InthisironicalestimateoftheirrelationGlennardfoundhimselfstrangelyrelievedofallconcernastohiswife’sfeelingsforFlamel。FromanOlympianpinnacleofindifferencehecalmlysurveyedtheirinoffensiveantics。Itwassurprisinghowhischeapeningofhiswifeputhimateasewithhimself。Farasheandshewerefromeachothertheyyethad,inasense,thetacitnearnessofcomplicity。Yes,theywereaccomplices;hecouldnomorebejealousofherthanshecoulddespisehim。Thejealousythatwouldoncehaveseemedabluronherwhitenessnowappearedlikeatributetoidealsinwhichhenolongerbelieved……
  Glennardwaslittlegiventoexploringtheoutskirtsofliterature。Healwaysskippedthe"literarynotices"inthepapersandhehadsmallleisurefortheintermittentpleasuresoftheperiodical。Hehadthereforenonotionoftheprolongedreverberationswhichthe"AubynLetters"hadawakenedintheprecinctsofcriticism。Whenthebookceasedtobetalkedabouthesupposedithadceasedtoberead;andthisapparentsubsidenceoftheagitationaboutitbroughtthereassuringsensethathehadexaggerateditsvitality。Theconviction,ifitdidnoteasehisconscience,atleastofferedhimtherelativereliefofobscurity:
  hefeltlikeanoffendertakendownfromthepilloryandthrustintothesoothingdarknessofacell。
  Butoneevening,whenAlexahadlefthimtogotoadance,hechancedtoturnoverthemagazinesonhertable,andthecopyoftheHoroscope,towhichhesettleddownwithhiscigar,confrontedhim,onitsfirstpage,withaportraitofMargaretAubyn。Itwasareproductionofthephotographthathadstoodsolongonhisdesk。Thedesiccatingairofmemoryhadturnedherintothemereabstractionofawoman,andthisunexpectedevocationseemedtobringhernearerthanshehadeverbeeninlife。Wasitbecauseheunderstoodherbetter?Helookedlongintohereyes;littlepersonaltraitsreachedouttohimlikecaresses——thetireddroopofherlids,herquickwayofleaningforwardasshespoke,themovementsofherlongexpressivehands。Allthatwasfeminineinher,thequalityhehadalwaysmissed,stoletowardhimfromherunreproachfulgaze;andnowthatitwastoolatelifehaddevelopedinhimthesubtlerperceptionswhichcoulddetectitineventhispoorsemblanceofherself。Foramomenthefoundconsolationinthethoughtthat,atanycost,theyhadthusbeenbroughttogether;thenafloodofshamerushedoverhim。Facetofacewithher,hefelthimselflaidbaretotheinmostfoldofconsciousness。Theshamewasdeep,butitwasarenovatinganguish;hewaslikeamanwhomintolerablepainhasrousedfromthecreepinglethargyofdeath……
  HerosenextmorningtoasfreshasenseoflifeasthoughhishourofmutecommunionwithMargaretAubynhadbeenamoreexquisiterenewaloftheirearliermeetings。Hiswakingthoughtwasthathemustseeheragain;andasconsciousnessaffirmeditselfhefeltanintensefearoflosingthesenseofhernearness。Butshewasstillclosetohim;herpresenceremainedthesolerealityinaworldofshadows。Allthroughhisworkinghourshewasre—livingwithincredibleminutenesseveryincidentoftheirobliteratedpast;asamanwhohasmasteredthespiritofaforeigntongueturnswithrenewedwondertothepageshisyouthhasploddedover。Inthislucidityofretrospectionthemosttrivialdetailhaditssignificance,andtheraptureofrecoverywasembitteredtoGlennardbytheperceptionofallthathehadmissed。Hehadbeenpitiably,grotesquelystupid;andtherewasironyinthethoughtthat,butforthecrisisthroughwhichhewaspassing,hemighthavelivedonincomplacentignoranceofhisloss。Itwasasthoughshehadboughthimwithherblood……
  ThateveningheandAlexadinedalone。Afterdinnerhefollowedhertothedrawing—room。Henolongerfelttheneedofavoidingher;hewashardlyconsciousofherpresence。Afterafewwordstheylapsedintosilenceandhesatsmokingwithhiseyesonthefire。Itwasnotthathewasunwillingtotalktoher;hefeltacuriousdesiretobeaskindaspossible;buthewasalwaysforgettingthatshewasthere。Herfullbrightpresence,throughwhichthecurrentsoflifeflowedsowarmly,hadgrownastenuousasashadow,andhesawsofarbeyondher——
  Presentlysheroseandbegantomoveabouttheroom。Sheseemedtobelookingforsomethingandherousedhimselftoaskwhatshewanted。
  "OnlythelastnumberoftheHoroscope。IthoughtI’dleftitonthistable。"Hesaidnothing,andshewenton:"Youhaven’tseenit?"
  "No,"hereturnedcoldly。Themagazinewaslockedinhisdesk。
  Hiswifehadmovedtothemantel—piece。Shestoodfacinghimandashelookeduphemethertentativegaze。"Iwasreadinganarticleinit——areviewofMrs。Aubyn’sletters,"sheadded,slowly,withherdeep,deliberateblush。
  Glennardstoopedtotosshiscigarintothefire。Hefeltasavagewishthatshewouldnotspeaktheotherwoman’sname;
  nothingelseseemedtomatter。"Youseemtodoalotofreading,"
  hesaid。
  Shestillearnestlyconfrontedhim。"Iwaskeepingthisforyou——
  Ithoughtitmightinterestyou,"shesaid,withanairofgentleinsistence。
  Hestoodupandturnedaway。Hewassuresheknewthathehadtakenthereviewandhefeltthathewasbeginningtohateheragain。
  "Ihaven’ttimeforsuchthings,"hesaid,indifferently。Ashemovedtothedoorheheardhertakeaprecipitatestepforward;
  thenshepausedandsankwithoutspeakingintothechairfromwhichhehadrisen。
  XI
  AsGlennard,intherawFebruarysunlight,mountedtheroadtothecemetery,hefeltthebeatitudethatcomeswithanabruptcessationofphysicalpain。Hehadreachedthepointwhereself—
  analysisceases;theimpulsethatmovedhimwaspurelyintuitive。
  Hedidnotevenseekareasonforit,beyondtheobviousonethathisdesiretostandbyMargaretAubyn’sgravewaspromptedbynoattemptatasentimentalreparation,butratherbythevagueneedtoaffirminsomewaytherealityofthetiebetweenthem。
  TheironicalpromiscuityofdeathhadbroughtMrs。Aubynbacktosharethenarrowhospitalityofherhusband’slastlodging;butthoughGlennardknewshehadbeenburiednearNewYorkhehadnevervisitedhergrave。Hewasoppressed,ashenowthreadedthelongavenues,byachillingvisionofherreturn。Therewasnofamilytofollowherhearse;shehaddiedalone,asshehadlived;
  andthe"distinguishedmourners"whohadformedtheescortofthefamouswriterknewnothingofthewomantheywerecommittingtothegrave。Glennardcouldnotevenrememberatwhatseasonshehadbeenburied;buthismoodindulgedthefancythatitmusthavebeenonsomesuchdayofharshsunlight,theincisiveFebruarybrightnessthatgivesperspicuitywithoutwarmth。Thewhiteavenuesstretchedbeforehiminterminably,linedwithstereotypedemblemsofaffliction,asthoughalltheplatitudeseverutteredhadbeenturnedtomarbleandsetupovertheunresistingdead。
  Hereandthere,nodoubt,afrigidurnoraninsipidangelimprisonedsomefine—fibredgrief,asthemosthackneyedwordsmaybecomethevehicleofraremeanings;butforthemostparttheendlessalignmentofmonumentsseemedtoembodythoseeasygeneralizationsaboutdeaththatdonotdisturbthereposeoftheliving。Glennard’seye,ashefollowedthewayindicatedtohim,hadinstinctivelysoughtsomelowmoundwithaquietheadstone。
  Hehadforgottenthatthedeadseldomplantheirownhouses,andwithapanghediscoveredthenamehesoughtonthecyclopeanbaseofagraniteshaftrearingitsaggressiveheightattheangleoftwoavenues。
  "Howshewouldhavehatedit!"hemurmured。
  Abenchstoodnearandheseatedhimself。Themonumentrosebeforehimlikesomepretentiousuninhabiteddwelling;hecouldnotbelievethatMargaretAubynlaythere。ItwasaSundaymorningandblackfiguresmovedamongthepaths,placingflowersonthefrost—boundhillocks。Glennardnoticedthattheneighboringgraveshadbeenthusnewlydressed;andhefanciedablindstirofexpectancythroughthesod,asthoughthebaremoundsspreadaparchedsurfacetothatcommemorativerain。Herosepresentlyandwalkedbacktotheentranceofthecemetery。
  Severalgreenhousesstoodnearthegates,andturninginatthefirstheaskedforsomeflowers。
  "Anythingintheemblematicline?"askedtheanaemicmanbehindthedrippingcounter。
  Glennardshookhishead。
  "Justcutflowers?Thisway,then。"Thefloristunlockedaglassdoorandledhimdownamoistgreenaisle。Thehotairwaschokedwiththescentofwhiteazaleas,whitelilies,whitelilacs;alltheflowerswerewhite;theywerelikeaprolongation,amysticalefflorescence,ofthelongrowsofmarbletombstones,andtheirperfumeseemedtocoveranodorofdecay。TherichatmospheremadeGlennarddizzy。Asheleanedinthedoorpost,waitingfortheflowers,hehadapenetratingsenseofMargaretAubyn’snearness——nottheimponderablepresenceofhisinnervision,butalifethatbeatwarminhisarms……
  Thesharpaircaughthimashesteppedoutintoitagain。Hewalkedbackandscatteredtheflowersoverthegrave。Theedgesofthewhitepetalsshrivelledlikeburntpaperinthecold;andashewatchedthemtheillusionofhernearnessfaded,shrankbackfrozen。
  XII
  Themotiveofhisvisittothecemeteryremainedundefinedsaveasafinaleffortofescapefromhiswife’sinexpressiveacceptanceofhisshame。Itseemedtohimthataslongashecouldkeephimselfalivetothatshamehewouldnotwhollyhavesuccumbedtoitsconsequences。Hischieffearwasthatheshouldbecomethecreatureofhisact。Hiswife’sindifferencedegradedhim;itseemedtoputhimonalevelwithhisdishonor。MargaretAubynwouldhaveabhorredthedeedinproportiontoherpityfortheman。Thesenseofherpotentialpitydrewhimbacktoher。Theonewomanknewbutdidnotunderstand;theother,itsometimesseemed,understoodwithoutknowing。
  Initslastdisguiseofretrospectiveremorse,hisself—pityaffectedadesireforsolitudeandmeditation。Helosthimselfinmorbidmusings,infutilevisionsofwhatlifewithMargaretAubynmighthavebeen。Thereweremomentswhen,inthestrangedislocationofhisview,thewronghehaddoneherseemedatiebetweenthem。
  Toindulgetheseemotionshefellintothehabit,onSundayafternoons,ofsolitarywalksprolongedtillafterdusk。Thedayswerelengthening,therewasatouchofspringintheair,andhiswanderingsnowusuallyledhimtotheParkanditsoutlyingregions。
  OneSunday,tiredofaimlesslocomotion,hetookacabattheParkgatesandletitcarryhimouttotheRiversideDrive。Itwasagrayafternoonstreakedwitheastwind。Glennard’scabadvancedslowly,andasheleanedback,gazingwithabsentintentnessatthedesertedpathsthatwoundunderbareboughsbetweengrassbanksofprematurevividness,hisattentionwasarrestedbytwofigureswalkingaheadofhim。Thiscouple,whohadthepathtothemselves,movedatanunevenpace,asthoughadaptingtheirgaittoaconversationmarkedbymeditativeintervals。Nowandthentheypaused,andinoneofthesepausesthelady,turningtowardhercompanion,showedGlennardtheoutlineofhiswife’sprofile。
  ThemanwasFlamel。
  ThebloodrushedtoGlennard’sforehead。Hesatupwithajerkandpushedbackthelidintheroofofthehansom;butwhenthecabmanbentdownhedroppedintohisseatwithoutspeaking。Then,becomingconsciousoftheprolongedinterrogationoftheliftedlid,hecalledout——"Turn——driveback——anywhere——I’minahurry——"
  Asthecabswungroundhecaughtalastglimpseofthetwofigures。Theyhadnotmoved;Alexa,withbenthead,stoodlistening。
  "MyGod,myGod——"hegroaned。
  Itwashideous——itwasabominable——hecouldnotunderstandit。
  Thewomanwasnothingtohim——lessthannothing——yetthebloodhummedinhisearsandhungacloudbeforehim。Heknewitwasonlythestirringoftheprimalinstinct,thatithadnomoretodowithhisreasoningselfthananyrefleximpulseofthebody;
  butthatmerelyloweredanguishtodisgust。Yes,itwasdisgusthefelt——almostaphysicalnausea。Thepoisonousfumesoflifewereinhislungs。Hewassick,unutterablysick……
  Hedrovehomeandwenttohisroom。Theyweregivingalittledinnerthatnight,andwhenhecamedowntheguestswerearriving。
  Helookedathiswife:herbeautywasextraordinary,butitseemedtohimthebeautyofasmoothseaalonganunlitcoast。Shefrightenedhim。
  Hesatlatethatnightinhisstudy。Heheardtheparlor—maidlockthefrontdoor;thenhiswifewentupstairsandthelightswereputout。Hisbrainwaslikesomegreatemptyhallwithanechoinit;onethoughtreverberatedendlessly……Atlengthhedrewhischairtothetableandbegantowrite。Headdressedanenvelopeandthenslowlyre—readwhathehadwritten。
  "MYDEARFLAMEL"
  "Manyapologiesfornotsendingyousoonertheenclosedcheck,whichrepresentsthecustomarypercentageonthesaleoftheLetters。"
  "Trustingyouwillexcusetheoversight,"Yourstruly,"STEPHENGLENNARD。"
  Helethimselfoutofthedarkenedhouseanddroppedtheletterinthepost—boxatthecorner。
  Thenextafternoonhewasdetainedlateathisoffice,andashewaspreparingtoleaveheheardsomeoneaskingforhimintheouterroom。HeseatedhimselfagainandFlamelwasshownin。
  Thetwomen,asGlennardpushedasideanobstructivechair,hadamomenttomeasureeachother;thenFlameladvanced,anddrawingouthisnote—case,laidaslipofpaperonthedesk。
  "Mydearfellow,whatonearthdoesthismean?"Glennardrecognizedhischeck。
  "ThatIwasremiss,simply。Itoughttohavegonetoyoubefore。"
  Flamel’stonehadbeenthatofunaffectedsurprise,butatthishisaccentchangedandheasked,quickly:"Onwhatground?"
  Glennardhadmovedawayfromthedeskandstoodleaningagainstthecalf—backedvolumesofthebookcase。"OnthegroundthatyousoldMrs。Aubyn’slettersforme,andthatIfindtheintermediaryinsuchcasesisentitledtoapercentageonthesale。"
  Flamelpausedbeforeanswering。"Youfind,yousay。It’sarecentdiscovery?"
  "Obviously,frommynotsendingthechecksooner。YouseeI’mnewtothebusiness。"
  "Andsincewhenhaveyoudiscoveredthattherewasanyquestionofbusiness,asfarasIwasconcerned?"
  Glennardflushedandhisvoiceroseslightly。"Areyoureproachingmefornothavingremembereditsooner?"
  Flamel,whohadspokenintherapidrepressedtoneofamanonthevergeofanger,staredamomentatthisandthen,inhisnaturalvoice,rejoined,good—humoredly,"Uponmysoul,Idon’tunderstandyou!"
  ThechangeofkeyseemedtodisconcertGlennard。"It’ssimpleenough——"hemuttered。
  "Simpleenough——yourofferingmemoneyinreturnforafriendlyservice?Idon’tknowwhatyourotherfriendsexpect!"
  "Someofmyfriendswouldn’thaveundertakenthejob。Thosewhowouldhavedonesowouldprobablyhaveexpectedtobepaid。"
  HeliftedhiseyestoFlamelandthetwomenlookedateachother。
  Flamelhadturnedwhiteandhislipsstirred,butheheldhistemperatenote。"Ifyoumeantoimplythatthejobwasnotaniceone,youlayyourselfopentotheretortthatyouproposedit。
  ButformypartI’veneverseen,Inevershallsee,anyreasonfornotpublishingtheletters。"
  "That’sjustit!"
  "What——?"
  "Thecertaintyofyournotseeingwaswhatmademegotoyou。
  Whenaman’sgotstolengoodstopawnhedoesn’ttakethemtothepolice—station。"
  "Stolen?"Flamelechoed。"Theletterswerestolen?"
  Glennardburstintoacoarselaugh。"Howmuchlongertoyouexpectmetokeepupthatpretenceabouttheletters?Youknewwellenoughtheywerewrittentome。"
  Flamellookedathiminsilence。"Werethey?"hesaidatlength。
  "Ididn’tknowit。"
  "Anddidn’tsuspectit,Isuppose,"Glennardsneered。
  Theotherwasagainsilent;thenhesaid,"Imayremindyouthat,supposingIhadfeltanycuriosityaboutthematter,Ihadnowayoffindingoutthattheletterswerewrittentoyou。Younevershowedmetheoriginals。"
  "Whatdoesthatprove?Therewerefiftywaysoffindingout。
  It’sthekindofthingonecaneasilydo。"
  Flamelglancedathimwithcontempt。"Ourideasprobablydifferastowhatamancaneasilydo。Itwouldnothavebeeneasyforme。"
  Glennard’sangerventeditselfinthewordsuppermostinhisthought。"Itmay,then,interestyoutohearthatmywifeDOES
  knowabouttheletters——hasknownforsomemonths……"
  "Ah,"saidtheother,slowly。Glennardsawthat,inhisblindclutchataweapon,hehadseizedtheonemostapttowound。
  Flamel’smuscleswereundercontrol,buthisfaceshowedtheundefinablechangeproducedbytheslowinfiltrationofpoison。
  Everyimplicationthatthewordscontainedhadreacheditsmark;
  butGlennardfeltthattheirobviousintentionwaslostintheanguishofwhattheysuggested。HewassurenowthatFlamelwouldneverhavebetrayedhim;buttheinferenceonlymadeawideroutletforhisanger。HepausedbreathlesslyforFlameltospeak。
  "Ifsheknows,it’snotthroughme。"ItwaswhatGlennardhadwaitedfor。
  "Throughyou,byGod?Whosaiditwasthroughyou?DoyousupposeIleaveittoyou,ortoanybodyelse,forthatmatter,tokeepmywifeinformedofmyactions?Ididn’tsupposeevensuchegregiousconceitasyourscoulddeludeamantothatdegree!"
  Strugglingforafootholdinthesmalllandslideofhisdignity,headded,inasteadiertone,"Mywifelearnedthefactsfromme。"
  Flamelreceivedthisinsilence。Theother’soutbreakseemedtohavereinforcedhisself—control,andwhenhespokeitwaswithadeliberationimplyingthathiscoursewaschosen。"InthatcaseI
  understandstillless——"
  "Stillless——?"
  "Themeaningofthis。"Hepointedtothecheck。"WhenyoubegantospeakIsupposedyouhadmeantitasabribe;nowIcanonlyinferitwasintendedasarandominsult。Ineithercase,here’smyanswer。"
  HetoretheslipofpaperintwoandtossedthefragmentsacrossthedesktoGlennard。Thenheturnedandwalkedoutoftheoffice。
  Glennarddroppedhisheadonhishands。Ifhehadhopedtorestorehisself—respectbythesimpleexpedientofassailingFlamel’s,theresulthadnotjustifiedhisexpectation。Theblowhehadstruckhadbluntedtheedgeofhisanger,andtheunforeseenextentofthehurtinflicteddidnotalterthefactthathisweaponhadbrokeninhishands。HesawnowthathisrageagainstFlamelwasonlythelastprojectionofapassionateself—
  disgust。Thisconsciousnessdidnotdullhisdislikeoftheman;
  itsimplymadereprisalsineffectual。Flamel’sunwillingnesstoquarrelwithhimwasthelaststageofhisabasement。
  Inthelightofthisfinalhumiliationhisassumptionofhiswife’sindifferencestruckhimashardlysofatuousasthesentimentalresuscitationofhispast。Hehadbeenlivinginafactitiousworldwhereinhisemotionswerethesycophantsofhisvanity,anditwaswithinstinctivereliefthathefeltitsruinscrashabouthishead。
  Itwasnearlydarkwhenhelefthisoffice,andhewalkedslowlyhomewardinthecompletementalabeyancethatfollowsonsuchacrisis。Hewasnotawarethathewasthinkingofhiswife;yetwhenhereachedhisowndoorhefoundthat,intheinvoluntaryreadjustmentofhisvision,shehadoncemorebecomethecentralpointofconsciousness。
  XIII
  Ithadneverbeforeoccurredtohimthatshemight,afterall,havemissedthepurportofthedocumenthehadputinherway。
  Whatif,inherhurriedinspectionofthepapers,shehadpasseditoverasrelatedtotheprivatebusinessofsomeclient?What,forinstance,wastopreventherconcludingthatGlennardwasthecounseloftheunknownpersonwhohadsoldthe"AubynLetters。"
  Thesubjectwasonenotlikelytofixherattention——shewasnotacuriouswoman。
  Glennardatthispointlaiddownhisforkandglancedatherbetweenthecandle—shades。Thealternativeexplanationofherindifferencewasnotslowinpresentingitself。HerheadhadthesamelisteningdroopaswhenhehadcaughtsightofherthedaybeforeinFlamel’scompany;theattituderevivedthevividnessofhisimpression。Itwassimpleenough,afterall。Shehadceasedtocareforhimbecauseshecaredforsomeoneelse。
  Ashefollowedherupstairshefeltasuddenstirringofhisdormantanger。Hissentimentshadlostalltheirfactitiouscomplexity。Hehadalreadyacquittedherofanyconnivanceinhisbaseness,andhefeltonlythathelovedherandthatshehadescapedhim。Thiswasnow,strangelyenough,hisdominatingthought:theconsciousnessthatheandshehadpassedthroughthefusionofloveandhademergedfromitasincommunicablyapartasthoughthetransmutationhadnevertakenplace。Everyotherpassion,hemused,leftsomemarkuponthenature;butlovepassedliketheflightofashipacrossthewaters。
  Shesankintoherusualseatnearthelamp,andheleanedagainstthechimney,movingaboutwithaninattentivehandtheknick—
  knacksonthemantel。
  Suddenlyhecaughtsightofherreflectioninthemirror。Shewaslookingathim。Heturnedandtheireyesmet。
  Hemovedacrosstheroomandstoodbeforeher。
  "There’ssomethingthatIwanttosaytoyou,"hebeganinalowtone。
  Sheheldhisgaze,buthercolordeepened。Henoticedagain,withajealouspang,howherbeautyhadgainedinwarmthandmeaning。
  Itwasasthoughatransparentcuphadbeenfilledwithwine。Helookedatherironically。
  "I’veneverpreventedyourseeingyourfriendshere,"hebrokeout。"WhydoyoumeetFlamelinout—of—the—wayplaces?Nothingmakesawomansocheap——"
  Sheroseabruptlyandtheyfacedeachotherafewfeetapart。
  "Whatdoyoumean?"sheasked。
  "IsawyouwithhimlastSundayontheRiversideDrive,"hewenton,theutteranceofthechargerevivinghisanger。
  "Ah,"shemurmured。Shesankintoherchairagainandbegantoplaywithapaper—knifethatlayonthetableatherelbow。
  Hersilenceexasperatedhim。
  "Well?"heburstout。"Isthatallyouhavetosay?"
  "Doyouwishmetoexplain?"sheasked,proudly。
  "DoyouimplyIhaven’ttherightto?"
  "Iimplynothing。Iwilltellyouwhateveryouwishtoknow。I
  wentforawalkwithMr。Flamelbecauseheaskedmeto。"
  "Ididn’tsupposeyouwentuninvited。Buttherearecertainthingsasensiblewomandoesn’tdo。Shedoesn’tslinkaboutinout—of—the—waystreetswithmen。Whycouldn’tyouhaveseenhimhere?"
  Shehesitated。"Becausehewantedtoseemealone。"
  "Didhe,indeed?AndmayIaskifyougratifyallhiswisheswithequalalacrity?"
  "Idon’tknowthathehasanyotherswhereIamconcerned。"Shepausedagainandthencontinued,inalowervoicethatsomehowhadanunder—noteofwarning。"Hewishedtobidmegood—by。He’sgoingaway。"
  Glennardturnedonherastartledglance。"Goingaway?"
  "He’sgoingtoEuropeto—morrow。Hegoesforalongtime。I
  supposedyouknew。"
  Thelastphraserevivedhisirritation。"YouforgetthatIdependonyouformyinformationaboutFlamel。He’syourfriendandnotmine。Infact,I’vesometimeswonderedatyourgoingoutofyourwaytobesociviltohimwhenyoumustseeplainlyenoughthatI
  don’tlikehim。"
  Heranswertothiswasnotimmediate。Sheseemedtobechoosingherwordswithcare,notsomuchforherownsakeasforhis,andhisexasperationwasincreasedbythesuspicionthatshewastryingtosparehim。
  "Hewasyourfriendbeforehewasmine。IneverknewhimtillI
  wasmarried。Itwasyouwhobroughthimtothehouseandwhoseemedtowishmetolikehim。"
  Glennardgaveashortlaugh。Thedefencewasfeeblerthanhehadexpected:shewascertainlynotacleverwoman。
  "Yourdeferencetomywishesisreallybeautiful;butit’snotthefirsttimeinhistorythatamanhasmadeamistakeinintroducinghisfriendstohiswife。Youmust,atanyrate,haveseensincethenthatmyenthusiasmhadcooled;butso,perhaps,hasyoureagernesstoobligeme。"
  Shemetthiswithasilencethatseemedtorobthetauntofhalfitsefficacy。
  "Isthatwhatyouimply?"hepressedher。
  "No,"sheansweredwithsuddendirectness。"Inoticedsometimeagothatyouseemedtodislikehim,butsincethen——"
  "Well——sincethen?"
  "I’veimaginedthatyouhadreasonsforstillwishingmetobeciviltohim,asyoucallit。"
  "Ah,"saidGlennard,withaneffortatlightness;buthisironydropped,forsomethinginhervoicemadehimfeelthatheandshestoodatlastinthatnakeddesertofapprehensionwheremeaningskulksvainlybehindspeech。
  "Andwhydidyouimaginethis?"Thebloodmountedtohisforehead。"BecausehetoldyouthatIwasunderobligationstohim?"
  Sheturnedpale。"Underobligations?"
  "Oh,don’tlet’sbeataboutthebush。Didn’thetellyouitwasI
  whopublishedMrs。Aubyn’sletters?Answermethat。"
  "No,"shesaid;andafteramomentwhichseemedgiventotheweighingofalternatives,sheadded:"Noonetoldme。"
  "Youdidn’tknowthen?"
  Sheseemedtospeakwithaneffort。"Notuntil——notuntil——"
  "TillIgaveyouthosepaperstosort?"
  Herheadsank。
  "Youunderstoodthen?"
  "Yes。"
  Helookedatherimmovableface。"Hadyoususpected——before?"wasslowlywrungfromhim。
  "Attimes——yes——"Hervoicedroppedtoawhisper。
  "Why?Fromanythingthatwassaid——?"
  Therewasashadeofpityinherglance。"Noonesaidanything——
  noonetoldmeanything。"Shelookedawayfromhim。"Itwasyourmanner——"
  "Mymanner?"
  "Wheneverthebookwasmentioned。Thingsyousaid——onceortwice——
  yourirritation——Ican’texplain——"
  Glennard,unconsciously,hadmovednearer。Hebreathedlikeamanwhohasbeenrunning。"Youknew,then,youknew"——hestammered。
  TheavowalofherloveforFlamelwouldhavehurthimless,wouldhaverenderedherlessremote。"Youknew——youknew——"herepeated;andsuddenlyhisanguishgatheredvoice。"MyGod!"hecried,"yoususpecteditfirst,yousay——andthenyouknewit——
  thisdamnable,thisaccursedthing;youknewitmonthsago——it’smonthssinceIputthatpaperinyourway——andyetyou’vedonenothing,you’vesaidnothing,you’vemadenosign,you’velivedalongsideofmeasifithadmadenodifference——nodifferenceineitherofourlives。Whatareyoumadeof,Iwonder?Don’tyouseethehideousignominyofit?Don’tyouseehowyou’vesharedinmydisgrace?Orhaven’tyouanysenseofshame?"
  Hepreservedsufficientlucidity,asthewordspouredfromhim,toseehowfatallytheyinvitedherderision;butsomethingtoldhimtheyhadbothpassedbeyondthephaseofobviousretaliations,andthatifanychordinherrespondeditwouldnotbethatofscorn。
  Hewasright。Sheroseslowlyandmovedtowardhim。
  "Haven’tyouhadenough——withoutthat?"shesaid,inastrangevoiceofpity。
  Hestaredather。"Enough——?"
  "Ofmisery……"
  Anironbandseemedloosenedfromhistemples。"Yousawthen……?"
  hewhispered。
  "Oh,God————oh,God————"shesobbed。Shedroppedbesidehimandhidheranguishagainsthisknees。Theyclungthusinsilence,alongtime,driventogetherdownthesamefierceblastofshame。
  Whenatlengthsheliftedherfaceheavertedhis。Herscornwouldhavehurthimlessthanthetearsonhishands。
  Shespokelanguidly,likeachildemergingfromapassionofweeping。"Itwasforthemoney——?"
  Hislipsshapedanassent。
  "Thatwastheinheritance——thatwemarriedon?"
  "Yes。"
  Shedrewbackandrosetoherfeet。Hesatwatchingherasshewanderedawayfromhim。
  "Youhateme,"brokefromhim。
  Shemadenoanswer。
  "Sayyouhateme!"hepersisted。
  "Thatwouldhavebeensosimple,"sheansweredwithastrangesmile。Shedroppedintoachairnearthewriting—tableandrestedabowedforeheadonherhand。
  "Wasitmuch——?"shebeganatlength。
  "Much——?"hereturned,vaguely。
  "Themoney。"
  "Themoney?"Thatpartofitseemedtocountsolittlethatforamomenthedidnotfollowherthought。
  "Itmustbepaidback,"sheinsisted。"Canyoudoit?"
  "Oh,yes,"hereturned,listlessly。"Icandoit。"
  "Iwouldmakeanysacrificeforthat!"sheurged。
  Henodded。"Ofcourse。"Hesatstaringatherindry—eyedself—
  contempt。"Doyoucountonitsmakingmuchdifference?"
  "Muchdifference?"
  "InthewayIfeel——oryoufeelaboutme?"
  Sheshookherhead。
  "It’stheleastpartofit,"hegroaned。
  "It’stheonlypartwecanrepair。"
  "Goodheavens!Iftherewereanyreparation——"Herosequicklyandcrossedthespacethatdividedthem。"Whydidyouneverspeak?"heasked。
  "Haven’tyouansweredthatyourself?"
  "Answeredit?"
  "Justnow——whenyoutoldmeyoudiditforme。"Shepausedamomentandthenwentonwithadeepeningnote——"IwouldhavespokenifIcouldhavehelpedyou。"
  "Butyoumusthavedespisedme。"
  "I’vetoldyouthatwouldhavebeensimpler。"
  "Buthowcouldyougoonlikethis——hatingthemoney?"
  "Iknewyouwouldspeakintime。Iwantedyou,first,tohateitasIdid。"
  Hegazedatherwithakindofawe。"You’rewonderful,"hemurmured。"Butyoudon’tyetknowthedepthsI’vereached。"
  Sheraisedanentreatinghand。"Idon’twantto!"
  "You’reafraid,then,thatyou’llhateme?"
  "No——butthatyou’llhateME。Letmeunderstandwithoutyourtellingme。"
  "Youcan’t。It’stoobase。Ithoughtyoudidn’tcarebecauseyoulovedFlamel。"
  Sheblusheddeeply。"Don’t——don’t——"shewarnedhim。
  "Ihaven’ttherightto,youmean?"
  "Imeanthatyou’llbesorry。"
  Hestoodimploringlybeforeher。"Iwanttosaysomethingworse——
  somethingmoreoutrageous。Ifyoudon’tunderstandTHISyou’llbeperfectlyjustifiedinorderingmeoutofthehouse。"
  Sheansweredhimwithaglanceofdivination。"Ishallunderstand——butyou’llbesorry。"
  "Imusttakemychanceofthat。"Hemovedawayandtossedthebooksaboutthetable。Thenheswungroundandfacedher。"DoesFlamelcareforyou?"heasked。
  Herflushdeepened,butshestilllookedathimwithoutanger。
  "Whatwouldbetheuse?"shesaidwithanoteofsadness。
  "Ah,Ididn’taskTHAT,"hepenitentlymurmured。
  "Well,then——"
  Tothisadjurationhemadenoresponsebeyondthatofgazingatherwithaneyewhichseemednowtoviewherasamerefactorinanimmenseredistributionofmeanings。
  "IinsultedFlamelto—day。IlethimseethatIsuspectedhimofhavingtoldyou。Ihatedhimbecauseheknewabouttheletters。"
  Hecaughtthespreadinghorrorofhereyes,andforaninstanthehadtograpplewiththenewtemptationtheylitup。Thenhesaid,withaneffort——"Don’tblamehim——he’simpeccable。Hehelpedmetogetthempublished;butIliedtohimtoo;Ipretendedtheywerewrittentoanotherman……amanwhowasdead……"
  Sheraisedherarmsinagesturethatseemedtowardoffhisblows。
  "YouDOdespiseme!"heinsisted。
  "Ah,thatpoorwoman——thatpoorwoman——"heheardhermurmur。
  "Isparenoone,yousee!"hetriumphedoverher。Shekeptherfacehidden。
  "Youdohateme,youdodespiseme!"hestrangelyexulted。
  "Besilent!"shecommandedhim;butheseemednolongerconsciousofanycheckonhisgatheringpurpose。
  "Hecaredforyou——hecaredforyou,"herepeated,"andhenevertoldyouoftheletters——"
  Shesprangtoherfeet。"Howcanyou?"sheflamed。"Howdareyou?THAT——!"
  Glennardwasashypale。"It’saweapon……likeanother……"
  "Ascoundrel’s!"
  Hesmiledwretchedly。"Ishouldhaveuseditinhisplace。"
  "Stephen!Stephen!"shecried,asthoughtodrowntheblasphemyonhislips。Sheswepttohimwitharescuinggesture。"Don’tsaysuchthings。Iforbidyou!Itdegradesusboth。"
  Heputherbackwithtremblinghands。"NothingthatIsayofmyselfcandegradeyou。We’reondifferentlevels。"
  "I’monyours,whateveritis!"
  Heliftedhisheadandtheirgazeflowedtogether。
  XIV
  Thegreatrenewalstakeeffectasimperceptiblyasthefirstworkingsofspring。Glennard,thoughhefelthimselfbroughtnearertohiswife,wasstill,asitwere,hardlywithinspeakingdistance。Hewasbutlaboriouslyacquiringtherudimentsoftheirnewmediumofcommunication;andhehadtogropeforherthroughthedensefogofhishumiliation,thedistortingvaporagainstwhichhispersonalityloomedgrotesqueandmean。
  Onlythefactthatweareunawarehowwellournearestknowusenablesustolivewiththem。Loveisthemostimpregnablerefugeofself—esteem,andwehatetheeyethatreachestoournakedness。
  IfGlennarddidnothatehiswifeitwasslowly,sufferingly,thattherewasborninhimthatprofounderpassionwhichmadehisearlierfeelingseemamerecommotionoftheblood。Hewaslikeachildcomingbacktothesenseofanenvelopingpresence:hernearnesswasabreastonwhichheleaned。
  Theydidnot,atfirst,talkmuchtogether,andeachbeatadevioustrackabouttheoutskirtsofthesubjectthatlaybetweenthemlikeahauntedwood。Buteveryword,everyaction,seemedtoglanceatit,todrawtowardit,asthoughafountofhealingspranginitspoisonedshade。Ifonlytheymightcutawaythroughthethickettothatrestoringspring!
  Glennard,watchinghiswifewiththeintentnessofawanderertowhomnonaturalsignisnegligible,sawthatshehadtakentemporaryrefugeinthepurposeofrenouncingthemoney。Ifboth,theoretically,ownedtheinefficacyofsuchamends,thewoman’sinstinctivesubjectivenessmadeherfindreliefinthiscrudeformofpenance。Glennardsawthatshemeanttoliveasfrugallyaspossibletillwhatshedeemedtheirdebtwasdischarged;andheprayedshemightnotdiscoverhowfar—reaching,initsmerelymaterialsense,wastheobligationshethushopedtoacquit。Hermindwasfixedonthesumoriginallypaidfortheletters,andthisheknewhecouldlayasideinayearortwo。Hewastouched,meanwhile,bythespiritthatmadeherdiscardthepettyluxurieswhichsheregardedasthesignsoftheirbondage。Theirsharedrenunciationsdrewhernearertohim,helped,intheirevidenceofherhelplessness,torestorethefullprotectingstatureofhislove。Andstilltheydidnotspeak。
  Itwasseveralweekslaterthat,oneafternoonbythedrawing—roomfire,shehandedhimaletterthatshehadbeenreadingwhenheentered。
  "I’veheardfromMr。Flamel,"shesaid。
  Glennardturnedpale。Itwasasthoughalatentpresencehadsuddenlybecomevisibletoboth。Hetookthelettermechanically。
  "It’sfromSmyrna,"shesaid。"Won’tyoureadit?"
  Hehandeditback。"Youcantellmeaboutit——hishand’ssoillegible。"Hewanderedtotheotherendoftheroomandthenturnedandstoodbeforeher。"I’vebeenthinkingofwritingtoFlamel,"hesaid。
  Shelookedup。
  "There’sonepoint,"hecontinued,slowly,"thatIoughttoclearup。Itoldhimyou’dknownaboutthelettersallalong;foralongtime,atleast;andIsawithurthimhorribly。ItwasjustwhatImeanttodo,ofcourse;butIcan’tleavehimtothatfalseimpression;Imustwritehim。"
  Shereceivedthiswithoutoutwardmovement,buthesawthatthedepthswerestirred。Atlengthshereturned,inahesitatingtone,"Whydoyoucallitafalseimpression?Ididknow。"
  "Yes,butIimpliedyoudidn’tcare。"
  "Ah!"
  Hestillstoodlookingdownonher。"Don’tyouwantmetosetthatright?"hetentativelypursued。
  Sheliftedherheadandfixedhimbravely。"Itisn’tnecessary,"
  shesaid。
  Glennardflushedwiththeshockoftheretort;then,withagestureofcomprehension,"No,"hesaid,"withyouitcouldn’tbe;
  butImightstillsetmyselfright。"
  Shelookedathimgently。"Don’tI,"shemurmured,"dothat?"
  "Inbeingyourselfmerely?Alas,therehabilitation’stoocomplete!Youmakemeseem——tomyselfeven——whatI’mnot;whatI
  canneverbe。Ican’t,attimes,defendmyselffromthedelusion;
  butIcanatleastenlightenothers。"
  Thefloodwasloosened,andkneelingbyherhecaughtherhands。
  "Don’tyouseethatit’sbecomeanobsessionwithme?ThatifI
  couldstripmyselfdowntothelastlie——onlythere’dalwaysbeanotheroneleftunderit!——anddopenancenakedinthemarket—
  place,Ishouldatleasthavethereliefofeasingoneanguishbyanother?Don’tyouseethattheworstofmytortureistheimpossibilityofsuchamends?"
  Herhandslayinhiswithoutreturningpressure。"Ah,poorwoman,poorwoman,"heheardhersigh。
  "Don’tpityher,pityme!WhathaveIdonetoherortoyou,afterall?You’rebothinaccessible!ItwasmyselfIsold。"
  Hetookanabruptturnawayfromher;thenhaltedbeforeheragain。"Howmuchlonger,"heburstout,"doyousupposeyoucanstandit?You’vebeenmagnificent,you’vebeeninspired,butwhat’stheuse?Youcan’twipeouttheignominyofit。It’smiserableforyouanditdoesHERnogood!"
  Sheliftedavividface。"That’sthethoughtIcan’tbear!"shecried。
  "Whatthought?"
  "Thatitdoeshernogood——allyou’refeeling,allyou’resuffering。Canitbethatitmakesnodifference?"
  Heavoidedherchallengingglance。"What’sdoneisdone,"hemuttered。
  "Isitever,quite,Iwonder?"shemused。Hemadenoanswerandtheylapsedintooneofthepausesthatareasubterraneanchannelofcommunication。
  Itwasshewho,afterawhile,begantospeakwithanewsuffusingdiffidencethatmadehimturnarousedeyeonher。
  "Don’ttheysay,"sheasked,feelingherwayasinakindoftenderapprehensiveness,"thattheearlyChristians,insteadofpullingdowntheheathentemples——thetemplesoftheuncleangods——
  purifiedthembyturningthemtotheirownuses?I’vealwaysthoughtonemightdothatwithone’sactions——theactionsoneloathesbutcan’tundo。Onecanmake,Imean,awrongthedoortootherwrongsoranimpassablewallagainstthem……"Hervoicewaveredontheword。"Wecan’talwaysteardownthetempleswe’vebuilttotheuncleangods,butwecanputgoodspiritsinthehouseofevil——thespiritsofmercyandshameandunderstanding,thatmightneverhavecometousifwehadn’tbeeninsuchgreatneed……"
  Shemovedovertohimandlaidahesitatinghandonhis。Hisheadwasbentandhedidnotchangehisattitude。Shesatdownbesidehimwithoutspeaking;buttheirsilencesnowwerefertileasrain—
  clouds——theyquickenedtheseedsofunderstanding。
  Atlengthhelookedup。"Idon’tknow,"hesaid,"whatspiritshavecometoliveinthehouseofevilthatIbuilt——butyou’rethereandthat’senoughforme。It’sstrange,"hewentonafteranotherpause,"shewishedthebestformesooften,andnow,atlast,it’sthroughherthatit’scometome。ButforherI
  shouldn’thaveknownyou——it’sthroughherthatI’vefoundyou。
  Sometimes,doyouknow?——thatmakesithardest——makesmemostintolerabletomyself。Can’tyouseethatit’stheworstthingI’vegottoface?IsometimesthinkIcouldhaveborneitbetterifyouhadn’tunderstood!Itookeverythingfromher——everything——
  eventothepoorshelterofloyaltyshe’dtrustedin——theonlythingIcouldhavelefther!——Itookeverythingfromher,I
  deceivedher,Idespoiledher,Idestroyedher——andshe’sgivenmeYOUinreturn!"
  Hiswife’scrycaughthimup。"Itisn’tthatshe’sgivenMEtoyou——itisthatshe’sgivenyoutoyourself。"Sheleanedtohimasthoughsweptforwardonawaveofpity。"Don’tyousee,"shewenton,ashiseyeshungonher,"thatthat’sthegiftyoucan’tescapefrom,thedebtyou’repledgedtoacquit?Don’tyouseethatyou’veneverbeforebeenwhatshethoughtyou,andthatnow,sowonderfully,she’smadeyouintothemansheloved?THAT’S
  worthsufferingfor,worthdyingfor,toawoman——that’sthegiftshewouldhavewishedtogive!"
  "Ah,"hecried,"butwoetohimbywhomitcometh。WhatdidI
  evergiveher?"
  "Thehappinessofgiving,"shesaid。