Therewasnohelpforit;shemuststayanddoherduty,orexposeherjealousytothequickeyesabouther。Foratimesheboreit;butthesightofhercousinleaningoverthechairshehadleftandchattingwiththegoverness,whonowfilledit,grewunbearable,andshedispatchedalittlegirlwithamessagetoMissMuir。
"Please,MissBeaufortwantsyouforQueenBess,asyouaretheonlyladywithredhair。Willyoucome?"whisperedthechild,quiteunconsciousofanyhiddenstinginherwords。
"Yes,dear,willinglythoughI’mnotstatelyenoughforHerMajesty,norhandsomeenough,"saidJean,risingwithanuntroubledface,thoughsheresentedthefeminineinsult。
"DoyouwantanEssex?I’malldressedforit,"saidCoventry,followingtothedoorwithawistfullook。
"No,MissBeaufortsaidyouwerenottocome。Shedoesn’twantyoubothtogether,"saidthechilddecidedly。
Jeangavehimasignificantlook,shruggedhershoulders,andwentawaysmilingheroddsmile,whileCoventrypacedupanddownthehallinacuriousstateofunrest,whichmadehimforgetfulofeverythingtilltheyoungpeoplecamegailyouttosupper。
"Come,bonnyPrinceCharlie,takemedown,andplaytheloverascharminglyasyoudidanhourago。Ineverthoughtyouhadsomuchwarmthinyou,"saidBella,takinghisarmanddrawinghimonagainsthiswill。
"Don’tbefoolish,child。Whereis——Lucia?"
WhyhecheckedJean’snameonhislipsandsubstitutedanother’s,hecouldnottell;butasuddenshynessinspeakingofherpossessedhim,andthoughhesawhernowhere,hewouldnotaskforher。Hiscousincamedownlookinglovelyinaclassicalcostume;butGeraldscarcelysawherand,whenthemerrimentwasatitsheight,heslippedawaytodiscoverwhathadbecomeofMissMuir。
Aloneinthedeserteddrawingroomhefoundher,andpausedtowatchheramomentbeforehespoke;forsomethinginherattitudeandfacestruckhim。Shewasleaningwearilybackinthegreatchairwhichhadservedforathrone。Herroyalrobeswerestillunchanged,thoughthecrownwasoffandallherfairhairhungabouthershoulders。
Excitementandexertionmadeherbrilliant,therichdressbecameherwonderfully,andanairofluxuriousindolencechangedthemeekgovernessintoacharmingwoman。Sheleanedonthevelvetcushionsasifshewereusedtosuchsupport;
sheplayedwiththejewelswhichhadcrownedherascarelesslyasifshewereborntowearthem;herattitudewasfullofnegligentgrace,andtheexpressionofherfacehalfproud,halfpensive,asifherthoughtswerebittersweet。
Onewouldknowshewaswellborntoseehernow。Poorgirl,whataburdenalifeofdependencemustbetoaspiritlikehers!
Iwonderwhatsheisthinkingofsointently。AndCoventryindulgedinanotherlookbeforehespoke。
"ShallIbringyousomesupper,MissMuir?"
"Supper!"sheejaculated,withastart。"Whothinksofone’sbodywhenone’ssoulis——"Shestoppedthere,knitherbrows,andlaughedfaintlyassheadded,"No,thankyou。Iwantnothingbutadvice,andthatIdarenotaskofanyone。"
"Whynot?"
"BecauseIhavenoright。"
"Everyonehasarighttoaskhelp,especiallytheweakofthestrong。CanIhelpyou?Believeme,Imostheartilyoffermypoorservices。"
"Ah,youforget!Thisdress,theborrowedsplendorofthesejewels,thefreedomofthisgayevening,theromanceofthepartyouplayed,allblindyoutothereality。ForamomentIceasetobeaservant,andforamomentyoutreatmeasanequal。"
Itwastrue;hehadforgotten。Thatsoft,reproachfulglancetouchedhim,hisdistrustmeltedunderthenewcharm,andheansweredwithrealfeelinginvoiceandface,"Itreatyouasanequalbecauseyouareone;andwhenIofferhelp,itisnottomysister’sgovernessalone,buttoLadyHoward’sdaughter。"
"Whotoldyouthat?"shedemanded,sittingerect。
"Myuncle。Donotreproachhim。Itshallgonofurther,ifyouforbidit。AreyousorrythatIknowit?"
"Yes。"
"Why?"
"BecauseIwillnotbepitied!"Andhereyesflashedasshemadeahalf-defiantgesture。
"Then,ifImaynotpitythehardfatewhichhasbefallenaninnocentlife,mayIadmirethecouragewhichmeetsadversefortunesobravely,andconquerstheworldbywinningtherespectandregardofallwhoseeandhonorit?"
MissMuiravertedherface,putupherhand,andansweredhastily,"No,no,notthat!Donotbekind;itdestroystheonlybarriernowleftbetweenus。Becoldtomeasbefore,forgetwhatIam,andletmegoonmyway,unknown,unpitied,andunloved!"
Hervoicefalteredandfailedasthelastwordwasuttered,andshebentherfaceuponherhand。SomethingjarreduponCoventryinthisspeech,andmovedhimtosay,almostrudely,"Youneedhavenofearsforme。LuciawilltellyouwhatanicebergIam。"
"ThenLuciawouldtellmewrong。Ihavethefatalpowerofreadingcharacter;Iknowyoubetterthanshedoes,andIsee——"Thereshestoppedabruptly。
"What?Tellmeandproveyourskill,"hesaideagerly。
Turning,shefixedhereyesonhimwithapenetratingpowerthatmadehimshrinkasshesaidslowly,"UndertheiceIseefire,andwarnyoutobewarelestitproveavolcano。"
Foramomenthesatdumb,wonderingattheinsightofthegirl;forshewasthefirsttodiscoverthehiddenwarmthofanaturetooproudtoconfessitstenderimpulses,ortheambitionsthatslepttillsomepotentvoiceawokethem。Theblunt,almoststernmannerinwhichshewarnedhimawayfromheronlymadehermoreattractive;fortherewasnoconceitorarroganceinit,onlyaforebodingfearemboldenedbypastsufferingtobefrank。Suddenlyhespokeimpetuously:"Youareright!IamnotwhatIseem,andmyindolentindifferenceisbutthemaskunderwhichIconcealmyrealself。Icouldbeaspassionate,asenergeticandaspiringasNed,ifIhadanyaiminlife。Ihavenone,andsoIamwhatyouoncecalledme,athingtopityanddespise。"
"Ineversaidthat!"criedJeanindignantly。
"Notinthosewords,perhaps;butyoulookeditandthoughtit,thoughyouphraseditmoremildly。Ideservedit,butIshalldeserveitnolonger。Iambeginningtowakefrommydisgracefulidleness,andlongforsomeworkthatshallmakeamanofme。Whydoyougo?Iannoyyouwithmyconfessions。Pardonme。TheyarethefirstIevermade;theyshallbethelast。"
"No,ohno!Iamtoomuchhonoredbyyourconfidence;
butisitwise,isitloyaltotellmeyourhopesandaims?HasnotMissBeaufortthefirstrighttobeyourconfidante?"
Coventrydrewback,lookingintenselyannoyed,forthenamerecalledmuchthathewouldgladlyhaveforgotteninthenovelexcitementofthehour。Lucia’slove,Edward’spartingwords,hisownreservesostrangelythrownaside,sodifficulttoresume。Whathewouldhavesaidwascheckedbythesightofahalf-openletterwhichfellfromJean’sdressasshemovedaway。Mechanicallyhetookituptoreturnit,and,ashedidso,herecognizedSydney’shandwriting。Jeansnatcheditfromhim,turningpaletothelipsasshecried,"Didyoureadit?Whatdidyousee?
Tellme,tellme,onyourhonor!"
"Onmyhonor,Isawnothingbutthissinglesentence,’BytheloveIbearyou,believewhatIsay。’Nomore,asIamagentleman。
Iknowthehand,Iguessthepurportoftheletter,andasafriendofSydney,Iearnestlydesiretohelpyou,ifIcan。Isthisthematteruponwhichyouwantadvice?"
"Yes。"
"Thenletmegiveit?"
"Youcannot,withoutknowingall,anditissohardtotell!"
"Letmeguessit,andspareyouthepainoftelling。
MayI?"AndCoventrywaitedeagerlyforherreply,forthespellwasstilluponhim。
Holdingtheletterfast,shebeckonedhimtofollow,andglidedbeforehimtoasecludedlittlenook,halfboudoir,halfconservatory。
Thereshepaused,stoodaninstantasifindoubt,thenlookedupathimwithconfidingeyesandsaiddecidedly,"Iwilldoit;for,strangeasitmayseem,youaretheonlypersontowhomIcanspeak。YouknowSydney,youhavediscoveredthatIamanequal,youhaveofferedyourhelp。Iacceptit;butoh,donotthinkmeunwomanly!RememberhowaloneIam,howyoung,andhowmuchIrelyuponyoursincerity,yoursympathy!"
"Speakfreely。Iamindeedyourfriend。"AndCoventrysatdownbesideher,forgetfulofeverythingbutthesoft-eyedgirlwhoconfidedinhimsoentirely。
Speakingrapidly,Jeanwenton,"YouknowthatSydneylovedme,thatIrefusedhimandwentaway。Butyoudonotknowthathisimportunitiesnearlydrovemewild,thathethreatenedtorobmeofmyonlytreasure,mygoodname,andthat,indesperation,Itriedtokillmyself。Yes,mad,wickedasitwas,Ididlongtoendthelifewhichwas,atbest,aburden,andunderhispersecutionhadbecomeatorment。Youareshocked,yetwhatIsayisthelivingtruth。LadySydneywillconfirmit,thenursesatthehospitalwillconfessthatitwasnotafeverwhichbroughtmethere;andhere,thoughtheexternalwoundishealed,myheartstillachesandburnswiththeshameandindignationwhichonlyaproudwomancanfeel。"
Shepausedandsatwithkindlingeyes,glowingcheeks,andbothhandspressedtoherheavingbosom,asiftheoldinsultrousedherspiritanew。Coventrysaidnotaword,forsurprise,anger,incredulity,andadmirationmingledsoconfusedlyinhismindthatheforgottospeak,andJeanwenton,"Thatwildactofmineconvincedhimofmyindomitabledislike。Hewentaway,andIbelievedthatthisstormyloveofhiswouldbecuredbyabsence。Itisnot,andIliveindailyfearoffreshentreaties,renewedpersecution。HismotherpromisednottobetraywhereIhadgone,buthefoundmeoutandwrotetome。TheletterIaskedyoutotaketoLadySydneywasareplytohis,imploringhimtoleavemeinpeace。Youfailedtodeliverit,andIwasglad,forIthoughtsilencemightquenchhope。Allinvain;thisisamorepassionateappealthanever,andhevowshewillneverdesistfromhisendeavorstillIgiveanothermantherighttoprotectme。Icandothis——Iamsorelytemptedtodoit,butIrebelagainstthecruelty。Ilovemyfreedom,Ihavenowishtomarryatthisman’sbidding。WhatcanIdo?HowcanIfreemyself?Bemyfriend,andhelpme!"
Tearsstreameddownhercheeks,sobschokedherwords,andsheclaspedherhandsimploringlyassheturnedtowardtheyoungmaninalltheabandonmentofsorrow,fear,andsupplication。Coventryfoundithardtomeetthoseeloquenteyesandanswercalmly,forhehadnoexperienceinsuchscenesandknewnothowtoplayhispart。Itisthisabsurddressandthatromanticnonsensewhichmakesmefeelsounlikemyself,hethought,quiteunconsciousofthedangerouspowerwhichtheduskyroom,themidsummerwarmthandfragrance,thememoryofthe"romanticnonsense,"and,mostofall,thepresenceofabeautiful,afflictedwomanhadoverhim。Hisusualself-possessiondesertedhim,andhecouldonlyechothewordswhichhadmadethestrongestimpressionuponhim:
"Youcandothis,youaretemptedtodoit。IsNedthemanwhocanprotectyou?"
"No"wasthesoftreply。
"Whothen?"
"Donotaskme。Agoodandhonorableman;onewholovesmewell,andwoulddevotehislifetome;onewhomonceitwouldhavebeenhappinesstomarry,butnow——"
Therehervoiceendedinasigh,andallherfairhairfelldownaboutherface,hidingitinashiningveil。
"Whynotnow?Thisisasureandspeedywayofendingyourdistress。Isitimpossible?"
Inspiteofhimself,Geraldleanednearer,tookoneofthelittlehandsinhis,andpresseditashespoke,urgently,compassionately,nay,almosttenderly。Frombehindtheveilcameaheavysigh,andthebriefanswer,"Itisimpossible。"
"Why,Jean?"
Sheflungherhairbackwithasuddengesture,drewawayherhand,andanswered,almostfiercely,"BecauseIdonotlovehim!
Whydoyoutormentmewithsuchquestions?ItellyouIaminasorestraitandcannotseemyway。ShallIdeceivethegoodman,andsecurepeaceatthepriceoflibertyandtruth?OrshallIdefySydneyandleadalifeofdread?Ifhemenacedmylife,Ishouldnotfear;buthemenacesthatwhichisdearerthanlife——mygoodname。Alook,awordcantarnishit;
ascornfulsmile,asignificantshrugcandomemoreharmthananyblow;
forIamawoman——friendless,poor,andatthemercyofhistongue。Ah,bettertohavedied,andsohavebeensavedthebitterpainthathascomenow!"
Shesprangup,claspedherhandsoverherhead,andpaceddespairinglythroughthelittleroom,notweeping,butwearinganexpressionmoretragicalthantears。Stillfeelingasifhehadsuddenlysteppedintoaromance,yetfindingakeenpleasureinthepartassignedhim,Coventrythrewhimselfintoitwithspirit,andheartilydidhisbesttoconsolethepoorgirlwhoneededhelpsomuch。Goingtoher,hesaidasimpetuouslyasNedeverdid,"MissMuir——nay,IwillsayJean,ifthatwillcomfortyou——listen,andrestassuredthatnoharmshalltouchyouifIcanwarditoff。Youareneedlesslyalarmed。Indignantyoumaywellbe,but,uponmylife,IthinkyouwrongSydney。Heisviolent,I
know,butheistoohonorableamantoinjureyoubyalightword,anunjustact。Hedidbutthreaten,hopingtosoftenyou。Letmeseehim,orwritetohim。Heismyfriend;hewilllistentome。OfthatIamsure。"
"Besureofnothing。WhenamanlikeSydneylovesandisthwartedinhislove,nothingcancontrolhisheadstrongwill。Promisemeyouwillnotseeorwritetohim。MuchasIfearanddespisehim,I
willsubmit,ratherthananyharmshouldbefallyou——oryourbrother。
Youpromiseme,Mr。Coventry?"
Hehesitated。Sheclungtohisarmwithunfeignedsolicitudeinhereager,pleadingface,andhecouldnotresistit。
"Ipromise;butinreturnyoumustpromisetoletmegivewhathelpIcan;and,Jean,neversayagainthatyouarefriendless。"
"Youaresokind!Godblessyouforit。ButIdarenotacceptyourfriendship;shewillnotpermitit,andIhavenorighttomarherpeace。"
"Whowillnotpermitit?"hedemandedhotly。
"MissBeaufort。"
"HangMissBeaufort!"exclaimedCoventry,withsuchenergythatJeanbrokeintoamusicallaugh,despitehertrouble。Hejoinedinit,and,foraninstanttheystoodlookingatoneanotherasifthelastbarrierweredown,andtheywerefriendsindeed。Jeanpausedsuddenly,withthesmileonherlips,thetearsstillonhercheek,andmadeawarninggesture。Helistened:thesoundoffeetmingledwithcallsandlaughterprovedthattheyweremissedandsought。
"Thatlaughbetrayedus。Stayandmeetthem。Icannot。"
AndJeandartedoutuponthelawn。Coventryfollowed;forthethoughtofconfrontingsomanyeyes,somanyquestions,dauntedhim,andhefledlikeacoward。ThesoundofJean’sflyingfootstepsguidedhim,andheovertookherjustasshepausedbehindarosethickettotakebreath。
"Faintheartedknight!Youshouldhavestayedandcoveredmyretreat。Hark!theyarecoming!Hide!Hide!"shepanted,halfinfear,halfinmerriment,asthegaypursuersrapidlydrewnearer。
"Kneeldown;themooniscomingoutandtheglitterofyourembroiderywillbetrayyou,"whisperedJean,astheycoweredbehindtheroses。
"Yourarmsandhairwillbetrayyou。’Comeundermyplaiddie,’asthesongsays。"AndCoventrytriedtomakehisvelvetcloakcoverthewhiteshouldersandfairlocks。
"Weareactingourpartsinrealitynow。HowBellawillenjoythethingwhenItellher!"saidJeanasthenoisesdiedaway。
"Donottellher,"whisperedCoventry。
"Andwhynot?"sheasked,lookingupintothefacesonearherown,withanartlessglance。
"Canyounotguesswhy?"
"Ah,youaresoproudyoucannotbeartobelaughedat。"
"Itisnotthat。ItisbecauseIdonotwantyoutobeannoyedbysillytongues;youhaveenoughtopainyouwithoutthat。
Iamyourfriend,now,andIdomybesttoproveit。"
"Sokind,sokind!HowcanIthankyou?"murmuredJean。Andsheinvoluntarilynestledcloserunderthecloakthatshelteredboth。
Neitherspokeforamoment,andinthesilencetherapidbeatingoftwoheartswasheard。Todrownthesound,Coventrysaidsoftly,"Areyoufrightened?"
"No,Ilikeit,"sheanswered,assoftly,thenaddedabruptly,"Butwhydowehide?Thereisnothingtofear。Itislate。I
mustgo。Youarekneelingonmytrain。Pleaserise。"
"Whyinsuchhaste?Thisflightandsearchonlyaddstothecharmoftheevening。I’llnotgetupyet。Willyouhavearose,Jean?"
"No,Iwillnot。Letmego,Mr。Coventry,Iinsist。
Therehasbeenenoughofthisfolly。Youforgetyourself。"
Shespokeimperiously,flungoffthecloak,andputhimfromher。Heroseatonce,saying,likeonewakingsuddenlyfromapleasantdream,"Idoindeedforgetmyself。"
Herethesoundofvoicesbrokeonthem,nearerthanbefore。Pointingtoacoveredwalkthatledtothehouse,hesaid,inhisusuallycool,calmtone,"Gointhatway;Iwillcoveryourretreat。"Andturning,hewenttomeetthemerryhunters。
Halfanhourlater,whenthepartybrokeup,MissMuirjoinedtheminherusualquietdress,lookingpaler,meeker,andsadderthanusual。Coventrysawthis,thoughheneitherlookedathernoraddressedher。Luciasawitalso,andwasgladthatthedangerousgirlhadfallenbackintoherproperplaceagain,forshehadsufferedmuchthatnight。
Sheappropriatedhercousin’sarmastheywentthroughthepark,buthewasinoneofhistaciturnmoods,andallherattemptsatconversationwereinvain。MissMuirwalkedalone,singingsoftlytoherselfasshefollowedinthedusk。WasGeraldsosilentbecausehelistenedtothatfitfulsong?Luciathoughtso,andfeltherdislikerapidlydeepeningtohatred。
Whentheyoungfriendsweregone,andthefamilywereexchanginggood-nightsamongthemselves,JeanwassurprisedbyCoventry’sofferinghishand,forhehadneverdoneitbefore,andwhispering,asheheldit,thoughLuciawatchedhimallthewhile,"Ihavenotgivenmyadvice,yet。"
"Thanks,Inolongerneedit。Ihavedecidedformyself。"
"MayIaskhow?"
"Tobravemyenemy。"
"Good!Butwhatdecidedyousosuddenly?"
"Thefindingofafriend。"Andwithagratefulglanceshewasgone。
BehindaMask:or,AWoman’sPower。Chapter6ONTHEWATCH"Ifyouplease,Mr。Coventry,didyougettheletterlastnight?"werethefirstwordsthatgreetedthe"youngmaster"ashelefthisroomnextmorning。
"Whatletter,Dean?Idon’trememberany,"heanswered,pausing,forsomethinginthemaid’smannerstruckhimaspeculiar。
"ItcamejustasyouleftfortheHall,sir。Bensonranafteryouwithit,asitwasmarked’Haste。’Didn’tyougetit,sir?"
askedthewoman,anxiously。
"Yes,butuponmylife,Iforgotallaboutittillthisminute。It’sinmyothercoat,Isuppose,ifI’venotlostit。Thatabsurdmasqueradingputeverythingelseoutofmyhead。"Andspeakingmoretohimselfthantothemaid,Coventryturnedbacktolookforthemissingletter。
Deanremainedwhereshewas,apparentlybusyaboutthearrangementofthecurtainsatthehallwindow,butfurtivelywatchingmeanwhilewithamostunwontedairofcuriosity。
"Notthere,Ithoughtso!"shemuttered,asCoventryimpatientlythrusthishandintoonepocketafteranother。Butasshespoke,anexpressionofamazementappearedinherface,forsuddenlytheletterwasdiscovered。
"I’dhaveswornitwasn’tthere!Idon’tunderstandit,butshe’sadeepone,orI’mdeceived。"AndDeanshookherheadlikeoneperplexed,butnotconvinced。
Coventryutteredanexclamationofsatisfactiononglancingattheaddressand,standingwherehewas,toreopentheletter。
DearC:
I’mofftoBaden。Comeandjoinme,thenyou’llbeoutofharm’sway;forifyoufallinlovewithJ。M。(andyoucan’tescapeifyoustaywheresheis),youwillincurthetriflinginconvenienceofhavingyourbrainsblownoutbyYourstruly,F。R。Sydney"Themanismad!"ejaculatedCoventry,staringattheletterwhileanangryflushrosetohisface。"Whatthedeucedoeshemeanbywritingtomeinthatstyle?Joinhim——not!Andasforthethreat,Ilaughatit。PoorJean!Thisheadstrongfoolseemsbentontormentingher。Well,Dean,whatareyouwaitingfor?"hedemanded,asifsuddenlyconsciousofherpresence。
"Nothing,sir;Ionlystoppedtoseeifyoufoundtheletter。Begpardon,sir。"
AndshewasmovingonwhenCoventryasked,withasuspiciouslook,"Whatmadeyouthinkitwaslost?Youseemtotakeanuncommoninterestinmyaffairstoday。"
"Ohdear,no,sir。Ifeltabitanxious,Bensonissoforgetful,anditwasmewhosenthimafteryou,forIhappenedtoseeyougoout,soIfeltresponsible。Beingmarkedthatway,IthoughtitmightbeimportantsoIaskedaboutit。"
"Verywell,youcango,Dean。It’sallright,yousee。"
"I’mnotsosureofthat,"mutteredthewoman,asshecurtsiedrespectfullyandwentaway,lookingasiftheletterhadnotbeenfound。
DeanwasMissBeaufort’smaid,agrave,middle-agedwomanwithkeeneyesandasomewhatgrimair。Havingbeenlonginthefamily,sheenjoyedalltheprivilegesofafaithfulandfavoriteservant。Shelovedheryoungmistresswithanalmostjealousaffection。Shewatchedoverherwithhevigilantcareofamotherandresentedanyattemptatinterferenceonthepartofothers。AtfirstshehadpitiedandlikedJeanMuir,thendistrustedher,andnowheartilyhatedher,asthecauseoftheincreasedindifferenceofCoventrytowardhiscousin。DeanknewthedepthofLucia’slove,andthoughnoman,inhereyes,wasworthyofhermistress,still,havinghonoredhimwithherregard,Deanfeltboundtolikehim,andthelatechangeinhismannerdisturbedthemaidalmostasmuchasitdidthemistress。ShewatchedJeannarrowly,causingthatamiablecreaturemuchamusementbutlittleannoyance,asyet,forDean’sslowEnglishwitwasnomatchforthesubtlemindofthegoverness。Ontheprecedingnight,DeanhadbeensentuptotheHallwithcostumesandhadthereseensomethingwhichmuchdisturbedher。Shebegantospeakofitwhileundressinghermistress,butLucia,beinginanunhappymood,hadsosternlyorderedhernottogossipthatthetaleremaineduntold,andshewasforcedtobidehertime。
NowI’llseehowshelooksafterit;thoughthere’snotmuchtobegotoutofherface,thedeceitfulhussy,thoughtDean,marchingdownthecorridorandknittingherblackbrowsasshewent。
"Goodmorning,Mrs。Dean。Ihopeyouarenonetheworseforlastnight’sfrolic。Youhadtheworkandwetheplay,"saidablithevoicebehindher;andturningsharply,sheconfrontedMissMuir。
Freshandsmiling,thegovernessnoddedwithanairofcordialitywhichwouldhavebeenirresistiblewithanyonebutDean。
"I’mquitewell,thankyou,miss,"shereturnedcoldly,asherkeeneyefastenedonthegirlasiftowatchtheeffectofherwords。
"Ihadagoodrestwhentheyoungladiesandgentlemenwereatsupper,forwhilethemaidsclearedup,Isatinthe’littleanteroom。’"
"Yes,Isawyou,andfearedyou’dtakecold。Verygladyoudidn’t。HowisMissBeaufort?Sheseemedratherpoorlylastnight"
wasthetranquilreply,asJeansettledthelittlefrillsaboutherdelicatewrists。ThecoolquestionwasareturnshotforDean’shintthatshehadbeenwhereshecouldoverseetheinterviewbetweenCoventryandMissMuir。
"Sheisabittired,asanyladywouldbeaftersuchanevening。Peoplewhoareusedtoplay-actingwouldn’tmindit,perhaps,butMissBeaufortdon’tenjoyrompsasmuchassomedo。"
TheemphasisuponcertainwordsmadeDean’sspeechasimpertinentasshedesired。ButJeanonlylaughed,andasCoventry’sstepwasheardbehindthem,sherandownstairs,sayingblandly,butwithawickedlook,"Iwon’tstoptothankyounow,lestMr。Coventryshouldbidmegood-morning,andsoincreaseMissBeaufort’sindisposition。"
Dean’seyesflashedasshelookedafterthegirlwithawrathfulface,andwentherway,sayinggrimly,"I’llbidemytime,butI’llgetthebetterofheryet。"
Fancyinghimselfquiteremovedfrom"lastnight’sabsurdity,"yetcurioustoseehowJeanwouldmeethim,Coventryloungedintothebreakfastroomwithhisusualairoflistlessindifference。A
languidnodandmurmurwasallthereplyhevouchsafedtothegreetingsofcousin,sister,andgovernessashesatdownandtookuphispaper。
"HaveyouhadaletterfromNed?"askedBella,lookingatthenotewhichherbrotherstillheld。
"No"wasthebriefanswer。
"Whothen?Youlookasifyouhadreceivedbadnews。"
Therewasnoreply,and,peepingoverhisarm,Bellacaughtsightofthesealandexclaimed,inadisappointedtone,"ItistheSydneycrest。Idon’tcareaboutthenotenow。Men’sletterstoeachotherarenotinteresting。"
MissMuirhadbeenquietlyfeedingoneofEdward’sdogs,butatthenameshelookedupandmetCoventry’seyes,coloringsodistressfullythathepitiedher。Whyheshouldtakethetroubletocoverherconfusion,hedidnotstoptoaskhimself,butseeingthecurlofLucia’slip,hesuddenlyaddressedherwithanairofdispleasure,"DoyouknowthatDeanisgettingimpertinent?Shepresumestoomuchonherageandyourindulgence,andforgetsherplace。"
"Whathasshedone?"askedLuciacoldly。
"ShetroublesherselfaboutmyaffairsandtakesituponherselftokeepBensoninorder。"
HereCoventrytoldabouttheletterandthewoman’sevidentcuriosity。
"PoorDean,shegetsnothanksforremindingyouofwhatyouhadforgotten。Nexttimeshewillleaveyourletterstotheirfate,andperhapsitwillbeaswell,iftheyhavesuchabadeffectuponyourtemper,Gerald。"
Luciaspokecalmly,buttherewasanangrycolorinhercheekassheroseandlefttheroom。Coventrylookedmuchannoyed,foronJean’sfacehedetectedafaintsmile,halfpitiful,halfsatirical,whichdisturbedhimmorethanhiscousin’sinsinuation。Bellabroketheawkwardsilencebysaying,withasigh,"PoorNed!Idosolongtohearagainfromhim。Ithoughtaletterhadcomeforsomeofus。Deansaidshesawonebearinghiswritingonthehalltableyesterday。"
"Sheseemstohaveamaniaforinspectingletters。
Iwon’tallowit。Whowastheletterfor,Bella?"saidCoventry,puttingdownhispaper。
"Shewouldn’torcouldn’ttell,butlookedverycrossandtoldmetoaskyou。"
"Veryodd!I’vehadnone,"beganCoventry。
"ButIhadoneseveraldaysago。Willyoupleasereadit,andmyreply?"Andasshespoke,Jeanlaidtwolettersbeforehim。
"Certainlynot。ItwouldbedishonorabletoreadwhatNedintendedfornoeyesbutyourown。Youaretooscrupulousinoneway,andnotenoughsoinanother,MissMuir。"AndCoventryofferedboththeletterswithanairofgravedecision,whichcouldnotconcealtheinterestandsurprisehefelt。
"Youareright。Mr。Edward’snoteshouldbekeptsacred,forinitthepoorboyhaslaidbarehishearttome。ButmineIbegyouwillread,thatyoumayseehowwellItrytokeepmywordtoyou。Obligemeinthis,Mr。Coventry;Ihavearighttoaskitofyou。"
Sourgentlyshespoke,sowistfullyshelooked,thathecouldnotrefuseand,goingtothewindow,readtheletter。Itwasevidentlyananswertoapassionateappealfromtheyounglover,andwaswrittenwithconsummateskill。Asheread,Geraldcouldnothelpthinking,Ifthisgirlwritesinthiswaytoamanwhomshedoesnotlove,withwhataworldofpowerandpassionwouldshewritetoonewhomshedidlove。Andthisthoughtkeptreturningtohimashiseyewentoverlineafterlineofwiseargument,gentlereproof,goodcounsel,andfriendlyregard。Hereandthereaword,aphrase,betrayedwhatshehadalreadyconfessed,andCoventryforgottoreturntheletter,ashestoodwonderingwhowasthemanwhomJeanloved。
ThesoundofBella’svoicerecalledhim,forshewassaying,halfkindly,halfpetulantly,"Don’tlooksosad,Jean。Nedwilloutliveit,Idaresay。Yourememberyousaidoncemenneverdiedoflove,thoughwomenmight。Inhisonenotetome,hespokesobeautifullyofyou,andbeggedmetobekindtoyouforhissake,thatItrytobewithallmyheart,thoughifitwasanyonebutyou,IreallythinkIshouldhatethemformakingmydearboysounhappy。"
"Youaretookind,Bella,andIoftenthinkI’llgoawaytorelieveyouofmypresence;butunwiseanddangerousasitistostay,Ihaven’tthecouragetogo。I’vebeensohappyhere。"Andasshespoke,Jean’sheaddroppedloweroverthedogasitnestledtoheraffectionately。
BeforeBellacouldutterhalfthelovingwordsthatsprangtoherlips,Coventrycametothemwithalllanguorgonefromfaceandmien,andlayingJean’sletterbeforeher,hesaid,withanundertoneofdeepfeelinginhisusuallyemotionlessvoice,"Arightwomanlyandeloquentletter,butIfearitwillonlyincreasethefireitwasmeanttoquench。Ipitymybrothermorethanevernow。"
"ShallIsendit?"askedJean,lookingstraightupathim,likeonewhohadentirerelianceonhisjudgment。
"Yes,Ihavenotthehearttorobhimofsuchasweetsermonuponself-sacrifice。ShallIpostitforyou?"
"Thankyou;inamoment。"Andwithagratefullook,Jeandroppedhereyes。Producingherlittlepurse,sheselectedapenny,foldeditinabitofpaper,andthenofferedbothletterandcointoCoventry,withsuchaprettyairofbusiness,thathecouldnotcontrolalaugh。
"Soyouwon’tbeindebtedtomeforapenny?Whataproudwomanyouare,MissMuir。"
"Iam;it’safamilyfailing。"Andshegavehimasignificantglance,whichrecalledtohimthememoryofwhoshewas。Heunderstoodherfeeling,andlikedherthebetterforit,knowingthathewouldhavedonethesamehadhebeeninherplace。Itwasalittlething,butifdoneforeffect,itansweredadmirably,foritshowedaquickinsightintohischaracteronherpart,andbetrayedtohimtheexistenceofaprideinwhichhesympathizedheartily。HestoodbyJeanamoment,watchingherassheburntEdward’sletterintheblazeofthespiritlampundertheurn。
"Whydoyoudothat?"heaskedinvoluntarily。
"Becauseitismydutytoforget"wasallheranswer。
"Canyoualwaysforgetwhenitbecomesaduty?"
"IwishIcould!IwishIcould!"
Shespokepassionately,asifthewordsbrokefromheragainstherwill,and,risinghastily,shewentintothegarden,asifafraidtostay。
"Poor,dearJeanisveryunhappyaboutsomething,butIcan’tdiscoverwhatitis。LastnightIfoundhercryingoverarose,andnowsherunsaway,lookingasifherheartwasbroken。I’mgladI’vegotnolessons。"
"Whatkindofarose?"askedCoventryfrombehindhispaperasBellapaused。
"Alovelywhiteone。ItmusthavecomefromtheHall;
wehavenonelikeit。IwonderifJeanwasevergoingtobemarried,andlostherlover,andfeltsadbecausetheflowerremindedherofbridalroses。"Coventrymadenoreply,butfelthimselfchangecountenanceasherecalledthelittlescenebehindtherosehedge,wherehegaveJeantheflowerwhichshehadrefusedyettaken。Presently,toBella’ssurprise,heflungdownthepaper,toreSydney’snotetoatoms,andrangforhishorsewithanenergywhichamazedher。
"Why,Gerald,whathascomeoveryou?OnewouldthinkNed’srestlessspirithadsuddenlytakenpossessionofyou。Whatareyougoingtodo?"
"I’mgoingtowork"wastheunexpectedanswer,asCoventryturnedtowardherwithanexpressionsorarelyseenonhisfineface。
"Whathaswakedyouupallatonce?"askedBella,lookingmoreandmoreamazed。
"Youdid,"hesaid,drawinghertowardhim。
"I!When?How?"
"Doyouremembersayingoncethatenergywasbetterthanbeautyinaman,andthatnoonecouldrespectanidler?"
"Ineversaidanythinghalfsosensibleasthat。
Jeansaidsomethinglikeitonce,Ibelieve,butIforgot。Areyoutiredofdoingnothing,atlast,Gerald?"
"Yes,IneglectedmydutytoNed,tillhegotintotrouble,andnowIreproachmyselfforit。It’snottoolatetodootherneglectedtasks,soI’mgoingatthemwithawill。Don’tsayanythingaboutittoanyone,anddon’tlaughatme,forI’minearnest,Bell。"
"Iknowyouare,andIadmireandloveyouforit,mydearoldboy,"criedBellaenthusiastically,asshethrewherarmsabouthisneckandkissedhimheartily。"Whatwillyoudofirst?"sheasked,ashestoodthoughtfullysmoothingthebrightheadthatleaneduponhisshoulder,withthatnewexpressionstillclearandsteadyinhisface。
"I’mgoingtorideoverthewholeestate,andattendtothingsasamastershould;notleaveitalltoBent,ofwhomI’veheardmanycomplaints,buthavebeentooidletoinquireaboutthem。IshallconsultUncle,andendeavortobeallthatmyfatherwasinhistime。Isthataworthyambition,dear?"
"Oh,Gerald,letmetellMamma。Itwillmakehersohappy。Youareheridol,andtohearyousaythesethings,toseeyoulooksolikedearPapa,woulddomoreforherspiritsthanallthedoctorsinEngland。"
"WaittillIprovewhatmyresolutionisworth。WhenIhavereallydonesomething,thenI’llsurpriseMammawithasampleofmywork。"
"Ofcourseyou’lltellLucia?"
"Notonanyaccount。Itisalittlesecretbetweenus,sokeepittillIgiveyouleavetotellit。"
"ButJeanwillseeitatonce;sheknowseverythingthathappens,sheissoquickandwise。Doyoumindherknowing?"
"Idon’tseethatIcanhelpitifsheissowonderfullygifted。Letherseewhatshecan,Idon’tmindher。NowI’moff。"Andwithakisstohissister,asuddensmileonhisface,Coventryspranguponhishorseandrodeawayatapacewhichcausedthegroomtostareafterhiminblankamazement。
Nothingmorewasseenofhimtilldinnertime,whenhecameinsoexhilaratedbyhisbriskrideandbusymorningthathefoundsomedifficultyinassuminghiscustomarymanner,andmorethanonceastonishedthefamilybytalkinganimatedlyonvarioussubjectswhichtillnowhadalwaysseemedutterlyuninterestingtohim。Luciawasamazed,hismotherdelighted,andBellacouldhardlycontrolherdesiretoexplainthemystery;
butJeantookitverycalmlyandregardedhimwiththeairofonewhosaid,"Iunderstand,butyouwillsoontireofit。"Thisnettledhimmorethanhewouldconfess,andheexertedhimselftosilentlycontradictthatprophecy。
"HaveyouansweredMr。Sydney’sletter?"askedBella,whentheywereallscatteredaboutthedrawingroomafterdinner。
"No,"answeredherbrother,whowaspacingupanddownwithrestlesssteps,insteadofloungingnearhisbeautifulcousin。
"IaskbecauseIrememberedthatNedsentamessageforhiminmylastnote,ashethoughtyouwouldknowSydney’saddress。
Hereitis,somethingaboutahorse。Pleaseputitinwhenyouwrite,"
andBellalaidthenoteonthewritingtablenearby。
"I’llsenditatonceandhavedonewithit,"mutteredCoventryand,seatinghimself,hedashedoffafewlines,sealedandsenttheletter,andthenresumedhismarch,eyeingthethreeyoungladieswiththreedifferentexpressions,ashepassedandrepassed。Luciasatapart,feigningtobeintentuponabook,andherhandsomefacelookedalmoststerninitshaughtycomposure,forthoughherheartached,shewastooproudtoownit。Bellanowlayonthesofa,halfasleep,arosylittlecreature,asunconsciouslyprettyasachild。MissMuirsatintherecessofadeepwindow,inalowloungingchair,workingatanembroideryframewithagracefulindustrypleasanttosee。Oflateshehadworncolors,forBellahadbeengenerousingifts,andthepalebluemuslinwhichflowedinsoftwavesaboutherwasverybecomingtoherfairskinandgoldenhair。
Theclosebraidsweregone,andloosecurlsdroppedhereandtherefromtheheavycoilwoundaroundherwell-shapedhead。Thetipofonedaintyfootwasvisible,andapetulantlittlegesturewhichnowandthenshookbackthefallingsleevegaveglimpsesofaroundwhitearm。Ned’sgreathoundlaynearby,thesunshineflickeredonherthroughtheleaves,andasshesatsmilingtoherself,whilethedexteroushandsshapedleafandflower,shemadeacharmingpictureofallthatismostwomanlyandwinning;
apicturewhichfewmen’seyeswouldnothavelikedtorestupon。
Anotherchairstoodnearher,andasCoventrywentupanddown,astrongdesiretotakeitpossessedhim。Hewastiredofhisthoughtsandwishedtobeamusedbywatchingthechangesofthegirl’sexpressiveface,listeningtothevaryingtonesofhervoice,andtryingtodiscoverthespellwhichsostronglyattractedhiminspiteofhimself。
Morethanonceheswervedfromhiscoursetogratifyhiswhim,butLucia’spresencealwaysrestrainedhim,andwithawordtothedog,oraglancefromthewindow,aspretextforapause,heresumedhiswalkagain。Somethinginhiscousinsfacereproachedhim,buthermanneroflatewassorepellentthathefeltnodesiretoresumetheirformerfamiliarity,and,wishingtoshowthathedidnotconsiderhimselfbound,hekeptaloof。Itwasaquiettestofthepowerofeachwomanoverthisman;theyinstinctivelyfeltit,andbothtriedtoconquer。Luciaspokeseveraltimes,andtriedtospeakfranklyandaffably;buthermannerwasconstrained,andCoventry,havingansweredpolitely,relapsedintosilence。Jeansaidnothing,butsilentlyappealedtoeyeandearbytheprettypictureshemadeofherself,thesnatchesofsongshesoftlysang,asifforgettingthatshewasnotalone,andashyglancenowandthen,halfwistful,halfmerry,whichwasmorealluringthangracefulfigureorsweetvoice。WhenshehadtormentedLuciaandtemptedCoventrylongenough,shequietlyassertedhersupremacyinawaywhichastonishedherrival,whoknewnothingofthesecretofherbirth,whichknowledgedidmuchtoattractandcharmtheyoungman。
Lettingaballofsilkescapefromherlap,shewatcheditrolltowardthepromenader,whocaughtandreturneditwithanalacritywhichaddedgracetothetriflingservice。
Asshetookit,shesaid,inthefrankwaythatneverfailedtowinhim,"Ithinkyoumustbetired;butifexerciseisnecessary,employyourenergiestosomepurposeandputyourmother’sbasketofsilksinorder。Theyareinatangle,anditwillpleasehertoknowthatyoudidit,asyourbrotherusedtodo。"
"Herculesatthedistaff,"saidCoventrygaily,anddownhesatinthelong-desiredseat。Jeanputthebasketonhisknee,andashesurveyedit,asifdauntedathistask,sheleanedback,andindulgedinamusicallittlepealoflaughtercharmingtohear。Luciasatdumbwithsurprise,toseeherproud,indolentcousinobeyingthecommandsofagoverness,andlookingasifheheartilyenjoyedit。Intenminutesshewasasentirelyforgottenasifshehasbeenmilesaway;forJeanseemedinherwittiest,gayestmood,andasshenowtreatedthe"youngmaster"
likeanequal,therewasnoneoftheformermeektimidity。Yetoftenhereyesfell,hercolorchanged,andthepiquantsalliesfalteredonhertongue,asCoventryinvoluntarilylookeddeepintothefineeyeswhichhadonceshoneonhimsotenderlyinthatmimictragedy。Hecouldnotforgetit,andthoughneitheralludedtoit,thememoryofthepreviouseveningseemedtohauntbothandlendasecretcharmtothepresentmoment。Luciaborethisaslongasshecould,andthenlefttheroomwiththeairofaninsultedprincess;butCoventrydidnot,andJeanfeignednottoseehergo。Bellawasfastasleep,andbeforeheknewhowitcametopass,theyoungmanwaslisteningtothestoryofhiscompanion’slife。Asadtale,toldwithwonderfulskill,forsoonhewasabsorbedinit。Thebasketslidunobservedfromhisknee,thedogwaspushedaway,and,leaningforward,helistenedeagerlyasthegirl’slowvoicerecountedallthehardships,loneliness,andgriefofhershortlife。Inthemidstofatouchingepisodeshestarted,stopped,andlookedstraightbeforeher,withanintentexpressionwhichchangedtooneofintensecontempt,andhereyeturnedtoCoventry’s,asshesaid,pointingtothewindowbehindhim,"Wearewatched。"
"Bywhom?"hedemanded,startingupangrily。
"Hush,saynothing,letitpass。Iamusedtoit。"
"ButIamnot,andI’llnotsubmittoit。Whowasit,Jean?"heansweredhotly。
Shesmiledsignificantlyataknotofrose-coloredribbon,whichalittlegustwasblowingtowardthemalongtheterrace。
Ablackfrowndarkenedtheyoungman’sfaceashesprangoutofthelongwindowandwentrapidlyoutofsight,scrutinizingeachgreennookashepassed。Jeanlaughedquietlyasshewatchedhim,andsaidsoftlytoherself,withhereyesontheflutteringribbon,"Thatwasafortunateaccident,andahappyinspiration。Yes,mydearMrs。Dean,youwillfindthatplayingthespywillonlygetyourmistressaswellasyourselfintotrouble。Youwouldnotbewarned,andyoumusttaketheconsequences,reluctantasI
amtoinjureaworthycreaturelikeyourself。"
SoonCoventrywasheardreturning。Jeanlistenedwithsuspendedbreathtocatchhisfirstwords,forhewasnotalone。
"Sinceyouinsistthatitwasyouandnotyourmistress,Iletitpass,althoughIstillhavemysuspicions。TellMissBeaufortIdesiretoseeherforafewmomentsinthelibrary。Nowgo,Dean,andbecarefulforthefuture,ifyouwishtostayinmyhouse。"
Themaidretired,andtheyoungmancameinlookingbothirefulandstern。
"IwishIhadsaidnothing,butIwasstartled,andspokeinvoluntarily。Nowyouareangry,andIhavemadefreshtroubleforpoorMissLucia。ForgivemeasIforgiveher,andletitpass。Ihavelearnedtobearthissurveillance,andpityhercauselessjealousy,"saidJeanwithaself-reproachfulair。
"Iwillforgivethedishonorableact,butIcannotforgetit,andIintendtoputastoptoit。Iamnotbetrothedtomycousin,asItoldyouonce,butyou,likealltherest,seembentonbelievingthatIam。HithertoIhavecaredtoolittleaboutthemattertosettleit,butnowIshallprovebeyondalldoubtthatIamfree。"
Asheutteredthelastword,CoventrycastonJeanalookthataffectedherstrangely。Shegrewpale,herworkdroppedonherlapandhereyesrosetohis,withaneager,questioningexpression,whichslowlychangedtooneofmingledpainandpity,assheturnedherfaceaway,murmuringinatoneoftendersorrow,"PoorLucia,whowillcomforther?"
ForamomentCoventrystoodsilent,asifweighingsomefatefulpurposeinhismind。AsJean’sraptsighofcompassionreachedhisear,hehadechoeditwithinhimself,andhalfrepentedofhisresolution;
thenhiseyerestedonthegirlbeforehimlookingsolonelyinhersweetsympathyforanotherthathisheartyearnedtowardher。Suddenfireshotintohiseye,suddenwarmthreplacedthecoldsternnessofhisface,andhissteadyvoicefalteredsuddenly,ashesaid,verylow,yetveryearnestly,"Jean,Ihavetriedtoloveher,butIcannot。OughtItodeceiveher,andmakemyselfmiserabletopleasemyfamily?"
"Sheisbeautifulandgood,andlovesyoutenderly;
istherenohopeforher?"askedJean,stillpale,butveryquiet,thoughsheheldonehandagainstherheart,asiftostillorhideitsrapidbeating。
"None,"answeredCoventry。
"Butcanyounotlearntoloveher?Yourwillisstrong,andmostmenwouldnotfinditahardtask。"
"Icannot,forsomethingstrongerthanmyownwillcontrolsme。"
"Whatisthat?"AndJean’sdarkeyeswerefixeduponhim,fullofinnocentwonder。
Hisfell,andhesaidhastily,"Idarenottellyouyet。"
"Pardon!Ishouldnothaveasked。Donotconsultmeinthismatter;Iamnotthepersontoadviseyou。Icanonlysaythatitseemstomeasifanymanwithanemptyheartwouldbegladtohavesobeautifulawomanasyourcousin。"
"Myheartisnotempty,"beganCoventry,drawingastepnearer,andspeakinginapassionatevoice。"Jean,Imustspeak;
hearme。Icannotlovemycousin,becauseIloveyou。"
"Stop!"AndJeansprangupwithacommandinggesture。
"Iwillnothearyouwhileanypromisebindsyoutoanother。Rememberyourmother’swishes,Lucia’shopes,Edward’slastwords,yourownpride,myhumblelot。Youforgetyourself,Mr。Coventry。Thinkwellbeforeyouspeak,weighthecostofthisact,andrecollectwhoIambeforeyouinsultmebyanytransientpassion,anyfalsevows。"
"Ihavethought,Idoweighthecost,andIswearthatIdesiretowooyouashumbly,honestlyasIwouldanyladyintheland。Youspeakofmypride。DoIstoopinlovingmyequalinrank?Youspeakofyourlowlylot,butpovertyisnodisgrace,andthecouragewithwhichyoubearitmakesitbeautiful。IshouldhavebrokenwithLuciabeforeIspoke,butIcouldnotcontrolmyself。Mymotherlovesyou,andwillbehappyinmyhappiness。Edwardmustforgiveme,forIhavetriedtodomybest,butloveisirresistible。Tellme,Jean,isthereanyhopeforme?"
Hehadseizedherhandandwasspeakingimpetuously,withardentfaceandtendertone,butnoanswercame,forasJeanturnedhereloquentcountenancetowardhim,fullofmaidenshameandtimidlove,Dean’sprimfigureappearedatthedoor,andherharshvoicebrokethemomentarysilence,saying,sternly,"MissBeaufortiswaitingforyou,sir。"
"Go,goatonce,andbekind,formysake,Gerald,"
whisperedJean,forhestoodasifdeafandblindtoeverythingbuthervoice,herface。
Asshedrewhisheaddowntowhisper,hercheektouchedhis,andregardlessofDean,hekissedit,passionately,whisperingback,"MylittleJean!ForyoursakeIcanbeanything。"
"MissBeaufortiswaiting。ShallIsayyouwillcome,sir?"demandedDean,paleandgrimwithindignation。
"Yes,yes,I’llcome。Waitformeinthegarden,Jean。"AndCoventryhurriedaway,innomoodfortheinterviewbutanxioustohaveitover。
Asthedoorclosedbehindhim,DeanwalkeduptoMissMuir,tremblingwithanger,andlayingaheavyhandonherarm,shesaidbelowherbreath,"I’vebeenexpectingthis,youartfulcreature。
Isawyourgameanddidmybesttospoilit,butyouaretooquickforme。Youthinkyou’vegothim。Thereyouaremistaken;forassureasmynameisHesterDean,I’llpreventit,orSirJohnshall。"
"Takeyourhandawayandtreatmewithproperrespect,oryouwillbedismissedfromthishouse。DoyouknowwhoIam?"AndJeandrewherselfupwithahaughtyair,whichimpressedthewomanmoredeeplythanherwords。"IamthedaughterofLadyHowardand,ifIchooseit,canbethewifeofMr。Coventry。"
Deandrewbackamazed,yetnotconvinced。Beingawell-trainedservant,aswellasaprudentwoman,shefearedtooversteptheboundsofrespect,togotoofar,andgethermistressaswellasherselfintotrouble。So,thoughshestilldoubtedJean,andhatedhermorethanever,shecontrolledherself。Droppingacurtsy,sheassumedherusualairofdeference,andsaid,meekly,"Ibegpardon,miss。IfI’dknown,Ishouldhaveconductedmyselfdifferently,ofcourse,butordinarygovernessesmakesomuchmischiefinahouse,onecan’thelpmistrustingthem。Idon’twishtomeddleorbeoverbold,butbeingfondofmydearyounglady,I
naturallytakeherpart,andmustsaythatMr。Coventryhasnotactedlikeagentleman。"
"Thinkwhatyouplease,Dean,butIadviseyoutosayaslittleaspossibleifyouwishtoremain。IhavenotacceptedMr。
Coventryyet,andifhechoosestosetasidetheengagementhisfamilymadeforhim,Ithinkhehasarighttodoso。MissBeaufortwouldhardlycaretomarryhimagainsthiswill,becausehepitiesherforherunhappylove,"andwithatranquilsmile,MissMuirwalkedaway。
BehindaMask:or,AWoman’sPower。Chapter7THELASTCHANCE"ShewilltellSirJohn,willshe?ThenImustbebeforeher,andhastenevents。Itwillbeaswelltohaveallsurebeforetherecanbeanydanger。MypoorDean,youarenomatchforme,butyoumayproveannoying,nevertheless。"
ThesethoughtspassedthroughMissMuir’smindasshewentdownthehall,pausinganinstantatthelibrarydoor,forthemurmurofvoiceswasheard。Shecaughtnoword,andhadonlytimeforaninstant’spauseasDean’sheavystepfollowedher。Turning,Jeandrewachairbeforethedoor,and,beckoningtothewoman,shesaid,smilingstill,"Sithereandplaywatchdog。IamgoingtoMissBella,soyoucannodifyouwill。"
"Thankyou,miss。Iwillwaitformyyounglady。
Shemayneedmewhenthishardtimeisover。"AndDeanseatedherselfwitharesoluteface。
Jeanlaughedandwenton;buthereyesgleamedwithsuddenmalice,andsheglancedoverhershoulderwithanexpressionwhichbodedillforthefaithfuloldservant。
"I’vegotaletterfromNed,andhereisatinynoteforyou,"criedBellaasJeanenteredtheboudoir。"Mineisaveryodd,hastyletter,withnonewsinit,buthismeetingwithSydney。Ihopeyoursisbetter,oritwon’tbeverysatisfactory。"
AsSydney’snamepassedBella’slips,allthecolordiedoutofMissMuir’sface,andthenoteshookwiththetremorofherhand。
Herverylipswerewhite,butshesaidcalmly,"Thankyou。Asyouarebusy,I’llgoandreadmyletteronthelawn。"AndbeforeBellacouldspeak,shewasgone。
Hurryingtoaquietnook,Jeantoreopenthenoteandreadthefewblottedlinesitcontained。
IhaveseenSydney;hehastoldmeall;and,hardasIfoundittobelieve,itwasimpossibletodoubt,forhehasdiscoveredproofswhichcannotbedenied。Imakenoreproaches,shalldemandnoconfessionoratonement,forIcannotforgetthatIoncelovedyou。Igiveyouthreedaystofindanotherhome,beforeIreturntotellthefamilywhoyouare。
Goatonce,Ibeseechyou,andsparemethepainofseeingyourdisgrace。
Slowly,steadilyshereadittwiceover,thensatmotionless,knittingherbrowsindeepthought。Presentlyshedrewalongbreath,toreupthenote,andrising,wentslowlytowardtheHall,sayingtoherself,"Threedays,onlythreedays!Canitbeaccomplishedinsoshortatime?Itshallbe,ifwitandwillcandoit,foritismylastchance。Ifthisfails,I’llnotgobacktomyoldlife,butendallatonce。"
Settingherteethandclenchingherhands,asifsomememorystungher,shewentonthroughthetwilight,tofindSirJohnwaitingtogiveheraheartywelcome。
"Youlooktired,mydear。Nevermindthereadingtonight;restyourself,andletthebookgo,"hesaidkindly,observingherwornlook。
"Thankyou,sir。Iamtired,butI’dratherread,elsethebookwillnotbefinishedbeforeIgo。"
"Go,child!Whereareyougoing?"demandedSirJohn,lookinganxiouslyatherasshesatdown。
"Iwilltellyouby-and-by,sir。"Andopeningthebook,Jeanreadforalittlewhile。
Buttheusualcharmwasgone;therewasnospiritinthevoiceofthereader,nointerestinthefaceofthelistener,andsoonhesaid,abruptly,"Mydear,praystop!Icannotlistenwithadividedmind。Whattroublesyou?Tellyourfriend,andlethimcomfortyou。"
Asifthekindwordsovercameher,Jeandroppedthebook,coveredupherface,andweptsobitterlythatSirJohnwasmuchalarmed;forsuchademonstrationwasdoublytouchinginonewhousuallywasallgaietyandsmiles。Ashetriedtosootheher,hiswordsgrewtender,hissolicitudefullofamorethanpaternalanxiety,andhiskindheartoverflowedwithpityandaffectionfortheweepinggirl。Asshegrewcalmer,heurgedhertobefrank,promisingtohelpandcounselher,whatevertheafflictionorfaultmightbe。
"Ah,youaretookind,toogenerous!HowcanIgoawayandleavemyonefriend?"sighedJean,wipingthetearsawayandlookingupathimwithgratefuleyes。
"Thenyoudocarealittlefortheoldman?"saidSirJohnwithaneagerlook,aninvoluntarypressureofthehandheheld。
Jeanturnedherfaceaway,andanswered,verylow,"Nooneeverwassokindtomeasyouhavebeen。CanIhelpcaringforyoumorethanIcanexpress?"
SirJohnwasalittledeafattimes,butheheardthat,andlookedwellpleased。Hehadbeenratherthoughtfuloflate,haddressedwithunusualcare,beenparticularlygallantandgaywhentheyoungladiesvisitedhim,andmorethanonce,whenJeanpausedinthereadingtoaskaquestion,hehadbeenforcedtoconfessthathehadnotbeenlistening;
though,asshewellknew,hiseyeshadbeenfixeduponher。Sincethediscoveryofherbirth,hismannerhadbeenpeculiarlybenignant,andmanylittleactshadprovedhisinterestandgoodwill。Now,whenJeanspokeofgoing,apanicseizedhim,anddesolationseemedabouttofallupontheoldHall。
Somethinginherunusualagitationstruckhimaspeculiarandexcitedhiscuriosity。Neverhadsheseemedsointerestingasnow,whenshesatbesidehimwithtearfuleyes,andsomesofttroubleinherheartwhichshedarednotconfess。
"Tellmeeverything,child,andletyourfriendhelpyouifhecan。"Formerlyhesaid"father"or"theoldman,"butlatelyhealwaysspokeofhimselfasher"friend。"
"Iwilltellyou,forIhavenooneelsetoturnto。ImustgoawaybecauseMr。Coventryhasbeenweakenoughtoloveme。"
"What,Gerald?"criedSirJohn,amazed。
"Yes;todayhetoldmethis,andleftmetobreakwithLucia;soIrantoyoutohelpmepreventhimfromdisappointinghismother’shopesandplans。"
SirJohnhadstartedupandpaceddowntheroom,butasJeanpausedheturnedtowardher,saying,withanalteredface,"Thenyoudonotlovehim?Isitpossible?"
"No,Idonotlovehim,"sheansweredpromptly。
"Yetheisallthatwomenusuallyfindattractive。
Howisitthatyouhaveescaped,Jean?"
"Ilovesomeoneelse,"wasthescarcelyaudiblereply。
SirJohnresumedhisseatwiththeairofamanbentongettingatamystery,ifpossible。
"Itwillbeunjusttoletyousufferforthefollyoftheseboys,mylittlegirl。Nedisgone,andIwassurethatGeraldwassafe;butnowthathisturnhascome,Iamperplexed,forhecannotbesentaway。"
"No,itisIwhomustgo;butitseemssohardtoleavethissafeandhappyhome,andwanderawayintothewide,coldworldagain。Youhaveallbeentookindtome,andnowseparationbreaksmyheart。"
Asobendedthespeech,andJean’sheadwentdownuponherhandsagain。SirJohnlookedatheramoment,andhisfineoldfacewasfullofgenuineemotion,ashesaidslowly,"Jean,willyoustayandbeadaughtertothesolitaryoldman?"
"No,sir"wastheunexpectedanswer。
"Andwhynot?"askedSirJohn,lookingsurprised,butratherpleasedthanangry。
"BecauseIcouldnotbeadaughtertoyou;andevenifIcoulditwouldnotbewise,forthegossipswouldsayyouwerenotoldenoughtobetheadoptedfatherofagirllikeme。SirJohn,youngasIam,Iknowmuchoftheworld,andamsurethatthiskindplanisimpractical;
butIthankyoufromthebottomofmyheart。"
"Wherewillyougo,Jean?"askedSirJohn,afterapause。
"ToLondon,andtrytofindanothersituationwhereIcandonoharm。"
"Willitbedifficulttofindanotherhome?"
"Yes。IcannotaskMrs。Coventrytorecommendme,whenIhaveinnocentlybroughtsomuchtroubleintoherfamily;andLadySydneyisgone,soIhavenofriend。"
"ExceptJohnCoventry。Iwillarrangeallthat。Whenwillyougo,Jean?"
"Tomorrow。"
"Sosoon!"Andtheoldman’svoicebetrayedthetroublehewastryingtoconceal。
Jeanhadgrownverycalm,butitwasthecalmnessofdesperation。Shehadhopedthatthefirsttearswouldproducetheavowalforwhichshewaited。Ithadnot,andshebegantofearthatherlastchancewasslippingfromher。Didtheoldmanloveher?Ifso,whydidhenotspeak?Eagertoprofitbyeachmoment,shewasonthealertforanyhopefulhint,anypropitiousword,look,oract,andeverynervewasstrungtotheutmost。
"Jean,mayIaskonequestion?"saidSirJohn。
"Anythingofme,sir。"
"Thismanwhomyoulove——canhenothelpyou?"
"Hecouldifheknew,buthemustnot。"
"Ifheknewwhat?Yourpresenttrouble?"
"No。Mylove。"
"Hedoesknowthis,then?"
"No,thankheaven!Andheneverwill。"
"Whynot?"
"BecauseIamtooproudtoownit。"
"Helovesyou,mychild?"
"Idonotknow——Idarenothopeit,"murmuredJean。
"CanInothelpyouhere?Believeme,Idesiretoseeyousafeandhappy。IstherenothingIcando?"
"Nothing,nothing。"
"MayIknowthename?"
"No!No!Letmego;Icannotbearthisquestioning!"
AndJean’sdistressfulfacewarnedhimtoasknomore。
"Forgiveme,andletmedowhatImay。Restherequietly。I’llwritealettertoagoodfriendofmine,whowillfindyouahome,ifyouleaveus。"
AsSirJohnpassedintohisinnerstudy,Jeanwatchedhimwithdespairingeyesandwrungherhands,sayingtoherself,HasallmyskilldesertedmewhenIneeditmost?HowcanImakehimunderstand,yetnotoversteptheboundsofmaidenmodesty?Heissoblind,sotimid,orsodullhewillnotsee,andtimeisgoingfast。WhatshallIdotoopenhiseyes?
Herowneyesrovedabouttheroom,seekingforsomeaidfrominanimatethings,andsoonshefoundit。ClosebehindthecouchwhereshesathungafineminiatureofSirJohn。Atfirsthereyerestedonitasshecontrasteditsplacidcomelinesswiththeunusualpalloranddisquietofthelivingfaceseenthroughtheopendoor,astheoldmansatathisdesktryingtowriteandcastingcovertglancesatthegirlishfigurehehadleftbehindhim。Affectingunconsciousnessofthis,Jeangazedonasifforgetfulofeverythingbutthepicture,andsuddenly,asifobeyinganirresistibleimpulse,shetookitdown,lookedlongandfondlyatit,then,shakinghercurlsaboutherface,asiftohidetheact,pressedittoherlipsandseemedtoweepoveritinanuncontrollableparoxysmoftendergrief。Asoundstartledher,andlikeaguiltything,sheturnedtoreplacethepicture;butitdroppedfromherhandassheutteredafaintcryandhidherface,forSirJohnstoodbeforeher,withanexpressionwhichshecouldnotmistake。
"Jean,whydidyoudothat?"heasked,inaneager,agitatedvoice。
Noanswer,asthegirlsanklower,likeoneoverwhelmedwithshame。Layinghishandonthebenthead,andbendinghisown,hewhispered,"Tellme,isthenameJohnCoventry?"
Stillnoanswer,butastifledsoundbetrayedthathiswordshadgonehome。
"Jean,shallIgobackandwritetheletter,ormayIstayandtellyouthattheoldmanlovesyoubetterthanadaughter?"
Shedidnotspeak,butalittlehandstoleoutfromunderthefallinghair,asiftokeephim。Withabrokenexclamationheseizedit,drewherupintohisarms,andlaidhisgrayheadonherfairone,toohappyforwords。ForamomentJeanMuirenjoyedhersuccess;then,fearinglestsomesuddenmishapshoulddestroyit,shehastenedtomakeallsecure。Lookingupwithwell-feignedtimidityandhalf-confessedaffection,shesaidsoftly,"ForgivemethatIcouldnothidethisbetter。Imeanttogoawayandnevertellit,butyouweresokinditmadethepartingdoublyhard。Whydidyouasksuchdangerousquestions?Whydidyoulook,whenyoushouldhavebeenwritingmydismissal?"
"HowcouldIdreamthatyoulovedme,Jean,whenyourefusedtheonlyofferIdaredmake?CouldIbepresumptuousenoughtofancyyouwouldrejectyoungloversforanoldmanlikeme?"askedSirJohn,caressingher。
"Youarenotold,tome,buteverythingIloveandhonor!"interruptedJean,withatouchofgenuineremorse,asthisgenerous,honorablegentlemangaveherbothheartandhome,unconsciousofdeceit。
"ItisIwhoampresumptuous,todaretoloveonesofaraboveme。ButIdidnotknowhowdearyouweretometillIfeltthatImustgo。Ioughtnottoacceptthishappiness。Iamnotworthyofit;andyouwillregretyourkindnesswhentheworldblamesyouforgivingahometoonesopoor,andplain,andhumbleasI。"
"Hush,mydarling。Icarenothingfortheidlegossipoftheworld。Ifyouarehappyhere,lettongueswagastheywill。Ishallbetoobusyenjoyingthesunshineofyourpresencetoheedanythingthatgoesonaboutme。But,Jean,youaresureyouloveme?ItseemsincrediblethatIshouldwintheheartthathasbeensocoldtoyounger,bettermenthanI。"
"DearSirJohn,besureofthis,Iloveyoutruly。
Iwilldomybesttobeagoodwifetoyou,andprovethat,inspiteofmymanyfaults,Ipossessthevirtueofgratitude。"
Ifhehadknownthestraitshewasin,hewouldhaveunderstoodthecauseofthesuddentenorofherwords,theintensethankfulnessthatshoneinherface,therealhumilitythatmadeherstoopandkissthegeneroushandthatgavesomuch。Forafewmomentssheenjoyedandlethimenjoythehappypresent,undisturbed。Buttheanxietywhichdevouredher,thedangerwhichmenacedher,soonrecalledher,andforcedhertowringyetmorefromtheunsuspiciousheartshehadconquered。
"Noneedoflettersnow,"saidSirJohn,astheysatsidebyside,withthesummermoonlightglorifyingalltheroom。"Youhavefoundahomeforlife;mayitproveahappyone。"
"Itisnotmineyet,andIhaveastrangeforebodingthatitneverwillbe,"sheansweredsadly。
"Why,mychild?"
"BecauseIhaveanenemywhowilltrytodestroymypeace,topoisonyourmindagainstme,andtodrivemeoutfrommyparadise,tosufferagainallIhavesufferedthislastyear。"
"YoumeanthatmadSydneyofwhomyoutoldme?"