II。
BeforealittlewaxenimageoftheMotherandChild,——anoddlittleVirginwithanIndianface,broughthomebyFeliuasagiftafteroneofhisMexicanvoyages,——CarmenVioscahadburnedcandlesandprayed;sometimestellingherbeads;sometimesmurmuringthelitaniessheknewbyheart;sometimesalsoreadingfromaprayer—bookwornandgreasyasalong—usedpackofcards。
Itwasparticularlystainedatonepage,apageonwhichhertearshadfallenmanyalonelynight——apagewithaclumsywoodcutrepresentingacelestiallamp,asymbolicradiance,shiningthroughdarkness,andoneithersideakneelingangelwithfoldedwings。AndbeneaththisrudelywroughtsymbolofthePerpetualCalmappearedinbig,coarsetypethetitleofaprayerthathasbeenofferedupthroughmanyacentury,doubtless,bywivesofSpanishmariners,——ContralasTempestades。
Onceshebecameverymuchfrightened。Afterapartiallullthestormhadsuddenlyredoubleditsforce:thegroundshook;thehousequiveredandcreaked;thewindbrayedandscreamedandpushedandscuffledatthedoor;andthewater,whichhadbeenwhippinginthrougheverycrevice,allatonceroseoverthethresholdandfloodedthedwelling。Carmendippedherfingerinthewaterandtastedit。Itwassalt!
AndnoneofFeliu’sboatshadyetcomein;——doubtlesstheyhadbeendrivenintosomefar—awaybayousbythestorm。Theonlyboatatthesettlement,theCarmencita,hadbeenalmostwreckedbyrunninguponasnagthreedaysbefore;——therewasatleastafortnight’sworkfortheship—carpenterofDeadCypressPoint。
AndFeliuwassleepingasifnothingunusualhadhappened——theheavysleepofasailor,heedlessofcommotionsandvoices。Andhismen,MiguelandMateo,wereattheotherendofthecheniere。
WithascreamCarmenarousedFeliu。Heraisedhimselfuponhiselbow,rubbedhiseyes,andaskedher,withexasperatingcalmness,"Quetienes?quetienes?"(Whatailsthee?)
——"Oh,Feliu!theseaiscominguponus!"sheanswered,inthesametongue。Butshescreamedoutawordinspiredbyherfear:
shedidnotcry,"Senosvieneelmarencima!"but"SenosvieneLAALTURA!"——thenamethatconveystheterriblethoughtofdepthswallowedupinheight,——theheightofthehighsea。
"Nolocreo!"mutteredFeliu,lookingatthefloor;theninaquiet,deepvoicehesaid,pointingtoanoarinthecorneroftheroom,"Echameeseremo。"
Shegaveittohim。Stillrecliningupononeelbow,Feliumeasuredthedepthofthewaterwithhisthumbnailuponthebladeoftheoar,andthenbadeCarmenlighthispipeforhim。
Hiscalmnessreassuredher。Forhalfanhourmore,undismayedbytheclamoringofthewindorthecallingofthesea,Feliusilentlysmokedhispipeandwatchedhisoar。Thewaterrosealittlehigher,andhemadeanothermark;——thenitclimbedalittlemore,butnotsorapidly;andhesmiledatCarmenashemadeathirdmark。"Comocreia!"heexclaimed,"nohayporqueasustarse:elaguabaja!"AndasCarmenwouldhavecontinuedtopray,herebukedherfears,andbadehertrytoobtainsomerest:
"Bastayadeplegarios,querida!——veteyduerme。"Histone,thoughkindly,wasimperative;andCarmen,accustomedtoobeyhim,laidherselfdownbyhisside,andsoon,forveryweariness,slept。
Itwasafeverishsleep,nevertheless,shatteredatbriefintervalsbyterriblesounds,soundsmagnifiedbyhernervouscondition——asleepvisitedbydreamsthatmingledinastrangewaywiththeimpressionsofthestorm,andmorethanoncemadeherheartstop,andstartagainatitsownstopping。Oneofthesefanciesshenevercouldforget——adreamaboutlittleConcha,——Conchita,herfirstborn,whonowsleptfarawayintheoldchurchyardatBarcelona。Shehadtriedtobecomeresigned,——nottothink。Butthechildwouldcomebacknightafternight,thoughtheearthlayheavyuponher——nightafternight,throughlongdistancesofTimeandSpace。Oh!thefanciedclingingofinfant—lips!——thethrillingtouchoflittleghostlyhands!——thosephantom—caressesthattorturemothers’hearts!……
Nightafternight,throughmanyamonthofpain。Thenforatimethegentlepresenceceasedtohaunther,——seemedtohavelaindowntosleepforeverunderthehighbrightgrassandyellowflowers。Whydiditreturn,thatnightofallnights,tokissher,toclingtoher,tonestleinherarms?
ForinherdreamshethoughtherselfstillkneelingbeforethewaxenImage,whiletheterrorsofthetempestwereeverdeepeningabouther,——ravingofwindsandboomingofwatersandashakingoftheland。Andbeforeher,evenassheprayedherdream—prayer,thewaxenVirginbecametallasawoman,andtaller,——risingtotheroofandsmilingasshegrew。ThenCarmenwouldhavecriedoutforfear,butthatsomethingsmotheredhervoice,——paralyzedhertongue。AndtheVirginsilentlystoopedaboveher,andplacedinherarmstheChild,——thebrownChildwiththeIndianface。AndtheChildwhitenedinherhandsandchanged,——seemingasitchangedtosendasharppainthroughherheart:anoldpainlinkedsomehowwithmemoriesofbrightwindySpanishhills,andsummerscentofolivegroves,andalltheluminousPast;——itlookedintoherfacewiththesoftdarkgaze,withtheunforgottensmileof……deadConchita!
AndCarmenwishedtothank;thesmilingVirginforthatpricelessbliss,andlifteduphereyes,butthesicknessofghostlyfearreturneduponherwhenshelooked;fornowtheMotherseemedasawomanlongdead,andthesmilewasthesmileoffleshlessness,andtheplacesoftheeyeswerevoidsanddarknesses……Andtheseasentupsovastaroarthatthedwellingrocked。
Carmenstartedfromsleeptofindherheartthrobbingsothatthecouchshookwithit。Nightwasgrowinggray;thedoorhadjustbeenopenedandslammedagain。Throughtherain—whippedpanesshediscernedthepassingshapeofFeliu,makingforthebeach——abroadandbeardedsilhouette,bendingagainstthewind。StillthewaxenVirginsmiledherMexicansmile,——butnowshewasonlysevenincheshigh;andherbead—glasseyesseemedtotwinklewithkindlinesswhiletheflameofthelastexpiringtaperstruggledforlifeintheearthensocketatherfeet。
III。
RainandablindskyandaburstingseaFeliuandhismen,MiguelandMateo,lookedoutuponthethunderingandflashingofthemonstroustide。Thewindhadfallen,andthegrayairwasfullofgulls。Behindthecheniere,backtothecloudylineoflowwoodsmanymilesaway,stretchedawashoflead—coloredwater,withagreenpointpiercingithereandthere——elbow—bushesorwildcanetallenoughtokeeptheirheadsabovetheflood。Buttheinundationwasvisiblydecreasing;——withthepassingofeachhourmoreandmoregreenpatchesandpointshadbeenshowingthemselves:bydegreesthecourseofthebayouhadbecomedefined——twoparallelwindinglinesofdwarf—timberandbushyshrubstraversingthewatertowardthedistantcypress—swamps。
Beforethechenierealltheshell—beachslopewaspiledwithwreck——uptorntreeswiththefoliagestillfreshuponthem,splinteredtimbersofmysteriousorigin,andlogsinmultitude,scarredwithgashesoftheaxe。Feliuandhiscomradeshadsavedwoodenoughtobuildalittletown,——workinguptotheirwaistsinthesurf,withropes,poles,andboat—hooks。Thewholeseawasfullofflotsam。VotoaCristo!——whatawreckingtheremusthavebeen!AndtothinktheCarmencitacouldnotbetakenout!
Theyhadseenotherluggersmakingeastwardduringthemorning——couldrecognizesomebytheirsails,othersbytheirgait,——exaggeratedintheirstrugglewiththepitchingofthesea:theSanPablo,theGasparina,theEnriqueta,theAgueda,theConstanza。Uglywater,yes!——butwhatachanceforwreckers!……Somegreatshipmusthavegonetopieces;——scoresofcaskswererollinginthetrough,——casksofwine。PerhapsitwastheManila,——perhapstheNautilus!
AdeadcowfloatednearenoughforMateotothrowhisropeoveronehorn;andtheyallhelpedtogetitout。Itwasamilchcowofsomeexpensivebreed;andtheowner’sbrandhadbeenburneduponthehorns:——amonographiccombinationofthelettersAandP。Feliusaidheknewthatbrand:Old—manPreaulx,ofBelle—Isle,whokeptasortofdairyatLastIslandduringthesummerseason,usedtomarkallhiscowsthatway。Strange!
But,astheyworkedon,theybegantoseestrangerthings,——whitedeadfacesanddeadhands,whichdidnotlooklikethehandsorthefacesofdrownedsailors:theebbwasbeginningtorunstrongly,andthesewerepassingoutwithitontheothersideofthemouthofthebayou;——perhapstheyhadbeenwashedintothemarshduringthenight,whenthegreatrushoftheseacame。
Thenthethreemenleftthewater,andretiredtohighergroundtoscanthefurrowedGulf;——theirpracticedeyesbegantosearchthecoursesofthesea—currents,——keenasthegazeofbirdsthatwatchthewakeoftheplough。Andsoonthecasksandthedriftwereforgotten;foritseemedtothemthatthetidewasheavywithhumandead——passingout,processionally,tothegreatopen。
Veryfar,wherethehugepitchingoftheswellswasdiminishedbydistanceintoamereflutteringofripples,thewaterappearedasifsprinkledwiththem;——theyvanishedandbecamevisibleagainatirregularintervals,hereandthere——floatingmostthicklyeastward!——tossing,swayingpatchesofwhiteorpinkorblueorblackeachwithitstinyspeckofflesh—colorshowingasthesealiftedorloweredthebody。Nearertoshoretherewerefew;butofthesetwowerecloseenoughtobealmostrecognizable:Miguelfirstdiscernedthem。Theywererisingandfallingwherethewaterwasdeepest——welloutinfrontofthemouthofthebayou,beyondthefloodedsand—bars,andmovingtowardtheshell—reefwestward。Theyweredriftingalmostsidebyside。Onewasthatofanegro,apparentlywellattired,andwearingawhiteapron;——theotherseemedtobeayoungcoloredgirl,cladinabluedress;shewasfloatinguponherface;theycouldobservethatshehadnearlystraighthair,braidedandtiedwitharedribbon。Thesewereevidentlyhouse—servants,——slaves。Butfromwhence?Nothingcouldbelearneduntiltheluggersshouldreturn;andnoneofthemwasyetinsight。StillFeliuwasnotanxiousastothefateofhisboats,mannedbythebestsailorsofthecoast。RarelyaretheseLouisianafishermenlostinsuddenstorms;evenwhentoothereyestheappearancesaremostpacificandtheskiesmostsplendidlyblue,theydivinesomefar—offdanger,likethegulls;andlikethegullsalso,youseetheirlightvesselsfleeinglandward。Thesemenseemlivingbarometers,exquisitelysensitivetoalltheinvisiblechangesofatmosphericexpansionandcompression;theyarenoteasilycaughtinthoseawfuldeadcalmswhichsuddenlyparalyzethewingsofabark,andholdherhelplessintheircharmedcircle,asinanightmare,untiltheblacknessovertakesher,andthelong—sleepingsealeapsupfoamingtodevourher。
——"Carajo!"
ThewordallatonceburstsfromFeliu’smouth,withthatpeculiargutturalsnarlofthe"r"betokeningstrongexcitement,——whilehepointstosomethingrockingintheebb,beyondthefoamingoftheshell—reef,underacirclingofgulls。
Moredead?Yes——butsomethingtoothatlivesandmoves,likeaquiveringspeckofgold;andMateoalsoperceivesit,agleamofbrighthair,——andMiguellikewise,afteramoment’sgazing。A
livingchild;——alifelessmother。Pobrecita!Noboatwithinreach,andonlyamightysurf—wrestlercouldhopetoswimthitherandreturn!
Butalready,withoutaword,brownFeliuhasstrippedforthestruggle;——anothersecond,andheisshootingthroughthesurf,headandhandstunnellingthefoamhills……One——two——threelinespassed!——four!——thatiswheretheyfirstbegintocrumblewhitefromthesummit,——five!——thathecanridefearlessly!……
Thenswiftly,easily,headvances,withalong,powerfulbreast—stroke,——keepinghisbeardedheadwelluptowatchfordrift,——seemingtoslidewithaswingfromswelltoswell,——ascending,sinking,——alternatelypresentingbreastorshouldertothewave;alwaysdiminishingmoreandmoretotheeyesofMateoandMiguel,——tillhebecomesamovingspeck,occasionallyhardtofollowthroughtheconfusionofheapingwaters……Youarenotafraidofthesharks,Feliu!——no:theyareafraidofyou;rightandlefttheyslunkawayfromyourcomingthatmorningyouswamforlifeinWest—Indianwaters,withyourknifeinyourteeth,whiletheballsoftheCubancoast—guardwerepurringallaroundyou。Thatdaytheswarmingseawaswarm,——warmlikesoup——andclear,withanemeraldflashineveryripple,——notopaqueandclamorousliketheGulftoday……Miguelandhiscomradeareanxious。Ropesareunrolledandinter—knottedintoaline。Miguelremainsonthebeach;butMateo,bearingtheendoftheline,fightshiswayout,——swimmingandwadingbyturns,tothefurthersandbar,wherethewaterisshallowenoughtostandin,——ifyouknowhowtojumpwhenthebreakercomes。
ButFeliu,nearingthefloodedshell—bank,watchesthewhiteflashings,——knowswhenthetimecomestokeepflatandtakealong,longbreath。Oneheavyvolleyingoffoam,——darknessandhissingasofasteam—burst;avibrantliftingup;arushintolight,——andagainthevolleyingandtheseethingdarkness。Oncemore,——andthefightiswon!Hefeelstheupcomingchillofdeeperwater,——seesbeforehimthegreenquakingofunbrokenswells,——andfarbeyondhimMateoleapingonthebar,——andbesidehim,almostwithinarm’sreach,agreatbilliard—tableswaying,andadeadwomanclingingthere,and……thechild。
Amomentmore,andFeliuhasliftedhimselfbesidethewaifs……
Howfastthedeadwomanclings,asifwiththeonepowerwhichisstrongasdeath,——thedesperateforceoflove!Notinvain;forthefrailcreatureboundtothemother’scorpsewithasilkenscarfhasstillthestrengthtocryout:——"Maman!maman!"Buttimeislifenow;andthetinyhandsmustbepulledawayfromthefairdeadneck,andthescarftakentobindtheinfantfirmlytoFeliu’sbroadshoulders,——quickly,roughly;fortheebbwillnotwait……
AndnowFeliuhasaburden;buthisstyleofswimminghastotallychanged;——herisesfromthewaterlikeaTriton,andhispowerfularmsseemtospinincircles,likethespokesofaflyingwheel。
Fornowisthewrestleindeed!——aftereachpassingswellcomesaprodigiouspullingfrombeneath,——theseaclutchingforitsprey。
Butthereefisgained,ispassed;——thewildhorsesofthedeepseemtoknowtheswimmerwhohaslearnedtoridethemsowell。
Andstillthebrownarmsspininanever—nearingmistofspray;
andtheoutersand—barisnotfaroff,——andthereisshoutingMateo,leapinginthesurf,swingingsomethingabouthishead,asavaqueroswingshisnoose!……Sough!splash!——itstrugglesinthetroughbesideFeliu,andthesinewyhanddescendsuponit。
Tiene!——tira,Miguel!Andtheirfeettouchlandagain!……
Sheisverycold,thechild,andverystill,witheyesclosed。
——"Estamuerta,Feliu?"asksMateo。
——"No!"thepantingswimmermakesanswer,emerging,whilethewavesreachwhitelyupthesandasinpursuit,——"no;vive!
respiratodavia!"
Behindhimthedeepliftsupitsmillionhands,andthundersasinacclaim。
IV。
——"MadredeDios!——misueno!"screamedCarmen,abandoningherpreparationsforthemorningmeal,asFeliu,nude,likeamarinegod,rushedinandheldouttoheradrippingandgaspingbaby—girl,——"MotherofGod!mydream!"Buttherewasnotimethentotellofdreams;thechildmightdie。InoneinstantCarmen’squick,defthandshadstrippedtheslenderlittlebody;
andwhileMateoandFeliuwerefindingdryclothingandstimulants,andMigueltellinghowitallhappened——quickly,passionately,withfuriousgesture,——thekindandvigorouswomanexertedallherskilltorevivetheflickeringlife。SoonFeliucametoaidher,whilehismensettoworkcompletingtheinterruptedpreparationofthebreakfast。Flannelswereheatedforthefrictionofthefraillimbs;andbrandy—and—waterwarmed,whichCarmenadministeredbythespoonful,skilfullyasanyphysician,——until,atlast,thelittlecreatureopenedhereyesandbegantosob。Sobbingstill,shewaslaidinCarmen’swarmfeather—bed,wellswathedinwoollenwrappings。Theimmediatedanger,atleast,wasover;andFeliusmiledwithprideandpleasure。
ThenCarmenfirstventuredtorelateherdream;andhisfacebecamegraveagain。Husbandandwifegazedamomentintoeachother’seyes,feelingtogetherthesamestrangethrill——thatmysteriousfaintcreeping,asofawindpassing,whichistheaweoftheUnknowable。Thentheylookedatthechild,lyingthere,pinkcheckedwiththeflushofthebloodreturning;andsuchasuddentendernesstouchedthemastheyhadknownlongyearsbefore,whiletogetherbendingabovetheslumberinglovelinessoflostConchita。
——"Queojos!"murmuredFeliu,asheturnedaway,——feigninghunger……(Hewasnothungry;buthissighthadgrownalittledim,aswithamist。)Queojos!Theyweresingulareyes,large,dark,andwonderfullyfringed。Thechild’shairwasyellow——itwastheflashofitthathadsavedher;yethereyesandbrowswerebeautifullyblack。Shewascomely,butwithsuchacurious,delicatecomeliness——totallyunliketherobustbeautyofConcha……Atintervalsshewouldmoanalittlebetweenhersobs;andatlastcriedout,withathin,shrillcry:"Maman!——oh!maman!"
ThenCarmenliftedherfromthebedtoherlap,andcaressedher,androckedhergentlytoandfro,asshehaddonemanyanightforConcha,——murmuring,——"Yoseretumadre,angelmio,dulzuramia;——seretumadrecita,palomitamia!"(Iwillbethymother,myangel,mysweet;——Iwillbethylittlemother,mydoveling。)Andthelongsilkfringesofthechild’seyesoverlapped,shadowedherlittlecheeks;andsheslept——justasConchitahadsleptlongago,——withherheadonCarmen’sbosom。
Feliure—appearedattheinnerdoor:atasign,heapproachedcautiously,withoutnoise,andlooked。
——"Shecantalk,"whisperedCarmeninSpanish:"shecalledhermother"——hallamadoasumadre。
——"YDiostambienlahallamado,"respondedFeliu,withrudepathos;——"AndGodalsocalledher。"
——"ButtheVirginsentusthechild,Feliu,——sentusthechildforConcha’ssake。"
Hedidnotansweratonce;heseemedtobethinkingverydeeply;——Carmenanxiouslyscannedhisimpassiveface。
——"Whoknows?"heanswered,atlast;——"whoknows?Perhapsshehasceasedtobelongtoanyoneelse。"
Oneafteranother,Feliu’sluggersflutteredin,——bearingwiththemnewsoftheimmensecalamity。Andallthefishermen,inturn,lookedatthechild。Notonehadeverseenherbefore。
V。
Tendayslater,aluggerfullofarmedmenenteredthebayou,andmooredatViosca’swharf。Thevisitorswere,forthemostpart,countrygentlemen,——residentsofFranklinandneighboringtowns,orplantersfromtheTechecountry,——formingoneofthenumerousexpeditionsorganizedforthepurposeoffindingthebodiesofrelativesorfriendslostinthegreathurricane,andofpunishingtherobbersofthedead。Theyhadsearchednumberlessnooksofthecoast,hadgivensepulturetomanycorpses,hadrecoveredalargeamountofjewelry,and——asFeliuafterwardlearned,——hadsummarilytriedandexecutedseveralofthemostabandonedclassofwreckersfoundwithill—gottenvaluablesintheirpossession,andconvictedofhavingmutilatedthedrowned。
ButtheycametoViosca’slandingonlytoobtaininformation;——hewastoowellknownandlikedtobeasubjectforsuspicion;and,moreover,hehadonegoodfriendinthecrowd,——CaptainHarrisofNewOrleans,aveteransteamboatmanandamarketcontractor,towhomhehaddisposedofmanyacargooffreshpompano,sheep’s—head,andSpanish—mackerel……Harriswasthefirsttosteptoland;——sometenofthepartyfollowedhim。Nearlyallhadlostsomerelativeorfriendinthegreatcatastrophe;——thegatheringwasserious,silent,——almostgrim,——whichformedaboutFeliu。
Mateo,whohadcometothecountrywhileaboy,spokeEnglishbetterthantherestofthechenierepeople;——heactedasinterpreterwheneverFeliufoundanydifficultyincomprehendingoransweringquestions;andhetoldthemofthechildrescuedthatwildmorning,andofFeliu’sswim。Hisrecitalevokedamurmurofinterestandexcitement,followedbyaconfusionofquestions。Well,theycouldseeforthemselves,Feliusaid;buthehopedtheywouldhavealittlepatience;——thechildwasstillweak;——itmightbedangeroustostartleher。"We’llarrangeitjustasyoulike,"respondedthecaptain;——"goahead,Feliu!"……
Allproceededtothehouse,underthegreattrees;FeliuandCaptainHarrisleadingtheway。Itwassultryandbright;——eventhesea—breezewaswarm;therewerepleasantodorsintheshade,andasoporificmurmurmadeofleaf—speechandthehumofgnats。
OnlythecaptainenteredthehousewithFeliu;therestremainedwithout——sometakingseatsonarudeplankbenchundertheoaks——othersflingingthemselvesdownupontheweeds——afewstoodstill,leaningupontheirrifles。ThenCarmencameouttothemwithgourdsandabucketoffreshwater,whichallweregladtodrink。
Theywaitedmanyminutes。Perhapsitwasthecoolpeaceoftheplacethatmadethemallfeelhowhotandtiredtheywere:
conversationflagged;andthegenerallanguorfinallybetrayeditselfinasilencesoabsolutethateveryleaf—whisperseemedtobecomeseparatelyaudible。
Itwasbrokenatlastbythegutturalvoiceoftheoldcaptainemergingfromthecottage,leadingthechildbythehand,andfollowedbyCarmenandFeliu。Allwhohadbeenrestingroseupandlookedatthechild。
Standinginalightedspace,withonetinyhandenvelopedbythecaptain’sgreatbrownfist,shelookedsolovelythatageneralexclamationofsurprisewentup。Herbrighthair,looseandsteepedinthesun—flame,illuminatedherlikeahalo;andherlargedarkeyes,gentleandmelancholyasadeer’s,watchedthestrangefacesbeforeherwithshycuriosity。SheworethesamedressinwhichFeliuhadfoundher——asoftwhitefabricofmuslin,withtrimmingsofribbonthathadoncebeenblue;andthenowdiscoloredsilkenscarf,whichhadtwicedonehersuchbraveservice,wasthrownoverhershoulders。Carmenhadwashedandrepairedthedressverycreditably;butthetinyslimfeetwerebare,——thebrine—soakedshoessheworethatfearfulnighthadfallenintoshredsatthefirstattempttoremovethem。
——"Gentlemen,"saidCaptainHarris,——"wecanfindnoclewtotheidentityofthischild。Thereisnomarkuponherclothing;andsheworenothingintheshapeofjewelry——exceptthisstringofcoralbeads。WearenearlyallAmericanshere;andshedoesnotspeakanyEnglish……Doesanyonehereknowanythingabouther?"
Carmenfeltagreatsinkingatherheart:washernew—founddarlingtobetakensosoonfromher?Butnoanswercametothecaptain’squery。Nooneoftheexpeditionhadeverseenthatchildbefore。Thecoralbeadswerepassedfromhandtohand;thescarfwasminutelyscrutinizedwithoutavail。SomebodyaskedifthechildcouldnottalkGermanorItalian。
——"Italiano?No!"saidFeliu,shakinghishead……Oneofhisluggermen,GioachinoSparicio,who,thoughaSicilian,couldspeakseveralItalianidiomsbesideshisown,hadalreadyessayed。
——"Shespeakssomethingorother,"answeredthecaptain——"butnoEnglish。Icouldn’tmakeherunderstandme;andFeliu,whotalksnearlyalltheinfernallanguagesspokendownthisway,sayshecan’tmakeherunderstandhim。SupposesomeofyouwhoknowFrenchtalktoherabit……Laroussel,whydon’tyoutry?"
Theyoungmanaddresseddidnotatfirstseemtonoticethecaptain’ssuggestion。Hewasatall,lithefellow,withadark,positiveface:hehadneverremovedhisblackgazefromthechildsincethemomentofherappearance。Hereyes,too,seemedtobeallforhim——toreturnhisscrutinywithasortofvaguepleasure,ahalfsavageconfidence……Wasitthefirstembryonicfeelingofrace—affinityquickeninginthelittlebrain?——someintuitive,inexplicablesenseofkindred?SheshrankfromDoctorHecker,whoaddressedherinGerman,shookherheadatLawyerSolari,whotriedtomakeheranswerinItalian;andherlookalwayswentbackplaintivelytothedark,sinisterfaceofLaroussel,——Larousselwhohadcalmlytakenahumanlife,awickedhumanlife,onlytheeveningbefore。
——"Laroussel,you’retheonlyCreoleinthiscrowd,"saidthecaptain;"talktoher!Talkgumbotoher!……I’venodoubtthischildknowsGermanverywell,andItaliantoo,"——headded,maliciously——"butnotinthewayyougentlemenpronounceit!"
Larousselhandedhisrifletoafriend,croucheddownbeforethelittlegirl,andlookedintoherface,andsmiled。Hergreatsweetorbsshoneintohisonemoment,seriously,asifsearching;andthen……shereturnedhissmile。Itseemedtotouchsomethinglatentwithintheman,somethingrare;forhiswholeexpressionchanged;andtherewasacaressinhislookandvoicenoneofthemencouldhavebelievedpossible——asheexclaimed:——
——"Faismoinbo,piti。"
Shepoutedupherprettylipsandkissedhisblackmoustache。
Hespoketoheragain:——
——"Dismointonom,piti;——dismointonom,chere。"
Then,forthefirsttime,shespoke,answeringinherargenttreble:
——"Zouzoune。"
Allheldtheirbreath。CaptainHarrisliftedhisfingertohislipstocommandsilence。
——"Zouzoune?Zouzounequi,chere?"
——"Zouzoune,ac’estmoin,Lili!"
——"C’estpastouttonom,Lili;——dismoin,chere,tolautnom。"
——"Mopasconninlautnom。"
——"Commentyetepeletomaman,piti?"
——"Maman,——Maman’Dele。"
——"Etcommentyetepeletopapa,chere?"
——"PapaZulien。"
——"Bon!Etcommenttomamantepeletopapa?——discaamoin,chere?"
Thechildlookeddown,putafingerinhermouth,thoughtamoment,andreplied:——
——"Lipeleli,’Cheri’;lipeleli,’Papoute。’"
——"Aie,aie!——c’esttout,ca?——tomamantejamainpelelidaut’
chose?"
——"Mopasconnin,moin。"
Shebegantoplaywithsometrinketsattachedtohiswatchchain;——averysmallgoldcompassespeciallyimpressedherfancybythetremblingandflashingofitstinyneedle,andshemurmured,coaxingly:——
——"Moouleca!Donnincaamoin。"
Hetookallpossibleadvantageofthesituation,andrepliedatonce:——
——"Oui!movadonnintoicasitodimointolautnom。"
Thesplendidbribeevidentlyimpressedhergreatly;fortearsrosetothebrowneyesassheanswered:
——"Mopascapabdi’ca;——mopascapabdi’lautnom……Mooule;
mopascapab!"
Larousselexplained。Thechild’snamewasLili,——perhapsacontractionofEulalie;andherpetCreolenameZouzoune。Hethoughtshemustbethedaughterofwealthypeople;butshecouldnot,forsomereasonorother,tellherfamilyname。Perhapsshecouldnotpronounceitwell,andwasafraidofbeinglaughedat:
someoftheoldFrenchnameswereveryhardforCreolechildrentopronounce,solongasthelittleoneswereindulgedinthehabitoftalkingthepatois;andafteracertainagetheirmispronunciationswouldbemadefunofinordertoaccustomthemtoabandontheidiomoftheslave—nurses,andtospeakonlyFrench。Perhaps,again,shewasreallyunabletorecallthename:certainmemoriesmighthavebeenblurredinthedelicatebrainbytheshockofthatterriblenight。Shesaidhermother’snamewasAdele,andherfather’sJulien;butthesewereverycommonnamesinLouisiana,——andcouldaffordscarcelyanybetterclewthantheinnocentstatementthathermotherusedtoaddressherfatheras"dear"(Cheri),——orwiththeCreolediminutive"littlepapa"(Papoute)。ThenLarousseltriedtoreachaclewinotherways,withoutsuccess。Heaskedheraboutwhereshelived,——whattheplacewaslike;andshetoldhimaboutfig—treesinacourt,andgalleries,andbanquettes,andspokeofafaubou’,——withoutbeingabletonameanystreet。Heaskedherwhatherfatherusedtodo,andwasassuredthathedideverything——thattherewasnothinghecouldnotdo。Divineabsurdityofchildishfaith!——infiniteartlessnessofchildishlove!……Probablythelittlegirl’sparentshadbeenresidentsofNewOrleans——dwellersoftheoldcolonialquarter,——thefaubourg,thefaubou’。
——"Well,gentlemen,"saidCaptainHarris,asLarousselabandonedhiscross—examinationindespair,——"allwecandonowistomakeinquiries。Isupposewe’dbetterleavethechildhere。Sheisveryweakyet,andinnoconditiontobetakentothecity,rightinthemiddleofthehotseason;andnobodycouldcareforheranybetterthanshe’sbeingcaredforhere。Then,again,seemstomethatasFeliusavedherlife,——andthatattheriskofhisown,——he’sgotthepriorclaim,anyhow;andhiswifeisjustcrazyaboutthechild——wantstoadopther。Ifwecanfindherrelativessomuchthebetter;butIsay,gentlemen,letthemcomerightheretoFeliu,themselves,andthankhimasheoughttobethanked,byGod!That’sjustwhatIthinkaboutit。"
Carmenunderstoodthelittlespeech;——alltheSpanishcharmofheryouthhadfadedoutyearsbefore;butintheoneswiftlookofgratitudesheturneduponthecaptain,itseemedtoblossomagain;——forthatquickmoment,shewasbeautiful。
"Thecaptainisquiteright,"observedDr。Hecker:"itwouldbeverydangeroustotakethechildawayjustnow。"Therewasnodissent。
——"Allcorrect,boys?"askedthecaptain……"Well,we’vegottobegoing。By—by,Zouzoune!"
ButZouzouneburstintotears。Larousselwasgoingtoo!
——"Giveherthething,Laroussel!shegaveyouakiss,anyhow——morethanshe’ddoforme,"criedthecaptain。
Larousselturned,detachedthelittlecompassfromhiswatchchain,andgaveittoher。Sheheldupherprettyfaceforhisfarewellkiss……
VI。
ButitseemedfatedthatFeliu’swaifshouldneverbeidentified;——diligentinquiryandprintedannouncementsalikeprovedfruitless。Seaandsandhadeitherhiddenoreffacedalltherecordsofthelittleworldtheyhadengulfed:theannihilationofwholefamilies,theextinctionofraces,had,inmorethanoneinstance,renderedvainalleffortstorecognizethedead。Itrequiredthesubtleperceptionoflongintimacytonameremainstumefiedanddiscoloredbycorruptionandexposure,mangledandgnawedbyfishes,byreptiles,andbybirds;——itdemandedthegreatcourageoflovetolookupontheeyelessfacesfoundswelteringintheblacknessofcypress—shadows,underthelowpalmettoesoftheswamps,——wheregorgedbuzzardsstartedfromsleep,orcottonmouthsuncoiled,hissing,atthecomingofthesearchers。Andsometimesallwhohadlovedthelostwerethemselvesamongthemissing。Thefullrollcallofnamescouldneverbemadeout;extraordinarymistakeswerecommitted。Menwhomtheworlddeemeddeadandburiedcameback,likeghosts,——toreadtheirownepitaphs……AlmostatthesamehourthatLarousselwasquestioningthechildinCreolepatois,anotherexpedition,searchingforbodiesalongthecoast,discoveredonthebeachofalowisletfamedasahauntofpelicans,thecorpseofachild。Somelocksofbrighthairstilladheringtotheskull,astringofredbeads,awhitemuslindress,ahandkerchiefbroideredwiththeinitials"A。L。B。,"——weresecuredasclews;andthelittlebodywasinterredwhereithadbeenfound。
And,severaldaysbefore,CaptainHotard,oftherelief—boatEstelleBrousseaux,hadfound,driftingintheopenGulf(latitude26degrees43minutes;longitude88degrees17
minutes),——thecorpseofafair—hairedwoman,clingingtoatable。Thebodywasdisfiguredbeyondrecognition:eventheslenderbonesofthehandshadbeenstrippedbythenibsofthesea—birds—exceptonefinger,thethirdoftheleft,whichseemedtohavebeenprotectedbyaringofgold,asbyacharm。Gravenwithintheplainyellowcircletwasadate,——"JUILLET——1851";
andthenames,——"ADELEJULIEN,"——separatedbyacross。TheEstellecarriedcoffinsthatday:mostofthemwerealreadyfull;buttherewasoneforAdele。
Whowasshe?——whowasherJulien?……WhentheEstelleandmanyothervesselshaddischargedtheirghastlycargoes;——whenthebereavedofthelandhadassembledashastilyastheymightfortheduyofidentification;——whenmemorieswerestrainedalmosttomadnessinresearchofnames,dates,incidents——fortheevocationofdeadwords,resurrectionofvanisheddays,recollectionofdearpromises,——then,intheconfusion,itwasbelievedanddeclaredthatthelittlecorpsefoundonthepelicanislandwasthedaughteroftheweareroftheweddingring:AdeleLaBrierre,neeFlorane,wifeofDr。JulienLaBrierre,ofNewOrleans,whowasnumberedamongthemissing。
AndtheybroughtdeadAdeleback,——upshadowyriverwindings,overlinkedbrightnessesoflakeandlakelet,throughmanyagreenglimmeringbayou,——totheCreolecity,andlaidhertorestsomewhereintheoldSaint—LouisCemetery。Anduponthetabletrecordinghernamewerealsograventhewords——……
Aussialamemoiredesonmari;
JULIENRAYMONDLABRIERRE,nealaparoisseSt。Landry,le29Mai;MDCCCXXVIII;
etdeleurfille,EULALIE,ageede4aset5mois,——
QuitousperirentdanslagrandetempetequibalayaL’IleDerniere,le10Aout,MDCCCLVI…………
Priezpoureux!
VII。
YetsixmonthsafterwardthefaceofJulienLaBrierrewasseenagainuponthestreetsofNewOrleans。Menstartedatthesightofhim,asataspectrestandinginthesun。Andneverthelesstheapparitioncastashadow。Peoplepaused,approached,halfextendedahandthrougholdhabit,suddenlycheckedthemselvesandpassedon,——wonderingtheyshouldhaveforgotten,askingthemselveswhytheyhadsonearlymadeanabsurdmistake。
ItwasaFebruaryday,——oneofthosecrystallinedaysofoursnowlessSouthernwinter,whentheairisclearandcool,andoutlinessharpeninthelightasifviewedthroughthefocusofadiamondglass;——andinthatbrightnessJulienLaBrierreperusedhisownbriefepitaph,andgazeduponthesculpturednameofdrownedAdele。Onlyhalfayearhadpassedsinceshewaslaidawayinthehighwalloftombs,——inthatstrangecolonialcolumbariumwherethedeadsleptinrows,behindsquaredmarblesletteredinblackorbronze。Yetherresting—place,——inthehighestrange,——alreadyseemedold。UnderourSouthernsun,thevegetationofcemeteriesseemstospringintobeingspontaneously——toleapallsuddenlyintoluxuriantlife!
Microscopicmossygrowthshadbeguntomottletheslabthatclosedherin;——overitsfacesomesingularcreeperwascrawling,plantingtinyreptile—feetintothechiselledlettersoftheinscription;andfromthemoistsoilbelowspeckledeuphorbiasweregrowinguptoher,——andmorningglories,——andbeautifulgreentangledthingsofwhichhedidnotknowthename。
Andthesightoftheprettylizards,puffingtheircrimsonpouchesinthesun,orundulatingathwartepitaphs,andshiftingtheircolorwhenapproached,fromemeraldtoashen—gray;——thecaravansoftheants,journeyingtoandfromtinychinksinthemasonry;——thebeesgatheringhoneyfromthecrimsonblossomsofthecrete—de—coq,whoseradiclessoughtsustenance,perhapsfromhumandust,inthedecayofgenerations:——allthatrichlifeofgravessummonedupfanciesofResurrection,Nature’sresurrection—work——wondroustransformationsofflesh,marvellousbansmigrationofsouls!……Fromsomeforgottencreviceofthattombroof,whichaloneintervenedbetweenherandthevastlight,asturdyweedwasgrowing。Heknewthatplant,asitquiveredagainsttheblue,——thechou—gras,asCreolechildrencallit:
itsdarkberriesformthemockingbird’sfavoritefood……Mightnotitsroots,exploringdarkness,havefoundsomeunfamiliarnutrimentwithin?——mightitnotbethatsomethingofthedeadhearthadrisentopurpleandemeraldlife——inthesapoftranslucentleaves,inthewineofthesavageberries,——toblendwiththebloodoftheWizardSinger,——tolendastrangesweetnesstothemelodyofhiswooing?……Seldom,indeed,doesithappenthatamanintheprimeofyouth,inthepossessionofwealth,habituatedtocomfortsandtheelegancesoflife,discoversinonebriefweekhowminutehistruerelationtothehumanaggregate,———howinsignificanthispartasonelivingatomofthesocialorganism。Seldom,attheageoftwenty—eight,hasonebeenmadeabletocomprehend,throughexperiencealone,thatinthevastandcomplexStreamofBeinghecountsforlessthanadrop;andthat,evenasthebloodlosesandreplacesitscorpuscles,withoutavarianceinthevolumeandvigorofitscurrent,soareindividualexistenceseliminatedandreplacedinthepulsingofapeople’slife,withneverapauseinitsmightymurmur。Butallthis,andmuchmore,Julienhadlearnedinsevenmercilessdays——sevensuccessiveandterribleshocksofexperience。Theenormousworldhadnotmissedhim;andhisplacethereinwasnotvoid——societyhadsimplyforgottenhim。Solongashehadmovedamongthem,allheknewforfriendshadperformedtheirpettyaltruisticroles,——haddischargedtheirsmallhumanobligations,——hadkeptturnedtowardhimtheleastselfishsideoftheirnatures,——hadmadewithhimatolerablyequitableexchangeofideasandoffavors;andafterhisdisappearancefromtheirmidst,theyhaddulymournedforhisloss——tothemselves!Theyhadplayedoutthefinalactintheunimportantdramaofhislife:itwasreallyaskingtoomuchtodemandarepetition……Impossibletodeceivehimselfastothefeelinghisunanticipatedreturnhadaroused:——feignedpitywherehehadlookedforsympatheticwelcome;dismaywherehehadexpectedsurpriseddelight;and,oftener,airsofresignation,ordisappointmentilldisguised,——alwaysinsincerity,politelymaskedorcoldlybare。Hehadcomebacktofindstrangersinhishome,relativesatlawconcerninghisestate,andhimselfregardedasanintruderamongtheliving,——anunluckyguest,arevenant……Howhollowandselfishaworlditseemed!Andyettherewasloveinit;hehadbeenlovedinit,unselfishly,passionately,withtheloveoffatherandofmother,ofwifeandchild……Allburied!——alllostforever!……Oh!wouldtoGodthestoryofthatstonewerenotalie!——wouldtokindGodhealsoweredead!……
Eveningshadowed:thevioletdeepenedandprickleditselfwithstars;———thesunpassedbelowthewest,leavinginhiswakeamomentarysplendorofvermilion……ourSoutherndayisnotprolongedbygloaming。AndJulien’sthoughtsdarkenedwiththedarkening,andasswiftly。Forwhiletherewasyetlighttosee,hereadanothernamethatheusedtoknow——thenameofRAMIREZ……NacioenCienfuegos,isladeCuba……Whereforeborn?——forwhateternalpurpose,Ramirez,——intheCityofaHundredFires?
Hehadblownouthisbrainsbeforethesepulchreofhisyoungwife……Itwasadetacheddoublevault,shapedlikeahugechest,andmuchdilapidatedalready:——underthecontinuousburrowingofthecrawfishithadsunkgreatlyononeside,tiltingasifabouttofall。Outfromitszigzagfissuringsofbrickandplaster,asinistervoiceseemedtocome:——"Gothouanddolikewise!……Earthgroanswithherburthenevennow,——theburthenofMan:sheholdsnoplaceforthee!"
VIII……Thatvoicepursuedhimintothedarknessofhischillyroom,——hauntedhiminthesilenceofhislodging。Andthenbeganwithinthemanthatghostlystrugglebetweencourageanddespair,betweenpatientreasonandmadrevolt,betweenweaknessandforce,betweendarknessandlight,whichallsensitiveandgenerousnaturesmustwageintheirownsoulsatleastonce——perhapsmanytimes——intheirlives。Memory,insuchmoments,playslikeanelectricstorm;——allinvoluntarilyhefoundhimselfreviewinghislife。
Incidentslongforgottencamebackwithsingularvividness:hesawthePastashehadnotseenitwhileitwasthePresent;——remembrancesofhome,recollectionsofinfancy,recurredtohimwithterribleintensity,——theartlesspleasuresandthetriflinggriefs,thelittlehurtsandthetenderpettings,thehopesandtheanxietiesofthosewholovedhim,thesmilesandtearsofslaves……AndhisfirstCreolepony,apresentfromhisfatherthedayafterhehadprovedhimselfabletorecitehisprayerscorrectlyinFrench,withoutonemispronunciation——withoutsayingcrasseforgrace,——andyellowMichel,whotaughthimtoswimandtofishandtopaddleapirogue;——andthebayou,withitswonder—worldofturtlesandbirdsandcreepingthings;——andhisGermantutor,whocouldnotpronouncethej;——andthesongsofthecane—fields,——strangelypleasing,fullofquaveringsandlongplaintivenotes,likethecallofthecranes……Tou’,tou’paysblanc!……AfterwardCamanierehadleasedtheplace;——everythingmusthavebeenchanged;eventhesongscouldnotbethesame。Tou’,tou’paysblare!——Daniequicommande……
AndthenParis;andtheuniversity,withitswildunder—life,——somedebts,somefollies;andthefrequentfondlettersfromhometowhichhemighthaverepliedsomuchoftener;——Paris,wheretalentismediocrity;Paris,withitsthundersanditssplendorsanditsseethingofpassion;——Paris,supremefocusofhumanendeavor,withitsmadnessesofart,itsfrenziedstrivingtoexpresstheInexpressible,itsspasmodicstrainingstoclutchtheUnattainable,itssoaringsofsoul—firetotheheavenoftheImpossible……
Whatarejoicingtherewasathisreturn!——howradiantandlevelthelongRoadoftheFutureseemedtoopenbeforehim!
——everywherefriends,prospects,felicitations。Thenhisfirstseriouslove;——andthenightoftheballatSt。Martinsville,——thevisionoflight!Gracileasapalm,androbedatoncesosimply,soexquisitelyinwhite,shehadseemedtohimthesupremerealizationofallpossibledreamsofbeauty……Andhispassionatejealousy;andtheslapfromLaroussel;andthehumiliatingtwo—minuteduelwithrapiersinwhichhelearnedthathehadfoundhismaster。Thescarwasdeep。WhyhadnotLarousselkilledhimthen?……Notevil—hearted,Laroussel,——theyusedtosaluteeachotherafterwardwhentheymet;andLaroussel’ssmilewaskindly。Whyhadherefrainedfromreturningit?WherewasLarousselnow?
Forthedeathofhisgenerousfather,whohadsacrificedsomuchtoreformhim;forthedeath,onlyashortwhileafter,ofhisall—forgivingmother,hehadfoundonesweetwomantoconsolehimwithhertenderwords,herlovinglips,herdeliciouscaress。
ShehadgivenhimZouzoune,thedarlinglinkbetweentheirlives,——Zouzoune,whowaitedeacheveningwithblackEglantineatthegatetowatchforhiscoming,andtocrythroughallthehouselikeabird,"Papa,lapevini!——papaZulienapevini!"……
Andoncethatshehadmadehimveryangrybyupsettingtheinkoveramassofbusinesspapers,andhehadslappedher(couldheeverforgivehimself?)——shehadcried,throughhersobsofastonishmentandpain:——"Tolaiminmoin?——tobattemoin!"(Thoulovestme?——thoubeatestme!)Nextmonthshewouldhavebeenfiveyearsold。Tolaiminmoin?——tobattemoin!……
Afuriousparoxysmofgriefconvulsedhim,suffocatedhim;itseemedtohimthatsomethingwithinmustburst,mustbreak。Heflunghimselfdownuponhisbed,bitingthecoveringsinordertostiflehisoutcry,tosmotherthesoundsofhisdespair。Whatcrimehadheeverdone,ohGod!thatheshouldbemadetosufferthus?——wasitforthishehadbeenpermittedtolive?hadbeenrescuedfromtheseaandcarriedroundalltheworldunscathed?
Whyshouldhelivetoremember,tosuffer,toagonize?WasnotRamirezwiser?
Howlongthecontestwithinhimlasted,heneverknew;butereitwasdone,hehadbecome,inmorewaysthanone,achangedman。
Forthefirst,——thoughnotindeedforthelasttime,——somethingofthedeeperandnoblercomprehensionofhumanweaknessandofhumansufferinghadbeenrevealedtohim,——somethingofthatlargerknowledgewithoutwhichthesenseofdutycanneverbefullyacquired,northeunderstandingofunselfishgoodness,northespiritoftenderness。Thesuicideisnotacoward;heisanegotist。
Arayofsunlighttouchedhiswetpillow,——awokehim。Herushedtothewindow,flungthelatticedshuttersapart,andlookedout。
Somethingbeautifulandghostlyfilledallthevistas,——frost—haze;andinsomequeerwaythemisthadmomentarilycaughtandheldtheverycolorofthesky。Anazurefog!Throughitthequaintandcheckeredstreet——asyetbuthalfilluminedbythesun,——tooktonesofimpossiblecolor;theviewpaledawaythroughfaintbluishtintsintotransparentpurples;——alltheshadowswereindigo。Howsweetthemorning!——howwelllifeseemedworthliving!Becausethesunhadshownhisfacethroughafairyveiloffrost!……
Whowastheancientthinker?——wasitHermes?——whosaid:——
"TheSunisLaughter;for’tisHewhomakethjoyousthethoughtsofmen,andgladdeneththeinfiniteworld。"……
TheShadowoftheTide。
I。
Carmenfoundthatherlittlepethadbeentaughthowtopray;foreachnightandmorningwhenthedevoutwomanbegantomakeherorisons,thechildwouldkneelbesideher,withlittlehandsjoined,andinavoicesweetandclearmurmursomethingshehadlearnedbyheart。MuchasthispleasedCarmen,itseemedtoherthatthechild’sprayerscouldnotbewhollyvalidunlessutteredinSpanish;——forSpanishwasheaven’sowntongue,——lalenguadeDios,elidiomadeDios;andsheresolvedtoteachhertosaytheSalveMariaandthePadreNuestroinCastilian——also,herownfavoriteprayertotheVirgin,beginningwiththewords,"Madresantisima,todadulceyhermosa。"……
SoConchita——foranewnamehadbeengiventoherwiththatterribleseachristening——receivedherfirstlessonsinSpanish;
andsheprovedamostintelligentpupil。BeforelongshecouldprattletoFeliu;——shewouldwatchforhisreturnofevenings,andannouncehiscomingwith"Aquivienemipapacito?"——shelearned,too,fromCarmen,manylittlecaressesofspeechtogreethimwith。Feliu’swasnotajoyousnature;hehadhisdarkhours,hissombredays;yetitwasrarelythathefelttoosullentoyieldtothelittleone’spetting,whenshewouldleapuptoreachhisneckandtocoaxhiskiss,with——"Dameunbeso,papa!——asi;——yotro!otro!otro!"Hegrewtoloveherlikehisown;——wasshenotindeedhisown,sincehehadwonherfromdeath?Andnonehadyetcometodisputehisclaim。Moreandmore,withthepassingofweeks,months,seasons,shebecameaportionofhislife——apartofallthathewroughtfor。Atthefirst,hehadhadahalf—formedhopethatthelittleonemightbereclaimedbyrelativesgenerousandrichenoughtoinsistuponhisacceptanceofahandsomecompensation;andthatCarmencouldfindsomesolaceinapleasantvisittoBarceloneta。Butnowhefeltthatnopossiblegenerositycouldrequitehimforherloss;
andwiththeunconsciousselfishnessofaffection,hecommencedtodreadheridentificationasagreatcalamity。
Itwasevidentthatshehadbeenbroughtupnicely。Shehadprettyprimwaysofdrinkingandeating,queerlittlefashionsofsittingincompany,andofaddressingpeople。Shehadpeculiarnotionsaboutcolorsindress,aboutwearingherhair;andsheseemedtohavealreadyimbibedasmallstockofsocialprejudicesnotaltogetherinharmonywiththerepublicanismofViosca’sPoint。Occasionalswarthyvisitors,——menoftheManillasettlements,——shespokeofcontemptuouslyasnegues—marrons;andoncesheshockedCarmeninexpressiblybystoppinginthemiddleofhereveningprayer,declaringthatshewantedtosayherprayerstoawhiteVirgin;Carmen’sSenoradeGuadalupewasonlyanegra!Then,forthefirsttime,Carmenspokesocrosslytothechildastofrightenher。Butthepiouswoman’sheartsmoteherthenextmomentforthatfirstharshword;——andshecaressedthemotherlessone,consoledher,cheeredher,andatlastexplainedtoher——Iknownothow——somethingverywonderfulaboutthelittlefigurine,somethingthatmadeChita’seyesbigwithawe。ThereaftershealwaysregardedtheVirginofWaxasanobjectmysteriousandholy。
And,onebyone,mostofChita’slittleeccentricitiesweregraduallyeliminatedfromherdevelopinglifeandthought。Morerapidlythanordinarychildren,becausesingularlyintelligent,shelearnedtoadaptherselftoallthechangesofhernewenvironment,——retainingonlythatindescribablesomethingwhichtoanexperiencedeyetellsofhereditaryrefinementofhabitandofmind:——anaturalgrace,athorough—bredeaseandeleganceofmovement,aquicknessanddelicacyofperception。
Shebecamestrongagainandactive——activeenoughtoplayagreatdealonthebeach,whenthesunwasnottoofierce;andCarmenmadeacanvasbonnettoshieldherheadandface。Neverhadshebeenallowedtoplaysomuchinthesunbefore;anditseemedtodohergood,thoughherlittlebarefeetandhandsbecamebrownascopper。Atfirst,itmustbeconfessed,sheworriedherfoster—motheragreatdealbyvariousqueermisfortunesandextraordinaryfreaks;——gettingbittenbycrabs,fallingintothebayouwhileinpursuitof"fiddlers,"orlosingherselfattheconclusionofdesperateeffortstorunracesatnightwiththemoon,ortowalktothe"endoftheworld。"Ifshecouldonlyoncegettotheedgeofthesky,shesaid,she"couldclimbup。"
Shewantedtoseethestars,whichwerethesoulsofgoodlittlechildren;andsheknewthatGodwouldletherclimbup。"JustwhatIamafraidof!"——thoughtCarmentoherself;——"Hemightletherclimbup,——alittleghost!"ButonedaynaughtyChitareceivedaterriblelesson,——alastinglesson,——whichtaughtherthevalueofobedience。
Shehadbeenparticularlycautionednottoventureintoacertainpartoftheswampintherearofthegrove,wheretheweedswereverytall;forCarmenwasafraidsomesnakemightbitethechild。
ButChita’sbird—brighteyehaddiscernedagleamofwhiteinthatdirection;andshewantedtoknowwhatitwas。Thewhitecouldonlybeseenfromonepoint,behindthefurthesthouse,wherethegroundwashigh。"Nevergothere,"saidCarmen;"thereisaDeadManthere,——willbiteyou!"Andyet,oneday,whileCarmenwasunusuallybusy,Chitawentthere。
Intheearlydaysofthesettlement,aSpanishfishermanhaddied;andhiscomradeshadbuilthimalittletombwiththesurplusofthesamebricksandothermaterialbroughtdownthebayoufortheconstructionofViosca’scottages。Butnoone,exceptperhapssomewanderingduckhunter,hadapproachedthesepulchreforyears。Highweedsandgrasseswrestledtogetherallaboutit,andrenderedittotallyinvisiblefromthesurroundinglevelofthemarsh。
FiddlersswarmedawayasChitaadvancedoverthemoistsoil,eachupliftingitssinglehugeclawasitsidledoff;——thenfrogsbegantoleapbeforeherasshereachedthethickergrass;——andlong—leggedbrowninsectssprangshoweringtorightandleftasshepartedthetuftsofthethickeningverdure。Asshewenton,thebitter—weedsdisappeared;——jointedgrassesandsinewydarkplantsofatallergrowthroseaboveherhead:shewasalmostdeafenedbythestormofinsectshrilling,andthemosquitoesbecameverywicked。Allatoncesomethinglongandblackandheavywriggledalmostfromunderhernakedfeet,——squirmingsohorriblythatforaminuteortwoshecouldnotmoveforfright。
Butitslunkawaysomewhere,andhiditself;theweedsithadshakenceasedtotrembleinitswake;andhercouragereturned。
Shefeltsuchanexquisiteandfearfulpleasureinthegratificationofthatnaughtycuriosity!Then,quiteunexpectedly——oh!whatastartitgaveher!——thesolitarywhiteobjectburstuponherview,leprousandghastlyastheyawnofacotton—mouth。TombsruinsooninLouisiana;——theoneChitalookeduponseemedreadytotoppledown。Therewasagreatraggedholeatoneend,wherewindandrain,andperhapsalsotheburrowingofcrawfishandofworms,hadloosenedthebricks,andcausedthemtoslideoutofplace。Itseemedveryblackinside;
butChitawantedtoknowwhatwasthere。Shepushedherwaythroughagapinthethinandrottenlineofpickets,andthroughsometallweedswithbigcoarsepinkflowers;——thenshecroucheddownonhandsandkneesbeforetheblackhole,andpeeredin。Itwasnotsoblackinsideasshehadthought;forasunbeamslanteddownthroughachinkintheroof;andshecouldsee!
Abrownhead——withouthair,withouteyes,butwithteeth,eversomanyteeth!——seemedtolaughather;andclosetoitsataToad,thehugestshehadeverseen;andthewhiteskinofhisthroatkeptpuffingoutandgoingin。AndChitascreamedandscreamed,andfledinwildterror,——screamingalltheway,tillCarmenranouttomeetherandcarryherhome。Evenwhensafeinheradoptedmother’sarms,shesobbedwithfright。Tothevividfancyofthechildthereseemedtobesomehideousrelationbetweenthestaringreptileandthebrowndeath’s—head,withitsemptyeyes,anditsnightmare—smile。
Theshockbroughtonafever,——afeverthatlastedseveraldays,andleftherveryweak。Buttheexperiencetaughthertoobey,taughtherthatCarmenknewbestwhatwasforhergood。Italsocausedhertothinkagreatdeal。Carmenhadtoldherthatthedeadpeopleneverfrightenedgoodlittlegirlswhostayedathome。
——"MadrecitaCarmen,"sheasked,"ismymammadead?"
——"Pobrecita!……Yes,myangel。GodcalledhertoHim,——yourdarlingmother。"
——"Madrecita,"sheaskedagain,——heryoungeyesgrowingvastwithhorror,——"ismyownmammanowlikeThat?"……Shepointedtowardtheplaceofthewhitegleam,behindthegreattrees。
——"No,no,no!mydarling!"criedCarmen,appalledherselfbytheghastlyquestion,——"yourmammaiswiththedear,good,lovingGod,wholivesinthebeautifulsky,abovetheclouds,mydarling,beyondthesun!"
ButCarmen’skindeyeswerefulloftears;andthechildreadtheirmeaning。HewhotearethofftheMaskoftheFleshhadlookedintoherfaceoneunutterablemoment:——shehadseenthebrutalTruth,nakedtothebone!
Yettherecametoheralittlethrillofconsolation,causedbythewordsofthetenderfalsehood;forthatwhichshehaddiscernedbydaycouldnotexplaintoherthatwhichshesawalmostnightlyinherslumber。Theface,thevoice,theformofherlovingmotherstilllivedsomewhere,——couldnothaveutterlypassedaway;sincethesweetpresencecametoherindreams,bendingandsmilingoverher,caressingher,speakingtoher,——sometimesgentlychiding,butalwayschidingwithakiss。
Andthenthechildwouldlaughinhersleep,andprattleinCreole,——talkingtotheluminousshadow,tellingthedeadmotherallthelittledeedsandthoughtsoftheday……WhywouldGodonlylethercomeatnight?……HerideaofGodhadbeenfirstdefinedbythesightofaquaintFrenchpictureoftheCreation,——anengravingwhichrepresentedashorelessseaunderablacksky,andoutoftheblacknessasolemnandbeardedgrayheademerging,andacloudyhandthroughwhichstarsglimmered。GodwaslikeoldDoctordeCoulanges,whousedtovisitthehouse,andtalkinavoicelikealowrollofthunder……Atalaterday,whenChitahadbeentoldthatGodwas"everywhereatthesametime"——withoutandwithin,beneathandaboveallthings,——thisideabecamesomewhatchanged。Theawfulbeardedface,thehugeshadowyhand,didnotfadefromherthought;buttheybecamefantasticallyblendedwiththelargerandvaguernotionofsomethingthatfilledtheworldandreachedtothestars,——somethingdiaphanousandincomprehensibleliketheinvisibleair,omnipresentandeverlastinglikethehighblueofheaven