”No;butIexpecthewillbesoon。””Then!”criedVal,anddivingforward,heseizedherhand。Shetriedtowithdrawit,failed,gaveuptheattempt,andlookedathimwistfully。”Firstofall,”hesaid,”Iwanttotellyousomethingaboutmyfamily。MyDad,youknow,isn’taltogether——Imean,he’sleftmymotherandthey’retryingtodivorcehim;sothey’veorderedhimtocomeback,yousee。You’llseethatinthepaperto-morrow。”Hereyesdeepenedincolourandfearfulinterest;herhandsqueezedhis。ButthegamblerinValwasrousednow,andhehurriedon:
’Ofcoursethere’snothingverymuchatpresent,buttherewillbe,Iexpect,beforeit’sover;divorcesuitsarebeastly,youknow。I
wantedtotellyou,because——because——yououghttoknow——if——”andhebegantostammer,gazingathertroubledeyes,”if——ifyou’regoingtobeadarlingandloveme,Holly。Iloveyou——everso;andIwanttobeengaged。”Hehaddoneitinamannersoinadequatethathecouldhavepunchedhisownhead;anddroppingonhisknees,hetriedtogetnearertothatsoft,troubledface。”Youdoloveme——don’tyou?Ifyoudon’tI……”Therewasamomentofsilenceandsuspense,soawfulthathecouldhearthesoundofamowing-
machinefaroutonthelawnpretendingtherewasgrasstocut。
Thensheswayedforward;herfreehandtouchedhishair,andhegasped:”Oh,Holly!”
Heranswerwasverysoft:”Oh,Val!”
Hehaddreamedofthismoment,butalwaysinanimperativemood,asthemasterfulyounglover,andnowhefelthumble,touched,trembly。Hewasafraidtostiroffhiskneeslestheshouldbreakthespell;lest,ifhedid,sheshouldshrinkanddenyherownsurrender——sotremulouswassheinhisgrasp,withhereyelidsclosedandhislipsnearingthem。Hereyesopened,seemedtoswimalittle;hepressedhislipstohers。Suddenlyhesprangup;
therehadbeenfootsteps,asortofstartledgrunt。Helookedround。Noone!Butthelongcurtainswhichbarredofftheouterhallwerequivering。”MyGod!Whowasthat?”
Hollytoowasonherfeet。”Jolly,Iexpect,”shewhispered。
Valclenchedfistsandresolution。”Allright!”hesaid,”Idon’tcareabitnowwe’reengaged,”andstridingtowardsthecurtains,hedrewthemaside。ThereatthefireplaceinthehallstoodJolly,withhisbackelaboratelyturned。Valwentforward。Jollyfacedroundonhim。”Ibegyourpardonforhearing,”hesaid。
Withthebestintentionsintheworld,Valcouldnothelpadmiringhimatthatmoment;hisfacewasclear,hisvoicequiet,helookedsomehowdistinguished,asifactinguptoprinciple。”Well!”Valsaidabruptly,”it’snothingtoyou。””Oh!”saidJolly;”youcomethisway,”andhecrossedthehall。
Valfollowed。Atthestudydoorhefeltatouchonhisarm;
Holly’svoicesaid:”I’mcomingtoo。””No,”saidJolly。”Yes,”saidHolly。
Jollyopenedthedoor,andtheyallthreewentin。Onceinthelittleroom,theystoodinasortoftriangleonthreecornersofthewornTurkeycarpet;awkwardlyupright,notlookingateachother,quiteincapableofseeinganyhumourinthesituation。
Valbrokethesilence。”HollyandIareengaged。”,Jollysteppedbackandleanedagainstthelintelofthewindow。”Thisisourhouse,”hesaid;”I’mnotgoingtoinsultyouinit。
Butmyfather’saway。I’minchargeofmysister。You’vetakenadvantageofme。”Ididn’tmeanto,”saidValhotly。”Ithinkyoudid,”saidJolly。”Ifyouhadn’tmeantto,you’dhavespokentome,orwaitedformyfathertocomeback。””Therewerereasons,”saidVal。”Whatreasons?””Aboutmyfamily——I’vejusttoldher。Iwantedhertoknowbeforethingshappen。”
Jollysuddenlybecamelessdistinguished。”You’rekids,”hesaid,”andyouknowyouare。”Iamnotakid,”saidVal。”Youare——you’renottwenty。””Well,whatareyou?””Iamtwenty,”saidJolly。”Onlyjust;anyway,I’masgoodamanasyou。
Jolly’sfacecrimsoned,thenclouded。Somestrugglewasevidentlytakingplaceinhim;andValandHollystaredathim,soclearlywasthatstrugglemarked;theycouldevenhearhimbreathing。Thenhisfaceclearedupandbecameoddlyresolute。”We’llseethat,”hesaid。”IdareyoutodowhatI’mgoingtodo。””Dareme?”
Jollysmiled。”Yes,”hesaid,”dareyou;andIknowverywellyouwon’t。”
AstabofmisgivingshotthroughVal;thiswasridingveryblind。”Ihaven’tforgottenthatyou’reafire-eater,”saidJollyslowly,”andIthinkthat’saboutallyouare;orthatyoucalledmeapro-Boer。”
Valheardagaspabovethesoundofhisownhardbreathing,andsawHolly’sfacepokedalittleforward,verypale,withbigeyes。”Yes,”wentonJollywithasortofsmile,”weshallsoonsee。I’mgoingtojointheImperialYeomanry,andIdareyoutodothesame,Mr。ValDartie。”
Val’sheadjerkedonitsstem。Itwaslikeablowbetweentheeyes,soutterlyunthoughtof,soextremeanduglyinthemidstofhisdreaming;andhelookedatHollywitheyesgrownsuddenly,touchinglyhaggard。”Sitdown!”saidJolly。”Takeyourtime!Thinkitoverwell。”
Andhehimselfsatdownonthearmofhisgrandfather’schair。
Valdidnotsitdown;hestoodwithhandsthrustdeepintohisbreeches’pockets-handsclenchedandquivering。Thefullawfulnessofthisdecisiononewayortheotherknockedathismindwithdoubleknocksasofanangrypostman。Ifhedidnottakethat’dare’hewasdisgracedinHolly’seyes,andintheeyesofthatyoungenemy,herbruteofabrother。Yetifhetookit,ah!thenallwouldvanish——herface,hereyes,herhair,herkissesjustbegun!”Takeyourtime,”saidJollyagain;”Idon’twanttobeunfair。”
AndtheybothlookedatHolly。Shehadrecoiledagainstthebookshelvesreachingtotheceiling;herdarkheadleanedagainstGibbon’sRomanEmpire,hereyesinasortofsoftgreyagonywerefixedonVal。Andhe,whohadnotmuchgiftofinsight,hadsuddenlyagleamofvision。Shewouldbeproudofherbrother——
thatenemy!Shewouldbeashamedofhim!Hishandscameoutofhispocketsasifliftedbyaspring。”Allright!”hesaid。”Done!”
Holly’sface-oh!itwasqueer!Hesawherflush,startforward。
Hehaddonetherightthing——herfacewasshiningwithwistfuladmiration。Jollystoodupandmadealittlebowaswhoshouldsay:’You’vepassed。’”To-morrow,then,”hesaid,”we’llgotogether。”
Recoveringfromtheimpetuswhichhadcarriedhimtothatdecision,Vallookedathimmaliciouslyfromunderhislashes。’Allright,’
hethought,’onetoyou。Ishallhavetojoin——butI’llgetbackonyousomehow。’Andhesaidwithdignity:”Ishallbeready。””We’llmeetatthemainRecruitingOffice,then,”saidJolly,”attwelveo’clock。”And,openingthewindow,hewentoutontotheterrace,conformingtothecreedwhichhadmadehimretirewhenhesurprisedtheminthehall。
TheconfusioninthemindofValthusleftalonewithherforwhomhehadpaidthissuddenpricewasextreme。Themoodof’showing-
off’wasstill,however,uppermost。Onemustdothewretchedthingwithanair。”Weshallgetplentyofridingandshooting,anyway,”hesaid;”that’sonecomfort。”Anditgavehimasortofgrimpleasuretohearthesighwhichseemedtocomefromthebottomofherheart。”Oh!thewar’llsoonbeover,”hesaid;”perhapsweshan’tevenhavetogoout。Idon’tcare,exceptforyou。”Hewouldbeoutofthewayofthatbeastlydivorce。Itwasanill-wind!Hefeltherwarmhandslipintohis。Jollythoughthehadstoppedtheirlovingeachother,didhe?Heheldhertightlyroundthewaist,lookingathersoftlythroughhislashes,smilingtocheerherup,promisingtocomedownandseehersoon,feelingsomehowsixinchestallerandmuchmoreincommandofherthanhehadeverdaredfeelbefore。Manytimeshekissedherbeforehemountedandrodebacktotown。So,swiftly,ontheleastprovocation,doesthepossessiveinstinctflourishandgrow。
CHAPTERIX
DINNERATJAMES’
DinnerpartieswerenotnowgivenatJames’inParkLane——toeveryhousethemomentcomeswhenMasterorMistressisnolonger’uptoit’;nomorecanninecoursesbeservedtotwentymouthsabovetwentyfinewhiteexpanses;nordoesthehouseholdcatanylongerwonderwhysheissuddenlyshutup。
SowithsomethinglikeexcitementEmily——whoatseventywouldstillhavelikedalittlefeastandfashionnowandthen——ordereddinnerforsixinsteadoftwo,herselfwroteanumberofforeignwordsoncards,andarrangedtheflowers——mimosafromtheRiviera,andwhiteRomanhyacinthsnotfromRome。Therewouldonlybe,ofcourse,Jamesandherself,Soames,Winifred,Val,andImogen——butshelikedtopretendalittleanddallyinimaginationwiththegloryofthepast。ShesodressedherselfthatJamesremarked:”Whatareyouputtingonthatthingfor?You’llcatchcold。”
ButEmilyknewthatthenecksofwomenareprotectedbyloveofshining,untofourscoreyears,andsheonlyanswered:”LetmeputyouononeofthosedickiesIgotyou,James;thenyou’llonlyhavetochangeyourtrousers,andputonyourvelvetcoat,andthereyou’llbe。Vallikesyoutolooknice。”