"Ultimatelyagoodharewasfoundwhichtookthefieldat……
Therethehoundspressedher,andonthehuntarrivingattheedgeoftheclifftheharecouldbeseencrossingthebeachandgoingrightouttosea。Aboatwasprocured,andthemasterandsomeothersrowedouttoherjustasshedrowned,and,bringingthebodyin,gaveittothehounds。Ahareswimmingouttoseaisasightnotoftenwitnessed。"——/Localpaper,January/1911。
"……Alongcheckoccurredinthelatterpartofthishunt,theharehavinglaidupinahedgerow,fromwhichshewasatlastevictedbyacrackofthewhip。Hernextplaceofrefugewasahorse-pond,whichshetriedtoswim,butgotstuckintheicemidway,andwassinking,whenthehuntsmanwentinafterher。Itwasanovelsighttoseehuntsmanandharebeingliftedoverawalloutofthepond,theeagerpackwaitingfortheirpreybehindthewall。"——/Localpaper,February/1911。
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Theauthorsupposesthatthefirstoftheaboveextractsmusthaveimpressedhim。Atanyrate,onthenightafterthereadingofit,justashewenttosleep,oronthefollowingmorningjustasheawoke,hecannottellwhich,therecametohimthetitleandtheoutlinesofthisfantasy,includingthecommandwithwhichitends。WithaparticularclearnessdidheseemtoseethepictureoftheGreatWhiteRoad,"straightasthewayoftheSpirit,andbroadasthebreastofDeath,"andofthelittleHaretravellingtowardstheawfulGates。
LiketheMahatmaofthisfable,heexpressesnoopinionastothemeritsofthecontroversybetweentheRed-facedManandtheHarethat,withoutsearchonhisownpart,presenteditselftohismindinsooddafashion。Itisoneonwhichanybodyinterestedinsuchmatterscanformanindividualjudgment。
THEMAHATMA[*]
[*]Mahatma,"great-souled。""Oneofaclassofpersonswithpreter-
naturalpowers,imaginedtoexistinIndiaandThibet。"——/NewEnglishDictionary/。
Everyonehasseenahare,eithercrouchedorrunninginthefields,orhangingdeadinapoulterer’sshop,orlastlypathetic,evendreadful-
lookingandinthisformalmostindistinguishablefromaskinnedcat,onthedomestictable。ButnotmanypeoplehavemetaMahatma,atleasttotheirknowledge。NotmanypeopleknowevenwhoorwhataMahatmais。Themajorityofthosewhochancetohaveheardthetitleareapttoconfuseitwithanother,thatofMadHatter。
Thisisevendoneofmaliceprepense(especially,forobviousreasons,ifahareisinanywayconcerned)inscorn,notinignorance,bypersonswhoarewellacquaintedwiththerealmeaningofthewordandevenwithitsSanscritorigin。ThetruthisthatanincredulousWesternworldputsnofaithinMahatmas。ToitaMahatmaisakindofspiritualMrs。Harris,givinganaddressinThibetatwhichnolettersaredelivered。Either,itsays,thereisnosuchperson,orheisafraudulentscampwithnogreateroccultpowers——well,thanahare。
IconfessthatthisviewofMahatmasisonethatdoesnotsurprisemeintheleast。Inevermet,andIscarcelyexpecttomeet,anindividualentitledtoset"Mahatma"afterhisname。Certainly/I/
havenorighttodoso,whoonlytookthattitleonthespurofthemomentwhentheHareaskedmehowIwascalled,andnowmakeuseofitasa/nom-de-plume/。ItistruethereisJorsen,bywhoseorder,foritamountstothat,Ipublishthishistory。ForaughtIknowJorsenmaybeaMahatma,buthedoesnotintheleastlookthepart。
Imagineabluffpersonwithastrong,hardface,piercinggreyeyes,andveryprominent,bushyeyebrows,ofaboutfiftyorsixtyyearsofage。AddaScotchaccentandameerschaumpipe,whichhesmokesevenwhenheiswearingafrockcoatandatallhat,andyouhaveJorsen。I
believethathelivessomewhereinthecountry,iswelloff,andpractisesgardening。Ifsohehasneveraskedmetohisplace,andI
onlymeethimwhenhecomestoTown,asIunderstand,tovisitflower-
shows。
ThenIalwaysmeethimbecauseheordersmetodoso,notbyletterorbywordofmouthbutinquiteadifferentway。SuddenlyIreceiveanimpressioninmymindthatIamtogotoacertainplaceatacertainhour,andthatthereIshallfindJorsen。Idogo,sometimestoanhotel,sometimestoalodging,sometimestoarailwaystationortothecornerofaparticularstreetandthereIdofindJorsensmokinghisbigmeerschaumpipe。Weshakehandsandheexplainswhyhehassentforme,afterwhichwetalkofvariousthings。Nevermindwhattheyare,forthatwouldbetellingJorsen’ssecretsaswellasmyown,whichImustnotdo。
ItmaybeaskedhowIcametoknowJorsen。Well,inastrangeway。
Nearlythirtyyearsagoadreadfulthinghappenedtome。Iwasmarriedand,althoughstillyoung,apersonofsomemarkinliterature。IndeedevennowoneortwoofthebookswhichIwrotearereadandremembered,althoughitissupposedthattheirauthorhaslonglefttheworld。
ThethingwhichhappenedwasthatmywifeandourdaughterwerecomingoverfromtheChannelIslands,wheretheyhadbeenonavisit(shewasaJerseywoman),and,and——well,theshipwaslost,that’sall。Theshockbrokemyheart,insuchawaythatithasneverbeenmendedagain,butunfortunatelydidnotkillme。
AfterwardsItooktodrinkandsank,asdrunkardsdo。Thentheriverbegantodrawme。IhadalodginginapoorstreetatChelsea,andI
couldheartherivercallingmeatnight,and——Iwishedtodieastheothershaddied。AtlastIyielded,forthedrinkhadrottedoutallmymoralsense。Aboutoneo’clockofawild,wintermorningIwenttoabridgeIknewwhereinthosedayspolicemenrarelycame,andlistenedtothatcallofthewater。
"Come!"itseemedtosay。"Thisworldistherealhell,endingintheeternalnaught。Thedreamsofalifebeyondandofre-uniontherearebutademon’smockingbreathedintothemortalheart,lestbyitsuniversalsuicidemankindshouldrobhimofhistorture-pit。Thereisnotruthinallyourfathertaughtyou"(hewasaclergymanandrathereminentinhisprofession),"thereisnohopeforman,thereisnothinghecanwinexceptthedeephappinessofsleep。Comeandsleep。"
SuchweretheargumentsofthatVoiceoftheriver,theold,familiarargumentsofdesolationanddespair。Ileantovertheparapet;inanothermomentIshouldhavebeengone,whenIbecameawarethatsomeonewasstandingneartome。Ididnotseethepersonbecauseitwastoodark。Ididnothearhimbecauseoftheravingofthewind。ButI
knewthathewasthere。SoIwaiteduntilthemoonshoneoutforawhilebetweentheedgesoftworaggedclouds,theshapesofwhichI
canseetothishour。ItshowedmeJorsen,lookingjustashedoesto-day,forheneverseemstochange——Jorsen,onwhom,tomyknowledge,Ihadnotseteyesbefore。
"Evenayearago,"hesaid,inhisstrong,roughvoice,"youwouldnothaveallowedyourmindtobeconvincedbysuchargumentsasthosewhichyouhavejustheardintheVoiceoftheriver。Thatisoneoftheworstsidesofdrink;itdecaysthereasonasitdoesthebody。
Youmusthavenoticedityourself。"
IrepliedthatIhad,forIwassurprisedintoacquiescence。ThenI
grewdefiantandaskedhimwhatheknewoftheargumentswhichwereorwerenotinfluencingme。Tomysurprise——no,thatisnottheword——tomybewilderment,herepeatedthemtomeonebyonejustastheyhadarisenafewminutesbeforeinmyheart。Moreover,hetoldmewhatI
hadbeenabouttodo,andwhyIwasabouttodoit。
"Youknowmeandmystory,"Imutteredatlast。
"No,"heanswered,"atleastnotmorethanIknowthatofmanymenwithwhomIchancetobeintouch。Thatis,Ihavenotmetyoufornearlyelevenhundredyears。Athousandandeighty-six,tobecorrect。
IwasablindpriestthenandyouwerethecaptainofIrene’sguard。"
AtthisnewsIburstoutlaughingandthelaughdidmegood。
"IdidnotknowIwassoold,"Isaid。
"Doyoucallthatold?"answeredJorsen。"Why,thefirsttimethatwehadanythingtodowitheachother,sofarasIcanlearn,thatis,wasovereightthousandyearsago,inEgyptbeforethebeginningofrecordedhistory。"
"IthoughtthatIwasmad,butyouaremadder,"Isaid。
"Doubtless。Well,IamsomadthatImanagedtobehereintimetosaveyoufromsuicide,asonceinthepastyousavedme,forthusthingscomeround。Butyourroomsarenear,aretheynot?Letusgothereandtalk。Thisplaceiscoldandtheriverisalwayscalling。"
ThatwashowIcametoknowJorsen,whomIbelievetobeoneofthegreatestmenalive。OnthisparticularnightthatIhavedescribedhetoldmemanythings,andsincethenhehastaughtmemuch,meandafewothers。ButwhetherheiswhatiscalledaMahatmaIamsureIdonotknow。Hehasneverclaimedsucharankinmyhearing,orindeedtobeanythingmorethanamanwhohassucceededinwinningaknowledgeofhisownpowersoutofthedepthsofthedarkthatliesbehindus。
OfcourseImeanoutofhispastinotherincarnationslongbeforehewasJorsen。Moreover,bydegrees,asIgrewfittobearthelight,heshowedmesomethingofmyown,andofhowthetwowereintertwined。
ButallthesethingsaresecretsofwhichIhaveperhapsnorighttospeakatpresent。ItisenoughtosaythatJorsenchangedthecurrentofmylifeonthatnightwhenhesavedmefromdeath。
Forinstance,fromthatdayonwardstothepresenttimeIhavenevertouchedthedrinkwhichsonearlyruinedme。Alsothedarknesshasrolledaway,andwithiteverydoubtandfear;Iknowthetruth,andforthattruthIlive。Consideredfromcertainaspectssuchknowledge,Iadmit,isnotaltogetherdesirable。Thusithasdeprivedmeofmyinterestinearthlythings。Ambitionhasleftmealtogether;foryearsIhavehadnowishtosucceedintheprofessionwhichIadoptedinmyyouth,orinanyother。IndeedIdoubtwhethertheelementsofworldlysuccessstillremaininme;whethertheyarenotentirelyburntawaybythatfireofwisdominwhichIhavebathed。Howcanwestrivetowinacrownwehavenolongeranydesiretowear?NowIdesireothercrownsandattimesIwearthem,ifonlyforalittlewhile。Myspiritgrowsandgrows。Itisdraggingatitsstrings。
WhatamItolookat?Asmall,white-hairedmanwithathinandratherplaintivefaceinwhicharesettwolarge,darkeyesthatcontinuallyseemtosoftenanddevelop。Thatismypicture。AndwhatamIintheworld?Iwilltellyou。OncertaindaysoftheweekIemploymyselfineditingatradejournalthathastodowithhaberdashery。OnanotherdayIactasauctioneertoafirmwhichimportsandsellscheapItalianstatuary;modern,verymoderncopiesoftheantique,floridmarblevases,andsoforth。Someofyouwhoreadmayhavepassedsuchmartsindifferentpartsofthecity,orevenhavedroppedinandpurchasedabustoratazzaforasurprisinglysmallsum。PerhapsI
knockeditdowntoyou,onlytoopleasedtofinda/bonafide/bidderamongstmycompany。
Asfortherestofmytime——well,IemployitindoingwhatgoodIcanamongthepoorandthosewhoneedcomfortorwhoarebereaved,especiallyamongthosewhoarebereaved,fortosuchIamsometimesabletobringthebreathofhopethatblowsfromanothershore。
OccasionallyalsoIamusemyselfinmyownfashion。ThussureknowledgehascometomeaboutcertainepochsinthepastinwhichI
livedinothershapes,andIstudythoseepochs,hopingthatonedayI
mayfindtimetowriteofthemandofthepartsIplayedinthem。Someofthesepartsareextremelyinteresting,especiallyasIamofcourseabletocontrastthemwithourmodernmodesofthoughtandaction。
Theydonotallcomebacktomewithequalclearness,theearlierlivesbeing,asonemightexpect,themoredifficulttorecoverandthecomparativelyrecentonestheeasiest。Alsotheyseemtorangeoveravaststretchoftime,backindeedtothedaysofprimeval,prehistoricman。Inshort,Ithinkthesubconsciousinsomewaysresemblestheconsciousandnaturalmemory;thatwhichisveryfarofftoitgrowsdimandblurred,thatwhichiscomparativelycloseremainsclearandsharp,althoughofcoursethisruleisnotinvariable。
Moreoverthereisforesightaswellasmemory。AtleastfromtimetotimeIseemtocomeintouchwithfutureeventsandstatesofsocietyinwhichIshallhavemyshare。
Ibelievesomethinkersholdatheorythatsuchconditionsasthoseofpast,present,andfuturedonotinfactexist;thateverythingalreadyis,standinglikeacompletedcolumnbetweenearthandheaven;
thatthesumisaddedup,theequationworkedout。AttimesIamtemptedtobelieveinthetruthofthisproposition。Butifitbetrue,ofcourseitremainsdifficulttoobtainaclearviewofotherpartsofthecolumnthanthatinwhichwehappentofindourselvesobjectivelyconsciousatanygivenperiod,andneedlesstosayimpossibletoseeitfrombasetocapital。
Howeverthismaybe,noindividualentitypervadesallthecolumn。
Therearegreatsectionsofitwithwhichthatentityhasnothingtodo,althoughitalwaysseemstoappearagainabove。Isupposethatthosesectionswhichareemptyofanindividualandhisatmosphererepresenttheintervalsbetweenhisliveswhichhespendsinsleep,orinstatesofexistencewithwhichthisworldisnotconcerned,butofsuchgulfsofoblivionandstatesofbeingIknownothing。
TotakeasingleinstanceofwhatIdoknow:oncethisspiritofmine,thatnowbytheworkingsofdestinyforalittlewhileoccupiesthebodyofafourth-rateauctioneer,andoftheeditorofatradejournal,dweltinthatofaPharaohofEgypt——nevermindwhichPharoah。Yes,althoughyoumaylaughandthinkmemadtosayit,formethelegionsfoughtandthundered;tomethepeoplesbowedandthesecretsanctuarieswereopenedthatIandIalonemightcommunewiththegods;Iwhointhefleshandafteritmyselfwasworshippedasagod。
Well,ofthisforgottenRoyaltyofwhomlittleisknownsavewhatafewinscriptionshavetotell,thereremainsaportraitstatueintheBritishMuseum。SometimesIgotolookatthatstatueandtrytorecallexactlyunderwhatcircumstancesIcausedittobeshaped,puzzlingoutthestorybitbybit。
NotlongagoIstoodthusabsorbedanddidnotnoticethatthehouroftheclosingofthegreatgalleryhadcome。StillIstoodandgazedanddreamttillthepolicemanonduty,seeingandsuspectingme,cameupandroughlyorderedmetobegone。
Theman’stoneangeredme。Ilaidmyhandonthefootofthestatue,forithadjustcomebacktomethatitwasa"Ka"image,asacredthing,anyEgyptologistwillknowwhatImean,whichforageshadsatinachamberofmytomb。ThentheKathatclingstoiteternallyawokeatmytouchandknewme,orsoIsuppose。AtleastIfeltmyselfchange。Anewstrengthcameintome;myshape,batteredinthisworld’sstorms,putonsomethingofitsancientdignity;myeyesgrewroyal。IlookedatthatmanasPharaohmayhavelookedatonewhohaddonehiminsult。Hesawthechangeandtrembled——yes,trembled。I
believehethoughtIwassomeimperialghostthattheshadowsofeveninghadcausedhimtomistakeforman;atanyratehegaspedout——
"Ibegyourpardon,Iwasobeyingorders。IhopeyourMajestywon’thurtme。NowIthinkofitIhavebeentoldthatthingscomeoutoftheseoldstatuesinthenight。"
Thenturningheran,literallyran,wheretoIamsureIdonotknow,probablytoseekthefellowshipofsomeotherpoliceman。InduecourseIfollowed,and,liftingthebarattheendofthehall,departedwithoutfurtherquestionasked。AfterwardsIwasverygladtothinkthatIhaddonethemannoinjury。AtthemomentIknewthatIcouldhurthimifIwould,andwhatismoreIhadthedesiretodoso。Itcametome,Isuppose,withthatbreathofthepastwhenIwassogreatandabsolute。PerhapsI,orthatpartofmethenincarnate,wasatyrantinthosedays,andthisiswhynowImustbesohumble。Fateisturningmypridetoitshammerandbeatingitoutofme。
Forthusinthelonghistoryofthesoulitservesallourvices。
THEGREATWHITEROAD
Now,asIhavehinted,undertheteachingofJorsen,whosavedmefromdegradationandself-murder,yes,andhelpedmewithmoneyuntilonceagainIcouldearnalivelihood,Ihaveacquiredcertainknowledgeandwisdomofasortthatarenotcommon。Thatis,Jorsentaughtmetheelementsofthesethings;hesetmyfeetuponthepathwhichthenceforward,havingthesight,Ihavebeenabletofollowformyself。HowIfolloweditdoesnotmatter,norcouldIteachothersifIwould。
Iamnomemberofanymysticbrotherhood,and,asIhaveexplained,noMahatma,althoughIhavecalledmyselfthusforpresentpurposesbecausethenameisaconvenientcloak。IrepeatthatIamignorantiftherearesuchpeopleasMahatmas,thoughifsoIthinkJorsenmustbeoneofthem。Stillhenevertoldmethis。Whathehastoldisthateveryindividualspiritmustworkoutitsowndestinyquiteindependentlyofothers。Indeed,beingratherfondoffinephrases,hehassometimesspokentomeof,orrather,insisteduponwhathecalled"thelonesomesplendourofthehumansoul,"whichitisourbusinesstoperfectthroughvariouslivestillIcanscarcelyappreciateandamcertainlyunabletodescribe。
Totellthetruth,thethoughtofthis"lonesomesplendour"towhichitseemssomeofusmayattain,alarmsme。Ihavehadenoughofbeinglonesome,andIdonotaskforanyparticularsplendour。MyonlyambitionsaretofindthosewhomIhavelost,andinwhateverlifeI
livetobeofusetoothers。However,asIgatherthattheexaltedconditiontowhichJorsenalludesisthousandsofagesoffforanyofus,andmayafterallmeansomethingquitedifferenttowhatitseemstomean,thethoughtofitdoesnottroublemeovermuch。MeanwhilewhatIseekisthevisionofthoseIlove。
NowIhavethispower。OccasionallywhenIamindeepsleepsomepartofmeseemstoleavemybodyandtobetransportedquiteoutsidetheworld。Ittravels,asthoughIwerealreadydead,totheGatesthatallwholivemustpass,andtheretakesitsstand,ontheGreatWhiteRoad,watchingthosewhohavebeencalledspeedbycontinually。ThoseupontheearthknownothingofthatRoad。Blindedbytheirpompsandvanities,theycannotsee,theywillnotseeitalwaysgrowingtowardsthefeetofeveryoneofthem。ButIseeandknow。Ofcourseyouwhoreadwillsaythatthisisbutadreamofmine,anditmaybe。Still,ifso,itisaverywonderfuldream,andexceptforthechangeofthepassingpeople,orratherofthosewhohavebeenpeople,alwaysverymuchthesame。
There,straightasthewayoftheSpiritandbroadasthebreastofDeath,istheGreatWhiteRoadrunningIknownotwhence,uptothoseGatesthatgleamlikemoonlightandarehigherthantheAlps。TherebeyondtheGatestheradiantPresencesmovemysteriously。ThenceattheappointedtimetheVoicecriesandtheyareopenedwithasoundliketothatofdeepestthunder,orsometimesareburnedaway,whilefromtheGlorythatliesbeyondflowthesweet-facedwelcomerstogreetthoseforwhomtheywait,bearingthecupsfromwhichtheygivetodrink。Idonotknowwhatisinthecups,whetheritbeadraughtofLetheorsomebaptismalwaterofnewbirth,orboth;butalwaysthethirsting,world-wornsoulappearstochange,andthenasitweretobelostinthePresencethatgavethecup。Atleasttheyarelosttomysight。Iseethemnomore。
WhydoIwatchthoseGates,intruthorindream,beforemytime?Oh!
Youcanguess。ThatperchanceImaybeholdthoseforwhommyheartburnswithaquenchless,eatingfire。AndonceIbeheld——notthemotherbutthechild,mychild,changedindeed,mysterious,wonderful,gleaminglikeastar,witheyessodeepthatintheirdepthsmyhumanityseemedtoswoon。
Shecameforward;sheknewme;shesmiledandlaidherfingeronherlips。Sheshookherhairaboutherandinitvanishedasinacloud。
Yetasshevanishedavoicespokeinmyheart,hervoice,andthewordsitsaidwere——
"Wait,ourBeloved!Wait!"
Markwell。"OurBeloved,"not"MyBeloved。"SothereareothersbywhomIambeloved,oratleastoneother,andIknowwellwhothatonemustbe。
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Afterthisdream,perhapsIhadbettercallitadream,Iwasillforalongwhile,forthejoyandthegloryofitoverpoweredmeandbroughtmeneartothedeathIhadalwayssought。ButIrecovered,formyhourisnotyet。Moreover,foralongwhileaswereckontime,someyearsindeed,IobeyedtheinjunctionandsoughttheGreatWhiteRoadnomore。AtlengththelonginggrewtoostrongformeandIreturnedthither,butneveragaindidthevisioncome。Itswordwasspoken,itsmissionwasfulfilled。YetfromtimetotimeI,amortal,seemtostanduponthebordersofthatimmortalRoadandwatchthenewlydeadwhotravelittowardsthegloriousGates。
OnceortwicetherehavebeenamongthempeoplewhomIhaveknown。AsthesepassmeIappeartohavethepoweroflookingintotheirhearts,andthereIreadstrangethings。Sometimestheyarebeautifulthingsandsometimesuglythings。ThusIhavelearnedthatthoseIthoughtbadwerereallygoodinthemain,forwhocanclaimtobequitegood?
AndontheotherhandthatthoseIbelievedtobeashonestastheday——well,hadtheirfaults。
TotakeanexamplewhichIquotebecauseitissoabsurd。TheroomsI
liveinwereownedbyaprimoldwomanwhoformorethantwentyyearswasmylandlady。SheandIweregreatfriends,indeedshetendedmelikeamother,andwhenIwassoillnursedmeasperhapsfewmotherswouldhavedone。YetwhileIwaswatchingontheRoadsuddenlyshecameby,andwithhorrorIsawthatduringallthoseyearsshehadbeenrobbingme,taking,Iamsorrytosay,manythings,inmoney,trinkets,andfood。OftenIhaddiscussedwithherwherethesearticlescouldpossiblyhavegone,tillfinallysuspicionsettleduponthemanwhocleanedthewindows。Yes,andworstofall,hewasprosecuted,andIgaveevidenceagainsthim,orratherstrengthenedherevidence,onfaithofwhichthemagistratesenthimtoprisonforamonth。
"Oh!MrsSmithers,"Isaidtoher,"how/could/youdoit,Mrs。
Smithers?"
Shestoppedandlookedaboutherterrified,sothatmyheartsmotemeandIaddedinhaste,"Don’tbefrightened,Mrs。Smithers;Iforgiveyou。"
"Ican’tseeyou,sir,"sheexclaimed,orsoIdreamed,"butthere!I
alwaysknewyouwould。"
"Yes,Mrs。Smithers,"Ireplied;"buthowaboutthewindow-cleanerwhowenttojailandlosthissituation?"
Thenshepassedonorwasdrawnawaywithoutmakinganyanswer。
Nowcomestheoddpartofthestory。WhenIwokeuponthefollowingmorninginmyrooms,itwastobeinformedbythefrightenedmaid-of-
all-workthatMrs。Smithershadbeenfounddeadinherbed。Moreover,afewdayslaterIlearnedfromalawyerthatshehadmadeawillleavingmeeverythingshepossessed,includingtheleaseofherhouseandnearly£1000,forshehadbeenasavingoldpersonduringallherlonglife。
Well,Isoughtoutthatwindow-cleanerandcompensatedhimhandsomely,sayingthatIhadfoundIwasmistakenintheevidenceIgaveagainsthim。TherestofthepropertyIkept,andIhopethatitwasnotwrongofmetodoso。Itwillberememberedthatsomeofitwasalreadymyown,temporarilydivertedintoanotherchannel,andfortherestI
havesomanytohelp。TobefrankIdonotspendmuchuponmyself。
THEHARE
NowIhavedonewithmyself,orratherwithmyowninsignificantpresenthistory,andcometothatoftheHare。Itimpressedmeagooddealatthetime,whichisnotlongago,somuchindeedthatI
communicatedthefactstoJorsen。Heorderedmetopublishthem,andwhatJorsenordersmustbedone。Idon’tknowwhythisshouldbe,butitisso。HehasauthorityofasortthatIamunabletodefine。
Onenightaftertheusualaspirationsandconcentrationofmind,whichbythewayarenotalwayssuccessful,Ipassedintowhatoccultistscallspirit,andothersastateofdream。AtanyrateIfoundmyselfuponthebordersoftheGreatWhiteRoad,asneartothemightyGatesasIameverallowedtocome。HowfarthatmaybeawayIcannottell。
Perhapsitisbutafewyardsandperhapsitisthewidthofthisgreatworld,forinthatplacewhichmyspiritvisitstimeanddistancedonotexist。Thereallthingsarenewandstrange,nottobereckonedbyourmeasures。Therethesightisnotoursightnorthehearingourhearing。Irepeatthatallthingsaredifferent,butthatdifferenceIcannotdescribe,andifIcoulditwouldprovepastcomprehension。
ThereIsatbythebordersoftheGreatWhiteRoad,myeyesfixedupontheGatesabovewhichthetowersmountformilesonmiles,outlinedagainstanencirclinggloomwiththeradianceoftheworldbeyondtheworlds。Four-squaretheystand,thosetowers,andfourfoldthegatesthatopentothedenizensofotherearths。ButoftheseIhavenoknowledgebeyondthefactthatitissoinmyvisions。
IsatuponthebordersoftheRoad,myeyesfixedinhopeupontheGates,thoughwellIknewthatthehopewouldneverbefulfilled,andwatchedthedeadgoby。
Theyweremanythatnight。SomeplaguewasworkingintheEastandunchainingthousands。ThefolkthatitloosedwerestrangetomewhointhisparticularlifehaveseldomleftEngland,andIstudiedthemwithcuriosity;high-featured,dark-huedpeoplewithapatientair。
TheknowledgewhichIhavetoldmethatoneandalltheywereveryancientsoulswhooftenandoftenhadwalkedthisRoadbefore,andtherefore,althoughasyettheydidnotknowit,werewellaccustomedtothejourney。No,Iamwrong,forhereandthereanindividualdidknow。Indeedonedeep-eyed,wistfullittlewoman,whocarriedababyinherarms,stoppedforamomentandspoketome。
"TheotherscannotseeyouasIdo,"shesaid。"PriestoftheQueenofqueens,Iknowyouwell;handinhandweclimbedbythesevenstairwaystothealtarsofthemoon。"
"WhoistheQueenofqueens?"Iasked。
"Haveyouforgottenherofthehundrednameswhoseveilsweliftedonebyone;herwhosebreastwasbeautyandwhoseeyesweretruth?Inadaytocomeyouwillremember。FarewelltillwewalkthisRoadnomore。"
"Stay——whendidwemeet?"
"Whenoursoulswereyoung,"sheanswered,andfadedfrommykenlikeashadowfromthesea。
AftertheEasternscamemanyothersfromallpartsoftheearth。ThensuddenlyappearedacompanyofaboutsixhundredfolkofeveryageandEnglishintheirlooks。Theywerenotsocalmasarethemajorityofthosewhomakethisjourney。WhenIreadthepapersafewdayslaterI
understoodwhy。Agreatpassengershiphadsunksuddenlyinmidoceanandtheywereallcutoffunprepared。
When,followedbyafewstragglers,thesehadpassedandgatheredthemselvesintheredshadowbeneaththegatewaytowerswaitingforthesummons,anunusualthingoccurred。ForafewmomentstheRoadwasleftquiteempty。AfterthatlastgreatstrokeDeathseemedtoberestingonhislaurels。Whenthusunpeopleditlookedaveryvastplaceliketoahugearchedcauseway,borderedoneithersidebyblackness,butitselfgleamingwithacuriousphosphorescencesuchasonceortwiceIhaveseeninthewatersofasummerseaatnight。
Presentlyintheverycentreofthisilluminateddesolation,whilstitwasasyetfaraway,somethingcaughtmyeye,somethingsostrangetotheplace,soutterlyunfamiliarthatIwatcheditearnestly,wonderingwhatitmightbe。Nearerandneareritcame,withcurious,uncertainhops;yes,alittlebrownobjectthathopped。
"Well,"Isaidtomyself,"ifIwerenotwhereIamIshouldsaythatyonderthingwasahare。OnlywhatwouldaharebedoingontheGreatWhiteRoad?Howcouldaharetreadthepathwayofeternalsouls?I
mustbemistaken。"
SoIreflectedwhilststillthethinghoppedon,untilIbecamecertainthateitherIsufferedfromdelusions,orthatitwasahare;
indeedaparticularlyfinehare,muchsuchaoneasafriendofmyoldlandlady,Mrs。Smithers,hadoncesentherasaChristmaspresentfromNorfolk,whichhareIate。
Afewmorehopsbroughtitoppositetomypostofobservation。Hereithaltedasthoughitseemedtoseeme。Atanyrateitsatupinthealertfashionthathareshave,itsforepawshangingabsurdlyinfrontofit,withoneear,onwhichtherewasagreyblotch,cockedandonedragging,andsniffedwithitsfunnylittlenostrils。Thenitbegantotalktome。Idonotmeanthatitreallytalked,butthethoughtswhichwereinitsmindwereflashedontomymindsothatIunderstoodperfectly,yes,andcouldanswertheminthesamefashion。Itsaid,orthought,thus:——
"Youarereal。Youareamanwhoyetlivesbeneaththesun,thoughhowyoucamehereIdonotknow。Ihatemen,allharesdo,formenarecrueltothem。Stillitisacomfortinthisstrangeplacetoseesomethingonehasseenbeforeandtobeabletotalkeventoaman,whichIcouldneverdountilthechangecame,thedreadfulchange——I
meanbecauseofthewayofit,"anditseemedtoshiver。"MayIaskyousomequestions?"
"Certainly,"Isaidorratherthoughtback。
"Youaresurethattheywon’tmakeyouangrysothatyouhurtme?"
"Ican’thurtyou,evenifIwishedtodoso。Youarenotahareanylonger,ifyoueverwereone,butonlytheshadowofahare。"
"Ah!Ithoughtasmuch,andthat’sagoodthinganyhow。Tellme,Man,haveyoueverbeentorntopiecesbydogs?"
"Goodgracious!no。"
"Orcoursed,orhunted,orcaughtinatrap,orshotalloveryourback,ortwistedupinnetsandchokedinsnares?Orhaveyouswumouttoseatodiemoreeasily,orseenyourmateandmotherandfatherkilled?"
"No,no。Pleasestop,Hare;yourquestionsareveryunpleasant。"
"Nothalfsounpleasantasthethingsarethemselves,Icanassureyou,Man。Iwilltellyoumystoryifyoulike;thenyoucanjudgeforyourself。Butfirst,ifyouwill,doyoutellmewhyIamhere。Haveyouseenmoreharesaboutthisplace?"
"Never,noranyotheranimals。No,Iamwrong,onceIsawadog。"
TheHarelookedaboutitanxiously。
"Adog。Howhorrible!Whatwasitdoing?Hunting?Iftherearenoharesherewhatcoulditbehunting?Arabbit,orapheasantwithabrokenwing,orperhapsafox?Ishouldnotmindsomuchifitwereafox。Ihatefoxes;theycatchyounghareswhentheyareasleepandeatthem。"
"Noneofthesethings。Iwastoldthatitbelongedtoalittlegirlwhodied。Thatbrokeitsheart,sothatitdiedalsowhentheyshutherupinabox。Thereforeitwasallowedtoaccompanyherherebecauseithadlovedsomuch。IndeedIsawthemtogether,bothveryhappy,andtogethertheywentthroughthosegates。"
"Ifdogslovelittlegirlswhydon’ttheylovehares,atleastasanythinglikestobeloved,forthedogdidn’twanttoeatthelittlegirl,didit?Iseeyoucan’tanswerme。Nowwouldyoulikemetotellyoumystory?SomethinginsideofmeissayingthatIamtodosoifyouwilllisten;alsothatthereisplentyoftime,forIamnotwantedatpresent,andwhenIamIcanruntothosegatesmuchquickerthanyoucould。"
"Ishouldlikeitverymuch,Hare。Onceaprophetheardanassspeakinordertowarnhim。Butsincethen,exceptvery,veryrarelyindreams,nocreaturehastalkedtoaman,sofarasIknow。Perhapsyouwishtowarnmeaboutsomething,orothersthroughme,astheasswarnedBalaam。"
"WhoisBalaam?IneverheardofBalaam。Hewasn’tthemanwhofetchesdeadpheasantsinthedonkey-cart,washe?Ifso,I’veseenhimmaketheasstalk——withathickstick。No?Well,nevermind,IdaresayI
shouldnotunderstandabouthimifyoutoldme。Nowformystory。"
ThentheHaresatitselfdown,plantingitsforepawsfirmlyinfrontofit,astheseanimalsdowhentheyareonthewatch,lookedupatmeandbegantopourthecontentsofitsmindintomine。
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Iwasborn,itsaid,orrathertoldmebythoughttransference,inafieldofgrowingcornneartoabigwood。AtleastIsupposeIwasbornthere,thoughthefirstthingIrememberisplayingaboutinthewheatwithtwootherlittleonesofmyownsize,abrotherandasisterthatwerebornwithme。Itwasatnight,foragreat,round,shiningthingwhichInowknowwasthemoon,hungintheskyaboveus。
Wegambolledtogetherandwereveryhappy,tillpresentlymymothercame——Irememberhowbigshelooked——andcuffedmewithherpawbecauseIhadledtheothersawayfromtheplacewhereshehadtoldustostop,andgivenheragreathunttofindus。ThatisthefirstthingIrememberaboutmymother。Afterwardssheseemedsorrybecauseshehadhurtme,andnursedusallthree,lettingmehavethemostmilk。Mymotheralwayslovedmethebestofus,becauseIwassuchafineleveret,withaprettygreypatchonmyleftear。JustasIhadfinisheddrinkinganotherharecamewhowasmyfather。Hewasverylarge,withaglossycoatandbigshiningeyesthatalwaysseemedtoseeeverything,evenwhenitwasbehindhim。
Hewasfrightenedaboutsomething,andhustledmymotheranduslittleonesoutofthewheat-fieldintothebigwoodbywhichitisbordered。
AsweleftthefieldIsawtwotallcreaturesthatafterwardsIcametoknowweremen。Theywereplacingwire-nettingroundthefield——youseeIunderstandnowwhatallthesethingswere,althoughofcourseI
didnotatthetime。Thetwoendsofthewirenettinghadnearlycometogether。Therewasonlyalittlegapleftthroughwhichwecouldrun。
Anotheryounghare,oritmayhavebeenarabbit,hadgotentangledinit,andoneofthemenwasbeatingittodeathwithastick。I
rememberthatthesoundofitsscreamsmademefeelcolddowntheback,forIhadneverheardanythinglikethatbefore,andthiswasthefirstthatIhadseenofpainanddeath。
Theothermansawusslippingthroughandranatuswithhisstick。Mymotherwentfirstandescapedhim。Thencamemysister,thenI,thenmybrother。Myfatherwaslastofall。Themanhitwithhisstickanditcamedownthudalongsideofme,justtouchingmyfur。Hehitagainandbroketheforelegofmybrother。Stillweallmanagedtogetthroughintothewood,exceptmyfatherwhowasbehind。
"There’stheoldbuck!"criedoneofthemen(Iunderstandwhathesaidnow,thoughatthetimeitmeantnothingtome)。"Knockhimonthehead!"
Soleavingusalonetheyranathim。Butmyfatherwasmuchtooquickforthem。Herushedbackintothecornandafterwardsjoinedusinthewood,forhehadseenwirebeforeandknewhowtoescapeit。Stillhewasterriblyfrightenedandmadeuskeepinthewoodtillthefollowingevening,notevenallowingmymothertogotoherformintheroughpastureonitsothersideandlieupthere。
Alsowewereintroublebecausemybrother’sforepawwasbroken。Itgavehimagreatdealofpain,sothathecouldnotrestorsleep。
Afterawhile,however,itmendedupinafashion,buthewasneverabletorunasfastaswecould,nordidhegrowsobig。Intheendthemotherfoxkilledhim,asIshalltell。
Mymotheraskedmyfatherwhatthemenwiththesticksweredoing——
for,youknow,manyanimalscantalktoeachotherintheirownway,eveniftheyareofdifferentkinds。Hetoldherthattheywereprotectingthewheattopreventusfromeatingit,towhichsheansweredangrilythatharesmustlivesomehow,especiallywhentheyhadyoungonestonurse。Myfatherrepliedthatmendidnotseemtothinkso,andperhapstheyhadyoungonesalso。Iseenowthatmyfatherwasaphilosophichare。Butareyoutiredofmystory?
"Notatall,"Ianswered;"goon,please。Itisveryinterestingtohearthingsdescribedfromtheanimal’spointofview,especiallywhenthatanimalhasgrownwiseandlearnedtounderstand。"
"Ah,"answeredtheHare。"Iseewhatyoumean。Anditisodd,butIdounderstand。Allhasbecomecleartome。Idon’tknowwhathappenedwhenIdied,buttherecameachange,andIknewthatIwhowasbutabeastalwayshavebeenandstillamanecessarypartofeverythingasmuchasyouare,thoughmorehelplessandhumble。Yes,Iamasancientandasfar-reachingasyourself,buthowIbeganandhowIshallendisdarktome。Well,Iwillgoonwithmystory。
Itmusthavebeenamoonorsolater,aftermymotherhadgivenupnursingme,thatIwenttolieoutbymyself。Therewasabighouseonthehillsideoverlookingthesea,andneartoitweregardenssurroundedbyawall。Alsooutsideofthiswallwasanotherpatchofgardenwherecabbagesgrew。Ifoundawaytothosecabbagesandkeptitsecret,forIwasgreedyandwantedthemallformyself。Iusedtocreepinatnightandeatthem,alsosomeflowerswithspikyleavesthatgrewroundthemwhichhadaveryfineflavour。ThenafterthedawncameIwenttoaformwhichIhadmadeunderafurzebushontheslopethatrandowntothesea,andsleptthere。
OnedayIwasawakenedbysomethingwhite,hard,androundwhichrolledgentlyandstoppedstillquiteclosetome。Itwasnotalive,althoughithadaqueersmell,andIwonderedwhyitmovedatall。
PresentlyIheardvoicesandthereappearedalittleman,andwithhimsomebodywhowasnotamanbecauseitwasdifferentlydressedandspokeinahighervoice。Isawthattheyhadsticksintheirhandsandthoughtofrunningaway,thenthatitwouldbesafertoliequiteclose。Theycameuptomeandthelittlemansaid——
"There’stheball;pickitup,Ella,thelieistoobad。"
She,fornowIknowitwaswhatiscalledagirl,stoopedtoobeyandsawmyback。
"Tom,"shesaidinawhisper,"here’sayounghareonitsform。"
"Getoutofthelight,"heanswered,"andI’llkillit,"andheliftedthestickheheld,whichhadatwistedironend。
"No,"shesaid,"catchitalive;Iwantaharetobeafriendtomyrabbit,whichhaslostallitslittleones。"
"Lostthem?Eatenthem,youmean,becauseyouwouldalwaysgoandstareatit,"saidTom。"Where’stheleveret?Oh!Isee。Now,lookout!"
AmomentlaterandIwasindarkness。Tomhadthrownhimselfuponthetopofmeandwasgrabbingatmewithhishands。Inearlygotaway,butasmyheadpokedupunderhisarmthegirlcaughtholdofit。
"Oh!it’sscratching,"shecried,asindeedIwaswithallmymight。
"Holdit,Tom,holdit!"
"Holdityourself,"saidTom,"myfaceisfulloffurzeprickles。"Sosheheldandpresentlyhehelpedher,tillintheendIwastiedupinapocket-handkerchiefandcarriedIknewnotwhither。IndeedIwasalmostmadwithfear。
WhenIcametomyselfIfoundthatIwaswithinakindofwirerunwhichsmeltfoully,asthoughhundredsofthingshadlivedinitforyears。Therewasahutchattheendoftheruninwhichsatanenormousshe-rabbit,quiteasbigasmymother,afierce-lookingbrutewithlongyellowteeth。IwasafraidofthatrabbitandgotasfarfromitasIcould。Presentlyithoppedoutandlookedatme。
"Whatareyoudoinghere?"itasked。"Can’tyoutalk?Well,itdoesn’tmatter。IfIgethungryI’lleatyou!Doyouhearthat?I’lleatyou,asIdidalltheothers,"anditshoweditsbigyellowteethandhoppedbackintothehutch。
AfterthatTomandthegirlcameandgaveusplentyoffoodwhichthebigrabbitate,forIcouldtouchnothing。Fortwodaystheycame,andthenIthinktheyforgotallaboutus。Igrewveryhungry,andatnightfilledmyselfwithsomeoftheremainingfood,suchasstalecabbageleaves。Bynextmorningallwasgone,andthebigrabbitgrewhungryalso。Allthatdayithoppedaboutsniffingatmeandshowingitsyellowteeth。
"Ishalleatyouto-night,"itsaid。
Iranroundandroundthepeninterror,tillatlastIfoundaplacewhereratshadbeenworkingunderthewire,almostbigenoughformetosqueezethrough,butnotquite。
Thesunwentdownandthebigshe-rabbitcameout。
"NowIamgoingtoeatyou,"itsaid,"asIatealltheothers。Iamhungry,veryhungry,"anditproddedmeaboutwithitsnoseandrolledmeover。
Atlastwithalittlesquealitdroveitsbigyellowteethintomebehind。Oh!howtheyhurt!Iwasneartherat-hole。Irushedatit,scrabblingandwriggling。Thebigrabbitpouncedonmewithitsfore-
feet,tryingtoholdme,buttoolate,forIwasthrough,leavingsomeofmyfurbehindme。Iran,howIran!withoutstopping,tillatlengthIfoundmymotherintheroughpasturebythewoodandtoldhereverything。
"Ah!"shesaid,"that’swhatcomesofgreedinessandoftryingtobetooclever。Now,perhaps,youwilllearntostopathome。"
SoIdidforalongwhile。