CHAPTERI—TheGiftBestowedEVERYBODYsaidso。
  Farbeitfrommetoassertthatwhateverybodysaysmustbetrue。
  Everybodyis,often,aslikelytobewrongasright。Inthegeneralexperience,everybodyhasbeenwrongsooften,andithastaken,inmostinstances,suchawearywhiletofindouthowwrong,thattheauthorityisprovedtobefallible。Everybodymaysometimesberight;"butTHAT’Snorule,"astheghostofGilesScrogginssaysintheballad。
  Thedreadword,GHOST,recallsme。
  Everybodysaidhelookedlikeahauntedman。Theextentofmypresentclaimforeverybodyis,thattheyweresofarright。Hedid。
  Whocouldhaveseenhishollowcheek;hissunkenbrillianteye;hisblack—attiredfigure,indefinablygrim,althoughwell—knitandwell—proportioned;hisgrizzledhairhanging,liketangledsea—
  weed,abouthisface,—asifhehadbeen,throughhiswholelife,alonelymarkforthechafingandbeatingofthegreatdeepofhumanity,—butmighthavesaidhelookedlikeahauntedman?
  Whocouldhaveobservedhismanner,taciturn,thoughtful,gloomy,shadowedbyhabitualreserve,retiringalwaysandjocundnever,withadistraughtairofrevertingtoabygoneplaceandtime,oroflisteningtosomeoldechoesinhismind,butmighthavesaiditwasthemannerofahauntedman?
  Whocouldhaveheardhisvoice,slow—speaking,deep,andgrave,withanaturalfulnessandmelodyinitwhichheseemedtosethimselfagainstandstop,butmighthavesaiditwasthevoiceofahauntedman?
  Whothathadseenhiminhisinnerchamber,partlibraryandpartlaboratory,—forhewas,astheworldknew,farandwide,alearnedmaninchemistry,andateacheronwhoselipsandhandsacrowdofaspiringearsandeyeshungdaily,—whothathadseenhimthere,uponawinternight,alone,surroundedbyhisdrugsandinstrumentsandbooks;theshadowofhisshadedlampamonstrousbeetleonthewall,motionlessamongacrowdofspectralshapesraisedtherebytheflickeringofthefireuponthequaintobjectsaroundhim;someofthesephantoms(thereflectionofglassvesselsthatheldliquids),tremblingatheartlikethingsthatknewhispowertouncombinethem,andtogivebacktheircomponentpartstofireandvapour;—whothathadseenhimthen,hisworkdone,andheponderinginhischairbeforetherustedgrateandredflame,movinghisthinmouthasifinspeech,butsilentasthedead,wouldnothavesaidthatthemanseemedhauntedandthechambertoo?
  Whomightnot,byaveryeasyflightoffancy,havebelievedthateverythingabouthimtookthishauntedtone,andthathelivedonhauntedground?
  Hisdwellingwassosolitaryandvault—like,—anold,retiredpartofanancientendowmentforstudents,onceabraveedifice,plantedinanopenplace,butnowtheobsoletewhimofforgottenarchitects;smoke—age—and—weather—darkened,squeezedoneverysidebytheovergrowingofthegreatcity,andchoked,likeanoldwell,withstonesandbricks;itssmallquadrangles,lyingdowninverypitsformedbythestreetsandbuildings,which,incourseoftime,hadbeenconstructedaboveitsheavychimneystalks;itsoldtrees,insultedbytheneighbouringsmoke,whichdeignedtodroopsolowwhenitwasveryfeebleandtheweatherverymoody;itsgrass—
  plots,strugglingwiththemildewedearthtobegrass,ortowinanyshowofcompromise;itssilentpavements,unaccustomedtothetreadoffeet,andeventotheobservationofeyes,exceptwhenastrayfacelookeddownfromtheupperworld,wonderingwhatnookitwas;itssun—dialinalittlebricked—upcorner,wherenosunhadstraggledforahundredyears,butwhere,incompensationforthesun’sneglect,thesnowwouldlieforweekswhenitlaynowhereelse,andtheblackeastwindwouldspinlikeahugehumming—top,wheninallotherplacesitwassilentandstill。
  Hisdwelling,atitsheartandcore—withindoors—athisfireside—wassoloweringandold,socrazy,yetsostrong,withitsworn—eatenbeamsofwoodintheceiling,anditssturdyfloorshelvingdownwardtothegreatoakchimney—piece;soenvironedandhemmedinbythepressureofthetownyetsoremoteinfashion,age,andcustom;soquiet,yetsothunderingwithechoeswhenadistantvoicewasraisedoradoorwasshut,—echoes,notconfinedtothemanylowpassagesandemptyrooms,butrumblingandgrumblingtilltheywerestifledintheheavyairoftheforgottenCryptwheretheNormanarcheswerehalf—buriedintheearth。
  Youshouldhaveseenhiminhisdwellingabouttwilight,inthedeadwintertime。
  Whenthewindwasblowing,shrillandshrewd,withthegoingdownoftheblurredsun。Whenitwasjustsodark,asthattheformsofthingswereindistinctandbig—butnotwhollylost。Whensittersbythefirebegantoseewildfacesandfigures,mountainsandabysses,ambuscadesandarmies,inthecoals。Whenpeopleinthestreetsbentdowntheirheadsandranbeforetheweather。Whenthosewhowereobligedtomeetit,werestoppedatangrycorners,stungbywanderingsnow—flakesalightingonthelashesoftheireyes,—whichfelltoosparingly,andwereblownawaytooquickly,toleaveatraceuponthefrozenground。Whenwindowsofprivatehousescloseduptightandwarm。Whenlightedgasbegantoburstforthinthebusyandthequietstreets,fastblackeningotherwise。
  Whenstraypedestrians,shiveringalongthelatter,lookeddownattheglowingfiresinkitchens,andsharpenedtheirsharpappetitesbysniffingupthefragranceofwholemilesofdinners。
  Whentravellersbylandwerebittercold,andlookedwearilyongloomylandscapes,rustlingandshudderingintheblast。Whenmarinersatsea,outlyinguponicyyards,weretossedandswungabovethehowlingoceandreadfully。Whenlighthouses,onrocksandheadlands,showedsolitaryandwatchful;andbenightedsea—birdsbreastedonagainsttheirponderouslanterns,andfelldead。Whenlittlereadersofstory—books,bythefirelight,trembledtothinkofCassimBabacutintoquarters,hangingintheRobbers’Cave,orhadsomesmallmisgivingsthatthefiercelittleoldwoman,withthecrutch,whousedtostartoutoftheboxinthemerchantAbudah’sbedroom,might,oneofthesenights,befounduponthestairs,inthelong,cold,duskyjourneyuptobed。
  When,inrusticplaces,thelastglimmeringofdaylightdiedawayfromtheendsofavenues;andthetrees,archingoverhead,weresullenandblack。When,inparksandwoods,thehighwetfernandsoddenmoss,andbedsoffallenleaves,andtrunksoftrees,werelosttoview,inmassesofimpenetrableshade。Whenmistsarosefromdyke,andfen,andriver。Whenlightsinoldhallsandincottagewindows,wereacheerfulsight。Whenthemillstopped,thewheelwrightandtheblacksmithshuttheirworkshops,theturnpike—
  gateclosed,theploughandharrowwereleftlonelyinthefields,thelabourerandteamwenthome,andthestrikingofthechurchclockhadadeepersoundthanatnoon,andthechurchyardwicketwouldbeswungnomorethatnight。
  Whentwilighteverywherereleasedtheshadows,prisonedupallday,thatnowclosedinandgatheredlikemusteringswarmsofghosts。
  Whentheystoodlowering,incornersofrooms,andfrownedoutfrombehindhalf—openeddoors。Whentheyhadfullpossessionofunoccupiedapartments。Whentheydanceduponthefloors,andwalls,andceilingsofinhabitedchambers,whilethefirewaslow,andwithdrewlikeebbingwaterswhenitsprangintoablaze。Whentheyfantasticallymockedtheshapesofhouseholdobjects,makingthenurseanogress,therocking—horseamonster,thewonderingchild,half—scaredandhalf—amused,astrangertoitself,—theverytongsuponthehearth,astraddlinggiantwithhisarmsa—
  kimbo,evidentlysmellingthebloodofEnglishmen,andwantingtogrindpeople’sbonestomakehisbread。
  Whentheseshadowsbroughtintothemindsofolderpeople,otherthoughts,andshowedthemdifferentimages。Whentheystolefromtheirretreats,inthelikenessesofformsandfacesfromthepast,fromthegrave,fromthedeep,deepgulf,wherethethingsthatmighthavebeen,andneverwere,arealwayswandering。
  Whenhesat,asalreadymentioned,gazingatthefire。When,asitroseandfell,theshadowswentandcame。Whenhetooknoheedofthem,withhisbodilyeyes;but,letthemcomeorletthemgo,lookedfixedlyatthefire。Youshouldhaveseenhim,then。
  Whenthesoundsthathadarisenwiththeshadows,andcomeoutoftheirlurking—placesatthetwilightsummons,seemedtomakeadeeperstillnessallabouthim。Whenthewindwasrumblinginthechimney,andsometimescrooning,sometimeshowling,inthehouse。
  Whentheoldtreesoutsideweresoshakenandbeaten,thatonequerulousoldrook,unabletosleep,protestednowandthen,inafeeble,dozy,high—up"Caw!"When,atintervals,thewindowtrembled,therustyvaneupontheturret—topcomplained,theclockbeneathitrecordedthatanotherquarterofanhourwasgone,orthefirecollapsedandfellinwitharattle。
  —Whenaknockcameathisdoor,inshort,ashewassittingso,androusedhim。
  "Who’sthat?"saidhe。"Comein!"
  Surelytherehadbeennofigureleaningonthebackofhischair;
  nofacelookingoverit。Itiscertainthatnoglidingfootsteptouchedthefloor,ashelifteduphishead,withastart,andspoke。Andyettherewasnomirrorintheroomonwhosesurfacehisownformcouldhavecastitsshadowforamoment;and,Somethinghadpasseddarklyandgone!
  "I’mhumblyfearful,sir,"saidafresh—colouredbusyman,holdingthedooropenwithhisfootfortheadmissionofhimselfandawoodentrayhecarried,andlettingitgoagainbyverygentleandcarefuldegrees,whenheandthetrayhadgotin,lestitshouldclosenoisily,"thatit’sagoodbitpastthetimeto—night。ButMrs。Williamhasbeentakenoffherlegssooften"—
  "Bythewind?Ay!Ihavehearditrising。"
  "—Bythewind,sir—thatit’samercyshegothomeatall。Ohdear,yes。Yes。Itwasbythewind,Mr。Redlaw。Bythewind。"
  Hehad,bythistime,putdownthetrayfordinner,andwasemployedinlightingthelamp,andspreadingaclothonthetable。
  Fromthisemploymenthedesistedinahurry,tostirandfeedthefire,andthenresumedit;thelamphehadlighted,andtheblazethatroseunderhishand,soquicklychangingtheappearanceoftheroom,thatitseemedasifthemerecominginofhisfreshredfaceandactivemannerhadmadethepleasantalteration。
  "Mrs。Williamisofcoursesubjectatanytime,sir,tobetakenoffherbalancebytheelements。SheisnotformedsuperiortoTHAT。"
  "No,"returnedMr。Redlawgood—naturedly,thoughabruptly。
  "No,sir。Mrs。WilliammaybetakenoffherbalancebyEarth;asforexample,lastSundayweek,whensloppyandgreasy,andshegoingouttoteawithhernewestsister—in—law,andhavingaprideinherself,andwishingtoappearperfectlyspotlessthoughpedestrian。Mrs。WilliammaybetakenoffherbalancebyAir;asbeingonceover—persuadedbyafriendtotryaswingatPeckhamFair,whichactedonherconstitutioninstantlylikeasteam—boat。
  Mrs。WilliammaybetakenoffherbalancebyFire;asonafalsealarmofenginesathermother’s,whenshewenttwomilesinhernightcap。Mrs。WilliammaybetakenoffherbalancebyWater;asatBattersea,whenrowedintothepiersbyheryoungnephew,CharleySwidgerjunior,agedtwelve,whichhadnoideaofboatswhatever。Buttheseareelements。Mrs。WilliammustbetakenoutofelementsforthestrengthofHERcharactertocomeintoplay。"
  Ashestoppedforareply,thereplywas"Yes,"inthesametoneasbefore。
  "Yes,sir。Ohdear,yes!"saidMr。Swidger,stillproceedingwithhispreparations,andcheckingthemoffashemadethem。"That’swhereitis,sir。That’swhatIalwayssaymyself,sir。SuchamanyofusSwidgers!—Pepper。Whythere’smyfather,sir,superannuatedkeeperandcustodianofthisInstitution,eighty—
  sevenyearold。He’saSwidger!—Spoon。"
  "True,William,"wasthepatientandabstractedanswer,whenhestoppedagain。
  "Yes,sir,"saidMr。Swidger。"That’swhatIalwayssay,sir。Youmaycallhimthetrunkofthetree!—Bread。Thenyoucometohissuccessor,myunworthyself—Salt—andMrs。William,Swidgersboth。—Knifeandfork。Thenyoucometoallmybrothersandtheirfamilies,Swidgers,manandwoman,boyandgirl。Why,whatwithcousins,uncles,aunts,andrelationshipsofthis,that,andt’otherdegree,andwhatnotdegree,andmarriages,andlyings—in,theSwidgers—Tumbler—mighttakeholdofhands,andmakearingroundEngland!
  Receivingnoreplyatallhere,fromthethoughtfulmanwhomheaddressed,Mr。Williamapproached,himnearer,andmadeafeintofaccidentallyknockingthetablewithadecanter,torousehim。Themomenthesucceeded,hewenton,asifingreatalacrityofacquiescence。
  "Yes,sir!That’sjustwhatIsaymyself,sir。Mrs。Williamandmehaveoftensaidso。’There’sSwidgersenough,’wesay,’withoutOURvoluntarycontributions,’—Butter。Infact,sir,myfatherisafamilyinhimself—Castors—totakecareof;andithappensallforthebestthatwehavenochildofourown,thoughit’smadeMrs。Williamratherquiet—like,too。Quitereadyforthefowlandmashedpotatoes,sir?Mrs。Williamsaidshe’ddishintenminuteswhenIlefttheLodge。"
  "Iamquiteready,"saidtheother,wakingasfromadream,andwalkingslowlytoandfro。
  "Mrs。Williamhasbeenatitagain,sir!"saidthekeeper,ashestoodwarmingaplateatthefire,andpleasantlyshadinghisfacewithit。Mr。Redlawstoppedinhiswalking,andanexpressionofinterestappearedinhim。
  "WhatIalwayssaymyself,sir。SheWILLdoit!There’samotherlyfeelinginMrs。William’sbreastthatmustandwillhavewent。"
  "Whathasshedone?"
  "Why,sir,notsatisfiedwithbeingasortofmothertoalltheyounggentlementhatcomeupfromavarietyofparts,toattendyourcoursesoflecturesatthisancientfoundation—itssurprisinghowstone—chaneycatchestheheatthisfrostyweather,tobesure!"Hereheturnedtheplate,andcooledhisfingers。
  "Well?"saidMr。Redlaw。
  "That’sjustwhatIsaymyself,sir,"returnedMr。William,speakingoverhisshoulder,asifinreadyanddelightedassent。
  "That’sexactlywhereitis,sir!Thereain’toneofourstudentsbutappearstoregardMrs。Williaminthatlight。Everyday,rightthroughthecourse,theyputstheirheadsintotheLodge,oneafteranother,andhaveallgotsomethingtotellher,orsomethingtoaskher。’Swidge’istheappellationbywhichtheyspeakofMrs。
  Williamingeneral,amongthemselves,I’mtold;butthat’swhatI
  say,sir。Betterbecalledeversofaroutofyourname,ifit’sdoneinrealliking,thanhaveitmadeeversomuchof,andnotcaredabout!What’sanamefor?Toknowapersonby。IfMrs。
  Williamisknownbysomethingbetterthanhername—IalludetoMrs。William’squalitiesanddisposition—nevermindhername,thoughitISSwidger,byrights。Let’emcallherSwidge,Widge,Bridge—Lord!LondonBridge,Blackfriars,Chelsea,Putney,Waterloo,orHammersmithSuspension—iftheylike。"
  Thecloseofthistriumphantorationbroughthimandtheplatetothetable,uponwhichhehalflaidandhalfdroppedit,withalivelysenseofitsbeingthoroughlyheated,justasthesubjectofhispraisesenteredtheroom,bearinganothertrayandalantern,andfollowedbyavenerableoldmanwithlonggreyhair。
  Mrs。William,likeMr。William,wasasimple,innocent—lookingperson,inwhosesmoothcheeksthecheerfulredofherhusband’sofficialwaistcoatwasverypleasantlyrepeated。ButwhereasMr。
  William’slighthairstoodonendalloverhishead,andseemedtodrawhiseyesupwithitinanexcessofbustlingreadinessforanything,thedarkbrownhairofMrs。Williamwascarefullysmootheddown,andwavedawayunderatrimtidycap,inthemostexactandquietmannerimaginable。WhereasMr。William’sverytrousershitchedthemselvesupattheankles,asifitwerenotintheiriron—greynaturetorestwithoutlookingaboutthem,Mrs。
  William’sneatly—floweredskirts—redandwhite,likeherownprettyface—wereascomposedandorderly,asiftheverywindthatblewsohardoutofdoorscouldnotdisturboneoftheirfolds。Whereashiscoathadsomethingofafly—awayandhalf—offappearanceaboutthecollarandbreast,herlittlebodicewassoplacidandneat,thatthereshouldhavebeenprotectionforher,init,hadsheneededany,withtheroughestpeople。Whocouldhavehadthehearttomakesocalmabosomswellwithgrief,orthrobwithfear,orflutterwithathoughtofshame!Towhomwoulditsreposeandpeacehavenotappealedagainstdisturbance,liketheinnocentslumberofachild!
  "Punctual,ofcourse,Milly,"saidherhusband,relievingherofthetray,"oritwouldn’tbeyou。Here’sMrs。William,sir!—Helookslonelierthaneverto—night,"whisperingtohiswife,ashewastakingthetray,"andghostlieraltogether。"
  Withoutanyshowofhurryornoise,oranyshowofherselfeven,shewassocalmandquiet,Millysetthedishesshehadbroughtuponthetable,—Mr。William,aftermuchclatteringandrunningabout,havingonlygainedpossessionofabutter—boatofgravy,whichhestoodreadytoserve。
  "Whatisthattheoldmanhasinhisarms?"askedMr。Redlaw,ashesatdowntohissolitarymeal。
  "Holly,sir,"repliedthequietvoiceofMilly。
  "That’swhatIsaymyself,sir,"interposedMr。William,strikinginwiththebutter—boat。"Berriesissoseasonabletothetimeofyear!—Browngravy!"
  "AnotherChristmascome,anotheryeargone!"murmuredtheChemist,withagloomysigh。"Morefiguresinthelengtheningsumofrecollectionthatweworkandworkattoourtorment,tillDeathidlyjumblesalltogether,andrubsallout。So,Philip!"breakingoff,andraisinghisvoiceasheaddressedtheoldman,standingapart,withhisglisteningburdeninhisarms,fromwhichthequietMrs。Williamtooksmallbranches,whichshenoiselesslytrimmedwithherscissors,anddecoratedtheroomwith,whileheragedfather—in—lawlookedonmuchinterestedintheceremony。
  "Mydutytoyou,sir,"returnedtheoldman。"Shouldhavespokebefore,sir,butknowyourways,Mr。Redlaw—proudtosay—andwaittillspoketo!MerryChristmas,sir,andHappyNewYear,andmanyof’em。Havehadaprettymanyof’emmyself—ha,ha!—andmaytakethelibertyofwishing’em。I’meighty—seven!"
  "Haveyouhadsomanythatweremerryandhappy?"askedtheother。
  "Ay,sir,eversomany,"returnedtheoldman。
  "Ishismemoryimpairedwithage?Itistobeexpectednow,"saidMr。Redlaw,turningtotheson,andspeakinglower。
  "Notamorselofit,sir,"repliedMr。William。"That’sexactlywhatIsaymyself,sir。Thereneverwassuchamemoryasmyfather’s。He’sthemostwonderfulmanintheworld。Hedon’tknowwhatforgettingmeans。It’stheveryobservationI’malwaysmakingtoMrs。William,sir,ifyou’llbelieveme!"
  Mr。Swidger,inhispolitedesiretoseemtoacquiesceatallevents,deliveredthisasiftherewerenoiotaofcontradictioninit,anditwereallsaidinunboundedandunqualifiedassent。
  TheChemistpushedhisplateaway,and,risingfromthetable,walkedacrosstheroomtowheretheoldmanstoodlookingatalittlesprigofhollyinhishand。
  "Itrecallsthetimewhenmanyofthoseyearswereoldandnew,then?"hesaid,observinghimattentively,andtouchinghimontheshoulder。"Doesit?"
  "Ohmany,many!"saidPhilip,halfawakingfromhisreverie。"I’meighty—seven!"
  "Merryandhappy,wasit?"askedtheChemistinalowvoice。
  "Merryandhappy,oldman?"
  "Maybeashighasthat,nohigher,"saidtheoldman,holdingouthishandalittlewayabovethelevelofhisknee,andlookingretrospectivelyathisquestioner,"whenIfirstremember’em!
  Cold,sunshinydayitwas,outa—walking,whensomeone—itwasmymotherassureasyoustandthere,thoughIdon’tknowwhatherblessedfacewaslike,forshetookillanddiedthatChristmas—
  time—toldmetheywerefoodforbirds。Theprettylittlefellowthought—that’sme,youunderstand—thatbirds’eyesweresobright,perhaps,becausetheberriesthattheylivedoninthewinterweresobright。Irecollectthat。AndI’meighty—seven!"
  "Merryandhappy!"musedtheother,bendinghisdarkeyesuponthestoopingfigure,withasmileofcompassion。"Merryandhappy—
  andrememberwell?"
  "Ay,ay,ay!"resumedtheoldman,catchingthelastwords。"I
  remember’emwellinmyschooltime,yearafteryear,andallthemerry—makingthatusedtocomealongwiththem。Iwasastrongchapthen,Mr。Redlaw;and,ifyou’llbelieveme,hadn’tmymatchatfootballwithintenmile。Where’smysonWilliam?Hadn’tmymatchatfootball,William,withintenmile!"
  That’swhatIalwayssay,father!"returnedthesonpromptly,andwithgreatrespect。"YouAREaSwidger,ifevertherewasoneofthefamily!"
  "Dear!"saidtheoldman,shakinghisheadasheagainlookedattheholly。"Hismother—mysonWilliam’smyyoungestson—andI,havesatamongem’all,boysandgirls,littlechildrenandbabies,manyayear,whentheberrieslikethesewerenotshininghalfsobrightallroundus,astheirbrightfaces。Manyof’emaregone;
  she’sgone;andmysonGeorge(oureldest,whowasherpridemorethanalltherest!)isfallenverylow:butIcanseethem,whenI
  lookhere,aliveandhealthy,astheyusedtobeinthosedays;andIcanseehim,thankGod,inhisinnocence。It’sablessedthingtome,ateighty—seven。"
  Thekeenlookthathadbeenfixeduponhimwithsomuchearnestness,hadgraduallysoughttheground。
  "Whenmycircumstancesgottobenotsogoodasformerly,throughnotbeinghonestlydealtby,andIfirstcomeheretobecustodian,"saidtheoldman,"—whichwasupwardsoffiftyyearsago—where’smysonWilliam?Morethanhalfacenturyago,William!"
  "That’swhatIsay,father,"repliedtheson,aspromptlyanddutifullyasbefore,"that’sexactlywhereitis。Twotimesought’sanought,andtwicefiveten,andthere’sahundredof’em。"
  "Itwasquiteapleasuretoknowthatoneofourfounders—ormorecorrectlyspeaking,"saidtheoldman,withagreatgloryinhissubjectandhisknowledgeofit,"oneofthelearnedgentlementhathelpedendowusinQueenElizabeth’stime,forwewerefoundedaforeherday—leftinhiswill,amongtheotherbequestshemadeus,somuchtobuyholly,forgarnishingthewallsandwindows,comeChristmas。Therewassomethinghomelyandfriendlyinit。
  Beingbutstrangehere,then,andcomingatChristmastime,wetookalikingforhisverypicterthathangsinwhatusedtobe,anciently,aforeourtenpoorgentlemencommutedforanannualstipendinmoney,ourgreatDinnerHall。—Asedategentlemaninapeakedbeard,witharuffroundhisneck,andascrollbelowhim,inoldEnglishletters,’Lord!keepmymemorygreen!’Youknowallabouthim,Mr。Redlaw?"
  "Iknowtheportraithangsthere,Philip。"
  "Yes,sure,it’sthesecondontheright,abovethepanelling。I
  wasgoingtosay—hehashelpedtokeepMYmemorygreen,Ithankhim;forgoingroundthebuildingeveryyear,asI’madoingnow,andfresheningupthebareroomswiththesebranchesandberries,freshensupmybareoldbrain。Oneyearbringsbackanother,andthatyearanother,andthoseothersnumbers!Atlast,itseemstomeasifthebirth—timeofourLordwasthebirth—timeofallI
  haveeverhadaffectionfor,ormournedfor,ordelightedin,—andthey’reaprettymany,forI’meighty—seven!"
  "Merryandhappy,"murmuredRedlawtohimself。
  Theroombegantodarkenstrangely。
  "Soyousee,sir,"pursuedoldPhilip,whosehalewintrycheekhadwarmedintoaruddierglow,andwhoseblueeyeshadbrightenedwhilehespoke,"Ihaveplentytokeep,whenIkeepthispresentseason。Now,where’smyquietMouse?Chattering’sthesinofmytimeoflife,andthere’shalfthebuildingtodoyet,ifthecolddon’tfreezeusfirst,orthewinddon’tblowusaway,orthedarknessdon’tswallowusup。"
  ThequietMousehadbroughthercalmfacetohisside,andsilentlytakenhisarm,beforehefinishedspeaking。
  "Comeaway,mydear,"saidtheoldman。"Mr。Redlawwon’tsettletohisdinner,otherwise,tillit’scoldasthewinter。Ihopeyou’llexcusemeramblingon,sir,andIwishyougoodnight,and,onceagain,amerry—"
  "Stay!"saidMr。Redlaw,resuminghisplaceatthetable,more,itwouldhaveseemedfromhismanner,toreassuretheoldkeeper,thaninanyremembranceofhisownappetite。"Sparemeanothermoment,Philip。William,youweregoingtotellmesomethingtoyourexcellentwife’shonour。Itwillnotbedisagreeabletohertohearyoupraiseher。Whatwasit?"
  "Why,that’swhereitis,yousee,sir,"returnedMr。WilliamSwidger,lookingtowardshiswifeinconsiderableembarrassment。
  "Mrs。William’sgothereyeuponme。"
  "Butyou’renotafraidofMrs。William’seye?"
  "Why,no,sir,"returnedMr。Swidger,"that’swhatIsaymyself。
  Itwasn’tmadetobeafraidof。Itwouldn’thavebeenmadesomild,ifthatwastheintention。ButIwouldn’tliketo—Milly!—
  him,youknow。DownintheBuildings。"
  Mr。William,standingbehindthetable,andrummagingdisconcertedlyamongtheobjectsuponit,directedpersuasiveglancesatMrs。William,andsecretjerksofhisheadandthumbatMr。Redlaw,asalluringhertowardshim。
  "Him,youknow,mylove,"saidMr。William。"DownintheBuildings。Tell,mydear!You’retheworksofShakespeareincomparisonwithmyself。DownintheBuildings,youknow,mylove。
  —Student。"
  "Student?"repeatedMr。Redlaw,raisinghishead。
  "That’swhatIsay,sir!"criedMr。William,intheutmostanimationofassent。"Ifitwasn’tthepoorstudentdownintheBuildings,whyshouldyouwishtohearitfromMrs。William’slips?
  Mrs。William,mydear—Buildings。"
  "Ididn’tknow,"saidMilly,withaquietfrankness,freefromanyhasteorconfusion,"thatWilliamhadsaidanythingaboutit,orI
  wouldn’thavecome。Iaskedhimnotto。It’sasickyounggentleman,sir—andverypoor,Iamafraid—whoistooilltogohomethisholiday—time,andlives,unknowntoanyone,inbutacommonkindoflodgingforagentleman,downinJerusalemBuildings。That’sall,sir。"
  "WhyhaveIneverheardofhim?"saidtheChemist,risinghurriedly。"Whyhashenotmadehissituationknowntome?Sick!
  —givememyhatandcloak。Poor!—whathouse?—whatnumber?"
  "Oh,youmustn’tgothere,sir,"saidMilly,leavingherfather—in—
  law,andcalmlyconfrontinghimwithhercollectedlittlefaceandfoldedhands。
  "Notgothere?"
  "Ohdear,no!"saidMilly,shakingherheadasatamostmanifestandself—evidentimpossibility。"Itcouldn’tbethoughtof!"
  "Whatdoyoumean?Whynot?"
  "Why,yousee,sir,"saidMr。WilliamSwidger,persuasivelyandconfidentially,"that’swhatIsay。Dependuponit,theyounggentlemanwouldneverhavemadehissituationknowntooneofhisownsex。Mrs。Williamshasgotintohisconfidence,butthat’squitedifferent。TheyallconfideinMrs。William;theyalltrustHER。Aman,sir,couldn’thavegotawhisperoutofhim;butwoman,sir,andMrs。Williamcombined—!"
  "Thereisgoodsenseanddelicacyinwhatyousay,William,"
  returnedMr。Redlaw,observantofthegentleandcomposedfaceathisshoulder。Andlayinghisfingeronhislip,hesecretlyputhispurseintoherhand。
  "Ohdearno,sir!"criedMilly,givingitbackagain。"Worseandworse!Couldn’tbedreamedof!"
  Suchastaidmatter—of—facthousewifeshewas,andsounruffledbythemomentaryhasteofthisrejection,that,aninstantafterwards,shewastidilypickingupafewleaveswhichhadstrayedfrombetweenherscissorsandherapron,whenshehadarrangedtheholly。
  Finding,whensherosefromherstoopingposture,thatMr。Redlawwasstillregardingherwithdoubtandastonishment,shequietlyrepeated—lookingabout,thewhile,foranyotherfragmentsthatmighthaveescapedherobservation:
  "Ohdearno,sir!Hesaidthatofalltheworldhewouldnotbeknowntoyou,orreceivehelpfromyou—thoughheisastudentinyourclass。Ihavemadenotermsofsecrecywithyou,butItrusttoyourhonourcompletely。"
  "Whydidhesayso?"
  "IndeedIcan’ttell,sir,"saidMilly,afterthinkingalittle,"becauseIamnotatallclever,youknow;andIwantedtobeusefultohiminmakingthingsneatandcomfortableabouthim,andemployedmyselfthatway。ButIknowheispoor,andlonely,andI
  thinkheissomehowneglectedtoo。—Howdarkitis!"
  Theroomhaddarkenedmoreandmore。TherewasaveryheavygloomandshadowgatheringbehindtheChemist’schair。
  "Whatmoreabouthim?"heasked。
  "Heisengagedtobemarriedwhenhecanaffordit,"saidMilly,"andisstudying,Ithink,toqualifyhimselftoearnaliving。I
  haveseen,alongtime,thathehasstudiedhardanddeniedhimselfmuch。—Howverydarkitis!"
  "It’sturnedcolder,too,"saidtheoldman,rubbinghishands。
  "There’sachillanddismalfeelingintheroom。Where’smysonWilliam?William,myboy,turnthelamp,androusethefire!"
  Milly’svoiceresumed,likequietmusicverysoftlyplayed:
  "Hemutteredinhisbrokensleepyesterdayafternoon,aftertalkingtome"(thiswastoherself)"aboutsomeonedead,andsomegreatwrongdonethatcouldneverbeforgotten;butwhethertohimortoanotherperson,Idon’tknow。NotBYhim,Iamsure。"
  "And,inshort,Mrs。William,yousee—whichshewouldn’tsayherself,Mr。Redlaw,ifshewastostopheretillthenewyearafterthisnextone—"saidMr。William,cominguptohimtospeakinhisear,"hasdonehimworldsofgood!Blessyou,worldsofgood!Allathomejustthesameasever—myfathermadeassnugandcomfortable—notacrumboflittertobefoundinthehouse,ifyouweretoofferfiftypoundreadymoneyforit—Mrs。Williamapparentlyneveroutoftheway—yetMrs。Williambackwardsandforwards,backwardsandforwards,upanddown,upanddown,amothertohim!"
  Theroomturneddarkerandcolder,andthegloomandshadowgatheringbehindthechairwasheavier。
  "Notcontentwiththis,sir,Mrs。Williamgoesandfinds,thisverynight,whenshewascominghome(whyit’snotaboveacoupleofhoursago),acreaturemorelikeayoungwildbeastthanayoungchild,shiveringuponadoor—step。WhatdoesMrs。Williamdo,butbringsithometodryit,andfeedit,andkeepittillouroldBountyoffoodandflannelisgivenaway,onChristmasmorning!Ifiteverfeltafirebefore,it’sasmuchaseveritdid;forit’ssittingintheoldLodgechimney,staringatoursasifitsravenouseyeswouldnevershutagain。It’ssittingthere,atleast,"saidMr。William,correctinghimself,onreflection,"unlessit’sbolted!"
  "Heavenkeepherhappy!"saidtheChemistaloud,"andyoutoo,Philip!andyou,William!Imustconsiderwhattodointhis。I
  maydesiretoseethisstudent,I’llnotdetainyouanylongernow。
  Good—night!"
  "Ithank’ee,sir,Ithank’ee!"saidtheoldman,"forMouse,andformysonWilliam,andformyself。Where’smysonWilliam?
  William,youtakethelanternandgoonfirst,throughthemlongdarkpassages,asyoudidlastyearandtheyearafore。Haha!I
  remember—thoughI’meighty—seven!’Lord,keepmymemorygreen!’
  It’saverygoodprayer,Mr。Redlaw,thatofthelearnedgentlemaninthepeakedbeard,witharuffroundhisneck—hangsup,secondontherightabovethepanelling,inwhatusedtobe,aforeourtenpoorgentlemencommuted,ourgreatDinnerHall。’Lord,keepmymemorygreen!’It’sverygoodandpious,sir。Amen!Amen!"
  Astheypassedoutandshuttheheavydoor,which,howevercarefullywithheld,firedalongtrainofthunderingreverberationswhenitshutatlast,theroomturneddarker。
  Ashefellamusinginhischairalone,thehealthyhollywitheredonthewall,anddropped—deadbranches。
  Asthegloomandshadowthickenedbehindhim,inthatplacewhereithadbeengatheringsodarkly,ittook,byslowdegrees,—oroutofittherecame,bysomeunreal,unsubstantialprocess—nottobetracedbyanyhumansense,—anawfullikenessofhimself!
  Ghastlyandcold,colourlessinitsleadenfaceandhands,butwithhisfeatures,andhisbrighteyes,andhisgrizzledhair,anddressedinthegloomyshadowofhisdress,itcameintohisterribleappearanceofexistence,motionless,withoutasound。AsHEleanedhisarmupontheelbowofhischair,ruminatingbeforethefire,ITleaneduponthechair—back,closeabovehim,withitsappallingcopyofhisfacelookingwherehisfacelooked,andbearingtheexpressionhisfacebore。
  This,then,wastheSomethingthathadpassedandgonealready。
  Thiswasthedreadcompanionofthehauntedman!
  Ittook,forsomemoments,nomoreapparentheedofhim,thanheofit。TheChristmasWaitswereplayingsomewhereinthedistance,and,throughhisthoughtfulness,heseemedtolistentothemusic。
  Itseemedtolistentoo。
  Atlengthhespoke;withoutmovingorliftinguphisface。
  "Hereagain!"hesaid。
  "Hereagain,"repliedthePhantom。
  "Iseeyouinthefire,"saidthehauntedman;"Ihearyouinmusic,inthewind,inthedeadstillnessofthenight。"
  ThePhantommoveditshead,assenting。
  "Whydoyoucome,tohauntmethus?"
  "IcomeasIamcalled,"repliedtheGhost。
  "No。Unbidden,"exclaimedtheChemist。
  "Unbiddenbeit,"saidtheSpectre。"Itisenough。Iamhere。"
  Hithertothelightofthefirehadshoneonthetwofaces—ifthedreadlineamentsbehindthechairmightbecalledaface—bothaddressedtowardsit,asatfirst,andneitherlookingattheother。But,now,thehauntedmanturned,suddenly,andstaredupontheGhost。TheGhost,assuddeninitsmotion,passedtobeforethechair,andstaredonhim。
  Thelivingman,andtheanimatedimageofhimselfdead,mightsohavelooked,theoneupontheother。Anawfulsurvey,inalonelyandremotepartofanemptyoldpileofbuilding,onawinternight,withtheloudwindgoingbyuponitsjourneyofmystery—
  whenceorwhither,nomanknowingsincetheworldbegan—andthestars,inunimaginablemillions,glitteringthroughit,frometernalspace,wheretheworld’sbulkisasagrain,anditshoaryageisinfancy。
  "Lookuponme!"saidtheSpectre。"Iamhe,neglectedinmyyouth,andmiserablypoor,whostroveandsuffered,andstillstroveandsuffered,untilIhewedoutknowledgefromtheminewhereitwasburied,andmaderuggedstepsthereof,formywornfeettorestandriseon。"
  "IAMthatman,"returnedtheChemist。
  "Nomother’sself—denyinglove,"pursuedthePhantom,"nofather’scounsel,aidedME。Astrangercameintomyfather’splacewhenI
  wasbutachild,andIwaseasilyanalienfrommymother’sheart。
  Myparents,atthebest,wereofthatsortwhosecaresoonends,andwhosedutyissoondone;whocasttheiroffspringloose,early,asbirdsdotheirs;and,iftheydowell,claimthemerit;and,ifill,thepity。"
  Itpaused,andseemedtotemptandgoadhimwithitslook,andwiththemannerofitsspeech,andwithitssmile。
  "Iamhe,"pursuedthePhantom,"who,inthisstruggleupward,foundafriend。Imadehim—wonhim—boundhimtome!Weworkedtogether,sidebyside。Alltheloveandconfidencethatinmyearlieryouthhadhadnooutlet,andfoundnoexpression,I
  bestowedonhim。"
  "Notall,"saidRedlaw,hoarsely。
  "No,notall,"returnedthePhantom。"Ihadasister。"
  Thehauntedman,withhisheadrestingonhishands,replied"I
  had!"ThePhantom,withanevilsmile,drewclosertothechair,andrestingitschinuponitsfoldedhands,itsfoldedhandsupontheback,andlookingdownintohisfacewithsearchingeyes,thatseemedinstinctwithfire,wenton:
  "SuchglimpsesofthelightofhomeasIhadeverknown,hadstreamedfromher。Howyoungshewas,howfair,howloving!I
  tookhertothefirstpoorroofthatIwasmasterof,andmadeitrich。Shecameintothedarknessofmylife,andmadeitbright。—
  Sheisbeforeme!"
  "Isawher,inthefire,butnow。Ihearherinmusic,inthewind,inthedeadstillnessofthenight,"returnedthehauntedman。
  "DIDheloveher?"saidthePhantom,echoinghiscontemplativetone。"Ithinkhedid,once。Iamsurehedid。Betterhadshelovedhimless—lesssecretly,lessdearly,fromtheshallowerdepthsofamoredividedheart!"
  "Letmeforgetit!"saidtheChemist,withanangrymotionofhishand。"Letmeblotitfrommymemory!"
  TheSpectre,withoutstirring,andwithitsunwinking,crueleyesstillfixeduponhisface,wenton:
  "Adream,likehers,stoleuponmyownlife。"
  "Itdid,"saidRedlaw。
  "Alove,aslikehers,"pursuedthePhantom,"asmyinferiornaturemightcherish,aroseinmyownheart。Iwastoopoortobinditsobjecttomyfortunethen,byanythreadofpromiseorentreaty。Ilovedherfartoowell,toseektodoit。But,morethaneverIhadstriveninmylife,Istrovetoclimb!Onlyaninchgained,broughtmesomethingnearertotheheight。Itoiledup!Inthelatepausesofmylabouratthattime,—mysister(sweetcompanion!)stillsharingwithmetheexpiringembersandthecoolinghearth,—whendaywasbreaking,whatpicturesofthefuturedidIsee!"
  "Isawthem,inthefire,butnow,"hemurmured。"Theycomebacktomeinmusic,inthewind,inthedeadstillnessofthenight,intherevolvingyears。"
  "—Picturesofmyowndomesticlife,inaftertime,withherwhowastheinspirationofmytoil。Picturesofmysister,madethewifeofmydearfriend,onequalterms—forhehadsomeinheritance,wenone—picturesofoursoberedageandmellowedhappiness,andofthegoldenlinks,extendingbacksofar,thatshouldbindus,andourchildren,inaradiantgarland,"saidthePhantom。
  "Pictures,"saidthehauntedman,"thatweredelusions。Whyisitmydoomtorememberthemtoowell!"
  "Delusions,"echoedthePhantominitschangelessvoice,andglaringonhimwithitschangelesseyes。"Formyfriend(inwhosebreastmyconfidencewaslockedasinmyown),passingbetweenmeandthecentreofthesystemofmyhopesandstruggles,wonhertohimself,andshatteredmyfrailuniverse。Mysister,doublydear,doublydevoted,doublycheerfulinmyhome,livedontoseemefamous,andmyoldambitionsorewardedwhenitsspringwasbroken,andthen—"
  "Thendied,"heinterposed。"Died,gentleasever;happy;andwithnoconcernbutforherbrother。Peace!"
  ThePhantomwatchedhimsilently。
  "Remembered!"saidthehauntedman,afterapause。"Yes。Sowellremembered,thatevennow,whenyearshavepassed,andnothingismoreidleormorevisionarytomethantheboyishlovesolongoutlived,Ithinkofitwithsympathy,asifitwereayoungerbrother’sorason’s。SometimesIevenwonderwhenherheartfirstinclinedtohim,andhowithadbeenaffectedtowardsme。—Notlightly,once,Ithink。—Butthatisnothing。Earlyunhappiness,awoundfromahandIlovedandtrusted,andalossthatnothingcanreplace,outlivesuchfancies。"
  "Thus,"saidthePhantom,"IbearwithinmeaSorrowandaWrong。
  ThusIpreyuponmyself。Thus,memoryismycurse;and,ifIcouldforgetmysorrowandmywrong,Iwould!"
  "Mocker!"saidtheChemist,leapingup,andmaking,withawrathfulhand,atthethroatofhisotherself。"WhyhaveIalwaysthattauntinmyears?"
  "Forbear!"exclaimedtheSpectreinanawfulvoice。"LayahandonMe,anddie!"
  Hestoppedmidway,asifitswordshadparalysedhim,andstoodlookingonit。Ithadglidedfromhim;ithaditsarmraisedhighinwarning;andasmilepassedoveritsunearthlyfeatures,asitreareditsdarkfigureintriumph。
  "IfIcouldforgetmysorrowandwrong,Iwould,"theGhostrepeated。"IfIcouldforgetmysorrowandmywrong,Iwould!"
  "Evilspiritofmyself,"returnedthehauntedman,inalow,tremblingtone,"mylifeisdarkenedbythatincessantwhisper。"
  "Itisanecho,"saidthePhantom。
  "Ifitbeanechoofmythoughts—asnow,indeed,Iknowitis,"
  rejoinedthehauntedman,"whyshouldI,therefore,betormented?
  Itisnotaselfishthought。Isufferittorangebeyondmyself。
  Allmenandwomenhavetheirsorrows,—mostofthemtheirwrongs;
  ingratitude,andsordidjealousy,andinterest,besettingalldegreesoflife。Whowouldnotforgettheirsorrowsandtheirwrongs?"
  "Whowouldnot,truly,andbehappierandbetterforit?"saidthePhantom。
  "Theserevolutionsofyears,whichwecommemorate,"proceededRedlaw,"whatdoTHEYrecall!Arethereanymindsinwhichtheydonotre—awakensomesorrow,orsometrouble?Whatistheremembranceoftheoldmanwhowashereto—night?Atissueofsorrowandtrouble。"
  "Butcommonnatures,"saidthePhantom,withitsevilsmileuponitsglassyface,"unenlightenedmindsandordinaryspirits,donotfeelorreasononthesethingslikemenofhighercultivationandprofounderthought。"
  "Tempter,"answeredRedlaw,"whosehollowlookandvoiceIdreadmorethanwordscanexpress,andfromwhomsomedimforeshadowingofgreaterfearisstealingovermewhileIspeak,Ihearagainanechoofmyownmind。"
  "ReceiveitasaproofthatIampowerful,"returnedtheGhost。
  "HearwhatIoffer!Forgetthesorrow,wrong,andtroubleyouhaveknown!"
  "Forgetthem!"herepeated。
  "Ihavethepowertocanceltheirremembrance—toleavebutveryfaint,confusedtracesofthem,thatwilldieoutsoon,"returnedtheSpectre。"Say!Isitdone?"
  "Stay!"criedthehauntedman,arrestingbyaterrifiedgesturetheupliftedhand。"Itremblewithdistrustanddoubtofyou;andthedimfearyoucastuponmedeepensintoanamelesshorrorIcanhardlybear。—Iwouldnotdeprivemyselfofanykindlyrecollection,oranysympathythatisgoodforme,orothers。WhatshallIlose,ifIassenttothis?Whatelsewillpassfrommyremembrance?"
  "Noknowledge;noresultofstudy;nothingbuttheintertwistedchainoffeelingsandassociations,eachinitsturndependenton,andnourishedby,thebanishedrecollections。Thosewillgo。"
  "Aretheysomany?"saidthehauntedman,reflectinginalarm。
  "Theyhavebeenwonttoshowthemselvesinthefire,inmusic,inthewind,inthedeadstillnessofthenight,intherevolvingyears,"returnedthePhantomscornfully。
  "Innothingelse?"
  ThePhantomhelditspeace。
  Buthavingstoodbeforehim,silent,foralittlewhile,itmovedtowardsthefire;thenstopped。
  "Decide!"itsaid,"beforetheopportunityislost!"
  "Amoment!IcallHeaventowitness,"saidtheagitatedman,"thatIhaveneverbeenahaterofanykind,—nevermorose,indifferent,orhard,toanythingaroundme。If,livingherealone,Ihavemadetoomuchofallthatwasandmighthavebeen,andtoolittleofwhatis,theevil,Ibelieve,hasfallenonme,andnotonothers。
  But,iftherewerepoisoninmybody,shouldInot,possessedofantidotesandknowledgehowtousethem,usethem?Iftherebepoisoninmymind,andthroughthisfearfulshadowIcancastitout,shallInotcastitout?"
  "Say,"saidtheSpectre,"isitdone?"
  "Amomentlonger!"heansweredhurriedly。"IWOULDFORGETITIFI
  COULD!HaveIthoughtthat,alone,orhasitbeenthethoughtofthousandsuponthousands,generationaftergeneration?Allhumanmemoryisfraughtwithsorrowandtrouble。Mymemoryisasthememoryofothermen,butothermenhavenotthischoice。Yes,I
  closethebargain。Yes!IWILLforgetmysorrow,wrong,andtrouble!"
  "Say,"saidtheSpectre,"isitdone?"
  "Itis!"
  "ITIS。Andtakethiswithyou,manwhomIhererenounce!ThegiftthatIhavegiven,youshallgiveagain,gowhereyouwill。
  Withoutrecoveringyourselfthepowerthatyouhaveyieldedup,youshallhenceforthdestroyitslikeinallwhomyouapproach。Yourwisdomhasdiscoveredthatthememoryofsorrow,wrong,andtroubleisthelotofallmankind,andthatmankindwouldbethehappier,initsothermemories,withoutit。Go!Beitsbenefactor!Freedfromsuchremembrance,fromthishour,carryinvoluntarilytheblessingofsuchfreedomwithyou。Itsdiffusionisinseparableandinalienablefromyou。Go!Behappyinthegoodyouhavewon,andinthegoodyoudo!"
  ThePhantom,whichhadhelditsbloodlesshandabovehimwhileitspoke,asifinsomeunholyinvocation,orsomeban;andwhichhadgraduallyadvanceditseyessoclosetohis,thathecouldseehowtheydidnotparticipateintheterriblesmileuponitsface,butwereafixed,unalterable,steadyhorrormeltedbeforehimandwasgone。
  Ashestoodrootedtothespot,possessedbyfearandwonder,andimaginingheheardrepeatedinmelancholyechoes,dyingawayfainterandfainter,thewords,"Destroyitslikeinallwhomyouapproach!"ashrillcryreachedhisears。Itcame,notfromthepassagesbeyondthedoor,butfromanotherpartoftheoldbuilding,andsoundedlikethecryofsomeoneinthedarkwhohadlosttheway。
  Helookedconfusedlyuponhishandsandlimbs,asiftobeassuredofhisidentity,andthenshoutedinreply,loudlyandwildly;fortherewasastrangenessandterroruponhim,asifhetoowerelost。
  Thecryresponding,andbeingnearer,hecaughtupthelamp,andraisedaheavycurtaininthewall,bywhichhewasaccustomedtopassintoandoutofthetheatrewherehelectured,—whichadjoinedhisroom。Associatedwithyouthandanimation,andahighamphitheatreoffaceswhichhisentrancecharmedtointerestinamoment,itwasaghostlyplacewhenallthislifewasfadedoutofit,andstareduponhimlikeanemblemofDeath。