Soamesfrowned。”Well?””Shehasremainedfaithfultomemory。”Havingsaidthat,Jolyonwasashamed。Hiscousinhadflushedaduskyyellowishred。Whathadmadehimteasethepoorbrute!”Iwastotellyousheissorryyouarenotfree。Twelveyearsisalongtime。Youknowyourlaw,andwhatchanceitgivesyou。”
Soamesutteredacuriouslittlegrunt,andthetworemainedafullminutewithoutspeaking。’Likewax!’thoughtJolyon,watchingthatcloseface,wheretheflushwasfastsubsiding。’He’llnevergivemeasignofwhathe’sthinking,orgoingtodo。Likewax!’Andhetransferredhisgazetoaplanofthatflourishingtown,’By-
StreetonSea,’thefutureexistenceofwhichlayexposedonthewalltothepossessiveinstinctsofthefirm’sclients。Thewhim-
sicalthoughtflashedthroughhim:’IwonderifIshallgetabillofcostsforthis——”ToattendingMr。JolyonForsyteinthematterofmydivorce,toreceivinghisaccountofhisvisittomywife,andtoadvisinghimtogoandseeheragain,sixteenandeightpence。”’
SuddenlySoamessaid:”Ican’tgoonlikethis。Itellyou,I
can’tgoonlikethis。”Hiseyeswereshiftingfromsidetoside,likeananimal’swhenitlooksforwayofescape。’Hereallysuffers,’thoughtJolyon;’I’venobusinesstoforgetthat,justbecauseIdon’tlikehim。’”Surely,”hesaidgently,”itlieswithyourself。Amancanalwaysputthesethingsthroughifhe’lltakeitonhimself。”
Soamesturnedsquaretohim,withasoundwhichseemedtocomefromsomewhereverydeep。”WhyshouldIsuffermorethanI’vesufferedalready?WhyshouldI?”
Jolyoncouldonlyshrughisshoulders。Hisreasonagreed,hisinstinctrebelled;hecouldnothavesaidwhy。”Yourfather,”wentonSoames,”tookaninterestinher——why,goodnessknows!AndIsupposeyoudotoo?”hegaveJolyonasharplook。”Itseemstomethatoneonlyhastodoanotherpersonawrongtogetallthesympathy。Idon’tknowinwhatwayIwastoblameI’veneverknown。Ialwaystreatedherwell。Igavehereverythingshecouldwishfor。Iwantedher。”
AgainJolyon’sreasonnodded;againhisinstinctshookitshead。
’Whatisit?’hethought;’theremustbesomethingwronginme。
Yetifthereis,I’dratherbewrongthanright。’”Afterall,”saidSoameswithasortofglumfierceness,”shewasmywife。”
Inaflashthethoughtwentthroughhislistener:’Thereitis!
Ownerships!Well,weallownthings。But——humanbeings!Pah!’”Youhavetolookatfacts,”hesaiddrily,”orratherthewantofthem。”
Soamesgavehimanotherquicksuspiciouslook。”Thewantofthem?”hesaid。”Yes,butIamnotsosure。””Ibegyourpardon,”repliedJolyon;”I’vetoldyouwhatshesaid。
Itwasexplicit。””Myexperiencehasnotbeenonetopromoteblindconfidenceinherword。Weshallsee。”
Jolyongotup。”Good-bye,”hesaidcurtly。”Good-bye,”returnedSoames;andJolyonwentouttryingtounderstandthelook,half-startled,half-menacing,onhiscousin’sface。HesoughtWaterlooStationinadisturbedframeofmind,asthoughtheskinofhismoralbeinghadbeenscraped;andallthewaydowninthetrainhethoughtofIreneinherlonelyflat,andofSoamesinhislonelyofce,andofthestrangeparalysisoflifethatlayonthemboth。’Inchancery!’hethought。’Boththeirnecksinchancery——andher’ssopretty!’
CHAPTERIX
VALHEARSTHENEWS
ThekeepingofengagementshadnotasyetbeenaconspicuousfeatureinthelifeofyoungValDartie,sothatwhenhebroketwoandkeptone;itwasthelattereventwhichcausedhim,ifanything,thegreatersurprise,whilejoggingbacktotownfromRobinHillafterhisridewithHolly。Shehadbeenevenprettierthanhehadthoughtheryesterday,onhersilver-roan,long-tailed’palfrey’;anditseemedtohim,self-criticalinthebrumousOctobergloamingandtheoutskirtsofLondon,thatonlyhisbootshadshonethroughouttheirtwo-hourcompanionship。Hetookouthisnewgold’hunter’——presentfromJames——andlookednotatthetime,butatsectionsofhisfaceintheglitteringbackofitsopenedcase。Hehadatemporaryspotoveroneeyebrow,anditdispleasedhim,foritmusthavedispleasedher。Crumneverhadanyspots。
TogetherwithCrumrosethesceneinthepromenadeofthePandemonium。To-dayhehadnothadthefaintestdesiretounbosomhimselftoHollyabouthisfather。Hisfatherlackedpoetry,thestirringsofwhichhewasfeelingforthefirsttimeinhisnineteenyears。TheLiberty,withCynthiaDark,thatalmostmythicalembodimentofrapture;thePandemonium,withthewomanofuncertainage——bothseemedtoValcompletely’off,’freshfromcommunionwiththisnew,shy,dark-hairedyoungcousinofhis。Sherode’Jollywell,’too,sothatithadbeenallthemoreflatteringthatshehadlethimleadherwherehewouldinthelonggallopsofRichmondPark,thoughsheknewthemsomuchbetterthanhedid。
Lookingbackonitall,hewasmystifiedbythebarrennessofhisspeech;hefeltthathecouldsay’anawfullotoffetchingthings’
ifhehadbutthechanceagain,andthethoughtthathemustgobacktoLittlehamptononthemorrow,andtoOxfordonthetwelfth——
’tothatbeastlyexam,’too——withoutthefaintestchanceoffirstseeingheragain,causeddarknesstosettleonhisspiritevenmorequicklythanontheevening。Heshouldwritetoher,however,andshehadpromisedtoanswer。Perhaps,too,shewouldcomeuptoOxfordtoseeherbrother。Thatthoughtwaslikethefirststar,whichcameoutasherodeintoPadwick’sliverystablesinthepurlieusofSloaneSquare。Hegotoffandstretchedhimselfluxuriously,forhehadriddensometwenty-fivegoodmiles。TheDartiewithinhimmadehimchafferforfiveminuteswithyoungPadwickconcerningthefavouritefortheCambridgeshire;thenwiththewords,”Putthegeedowntomyaccount,”hewalkedaway,alittlewideattheknees,andflippinghisbootswithhisknottylittlecane。’Idon’tfeelabitinclinedtogoout,’hethought。
’Iwonderifmotherwillstandfizzformylastnight!’With’fizz’andrecollection,hecouldwellpassadomesticevening。
Whenhecamedown,specklessafterhisbath,hefoundhismotherscrupulousinaloweveningdress,and,tohisannoyance,hisUncleSoames。Theystoppedtalkingwhenhecamein;thenhisunclesaid:”He’dbetterbetold。”
Atthosewords,whichmeantsomethingabouthisfather,ofcourse,Val’sfirstthoughtwasofHolly。Wasitanythingbeastly?Hismotherbeganspeaking。”Yourfather,”shesaidinherfashionablyappointedvoice,whileherfingerspluckedratherpitifullyatsea-greenbrocade,”yourfather,mydearboy,has——isnotatNewmarket;he’sonhiswaytoSouthAmerica。He——he’sleftus。”
VallookedfromhertoSoames。Leftthem!Washesorry?Washefondofhisfather?Itseemedtohimthathedidnotknow。Then,suddenly——asatawhiffofgardeniasandcigars——hishearttwitchedwithinhim,andhewassorry。One’sfatherbelongedtoone,couldnotgooffinthisfashion——itwasnotdone!Norhadhealwaysbeenthe’bounder’ofthePandemoniumpromenade。Therewerepreciousmemoriesoftailors’shopsandhorses,tipsatschool,andgenerallavishkindness,wheninluck。”Butwhy?”hesaid。Then,asasportsmanhimself,wassorryhehadasked。Themaskofhismother’sfacewasalldisturbed;andheburstout:”Allright,Mother,don’ttellme!Only,whatdoesitmean?””Adivorce,Val,I’mafraid。”
Valutteredaqueerlittlegrunt,andlookedquicklyathisuncle——
thatunclewhomhehadbeentaughttolookonasaguaranteeagainsttheconsequencesofhavingafather,evenagainsttheDartiebloodinhisownveins。Theflat-checkedvisageseemedtowince,andthisupsethim。”Itwon’tbepublic,willit?”
SovividlybeforehimhadcomerecollectionofhisowneyesgluedtotheunsavourydetailsofmanyadivorcesuitinthePublicPress。”Can’titbedonequietlysomehow?It’ssodisgustingfor——formother,and——andeverybody。””Everythingwillbedoneasquietlyasitcan,youmaybesure。””Yes——but,whyisitnecessaryatall?Motherdoesn’twanttomarryagain。”
Himself,thegirls,theirnametarnishedinthesightofhisschoolfellowsandofCrum,ofthemenatOxford,of——Holly!
Unbearable!Whatwastobegainedbyit?”Doyou,Mother?”hesaidsharply。
Thusbroughtfacetofacewithsomuchofherownfeelingbytheoneshelovedbestintheworld,WinifredrosefromtheEmpirechairinwhichshehadbeensitting。Shesawthathersonwouldbeagainstherunlesshewastoldeverything;and,yet,howcouldshetellhim?Thus,stillpluckingatthegreen’brocade,shestaredatSoames。Val,too,staredatSoames。Surelythisembodimentofrespectabilityandthesenseofpropertycouldnotwishtobringsuchasluronhisownsister!