HewasparticularlyfondofAnnieColborn,whosefatherwasamagistrateandagoldcommissioner,andapersonofverygreatimportance。WhetherornotKingBillywaswiseinhisgeneration,andoutoftheunwrittenScripturesofthesomberbushhadculledamaximinculcatingthewisdomofmakingfriendsofthesonsofMammon,I
  cannotsay,buthewasalwaysgoodtoAnnie。Formyownpart,Idonotbelievethesimple-heartedoldkinghadanysuchnotioninsidehisthickantipodeanskull。Hewasgoodbecausehewasnotbad,whichistheverybestmoralityafterall,andagreatadvanceonmuchwehearof。And,besides,hewassometimeshungry,andMr。Colborn’sChinesecookwasveryhaughty,andnottobeapproachedexceptthroughanintermediary。AndwhosocapableofconciliatingWongasAnnie?Wongwouldmakehercakesevenwhenhispigtailhungdespondentlyfromhisachingheadafteranopiumdebauch,andhischeekswereshiningwithanythingbutgladness;forifyougetdrunkveryoftenonopiumyoushine。
  OldBillywasmostlytobefoundwheretherewasachanceofadrink;
  butifthefountainsweredriedup,orhehadbeeninsultedbysomedemocratic,revolutionary,king-hatingminerknockinghishighhatdownoverhiseyes,heusuallywentuptoMr。Colborn’splace,andsatonthefence,oronalogoutsidethegate。SohewasoftenverymelancholywhenAnniecameout。Onedayhishatwasvery,verybadlybulgedindeed。
  "Yourhatisverybadto-day,KingBilly,"saidsix-year-oldAnnie,asshestoodinfrontofhimcritically,withherheadononeside。
  Withoutknowingit,thechildhadcometolookuponthestateofthepoorking’shatasemblematicalofhisstateofmind。Whenitshutuplikeaclosedconcertinahisbarometerwaslow。
  "Yes,missy,"saidtheking;"whitemanknock’umovereyes,and"——
  witharubdownhisface——"skin’umnose。"
  Sheinspectedhisnosecarefully——thoughfromacertaindistance,becauseherownnosewasverygood,bothinsideandout,andsheknewthekingnevergotwashedunlessitrainedwhenhewasverydrunk。Andthiswastheendofsummer。IthadnotrainedsinceNovember。
  "Thereisnotverymuchskinoff,"saidAnnie。"Youhadbetterwashit。"
  Thekingmadeawryfaceandchangedtheconversation。
  "Yougot’umhat,MissyAnnie?Onehatbaalbrokum,allasamewhitefellowhat。Badhat,KingBillybad;blackfellow,whitefellowlaugh。"
  Hepeeredintohishat,and,tryingtostraightenitout,puthisfistthroughtheside。PoorBillylookedasifhecouldcry。
  "Youstopaminute,"saidAnnie,and,flyingindoors,shebroughtoutaverygoodhighhatindeed。"Budgeree!"thoughttheking,thatwasagoodhat。Hecouldgodownthestreetslikeakingindeed,abletoholduphisheadwithanyrichmaninBallarat。Hetriediton,andthoughitwasmuchtoobig,heknewitshone。Andthegloryofahatisinitsshiningasmuchasitsshape;evenablackfellowknowsthat。
  Butthathatverynearlyledtoserioustrouble。Foronething,Mr。
  Colbornmissedit;andneverthinkingAnniehadgivenitaway,whenhesawthekingsittingonthefencedecoratedwithit,hestoppedandinterviewedhim。
  "Wheredidyougetthathat,youoldthief?"askedthemagistrate,withoutanypolitenesstohimwhoruledthelandbeforewhitemenbrokeintothecountry。Someinauthorityarepolitetothosetheydispossess;thePrussians,forinstance,tothemiserableKingBillyswhostrutabouttheempire。ButtheAnglo-Saxononlyrespectshimself,andeventhattoalimitedextent,innewconquests。
  ThequestiontroubledKingBillygreatly。HedidnotknowthatMr。
  ColbornwouldassoonhavethoughtofmurderingAnnieasofbullyingher;soheliedpromptly:"Mebuy’um,MistahCobon!"
  Mr。Colborntookitoffofhishead,andsawthatitwashis,ashehadthought。WhathewouldhavesaidIdonotknow,forjustthenheheardavoicebehindhim:
  "Papa,itismyfault;IgaveittoKingBilly。"
  Colbornturnedroundandtookherup,lettingfallthehatashedidso。Billymadeajump,pickeditup,and,inhisagitation,brusheditcarefullythewrongway。
  "Mydear,ifyougaveittohimit’sallright。Butwhydidn’ttheoldfooltellme?"
  "He’snotanoldfool,papa,andyoumustnotsayso。He’sagoodman,andIthinkhethoughtyouwouldbeangrywithme。Didn’tyou,KingBilly?"Andtheking,withasmileofconsciousrectitude,admitteditwasso。
  Mr。Colborngavehimsixpence;andhegaveAnnieagreatmanykisses,declaring,withuncommonthoughtlessness,thatwhatevershedidwasright,andthatshecouldgivethekingallhishouse,andAustraliatoboot。WhereonKingBillysmiledasmilethatwasportentous,andshowedhisteethtotheuttermostrecessesofhisamplemouth。Lookingdown,hesurveyedtherestofhisclothes,whichinpartsresembledthechild’sdefinitionofanetasalotofholestiedtogetherwithstring,and,lookingup,heinspectedMr。Colbornasifestimatingtheresourcesofhiswardrobe。Butbeingurgentlysmittenwiththenecessityofgettingridofhissixpence,heshambledoffintothetown。Othermattersmightwait;thatadmittedofnodelay。
  ThemindofKingBillywasnotabigmind;itwouldnomorehavetakeninanabstractideathanhis/gunyah/wouldhaveaccommodatedagrandpiano。Hewasassimpleassunlight,andtoresolvehisintellectintosevencolourswouldwantthemostingeniousspectroscope。Buthecouldmakeaninferencefromapositivefact,and,havingmadeit,hedidnotallowmoreremotedeductionstotroublehislegitimateconclusion。
  HeceasedtofearMr。Colborn,andbegantolookuponthemagistrate’spropertyasifitwereatleasthalfhisown。Sohegotverydrunkonthehospitalityofanewchumminerwhohadbeensuccessful,andpresently,presumingonhisnewpossessions,gotintoafightwithhisentertainerandadisrespectfulsubkingofhisownblacks,andwasreducedtoworseragsthanever。
  Nextmorninghesatoutsidethemagistrate’shouse,onthelowestloghecouldfind,andwhenMr。Colborncameouthetackledhimwiththeairofasubjectkingdemandingredressofhissuzerain。
  "Well,Billy,whatisit?"askedthesuzerain。
  "Youbelonggublement?"saidBillytheking,withaquestion,animplieddoubt,andagreatcomplaintinhisvoice。Colbornlaughed。
  "Why,yes,Billy;Ibelongtothegovernment,Isuppose。"
  "Then,"saidBilly,"whatyousaytowhitefellowmake’umblackfellowdrunk,knock’umallabout?Callyouthatgublement?"Andheshowedhiskinglyrobe,whichhadoncebeenafrock-coat,withgreatdisgust。
  However,hemetwithnofavour,andwastoldthatheshouldnotgetdrunk——thatitservedhimright;withwhichmagisterialdecisionColborngotonhishorseandrodeofftotheflat。
  Thekingsatdownsadlyandconsideredthicklyinhisslowbrain。
  Anniedidnotcomeout,andheknewbetterthantoaskforher,forMr。Colborn’sniece,whokepthouseforhim,wasbutnewlycomefromhome,andthoughtallblackfellowscongenitalmurderers,whichindeedtheyareinsomepartsofthenorth。SoBillysatandwaited,forhewantedanewcoat。Howcouldheberespectedinonewhosenaturaldivisionswereunnaturallyextendedtotheveryneck?Itwasobviouslynecessarytogetanewgarmentatonce,andthebestchanceofagoodonelayinlittleAnnie’skindness。Butinordertoobviatetheslightestchanceofhisgirlpatron’srefusing,hemustbringhersomeoffering。Hewentoffintothebushatthebackofthetown,and,comingtowherethreeorfourblackfellowswerecamped,hesatdownandtalkedwiththem。Inspiteoftheheat,awretchedoldgin,muffledupinheronegarment,araggedblanket,heldherhandsoverthefewburningstickswhichrepresentanAustraliannative’sideaofafire。PresentlyKingBillyrose,and,takingatomahawk,wentfartherintothebush。Helookedabout,andatlastcametoatree,whichheclimbednativefashion,firstdiscardinghisclothes。Whennearthefirstbigbrancheshecametoahole,and,puttinginhishand,heextractedalivelyyoungpossumbythetail。
  NextmorninghewassittingontheColborns’fenceasusual。Athisfeetwasalittleboxwithtwoorthreeslatsnailedroughlyacrossit。Insidewasthepossum。KingBillywonderedwhatkindofacoathecouldget。Helikedafrock-coat;therewassomethingmajesticaboutit,somethingfineandample。Commonmorningcoatswouldnotdo;noonewouldinsultakingbyofferinghimtweed;evenlittleAnnieknewbetterthanthat,especiallyifhegaveheralivepossumhehadcaughthimself。AndwhenAnniedidcomeout,shewasintheseventhheavenofdelightwiththepossum,andreadytobestowanythingintheworldonKingBilly。
  "YougivepoorBillyonefellowcoat,missy,andhegodownalongstreetlikeaking。"
  Annieflewintothehouseandseizedthefirstgarmentshelaidherlittlehandson。Itwasherfather’sdress-coat。Sherolleditup,and,runningout,thrustitexcitedlyintotheking’sblackpaw。Ashewentoff,shecarriedthepossumindoors,andwasdeliriouslyhappyforhours。
  KingBillyhurriedintothebushtillhecametoawater-hole,and,strippingoffhisrags,heheldupthecoat。Hisjawfell;therewasaremarkableexiguityaboutthecoatwhichwasinexplicable。Hehadneverobservedsuchinhislife。Heputiton,and,bendingoverthesurfaceofthestillpool,tookagoodlookatthegeneraleffect。Itwasnotbadfromsomepointsofview,butBillyhadhisdoubtsastowhetherhewouldbereceivedwiththerespectduetohistitleifhewentintoBallaratclothedthus。Hetriedtobuttonit,butdiscoveredthat,ifithadeverbeenintendedforbuttoning,hecouldnotgetittomeetacrosshischest。Hepickeduphisdiscardedfrock-coat,whichwasheldtogetherbythecollar;thenhefeltthestuffofwhichthedress-coatwasmade,andthematerialpleasedhim。"Oh,why,"askedBilly,"haditnotbeenmadewithfronttails?"Hesawatlastthatthiscoatandhishighhatalonewereinsufficientforcivilisation。
  Forfulldressinacorroboreeitmightdo。Unconsciously,hewassowroughtuponbythepurposeforwhichthecoathadbeenbuiltthathedeterminedtoreserveitforpartiesintheseclusionofthebush,whereanymerrimentcouldberightlycheckedbyacrackfromhiswaddy。Heplanteditcarefullyinahollowlog,and,havinginsertedhimselfwithasmuchcareintohisdiscardedrags,hewonderedoffintothetown。Hegotveryintoxicatedthatnight,anddeterminedtohaveapartyallbyhimself。
  Nowitmayseemveryannoying,andIconfessIfinditsomyself;but,havinggotsofar,Idon’tseemywaytotelltherest,evenifAnnieColborntoldmethestoryherself。Forafterherfather’sdeathshemarriedamanwhohadasmallsheep-stationandahotelnotfortymilesfromCarabobla,inNewSouthWales。IstayedthereacoupleofdayswhenIwasgoingnorthtotheMurrumbidgee。Butthoughshetoldme,Icannottellitagain,atleastnotinbold,badprint。Still,itwilloccurtomostthatamanofKingBilly’ssweetandinnocentdispositionmightverylikelycreateasensation,whenhisnaturaldiscretionwasdrownedinbadwhisky,ifheendedhissolitarycorroboreeinthemoonlightbygoinguptoColborn’shouseinordertodeliveraspeechofgratitudethroughtheFrenchwindows。
  SoColbornandthekinghadacorroboreealltothemselvesintheopenspacebeforethehouse,whilethegoldcommissioner’sguestsroaredwithlaughtertofindoutwherethemissingdress-coatwas。NextdayKingBillyresumedthesplitfrock-coat。
  THYHEART’SDESIRE
  BY
  NETTASYRETT
  Thetentswerepitchedinthelittleplainsurroundedbyhills。Rightandlefttherewerestretchesoftender,vividgreenwheretheyoungcornwasspringing;fartherstill,oneitherhand,theplainwasyellowwithmustard-flower;butintheimmediateforegrounditwasbareandstony。Afewthornybushespushedtheirstragglingwaythroughthedrysoil,ineffectivelyasfarasthegraceofthelandscapewasconcerned,fortheymerelyservedtoemphasisethebarrenaridnessofthelandthatstretchedbeforethetents,slopinggraduallytothedistanthills。
  Thehillswereuninterestingenoughinthemselves;theyhadnograndeurofoutline,nopicturesquenesseven,thoughatmorningandeveningthesun,likeagreatmagician,clothedthemwithbeautyatatouch。
  Theyhadbeguntochange,tosoften,toblushroseredintheeveninglight,whenawomancametotheentranceofthelargestofthetentsandlookedtowardthem。Sheleanedagainstthesupportononesideofthecanvasflap,and,puttingbackherhead,restedthat,too,againstit,whilehereyeswanderedovertheplainandoverthedistanthills。
  Shewasbareheaded,forthecoveringofthetentprojectedafewfeettoformanawningoverhead。Thegentlebreezewhichhadrisenwithsundownstirredthesoftbrowntendrilsofhaironhertemples,andflutteredherpinkcottongownalittle。Shestoodverystill,withherarmshangingandherhandsclaspedlooselyinfrontofher。Therewasaboutherwholeattitudeanairofstudiedquietwhichinsomevaguefashiontheslightclaspofherhandsaccentuated。Herface,withitstightly,almostrigidlyclosedlips,wouldhavebeenquiteinkeepingwiththeimpressionofconsciouscalmwhichherentirepresencesuggested,haditnotbeenthatwhensheraisedhereyesastrangecontradictiontothisideawasafforded。Theywerelargegrayeyes,unusuallybrightandratherstartlingineffect,fortheyseemedtheonlylivethingabouther。Gleamingfromherstill,setface,therewassomethingalmostalarmingintheirbrilliancy。Theysoftenedwithasuddenglowofpleasureastheyrestedonthetranslucentgreenofthewheat-fieldsunderthebroadgeneroussunlight,andthenwanderedtowherethepurevividyellowofthemustard-flowerspreadinwavestothebaseofthehills,nowmysticallyveiledinradiance。
  Shestoodmotionless,watchingtheirmelting,elusivechangesfrompalpitatingrosetothetransparentpurpleofamethyst。Thestillnessofeveningwasbrokenbythemonotonous,notunmusicalcreakingofaPersianwheelatsomelittledistancetotheleftofthetent。Thewellstoodinalittlegroveoftrees;betweentheirbranchesshecouldsee,whensheturnedherhead,thecolouredsarisofthevillagewomen,wheretheystoodingroupschatteringastheydrewthewater,andthelittlenakedbrownbabiesthattoddledbesidethemorsprawledonthehardgroundbeneaththetrees。Fromthevillageofflat-roofedmudhousesunderthelowhillatthebackofthetents,otherwomenwerecrossingtheplaintowardthewell,theirterra-cottawater-jarspoisedeasilyontheirheads,castinglongshadowsonthesun-bakedgroundastheycame。
  Presently,inthedistance,fromthedirectionofthesunlithillsoppositealittlegroupofmencameintosight。Faroff,themustard-
  colouredjacketsandtheredturbansoftheorderliesmadevividsplashesofcolouronthedullplain。Astheycamenearer,thegunsslungacrosstheirshoulders,thecasesofmathematicalinstruments,thehammers,andotherheavybaggagetheycarriedforthesahib,becamevisible。Alittleinfront,atwalkingpacerodethesahibhimself,makingnotesashecameinabookheheldbeforehim。Thegirlatthetententrancewatchedtheadvanceofthelittlecompanyindifferently,itseemed;exceptforaslighttighteningofthemusclesabouthermouth,herfaceremainedunchanged。Whilehewasstillsomelittledistanceaway,themanwiththenotebookraisedhisheadandsmiledawkwardlyashesawherstandingthere。Awkwardness,perhaps,bestdescribesthewholeman。Hewasbadlyputtogether,loose-jointed,ungainly。Thefactthathewastallprofitedhimnothing,foritmerelyemphasisedtheextremeungracefulnessofhisfigure。Hislongpalefacewasmadepalerbytheshockofcoarse,tow-
  colouredhair;hiseyes,even,lookedcolourless,thoughtheywerecertainlytheleastuninterestingfeatureofhisface,fortheywerenotdevoidofexpression。Hehadawayofslouchingwhenhemovedthatsingularlyintensifiedthegeneraluncouthnessofhisappearance。"Areyouverytired?"askedhiswife,gently,whenhehaddismountedclosetothetent。Thequestionwouldhavebeenanunnecessaryonehaditbeenputtoherinsteadoftoherhusband,forhervoicehadthatpeculiarflattonelesssoundforwhichextremewearinessisanswerable。
  "Well,no,mydear,notvery,"hereplied,drawlingoutthewordswithanexasperatingairofdeliveringafinalverdict,afterdeepreflectiononthesubject。
  Thegirlglancedoncemoreatthefadingcoloursonthehills。"Comeinandrest,"shesaid,movingasidealittletolethimpass。
  Shestoodlingeringamomentafterhehadenteredthetent,asthoughunwillingtoleavetheouterair;andbeforesheturnedtofollowhimshedrewadeepbreath,andherhandwentforoneswiftsecondtoherthroatasthoughshefeltstifled。
  Lateronthateveningshesatinhertent,sewingbythelightofthelampthatstoodonherlittletable。
  Oppositetoher,herhusbandstretchedhisungainlylengthinadeck-
  chair,andturnedoverapileofofficialnotes。Everynowandthenhereyeswanderedfromthegaysilksofthetable-covershewasembroideringtothecanvaswallswhichboundedthenarrowspaceintowhichtheirfewhouseholdgoodswerecrowded。Outsidetherewasadeephush。Thesilenceofthevastemptyplainseemedtoworkitswayslowly,steadilyintowardthelittlepatchoflightsetinitsmidst。
  Thegirlfeltitineverynerve;itwasasthoughsomesoft-footed,noiseless,shapelesscreature,whosepresencesheonlydimlydivined,wasapproachingnearer——/nearer/。Theheavyouterstillnesswasinsomewaymademoreterrifyingbytherustleofthepapersherhusbandwasreading,bythecreakingofhischairashemoved,andbythelittlefidgetinggruntsandhalf-exclamationswhichfromtimetotimebrokefromhim。Hiswife’shandshookateveryunintelligiblemutterfromhim,andtheslighthabitualcontractionbetweenhereyesdeepened。
  Allatonceshethrewherworkdownontothetable。"Forheaven’ssake——/please/,John,/talk/!"shecried。Hereyes,forthemoment’sspaceinwhichtheymetthestartledonesofherhusband,hadawild,huntedlook,butitwasgonealmostbeforehisslowbrainhadtimetonotethatithadbeenthere——andwasvaguelydisturbing。Shelaughedalittleunsteadily。
  "DidIstartleyou?I’msorry。I"——shelaughedagain——"IbelieveI’malittlenervous。Whenoneisalldayalone——"Shepausedwithoutfinishingthesentence。Theman’sfacechangedsuddenly。Awaveoftendernesssweptoverit,andatthesametimeanexpressionofhalf-
  incredulousdelightshoneinhispaleeyes。
  "Poorlittlegirl,areyoureallylonely?"hesaid。Eventherealfeelinginhistonefailedtorobhisvoiceofitspeculiarlyirritatinggratingquality。Heroseawkwardly,andmovedtohiswife’sside。
  Involuntarilysheshrankalittle,andthehandwhichhehadstretchedouttotouchherhairsanktohisside。Sherecoveredherselfimmediately,andturnedherfaceuptohis,thoughshedidnotraisehereyes;buthedidnotkissher。Instead,hestoodinanembarrassedfashionamomentbyherside,andthenwentbacktohisseat。
  Therewassilenceagainforsometime。Themanlaybackinhischair,gazingathisbig,clumsyshoesasthoughhehopedforsomeinspirationfromthatquarter,whilehiswifeworkedwithnervoushaste。
  "Don’tletmekeepyoufromreading,John,"shesaid,andhervoicehadregaineditsusualgentletone。
  "No,mydear;I’mjustthinkingofsomethingtosaytoyou,butI
  don’tseem——"
  Shesmiledalittle。Inspiteofherself,herlipcurledfaintly。
  "Don’tworryaboutit;itwasstupidofmetoexpectit。Imean——"sheadded,hastily,immediatelyrepentingthesarcasm。Sheglancedfurtivelyathim,buthisfacewasquiteunmoved;evidentlyhehadnotnoticedit,andshesmiledfaintlyagain。
  "OKathie,Iknewtherewas/something/I’dforgottentotellyou,mydear;there’samancomingdownhere。Idon’tknowwhether——"
  Shelookedupsharply。"Amancoming/here/?Whatfor?"sheinterrupted,breathlessly。
  "Senttohelpmeaboutthisoil-boringbusiness,mydear。"
  Hehadlightedhispipe,andwassmokingplacidly,takinglongwhiffsbetweenhiswords。
  "Well?"impatientlyquestionedhiswife,fixingherbrighteyesonhisface。
  "Well——that’sall,mydear。"
  Shecheckedanexclamation。"Butdon’tyouknowanythingabouthim——
  hisname?wherehecomesfrom?whatheislike?"Shewasleaningforwardagainstthetable,herneedle,withalongendofyellowsilkdrawnhalf-waythroughherwork,heldinherupraisedhand,herwholeattitudeoneofquiveringexcitementandexpectancy。
  Themantookhispipefromhismouthdeliberately,withalookofslowwonder。
  "Why,Kathie,youseemquiteanxious。Ididn’tknowyou’dbesointerested,mydear。Well,"——anotherlongpullathispipe,——"hisname’sBrook——/Brookfield/,Ithink。"Hepausedagain。"Thispipedoesn’tdrawwellabit;there’ssomethingwrongwithit,Ishouldn’twonder,"headded,takingitoutandexaminingthebowlasthoughstruckwiththebrillianceoftheidea。
  Thewomanoppositeputdownherworkandclinchedherhandsunderthetable。
  "Goon,John,"shesaid,presently,inatense,vibratingvoice;"hisnameisBrookfield。Well,wheredoeshecomefrom?"
  "Straightfromhome,mydear,Ibelieve。"Hefumbledinhispocket,andaftersometimeextricatedapencil,withwhichhebegantopokethetobaccointhebowlinanineffectualaimlessfashion,becomingcompletelyengrossedintheoccupationapparently。Therewasanotherlongpause。Thewomanwentonworking,orfeigningtowork,forherhandsweretremblingagooddeal。
  Aftersomemomentssheraisedherheadagain。"John,willyoumindattendingtomeonemoment,andansweringthesequestionsasquicklyasyoucan?"Theemphasisonthelastwordwassofaintastobealmostasimperceptibleasthetouchofexasperatedcontemptwhichshecouldnotabsolutelybanishfromhertone。
  Herhusband,lookingup,metherclearbrightgaze,andreddenedlikeaschool-boy。
  "Whereabouts’/fromhome/’doeshecome?"sheasked,inastudiedlygentlefashion。
  "Well,fromLondon,Ithink,"hereplied,almostbrisklyforhim,thoughhestammeredandtrippedoverthewords。"He’sauniversitychap;Iusedtohearhewasclever;Idon’tknowaboutthat,I’msure;
  heusedtochaffme,Iremember,but——"
  "Chaff/you/?Youhavemethimthen?"
  "Yes,mydear,"——hewasfastrelapsingintohisslowdrawlagain,——
  "thatis,Iwenttoschoolwithhim;butit’salongtimeago。
  Brookfield——yes,thatmustbehisname。"
  Shewaitedamoment;then,"Whenishecoming?"sheinquired,abruptly。
  "Letmesee——to-day’s——"
  "/Monday/;"thewordcameswiftlybetweenhersetteeth。
  "Ah,yes——Monday;well,"reflectively,"/next/Monday,mydear。"
  Mrs。Draytonrose,andbegantopacesoftlythenarrowpassagebetweenthetableandthetentwall,herhandsclaspedlooselybehindher。
  "Howlonghaveyouknownthis?"shesaid,stoppingabruptly。"OJohn,you/needn’t/consider;it’squiteasimplequestion。To-day?
  Yesterday?
  Herfootmovedrestlesslyonthegroundasshewaited。
  "Ithinkitwasthedaybeforeyesterday,"hereplied。
  "Thenwhy,inheaven’sname,didn’tyoutellmebefore?"shebrokeout,fiercely。
  "Mydear,itslippedmymemory。IfI’dthoughtyouwouldbeinterested——"
  "Interested!"Shelaughedshortly。"It/is/ratherinterestingtohearthataftersixmonthsofthis"——shemadeaquickcomprehensivegesturewithherhand——"onewillhavesomeonetospeakto——someone。ItisthehandofProvidence;itcomesjustintimetosavemefrom——"Shecheckedherselfabruptly。
  Hesatstaringupatherstupidly,withoutaword。
  "It’sallright,John,"shesaid,withaquickchangeoftone,gatheringupherworkquietlyasshespoke。"I’mnotmad——yet。You——
  youmustgetusedtotheselittleoutbreaks,"sheadded,afteramoment,smilingfaintly;"and,todomejustice,Idon’t/often/
  troubleyouwiththem,doI?I’mjustalittletired,orit’stheheator——something。No——don’ttouchme!"shecried,shrinkingback;forhehadrisenslowlyandwascomingtowardher。
  Shehadlostcommandoverhervoice,andtheshrillnoteofhorrorinitwasunmistakable。Themanheardit,andshrankinhisturn。
  "I’msosorry,John,"shemurmured,raisinghergreatbrighteyestohisface。Theyhadnotlosttheirgoadedexpression,thoughtheywerefulloftears。"I’mawfullysorry;butI’mjustnervousandstupid,andIcan’tbear/anyone/totouchmewhenI’mnervous。"
  "Here’sBroomhurst,mydear!Imadeamistakeinhisnameafterall,I
  find。Itoldyou/Brookfield/,Ibelieve,didn’tI?Well,itisn’tBrookfield,hesays;it’sBroomhurst。"
  Mrs。Draytonhadwalkedsomelittledistanceacrosstheplaintomeetandwelcometheexpectedguest。Shestoodquietlywaitingwhileherhusbandstammeredoverhisincoherentsentences,andthenputoutherhand。
  "Weareverygladtoseeyou,"shesaid,withaquickglanceatthenew-comer’sfaceasshespoke。
  Astheywalkedtogethertowardthetent,afterthefirstgreetings,shefelthiskeeneyesuponherbeforeheturnedtoherhusband。
  "I’mafraidMrs。Draytonfindstheclimatetrying?"heasked。"Perhapssheoughtnottohavecomesofarinthisheat?"
  "Kathieisoftenpale。You/do/lookwhiteto-day,mydear,"heobserved,turninganxiouslytowardhiswife。
  "DoI?"shereplied。Theunsteadinessofhertonewashardlyappreciable,butitwasnotlostonBroomhurst’squickears。"Oh,I
  don’tthinkso。I/feel/verywell。"
  "I’llcomeandseeifthey’vefixedyouupallright,"saidDrayton,followinghiscompaniontowardthenewtentthathadbeenpitchedatsomelittledistancefromthelargeone。
  "Weshallseeyouatdinnerthen?"Mrs。DraytonobservedinreplytoBroomhurst’ssmileastheyparted。
  Sheenteredthetentslowly,and,movinguptothetablealreadylaidfordinner,begantorearrangethethingsuponitinapurposeless,mechanicalfashion。
  Afteramomentshesankdownuponaseatoppositetheopenentrance,andputherhandtoherhead。
  "Whatisthematterwithme?"shethought,wearily。"AlltheweekI’vebeenlookingforwardtoseeingthisman——/any/man,/anyone/totakeofftheedgeofthis。"Sheshuddered。Eveninthoughtshehesitatedtoanalysethefeelingthatpossessedher。"Well,he’shere,andIthinkIfeel/worse/。"Hereyestravelledtowardthehillsshehadbeenusedtowatchatthishour,andrestedonthemwithavague,unseeinggaze。
  "TiredKathie?Apennyforyourthoughts,mydear,"saidherhusband,cominginpresentlytofindherstillsittingthere。
  "I’mthinkingwhatacuriousworldthisis,andwhatanironicalveinofhumourthegodswholookafteritmustpossess,"shereplied,withamirthlesslaugh,risingasshespoke。
  Johnlookedpuzzled。
  "FunnymyhavingknownBroomhurstbefore,youmean?"hesaiddoubtfully。
  "IwasfishingdownatLynmouththistimelastyear,"Broomhurstsaidatdinner。"YouknowLynmouth,Mrs。Drayton?Doyouneverimagineyouhearthegurglingofthestream?Iamtantalisedalreadybythesoundofitrushingthroughthebeautifulgreengloomofthosewoods——
  /aren’t/theylovely?And/I/haven’tbeeninthisburnt-upspotasmanyhoursasyou’vehadmonthsofit。"
  Shesmiledalittle。
  "Youmustlearntopossessyoursoulinpatience,"shesaid,andglancedinconsequentlyfromBroomhursttoherhusband,andthendroppedhereyesandwassilentamoment。
  Johnwasobviously,andalittleaudibly,enjoyinghisdinner。Hesatwithhischairpushedclosetothetable,andhiselbowsawkwardlyraised,swallowinghissoupingulps。Hegraspedhisspoontightlyinhisbonyhand,sothatitsswollenjointsstoodoutlargeranduglierthanever,hiswifethought。
  HereyeswanderedtoBroomhurst’shands。Theywerewellshaped,and,thoughnotsmall,therewasalookofrefinementaboutthem;hehadawayoftouchingthingsdelicately,alittlelingeringly,shenoticed。
  Therewasanairofdistinctionabouthisclear-cut,clean-shavenface,possiblyintensifiedbycontrastwithDrayton’sblurredfeatures;anditwas,perhaps,alsobycontrastwiththegraycuffsthatshowedbeneathJohn’sill-cutdrabsuitthatthelinenBroomhurstworeseemedtoherparticularlyspotless。
  Broomhurst’sthoughts,forhispart,wereagooddealoccupiedwithhishostess。
  Shewaspretty,hethought,orperhapsitwasthat,withthewide,drylonelyplainasasetting,herfragiledelicacyofappearancewasinvestedwithacertainflower-likecharm。
  "Thesilencehereseemsratherstrange,ratherappallingatfirst,whenoneisfreshfromatown,"hepursued,afteramoment’spause;
  "butIsupposeyou’reusedtoit,eh,Drayton?Howdo/you/findlifehere,Mrs。Drayton?"heasked,alittlecuriously,turningtoherashespoke。
  Shehesitatedasecond。"Oh,muchthesameasIshouldfinditanywhereelse,Iexpect,"shereplied;"afterall,onecarriesthepossibilitiesofahappylifeaboutwithone;don’tyouthinkso?TheGardenofEdenwouldn’tnecessarilymakemylifeanyhappier,orlesshappy,thanahowlingwildernesslikethis。Itdependsonone’sselfentirely。"
  "GiventherightAdamandEve,thedesertblossomsliketherose,infact,"Broomhurstanswered,lightly,withasmilingglanceinclusiveofhusbandandwife;"youtwodon’tfeelasthoughyou’dbeendrivenoutofParadise,evidently。"
  Draytonraisedhiseyesfromhisplatewithasmileoftotalincomprehension。
  "Greatheavens!whatanAdamtoselect!"thoughtBroomhurst,involuntarily,asMrs。Draytonroserathersuddenlyfromthetable。
  "I’llcomeandhelpwiththatpacking-case,"Johnsaid,rising,inhisturn,lumberinglyfromhisplace;"thenwecanhaveasmoke——eh!
  Kathiedon’tmind,ifwesitneartheentrance。
  Thetwomenwentouttogether,Broomhurstholdingthelantern,forthemoonhadnotyetrisen。Mrs。Draytonfollowedthemtothedoorway,and,pushingthelooped-uphangingfartheraside,steppedoutintothecooldarkness。
  Herheartwasbeatingquickly,andtherewasagreatlumpinherthroatthatfrightenedherasthoughshewerechoking。
  "AndIamhis/wife/——I/belong/tohim!"shecried,almostaloud。
  Shepressedbothherhandstightlyagainstherbreast,andsetherteeth,fightingtokeepdowntherisingfloodthatthreatenedtosweepawayhercomposure。"Oh,whatafoolIam!WhatanhystericalfoolofawomanIam!"shewhisperedbelowherbreath。Shebegantowalkslowlyupanddownoutsidethetent,inthespaceilluminedbythelamplight,asthoughstrivingtomakeheroutwardlyquietmovementsreactupontheinwardtumult。Inalittlewhileshehadconquered;shequietlyenteredthetent,drewalowchairtotheentrance,andtookupabook,justasfootstepsbecameaudible。AmomentafterwardBroomhurstemergedfromthedarknessintothecircleoflightoutside,andMrs。Draytonraisedhereyesfromthepagesshewasturningtogreethimwithasmile。
  "Areyourthingsallright?"
  "Oh,yes,moreorless,thankyou。Iwasalittleconcernedaboutacaseofbooks,butitisn’tmuchdamagedfortunately。PerhapsI’vesomeyouwouldcaretolookat?"
  "Thebookswillbeagodsend,"shereturned,withasuddenbrighteningoftheeyes;"Iwasgetting/desperate/——forbooks。"
  "Whatareyoureadingnow?"heasked,glancingatthevolumethatlayinherlap。
  "It’saBrowning。Icarryitaboutagooddeal。IthinkIliketohaveitwithme,butIdon’tseemtoreaditmuch。"
  "Areyouwaitingforasuitableoptimisticmoment?"Broomhurstinquired,smiling。
  "Yes,nowthatyoumentionit,IthinkthatmustbewhyIamwaiting,"
  shereplied,slowly。
  "Anditdoesn’tcome——evenintheGardenofEden?Surelytheserpent,pessimism,hasn’tbeeninsolentenoughtodrawyouintoconversationwithhim?"hesaid,lightly。
  "Therehasbeennoonetoconversewithatall——whenJohnisaway,I
  mean。IthinkIshouldhavelikedalittlechatwiththeserpentimmenselybywayofachange,"shereplied,inthesametone。
  "Ah,yes,"Broomhurstsaid,withsuddenseriousness;"itmustbeunbearablydullforyoualonehere,withDraytonawayallday。"
  Mrs。Drayton’shandshookalittleassheflutteredapageofheropenbook。
  "Ishouldthinkitquitenaturalyouwouldbeirritatedbeyondendurancetohearthatall’srightwiththeworld,forinstance,whenyouweresighingforthelongdaytopass,"hecontinued。
  "Idon’tmindthedaysomuch;it’stheevenings。"Sheabruptlycheckedtheswiftwords,andflushedpainfully。"Imean——I’vegrownstupidlynervous,Ithink——evenwhenJohnishere。Oh,youhavenoideaoftheawful/silence/ofthisplaceatnight,"sheadded,risinghurriedlyfromherlowseat,andmovingclosertothedoorway。"Itissoclose,isn’tit?"shesaid,almostapologetically。Therewassilenceforquiteaminute。
  Broomhurst’squickeyesnotedthesilentmomentaryclinchingofthehandsthathungatherside,asshestoodleaningagainstthesupportattheentrance。
  "Buthowstupidofmetogiveyousuchabadimpressionofthecamp——
  thefirstevening,too!"Mrs。Draytonexclaimed,presently;andhercompanionmentallycommendedtheadmirablecomposureofhervoice。
  "Probablyyouwillnevernoticethatit/is/lonelyatall,"shecontinued;"Johnlikesithere。Heisimmenselyinterestedinhiswork,youknow。Ihope/you/aretoo。Ifyouareinteresteditisallquiteright。Ithinktheclimatetriesmealittle。Ineverusedtobestupid——andnervous。Ah,here’sJohn;he’sbeenroundtothekitchentent,Isuppose。"
  "Beenlookingafterthatfellowcleanin’mygun,mydear,"Johnexplained,shamblingtowardthedeck-chair。
  LaterBroomhurststoodathisowntentdoor。Helookedupatthestar-
  sownsky,andtheheavysilenceseemedtopressuponhimlikeanactual,physicalburden。
  Hetookhiscigarfrombetweenhislipspresently,andlookedattheglowingendreflectivelybeforethrowingitaway。
  "Consideringthatshehasbeenalonewithhimhereforsixmonths,shehasherselfverywellinhand——/very/wellinhand,"herepeated。
  ItwasSundaymorning。JohnDraytonsatjustinsidethetent,presumablyenjoyinghispipebeforetheheatoftheday。Hiseyesfurtivelyfollowedhiswifeasshemovedaboutnearhim,sometimespassingclosetohischairinsearchofsomethingshehadmislaid。
  Therewascolourinhercheeks;hereyes,thoughpreoccupied,werebright;therewasalightnessandbuoyancyinherstepwhichshesettoalittledancingairshewashummingunderherbreath。
  Afteramomentortwothesongceased;shebegantomoveslowly,sedately;and,asifchilledbyarawbreathofair,thelightfadedfromhereyes,whichshepresentlyturnedtowardherhusband。
  "Whydoyoulookatme?"sheasked,suddenly。
  "Idon’tknow,mydear,"hebeganslowlyandlaboriously,aswashiswont。"Iwasthinkin’howniceyoulooked——jestnow——muchbetter,youknow;butsomehow,"——hewastakinglongwhiffsathispipe,asusual,betweeneachword,whileshestoodpatientlywaitingforhimtofinish,——"somehow,youalterso,mydear——you’requitepaleagain,allofaminute。"
  Shestoodlisteningtohim,noticingagainstherwillthemorethansuspicionofcockneyaccentandthethickdrawlwithwhichthewordswereuttered。
  Hiseyessoughtherfacepiteously。Shenoticedthattoo,andstoodbeforehimtornbyconflictingemotions,pityanddisguststrugglinginahand-to-handfightwithinher。
  "Mr。BroomhurstandIaregoingdownbythewelltosit;it’scoolerthere。Won’tyoucome?"shesaidatlast,gently。
  Hedidnotreplyforamoment;thenheturnedhisheadaside,sharplyforhim。
  "No,mydear,thankyou;I’mcomfortableenoughhere,"hereturned,huskily。
  Shestoodoverhim,hesitatingasecond;thenmovedabruptlytothetable,fromwhichshetookabook。
  Hehadrisenfromhisseatbythetimesheturnedtogoout,andheinterceptedhertimorously。
  "Kathie,givemeakissbeforeyougo,"hewhispered,hoarsely。"I——I
  don’toftenbotheryou。"
  Shedrewherbreathindeeplyasheputhisarmsclumsilyabouther;
  butshestoodstill,andhekissedherontheforehead,andtouchedthelittlewavycurlsthatstrayedacrossitgentlywithhisbig,tremblingfingers。
  Whenhereleasedher,shemovedatonceimpetuouslytotheopendoorway。Onthethresholdshehesitated,pausedamomentirresolutely,andthenturnedback。
  "ShallI——doesyourpipewantfilling,John?"sheasked,softly。
  "No,thankyou,mydear。"
  "Wouldyoulikemetostay,readtoyou,oranything?"
  Helookedupatherwistfully。"N-no,thankyou;I’mnotmuchofareader,youknow,mydear——somehow。"
  Shehatedherselfforknowingthattherewouldbea"mydear,"
  probablya"somehow,"inhisreply,anddespisedherselfforthesenseofirritatedimpatienceshefeltbyanticipation,evenbeforethewordswereuttered。
  Therewasamoment’shesitatingsilence,brokenbythesoundofquick,firmfootstepswithout。Broomhurstpausedattheentrance,andlookedintothetent。
  "Aren’tyoucoming,Drayton?"heasked,lookingfirstatDrayton’swifeandthenswiftlyputtinginhisnamewithascarcelyperceptiblepause。"Toolazy?Butyou,Mrs。Drayton?"
  "Yes,I’mcoming,"shesaid。
  Theyleftthetenttogether,andwalkedsomefewstepsinsilence。
  Broomhurstshotaquickglanceathiscompanion’sface。
  "Anythingwrong?"heasked,presently。
  Thoughthewordswereordinaryenough,thevoiceinwhichtheywerespokenwasinsomesubtlefashionadifferentvoicefromthatinwhichhehadtalkedtohernearlytwomonthsago,thoughitwouldhaverequiredakeensenseofniceshadesinsoundtohavedetectedthechange。
  Mrs。Drayton’ssenseofnicetiesinsoundwasparticularlykeen,butsheansweredquietly,"Nothing,thankyou。"
  Theydidnotspeakagaintillthetreesroundthestonewellwerereached。
  Broomhurstarrangedtheirseatscomfortablybesideit。
  "Arewegoingtoreadortalk?"heasked,lookingupatherfromhislowerplace。
  "Well,wegenerallytalkmostwhenwearrangetoread;soshallweagreetotalkto-dayforachange,bywayofgettingsomereadingdone?"sherejoined,smiling。"/You/begin。"
  Broomhurstseemedinnohurrytoavailhimselfofthepermission;hewasapparentlyengrossedinwatchingtheflecksofsunshineonMrs。
  Drayton’swhitedress。Thewhirringofinsects,andthecreakingofaPersianwheelsomewhereintheneighbourhood,filteredthroughthehotsilence。
  Mrs。Draytonlaughedafterafewminutes;therewasatouchofembarrassmentinthesound。
  "Thenewplandoesn’tanswer。Supposeyouread,asusual,andletmeinterrupt,alsoasusual,afterthefirsttwolines。"
  Heopenedthebookobediently,butturnedthepagesatrandom。
  Shewatchedhimforamoment,andthenbentalittleforwardtowardhim。
  "Itismyturnnow,"shesaid,suddenly;"isanythingwrong?"
  Heraisedhishead,andtheireyesmet。Therewasapause。"Iwillbemorehonestthanyou,"hereturned;"yes,thereis。"
  "What?"
  "I’vehadorderstomoveon。"
  Shedrewback,andherlipswhitened,thoughshekeptthemsteady。
  "Whendoyougo?"
  "OnWednesday。"
  Therewassilenceagain;themanstillkepthiseyesonherface。
  Thewhirringoftheinsectsandthecreakingofthewheelhadsuddenlygrownsostrangelyloudandinsistentthatitwasinahalf-dazedfashionsheatlengthheardhername——"/Kathleen!/"
  "Kathleen!"hewhisperedagain,hoarsely。
  Shelookedhimfullintheface,andoncemoretheireyesmetinalong,gravegaze。
  Theman’sfaceflushed,andhehalfrosefromhisseatwithanimpetuousmovement;butKathleenstoppedhimwithaglance。
  "Willyougoandfetchmywork?Ileftitinthetent,"shesaid,speakingveryclearlyanddistinctly;"andthenwillyougoonreading?Iwillfindtheplacewhileyouaregone。"
  Shetookthebookfromhishand,andheroseandstoodbeforeher。
  Therewasamuteappealinhissilence,andsheraisedherheadslowly。
  Herfacewaswhitetothelips,butshelookedathimunflinchingly;
  andwithoutawordheturnedandlefther。
  Mrs。DraytonwasrestinginthetentonTuesdayafternoon。Withthehelpofcushionsandsomelowchairs,shehadimprovisedacouch,onwhichshelayquietlywithhereyesclosed。Therewasatenseness,however,inherattitudewhichindicatedthatsleepwasfarfromher。
  Herfeaturesseemedtohavesharpenedduringthelastfewdays,andtherewerehollowsinhercheeks。Shehadbeenveryillforalongtime,butallatonce,withasuddenmovement,sheturnedherheadandburiedherfaceinthecushionswithagroan。Slippingfromherplace,shefellonherkneesbesidethecouch,andputbothhandsbeforehermouthtoforcebackthecrythatshefeltstrugglingtoherlips。
  Forsomemomentsthewildeffortshewasmakingforoutwardcalm,whichevenwhenshewasalonewasherfirstinstinct,strainedeverynerveandblottedoutsightandhearing,anditwasnottillthesoundwasverynearthatshewasconsciousoftheringofhorse’shoofsontheplain。
  Sheraisedherheadsharply,withathrilloffear,stillkneeling,andlistened。
  Therewasnomistake。Thehorsemanwasridinginhothaste,forthethudofthehoofsfollowedoneanotherswiftly。
  AsMrs。Draytonlistenedherwhitefacegrewwhiter,andshebegantotremble。Puttingoutshakinghands,sheraisedherselfbythearmsofthefolding-chairandstoodupright。
  Nearerandnearercamethethunderoftheapproachingsound,mingledwithstartledexclamationsandthenoiseoftramplingfeetfromthedirectionofthekitchentent。
  Slowly,mechanicallyalmost,shedraggedherselftotheentrance,andstoodclingingtothecanvasthere。BythetimeshehadreacheditBroomhursthadflunghimselffromthesaddle,andhadthrownthereinstooneofthemen。
  Mrs。Draytonstaredathimwithwide,brighteyesashehastenedtowardher。
  "Ithoughtyou——youarenot——"shebegan,andthenherteethbegantochatter。"Iamsocold!"shesaid,inalittle,weakvoice。
  Broomhursttookherhandandledheroverthethresholdbackintothetent。
  "Don’tbesofrightened,"heimplored;"Icametotellyoufirst。I
  thoughtitwouldn’tfrightenyousomuchas——Your——Draytonis——veryill。Theyarebringinghim。I——"
  Hepaused。Shegazedathimamomentwithpartedlips;thenshebrokeintoahorrible,discordantlaugh,andstoodclingingtothebackofachair。
  Broomhurststartedback。
  "DoyouunderstandwhatImean?"hewhispered。"Kathleen,forGod’ssake——/don’t/——heis/dead/。"
  Helookedoverhisshoulderashespoke,hershrilllaughterringinginhisears。Thewhiteglareanddazzleoftheplainstretchedbeforehim,framedbytheentrancetothetent;faroff,againstthehorizon,thereweremovingblackspecks,whichheknewtobethereturningservantswiththeirstillburden。
  TheywerebringingJohnDraytonhome。
  Oneafternoon,somemonthslater,BroomhurstclimbedthesteeplaneleadingtothecliffsofalittleEnglishvillagebythesea。Hehadalreadybeentotheinn,andhadbeenshownbytheproprietressthehousewhereMrs。Draytonlodged。
  "Theladywasout,butthegentlemanwouldlikelyfindherifhewenttothecliffs——downbythebay,orthereabouts,"herlandladyexplained;and,obeyingherdirections,Broomhurstpresentlyemergedfromtheshadywoodlandpathontothehillsideoverhangingthesea。
  Heglancedeagerlyroundhim,andthen,withasuddenquickeningoftheheart,walkedonoverthespringyheathertowhereshesat。Sheturnedwhentherustlinghisfootstepsmadethroughthebrackenwasnearenoughtoarrestherattention,andlookedupathimashecame。
  Thensheroseslowlyandstoodwaitingforhim。Hecameuptoherwithoutaword,andseizedbothherhands,devouringherfacewithhiseyes。Somethinghesawthererepelledhim。Slowlyheletherhandsfall,stilllookingathersilently。"Youarenotgladtoseeme,andIhavecountedthehours,"hesaid,atlast,inadull,tonelessvoice。
  Herlipsquivered。"Don’tbeangrywithme——Ican’thelpit——I’mnotgladorsorryforanythingnow,"sheanswered;andhervoicematchedhisforgrayness。
  Theysatdowntogetheronalongflatstonehalfembeddedinawiryclumpofwhortleberries。Behindthemthelonelyhillsidesrose,brilliantwithyellowbrackenandthepurpleofheather。Beforethemstretchedthewidesea。Itwasasoft,grayday。Streaksofpalesunlighttrembledatmomentsfaroutonthewater。Thetidewasrisinginthelittlebayabovewhichtheysat,andBroomhurstwatchedthelazyfoam-edgedwavesslippingovertheuncoveredrockstowardtheshore,thenslidingbackasthoughforverywearinesstheydespairedofreachingit。Themuffled,pulsingsoundoftheseafilledthesilence。BroomhurstthoughtsuddenlyofhotEasternsunshine,ofthewhirofinsectwingsonthestillair,andthecreakingofawheelinthedistance。Heturnedandlookedathiscompanion。
  "Ihavecomethousandsofmilestoseeyou,"hesaid;"aren’tyougoingtospeaktomenowIamhere?"
  "Whydidyoucome?Itoldyounottocome,"sheanswered,falteringly。
  "I——"shepaused。
  "AndIrepliedthatIshouldfollowyou——ifyouremember,"heanswered,stillquietly。"IcamebecauseIwouldnotlistentowhatyousaidthen,atthatawfultime。Youdidn’tknow/yourself/whatyousaid。Nowonder!Ihavegivenyousomemonths,andnowIhavecome。"
  Therewassilencebetweenthem。Broomhurstsawthatshewascrying;
  hertearsfellfastontoherhands,thatwereclaspedinherlap。Herface,henoticed,wasthinanddrawn。
  Verygentlyheputhisarmroundhershoulderanddrewhernearertohim。Shemadenoresistance;itseemedthatshedidnotnoticethemovement;andhisarmdroppedathisside。
  "YouaskedmewhyIhadcome。Youthinkitpossiblethatthreemonthscanchangeoneverythoroughly,then?"hesaid,inacoldvoice。
  "Inotonlythinkitpossible;Ihaveprovedit,"shereplied,wearily。
  Heturnedroundandfacedher。
  "You/did/loveme,Kathleen!"heasserted。"Youneversaidsoinwords,butIknowit,"headded,fiercely。
  "Yes,Idid。"
  "And——youmeanthatyoudon’tnow?"
  Hervoicewasverytired。"Yes;Ican’thelpit,"sheanswered;"ithasgone——utterly。"
  Thegrayseaslowlylappedtherocks。Overheadthesharpscreamofagullcutthroughthestillness。Itwasbrokenagain,amomentafterward,byashorthardlaughfromtheman。
  "Don’t!"shewhispered,andlaidahandswiftlyonhisarm。"Doyouthinkitisn’tworseforme?IwishtoGodI/did/loveyou!"shecried,passionately。"Perhapsitwouldmakemeforgetthat,toallintentsandpurposes,Iamamurderess。
  Broomhurstmetherwide,despairingeyeswithanamazementwhichyieldedtosuddenpityingcomprehension。
  "Sothatisit,mydarling?Youareworryingabout/that/?Youwhowereasloyalas——"
  Shestoppedhimwithafranticgesture。
  "Don’t!/don’t!/"shewailed。"Ifyouonlyknew!Letmetrytotellyou——willyou?"sheurged,pitifully。"ItmaybebetterifItellsomeone——ifIdon’tkeepitalltomyself,andthink,and/think/。"
  Sheclaspedherhandstight,withtheoldgestureherememberedwhenshewasstrugglingforself-control,andwaitedamoment。
  Presentlyshebegantospeakinalow,hurriedtone:"Itbeganbeforeyoucame。IknownowwhatthefeelingwasthatIwasafraidtoacknowledgetomyself。Iusedtotryandsmotherit;Iusedtorepeatthingstomyselfallday——poems,stupidrhymes——/anything/tokeepmythoughtsquiteunderneath——butI——/hated/Johnbeforeyoucame!Wehadbeenmarriednearlyayearthen。Ineverlovedhim。Ofcourseyouaregoingtosay,’Whydidyoumarryhim?’"Shelookeddrearilyovertheplacidsea。"Why/did/Imarryhim?Idon’tknow;forthereasonthathundredsofignorant,inexperiencedgirlsmarry,Isuppose。Myhomewasn’tahappyone。Iwasmiserable,andoh——/restless/。Iwonderifmenknowwhatitfeelsliketoberestless?SometimesIthinktheycan’tevenguess。Johnwantedmeverybadly;nobodywantedmeathomeparticularly。Theredidn’tseemtobeanypointinmylife。Doyouunderstand?……Ofcourse,beingalonewithhiminthatlittlecampinthatsilentplain"——sheshuddered——"madethingsworse。Mynerveswentalltopieces。Everythinghesaid,hisvoice,hisaccent,hiswalk,thewayheate,irritatedmesothatIlongedtorushoutsometimesandshriek——andgo/mad/。Doesitsoundridiculoustoyoutobedrivenmadbysuchtrifles?IonlyknowIusedtogetupfromthetablesometimesandwalkupanddownoutside,withbothhandsovermymouthtokeepmyselfquiet。AndallthetimeI/hated/myself——howI
  hatedmyself!Ineverhadawordfromhimthatwasn’tgentleandtender。IbelievehelovedthegroundIwalkedon。Oh,itis/awful/
  tobelovedlikethatwhenyou——"Shedrewinherbreathwithasob。
  "I——I——itmademesickforhimtocomenearme——totouchme。"Shestoppedamoment。
  Broomhurstgentlylaidhishandonherquiveringone。"Poorlittlegirl!"hemurmured。
  "Then/you/came,"shesaid,"andbeforelongIhadanotherfeelingtofightagainst。AtfirstIthoughtitcouldn’tbetruethatIlovedyou——itwoulddiedown。IthinkIwas/frightened/atthefeeling;I
  didn’tknowithurtsotoloveanyone。"
  Broomhurststirredalittle。"Goon,"hesaid,tersely。
  "Butitdidn’tdie,"shecontinued,inatremblingwhisper,"andtheother/awful/feelinggrewstrongerandstronger——hatred;no,thatisnottheword——/loathing/for——for——John。Ifoughtagainstit。Yes,"
  shecried,feverishly,claspingandunclaspingherhands;"HeavenknowsIfoughtitwithallmystrength,andreasonedwithmyself,and——oh,Idid/everything/,but——"Herquick-fallingtearsmadespeechdifficult。
  "Kathleen!"Broomhursturged,desperately,"youcouldn’thelpit,youpoorchild。Yousayyourselfyoustruggledagainstyourfeelings。Youwerealwaysgentle;perhapshedidn’tknow。"
  "Buthedid——he/did/,"shewailed;"itisjustthat。Ihurthimahundredtimesaday;heneversaidso,butIknewit;andyetI
  /couldn’t/bekindtohim,——exceptinwords,——andheunderstood。Andafteryoucameitwasworseinoneway,forheknew——I/felt/heknew——thatIlovedyou。Hiseyesusedtofollowmelikeadog’s,andIwasstabbedwithremorse,andItriedtobegoodtohim,butIcouldn’t。"
  "But——hedidn’tsuspect——hetrustedyou,"beganBroomhurst。"Hehadeveryreason。Nowomanwaseversoloyal,so——"
  "Hush!"shealmostscreamed。"Loyal!itwastheleastIcoulddo——tostopyou,Imean——whenyou——Afterall,Iknewitwithoutyourtellingme。Ihaddeliberatelymarriedhimwithoutlovinghim。Itwasmyownfault。Ifeltit。EvenifIcouldn’tpreventhisknowingthatIhatedhim,Icouldprevent/that/。Itwasmypunishment。Ideserveditfor/daring/tomarrywithoutlove。ButIdidn’tspareJohnonepangafterall,"sheadded,bitterly。"HeknewwhatIfelttowardhim;Idon’tthinkhecaredaboutanythingelse。YousayImustn’treproachmyself?
  WhenIwentbacktothetentthatmorning——whenyou——whenIstoppedyoufromsayingyoulovedme,hewassittingatthetablewithhisheadburiedinhishands;hewascrying——bitterly。Isawhim,——itisterribletoseeamancry,——andIstoleawaygently,buthesawme。I
  wastorntopieces,butI/couldn’t/gotohim。Iknewhewouldkissme,andIshudderedtothinkofit。Itseemedmorethanevernottobebornethatheshoulddothat——whenIknew/you/lovedme。"
  "Kathleen,"criedherlover,again,"don’tdwellonitallsoterribly——don’t——"
  "HowcanIforget?"sheanswered,despairingly。"Andthen,"——sheloweredhervoice,——"oh,Ican’ttellyou——allthetime,atthebackofmymindsomewhere,therewasaburningwishthathemight/die/。I
  usedtolieawakeatnight,and,dowhatIwouldtostifleit,thatthoughtusedto/scorch/me,Iwisheditsointensely。Doyoubelievethatbywillingonecanbringsuchthingstopass?"sheasked,lookingatBroomhurstwithfeverishlybrighteyes。"No?Well,Idon’tknow。I
  triedtosmotherit,——I/really/tried,——butitwasthere,whateverotherthoughtsIheapedonthetop。Then,whenIheardthehorsegallopingacrosstheplainthatmorning,Ihadasickfearthatitwas/you/。Iknewsomethinghadhappened,andmyfirstthoughtwhenIsawyoualiveandwell,andknewitwas/John/,was/thatitwastoogoodtobetrue/。IbelieveIlaughedlikeamaniac,didn’tI?……Nottoblame?Why,ifithadn’tbeenformehewouldn’thavedied。Themensaytheysawhimsittingwithhisheaduncoveredintheburningsun,hisfaceburiedinhishands——justasIhadseenhimthedaybefore。
  Hedidn’ttroubletobecareful;hewastoowretched。"
  Shepaused,andBroomhurstroseandbegantopacethelittlehillsidepathattheedgeofwhichtheywereseated。
  Presentlyhecamebacktoher。
  "Kathleen,letmetakecareofyou,"heimplored,stoopingtowardher。
  "Wehaveonlyourselvestoconsiderinthismatter。Willyoucometomeatonce?"
  Sheshookherheadsadly。
  Broomhurstsethisteeth,andthelinesroundhismouthdeepened。Hethrewhimselfdownbesideherontheheather。
  "Dear,"heurged,stillgently,thoughhisvoiceshowedhewascontrollinghimselfwithaneffort,"youaremorbidaboutthis。Youhavebeenalonetoomuch;youareill。Letmetakecareofyou;I
  /can/,Kathleen,——andIloveyou。Nothingbutmorbidfancymakesyouimagineyouareinanywayresponsiblefor——Drayton’sdeath。Youcan’tbringhimbacktolife,and——"
  "No,"shesighed,drearily,"andifIcould,nothingwouldbealtered。
  ThoughIammadwithself-reproach,Ifeel/that/——itwasallsoinevitable。Ifhewerealiveandwellbeforemethisinstant,myfeelingtowardhimwouldn’thavechanged。Ifhespoketomehewouldsay’mydear’——andIshould/loathe/him。Oh,Iknow!Itis/that/
  thatmakesitsoawful。"
  "Butifyouacknowledgeit,"Broomhurststruckin,eagerly,"willyouwreckbothofourlivesforthesakeofvainregrets?Kathleen,youneverwill。"
  Hewaitedbreathlesslyforheranswer。
  "Iwon’twreckbothourlivesbymarryingagainwithoutloveonmyside,"shereplied,firmly。
  "Iwilltaketherisk,"hesaid。"You/have/lovedme;youwilllovemeagain。Youarecrushedanddazednowwithbroodingoverthis——thistrouble,but——"
  "ButIwillnotallowyoutotaketherisk,"Kathleenanswered。"WhatsortofwomanshouldIbetobewillingagaintolivewithamanI
  don’tlove?Ihavecometoknowthattherearethingsoneowesto/one’sself/。Self-respectisoneofthem。Idon’tknowhowithascometobeso,butallmyoldfeelingforyouhas/gone/。Itisasthoughithadburneditselfout。Iwillnotoffergrayashestoanyman。"
  Broomhurst,lookingupatherpale,setface,knewthatherwordswerefinal,andturnedhisownasidewithagroan。
  "Ah,"criedKathleen,withalittlebreakinhervoice,"/don’t!/Goaway,andbehappyandstrong,andallthatIlovedinyou。Iamsosorry——sosorrytohurtyou。I——"hervoicefalteredmiserably;"I——I
  onlybringtroubletopeople。"
  Therewasalongpause。
  "Didyouneverthinkthatthereisaterribleveinofironyrunningthroughtheorderingofthisworld?"shesaid,presently。"Itisamistaketothinkourprayersarenotanswered——theyare。Induetimewegetourheart’sdesire——whenwehaveceasedtocareforit。"
  "Ihaven’tyetgotmine,"Broomhurstanswered,doggedly,"andIshallneverceasetocareforit。"
  Shesmiledalittle,withinfinitesadness。
  "Listen,Kathleen,"hesaid。Theyhadbothrisen,andhestoodbeforeher,lookingdownather。"Iwillgonow,butinayear’stimeIshallcomeback。Iwillnotgiveyouup。Youshalllovemeyet。"
  "Perhaps——Idon’tthinkso,"sheanswered,wearily。
  Broomhurstlookedathertremblinglipsamomentinsilence;thenhestoopedandkissedbothherhandsinstead。
  "Iwillwaittillyoutellmeyouloveme,"hesaid。
  Shestoodwatchinghimoutofsight。Hedidnotlookback,andsheturnedwithswimmingeyestothegrayseaandthetransientgleamsofsunlightthatsweptliketendersmilesacrossitsface。