeIgo。Won’tyougiveittome?“
Helookedveryhandsomeandverymanly,ashestoodtherepleading。
ButMaryhadmadeuphermind。
“Ican’t,Crawford,“shesaid。“PerhapsIdon’tknow。Idoknowthatitwouldnotberightformetosaywhatyouwantmetosay——
now。Gohometoyourfather;heneedsyou。Tellhimeverythingandthen——writeme。“
Helookedather,along,longlook。Thenhenoddedslowly。
“Allright,“hesaid;“Iwill。IwilltellhimthatImeantomarryyou。Ifhesaysyes——ashewill,I’msure——thenI’llwriteyouthat。Ifhesaysno,I’llwriteyouthat。Butineithercase,MaryLathrop,Ishallmarryyoujustthesame。Yourownnowillbetheonlythingthatcanpreventit。AndnowmayIcomeandseeyoutomorrowevening?“
“Nottomorrow,Crawford。Whenwillyoustartforhome?“
“Saturday,Ithink。MayIcomethedayaftertomorrow?Justtosaygood-by,youknow。“
Marywastroubled。Shecouldnotdenyhimandyetshewascertainitwouldbebetterforthembothifhedidnotcome。
“Perhaps,“shesaiddoubtfully。“Butonlytosaygood-by。Youmustpromisethat。“
Therewasaringatthebell。ThenMaggie,themaid,appearedtoannouncethattheHowemotorcarwaswaitingatthecurb。AfewmomentslaterMarywasinherroomadjustinghernewhatbeforethemirror。Ordinarily,adjustingthathatwouldhavebeenanabsorbingandpainstakingperformance;justnowitwasdonewithscarcelyathought。HowdevoutlyshewishedthattheHowecarandtheHowedinnerwerewaitingforanyoneinthewideworldbuther!Shedidnotwishtomeetstrangers;shedidnotwishtogoanywhere,aboveallshedidnotwishtoeat。Thatevening,ofalleveningsinherlife,shewishedtobealone。However,acceptedinvitationsareimpliedobligationsandMary,havingadjustedthehat,gavehereyesafinaldabwithahandkerchiefandcoldwaterandhasteneddowntoanswerthecalltosocialmartyrdom。
Itwasnotexcruciatingtorture,thatdinnerintheHowedining-
room,eventoayoungladywhohadjustlistenedtoaproposalofmarriageanddesiredtothinkofnothinglessimportant。Mr。Howewasbigandjolly。Mrs。Howewasgray-hairedandgraciousandBarbarawas——Barbara。Also,therewasafriendofMr。Howe’s,anelderlygentlemannamedGreen,whoitseemedwasoneofafirmofwholesalegrocersdowntown,andwhotoldfunnystoriesand,bywayofprovingthattheywerefunny,laughedheartiestofallattheendingofeach。HesatnextMrs。Howeduringdinner,butlater,whentheywereallinthehandsomedrawing-room,hecameoverandseatedhimselfuponthesofanextMaryandenteredintoconversationwithher。
“YouarenotabornBostonian,Iunderstand,MissLathrop,“heobserved。“Animportation,eh?Ho,ho!Yes。Well,howdoyoulikeus?“
Marysmiled。“Oh,IlikeBostonverymuch,Mr。Green,“sheanswered。“IknowitbetterthananyotherAmericancity,perhapsthatiswhy。ItwastheonlycityIhadeverseenuntilquiterecently。Iamimported——asyoucallit——fromnotsofaraway。MyhomeisonCapeCod。“
Mr。Greenregardedherwithinterest。
“So?“hesaid。“FromCapeCod,eh?That’sratherpeculiar。IhavebeenverymuchinterestedintheCapeforthepastdayorso。
SomethinghasoccurredinconnectionwithmybusinesswhichbroughttheCapetomind。Myattentionhasbeen——er——asyoumaysay,grippedbythestrongrightarmofMassachusetts。Eh?Ho,ho!“
Hechuckledathisownjoke。Marywasratherbored,butshetriednottoshowit。
“WhatpartoftheCapehasinterestedyou,Mr。Green?“sheinquiredforthesakeofsayingsomething。