Amostunnecessarypreamble,nodoubt,andofdoubtfulefficacyinsmoothinghiswaytoacorrectunderstandingwiththedeeplybereavedfather。Buthelookedsohandsomeashethusassertedhimselfandmadesomuchofhisinchesandthenoblepoiseofhishead-thoughcoldofeyeandalwayscoldofmanner-thatthosewhosaw,aswellasheardhim,forgavethisdisplayofegotisminconsiderationofitshonestyandthedignityitimpartedtohisperson。”IfirstmetMissChallonerintheBerkshires,”hebegan,afteramomentofquietlisteningforanypossiblesoundfromtheotherroom。”Ihadbeenonthetramp,andhadstoppedatoneofthegreathotelsforasevendays’rest。IwillacknowledgethatIchosethisspotattheinstigationofarelativewhoknewmytastesandhowperfectlytheymightbegratifiedthere。ThatIshouldminglewiththeguestsmaynothavebeeninhisthought,anymorethanitwasinmineatthebeginningofmystay。Thepanoramaofbeautyspreadoutbeforemeoneverysidewassufficientinitselfformyenjoyment,andmighthavecontinuedsototheendifmyattentionhadnotbeenveryforciblydrawnononememorablemorningtoayounglady-MissChalloner-bytheveryearnestlookshegavemeasIwascrossingtheofficefromoneverandahtoanother。Imustinsistonthislook,evenifitshockthedelicacyofmylisteners,forwithouttheinterestitawakenedinme,Imightnothavenoticedtheblushwithwhichsheturnedasidetojoinherfriendsontheverandah。Itwasanoverwhelmingblushwhichcouldnothavesprungfromanyslightembarrassment,and,thoughIhatethepretensionsofthoseegotistswhoseeinawoman’ssmilemorethanitbyrightconveys,Icouldnothelpbeingmovedbythisdisplayoffeelinginonesogiftedwitheverygraceandattributeoftheperfectwoman。WithlesscautionthanIusuallydisplay,Iapproachedthedeskwhereshehadbeenstandingand,meetingtheeyesoftheclerk,askedtheyounglady’sname。Hegaveit,andwaitedformetoexpressthesurpriseheexpectedittoevoke。ButIfeltnoneandshowednone。Otherfeelingshadseizedme。Ihadheardofthisgraciouswomanfrommanysources,inmylifeamongthesufferingmassesofNewYork,andnowthatIhadseenherandfoundhertobenotonlymyidealofpersonallovelinessbutseeminglyapproachableandnotuninterestedinmyself,Iallowedmyfancytosoarandmyhearttobecometouched。
Afactwhichtheclerknowconfidedtomenaturallydeepenedtheimpression。MissChallonerhadseenmynameintheguest-bookandaskedtohavemepointedouttoher。PerhapsshehadheardmynamespokeninthesamequarterwhereIhadheardhers。Wehaveneverexchangedconfidencesonthesubject,andIcannotsay。IcanonlygiveyoumyreasonfortheinterestIfeltinMissChallonerandwhyIforgot,intheglamourofthisepisode,theaimsandpurposesofanotunambitiouslifeandthedistancewhichtheworldandtheso-calledaristocraticclassputbetweenawomanofherwealthandstandingandasimpleworkerlikemyself。”Imustbepardoned。Shehadsmileduponmeonce,andshesmiledagain。Daysbeforewewereformallypresented,Icaughthersoftenedlookturnedmyway,aswepassedeachotherinhallorcorridor。Wewerefriends,orsoitappearedtome,beforeeverawordpassedbetweenus,andwhenfortunefavouredusandweweredulyintroduced,ourmindsmetinastrangesympathywhichmadethisoneinterviewamemorableonetome。Unhappily,asIthenconsideredit,thiswasmylastdayatthehotel,andourconversation,interruptedfrequentlybypassingacquaintances,wasneverresumed。Iexchangedafewwordswithherbywayofgood-byebutnothingmore。IcametoNewYork,andsheremainedinLenox。
AmonthafterandshetoocametoNewYork。””Thisgood-bye-doyourememberit?Theexactlanguage,Imean?””Ido;itmadeagreatimpressiononme。’Ishallhopeforourfurtheracquaintance,’shesaid。’Wehaveoneverystronginterestincommon。Andifeverahumanfacespokeeloquently,itwashersatthatmoment。Theinterest,asIunderstoodit,wasourmutualsympathyforourtoiling,half-starved,down-troddenbrothersandsistersinthelowerstreetsofthiscity;buttheeloquence-thatIprobablymistook。Ithoughtitsprangfrompersonalinterest,anditgavemecouragetopursuetheintentionwhichhadtakentheplaceofeveryotherfeelingandambitionbywhichIhadhithertobeenmoved。Herewasawomaninathousand;onewhocouldmakeamanofmeindeed。Ifshecouldignorethesocialgulfbetweenus,Ifeltfreetotaketheleap。Cowardicehadneverbeenafaultofmine。
ButIwasnofooleventhen。IrealisedthatImustfirstletherseethemannerofmanIwasandwhatlifemeanttomeandmustmeantoheriftheunionIcontemplatedshouldbecomeanactualfact。I
wroteletterstoher,butIdidnotgivehermyaddressorevenrequestareply。Iwasnotreadyforanywordfromher。IamnotlikeothermenandIcouldwait。AndIdid,forweeks,thenI
suddenlyappearedatherhotel。”
Thechangeofvoice-thebitternesswhichheinfusedintothisfinalsentencemadeeveryonelookup。Hithertohehadspokencalmly,almostmonotonously,asifnopresentheart-beatrespondedtothistaleofvanishedlove;butwiththewords,”ThenIsuddenlyappearedatherhotel,”heshowedhimselfhumanagain,andbetrayedapassionwhichthoughcurbedwasofthefieryquality,befittinghisextraordinaryattributesofmindandperson。”Thiswaswhen?”putinDr。Heath,anxioustobridgethepausewhichmusthavebeenverypainfultothelisteningfather。”TheweekafterThanksgiving。Ididnotseeherthefirstday,andonlycasuallythesecond。ButsheknewIwasinthebuilding,andwhenIcameuponheroneeveningseatedattheverydeskinthemezzaninewhichweallhavesuchbittercausetoremember,Icouldnotforbearexpressingmyselfinawayshecouldnotmisunderstand。
Theresultwasofakindtodriveamanlikemyselftoanextremityofself-condemnationandrage。Sheroseupasifinsulted,andflungmeonesentenceandonesentenceonlybeforeshehailedtheelevatorandleftmypresence。Acurcouldnothavebeendismissedwithlessceremony。””Thatisnotlikemydaughter。Whatwasthesentenceyoualludeto?
Letmeheartheverywords。”Mr。Challonerhadcomeforwardandnowstoodawaitinghisreply,adignifiedbutpatheticfigure,whichallmustviewwithrespect。”Ihatethememoryofthem,butsinceyoudemandit,Iwillrepeatthemjustastheyfellfromherlips,”wasMr。Brotherson’sbitterretort。”Shesaid,’Youofallmenshouldrecognisetheunseemlinessoftheseproposals。Hadyourlettersgivenmeanyhintofthefeelingsyouhavejustexpressed,youwouldneverhavehadthisopportunityofapproachingme。’Thatwasall;butherindignationwasscathing。Ladieswhohavesuppedexclusivelyoffsilver,showafinescornforthecommonwareofthecottager。”
Mr。Challonerbowed。”Thereissomemistake,”saidhe。”Mydaughtermightbeaversetoyouraddresses,butshewouldnevershowindignationtoanyaspirantforherhand,simplyonaccountofextraneousconditions。Shehadwidesympathies-widerthanIoftenapproved。Somethinginyourconductortheconfidenceyoushowedshockedhernicersense;notyourlackoftheluxuriessheoftenmisprised。ThismuchIfeelobligedtosay,outofjusticetohercharacter,whichwasuniformlyconsiderate。””Youhaveseenherwithmenofherownworldandyours,”wastheharshresponse。”Shehadanothersidetohernatureforthemanofadifferentsphere。Anditkilledmylove-thatyoucansee-andledtomysendinghertheinjudiciousletterwithwhichyouhaveconfrontedme。Thehurtbulluttersonebellowbeforehedies。
Ibellowed,andbellowedloudly,butIdidnotdie。I’mmyownmanstillandmeantoremainso。”
Theassertiveboldness-somewouldcallitbravado-withwhichhethusfinishedthestoryofhisrelationswiththedeadheiress,seemedtobemorethanMr。Challonercouldstand。Withalookofextremepainandperplexityhevanishedfromthedoorway,anditfelltoDr。Heathtoinquire:”Isthisletter-aletterofthreatyouwillremember-theonlycommunicationwhichpassedbetweenyouandMissChallonerafterthisunfortunatepassageofarmsattheClermont?””Yes。Ihadnowishtoaddressheragain。IhadexhaustedinthisoneoutburstwhateverhumiliationIfelt。””Andshe?Didshegivenosign,makeyounoanswer?””Nonewhatever。”Then,asifhefounditimpossibletohidethishurttohispride,”Shedidnotevenseemtoconsidermeworthythehonourofanaddedrebuke。Sucharroganceis,nodoubt,commendableinaChalloner。”
Thistimehisbitternessdidnotpassunrebukedbythecoroner:”RememberthegreyhairsoftheonlyChallonerwhocanhearyou,andrespecthisgrief。”
Mr。Brothersonbowed。”Ihavefinished,”saidhe。”Ishallhavenothingmoretosayonthesubject。”Andhedrewhimselfupinexpectationofthedismissalheevidentlythoughtpending。
Butthecoronerwasnotdonewithhimbyanymeans。Hehadatheoryinregardtothislamentablesuicidewhichhehopedtoestablishbythisman’stestimony,and,inpursuitofthisplan,henotonlymotionedtoMr。Brothersontoreseathimself,butbeganatoncetoopenafreshlineofexaminationbysaying:”Youwillpardonme,ifIpressthismatter。IhavebeengiventounderstandthatnotwithstandingyourbreakwithMissChalloner,youhavekeptupyourvisitstotheClermontandwereevenonthespotatthetimeofherdeath。””Onthespot?””Inthehotel,Imean。””Thereyouareright;Iwasinthehotel。””Atthetimeofherdeath?””Verynearthetime。Irememberhearingsomedisturbanceinthelobbybehindme,justasIwaspassingoutattheBroadwayentrance。””Youdid,anddidnotreturn?””WhyshouldIreturn?Iamnotamanofmuchcuriosity。TherewasnoreasonwhyIshouldconnectasuddenalarminthelobbyoftheClermontwithanycauseofspecialinteresttomyself。”
Thiswassotrueandthelookwhichaccompaniedthewordswassofrankthatthecoronerhesitatedamomentbeforehesaid: