"YoureallylikemysweetLena?"shesaid。"Iamsoglad。Whatwereyoutalkingabout,withher?Shemadeyouexertallyourpowersofconversation,andsheseemedtobedeeplyinterested。"
  Moreover-acting!Anothermistake!AndIcouldseethroughit!WithnoEnglishsubjectwhichwecoulddiscussincommon,LadyLena’sreadytactalludedtomypastlife。Mrs。RoylakehadtoldherthatIwaseducatedataGermanUniversity。Shehadheardvaguelyofstudentswithlonghair,whoworeHessianboots,andfoughtduels;andsheappealedtomyexperiencetotellhersomethingmore。Ididmybesttointeresther,withveryindifferentsuccess,andwasundeservedlyrewardedbyapatientattention,whichpresentedtheunselfishrefinementsofcourtesyundertheirmostperfectform。
  Butletmedomystep-motherjustice。Shecontrivedtobendmetoherwill,beforesheleftthesmoking-room——IamsureIdon’tknowhow。
  "Youhaveentertainedthecharmingdaughtersatdinner,"sheremindedme;
  "andtheleastyoucando,afterthat,istopayyourrespectstotheirnoblefather。Inyourposition,mydearboy,youcannotneglectourEnglishcustomswithoutproducingtheworstpossibleimpression。"
  Intwowords,Ifoundmyselfpledged,underpretenceofvisitingmylord,toimprovemyacquaintancewithLadyLenaonthenextday。
  "Andpraybecareful,"Mrs。Roylakeproceeded,stillbravingtheatmosphereofthesmoking-room,"nottolooksurprisedifyoufindLordUppercliff’shousepresentingratherapoorappearancejustnow。"
  Iwasdyingforanothercigar,andIentirelymisunderstoodthewordsofwarningwhichhadjustbeenaddressedtome。Itriedtobringourinterviewtoaclosebymakingagenerousproposal。
  "Doeshewantmoney?"Iasked。"I’lllendhimsomewiththegreatestpleasure。"
  Mrs。Roylake’shorrorexpresseditselfinalittlethinwiryscream。
  "Oh,Gerard,whatpeopleyoumusthavelivedamong!Whatshockingignoranceofmylord’senormousfortune!Heandhisfamilyhaveonlyjustreturnedtotheircountryseat,afteralongabsence——parliamentyouknow,andforeignbaths,andsoon——andtheirEnglishestablishmentisnotyetcomplete。Idon’tknowwhatmistakeyoumaynotmakenext。DolistentowhatIwanttosaytoyou。"
  Listening,Imustacknowledge,withanabsentmind,myattentionwassuddenlyseizedbyMrs。Roylake——withouttheslightestconsciousefforttowardsthatend,onthepartoftheladyherself。
  Thefirstwordsthatstartledme,inherflowofspeech,werethese:
  "AndImustnotforgettotellyouofpoorLordUppercliff’smisfortune。
  Hehadafall,sometimesince,andbrokehisleg。AsIthink,hewassounwiseastoletaplausibleyoungsurgeonsetthebrokenbone。Anyway,theendofitisthatmylordslightlylimpswhenhewalks;andprayrememberthathehatestoseeitnoticed。LadyRacheldoesn’tagreewithmeinattributingherfather’slamenesstohissurgeon’swantofexperience。Betweenourselves,themanseemstohaveinterestedher。Veryhandsome,veryclever,veryagreeable,andthemannersofagentleman。
  Whenhismedicalservicescametoanend,hewasquiteanacquisitionattheirpartiesinLondon——withonedrawback:hemysteriouslydisappeared,andhasneverbeenheardofsince。AskLadyLenaaboutit。Shewillgiveyouallthedetails,withouthereldersister’sbiasinfavourofthehandsomeyoungman。Whataprettycomplimentyouarepayingme!YoureallylookasifIhadinterestedyou。"
  KnowingwhatIknew,Iwasunquestionablyinterested。
  AlthoughtherecentreturnofLordUppercliffandhisdaughtertotheircountryhomehad,asyet,allowednoopportunityofameeting,outofdoors,betweenthedeafLodgerandthefriendswhomhehadlostsightof——nodoubtatthetimeofhisseriousillness——still,theinevitablediscoverymighthappenonanyday。Whatresultwouldfollow?AndwhatwouldbetheeffectonLadyRachel,whenshemetwiththefascinatingyoungsurgeon,anddiscoveredtheterriblechangeinhim?
  CHAPTERX
  WARNED!
  Wewerealoneintheglade,bythesideofthespring。Atthatearlyhourtherewerenointerruptionstodread;butCristelwasillatease。Sheseemedtobeeagertogetbacktothecottageassoonaspossible。
  "Fathertellsme,"shebeganabruptly,"hesawyouattheboathouse。Anditseemedtohim,thatyouwerebehavingyourselflikeafriendtothatterribleman。"
  Iremindedherofmyhavingexpressedthefearthatwehadbeenneedlesslyhardonhim;and,Iaddedthathehadwrittenaletterwhichconfirmedmeinthatopinion。Shelooked,notonlydisappointed,butevenalarmed。
  "Ihadhoped,"shesaidsadly,"thatfatherwasmistaken。"
  "Solittlemistaken,"Iassuredher,"thatIamgoingtodrinkteawiththemanwhoseemstofrightenyou。IhopehewillaskyoutomeetSherecoiledfromthebareideaofaninvitation。
  "WillyouhearwhatIwanttotellyou?"shesaidearnestly。"YoumayalteryouropinionifyouknowwhatIhavebeenfoolishenoughtodo,whenyousawmegototheothersideofthecottage。"
  "DearCristel,IknowwhatIowetoyourkindinterestinmeonthatoccasion!"BeforeIcouldsayawordofapologyforhavingwrongedherbymysuspicions,sheinsistedonanexplanationofwhatIhadjustsaid。
  "Didhementionitinhisletter?"sheasked。
  IownedthatIhadobtainedmyinformationinthisway。AndIdeclaredthathehadexpressedhisadmirationofher,andhisbeliefinher,intermswhichmadeitasubjectofregrettomenottobeabletoshowwhathehadwritten。
  Cristelforgotherfearofourbeinginterrupted。Herdismayexpresseditselfinacrythatrangthroughthewood。
  "Youevenbelieveinhisletter?"sheexclaimed。"Mr。Gerard!HiswritinginthatwaytoYouaboutMeisaproofthathelies;andI’llmakeyouseeit。Ifyouwereanybodyelsebutyourself,Iwouldleaveyoutoyourfate。Yes,yourfate,"shepassionatelyrepeated。"Oh,forgiveme,sir!
  I’mbehavingdisrespectfully;Ibegyourpardon。No,no;letmegoon。
  WhenIspoketohiminyourbestinterests(asIdidmosttrulybelieve)
  IneversuspectedwhatmischiefIhaddone,tillIlookedinhisface。
  Then,Isawhowhehatedyou,andhowvilelyhewasthinkinginsecretofme——"
  Puredelusion!HowcouldIallowittogoon?Iinterruptedher。
  "Mydear,youhavequitemistakenhim。AsIhavealreadysaid,hesincerelyrespectsyou——andheownsthathemisjudgedmewhenheandI
  firstmet。"
  "What!Is_that_inhislettertoo?It’sworseeventhanIfeared。Again,andagain,andagain,Isayit"——shestampedonthegroundinthefervorofherconviction——"hehatesyouwiththehatredthatneverforgivesandneverforgets。Youthinkhimagoodman。DoyousupposeIwouldhavebeggedandprayedofmyfathertosendhimaway,withouthavingreasonsthatjustifiedme?Mr。Gerard,youforcemetotellyouwhatmyunluckyvisitdidputintohishead。Yes,hedoesbelieve——believesfirmly——thatyouhaveforgottenwhatisduetoyourrank;thatIhavebeenwickedenoughtoforgetittoo;andthatyouaregoingtotakemeawayfromhim。
  Saywhathemay,andwritewhathemay,heisdeceivingyouforhisownwickedends。Ifyougotodrinkteawithhim,Godonlyknowswhatcauseyoumayhavetoregretit。Forgivemeforbeingsoviolent,sir;Ihavedonenow。Youhavemademeverywretched,butyouaretoogoodandkindtomeanit。Good-bye。"
  Itookherhand,Ipressedittenderly;Iwastouched,deeplytouched。
  No!letmewritehonestly。Hereyesbetrayedher,hervoicebetrayedher,whileshesaidherpartingwords。WhatIsaw,whatIheard,wasnolongerwithinthelimitsofdoubt。Thesweetgirl’sinterestinmywelfarewasnotthemerelyfriendlyinterestwhichsheherselfbelievedittobe。AndIsaidjustnowthatIwas"touched。"Cant!Lies!IlovedhermoredearlythanIhadeverlovedheryet。Thereisthetruth——strippedofpoorprudery,andthemeanfearofbeingcalledVain!
  WhatImighthavesaidtoher,iftheopportunityhadoffereditself,maybeeasilyimagined。BeforeIcouldopenmylips,amanappearedonthepathwhichledfromthemilltothespring——themanwhomCristelhadsecretlysuspectedofadesigntofollowher。
  Ifeltherhandtremblinginmyhand,andgaveitalittleencouragingsqueeze。"Letusjudgehim,"Isuggested,"bywhathesaysanddoes,onfindingustogether。"
  Withoutanattemptatconcealmentonhispart,headvancedtowardsusbriskly,smilingandwavinghishand。
  "What,Mr。Roylake,youhavealreadyfoundoutthevirtuesofyourwonderfulspring,andyouaredrinkingthewaterbeforebreakfast!IhaveoftendoneitmyselfwhenIwasnottoolazytogetup。Andthischarminggirl,"hewenton,turningtoCristel,"hasshebeentryingthevirtuesofthespringbyyouradvice?Shewon’tlistentome,orIshouldhaverecommendeditlongsince。Seemesettheexample。"
  Hetookasilvermugfromhispocket,anddescendedthefewstepsthatledtothespring。Allowingforthedreadfuldeafmonotonyinhisvoice,nomancouldhavebeenmoreinnocentlyjoyousandagreeable。Whilehewastakinghismorningdraught,IappealedtoCristel’sbettersense。
  "Isthisthehypocrite,whoisdeceivingmeforhisownwickedends?"I
  asked。"Doeshelooklikethejealousmonsterwhoisplottingmydestruction,andwhowillsucceedifIamfoolenoughtoaccepthisinvitation?"
  Poordear,shewasasobstinateasever!"ThinkoverwhatIhavesaidtoyou——think,foryourownsake,"washeronlyreply。
  "Andalittlefor_your_sake?"Iventuredtoadd。
  Sheranawayfromme,takingthepathwhichwouldleadherhomeagain。
  ThedeafmanandIwerelefttogether。Helookedafterheruntilshewasoutofsight。Thenheproducedhisbookofblankleaves。But,insteadofhandingittomeasusual,hebegantowriteinithimself。
  "Ihavesomethingtosaytoyou,"heexplained。
  Itwasonlypossible,whilethebookwasinhispossession,toremindhimthatIcouldhear,andthathecouldspeak,byusingthelanguageofsigns。Itouchedmylips,andpointedtohim;Itouchedmyear,andpointedtomyself。
  "Yes,"hesaid,understandingmewithhiscustomaryquickness;"butI
  wantyoutorememberaswellastohear。WhenIhavefilledthisleaf,I
  shallbegyoutokeepitaboutyou,andtorefertoitfromtimetotime。"
  Hewroteonsteadily,untilhehadfilledbothsidesoftheslipofpaper。
  "Quitealittleletter,"hesaid。"Prayreadit。"
  ThisiswhatIread:
  "YoumusthaveseenforyourselfthatIwasincapableofinsultingyouandMissCristelbyanoutbreakofjealousy,whenIfoundyoutogetherjustnow。Onlyrememberthatweallhaveourweaknesses,andthatitismyhardlottobeinastateofcontestwiththeinheritedevilwhichisthecalamityofmylife。Withyourencouragement,Imayresisttemptationinthefuture,andkeepthebetterpartofmeinauthorityovermythoughtsandactions。But,beonyourguard,andadviseMissCristeltobeonherguard,againstfalseappearances。Asweallknow,theylieliketruth。Considerme。Pityme。Iasknomore。"
  Straightforwardandmanlyandmodest——IappealtoanyunprejudicedmindwhetherIshouldnothavecommittedameanaction,ifIhadplacedanevilconstructiononthis?
  "AmIunderstood?"heasked。
  Isignedtohimtogivemehisbook,andrelievedhimofanxietyinthesewords:
  "IfIhadfailedtounderstandyou,Ishouldhavefeltashamedofmyself。
  MayIshowwhatyouhavewrittentoCristel?"
  Hesmiled,moresweetlyandpleasantlythanIhadseenhimsmileyet。
  "Ifyouwishit,"heanswered。"Ileaveitentirelytoyou。Thankyou——andgoodmorning。"
  Havingadvancedafewstepsonhiswaytothecottage,hepaused,andremindedmeofthetea-drinking:"Don’tforgetto-morrowevening,atseveno’clock。"
  CHAPTERXI
  WARNEDAGAIN!
  ThebreakfasthourhadnotyetarrivedwhenIgothome。Iwentintothegardentorefreshmyeyes——alittlewearyofthesolemnuniformityofcolorinFordwitchWood——bylookingattheflowers。
  Reachingtheterrace,inthefirstplace,Iheardbelowmeaman’svoice,speakingintonesofangryauthority,andusinglanguagewhichexpressedanintentionofturningsomebodyoutofthegarden。Iatoncedescendedthestepswhichledtotheflower-beds。Themaninauthorityprovedtobeoneofmygardeners;andthemanthreatenedwithinstantexpulsionwastheoddly-dressedservantofthefriendwhomIhadjustleft。
  Thepoorfellow’suglyfacepresentedapictureofshameandcontrition,themomentIshowedmyself。Hepiteouslyentreatedmetolookoverit,andtoforgivehim。
  "Waitalittle,"Isaid。"LetmeseeifIhaveanythingtoforgive。"I
  turnedtothegardener。"Whatisyourcomplaintofthisman?"
  "He’satrespasseronyourgrounds,sir。And,hisimpudence,tosaytheleastofit,issuchasInevermetwithbefore。"
  "Whatharmhashedone?"
  "Harm,sir?"
  "Yes——harm。Hashebeenpickingtheflowers?"
  Thegardenerlookedroundhim,longingtorefermetothenecessaryevidence,andfailingtodiscoveritanywhere。Thewretchedtrespassertookheartofgrace,andsaidawordinhisowndefence。
  "Nobodyeverknewmetomisbehavemyselfinagentleman’sgarden,"hesaid;"Iown,sir,tohavingtakenapeepattheflowers,overthewall。"
  "Andtheytemptedyoutolookalittlecloseratthem?"
  "That’sthetruth,sir。"
  "Soyouarefondofflowers?"
  "Yes,sir。Ioncefailedinbusinessasanurseryman——butIdon’tblametheflowers。"
  Thedelightfulsimplicityofthiswaslostonthegardener。Iheardthebrutemuttertohimself:"Gammon!"ForonceIassertedmyauthorityovermyservant。
  "Understandthis,"Isaidtohim:"Idon’tconfinetheenjoymentofmygardentomyselfandmyfriends。Anywell-behavedpersonsarewelcometocomehereandlookattheflowers。Rememberthat。Nowyoumaygo。"
  Havingissuedtheseinstructions,Inextaddressedmyselftomyfriendintheshabbyshootingjacket;tellinghimtoroamwhereverheliked,andtostayaslongashepleased。Insteadofthankingmeandusinghisliberty,hehesitated,andlookedthoroughlyillatease。
  "What’sthematternow?"Iasked。
  "I’mafraidyoudon’tknow,sir,whoitisyouaresokindto。I’vebeensomethingelseinmytime,besidesanurseryman。"
  "Whathaveyoubeen?"
  "Aprize-fighter。"
  Ifheexpectedmetoexhibitindignationorcontempt,hewasdisappointed。Myignorancetreatedhimascivillyasever。
  "Whatisaprize-fighter?"Iinquired。
  Theunfortunatepugilistlookedatmeinspeechlessbewilderment。ItoldhimthatIhadbeenbroughtupamongforeigners,andthatIhadneverevenseenanEnglishnewspaperforthelasttenyears。Thisexplanationseemedtoencouragethemanoffewwords:itsethimtalkingfreelyatlast。Hedeliveredatreatiseontheartofprizefighting,andhedidsomethingelsewhichIfoundmoreamusing——hetoldmehisname。Tomysmallsenseofhumorhisname,sotospeak,completedthisdelightfullyoddman:itwasGloody。Astothelistofhismisfortunes,theendlesslengthofitbecamesounendurablydroll,thatwebothindulgedinunfeelingfitsoflaughteroverthesorrowsofGloody。Thefirstluckyaccidentofthepoorfellow’slifehadbeen,literally,thediscoveryofhimbyhispresentmaster。
  Thiseventinterestedme。IsaidIshouldliketohearhowithadhappened。
  Gloodymodestlydescribedhimselfas"oneofthestarvinglot,sir,thatlooksoutforsmallerrands。Igotmyfirstdinnerforthreedays,bycarryingagentleman’sportmanteauforhim。Andhe,ifyouplease,wasafterwardsmymaster。Helivedalone。Blessyou,hewasasdeafthenasheisnow。Hesaystome,’Ifyoubawlinmyears,I’llknockyoudown。’
  Ithoughttomyself,youwouldn’tsaythat,master,ifyouknewhowIwasemployedtwentyyearsago。Hetookmeintohisservice,sir,becauseI
  wasugly。’I’msohandsomemyself;’hesays,’Iwantacontrastofsomethinguglyaboutme。’Youmayhavenoticedthathe’sabitterone——andbitterlyenoughhesometimesbehavedtome。Butthere’sagoodsidetohim。Hegivesmehisoldclothes,andsometimeshespeaksalmostaskindlytomeasyoudo。Butforhim,IbelieveIshouldhaveperishedofstarvation——"
  Hesuddenlycheckedhimself。Whetherhewasafraidofwearyingme,orwhethersomepainfulrecollectionhadoccurredtohim,itwasofcourseimpossibletosay。
  Theuglyface,towhichheowedhisfirstpoorlittlemorselofprosperity,becameovercloudedbycareanddoubt。BurstingintoexpressionsofgratitudewhichIhadcertainlynotdeserved——expressions,soevidentlysincere,thattheyborewitnesstoconstantill-usagesufferedinthecourseofhishardlife——heleftmewithaheadlonghasteofmovement,drivenawayasIfanciedbyanunquietmind。
  Iwatchedhimretreatingalongthepath,andsawhimstopabruptly,stillwithhisbacktome。Hisdeepstrongvoicetravelledfartherthanhesupposed。Iheardhimsaytohimself:"WhataninfernalrascalIam!"Hewaitedalittle,andturnedmywayagain。Slowlyandreluctantly,hecamebacktome。AsheapproachedIsawtheman,whohadlivedbythepublicexhibitionofhiscourage,lookingatmewithfearplainlyvisibleinthechangeofhiscolor,andtheexpressionofhisface。
  "Anythingwrong?"Iinquired。
  "Nothingwrong,sir。MightIbesoboldastoask——"
  Wewaitedalittle;Igavehimtimetocollecthisthoughts。Perhapsthesilenceconfusedhim。Anyhow,Iwasobligedtohelphimtogeton。
  "Whatdoyouwishtoaskofme?"Isaid。
  "Iwishedtospeak,sir——"
  Hestoppedagain。
  "Aboutwhat?"Iasked。
  "Aboutto-morrowevening。"
  "Well?"
  Heburstoutwithit,atlast。"Areyoucomingtodrinkteawithmymaster?"
  "Ofcourse,Iamcoming!Mr。Gloody,doyouknowthatyourathersurpriseme?"
  "Ihopenooffence,sir。"
  "Nonsense!Itseemsodd,mygoodfellow,thatyourmastershouldn’thavetoldyouIwascomingtodrinkteawithhim。Isn’tityourbusinesstogetthethingsready?"
  Heshiftedfromonefoottoanother,andlookedasifhewishedhimselfoutofmyway。Atalatertimeofmylife,Ihaveobservedthatthesearesignsbywhichanhonestmanisapttoconfessthathehastold,orisgoingtotell,alie。Asitwas,Ionlynoticedthatheansweredconfusedly。
  "Ican’tquitesay,Mr。Roylake,thatmymasterdidn’tmentionthethingtome。"
  "Butyoufailedtounderstandhim——isthatit?"
  "Well,sir,ifIwanttoaskhimanythingIhavetowriteit。I’mslowatwriting,andbadatwriting,andheisn’talwayspatient。However,asyouremindedmejustnow,Ihavegottogetthethingsready。Tocutitshort,perhapsImightsaythatIdidn’tquiteexpectthetea-partywouldcomeoff。"
  "Whyshouldn’titcomeoff?"
  "Well,sir,youmighthavesomeotherengagement。"
  Wasthisahint?oronlyanexcuse?Ineithercaseitwashightime,ifhestillrefusedtospeakout,thatIshouldsethimtheexample。
  "Youhavegivenmesomecuriousinformation,"Isaid,"onthesubjectoffightingwiththefists;andyouhavemademeunderstandthedifferencebetween’fairhitting’and’foulhitting’。Areyouhittingfairnow?VerylikelyIammistaken——butyouseemtometobetryingtopreventmyacceptingyourmaster’sinvitation。"
  Hepulledoffhishatinahurry。
  "Ibegyourpardon,sir;Iwon’tdetainyouanylonger。Ifyouwillallowme,I’lltakemyleave。"
  "Don’tgo,Mr。Gloody,withouttellingmewhetherIamrightorwrong。Istherereallysomeobjectiontomycomingtoteatomorrow?"
  "Quiteamistake,sir,"hesaid,stillinahurry。"I’veledyouwrongwithoutmeaningit——beinganignorantman,andnotknowinghowtoexpressmyself。Don’tthinkmeungrateful,Mr。Roylake!Afteryourkindnesstome,I’dgothroughfireandwaterforyou——Iwould!"
  Hissunkeneyesmoistened,hisbigvoicefaltered。Ilethimleaveme,inmercytothestrongfeelingwhichIhadinnocentlyroused。ButIshookhandswithhimfirst。Yieldingtooneofmyheadlongimpulses?Yes。Anddoingaveryindiscreetthing?Waitalittle——andweshallsee。
  CHAPTERXII
  WARNEDFORTHELASTTIME!
  Myloyaltytowardstheafflictedman,whosefriendlyadvancesIhadseengoodreasontoreturn,wasinnosenseshaken。Hisundeservedmisfortunes,hismanlyappealtomeatthespring,hishopelessattachmenttothebeautifulgirlwhoseaversiontowardshimIhadunhappilyencouraged,allpleadedwithmeinhisfavour。Ihadacceptedhisinvitation;andIhadnootherengagementtoclaimme:itwouldhavebeenanactofmeannessamountingtoaconfessionoffear,ifIhadsentanexcuse。Still,whileCristel’sentreatiesandCristel’sinfluencehadfailedtoshakeme,Gloody’sstrangelanguageandGloody’sincomprehensibleconducthadtroubledmymind。Ifeltvaguelyuneasy;
  irritatedbymyowndepressionofspirits。IfIhadbeenaphilosopher,I
  shouldhaverecognizedthesymptomsofaverycommonattackofaverywidely-spreadmoralmalady。Themeanestofallhumaninfirmitiesisalsothemostuniversal;andthenameofitisSelf-esteem。
  Itisperhapsonlyrighttoaddthatmypatiencehadbeentriedbytheprogressofdomesticevents,whichaffectedLadyLenaandmyself——viewedasvictims。
  Calling,withmystepmother,atLordUppercliff’shouselaterintheday,IperceivedthatLadyRachelandMrs。Roylakefound(ormade)anopportunityoftalkingtogetherconfidentiallyinacorner;and,onceortwice,IcaughtthemlookingatLadyLenaandatme。EvenLordUppercliff(perhapsnotyettakenintotheirconfidence)noticedtheproceedingsofthetwoladies,andseemedtobeatalosstounderstandthem。
  WhenMrs。RoylakeandIweretogetheragain,onourwayhome,IwaspreparedtohearthepraiseofLadyLena,followedbyadelicateexaminationintothestateofmyheart。Neitheroftheseanticipationswasrealized。Oncemore,mycleverstepmotherhadpuzzledme。
  Mrs。Roylaketalkedasfluentlyasever;exhaustingonecommon-placesubjectafteranother,withouttheslightestallusiontomylord’sdaughter,tomymatrimonialprospects,ortomyvisitsatthemill。Iwassecretlyannoyed,feelingthatmystepmother’ssingularindifferencetodomesticinterestsofparamountimportance,atothertimes,musthavesomeobjectinview,entirelybeyondthereachofmypenetration。IfI
  haddaredtocommitsuchanactofrudeness,Ishouldhavejumpedoutofthecarriage,andhavetoldMrs。RoylakethatImeanttowalkhome。
  ThedaywasSunday。Iloiteredaboutthegarden,listeningtothedistantchurch-bellringingfortheafternoonservice。WithoutanycausethatI
  knewoftoaccountforit,IwassorestlessthatnothingIcoulddoattractedmeorquietedme。
  Returningtothehouse,Itriedtooccupymyselfwithmycollectionofinsects,sadlyneglectedoflate。Useless!Myownmothsfailedtointerestme。
  Iwentbacktothegarden。Passingtheopenwindowofoneofthelowerroomswhichlookedoutontheterrace,IsawMrs。Roylakereadingabookinsad-coloredbinding。Shewasyawningoveritfearfully,whenshediscoveredthatIwaslookingather。Equaltoanyemergency,thisremarkablewomaninstantlyhandedtomeasecondandsimilarvolume。"Themostprecioussermons,Gerard,thathavebeenwritteninourtime。"I
  lookedatthebook;Iopenedthebook;Irecoveredmypresenceofmind,andhandeditback。Ifafemalehumbugwasononesideofthewindow,amalehumbugwasontheother。"Pleasekeepitformetilltheevening,"I
  said;"Iamgoingforawalk。"
  WhichwaydidIturnmysteps?
  Menwillwonderwhatpossessedme——womenwillthinkitaproceedingthatdidmecredit——Itookthefamiliarroadwhichledtothegloomywoodandtheguiltyriver。ThelonginginmetoseeCristelagain,wasmorethanI
  couldresist。NotbecauseIwasinlovewithher;onlybecauseIhadleftherindistress。
  Beyondthespring,andwithinashortdistanceoftheriver,Isawaladyadvancingtowardsmeonthepathwhichledfromthemill。
  Brisk,smiling,trippingalonglikeayounggirl,beholdthemock-republican,knowninourneighborhoodasLadyRachel!Sheheldoutbothhandstome。Butforherpetticoats,IshouldhavethoughtIhadmetwithajollyyoungman。
  "Ihavebeenwanderinginyourgloriouswood,Mr。Roylake。AnythingtoescapetherespectableclassesonSunday,patronizingpietyonthewaytoafternoonchurch。Imustpositivelymakeasketchofthecottagebythemill——Imean,ofcourse,thepicturesquesideofit。ThatfinegirlofToller’swasstandingatthedoor。Sheisreallyhandsomerthanever。Areyougoingtoseeher,youwickedman?Whichdoyouadmire——thatgypsycomplexion,orLena’slovelyskin?Both,Ihavenodoubt,atyourage。
  Good-bye。"
  Whenwehadlefteachother,IthoughtoftheabsentCaptainintheNavywhowasLadyRachel’shusband。Hewasaperfectstranger——butIputmyselfinhisplace,andfeltthatItooshouldhavegonetosea。
  OldTollerwasaloneinhiskitchen,evidentlyannoyedandangry。
  "Weareallatsixesandsevens,Mr。Gerard。I’vehadanotherrowwiththatdeaf-devil——mynewnameforhim,andIthinkit’sratherclever。Heswears,sir,thathewon’tgoattheendofhisweek’snotice。Says,ifI
  thinkI’mlikelytogetridofhimbeforehehasmarriedCristy,I’mmistaken。Threatens,ifanymanattemptstotakeheraway,he’llshoother,andshoottheman,andshoothimself。Aha!oldasIam,ifhebelieveshe’sgoingtohaveitallhisownway,he’smistaken。I’llbeevenwithhim。Youmarkmywords:I’llbeevenwithhim。"
  ThatoldToller——themostexasperatingofmen,judgedbyaquicktemper——hadirritatedmyfriendintospeakingrashlywasplainenough。
  Nevertheless,Ifeltsomeanxiety(jealousanxiety,Iamafraid)aboutCristel。Afterlookingroundthekitchenagain,Iaskedwhereshewas。
  "Sittingforlorninherbedroom,crying,"herfathertoldme。"Iwentoutforawalkbytheriver,andIsatdown,and(beingSunday)Ifellasleep。WhenIwoke,andgothomeagainjustnow,thatwashowIfoundher。Idon’tliketohearmygirlcrying;she’sasgoodasgoldandbetter。No,sir;ourdeaf-devilisnottoblameforthis。HehasgivenCristynoreasontocomplainofhim。Shesayssoherself——andshenevertoldalieyet。"
  "But,Mr。Toller,"Iobjected,"somethingmusthavehappenedtodistressher。Hasshenottoldyouwhatitis?"
  "Notshe!Obstinateaboutit。Leavesmetoguess。It’scleartomymind,Mr。Gerard,thatsomebodyhasgotatherinmyabsence,andsaidsomethingtoupsether。Youwillaskmewhothepersonis。Ican’tsayI
  havefoundthatoutyet。"
  "Butyoumeantotry?"
  "Yes;Imeantotry。"
  Heansweredmewithlittleoftheenergywhichgenerallydistinguishedhim。Perhapshewasfatigued,orperhapshehadsomethingelsetothinkof。Iofferedasuggestion。
  "Whenweareinwantofhelp,"Isaid,"wesometimesfindit,nearerthanwehadventuredtoexpect——atourowndoors。"
  Theancientmillerroseatthathintlikeafishatafly。
  "Gloody!"hecried。
  "Findhimatonce,Mr。Toller。"
  Hehobbledtothedoor——andlookedroundatme。"I’vegotburdensonmymind,"heexplained,"orIshouldhavethoughtofittoo。"Havingdonejusticetohisownabilities,hebustledout。Inlessthanaminute,hewasbackagaininastateofbreathlesstriumph。"Gloodyhasseentheperson,"heannounced;"and(whatdoyouthink,sir?)it’sawoman!"
  IbeckonedtoGloody,waitingmodestlyatthedoor,tocomein,andtellmewhathehaddiscovered。
  "Isawheroutside,sir——rappingatthedoorhere,withherparasol。"
  Thatwastheservant’sreport。
  Herparasol?NotbeingacquaintedwiththedevelopmentofdressamongfemaleservantsinEngland,Iaskedifshewasalady。Thereseemedtobenodoubtofitintheman’smind。Shewasalso,asGloodysupposed,apersonwhomhehadneverseenbefore。
  "Howisityouarenotsureofthat?"Isaid。
  "Well,sir,shewaswaitingtobeletin;andIwasbehindher,comingoutofthewood。"
  "Wholetherin?"
  "MissCristel。"Hisfacebrightenedwithanexpressionofinterestwhenhementionedthemiller’sdaughter。Hewentonwithhisstorywithoutwantingquestionstohelphim。"MissCristellookedlikeapersonsurprisedatseeingastranger——what_I_shouldcallafreeandeasystranger。Shewalkedin,sir,asiftheplacebelongedtoher。"
  Iamnotsuspiciousbynature,asIhopeandbelieve。ButIbegantoberemindedofLadyRachelalready。
  "Didyounoticethelady’sdress?"Iasked。
  Awomanwhohadseenherwouldhavebeenabletodescribeeverymorselofherdressfromheadtofoot。Themanhadonlyobservedherhat;andallhecouldsaywasthathethoughtit"asmartishone。"
  "Anyparticularcolor?"Iwenton。
  "NotthatIknowof。Darkgreen,Ithink。"
  "Anyornamentinit?"
  "Yes!Apurplefeather。"
  ThehatIhadseenontheheadofthathatefulwomanwasnowsufficientlydescribed——foraman。SlyoldToller,leavingGloodyunnoticed,andkeepinghiseyeonme,sawthesignsofconvictioninmyface,andsaidwithhiscustomaryaudacity:"Whoisshe?"
  Ifollowed,atmyhumbledistance,theexampleofSirWalterScott,wheninquisitivepeopleaskedhimifhewastheauthoroftheWaverleyNovels。
  InplainEnglish,Ideniedallknowledgeofthestrangerwearingthegreenhat。But,IwasnaturallydesirousofdiscoveringnextwhatLadyRachelhadsaid;andIaskedtospeakwithCristel。Herfar-seeingfathermightormightnothaveperceivedachanceoflisteningtoourconversation。Heledmetothedoorofhisdaughter’sroom;andstoodcloseby,whenIknockedsoftly,andbeggedthatshewouldcomeout。
  Thetoneofthepoorgirl’svoice——answering,"Forgiveme,sir;Ican’tdoit"——convictedtheshe-socialist(asIthought)ofmercilessconductofsomesort。Assumingthisconclusiontobetherightone,Idetermined,thenandthere,thatLadyRachelshouldnotpassthedoorsofTrimleyDeenagain。Ifherbosom-friendresentedthatwiseactofseveritybyleavingthehouse,Ishouldsubmitwithresignation,andshouldrememberthecircumstancewithpleasure。
  "Iamafraidyouareill,Cristel?"wasallIcouldfindtosay,underthedoubledisadvantageofspeakingthroughadoor,andhavingafatherlisteningatmyside。
  "Ohno,Mr。Gerard,notill。Alittlelowinmymind,that’sall。Idon’tmeantoberude,sir——praybekindertomethanever!prayletmebe!"
  IsaidIwouldreturnonthenextday;andlefttheroomwithasoreheart。
  OldTollerhighlyapprovedofmyconduct。Herubbedhisfleshlesshands,andwhispered:"You’llgetitoutofCristyto-morrow,andI’llhelpyou。"
  IfoundGloodywaitingformeoutsidethecottage。HewasanxiousaboutMissCristel;hisonlyexcuse,hetoldme,beingthefearthatshemightbeill。Havingsethimatease,inthatparticular,Isaid:"YouseemtobeinterestedinMissCristel。"
  Hisanswerraisedhimastephigherinmyestimation。
  "HowcanIhelpit,sir?"
  Anoddman,withapersonalappearancethatmightexciteaprejudiceagainsthim,insomeminds。Ifailedtoseeitmyselfinthatlight。Itstruckme,asIwalkedhome,thatCristelmighthavemademanyaworsefriendthantheretiredprize-fighter。
  AchangeinmymannerwasofcourseremarkedbyMrs。Roylake’sreadyobservation。ItoldherthatIhadbeenannoyed,andofferednootherexplanation。Wonderfultorelate,sheshowednocuriosityandnosurprise。Morewonderfulstill,ateveryfairopportunitythatoffered,shekeptoutofmyway。
  Mynextday’sengagementbeingforseveno’clockintheevening,IputMrs。Roylake’sself-controltoanewtest。Withprefatoryexcuses,I
  informedherthatIshouldnotbeabletodineathomeasusual。
  Impossibleasitwasthatshecouldhavebeenpreparedtohearthis,herpresenceofmindwasequaltotheoccasion。Ileftthehouse,followedbymystepmother’sbestwishesforapleasantevening。
  HopingtospeakwithCristelalone,Ihadarrangedtoreachthecottagebeforeseveno’clock。
  Ontheriver-marginofthewood,Iwasconfrontedbyawildgleamofbeautyinthefamiliarview,forwhichpreviousexperiencehadnotpreparedme。AmIwronginbelievingthatallscenery,nomatterhowmagnificentorhowhomelyitmaybe,derivesasplendornotitsownfromfavouringconditionsoflightandshade?Ourgloomytreesandourrepellentriverpresentedanaspectsuperblytransfigured,undertheshadowsofthetoweringclouds,thefantasticwreathsofthemist,andtheluridreddeningofthesunasitstoopedtoitssetting。Lovelyinterfusionsofsoberedcolorrested,faded,returnedagain,ontheupperleavesofthefoliageastheylightlymoved。Themist,rollingcapriciouslyoverthewaters,revealedthegrandlydeliberatecourseoftheflowingcurrent,whileitdimmedtheturbidearthyyellowthatdiscoloredanddegradedthestreamunderthefullglareofday。Whilemyeyesfollowedthesuccessivetransformationsoftheview,asthehouradvanced,tenderandsolemninfluencesbreathedtheirbalmovermymind。
  Days,happydaysthatwerepast,revived。Again,Iwalkedhandinhandwithmymother,amongthescenesthatwereroundme,andlearntfromhertobegratefulforthebeautyoftheearth,withaheartthatfeltit。Weweretracingourwayalongourfavoritewoodlandpath;andwefoundacompanionoftenderyears,hidingfromus。Sheshowedherself;blushing,hesitating,offeringanosegayofwildflowers。Mymotherwhisperedtome——Ithankedthelittlemill-girl,andgaveherakiss。DidIfeelthechild’sbreath,inmyday-dream,stillflutteringonmycheek?WasI
  consciousofhertouch?Istarted,trembled,returnedreluctantlytomypresentself。Avisiblehandtouchedmyarm。AsIturnedsuddenly,alivingbreathplayedonmyface。Thechildhadfadedintoavanishingshade:theperfectedwomanwhohadgrownfromherhadstolenonmeunawares,andwasaskingmetopardonher。"Mr。Gerard,youwerelostinyourthoughts;Ispoke,andyouneverheardme。"
  Ilookedatherinsilence。
  WasthisthedearCristelsowellknowntome?Orwasitamockeryofherthathadtakenherplace?
  "IhopeIhavenotoffendedyou?"shesaid。
  "Youhavesurprisedme,"Ianswered。"Somethingmusthavehappened,sinceIsawyoulast。Whatisit?"
  "Nothing。"
  Iadvancedastep,anddrewherclosertome。Adarkflushdiscoloredherface。Anoverpoweringbrilliancyflashedfromhereyes;therewasanhystericaldefianceinhermanner。"Areyouexcited?areyouangry?areyoutryingtostartlemebyactingapart?"Iurgedthosequestionsonher,oneafteranother;andIwasloudlyandconfidentlyanswered。
  "IdaresayIamexcited,Mr。Gerard,bythehonorthathasbeendoneme。
  Youaregoingtokeepyourengagement,ofcourse?Well,yourfriend,yourfavoritefriend,hasinvitedmetomeetyou。No!that’snotquitetrue。I
  invitedmyself——thedeafgentlemansubmitted。"
  "Whydidyouinviteyourself?"
  "Becauseatea-partyisnotcompletewithoutawoman。"
  Hermannerwasasstrangelyalteredasherlooks。Thatshewasbesideherselfforthemoment,Iclearlysaw。Thatshehadansweredmeunreservedly,itwasimpossibletobelieve。Ibegantofeelangry,whenI
  oughttohavemadeallowancesforher。
  "IsthisLadyRachel’sdoing?"Isaid。
  "WhatdoyouknowofLadyRachel,sir?"
  "Iknowthatshehasvisitedyou,andspokentoyou。"
  "Doyouknowwhatshehassaid?"
  "Icanguess。"
  "Mr。Gerard,don’tabusethatgoodandkindlady。Shedeservesyourgratitudeaswellasmine。"
  Hermannerhadbecomequieter;herfacewasmorecomposed;herexpressionalmostrecovereditsnaturalcharmwhileshespokeofLadyRachel。Iwasstupefied。
  "Try,sir,toforgetitandforgiveit,"sheresumedgently,"ifIhavemisbehavedmyself。Idon’trightlyknowwhatIamsayingordoing。"
  Ipointedtothenewsideofthecottage,behindus。
  "Isthecausethere?"Iasked。
  "No!noindeed!Ihavenotseenhim;Ihavenotheardfromhim。Hisservantoftenbringsmemessages。Notonemessageto-day。"
  "HaveyouseenGloodyto-day?"
  "Oh,yes!There’sonething,ifImaymakesobold,Ishouldliketoknow。Mr。Gloodyisasgoodtomeasgoodcanbe;weseeeachothercontinually,livinginthesameplace。Butyouaredifferent;andhetellsmehimselfhehasonlyseenyoutwice。Whathaveyoudone,Mr。
  Gerard,tomakehimlikeyousowell,inthatshorttime?"
  Itoldherthathehadbeenfoundinmygarden,lookingattheflowers。
  "Ashehaddonenoharm,"Isaid,"Iwouldn’tallowtheservanttoturnhimout;andIwalkedroundtheflower-bedswithhim。Littleenoughtodeservesuchgratitudeasthepoorfellowexpressed——andfelt,Idon’tdoubtit。"
  Ihadintendedtosaynomorethanthis。ButtheremembranceofGloody’smysteriousprevarication,andoftheuneasinesswhichIhadundoubtedlyfeltwhenIthoughtofitafterwards,ledme(Icannotpretendtosayhow)intoassociatingCristel’sagitationwithsomethingwhichthismanmighthavesaidtoher。Iwasonthepointofputtingthequestion,whensheheldupherhand,andsaid,"Hush!"
  Thewindwasblowingtowardsusfromtheriver-sidevillage,towhichI
  havealreadyalluded。IamnotsurewhetherIhavementionedthatthenameoftheplacewasKylam。Itwassituatedbehindapromontoryoftheriver-bank,clothedthicklywithtrees,andwasnotvisiblefromthemill。Inthepresentdirectionofthewind,wecouldhearthestrikingofthechurchclock。Cristelcountedthestrokes。
  "Seven,"shesaid。"Areyoudeterminedtokeepyourengagement?"
  Shehadrepeated——inanunsteadyvoice,andwithasuddenchangeinhercolortopaleness——thestrangequestionputtomebyGloody。InhiscaseIhadfailedtotracethemotive。Itriedtodiscoveritnow。
  "TellmewhyIoughttobreakmyengagement,"Isaid。
  "RememberwhatItoldyouatthespring,"sheanswered。"Youaredeceivedbyafalsefriendwholiestoyouandhatesyou。"
  Themanshewasspeakingofturnedthecornerofthenewcottage。Hewavedhishandgaily,andapproachedusalongtheroad。
  "Go!"shesaid。"Yourguardianangelhasforgottenyou。It’stoolatenow。"
  Insteadoflettingmeprecedeher,asIhadanticipated,sheranonbeforeme——madeasigntothedeafman,asshepassedhim,nottostopher——anddisappearedthroughtheopendoorofherfather’ssideofthecottage。
  Iwaslefttodecideformyself。WhatshouldIhavedone,ifIhadbeentwentyyearsolder?
  Saythatmymoralcouragewouldhaverisensuperiortothepoorestofallfears,thefearofappearingtobeafraid,andthatIshouldhavemademyexcusestomyhostoftheevening——howwouldmymoralcouragehaveansweredhim,ifhehadaskedforanexplanation?Uselesstospeculateonit!HadIpossessedthewisdomofmiddlelife,hisbookofleaveswouldnothavetoldhim,inmyownhandwriting,thatIbelievedinhisbetternature,andacceptedhisfriendlyletterinthespiritinwhichhehadwrittenExplainitwhocan——IknewthatIwasgoingtodrinkteawithhim,andyetIwasunwillingtoadvanceafewsteps,andmeethimontheroad!
  "Ifindanewbondofunionbetweenus,"hesaid,ashejoinedme。"Webothfeel_that。_"Hepointedtothegrandlydarkeningview。"Thetwomenwhocouldhavepaintedthemysteryofthosegrowingshadowsandfadinglights,lieinthegravesofRembrandtandTurner。Shallwegototea?"
  Onourwaytohisroomwestoppedatthemiller’sdoor。
  "Will_you_inquire,"hesaid,"ifMissCristelisready?"
  Iwentin。OldTollerwasinthekitchen,smokinghispipewithoutappearingtoenjoyit。
  "What’scometomygirl?"heasked,themomenthesawme。"Yesterdayshewasinherroom,crying。To-dayshe’sinherroom,praying。"
  ThewarningswhichIhadneglectedroseinjudgmentagainstme。Iwassilent;Iwasawed。BeforeIrecoveredmyself,Cristelenteredthekitchen。Herfatherwhispered,"Lookather!"
  Oftheexcitementwhichhaddisturbed——Ihadalmostsaid,profaned——herbeautifulface,notavestigeremained。Pale,composed,resolute,shesaid,"Iamready,"andledthewayout。
  Themanwhomshehatedofferedhisarm。Shetookit!
  CHAPTERXIII
  THECLARETJUG
  IperceivedbutonechangeintheLodger’smiserableroom,sinceIhadseenitlast。
  Asecondtablewassetagainstoneofthewalls。Ourboilingwaterfortheteawaskeptthere,inasilverkettleheatedbyaspirit-lamp。I
  nextobservedadelicatelittlechinavasewhichheldthetea,andafinely-designedglassclaretjug,withasilvercover。Othermen,possessingthatbeautifulobject,wouldhavethoughtitworthyofthepurestBordeauxwinewhichtheartsofmodernadulterationpermitustodrink。Thismanhadfilledtheclaretjugwithwater。
  "Allmyvaluableproperty,ostentatiouslyexposedtoview,"hesaid,inhisbitterlyfacetiousmanner。"Mylandlord’spropertymatchesitonthebigtable。"
  Thebigtablepresentedacoarseearthenwareteapot;cupsandsaucerswithpieceschippedoutofthem;acrackedmilkjug;atumblerwhichservedasasugarbasin;andanoldvegetabledish,honoredbyholdingdelicateFrenchsweet-meatsforthefirsttimesinceithadlefttheshop。
  Mydeaffriend,inboisterouslygoodspirits,pointedbackwardsandforwardsbetweenthepreciousandtheworthlessobjectsonthetwotables,asifhesawaprospectthatdelightedhim。
  "Idon’tbelievethemanlives,"hesaid,"whoenjoysContrastasI
  do。——Whatdoyouwantnow?"
  ThisquestionwasaddressedtoGloody,whohadjustenteredtheroom。Hetouchedtheearthenwareteapot。Hismasteranswered:"Letitalone。"
  "Imaketheteaatothertimes,"themanpersisted,lookingatme。
  "Whatdoeshesay?Writeitdownforme,Mr。Roylake。Ibegyouwillwriteitdown。"
  Therewasangerinhiseyesashemadethatrequest。Itookhisbook,andwrotethewords——harmlesswords,surely?Hereadthem,andturnedsavagelytohisunfortunateservant。
  "Inthedayswhenyouwerearuffianintheprize-ring,didtheothermen’sfistsbeatallthebrainsoutofyourhead?DoyouthinkyoucanmaketeathatisfitforMr。Roylaketodrink?"
  Hepointedtoanopendoor,communicatingwithanotherbedroom。Gloody’seyesrestedsteadilyonCristel:shefailedtonoticehim,beingoccupiedatthemomentinreplacingthepinofabroochwhichhadslippedoutofherdress。Themanwithdrewintothesecondbedroom,andsoftlyclosedthedoor。
  Ourhostrecoveredhisgoodhumor。Hetookawoodenstool,andseatedhimselfbyCristel。
  "Borrowedfurniture,"hesaid,"aswellasborrowedtea-things。WhatadebtofobligationIowetoyourexcellentfather。Howquietyouare,deargirl。Doyouregrethavingfollowedtheimpulsewhichmadeyoukindlyoffertodrinkteawithus?"Hesuddenlyturnedtome。"Anotherproof,Mr。Roylake,ofthesisterlyinterestthatshefeelsinyou;shecan’thearofyourcomingtomyroom,withoutwantingtobewithyou。Ah,youpossessthemysteriousattractionswhichfascinatethesex。Oneofthesedays,_some_womanwillloveyouasnevermanwaslovedyet。"HeaddressedhimselfagaintoCristel。"Stilloutofspirits?Idaresayyouaretiredofwaitingforyourtea。No?Youhavehadteaalready?It’sGloody’sfault;heoughttohavetoldmethatseveno’clockwastoolateforyou。Thepoordevildeservedthatyoushouldtakenonoticeofhimwhenhelookedatyoujustnow。Areyouoneofthefewwomenwhodislikeanuglyman?Womeningeneral,Icantellyou,preferuglymen。A
  handsomemanmatchesthemontheirownground,andtheydon’tlikethat。
  ’Wearesofondofouruglyhusbands;theysetusofftosuchadvantage。’
  Oh,Idon’treportwhattheysay;Ispeakthelanguageinwhichtheythink。——Mr。Roylake,doesitstrikeyouthattheCurisasadcynic?
  By-the-by,doyoucallme’theCur’(asIsuggested)whenyouspeakofmetootherpeople——toMissCristel,forinstance?Mycharmingyoungfriends,youbothlookshocked;youbothshakeyourheads。PerhapsIaminoneofmytoleranthumorsto-day;IseenothingdisgracefulinbeingaCur。Heisadogwhorepresentsdifferentbreeds。Verywell,theEnglishareapeoplewhorepresentdifferentbreeds:Saxons,Normans,Danes。Theconsequence,inonecase,isagreatnation。Theconsequence,intheothercase,isthecleverestmemberofthewholedogfamily——asyoumayfindoutforyourselfifyouwillonlyteachhim。Ha——howIamrunningon。Mygueststrytoslipinawordortwo,andcan’tfindtheiropportunity。Enjoyment,MissCristel。Excitement,Mr。Roylake。Formorethanayearpast,Ihavenotluxuriatedinthepleasuresofsociety。I
  feelthesocialglow;Ilovethehumanfamily;Inever,never,neverwassuchagoodmanasIamnow。Letvileslangexpressmyemotions:isn’titjolly?"
  CristelandIstoppedhim,atthesamemoment。Weinstinctivelyliftedourhandstoourears。
  Inhisdeliriumofhighspirits,hehadburstthroughtheinvariablemonotonyofhisarticulation。Withouttheslightestgradationofsound,hisvoicebrokesuddenlyintoascreech,prolongedinitsowndiscorduntilitbecameperfectlyunendurabletohear。Theeffectthathehadproduceduponuswasnotlostonhim。Hisheadsankonhisbreast;horridshudderingsshookhimwithoutmercy;hesaidtohimselfnottous:
  "IhadforgottenIwasdeaf。"
  Therewasawholeworldofmiseryinthosesimplewords。Cristelkeptherplace,unmoved。Irose,andputmyhandkindlyonhisshoulder。ItwasthebestwayIcoulddeviseofassuringhimofmysympathy。
  Helookedupatme,insilence。
  Hisbookofleaveswasonthetable;hedidoncemore,whathehadalreadydoneatthespring。Insteadofusingthebookasusual,hewroteinithimself,andthenhandedittome。
  "Letmespareyournervesarepetitionofmydeafdiscord。Sight,smell,touch,taste——Iwouldgivethemalltobeabletohear。Inremindingmeofthatvainaspiration,myinfirmityrevengesitself:mydeafnessisnotaccustomedtobeforgotten。Well!Icanbesilentlyuseful;Icanmakethetea。"
  Herose,and,takingtheteapotwithhim,wenttothetablethathadbeenplacedagainstthewall。Inthatposition,hisbackwasturnedtowardsus。
  Atthesametime,Ifelthisbookgentlytakenoutofmyhand。Cristelhadbeenreading,whileIread,overmyshoulder。Shewroteonthenextblankleaf:"ShallImakethetea?"
  "Now,"shesaidtome,"noticewhathappens。"
  Followinghim,shetouchedhisarm,andpresentedherrequest。Heshookhisheadintokenofrefusal。Shecamebacktoherplacebyme。
  "Youexpectedthat?"Isaid。
  "Yes。"
  "Whydidyouaskmetonoticehisrefusal?"
  "BecauseImaywanttoremindyouthathewouldn’tletmemakethetea。"
  "Mysteries,mydear?"
  "Yes:mysteries。"
  "Nottobementionedmoreparticularly?"
  "Iwillmentiononeofthemmoreparticularly。Aftertheteahasbeenmade,youmaypossiblyfeelmetouchyourkneeunderthetable。"
  Iwasfoolenoughtosmileatthis,andwiseenoughafterwardstoseeinherfacethatIhadmadeamistake。
  "Whatisyourtouchintendedtomean?"Iasked。
  "Itmeans,’Wait,’shesaid。"
  Mysenseofhumorwas,bythistime,completelyheldincheck。Thatsomesurprisewasinstoreforme,andthatCristelwasresolvednottotakemeintoherconfidence,wereconclusionsatwhichInaturallyarrived。I
  felt,andsurelynotwithoutgoodcause,alittleannoyed。TheLodgercamebacktouswiththeteamade。Asheputtheteapotonthetable,heapologizedtoCristel。
  "Don’tthinkmerude,inrefusingyourkindoffer。IfthereisonethingIknowIcandobetterthananybodyelse,thatthingismakingtea。Doyoutakesugarandmilk,Mr。Roylake?"
  Imadetheaffirmativesign。Hepouredoutthetea。Whenhehadfilledtwocups,thesupplywasexhausted。CristelandInoticedthis。Hesawit,andatoncegratifiedourcuriosity。
  "Itisarule,"hesaid,"withmastersintheartofmakingtea,thatoneinfusionoughtnevertobeusedtwice。Ifwewantanymore,wewillmakemore;andifyoufeelinclinedtojoinus,MissCristel,wewillfillthethirdcup。"
  Whatwasthereinthis(Iwondered)tomakeherturnpale?Andwhy,afterwhathehadjustsaid,didIseehereyeswillinglyrestonhim,forthefirsttimeinmyexperience?Entirelyatalosstounderstandher,I
  resignedlystirredmytea。Onthepointoftastingitnext,feltherhandonmyknee,underthetable。
  BewilderedasIwas,Iobeyedmyinstructions,andwentonstirringmytea。Ourhostsmiled。
  "Yoursugartakesalongtimetomelt,"hesaid——anddrankhistea。Asheemptiedthecup,thetouchwastakenoffme。Ifollowedhisexample。
  Inspiteofhisboasting,theteawastheworstIevertasted。Ishouldhavethrownitoutofthewindow,iftheyhadofferedussuchnastystuffatTrimleyDeen。WhenIsetdownmycup,heaskedfacetiouslyifIwishedhimtobrewanymore。Mynegativeanswerwasamasterpieceofstrongexpression,inthelanguageofsigns。
  InsteadofsendingforGloodytoclearthetable,hemovedawaytheobjectsnearhim,soastoleaveanemptyspaceathisdisposal。
  "Ioughtperhapstohavehesitated,beforeIaskedyoutospendtheeveningwithme,"hesaid,speakingwithagentlenessandamiabilityofmanner,stronglyincontrastwithhisbehavioruptothistime。"Itismymisfortune,asyoubothwellknow,tobeacheckonconversation。Idaresayyouhaveaskedyourselves:Howishegoingtoamuseus,aftertea?Ifyouwillallowme,Iproposetoamuseyoubyexhibitingthedexterityofmyfingersandthumbs。BeforeIwasdeaf,Ishouldhavepreferredthepianoforthispurpose。Asitis,aninferioraccomplishmentmustservemyturn。"
  Heopenedacupboardinthewall,closebythesecondtable,andreturnedwithapackofcards。
  Cristelimitatedtheactionofdealingcardsforagame。"No,"hesaid,"thatisnottheamusementwhichIhaveinview。Allowmetopresentmyselfinanewcharacter。IamnolongertheLodger,andnolongertheCur。Mynewnameismorehonorablestill——IamtheConjurer。"
  Heshuffledthepackbypouringitbackwardsandforwardsfromonehandtotheother,inacascadeofcards。Thewonderfuleasewithwhichhediditpreparedmeforsomethingworthseeing。Cristel’sadmirationofhisdexterityexpresseditselfbyaprolongedclappingofhands,andastrangeuneasylaugh。Ashisexcitementsubsided,heragitationbrokeout。Isawtheflushagainonherface,andthefierybrightnessinhereyes。Once,whenhisattentionwasengaged,shestolealookatthedoorbywhichGloodyhadlefttheroom。Didthisindicateanotherofthemysterieswhich,byherownconfession,shehadinpreparationforme?Mylateexperiencehadnotinclinedmefavorablytowardsmysteries。I
  devotedmywholeattentiontotheConjurer。
  WhetherhechosetheeasiestexamplesofskillinsleightofhandismorethanIknow。IcanonlysaythatIneverwasmorecompletelymystifiedbyanyprofessoroflegerdemainonthepublicplatform。Aftertheperformanceofeachtrick,heaskedleaveto"timehimselfbylookingathiswatch;beinganxioustodiscoverifhehadlosthiscustomaryquicknessofexecutionthroughrecentneglectofthenecessarypractice。
  OfCristel’sconduct,whilehewasamusingus,IcanonlysaythatitjustifiedMrs。Roylake’sspitefuldescriptionofherasaboldgirl。Themorecleverlythetrickswereperformed,themoretheyseemedtoannoyandprovokeher。
  "Ihatebeingpuzzled!"shesaid,addressingherselfofcoursetome。
  "Yes,yes;hisfingersarequickerthanmyeyes——Ihaveheardthatexplanationbefore。Whenhehasdoneoneofhistricks,Iwanttoknowhowhedoesit。Conjurersarepeoplewhoaskriddles,and,whenonecan’tguessthem,refusetosaywhattheansweris。It’sasbadascallingmeafool,tosupposethatIlikebeingdeceived。Ah,"shecried,withashockinginsolenceoflookandmanner,"ifourfriendcouldonlyhearwhatIamsaying!"
  Hehadpausedwhileshewasspeaking,observingherattentively。"Yourfacedoesn’tencourageme,"hesaid,withapatienceandcourtesyofmannerwhichitwasimpossiblenottoadmire。"Iamcominggraduallytomygreatesttriumph;andIthinkIcansurpriseandpleaseyou。"
  Hetimedhislasttrick,andreturnedtothetableplacedagainstthewall。
  "Excusemeforamoment,"heresumed;"Iamsufferingasusual,afterdrinkingtea。Isodelightinitthatthetemptationto-nightwasmorethanIcouldresist。Teadisagreeswithmyweakstomach。Italwaysproducesthirst。"
  "Whatnonsensehetalks!"Cristelexclaimed。"Allmerefancy!Heremindsmeoftheoldsongcalled’TheNervousMan。’Doyouknowit,Mr。
  Roylake?"
  Inspiteofmyeffortstopreventher,sheburstoutwiththefirstverseofastupidcomicsong。Sparedbyhisdeafnessfromthisinflictionofvulgarity,ourhostfilledatumblerfromthewaterintheclaretjug,anddrankit。
  Ashesetthetumblerdown,wewerestartledbyanaccidentinthenextroom。Thefloorwassuddenlyshakenbythesoundofaheavyfall。Thefallwasfollowedbyagroanwhichinstantlybroughtmetomyfeet。
  Althoughhisinfirmitymadehimunconsciousofthegroan,myfriendfeltthevibrationofthefloor,andsawmestartupfrommychair。HelookedevenmorealarmedthanIwas,judgingbytheghastlychangethatIsawinhiscolor;andhereachedthedoorofthesecondroomassoonasIdid。
  ItisneedlesstosaythatIallowedhimtoenterfirst。
  Onthepointoffollowinghim,Ifeltmyselfroughlypulledback。WhenI
  turnedround,andsawCristel,Ididreallyandtrulybelievethatshewasmad。Thefuriousimpatienceinhereyes,thefrenziedstrengthofhergrasponmyarm,wouldhaveledmostothermentoformthesameconclusion。
  "Come!"shecried。"No!notaword。Thereisn’tamomenttolose。"Shedraggedmeacrosstheroomtothetableonwhichtheclaretjugstood。
  Shefilledthetumblerfromit,as_he_hadfilledthetumbler。Thematerialofwhichthejughadbeenmadewassosolid(crystal,notglassasIhadsupposed)thatthefillingofthetwotumblersemptiedit。
  Cristelheldthewaterouttome,gaspingforbreath,tremblingasifshesawsomefrightfulreptilebeforeherinsteadofmyself。
  "Drinkit,"shesaid,"ifyouvalueyourlife!"
  Ishouldofcoursehavefounditperfectlyeasytoobeyher,strangeasherlanguagewas,ifIhadbeeninfullpossessionofmyself。Betweendistressandalarm,mymind(Isuppose)hadlostitsbalance。Withorwithoutacause,Ihesitated。
  Shecrossedtheroom,andthrewopenthewindowwhichlookedoutontheriver。
  "Youshan’tdiealone,"shesaid。"Ifyoudon’tdrinkit,I’llthrowmyselfout!"
  Idrankfromthetumblertothelastdrop。
  Itwasnotwater。
  IthadatastewhichIcancomparetonodrink,andtonomedicine,knowntome。Ithoughtoftheotherstrangetastepeculiartothetea。Atlast,thetremendoustruthforceditselfonmymind。Themaninwhommyboyishgenerosityhadsofaithfullybelievedhadattemptedmylife。
  Cristeltookthetumblerfromme。Mypoorangelclaspedherfreearmroundmyneck,andpressedherlips,inanecstasyofjoy,onmycheek。
  Thenextinstant,sheseizedtheclaretjug,anddasheditintopiecesonthefloor。"Getthejugfromhiswashhand-stand,"shesaid。WhenIgaveittoher,shepouredsomeofthewateruponthebrokenfragmentsofcrystalscatteredonthefloor。Ihadputthejugbackinitsplace,andwasreturningtoCristel,whenthepoisonershowedhimself,enteringfromtheservant’sroom。
  "Don’tbealarmed,"hesaid。"Gloody’snameoughttobeGlutton。Anattackofgiddiness,thoroughlywelldeserved。Ihaverelievedhim。Youremember,Mr。Roylake,thatIwasonceasurgeon——"
  Thebrokenclaretjugcaughthiseye。
  Wehaveallreadofmenwhowerepetrifiedbyterror。Ofthefewpersonswhohavereallywitnessedthatspectacle,Iamone。Theutterstillnessofhimwasreallyterribletosee。Cristelwroteinhisbookanexcuse,nodoubtpreparedbeforehand:"Thatfallinthenextroomfrightenedme,andIfeltfaint。Iwenttogetsomewaterfromthejugyoudrankoutof,anditslippedfrommyhand。"
  Sheplacedthosewordsunderhiseyes——shemightjustaswellhaveshownthemtothedog。Adeadman,erectonhisfeet——sohelookedtooureyes。
  Sohestilllooked,whenItookCristel’sarm,andledheroutofthatdreadfulpresence。
  "Takemeintotheair!"shewhispered。
  Aburstoftearsrelievedher,aftertheunutterablesuspensethatshehadsobravelyendured。Whenshewasinsomedegreecomposedagain,wewalkedgentlyupanddownforaminuteortwointhecoolnightair。
  "Don’tspeaktome,"shesaid,aswestoppedbeforeherfather’sdoor。"I
  amnotfitforityet;Iknowwhatyoufeel。"Ipressedhertomyheart,andlettheembracespeakforme。Sheyieldedtoit,faintlysighing。
  "To-morrow?"Iwhispered。Shebentherhead,andleftme。
  Walkinghomethroughthewood,Ibecameaware,littlebylittle,thatmythoughtswerenotunderthecustomarycontrol。Overandoveragain,I
  triedtoreviewtheeventsofthatterribleevening,andfailed。
  Fragmentsofothermemoriespresentedthemselves——andthendesertedme。
  Nonsense,absolutenonsense,founditswayintomymindnext,androseinidioticwordstomylips。Igrewtoolazyeventotalktomyself。I
  strayedfromthepath。Themossyearthbegantoriseandsinkundermyfeet,likethewatersinaground-swellatsea。Istoodstill,inastateofidiot-wonder。Thegroundsuddenlyroserightuptomyface。Iremembernomore。
  Myfirstconsciousexerciseofmysenses,whenIrevived,cametomebywayofmyears。Leadenweightsseemedtoclosemyeyes,tofettermymovements,tosilencemytongue,toparalyzemytouch。ButIheardawailingvoice,speakingclosetome,soclosethatitmighthavebeenmyownvoice:Idistinguishedthewords;Iknewthetones。
  "Oh,mymaster,mylord,whoamIthatIshouldlive——andyoudie!andyoudie!"
  Wasitherwarmyoungbreaththatquickenedmewithitsvigorouslife?I
  onlyknowthattherevivalofmysenseoftouchdidcertainlyspringfromthecontactofherlips,pressedtomineintherecklessabandonmentofgriefwithouthope。Hercryofjoy,whenmyfirstsightoldherthatI
  wasstillalivingcreature,ranthroughmelikeanelectricshock。I
  openedmyeyes;Iheldoutmyhand;Itriedtohelpherwhensheraisedmyhead,andsetmeagainstthetreeunderwhichIhadbeenstretchedhelpless。WithaneffortIcouldcallherbyhername。Eventhatexhaustedme。MymindwassoweakthatIshouldhavebelievedher,ifshehaddeclaredherselftobeaspiritseeninadream,keepingwatchovermeinthewood。
  WiserthanIwas,shesnatchedupmyhat,ranonbeforeme,andwaslostinthedarkness。
  Aninterval,anunendurableinterval,passed。Shereturned,havingfilledmyhatfromthespring。Butfortheexquisitecoolnessofthewaterfallingonmyface,tricklingdownmythroat,Ishouldhavelostmysensesagain。Inafewminutesmore,Icouldtakethatdearhand,andholdittomeasifIwasholdingtomylife。Wecouldonlyseeeachotherobscurely,andinthatverycircumstance(asweconfessedtoeachotherafterwards)wefoundtheneedfulcomposurebeforewecouldspeak。