”NotsofarasIknow,”saidJolyon,consciousoftheintentwatchfulnessinSoames’face。”Well,that’sallIhadtosay。Anyonewhocomesbetweenmanandwife,youknow,incursheavyresponsibility。”Jolyonroseandmadehimaslightbow。”Good-bye,”hesaid,and,withoutofferingtoshakehands,movedaway,leavingSoamesstaringafterhim。’WeForsytes,’thoughtJolyon,hailingacab,’areverycivilised。Withsimplerfolkthatmighthavecometoarow。Ifitweren’tformyboygoingtothewar……’Thewar!Agustofhisolddoubtsweptoverhim。A
preciouswar!Dominationofpeoplesorofwomen!Attemptstomasterandpossessthosewhodidnotwantyou!Thenegationofgentledecency!Possession,vestedrights;andanyone’agin’’em——
outcast!’ThankHeaven!’hethought,’Ialwaysfelt”agin”’em,anyway!’Yes!EvenbeforehisfirstdisastrousmarriagehecouldrememberfumingoverthebludgeoningofIreland,orthematrimonialsuitsofwomentryingtobefreeofmentheyloathed。Parsonswouldhaveitthatfreedomofsoulandbodywerequitedifferentthings!Perniciousdoctrine!Bodyandsoulcouldnotthusbeseparated。Freewillwasthestrengthofanytie,andnotitsweakness。’IoughttohavetoldSoames,’hethought,’thatIthinkhimcomic。Ah!buthe’stragic,too!’Wasthereanything,indeed,moretragicintheworldthanamanenslavedbyhisownpossessiveinstinct,whocouldn’tseetheskyforit,orevenenterfullyintowhatanotherpersonfelt!’Imustwriteandwarnher,’
hethought;’he’sgoingtohaveanothertry。’AndallthewayhometoRobinHillherebelledatthestrengthofthatdutytohissonwhichpreventedhimfrompostingbacktoParis……
ButSoamessatlonginhischair,thepreyofanolessgnawingache——ajealousache,asifithadbeenrevealedtohimthatthisfellowheldprecedenceofhimself,andhadspunfreshthreadsofresistancetohiswayout。’Doesthatmeanthatyou’reagainstme?’hehadgotnothingoutofthatdisingenuousquestion。
Feminist!Phraseyfellow!’Imustn’trushthings,’hethought。
’Ihavesomebreathingspace;he’snotgoingbacktoParis,unlesshewaslying。I’llletthespringcome!’Thoughhowthespringcouldservehim,savebyaddingtohisache,hecouldnottell。
Andgazingdownintothestreet,wherefigureswerepassingfrompooltopoolofthelightfromthehighlamps,hethought:’Nothingseemsanygood——nothingseemsworthwhile。I’mloney——that’sthetrouble。’
Heclosedhiseyes;andatonceheseemedtoseeIrene,inadarkstreetbelowachurch——passing,turninghernecksothathecaughtthegleamofhereyesandherwhiteforeheadunderalittledarkhat,whichhadgoldspanglesonitandaveilhangingdownbehind。
Heopenedhiseyes——sovividlyhehadseenher!Awomanwaspassingbelow,butnotshe!Ohno,therewasnothingthere!
CHAPTERXIII
HEREWEAREAGAIN!’
Imogen’sfrocksforherfirstseasonexercisedthejudgmentofhermotherandthepurseofhergrandfatherallthroughthemonthofMarch。WithForsytetenacityWinifredquestedforperfection。Ittookhermindofftheslowlyapproachingritewhichwouldgiveherafreedombutdoubtfullydesired;tookhermind,too,offherboyandhisfastapproachingdepartureforawarfromwhichthenewsremaineddisquieting。Likebeesbusyonsummerflowers,orbrightgadflieshoveringanddartingoverspikyautumnblossoms,sheandher’littledaughter,’tallnearlyasherselfandwithabustmeasurementnotfarinferior,hoveredintheshopsofRegentStreet,theestablishmentsofHanoverSquareandofBondStreet,lostinconsiderationandthefeeloffabrics。DozensofyoungwomenofstrikingdeportmentandpeculiargaitparadedbeforeWinifredandImogen,drapedin’creations。’Themodels——’Verynew,modom;quitethelatestthing——’whichthosetworeluctantlyturneddown,wouldhavefilledamuseum;themodelswhichtheywereobligedtohavenearlyemptiedJames’bank。Itwasnogooddoingthingsbyhalves,Winifredfelt,inviewoftheneedformakingthisfirstandsoleuntarnishedseasonaconspicuoussuccess。
Theirpatienceintryingthepatienceofthoseimpersonalcreatureswhoswamaboutbeforethemcouldalonehavebeendisplayedbysuchasweremovedbyfaith。ItwasforWinifredalongprostrationbeforeherdeargoddessFashion,ferventasaCatholicmightmakebeforetheVirgin;forImogenanexperiencebynomeanstoounpleasant——sheoftenlookedsonice,andflatterywasimpliciteverywhere:inaworditwas’amusing。’
Ontheafternoonofthe20thofMarch,having,asitwere,guttedSkywards,theyhadsoughtrefreshmentoverthewayatCaramelandBaker’s,and,storedwithchocolatefrothedatthetopwithcream,turnedhomewardsthroughBerkeleySquareofaneveningtouchedwithspring。Openingthedoor——freshlypaintedalightolive-green;
nothingneglectedthatyeartogiveImogenagoodsend-off——
Winifredpassedtowardsthesilverbaskettoseeifanyonehadcalled,andsuddenlyhernostrilstwitched。Whatwasthatscent?
Imogenhadtakenupanovelsentfromthelibrary,andstoodabsorbed。Rathersharply,becauseofthequeerfeelinginherbreast,Winifredsaid:”Takethatup,dear,andhavearestbeforedinner。”
Imogen,stillreading,passedupthestairs。Winifredheardthedoorofherroomslammedto,anddrewalongsavouringbreath。Wasitspringticklinghersenses——whippingupnostalgiaforher’clown,’againstallwisdomandoutragedvirtue?Amalescent!A
faintreekofcigarsandlavender-waternotsmeltsincethatearlyautumnnightsixmonthsago,whenshehadcalledhim’thelimit。’
Whencecameit,orwasitghostofscent——sheeremanationfrommemory?Shelookedroundher。Nothing——notathing,notiniestdisturbanceofherhall,norofthediningroom。Alittleday-dreamofascent——illusory,saddening,silly!Inthesilverbasketwerenewcards,twowith’Mr。andMrs。PolegateThom,’andonewith’Mr。
PolegateThom’thereon;shesniffedthem,buttheysmelledsevere。
’Imustbetired,’shethought,’I’llgoandliedown。’Upstairsthedrawing-roomwasdarkened,waitingforsomehandtogiveiteveninglight;andshepassedonuptoherbedroom。This,too,washalf-curtainedanddim,foritwassixo’clock。Winifredthrewoffhercoat——thatscentagain!——thenstood,asifshot,transfixedagainstthebed-rail。Somethingdarkhadrisenfromthesofainthefarcorner。Awordofhorror——inherfamily——escapedher:”God!””It’sI——Monty,”saidavoice。
Clutchingthebed-rail,Winifredreachedupandturnedtheswitchofthelighthangingaboveherdressing-table。Heappearedjustontherimofthelight’scircumference,emblazonedfromtheabsenceofhiswatch-chaindowntobootsneatandsootybrown,but——yes!——
splitatthetoecap。Hischestandfacewereshadowy。Surelyhewasthin——orwasitatrickofthelight?Headvanced,lightednowfromtoe-captothetopofhisdarkhead-surelyalittlegrizzled!
Hiscomplexionhaddarkened,sallowed;hisblackmoustachehadlostboldness,becomesardonic;therewerelineswhichshedidnotknowabouthisface。Therewasnopininhistie。Hissuit——ah!——sheknewthat——buthowunpressed,unglossy!Shestaredagainatthetoe-capofhisboot。Somethingbigandrelentlesshadbeen’athim,’hadturnedandtwisted,rakedandscrapedhim。Andshestayed,notspeaking,motionless,staringatthatcrackacrossthetoe。”Well!”hesaid,”Igottheorder。I’mback。”
Winifred’sbosombegantoheave。Thenostalgiaforherhusbandwhichhadrushedupwiththatscentwasstrugglingwithadeeperjealousythananyshehadfeltyet。Therehewas——adark,andasifharried,shadowofhissleekandbrazenself!Whatforcehaddonethistohim——squeezedhimlikeanorangetoitsdryrind!
Thatwoman!”I’mback,”hesaidagain。”I’vehadabeastlytime。ByGod!I
camesteerage。I’vegotnothingbutwhatIstandupin,andthatbag。””Andwhohastherest?”criedWinifred,suddenlyalive。”Howdaredyoucome?Youknewitwasjustfordivorcethatyougotthatordertocomeback。Don’ttouchme!”
Theyheldeachtotherailofthebigbedwheretheyhadspentsomanyyearsofnightstogether。Manytimes,yes——manytimesshehadwantedhimback。Butnowthathehadcomeshewasfilledwiththiscoldanddeadlyresentment。Heputhishanduptohismoustache;
butdidnotfrizzandtwistitintheoldfamiliarway,hejustpulleditdownwards。”Gad!”hesaid:”IfyouknewthetimeI’vehad!””I’mgladIdon’t!””Arethekidsallright?”
Winifrednodded。”Howdidyougetin?””Withmykey。””Thenthemaidsdon’tknow。Youcan’tstayhere,Monty。”
Heutteredalittlesardoniclaugh。”Wherethen?””Anywhere。””Well,lookatme!That——thatdamned……””Ifyoumentionher,”criedWinifred,”IgostraightouttoParkLaneandIdon’tcomeback。”
Suddenlyhedidasimplething,butsouncharacteristicthatitmovedher。Heshuthiseyes。Itwasasifhehadsaid:’Allright!I’mdeadtotheworld!’”Youcanhavearoomforthenight,”shesaid;”yourthingsarestillhere。OnlyImogenisathome。”
Heleanedbackagainstthebed-rail。”Well,it’sinyourhands,”
andhisownmadeawrithingmovement。”I’vebeenthroughit。Youneedn’thittoohard——itisn’tworthwhile。I’vebeenfrightened;
I’vebeenfrightened,Freddie。”
Thatoldpetname,disusedforyearsandyears,sentashiverthroughWinifred。
’WhatamItodowithhim?’shethought。’WhatinGod’snameamI
todowithhim?’”Gotacigarette?”
Shegavehimonefromalittleboxshekeptupthereforwhenshecouldn’tsleepatnight,andlightedit。Withthatactionthematter-of-factsideofhernaturecametolifeagain。”Goandhaveahotbath。I’llputsomeclothesoutforyouinthedressing-room。Wecantalklater。”
Henodded,andfixedhiseyesonher——theylookedhalf-dead,orwasitthatthefoldsinthelidshadbecomeheavier?