However,heturnedresolutelyawayfromthesubjectIhadintroducedandbegantodiscusstitlesforhisnovel。
  "It’simpossibletofindanythingnew,"hesaid,"absolutelyimpossible。IdeclareIshalltaketonumbers。"
  Ilaughedatthisprosaicnotion,andwewerestilldiscussingthetitlewhenwereachedhome。
  "Don’tsayanythingaboutitatlunch,"hesaidasweentered。"Myfatherdetestsmywriting。"
  Inoddedassentandopenedthesitting—roomdoor——astrongsmellofbrandyinstantlybecameapparent;theMajorsatinthegreenvelvetchair,whichhadbeenwheeledclosetothehearth。Hewasdrunk。
  Derrickgaveanejaculationofutterhopelessness。
  "ThiswillundoallthegoodofBenRhydding!"hesaid。"Howonearthhashemanagedtogetit?"
  TheMajor,however,wasnotsofargoneashelooked;hecaughtuptheremarkandturnedtowardsuswithahideouslaugh。
  "Ah,yes,"hesaid,"that’sthequestion。Buttheoldmanhasstillsomebrains,yousee。I’llbeevenwithyouyet,Derrick。Youneedn’tthinkyou’retohaveitallyourownway。It’smyturnnow。
  You’vedeprivedmeallthistimeoftheonlythingIcareforinlife,andnowIturnthetablesonyou。Titfortat。Oh!yes,I’veturnedyourd——dscribblingstoausefulpurpose,soyouneedn’tcomplain!"
  AllthishadbeenshoutedoutatthetopofhisvoiceandfreelyinterlardedwithexpressionswhichIwillnotrepeat;attheendhebrokeagainintoalaugh,andwithalook,halfidiotic,halfdevilish,pointedtowardsthegrate。
  "GoodHeavens!"Isaid,"whathaveyoudone?"
  BythesideofthechairIsawapieceofbrownpaper,and,catchingitup,readtheaddress——"Messrs。Davison,PaternosterRow";inthefireplacewasahugecharredmass。Derrickcaughthisbreath;hestoopeddownandsnatchedfromthefenderafragmentofpaperslightlyburned,butstillnotcharredbeyondrecognitionliketherest。Thewritingwasquitelegible——itwashisownwriting——thedescriptionoftheRoyalists’attackandPaulWharncliffe’sdefenceofthebridge。Ilookedfromthehalf—burntscrapofpapertothesidetablewhere,onlythepreviousnight,wehadplacedthenovel,andthen,realisingasfarasanybutanauthorcouldrealisethefrightfulthingthathadhappened,IlookedinDerrick’sface。Itswhitefuryappalledme。WhathehadbornehithertofromtheMajor,Godonlyknows,butthiswasthelastdropinthecup。Dailyinsults,ceaselessprovocation,eventhehumiliationsofpersonalviolencehehadbornewithsuperhumanpatience;butthislastinjury,thiswantonlycrueloutrage,thisdeliberatedestructionofanamountofthought,andlabour,andsufferingwhichonlythewriterhimselfcouldfullyestimate——thiswasintolerable。
  WhatmighthavehappenedhadtheMajorbeensoberandinthepossessionofordinaryphysicalstrengthIhardlycaretothink。Asitwas,hisweaknessprotectedhim。Derrick’swrathwasspeechless;
  withonelookofloathingandcontemptatthedrunkenman,hestrodeoutoftheroom,caughtuphishat,andhurriedfromthehouse。
  TheMajorsatchucklingtohimselfforaminuteortwo,butsoonhegrewdrowsy,andbeforelongwassnoringlikeagrampus。Theoldlandladybroughtinlunch,sawthestateofthingsprettyquickly,shookherheadandcommiseratedDerrick。Then,whenshehadlefttheroom,seeingnoprospectthateitherofmycompanionswouldbeinafitstateforlunch,Imadeasolitarymeal,andhadjustfinishedwhenacabstoppedatthedoorandoutsprangDerrick。I
  wentintothepassagetomeethim。
  "TheMajorisasleep,"Iremarked。
  HetooknomorenoticethanifIhadspokenofthecat。
  "I’mgoingtoLondon,"hesaid,makingforthestairs。"Canyougetyourbagready?There’satrainat2。5。"
  Somehowthesuddennessandtheself—controlwithwhichhemadethisannouncementcarriedmebacktothehotelatSouthampton,where,afterlisteningtotheaccountoftheship’sdoctor,hehadannouncedhisintentionoflivingwithhisfather。Formorethantwoyearshehadbornethisawfullife;hehadlostprettynearlyallthattherewastobelostandhehadgainedtheMajor’svindictivehatred。Now,halfmaddenedbypain,andhaving,ashethought,sohopelesslyfailed,hesawnothingforitbuttogo——andthatatonce。
  Ipackedmybag,andthenwenttohelphim。Hewascrammingallhispossessionsintoportmanteauxandboxes;theHoffmanwasalreadypacked,andthewalllookedcuriouslybarewithoutit。ClearlythiswasnovisittoLondon——hewasleavingBathforgood,andwhocouldwonderatit?
  "Ihavearrangedfortheattendantfromthehospitaltocomeinatnightaswellasinthemorning,"hesaid,ashelockedaportmanteauthatwasstuffedalmosttobursting。"What’sthetime?
  Wemustmakehasteorweshalllosethetrain。Do,likeagoodfellow,cramthatheapofthingsintothecarpet—bagwhileIspeaktothelandlady。"
  Atlastwewereoff,rattlingthroughthequietstreetsofBath,andreachingthestationbarelyintimetorushupthelongflightofstairsandspringintoanemptycarriage。NevershallIforgetthatjourney。Thetrainstoppedateverysinglestation,andsometimesinbetween;wewerefivemortalhoursontheroad,andmorethanonceIthoughtDerrickwouldhavefainted。However,hewasnotofthefaintingorder,heonlygrewmoreandmoreghastlyincolourandrigidinexpression。
  Ifeltveryanxiousabouthim,fortheshockandthesuddenangerfollowingonthetroubleaboutFredaseemedtomeenoughtounhingeevenalesssensitivenature。’AtStrife’wasthenovelwhichhad,Ifirmlybelieve,kepthimalivethroughthatawfultimeatBenRhydding,andIbegantofearthattheMajor’sfitofdrunkenmalicemightprovethedestructionoftheauthoraswellasofthebook。
  Everythinghad,asitwere,comeatonceonpoorDerrick;yetI
  don’tknowthathefaredworsethanotherpeopleinthisrespect。
  Life,unfortunately,isformostofusnowell—arrangedstorywithahappytermination;itisachequeredaffairofshadeandsun,andforonebeamoflighttherecomeveryoftenwidepatchesofshadow。
  MenseemtohaveknownthissofarbackasShakespeare’stime,andtohaveobservedthatonewoetrodonanother’sheels,tohavebattlednotwithasinglewave,butwitha’seaoftroubles,’andtohaveremarkedthat’sorrowscomenotsingly,butinbattalions。’
  However,owingIbelievechieflytohisownself—command,andtohisuntiringfacultyfortakinginfinitepainsoverhiswork,Derrickdidnotbreakdown,butpleasantlycheatedmyexpectations。Iwasnotcalledontonursehimthroughafever,andconsumptiondidnotmarkhimforherown。Infact,inthematterofillness,hewasalwaysamostprosaic,unromanticfellow,andneverindulgedinanyoftheeuphoniousandinterestingailments。Inallhislife,I
  believe,heneverwentinforanythingbutthemumps——ofallcomplaintstheleastinteresting——and,maybe,anoccasionalheadache。
  However,allthisisadigression。WeatlengthreachedLondon,andDerricktookaroomabovemine,nowandthendisturbingmewithnocturnalpacingsoverthecreakingboards,but,onthewhole,provinghimselfthebestofcompanions。
  IfIwrotetillDoomsday,Icouldnevermakeyouunderstandhowtheburningofhisnovelaffectedhim——tothisdayitisasubjectI
  instinctivelyavoidwithhim——thoughthere—written’AtStrife’hasbeensuchagrandsuccess。Forhedidre—writethestory,andthatatonce。Hesaidlittle;buttheverynextmorning,inoneofthewindowsofourquietsitting—room,oftenenoughlookingdespairinglyatthegreymonotonyofMontagueStreet,hebeganat’PageI,ChapterI,’andsoworkedpatientlyonformanymonthstore—makeasfarashecouldwhathisdrunkenfatherhadmaliciouslydestroyed。
  BeyondtheunburntparagraphabouttheattackonMondisfield,hehadnothingexceptafewhastilyscribbledideasinhisnote—book,andofcoursetheveryelaborateandcarefulhistoricalnoteswhichhehadmadeontheCivilWarduringmanyyearsofreadingandresearch—
  —forthisperiodhadalwaysbeenafavouritestudywithhim。
  But,asanyauthorwillunderstand,theeffortofre—writingwasimmense,andthis,combinedwithalltheothertroubles,triedDerricktotheutmost。However,hetoiledon,andIhavealwaysthoughtthathisresolute,unyieldingconductwithregardtothatbookprovedwhatamanhewas。
  ChapterVIII。
  "HowoftFate’ssharpestblowshallleavetheestrong,Withsomere—risenecstacyofsong。"
  F。W。H。Myers。
  Astheautumnworeon,weheardnowandthenfromoldMackrillthedoctor。HisreportsoftheMajorwereprettyuniform。Derrickusedtohandthemovertomewhenhehadreadthem;but,bytacitconsent,theMajor’snamewasnevermentioned。
  Meantime,besidesre—writing’AtStrife,’hewasaccumulatingmaterialforhisnextbookandworkingtoverygoodpurpose。Notaminuteofhisdaywasidle;hereadmuch,sawvariousphasesoflifehithertounknowntohim,studied,observed,gainedexperience,andcontrived,Ibelieve,tothinkverylittleandveryguardedlyofFreda。
  But,onChristmasEve,Inoticedachangeinhim——andthatverynighthespoketome。Forsuchanimpressionablefellow,hehadreallyextraordinarytenacity,and,spiteofthecourseofHerbertSpencerthatIhadputhimthrough,heretainedhisunshakenfaithinmanythingswhichtomewereatthattimethemerestlegends。I
  rememberverywelltheargumentsweusedtohaveonthevexedquestionof’Free—will,’andbeingmyselfmoreorlessofafatalist,itannoyedmethatInevercouldintheveryslightestdegreeshakehisconvictionsonthatpoint。Moreover,whenI
  plaguedhimtoomuchwithHerbertSpencer,hehadawayofretaliating,andwouldfoistuponmehisfavouriteauthors。Hewasneveraworshipperofanyonewriter,butalwayshadatleastadozenprophetsinwhosepraisehewasenthusiastic。
  Well,onthisChristmasEve,wehadbeentoseedearoldRavenscroftandhisgrand—daughter,andwewerewalkingbackthroughthequietprecinctsoftheTemple,whenhesaidabruptly:
  "IhavedecidedtogobacktoBathto—morrow。"
  "Haveyouhadaworseaccount?"Iasked,muchstartledatthissuddenannouncement。
  "No,"hereplied,"buttheoneIhadaweekagowasfarfromgoodifyouremember,andIhaveafeelingthatIoughttobethere。"
  AtthatmomentweemergedintotheconfusionofFleetStreet;butwhenwehadcrossedtheroadIbegantoremonstratewithhim,andarguedthefollyoftheideaallthewaydownChanceryLane。
  However,therewasnoshakinghispurpose;Christmasanditsassociationshadmadehislifeintownnolongerpossibleforhim。
  "Imustatanyratetryitagainandseehowitworks,"hesaid。
  AndallIcoulddowastopersuadehimtoleavethebulkofhispossessionsinLondon,"incase,"asheremarked,"theMajorwouldnothavehim。"
  SothenextdayIwaslefttomyselfagainwithnothingtoremindmeofDerrick’sstaybuthispictureswhichstillhungonthewallofoursitting—room。Imadehimpromisetowriteafull,true,andparticularaccountofhisreturn,abona—fideold—fashionedletter,notthehalf—dozenlinesofthesedegeneratedays;andaboutaweeklaterIreceivedthefollowingbudget:
  "DearSydney,——IgotdowntoBathallright,and,thankstoyour’StudyofSociology,’enduredaslow,andcold,anddull,anddepressingjourneywiththethermometerdowntozero,andspiritstocorrespond,withthecountryamonotonouswhite,andtheskyamonotonousgrey,andacompanionwhosmokedthevilesttobaccoyoucanconceive。Theoldplacelooksasbeautifulasever,andtomygreatsatisfactionthehillsroundaboutaregreen。Snow,saveinpictures,isanabomination。MilsomStreetlookedasleep,andGayStreetdecidedlydreary,buttheinhabitantswererousedbymyknock,andtheoldlandladynearlyshookmyhandoff。Myfatherhasanattackofjaundiceandisinamiserablestate。HewasasleepwhenIgothere,andthegoodoldlandlady,thinkingthefrontsitting—roomwouldbefree,hadinvited’company,’i。e。,twoorthreemarrieddaughtersandtheirbelongings;oneofthechildrenbeatsMagnay’s’Carina’astobeauty——heoughttopainther。Happythought,sendhimandprettyMrs。Esperancedownhereonspec。HecanpaintthechildforthenextAcademy,andmeantimeIcouldenjoyhiscompany。Well,allthesegoodfolksbeingjustset—toatroastbeef,Inaturallywouldn’thearofdisturbingthem,andintheendwasobligedtositdowntooandeatatthathourofthedaythehugestdinneryoueversaw——anythingbutvoraciousappetitesoffendedthehostess。Magnay’sfuturemodel,forallitsangelicface,’atetorepletion,’likethefairAmericaninthestory。ThenIwentintomyfather’sroom,andshortlyafterhewokeupandaskedmetogivehimsomeFriedrichshallwater,makingnocommentatallonmyreturn,butjustbehavingasthoughIhadbeenherealltheautumn,sothatIfeltasifthewholeaffairwereadream。Exceptforthisattackofjaundice,hehasbeenmuchasusual,andwhenyounextcomedownyouwillfindussettledintoouroldgroove。ThequietofitafterLondonisextraordinary。ButIbelieveitsuitsthebook,whichgetsonprettyfast。ThisafternoonIwentupLansdowneandrightonpasttheGrandStandtoProspectStile,whichisattheedgeofahighbitoftableland,andlooksoverasplendidstretchofcountry,withtheBristolChannelandtheWelshhillsinthedistance。WhileIwastherethesunmostconsideratelysetingorgeousarray。Youneversawanythinglikeit。ItwasworththejourneyfromLondontoBath,Icanassureyou。TellMagnay,andmayitlurehimdown;alsonamethemodelaforementioned。
  "HowistheoldQ。C。andhisprettygrandchild?ThatquaintoldroomoftheirsintheTemplesomehowtookmyfancy,andthechildwasdivine。Doyouremembermyshowingyou,inagloomynarrowstreethere,ajollyoldwatchmakerwhositsinhisshop—windowandisforeverbendingoversickclocksandwatches?Well,he’sstillsittingthere,asifhehadnevermovedsincewesawhimthatSaturdaymonthsago。Imeantostudyhimforaportrait;hissallow,clean—shaved,wrinkledfacehasawholestoryinit。I
  believeheismarriedtoaXantippewhothrowscoldwateroverhim,bothliterallyandmetaphorically;butheisaphilosopher——I’llstakemyreputationasanobserveronthat——hejustshrugshissturdyoldshoulders,andgoesonmendingclocksandwatches。Ondarkdaysheworksbyagasjet——andthenRembrandtwouldenjoypaintinghim。Ilookathimwhenevermyworldisparticularlyawry,andfindhimhighlybeneficial。Davisonhasforwardedmeto—daytwolettersfromreadersof’Lynwood。’Thefirstisfromaniratefemalewhotakesmetotaskforthedangeroustendencyofthestory,andinsiststhatIhavedrawnimpossiblecircumstancesandimpossiblecharacters。Thesecondisfromanoldclergyman,whowritesapatheticletterofthanks,andtellsmethatitisalmostwordforwordthestoryofasonofhiswhodiedfiveyearsago。
  Query:shallIsendtheiratefemaletheoldman’sletter,andsavemyselfthetroubleofwriting?ButonthewholeIthinknot;itwouldbepearlsbeforeswine。Iwillwritetohermyself。Gladtoseeyouwheneveryoucanrundown。
  "Yoursever,"D。V。"
  ("Neverstruckmebeforewhatpiousinitialsmineare。")
  TheveryeveningIreceivedthisletterIhappenedtobediningattheProbyn’s。Asluckwouldhaveit,prettyMissFredawasstayinginthehouse,andshefelltomyshare。Ialwayslikedher,thoughoflateIhadfeltratherangrywithherforbeingcarriedawaybythegeneralstormofadmirationandsweptbyitintoanengagementwithLawrenceVaughan。Shewasaverypleasant,naturalsortoftalker,andshealwaystreatedmeasanoldfriend。Butsheseemedtome,thatnight,alittlelesssatisfiedthanusualwithlife。
  Perhapsitwasmerelytheeffectoftheblacklacedresswhichshewore,butIfanciedherpalerandthinner,andsomehowsheseemedalleyes。
  "WhereisLawrencenow?"Iasked,aswewentdowntothedining—
  room。
  "HeisstationedatDover,"shereplied。"Hewasuphereforafewhoursyesterday;hecametosaygood—byetome,forIamgoingtoBathnextMondaywithmyfather,whohasbeenveryrheumaticlately—
  —andyouknowBathiscomingintofashionagain,allthedoctorsrecommendit。"
  "MajorVaughanisthere,"Isaid,"andhasfoundthewatersverygood,Ibelieve;anyday,attwelveo’clock,youmayseehimgettingoutofhischairandgoingintothePumpRoomonDerrick’sarm。I
  oftenwonderwhatoutsidersthinkofthem。Itisn’toften,isit,thatoneseesasonabsolutelygivinguphislifetohisinvalidfather?"
  Shelookedalittlestartled。
  "IwishLawrencecouldbemorewithMajorVaughan,"shesaid;"forheishisfather’sfavourite。Youseeheissuchagoodtalker,andDerrick——well,heisabsorbedinhisbooks;andthenhehassuchextravagantnotionsaboutwar,hemustbeaveryuncongenialcompaniontothepoorMajor。"
  Idevouredturbotinwrathfulsilence。Fredaglancedatme。
  "Itistrue,isn’tit,thathehasquitegivenuphislifetowriting,andcaresfornothingelse?"
  "Well,hehasdeliberatelysacrificedhisbestchanceofsuccessbyleavingLondonandburyinghimselfintheprovinces,"Ireplieddrily;"andastocaringfornothingbutwriting,whyhenevergetsmorethantwoorthreehoursadayforit。"AndthenIgaveheraminuteaccountofhisdailyroutine。
  Shebegantolooktroubled。
  "Ihavebeenmisled,"shesaid;"Ihadgainedquiteawrongimpressionofhim。"
  "Veryfewpeopleknowanythingatallabouthim,"Isaidwarmly;
  "youarenotaloneinthat。"
  "Isupposehisnextnovelisfinishednow?"saidFreda;"hetoldmehehadonlyoneortwomorechapterstowritewhenIsawhimafewmonthsagoonhiswayfromBenRhydding。Whatishewritingnow?"
  "Heiswritingthatnoveloveragain,"Ireplied。
  "Overagain?Whatfearfulwasteoftime!"
  "Yes,ithascosthimhundredsofhours’work;itjustshowswhatamanheis,thathehasgonethroughwithitsobravely。"
  "Buthowdoyoumean?Didn’titdo?"
  Rashly,perhaps,yetIthinkunavoidably,Itoldherthetruth。
  "Itwasthebestthinghehadeverwritten,butunfortunatelyitwasdestroyed,burnttoacinder。Thatwasnotverypleasant,wasit,foramanwhonevermakestwocopiesofhiswork?"
  "Itwasfrightful!"saidFreda,hereyesdilating。"Ineverheardawordaboutit。DoesLawrenceknow?"
  "No,hedoesnot;andperhapsIoughtnottohavetoldyou,butI
  wasannoyedatyoursomisunderstandingDerrick。Praynevermentiontheaffair;hewouldwishitkeptperfectlyquiet。"
  "Why?"askedFreda,turninghercleareyesfulluponmine。
  "Because,"Isaid,loweringmyvoice,"becausehisfatherburntit。"
  Shealmostgasped。
  "Deliberately?"
  "Yes,deliberately,"Ireplied。"Hisillnesshasaffectedhistemper,andheissometimeshardlyresponsibleforhisactions。"
  "Oh,Iknewthathewasirritableandhasty,andthatDerrickannoyedhim。Lawrencetoldmethat,longago,"saidFreda。"Butthatheshouldhavedonesuchathingasthat!Itishorrible!
  PoorDerrick,howsorryIamforhim。IhopeweshallseesomethingofthematBath。DoyouknowhowtheMajoris?"
  "IhadaletterabouthimfromDerrickonlythisevening,"I
  replied;"ifyoucaretoseeit,Iwillshowityoulateron。"
  Andby—and—by,inthedrawing—room,IputDerrick’sletterintoherhands,andexplainedtoherhowforafewmonthshehadgivenuphislifeatBath,indespair,butnowhadreturned。
  "Idon’tthinkLawrencecanunderstandthestateofthings,"shesaidwistfully。"Andyethehasbeendownthere。"
  Imadenoreply,andFreda,withasigh,turnedaway。
  AmonthlaterIwentdowntoBathandfound,asmyfriendforetold,everythinggoingonintheoldgroove,exceptthatDerrickhimselfhadanodd,strainedlookabouthim,asifhewerefightingafoebeyondhisstrength。Freda’sarrivalatBathhadbeenveryhardonhim,itwasalmostmorethanhecouldendure。SirRichard,blindasabat,ofcourse,toanythingbelowthesurface,madeapointofseeingsomethingofLawrence’sbrother。AndonthedayofmyarrivalDerrickandIhadhardlysetoutforawalk,whenweranacrosstheoldman。
  SirRichard,thoughrheumaticinthewrists,wasnimbleoffootandaninveteratewalker。HewasgoingwithhisdaughtertoseeoverBeckford’sTower,andinvitedustoaccompanyhim。Derrick,muchagainstthegrain,Ifancy,hadtotalktoFreda,who,inherwinterfursandclose—fittingvelvethat,lookedmorefascinatingthanever,whiletheoldmandescantedtomeonBathwaters,antiquities,etc。,inalong—windedwaythatlastedallupthehill。Wemadeourwayintothecemeteryandmountedthetowerstairs,thinkingofthepastwhenthisdrearyplacehadbeensogorgeouslyfurnished。HereDerrickcontrivedtogetaheadwithSirRichard,andFredalingeredinasortofalcovewithme。
  "Ihavebeensowantingtoseeyou,"shesaid,inanagitatedvoice。
  "Oh,Mr。Wharncliffe,isittruewhatIhaveheardabouttheMajor?
  Doeshedrink?"
  "Whotoldyou?"Isaid,alittleembarrassed。
  "Itwasourlandlady,"saidFreda;"sheisthedaughteroftheMajor’slandlady。AndyoushouldhearwhatshesaysofDerrick!
  Why,hemustbeadownrighthero!AllthetimeIhavebeenhalfdespisinghim"——shechokedbackasob——"hehasbeentryingtosavehisfatherfromwhatwascertaindeathtohim——sotheytoldme。Doyouthinkitistrue?"
  "Iknowitis,"Irepliedgravely。
  "Andabouthisarm——wasthattrue?"
  Isignedanassent。
  Hergreyeyesgrewmoist。
  "Oh,"shecried,"howIhavebeendeceivedandhowlittleLawrenceappreciateshim!IthinkhemustknowthatI’vemisjudgedhim,forheseemssooddandshy,andIdon’tthinkhelikestotalktome。"
  Ilookedsearchinglyintohertruthfulgreyeyes,thinkingofpoorDerrick’sunluckylove—story。
  "Youdonotunderstandhim,"Isaid;"andperhapsitisbestso。"
  Butthewordsandthelookwererash,forallatoncethecolourfloodedherface。Sheturnedquicklyaway,consciousatlastthatthemidsummerdreamofthoseyachtingdayshadtoDerrickbeennodreamatall,butalife—longreality。
  IfeltverysorryforFreda,forshewasnotatallthesortofgirlwhowouldgloryinhavingafellowhopelesslyinlovewithher。I
  knewthatthediscoveryshehadmadewouldbenothingbutasorrowtoher,andcouldguesshowshewouldreproachherselfforthatinnocentpastfancy,which,tillnow,hadseemedtohersofaintandfar—away——almostassomethingbelongingtoanotherlife。Allatonceweheardtheothersdescending,andsheturnedtomewithsuchafrightened,appealinglook,thatIcouldnotpossiblyhavehelpedgoingtotherescue。IplungedabruptlyintoadiscourseonBeckford,andtoldherhowheusedtokeepdiamondsinatea—cup,andamusedhimselfbyarrangingthemonapieceofvelvet。SirRichardfledfromthesoundofmyprosyvoice,and,needlesstosay,Derrickfollowedhim。Weletthemgetwellinadvanceandthenfollowed,Fredasilentanddistraite,buteverynowandthenaskingaquestionabouttheMajor。
  AsforDerrick,evidentlyhewasonguard。HesawagooddealoftheMerrifieldsandwassedulouslyattentivetotheminmanysmallways;butwithFredahewascuriouslyreserved,andifbychancetheydidtalktogether,hetookgoodcaretobringLawrence’snameintotheconversation。Onthewhole,Ibelieveloyaltywashisstrongestcharacteristic,andwantofloyaltyinotherstriedhimmoreseverelythananythingintheworld。
  Asthespringworeon,itbecameevidenttoeveryonethattheMajorcouldnotlastlong。Hisson’swatchfulnessandtheenforcedtemperancewhichthedoctorsinsistedonhadprolongedhislifetoacertainextent,butgraduallyhissufferingsincreasedandhisstrengthdiminished。Atlasthekepthisbedaltogether。
  WhatDerrickboreatthistimenoonecaneverknow。When,onebrightsunshinySaturday,Iwentdowntoseehowhewasgettingon,Ifoundhimwornandhaggard,tooevidentlypayingthepenaltyofsleeplessnightsandthanklesscare。IwasalittleshockedtohearthatLawrencehadbeensummoned,butwhenIwastakenintothesickroomIrealisedthattheyhaddonewiselytosendforthefavouriteson。
  TheMajorwasevidentlydying。
  NevercanIforgetthecrueltyandmalevolencewithwhichhisbloodshoteyesrestedonDerrick,orthepatiencewithwhichthedearoldfellowborehisfather’sscathingsarcasms。ItwaswhileI
  wassittingbythebedthatthelandladyenteredwithatelegram,whichsheputintoDerrick’shand。
  "FromLawrence!"saidthedyingmantriumphantly,"tosaybywhattrainwemayexpecthim。Well?"asDerrickstillreadthemessagetohimself,"can’tyouspeak,youd——didiot?Haveyoulostyourd—
  —dtongue?Whatdoeshesay?"
  "Iamafraidhecannotbeherejustyet,"saidDerrick,tryingtotonedownthecurtmessage;"itseemshecannotgetleave。"
  "Notgetleavetoseehisdyingfather?Whatconfoundednonsense。
  Givemethethinghere";andhesnatchedthetelegramfromDerrickandreaditinaquavering,hoarsevoice:
  "Impossibletogetaway。Amhopelesslytiedhere。Lovetomyfather。Greatlyregrettohearsuchbadnewsofhim。"
  IthinkthatmessagemadetheoldmanrealisetheworthofLawrence’softenexpressedaffectionforhim。Clearlyitwasagreatblowtohim。Hethrewdownthepaperwithoutawordandclosedhiseyes。Forhalfanhourhelaylikethat,andwedidnotdisturbhim。Atlasthelookedup;hisvoicewasfainterandhismannermoregentle。
  "Derrick,"hesaid,"IbelieveI’vedoneyouaninjustice;itisyouwhocaredforme,notLawrence,andI’vestruckyournameoutofmywill——haveleftalltohim。Afterall,thoughyouareoneofthoseconfoundednovelists,you’vedonewhatyoucouldforme。Letsomeonefetchasolicitor——I’llalterit——I’llalterit!"
  Iinstantlyhurriedouttofetchalawyer,butitwasSaturdayafternoon,theofficeswereclosed,andsometimepassedbeforeI
  hadcaughtmyman。Itoldhimaswehastenedbacksomeofthefactsofthecase,andhebroughthiswritingmaterialsintothesickroomandtookdownfromtheMajor’sownlipsthewordswhichwouldhavetheeffectofdividingtheoldman’spossessionsbetweenhistwosons。Dr。Mackrillwasnowpresent;hestoodononesideofthebed,hisfingersonthedyingman’spulse。OntheothersidestoodDerrick,adegreepalerandgraverthanusual,butrevealinglittleofhisrealfeelings。
  "Worditasbrieflyasyoucan,"saidthedoctor。
  Andthelawyerscribbledawayasthoughforhislife,whiletherestofuswaitedinawretchedhushedstateoftension。Intheroomitselftherewasnosoundsavethescratchingofthepenandthelabouredbreathingoftheoldman;butinthenexthousewecouldhearsomeoneplayingawaltz。Somehowitdidnotseemtomeincongruous,foritwas’Sweethearts,’andthathadbeenthefavouritewaltzofBenRhydding,sothatIalwaysconnecteditwithDerrickandhistrouble,andnowthewordsranginmyears:
  "Oh,loveforayear,aweek,aday,Butalas!forthelovethatlovesalway。"
  IfithadnotbeenfortheMajor’sreturnfromIndia,IfirmlybelievedthatDerrickandFredawouldbythistimehavebeenbetrothed。Derrickhadtakenalinewhichnecessarilydividedthem,haddonewhathesawtobehisduty;yetwhatweretheresults?HehadlostFreda,hehadlosthisbook,hehaddamagedhischanceofsuccessasawriter,hehadbeenstruckoutofhisfather’swill,andhehadsufferedunspeakably。Hadanythingwhateverbeengained?
  TheMajorwasdyingunrepentanttoallappearance,ashardandcynicalanoldworldlingasIeversaw。Theonlysparkofgraceheshowedwasthattardyendeavourtomakeafreshwill。Whatgoodhaditallbeen?Whatgood?
  Icouldnotanswerthequestionthen,couldonlycryoutinasortofindignation,"Whatprofitisthereinhisblood?"Butlookingatitnow,IhaveasortofperceptionthattheverylackofapparentprofitablenesswaspartofDerrick’straining,whileif,asInowinclinetothink,thereisahereafterwherethetrainingbegunhereiscontinued,theoldMajorinthehellhemostrichlydeservedwouldhavetheremembranceofhisson’spatienceandconstancyanddevotiontoserveasaguidinglightintheouterdarkness。
  Thelawyernolongerwroteatrailroadspeed;hepushedbackhischair,broughtthewilltothebed,andplacedthepeninthetremblingyellowhandoftheinvalid。
  "Youmustsignyournamehere,"hesaid,pointingwithhisfinger;
  andtheMajorraisedhimselfalittle,andbroughtthepenquaveringlydowntowardsthepaper。WithasortoffascinationI
  watchedthefinely—pointedsteelnib;ittrembledforaninstantortwo,thenthependroppedfromtheconvulsedfingers,andwithacryofintolerableanguishtheMajorfellback。
  Forsomeminutestherewasapainfulstruggle;presentlywecaughtawordortwobetweenthegroansofthedyingman。
  "Toolate!"hegasped,"toolate!"Andthenadreadfulvisionofhorrorsseemedtorisebeforehim,andwithaterrorthatIcanneverforgetheturnedtohissonandclutchedfastholdofhishands:"Derrick!"heshrieked。
  Derrickcouldnotspeak,buthebentlowoverthebedasthoughtoscreenthedyingeyesfromthosehorriblevisions,andwithanoddsortofthrillIsawhimembracehisfather。
  WhenheraisedhisheadtheterrorhaddiedoutoftheMajor’sface;
  allwasover。
  ChapterIX。
  "Todutyfirm,toconsciencetrue,Howevertriedandpressed,InGod’sclearsighthighworkwedo,Ifwebutdooutbest。"
  Lawrencecamedowntothefuneral,andItookgoodcarethatheshouldhearallabouthisfather’slasthours,andImadethesolicitorshowhimtheunsignedwill。Hemadehardlyanycommentonittillwethreewerealonetogether。Thenwithasortofkindlypatronageheturnedtohisbrother——Derrick,itmustberemembered,wastheeldertwin——andsaidpityingly,"Pooroldfellow!itwasratherroughonyouthatthegovernorcouldn’tsignthis;butnevermind,you’llsoon,nodoubt,beearningafortunebyyourbooks;andbesides,whatdoesabachelorwantwithmorethanyou’vealreadyinheritedfromourmother?Whereas,anofficerjustgoingtobemarried,andwiththisconfoundedreputationofherotokeepup,why,Icantellyouitneedseverypennyofit!"
  Derricklookedathisbrothersearchingly。Ihonestlybelievethathedidn’tverymuchcareaboutthemoney,butitcuthimtotheheartthatLawrenceshouldtreathimsoshabbily。Thesoulofgenerosityhimself,hecouldnotunderstandhowanyonecouldframeaspeechsoinfernallymean。
  "Ofcourse,"Ibrokein,"ifDerricklikedtogotolawhecouldnodoubtgethisrights,therearethreewitnesseswhocanprovewhatwastheMajor’srealwish。"
  "Ishallnotgotolaw,"saidDerrick,withadignityofwhichIhadhardlyimaginedhimcapable。"Youspokeofyourmarriage,Lawrence;
  isittobesoon?"
  "Thisautumn,Ihope,"saidLawrence;"atleast,ifIcanovercomeSirRichard’sridiculousnotionthatagirloughtnottomarrytillshe’stwenty—one。He’samostcrotchetyoldfellow,thatfuturefather—in—lawofmine。"
  WhenLawrencehadfirstcomebackfromthewarIhadthoughthimwonderfullyimproved,butalongcourseofspoilingandflatteryhaddonehimaworldofharm。Helikedverymuchtobelionised,andtoseehimnowposingindrawing—rooms,surroundedbyaworshippingthrongofwomen,wasenoughtosickenanysensiblebeing。
  AsforDerrick,thoughhecouldnotbeexpectedtofeelhisbereavementintheordinaryway,yethisfather’sdeathhadbeenagreatshocktohim。ItwasarrangedthataftersettlingvariousmattersinBathheshouldgodowntostaywithhissisterforatime,joiningmeinMontagueStreetlateron。WhilehewasawayinBirmingham,however,anextraordinarychangecameintomyhumdrumlife,andwhenherejoinedmeafewweekslater,I——selfishbrute——
  wassooverwhelmedwiththetroublethathadbefallenmethatI
  thoughtverylittleindeedofhisaffairs。Hetookthisquiteasamatterofcourse,andwhatIshouldhavedonewithouthimIcan’tconceive。However,thisstoryconcernshimandhasnothingtodowithmyextraordinarydilemma;Imerelymentionitasafactwhichbroughtadditionalcaresintohislife。Allthetimehewasdoingwhatcouldbedonetohelpmehewasalsogoingthroughamostbafflingandmiserabletimeamongthepublishers;for’AtStrife,’
  unlikeitspredecessor,wasrejectedbyDavisonandbyfiveotherhouses。Thinkofthis,youcomfortablereaders,asyouliebackinyoureasychairsandleisurelyturnthepagesofthatpopularstory。
  Thebookwhichrepresentedyearsofstudyandlonghoursofhardworkwasfirstburnttoacinder。Itwasre—writtenwithwhatinfinitepainsandtoilfewcanunderstand。Itwasthensixtimestiedupandcarriedwithanxietyandhopetoapublisher’soffice,onlytore—appearsixtimesinMontagueStreet,anunwelcomevisitor,bringingwithitdepressionanddisappointment。
  Derricksaidlittle,butsufferedmuch。However,nothingdauntedhim。Whenitcamebackfromthesixthpublisherhetookittoaseventh,thenreturnedandwroteawaylikeaTrojanathisthirdbook。TheonethingthatneverfailedhimwasthatcuriousconsciousnessthatheHADtowrite;liketheprophetsofold,the’burden’cametohim,andspeakithemust。
  Theseventhpublisherwroteasomewhatdubiousletter:thebook,hethought,hadgreatmerit,butunluckilypeoplewereprejudiced,andhistoricalnovelsrarelymetwithsuccess。However,hewaswillingtotakethestory,andofferedhalfprofits,candidlyadmittingthathehadnogreathopesofalargesale。Derrickinstantlyclosedwiththisoffer,proofscamein,thebookappeared,waswellreceivedlikeitspredecessor,fellintothehandsofoneoftheleadersofSociety,and,totheintensesurpriseofthepublisher,provedtobethenoveloftheyear。Speedilyasecondeditionwascalledfor;then,afterabriefinterval,athirdedition——thistimearationalone—volumeaffair;andthewholelot——6,000Ibelieve——
  wentoffonthedayofpublication。Derrickwasamazed;butheenjoyedhissuccessveryheartily,andIthinknoonecouldsaythathehadleaptintofameatabound。
  Havingdevoured’AtStrife,’peoplebegantodiscoverthemeritsof’Lynwood’sHeritage;’thelibrarieswerebesiegedforit,andacheapeditionwashastilypublished,andanotherandanother,tillthebook,whichatfirsthadbeensuchadeadfailure,rivalled’AtStrife。’Trulyanauthor’scareerisacuriousthing;andpreciselywhythefirstbookfailed,andthesecondsucceeded,noonecouldexplain。
  ItamusedmeverymuchtoseeDerrickturnedintoalion——hewassoessentiallyun—lion—like。Peoplewereforeveraskinghimhowheworked,andIrememberaveryprettygirlsettinguponhimonceatadinner—partywiththeembarrassingrequest:
  "Now,dotellme,Mr。Vaughan,howdoyouwritestories?Iwishyouwouldgivemeagoodreceiptforanovel。"
  Derrickhesitateduneasilyforaminute;finally,withahumoroussmile,hesaid:
  "Well,Ican’texactlytellyou,because,moreorless,novelsgrow;
  butifyouwantareceipt,youmightperhapstryafterthisfashion:——Conceiveyourhero,addasprinklingoffriendsandrelatives,flavourwithwhateversceneryorlocalcolouryouplease,carefullyconsiderwhatcircumstancesaremostlikelytodevelopyourmanintothebestheiscapableof,allowthewholetosimmerinyourbrainaslongasyoucan,andthenserve,whilehot,withinkuponwhiteorbluefoolscap,accordingtotaste。"
  Theyoungladyapplaudedthereceipt,butshesighedalittle,andprobablyrelinquishedallhopeofconcoctinganovelherself;onthewhole,itseemedtoinvolveincessanttakingoftrouble。
  AboutthistimeIremember,too,anotherlittlescene,whichI
  enjoyedamazingly。IlaughnowwhenIthinkofit。Ihappenedtobeatahugeeveningcrush,andrathertomysurprise,cameacrossLawrenceVaughan。Weweretalkingtogether,whenupcameConningtonoftheForeignOffice。"Isay,Vaughan,"hesaid,"LordRemingtonwishestobeintroducedtoyou。"IwatchedtheoldstatesmanalittlecuriouslyashegreetedLawrence,andlistenedtohisfirstwords:"Verygladtomakeyouracquaintance,CaptainVaughan;I
  understandthattheauthorofthatgrandnovel,’AtStrife,’isabrotherofyours。"AndpoorLawrencespentamauvaisquartd’heure,inwardlyfuming,Iknow,attheideathathe,theheroofSaspatarasHill,shouldbeconsideredmerelyas’thebrotherofVaughan,thenovelist。’
  Fate,orperhapsIshouldsaytheeffectofhisownperniciousactions,didnotdealkindlyjustnowwithLawrence。SomehowFredalearntaboutthatwill,and,beingnobread—and—buttermiss,contentmeeklytoadoreherfianceanddeemhimfaultless,she’upandspake’onthesubject,andIfancypoorLawrencemusthavehadanothermauvaisquartd’heure。Itwasnotthis,however,whichledtoafinalbreachbetweenthem;itwassomethingwhichSirRicharddiscoveredwithregardtoLawrence’slifeatDover。Theengagementwasinstantlybrokenoff,andFreda,Iamsure,feltnothingbutrelief。Shewentabroadforsometime,however,andwedidnotseehertilllongafterLawrencehadbeencomfortablymarriedto1,500
  poundsayearandamiddle—agedwidow,whohadlongbeenahero—
  worshipper,andwho,Iamtold,neverallowedanyvisitortoleavethehousewithoutmakingsomeallusiontothememorablebattleofSaspatarasHillandherLawrence’sgallantaction。
  ForthetwoyearsfollowingaftertheMajor’sdeath,DerrickandI,asImentionedbefore,sharedtheroomsinMontagueStreet。Forme,owingtothetroubleIspokeof,theywereyearsofmaddeningsuspenseandpain;butwhatpleasureIdidmanagetoenjoycameentirelythroughthesuccessofmyfriend’sbooksandfromhiscompanionship。ItwasoddthatfromthecareofhisfatherheshouldimmediatelypassontothecareofonewhohadmadesuchadisastrousmistakeasIhadmade。ButIfeelthelesscompunctionatthethoughtoftheamountofsympathyIcalledforatthattime,becauseInoticethatthegivingofsympathyisanecessityforDerrick,andthatwhenthetroublesofotherfolkdonotimmediatelythrustthemselvesintohislifehecarefullyhuntsthemup。DuringthesetwoyearshewasreadingfortheBar——notthatheeverexpectedtodoverymuchasabarrister,buthethoughtitwelltohavesomethingtofallbackon,anddeclaredthatthedrudgeryofthereadingwoulddohimgood。Hewasalsowritingasusual,andheusedtospendtwoeveningsaweekatWhitechapel,wherehetaughtoneoftheclassesinconnectionwithToynbeeHall,andwherehegainedthatknowledgeofEast—endlifewhichisconspicuousinhisthirdbook——’DickCarew。’This,withaneverincreasingandoftenveryburdensomecorrespondence,broughttohimbyhisbooks,andwithafairshareofdinners,’AtHomes,’andsoforth,madehislifeafullone。InaquietsortofwayIbelievehewashappyduringthistime。Butlateron,when,mytroubleatanend,Ihadmigratedtoahouseofmyown,andhewasleftaloneintheMontagueStreetrooms,hisspiritssomehowflagged。
  Fameis,afterall,ahollow,unsatisfyingthingtoamanofhisnature。Heheartilyenjoyedhissuccess,hedelightedinhearingthathisbookshadgivenpleasureorhadbeenofusetoanyone,butnopublicvictorycouldintheleastmakeuptohimforthelosshehadsufferedinhisprivatelife;indeed,Ialmostthinkthereweretimeswhenhistriumphsasanauthorseemedtohimutterlyworthless——daysofdepressionwhenthecongratulationsofhisfriendswerenothingbutamockery。Hehadgainedastrikingsuccess,itistrue,buthehadlostFreda;hewasinthepositionofthestarvingmanwhohasreceivedagiftofbon—bons,butsocravesforbreadthattheyhalfsickenhim。Iusednowandthentowatchhisfacewhen,asoftenhappened,someonesaid:"Whatanenviablefellowyouare,Vaughan,togetonlikethis!"or,"Whatwouldn’tIgivetochangeplaceswithyou!"Hewouldinvariablysmileandturntheconversation;buttherewasalookinhiseyesatsuchtimesthatIhatedtosee——italwaysmademethinkofMrs。
  Browning’spoem,’TheMask’:
  "Behindnoprison—grate,shesaid,Whichslursthesunshinehalfamile,LivecaptivessouncomfortedAssoulsbehindasmile。"
  AstotheMerrifields,therewasnochanceofseeingthem,forSirRichardhadgonetoIndiainsomeofficialcapacity,andnodoubt,aseveryonesaid,theywouldtakegoodcaretomarryFredaoutthere。DerrickhadnotseenhersincethattryingFebruaryatBath,longago。YetIfancyshewasneveroutofhisthoughts。
  Andsotheyearsrolledon,andDerrickworkedawaysteadily,givinghisbookstotheworld,acceptingthecomfortsanddiscomfortsofanauthor’slife,laughingattheoutrageousreportsthatwereincirculationabouthim,yetoccasionally,Ithink,inwardlywincingatthem,andlearningfromthenumberofbeggingletterswhichhereceived,andintowhichheusuallycausedsearchinginquirytobemade,thatthereareintheworldavastnumberofundeservingpoor。
  OnedayIhappenedtomeetLadyProbynatagarden—party;itwasatthesamehouseonCampdenHillwhereIhadoncemetFreda,andperhapsitwastherecollectionofthiswhichpromptedmetoenquireafterher。
  "Shehasnotbeenwell,"saidLadyProbyn,"andtheyaresendingherbacktoEngland;theclimatedoesn’tsuither。Sheistomakeherhomewithusforthepresent,soIamthegainer。Fredahasalwaysbeenmyfavouriteniece。Idon’tknowwhatitisaboutherthatissotaking;sheisnothalfsoprettyastheothers。"
  "Butsomuchmorecharming,"Isaid。"IwondershehasnotmarriedoutinIndia,aseveryoneprophesied。"
  "AndsodoI,"saidheraunt。"However,poorchild,nodoubt,afterhavingbeentwoyearsengagedtothatverydisappointingheroofSaspatarasHill,shewillbeshyofventuringtotrustanyoneagain。"
  "Doyouthinkthataffaireverwentverydeep?"Iventuredtoask。
  "Itseemedtomethatshelookedmiserableduringherengagement,andhappywhenitwasbrokenoff。"
  "Quiteso,"saidLadyProbyn;"Inoticedthesamething。Itwasnothingbutamistake。Theywerenotintheleastsuitedtoeachother。By—the—by,IhearthatDerrickVaughanismarried。"
  "Derrick?"Iexclaimed;"oh,no,thatisamistake。Itismerelyoneofthehundredandonereportsthatareforeverbeingsetafloatabouthim。"
  "ButIsawitinapaper,Iassureyou,"saidLadyProbyn,bynomeansconvinced。
  "Ah,thatmayverywellbe;theywerehardupforaparagraph,nodoubt,andinsertedit。But,asforDerrick,why,howshouldhemarry?HehasbeenmadlyinlovewithMissMerrifieldeversinceourcruiseintheAurora。"
  LadyProbynmadeaninarticulateexclamation。
  "Poorfellow!"shesaid,afteraminute’sthought;"thatexplainsmuchtome。"
  Shedidnotexplainherratherambiguousremark,andbeforelongourtete—a—tetewasinterrupted。
  Nowthatmyfriendwasafull—fledgedbarrister,heandIsharedchambers,andonemorningaboutamonthafterthisgardenparty,DerrickcameinwithafaceofsuchradianthappinessthatI
  couldn’timaginewhatgoodluckhadbefallenhim。
  "Whatdoyouthink?"heexclaimed;"here’saninvitationforacruiseintheAuroraattheendofAugust——tobenearlythesamepartythatwehadyearsago,"andhethrewdowntheletterformetoread。
  Ofcoursetherewasspecialmentionof"myniece,MissMerrifield,whohasjustreturnedfromIndia,andisorderedplentyofsea—air。"
  Icouldhavetoldthatwithoutreadingtheletter,foritwaswrittenquiteclearlyinDerrick’sface。Helookedtenyearsyounger,andifanyofhisadoringreaderscouldhaveseentheprankshewasuptothatmorninginourstaidandrespectablechambers,Iamafraidtheywouldnolongerhavespokenofhim"with’batedbreathandwhisperinghumbleness。"
  Asithappened,I,too,wasabletoleavehomeforafortnightattheendofAugust;andsoourpartyintheAurorareallywasthesame,exceptthatwewereallseveralyearsolder,andletushopewiser,thanonthepreviousoccasion。Consideringallthathadintervened,IwassurprisedthatDerrickwasnotmorealtered;asforFreda,shewasdecidedlypalerthanwhenwefirstmether,butbeforelongsea—airandhappinesswroughtawonderfultransformationinher。
  Inspiteofthepessimistswhoareforeverwritingbooks,evenwritingnovels(moreshametothem),toprovethatthereisnosuchthingashappinessintheworld,wemanagedeveryoneofusheartilytoenjoyourcruise。Itseemedindeedtruethat:
  "Greenleavesandblossoms,andsunnywarmweather,Andsingingandlovingallcomebacktogether。"
  Something,atanyrate,oftheglamourofthosepastdayscamebacktousall,Ifancy,aswelaughedanddozedandidledandtalkedbeneaththesnowywingsoftheAurora,andIcannotsayIwasintheleastsurprisedwhen,onroamingthroughthepleasantgardenwalksinthatuniquelittleislandofTresco,IcameoncemoreuponDerrickandFreda,with,ifyouwillbelieveit,anotherhandfulofwhiteheathergiventothembythatdiscerninggardener!Fredaoncemoreremindedmeofthegirlinthe’BiglowPapers,’andDerrick’sfacewasfullofsuchblissasoneseldomsees。
  Hehadalwayshadtowaitforhisgoodthings,butintheendtheycametohim。However,youmaydependuponit,hedidn’tsaymuch。
  Thatwasneverhisway。Heonlygrippedmyhand,and,withhiseyesallaglowwithhappiness,exclaimed"Congratulateme,oldfellow!"