Thenextdayhementallytimedthemdowntheriver,allowingforthepausetotakeinballast,andontheWednesdaypicturedthesaildowntheopensea。Thatnighthethoughtofthelittlecraftunderthebowsofthehugesteam-vessels,powerlesstomakeitselfseenorheard,andAvice,nowgrowinginexpressiblydear,sleepinginherlittleberthatthemercyofathousandchancecatastrophes。
HonestperceptionhadtoldhimthatthisAvice,fairerthanhermotherinfaceandform,washerinferiorinsoulandunderstanding。Yetthefervourwhichthefirstcouldneverkindleinhimwas,almosttohisalarm,burningupnow。HebegantohavemisgivingsastosomequeertrickthathismigratoryBelovedwasabouttoplayhim,orratherthecapriciousDivinitybehindthatideallady。
Agiganticsatireuponthemutationsofhisnymphduringthepasttwentyyearsseemedloominginthedistance。Aforsakingoftheaccomplishedandwell-connectedMrs。Pine-Avonforthelittlelaundress,underthetractionofsomemysticmagnetwhichhadnothingtodowithreason——surelythatwastheformofthesatire。
Butitwasrecklesslypleasanttoleavethesuspicionunrecognizedasyet,andfollowthelead。
InthinkinghowbesttodothisPierstonrecollectedthat,aswascustomarywhenthesummer-timeapproached,SylvaniaCastlehadbeenadvertisedforlettingfurnished。Asolitarydreamerlikehimself,whosewantsalllayinanartisticandidealdirection,didnotrequiresuchgauntaccommodationastheaforesaidresidenceoffered;butthespotwasall,andtheexpensesofafewmonthsoftenancythereinhecouldwellafford。Alettertotheagentwasdispatchedthatnight,andinafewdaysJocelynfoundhimselfthetemporarypossessorofaplacewhichhehadneverseentheinsideofsincehischildhood,andhadthendeemedtheabodeofunpleasantghosts。
2。VI。THEPASTSHINESINTHEPRESENT
ItwastheeveningofPierston’sarrivalatSylvaniaCastle,adignifiedmanor-houseinanookbythecliffs,withmoderncastellationsandbattlements;andhehadwalkedthroughtherooms,aboutthelawn,andintothesurroundingplantationofelms,whichonthisislandoftreelessrocklentauniquecharactertotheenclosure。
Inname,nature,andaccessoriesthepropertywithinthegirdlingwallformedacompleteantithesistoeverythinginitsprecincts。TofindothertreesbetweenPebble-bankandBeal,itwasnecessarytorecedealittleintime——todigdowntoaloosestratumoftheunderlyingstone-
beds,whereaforestofconiferslayaspetrifactions,theirheadsallinonedirection,asblowndownbyagaleintheSecondarygeologicepoch。
Duskhadclosedin,andhenowproceededwithwhatwas,afterall,therealbusinessofhissojourn。Thetwoservantswhohadbeenlefttotakecareofthehousewereintheirownquarters,andhewentoutunobserved。Crossingahollowoverhungbythebuddingboughsheapproachedanemptygarden-houseofElizabethandesign,whichstoodontheouterwallofthegrounds,andcommandedbyawindowthefrontsofthenearestcottages。AmongthemwasthehomeoftheresuscitatedAvice。
Hehadchosenthismomentforhisoutlookthroughknowingthatthevillagerswereinnohurrytopulldowntheirblindsatnightfall。
And,ashehaddivined,theinsideoftheyoungwoman’sliving-roomwasvisibletohimasformerly,illuminatedbytheraysofitsownlamp。
Asubduedthumpingcameeverynowandthenfromtheapartment。Shewasironinglinenonaflanneltable-cloth,arowofsuchapparelhangingonaclothes-horsebythefire。Herfacehadbeenpalewhenheencounteredher,butnowitwaswarmandpinkwithherexertionsandtheheatofthestove。Yetitwasinperfectandpassionlessrepose,whichimpartedaMinervacasttotheprofile。Whensheglancedup,herlineamentsseemedtohaveallthesoulandheartthathadcharacterizedhermother’s,andhadbeenwithheratrueindexofthespiritwithin。
Coulditbepossiblethatinthiscasethemanifestationwasfictitious?Hehadmetwithmanysuchexamplesofhereditarypersistencewithoutthequalitiessignifiedbythetraits。Heunconsciouslyhopedthatitwasatleastnotentirelysohere。
Theroomwaslessfurnishedthanwhenhehadlastbeheldit。The’bo-
fet,’ordoublecorner-cupboard,wherethechinawasformerlykept,haddisappeared,itsplacebeingtakenbyaplainboard。Thetalloldclock,withitsancientoakcarcase,archedbrow,andhumorousmouth,wasalsonottobeseen,acheap,white-dialledspecimendoingitswork。Whatthesedisplacementsmightbetokensaddenedhishumanitylessthanitcheeredhisprimitiveinstinctinpointingouthowhernecessitiesmightbringthemtogether。
Havingfixedhisresidencenearherforsomelengthytimehefeltinnohurrytoobtrudehispresencejustnow,andwentindoors。Thatthisgirl’sframewasdoomedtobearealembodimentofthatoldenseductiveone——thatProteandream-creature,whohadneverseenfittoirradiatethemother’simagetillitbecameamerememoryafterdissolution——hedoubtedlesseverymoment。
Therewasanuneasinessinrecognizingsuch。Therewassomethingabnormalinhispresentproclivity。Acertainsanityhad,afterall,accompaniedhisformeridealizingpassions:theBelovedhadseldominformedapersonalitywhich,whileenrapturinghissoul,simultaneouslyshockedhisintellect。Achange,perhaps,hadcome。
Itwasafinemorningonthemorrow。WalkinginthegroundstowardsthegatehesawAviceenteringhishiredcastlewithabroadovalwicker-basketcoveredwithawhitecloth,whichburdensheboreroundtothebackdoor。Ofcourse,shewashedforhisownhousehold:hehadnotthoughtofthat。Inthemorningsunlightsheappearedratherasasylphthanasawasherwoman;andhecouldnotbutthinkthattheslightnessofherfigurewasasilladaptedtothisoccupationashermother’shadbeen。
But,afterall,itwasnotthewasherwomanthathesawnow。Infrontofher,onthesurfaceofher,wasshiningoutthatmorereal,moreinter-penetratingbeingwhomheknewsowell!Theoccupationofthesubservingminion,theblemishesofthetemporarycreaturewhoformedthebackground,wereofthesameaccountinthepresentationoftheindispensableoneasthesupportingpostsandframeworkinapyrotechnicdisplay。
Sheleftthehouseandwenthomewardbyapathofwhichhewasnotaware,havingprobablychangedhercoursebecauseshehadseenhimstandingthere。Itmeantnothing,forshehadhardlybecomeacquaintedwithhim;yetthatsheshouldhaveavoidedhimwasanewexperience。
Hehadnoopportunityforafurtherstudyofherbydistantobservation,andhituponapretextforbringingherfacetofacewithhim。Hefoundfaultwithhislinen,anddirectedthatthelaundressshouldbesentfor。
’Sheisratheryoung,poorlittlething,’saidthehousemaidapologetically。’Butsincehermother’sdeathshehasenoughtodotokeepabovewater,andwemakeshiftwithher。ButI’lltellher,sir。’
’Iwillseehermyself。Sendherinwhenshecomes,’saidPierston。
Onemorning,accordingly,whenhewasansweringaspitefulcriticismofalateworkofhis,hewastoldthatshewaitedhispleasureinthehall。Hewentout。
’Aboutthewashing,’saidthesculptorstiffly。’Iamaveryparticularperson,andIwishnopreparationoflimetobeused。’
’Ididn’tknowfolksusedit,’repliedthemaiden,inascaredandreservedtone,withoutlookingathim。
’That’sallright。Andthen,themanglingsmashesthebuttons。’
’Ihaven’tgotamangle,sir,’shemurmured。
’Ah!that’ssatisfactory。AndIobjecttosomuchboraxinthestarch。’
’Idon’tputany,’Avicereturnedinthesamecloseway;’neverheardthenameo’tafore!’
’OIsee。’
AllthistimePierstonwasthinkingofthegirl——orasthescientificmightsay,Naturewasworkingherplansforthenextgenerationunderthecloakofadialogueonlinen。Hecouldnotreadherindividualcharacter,owingtotheconfusingeffectofherlikenesstoawomanwhomhehadvaluedtoolate。Hecouldnothelpseeinginherallthatheknewofanother,andveilinginherallthatdidnotharmonizewithhissenseofmetempsychosis。
Thegirlseemedtothinkofnothingbutthebusinessinhand。Shehadansweredtothepoint,andwashardlyawareofhissexorofhisshape。
’Iknewyourmother,Avice,’hesaid。’Youremembermytellingyouso?’
’Yes。’
’Well——Ihavetakenthishousefortwoorthreemonths,andyouwillbeveryusefultome。Youstilllivejustoutsidethewall?’
’Yes,sir,’saidtheself-containedgirl。
Demurelyanddispassionatelysheturnedtoleave——thisprettycreaturewithfeaturessostill。Therewassomethingstrangeinseeingmoveoffthusthatformwhichheknewpassingwell,shewhowasoncesothrobbinglyalivetohispresencethat,notmanyyardsfromthisspot,shehadflungherarmsroundhimandgivenhimakisswhich,despisedinitsfreshness,hadrevivedinhimlatterlyasthedearestkissofallhislife。Andnowthis’daps’ofhermother(astheycalledherinthedialecthere),thisperfectcopy,whydidsheturnaway?
’Yourmotherwasarefinedandwell-informedwoman,IthinkI
remember?’
’Shewas,sir;everybodysaidso。’
’Ihopeyouresembleher。’
Shearchlyshookherhead,anddrewwarilyaway。
’O!onethingmore,Avice。Ihavenotbroughtmuchlinen,soyoumustcometothehouseeveryday。’
’Verygood,sir。’
’Youwon’tforgetthat?’
’Ono。’
Thenhelethergo。Hewasatownman,andsheanartlessislander,yethehadopenedhimselfout,likeasea-anemone,withoutdisturbingtheepidermofhernature。Itwasmonstrousthatamaidenwhohadassumedthepersonalityofherofhistenderestmemoryshouldbesoimpervious。Perhapsitwashewhowaswanting。AvicemightbePassionmaskingasIndifference,becausehewassomanyyearsolderinoutwardshow。
Thisbroughthimtotherootofit。Inhishearthewasnotadayolderthanwhenhehadwooedthemotheratthedaughter’spresentage。
Hisrecordmovedonwiththeyears,hissentimentsstoodstill。
Whenhebeheldthoseofhisfellowswhoweredefinedasbuffersandfogeys——imperturbable,matter-of-fact,slightlyridiculousbeings,pastmastersintheartofpopulatinghomes,schools,andcolleges,andpresentadeptsinthescienceofgivingawaybrides——howheenviedthem,assumingthemtofeelastheyappearedtofeel,withtheircommerceandtheirpolitics,theirglassesandtheirpipes。Theyhadgotpastthedistractingcurrentsofpassionateness,andwereinthecalmwatersofmiddle-agedphilosophy。Buthe,theircontemporary,wastossedlikeacorkhitherandthitheruponthecrestofeveryfancy,preciselyashehadbeentossedwhenhewashalfhispresentage,withtheburdennowofdoublepaintohimselfinhisgrowingvisionofallasvanity。
Avicehadgone,andhesawhernomorethatday。Sincehecouldnotagaincalluponher,shewasasinaccessibleasifshehadenteredthemilitarycitadelonthehill-topbeyondthem。
IntheeveninghewentoutandpaceddownthelanetotheRedKing’scastleoverhangingthecliff,besidewhoseagethecastleheoccupiedwasbutathingofyesterday。Belowthecastleprecipicelayenormousblocks,whichhadfallenfromit,andseveralofthemwerecarvedoverwithnamesandinitials。Heknewthespotandtheoldtrickwell,andbysearchinginthefaintmoon-rayshefoundapairofnameswhich,asaboy,hehimselfhadcut。Theywere’AVICE’and’JOCELYN’——AviceCaro’sandhisown。Theletterswerenownearlywornawaybytheweatherandthebrine。Butcloseby,inquitefreshletters,stood’ANNAVICE,’coupledwiththename’ISAAC。’Theycouldnothavebeentheremorethantwoorthreeyears,andthe’AnnAvice’wasprobablyAvicetheSecond。WhowasIsaac?Someboyadmirerofherchild-timedoubtless。
Heretracedhissteps,andpassedtheCaros’housetowardshisown。
TherevivifiedAviceanimatedthedwelling,andthelightwithintheroomfelluponthewindow。Shewasjustinsidethatblind。
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Wheneversheunexpectedlycametothecastlehestarted,andlostplacidity。Itwasnotatherpresenceassuch,butatthenewcondition,whichseemedtohavesomethingsinisterinit。Ontheotherhand,themostabruptencounterwithhimmovedhertonoemotionasithadmovedherprototypeintheolddays。Shewasindifferentto,almostunconsciousof,hispropinquity。Hewasnomorethanastatuetoher;shewasagrowingfiretohim。
AsuddenSapphicterroroflovewouldeverandanoncomeuponthesculptor,whenhismaturedreflectingpowerswouldinsistuponinforminghimofthefearfullapsefromreasonablenessthatlayinthisinfatuation。Itthrewhimintoasweat。Whatifnow,atlast,heweredoomedtodopenanceforhispastemotionalwanderings(inamaterialsense)bybeingchainedinfatalfidelitytoanobjectthathisintellectdespised?Onenighthedreamtthathesawdimlymaskingbehindthatyoungcountenance’theWeaverofWiles’herself,’withallhersubtlefacelaughingaloud。’
However,theWell-Belovedwasaliveagain,hadbeenlostandwasfound。
Hewasamazedatthechangeoffrontinhimself。Shehadworntheguiseofstrangewomen;shehadbeenawomanofeveryclass,fromthedignifieddaughterofsomeecclesiasticorpeertoaNubianAlmehwithherhandkerchief,undulatingtothebeatsofthetom-tom;butalltheseembodimentshadbeenendowedwithacertainsmartness,eitherofthefleshorspirit:somewithwit,afewwithtalent,andevengenius。
Butthenewimpersonationhadapparentlynothingbeyondsexandprettiness。Sheknewnothowtosportafanorhandkerchief,hardlyhowtopullonaglove。
Butherlimitedlifewasinnocent,andthatwentfar。PoorlittleAvice!hermother’simage:thereitalllay。Afterall,herparentagewasasgoodashisown;itwasmisfortunethathadsentherdowntothis。Oddasitseemedtohim,herlimitationswerelargelywhathelovedherfor。Herrejuvenatingpoweroverhimhadineffablecharm。
Hefeltashehadfeltwhenstandingbesideherpredecessor;but,alas!
hewastwentyyearsfurtherontowardstheshade。
2。VII。THENEWBECOMESESTABLISHED
Afewmorningslaterhewaslookingthroughanupperbackwindowoverascreenedpartofthegarden。Thedoorbeneathhimopened,andafigureappearedtrippingforth。Shewentroundoutofsighttowherethegardenerwasatwork,andpresentlyreturnedwithabunchofgreenstuffflutteringineachhand。ItwasAvice,herdarkhairnowbraidedupsnuglyunderacap。Shesailedonwitharaptandunconsciousface,herthoughtsathousandremovesfromhim。
Howshehadsuddenlycometobeaninmateofhisownhousehecouldnotunderstand,tillherecalledthefactthathehadgiventhecastleservantsawholeholidaytoattendareviewoftheyeomanryinthewatering-placeoverthebay,ontheirstatingthattheycouldprovideatemporarysubstitutetostayinthehouse。TheyhadevidentlycalledinAvice。Tohisgreatpleasurehediscoveredtheiropinionofhisrequirementstobesuchameanonethattheyhadcalledinnooneelse。
TheSpirit,assheseemedtohim,broughthislunchintotheroomwherehewaswriting,andhebeheldheruncoverit。Shewenttothewindowtoadjustablindwhichhadslipped,andhehadagoodviewofherprofile。ItwasnotunlikethatofoneofthethreegoddessesinRubens’s’JudgmentofParis,’andincontourwasnighperfection。Butitwasinherfullfacethatthevisionofhermotherwasmostapparent。
’Didyoucookallthis,Avice?’heasked,arousinghimself。
Sheturnedandhalf-smiled,merelymurmuring,’Yes,sir。’
Wellheknewthearrangementofthosewhiteteeth。Inthejunctionoftwooftheupperonestherewasaslightirregularity;nostrangerwouldhavenoticedit,norwouldhe,butthatheknewofthesamemarkinhermother’smouth,andlookedforithere。TillAvicetheSecondhadrevealeditthismomentbyhersmile,hehadneverbeheldthatmarksincethepartingfromAvicetheFirst,whenshehadsmiledunderhiskissasthecopyhaddonenow。
Nextmorning,whendressing,heheardherthroughtherickettyfloorofthebuildingengagedinconversationwiththeotherservants。HavingbythistimeregularlyinstalledherselfastheexponentoftheLong-
pursued——asonewho,bynoinitiativeofhisown,hadbeenchosenbysomesuperiorPowerasthevehicleofhernextdebut,sheattractedhimbythecadencesofhervoice;shewouldsuddenlydropittoarichwhisperofroguishness,whentheslightruralmonotonyofitsnarrativespeechdisappeared,andsoulandheart——orwhatseemedsoulandheart——
resounded。Thecharmlayintheintervals,usingthatwordinitsmusicalsense。Shewouldsayafewsyllablesinonenote,andendhersentenceinasoftmodulationupwards,thendownwards,thenintoherownnoteagain。Thecurveofsoundwasasartisticasanylineofbeautyeverstruckbyhispencil——assatisfyingasthecurvesofherwhowastheWorld’sDesire。
Thesubjectofherdiscoursehecarednothingabout——itwasnomorehisinterestthanhisconcern。Hetookspecialpainsthatincatchinghervoicehemightnotcomprehendherwords。Tothetoneshehadaright,nonetothearticulations。Bydegreeshecouldnotexistlongwithoutthissound。
OnSundayeveninghefoundthatshewenttochurch。Hefollowedbehindherovertheopenroad,keepinghiseyeonthelittlehatwithitsbunchofcock’sfeathersasonastar。WhenshehadpassedinPierstonobservedherpositionandtookaseatbehindher。
Engagedinthestudyofherearandthenapeofherwhiteneck,hesuddenlybecameawareofthepresenceofaladystillfurtheraheadintheaisle,whoseattire,thoughofblackmaterialsinthequietestform,wasofacutwhichrathersuggestedLondonthanthisUltimaThule。Fortheminuteheforgot,inhiscuriosity,thatAviceintervened。Theladyturnedherheadsomewhat,and,thoughshewasveiledwithunusualthicknessfortheseason,heseemedtorecognizeNicholaPine-Avonintheform。
WhyshouldMrs。Pine-Avonbethere?Pierstonaskedhimself,ifitshould,indeed,beshe。
TheendoftheservicesawhisattentionagainconcentratedonAvicetosuchadegreethatatthecriticalmomentofmovingoutheforgotthemysteriousladyinfrontofher,andfoundthatshehadleftthechurchbytheside-door。SupposingittohavebeenMrs。Pine-Avon,shewouldprobablybediscoveredstayingatoneofthehotelsatthewatering-
placeoverthebay,andtohavecomealongthePebble-banktotheislandassomanydid,foraneveningdrive。Forthepresent,however,theexplanationwasnotforthcoming;andhedidnotseekit。
WhenheemergedfromthechurchthegreatplacideyeofthelighthouseattheBealPointwasopen,andhemovedthitherwardafewstepstoescapeNichola,orherdouble,andtherestofthecongregation。
Turningatlength,hehastenedhomewardalongthenowdesertedtrackway,intendingtoovertaketherevitalizedAvice。Buthecouldseenothingofher,andconcludedthatshehadwalkedtoofastforhim。
Arrivedathisowngatehepausedamoment,andperceivedthatAvice’slittlefreeholdwasstillindarkness。Shehadnotcome。
Heretracedhissteps,butcouldnotfindher,theonlypersonsontheroadbeingamanandhiswife,asheknewthemtobethoughhecouldnotseethem,fromthewordsoftheman——
’Ifyouhadnota’readymarriedme,you’dcutmyacquaintance!That’saprettythingforawifetosay!’
Theremarkstruckhisearunpleasantly,andby-and-byhewentbackagain。Avice’scottagewasnowlighted:shemusthavecomeroundbytheotherroad。SatisfiedthatshewassafelydomiciledforthenightheopenedthegateofSylvaniaCastleandretiredtohisroomalso。
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Eastwardfromthegroundsthecliffswereruggedandtheviewoftheoppositecoastpicturesqueintheextreme。Alittledoorfromthelawngavehimimmediateaccesstotherocksandshoreonthisside。Withoutthedoorwasadip-wellofpurewater,whichpossiblyhadsuppliedtheinmatesoftheadjoiningandnowruinousRedKing’scastleatthetimeofitserection。Onasunnymorninghewasmeditatingherewhenhediscernedafigureontheshorebelowspreadingwhitelinenuponthepebblystrand。
Jocelyndescended。Avice,ashehadsupposed,hadnowreturnedtoherownoccupation。Hershapelypinkarms,thoughslight,wereplumpenoughtoshowdimplesattheelbows,andweresetoffbyherpurplecottonprint,whichtheshore-breezelickedandtantalized。Hestoodnear,withoutspeaking。Thewinddraggedashirt-sleevefromthe’popple’orpebblewhichhelditdown。Pierstonstoopedandputaheavieroneinitsplace。
’Thankyou,’shesaidquietly。Sheturnedupherhazeleyes,andseemedgratifiedtoperceivethatherassistantwasPierston。Shehadplainlybeensowrappedinherownthoughts——gloomythoughts,bytheirsigns——thatshehadnotconsideredhimtillthen。
Theyounggirlcontinuedtoconversewithhiminfriendlyfrankness,showingneitherardournorshyness。Asforlove——itwasevidentlyfurtherfromhermindthanevendeathanddissolution。
WhenoneofthesheetsbecameintractableJocelynsaid,’Doyouholditdown,andI’llputthepopples。’
Sheacquiesced,andinplacingapebblehishandtouchedhers。
Itwasayounghand,ratherlongandthin,alittledampandcoddledfromherslopping。Insettingdownthelaststonehelaidit,byapureaccident,ratherheavilyonherfingers。
’Iamvery,verysorry!’Jocelynexclaimed。’O,Ihavebruisedtheskin,Avice!’Heseizedherfingerstoexaminethedamagedone。
’No,sir,youhaven’t!’shecriedluminously,allowinghimtoretainherhandwithouttheleastobjection。’Why——that’swhereIscratcheditthismorningwithapin。Youdidn’thurtmeabitwiththepopple-
stone!’
Althoughhergownwaspurple,therewasalittleblackcrapebowuponeacharm。Heknewwhatitmeant,anditsaddenedhim。’Doyouevervisityourmother’sgrave?’heasked。
’Yes,sir,sometimes。Iamgoingtheretonighttowaterthedaisies。’
Shehadnowfinishedhere,andtheyparted。Thatevening,whentheskywasred,heemergedbythegarden-doorandpassedherhouse。Theblindswerenotdown,andhecouldseehersewingwithin。Whilehepausedshesprangupasifshehadforgottenthehour,andtossedonherhat。Jocelynstrodeaheadandroundthecorner,andwashalfwayupthestragglingstreetbeforehediscernedherlittlefigurebehindhim。
Hehastenedpasttheladsandyoungwomenwithclinkingbucketswhoweredrawingwaterfromthefountainsbythewayside,andtookthedirectionofthechurch。Withthedisappearanceofthesunthelighthousehadagainsetupitsflameagainstthesky,thedarkchurchrisingintheforeground。Hereheallowedhertoovertakehim。
’Youlovedyourmothermuch?’saidJocelyn。
’Idid,sir;ofcourseIdid,’saidthegirl,whotrippedsolightlythatitseemedhemighthavecarriedheronhishand。
Pierstonwishedtosay,’SodidI,’butdidnotliketodiscloseeventswhichshe,apparently,neverguessed。Avicefellintothought,andcontinued——
’MotherhadaverysadlifeforsometimewhenshewasaboutasoldasI。Ishouldnotlikeminetobeashers。Heryoungmanprovedfalsetoherbecauseshewouldn’tagreetomeethimonenight,anditgrievedmotheralmostallherlife。Iwouldn’tha’frettedabouthim,ifI’dbeenshe。Shewouldnevernamehisname,butIknowhewasawicked,cruelman;andIhatetothinkofhim。’
Afterthishecouldnotgointothechurchyardwithher,andwalkedonwardalonetothesouthoftheisle。Hewaswretchedforhours。Yethewouldnothavestoodwherehedidstandintheranksofanimaginativeprofessionifhehadnotbeenatthemercyofeveryhauntingofthefancythatcanbesetman。Itwasinhisweaknessesasacitizenandanational-unitthathisstrengthlayasanartist,andhefeltitchildishtocomplainofsusceptibilitiesnotonlyinnatebutcultivated。
ButhewaspayingdearlyenoughforhisLiliths。Hesawaterriblevengeanceahead。Whathadhedonetobetormentedlikethis?TheBeloved,afterflittingfromNicholaPine-Avontothephantomofadeadwomanwhomheneveradoredinherlifetime,hadtakenupherabodeinthelivingrepresentativeofthedead,withapermanenceofholdwhichtheabsoluteindifferenceofthatlittlebrown-eyedrepresentativeonlyseemedtointensify。
Didhereallywishtoproceedtomarriagewiththischitofagirl?Hedid:thewishhadcomeatlast。Itwastruethatashestudiedherhesawdefectsinadditiontohersocialinsufficiencies。Judgment,hoodwinkedasitwas,toldhimthatshewascolderinnature,commonerincharacter,thanthatwellread,brightlittlewomanAvicetheFirst。
Buttwentyyearsmakeadifferenceinideals,andtheaddeddemandsofmiddle-ageinphysicalformaremorethanbalancedbyitsconcessionsastothespiritualcontent。Helookedathimselfintheglass,andfeltgladatthoseinnerdeficienciesinAvicewhichformerlywouldhaveimpelledhimtorejecther。
Therewasastrangedifferenceinhisregardofhispresentfollyandofhisloveinhisyouthfultime。Nowhecouldbemadwithmethod,knowingittobemadness:thenhewascompelledtomakebelievehismadnesswisdom。Inthosedaysanyflashofreasonuponhislovedone’simperfectionswasblurredoverhastilyandwithfear。Suchpenetrativevisionnowdidnotcoolhim。Heknewhewasthecreatureofatendency;andpassivelyacquiesced。
Touseapracticaleye,itappearedthat,ashehadoncethought,thisCarofamily——thoughitmightnotforcenturies,orever,furbishupanindividualnaturewhichwouldexactly,ideally,supplementhisownimperfectoneandroundwithittheperfectwhole——wasyettheonlyfamilyhehadevermet,orwaslikelytomeet,whichpossessedthematerialsforhermaking。ItwasasiftheCaroshadfoundtheclaybutnotthepotter,whileotherfamilieswhosedaughtersmightattracthimhadfoundthepotterbutnottheclay。
2。VIII。HISOWNSOULCONFRONTSHIM
FromhisroomycastleanditsgroundsandthecliffshardbyhecouldcommandeverymoveandaspectofherwhowastherejuvenatedSpiritofthePasttohim——intheeffulgenceofwhomallsordiddetailsweredisregarded。
Amongotherthingsheobservedthatshewasoftenanxiouswhenitrained。If,afterawetday,agoldenstreakappearedintheskyoverDeadman’sBay,underalidofcloud,hermannerwasjoyousandhertreadlight。
Thispuzzledhim;andhefoundthatifheendeavouredtoencounterheratthesetimessheshunnedhim——stealthilyandsubtly,butunmistakably。Oneevening,whenshehadlefthercottageandtrippedoffinthedirectionoftheunder-hilltownlet,hesetoutbythesameroute,resolvedtoawaitherreturnalongthehighroadwaywhichstretchedbetweenthatplaceandEastQuarriers。
Hereachedthetopoftheoldroadwhereitmakesasuddendescenttothetownlet,butshedidnotappear。Turningback,hesaunteredalongtillhehadnearlyreachedhisownhouseagain。Thenheretracedhissteps,andinthedimnighthewalkedbackwardsandforwardsonthebareandloftyconvexoftheisle;thestarsaboveandaroundhim,thelighthouseondutyatthedistantpoint,thelightshipwinkingfromthesandbank,thecombingofthepebblebeachbythetidebeneath,thechurchawaysouth-westward,wheretheislandfatherslay。
Hewalkedthewildsummittillhislegsached,andhisheartached——
tillheseemedtohearontheupperwindthestonesoftheslingerswhizzingpast,andthevoicesoftheinvaderswhoannihilatedthem,andmarriedtheirwivesanddaughters,andproducedAviceastheultimateflowerofthecombinedstocks。Stillshedidnotcome。Itwasmorethanfoolishtowait,yethecouldnothelpwaiting。Atlengthhediscernedadotofafigure,whichheknewtobehersratherbyitsmotionthanbyitsshape。
Howincomparablytheimmaterialdreamdwarfedthegrandestofsubstantialthings,whenhere,betweenthosethreesublimities——thesky,therock,andtheocean——theminutepersonalityofthiswasher-
girlfilledhisconsciousnesstoitsextremestboundary,andthestupendousinanimatesceneshranktoacornertherein。
Butallatoncetheapproachingfigurehaddisappeared。Helookedabout;shehadcertainlyvanished。Atonesideoftheroadwasalowwall,butshecouldnothavegonebehindthatwithoutconsiderabletroubleandsingularconduct。Helookedbehindhim;shehadreappearedfurtherontheroad。
JocelynPierstonhurriedafter;and,discerninghismovement,Avicestoodstill。Whenhecameup,shewasslilyshakingwithrestrainedlaughter。
’Well,whatdoesthismean,mydeargirl?’heasked。
Herinnermirthescapinginspiteofhersheturnedaskanceandsaid:
’WhenyouwasfollowingmetoStreeto’Wells,twohoursago,Ilookedroundandsawyou,andhuddiedbehindastone!Youpassedandbrushedmyfrockwithoutseeingme。Andwhen,onmywaybackalong,Isawyouwaitinghereaboutagain,Islippedoverthewall,andranpastyou!IfIhadnotstoppedandlookedroundat’ee,youwouldneverhavecatchedme!’
’Whatdidyoudothatfor,youelf!’
’Thatyoushouldn’tfindme。’
’That’snotexactlyareason。Giveanother,dearAvice,’hesaid,asheturnedandwalkedbesideherhomeward。
Shehesitated。’Come!’heurgedagain。
’’TwasbecauseIthoughtyouwantedtobemyyoungman,’sheanswered。
’Whatawildthoughtofyours!SupposingIdid,wouldn’tyouhaveme?’
’Notnow……Andnotforlong,evenifithadbeensoonerthannow。’
’Why?’
’IfItellyou,youwon’tlaughatmeorletanybodyelseknow?’
’Never。’
’ThenIwilltellyou,’shesaidquiteseriously。’’TisbecauseIgettiredo’myloversassoonasIgettoknowthemwell。WhatIseeinoneyoungmanforawhilesoonleaveshimandgoesintoanotheryonder,andIfollow,andthenwhatIadmirefadesoutofhimandspringsupsomewhereelse;andsoIfollowon,andneverfixtoone。IhavelovedFIFTEENa’ready!Yes,fifteen,Iamalmostashamedtosay,’sherepeated,laughing。’Ican’thelpit,sir,Iassureyou。Ofcourseitisreally,toME,thesameoneallthrough,on’yIcan’tcatchhim!’
Sheaddedanxiously,’Youwon’ttellanybodyo’thisinme,willyou,sir?BecauseifitwereknownIamafraidnomanwouldlikeme。’
Pierstonwassurprisedintostillness。Herewasthisobscureandalmostilliterategirlengagedinthepursuitoftheimpossibleideal,justashehadbeenhimselfdoingforthelasttwentyyears。Shewasdoingitquiteinvoluntarily,bysheernecessityofherorganization,puzzledallthewhileatherowninstinct。Hesuddenlythoughtofitsbearinguponhimself,andsaid,withasinkingheart——
’AmI——oneofthem?’
Sheponderedcritically。
’Youwas;foraweek;whenIfirstsawyou。’
’Onlyaweek?’
’Aboutthat。’
’Whatmadethebeingofyourfancyforsakemyformandgoelsewhere?’
’Well——thoughyouseemedhandsomeandgentlemanlyatfirst——’
’Yes?’
’Ifoundyoutoooldsoonafter。’
’Youareacandidyoungperson。’
’Butyouaskedme,sir!’sheexpostulated。
’Idid;and,havingbeenanswered,Iwon’tintrudeuponyoulonger。Socutalonghomeasfastasyoucan。Itisgettinglate。’
Whenshehadpassedoutofearshothealsofollowedhomewards。ThisseekingoftheWell-Belovedwas,then,ofthenatureofaknifewhichcouldcuttwoways。Tobetheseekerwasonething:tobeoneofthecorpsesfromwhichtheidealinhabitanthaddepartedwasanother;andthiswaswhathehadbecomenow,inthemockeryofnewDays。
ThestartlingparallelintheidiosyncraciesofAviceandhimself——
evincedbytheelusivenessoftheBelovedwithheraswithhim——meantprobablythattherehadbeensomeremoteancestorcommontobothfamilies,fromwhomthetraithadlatentlydescendedandrecrudesced。
Buttheresultwasnonethelessdisconcerting。
Drawingnearhisowngatehesmelttobacco,andcoulddiscerntwofiguresinthesidelaneleadingpastAvice’sdoor。Theydidnot,however,enterherhouse,butstrolledonwardtothenarrowpassconductingtoRed-KingCastleandthesea。HewasinmomentaryheavinessatthethoughtthattheymightbeAvicewithaworthlesslover,butafaintlyargumentativetonefromthemaninformedhimthattheywerethesamemarriedcouplegoinghomewardwhomhehadencounteredonapreviousoccasion。
Thenextdayhegavetheservantsahalf-holidaytogettheprettyAviceintothecastleagainforafewhours,thebettertoobserveher。
Whileshewaspullingdowntheblindsatsunsetawhistleofpeculiarqualitycamefromsomepointonthecliffsoutsidethelawn。Heobservedthathercolourroseslightly,thoughshebustledaboutasifshehadnoticednothing。
Pierstonsuddenlysuspectedthatshehadnotonlyfifteenpastadmirersbutacurrentone。Still,hemightbemistaken。Stimulatednowbyancientmemoriesandpresenttendernesstouseeveryefforttomakeherhiswife,despiteherconventionalunfitness,hestrunghimselfuptosiftthismystery。Ifhecouldonlywinher——andhowcouldacountrygirlrefusesuchanopportunity?——hecouldpackherofftoschoolfortwoorthreeyears,marryher,enlargehermindbyalittletravel,andtakehischanceoftherest。Astoherwantofardourforhim——sosadlyincontrastwithhersaintedmother’saffection——amantwentyyearsolderthanhisbridecouldexpectnobetter,andhewouldbewellcontenttoputupwithitinthepleasureofpossessingoneinwhomseemedtolingerasanaromaallthecharmofhisyouthandhisearlyhome。
2。IX。JUXTAPOSITIONS
Itwasasadandleadenafternoon,andPierstonpacedupthelong,steeppassorstreetoftheWells。Oneithersideoftheroadyounggirlsstoodwithpitchersatthefountainswhichbubbledthere,andbehindthehousesformingthepropylaeaoftherockrosethemassiveforeheadoftheIsle——crestedatthispartwithitsenormousrampartsaswithamuralcrown。
Asyouapproachtheupperendofthestreetallprogressseemsabouttobecheckedbythealmostverticalfaceoftheescarpment。Intoityourtrackapparentlyrunspoint-blank:aconfrontingmasswhich,ifitweretoslipdown,wouldoverwhelmthewholetown。Butinamomentyoufindthattheroad,theoldRomanhighwayintothepeninsula,turnsatasharpanglewhenitreachesthebaseofthescarp,andascendsinthestiffestofinclinestotheright。Totheleftthereisalsoanotherascendingroad,modern,almostassteepasthefirst,andperfectlystraight。Thisistheroadtotheforts。
Pierstonarrivedattheforkingoftheways,andpausedforbreath。
Beforeturningtotheright,hisproperandpicturesquecourse,helookeduptheuninterestingleftroadtothefortifications。Itwasnew,long,white,regular,taperingtoavanishingpoint,likealessoninperspective。Aboutaquarterofthewayupagirlwasrestingbesideabasketofwhitelinen:andbytheshapeofherhatandthenatureofherburdenherecognizedher。
Shedidnotseehim,andabandoningtheright-handcourseheslowlyascendedtheinclineshehadtaken。Heobservedthatherattentionwasabsorbedbysomethingaloft。Hefollowedthedirectionofhergaze。
Abovethemtoweredthegreen-greymountainofgrassystone,herelevelledatthetopbymilitaryart。Theskylinewasbrokeneverynowandthenbyalittlepeg-likeobject——asentry-box;andnearoneoftheseasmallredspotkeptcreepingbackwardsandforwardsmonotonouslyagainsttheheavysky。
Thenhedivinedthatshehadasoldier-lover。
Sheturnedherhead,sawhim,andtookupherclothes-baskettocontinuetheascent。Thesteepnesswassuchthattoclimbitunencumberedwasabreathlessbusiness;thelinenmadehertaskacrueltytoher。’You’llnevergettothefortswiththatweight,’hesaid。’Giveittome。’
Butshewouldnot,andhestoodstill,watchingherasshepanteduptheway;forthemomentanirradiatedbeing,theepitomeofawholesex:bythebeamsofhisowninfatuation’……robedinsuchexceedinggloryThathebeheldhernot;’
beheldhernotasshereallywas,asshewaseventohimselfsometimes。
Buttothesoldierwhatwasshe?Smallerandsmallershewaneduptherigidmathematicalroad,stillgazingatthesoldieraloft,asPierstongazedather。Hecouldjustdiscernsentinelsspringingupatthedifferentcoignsofvantagethatshepassed,butseeingwhoshewastheydidnotintercepther;andpresentlyshecrossedthedrawbridgeovertheenormouschasmsurroundingtheforts,passedthesentriestherealso,anddisappearedthroughthearchintotheinterior。
Pierstoncouldnotseethesentrynow,andthereoccurredtohimthehatefulideathatthisscarletrivalwasmeetingandtalkingfreelytoher,theunprotectedorphangirlofhissweetoriginalAvice;perhaps,relievedofduty,escortingheracrosstheinterior,carryingherbasket,hertenderbodyencircledbyhisarm。
’Whatthedevilareyoustaringat,asifyouwereinatrance?’
Pierstonturnedhishead:andtherestoodhisoldfriendSomers——stilllookingthelong-leasedbachelorthathewas。
’Imightsaywhatthedevildoyoudohere?ifIweren’tsogladtoseeyou。’
Somerssaidthathehadcometoseewhatwasdetaininghisfriendinsuchanout-of-the-wayplaceatthattimeofyear,andincidentallytogetsomefreshairintohisownlungs。Pierstonmadehimwelcome,andtheywenttowardsSylvaniaCastle。
’Youwerestaring,asfarasIcouldsee,ataprettylittlewasherwomanwithabasketofclothes?’resumedthepainter。
’Yes;itwasthattoyou,butnottome。Behindthemereprettyisland-girl(totheworld)is,inmyeye,theIdea,inPlatonicphraseology——theessenceandepitomeofallthatisdesirableinthisexistence……Iamunderadoom,Somers。Yes,Iamunderadoom。
TohavebeenalwaysfollowingaphantomwhomIsawinwomanafterwomanwhileshewasatadistance,butvanishingawayoncloseapproach,wasbadenough;butnowtheterriblethingisthatthephantomdoesNOT
vanish,butstaystotantalizemeevenwhenIamnearenoughtoseewhatitis!Thatgirlholdsme,THOUGHmyeyesareopen,andTHOUGHI
seethatIamafool!’
Somersregardedthevisionarylookofhisfriend,whichratherintensifiedthandecreasedashisyearsworeon,butmadenofurtherremark。WhentheyreachedthecastleSomersgazedrounduponthescenery,andPierston,signifyingthequaintlittleElizabethancottage,said:’That’swhereshelives。’
’Whataromanticplace!——andthisislandaltogether。Amanmightloveascarecroworturnip-lanternhere。’
’Butawomanmightn’t。Scenerydoesn’timpressthem,thoughtheypretenditdoes。Thisgirlisasfickleas——’
’Youoncewere。’
’Exactly——fromyourpointofview。Shehastoldmeso——candidly。Andithitsmehard。’
Somersstoodstillinsuddenthought。’Well——thatISastrangeturningofthetables!’hesaid。’Butyouwouldn’treallymarryher,Pierston?’
’Iwould——to-morrow。Whyshouldn’tI?Whatarefameandnameandsocietytome——adescendantofwreckersandsmugglers,likeher。
Besides,Iknowwhatshe’smadeof,myboy,toherinnermostfibre;I
knowtheperfectandpurequarryshewasdugfrom:andthatgivesamanconfidence。’
’Thenyou’llwin。’
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Whiletheyweresittingafterdinnerthateveningtheirquietdiscoursewasinterruptedbythelonglowwhistlefromthecliffswithout。
Somerstooknonotice,butPierstonmarkedit。ThatwhistlealwaysoccurredatthesametimeintheeveningwhenAvicewashelpinginthehouse。Heexcusedhimselfforamomenttohisvisitorandwentoutuponthedarklawn。Acrunchingoffeetuponthegravelmixedinwiththearticulationofthesea——stepslightasiftheywerewinged。Andhesupposed,twominuteslater,thatthemouthofsomehulkingfellowwasuponhers,whichhehimselfhardlyventuredtolookat,sotouchingwasitsyoungbeauty。
Hearingpeopleabout——amongothersthebefore-mentionedmarriedcouplequarrelling,thewoman’stoneshavingakinshiptoAvice’sown——hereturnedtothehouse。NextdaySomersroamedabroadtolookforsceneryforamarinepainting,and,goingouttoseekhim,PierstonmetAvice。
’Soyouhavealover,mylady!’hesaidseverely。Sheadmittedthatitwasthefact。’Youwon’tsticktohim,’hecontinued。
’IthinkImaytoTHISone,’saidshe,inameaningtonethathefailedtofathomthen。’Hedesertedmeonce,buthewon’tagain。’
’Isupposehe’sawonderfulsortoffellow?’
’He’sgoodenoughforme。’
’Sohandsome,nodoubt。’
’Handsomeenoughforme。’
’Sorefinedandrespectable。’
’Refinedandrespectableenoughforme。’
Hecouldnotdisturbherequanimity,andletherpass。ThenextdaywasSunday,andSomershavingchosenhisviewattheotherendoftheisland,PierstondeterminedintheafternoontoseeAvice’slover。Hefoundthatshehadlefthercottagestronghold,andwentontowardsthelighthousesattheBeal。Turningbackwhenhehadreachedthenearest,hesawonthelonelyroadbetweenthequarriesayoungmanevidentlyconnectedwiththestonetrade,withAvicetheSeconduponhisarm。
Shelookedprettilyguiltyandblushedalittleunderhisglance。Theman’swasoneofthetypicalislandphysiognomies——hisfeaturesenergeticandwaryintheirexpression,andhalfcoveredwithaclose,crispblackbeard。Pierstonfanciedthatoutofhiskeendarkeyesthereglimmeredadrysenseofhumouratthesituation。
Ifso,AvicemusthavetoldhimofPierston’ssymptomsoftenderness。
Thisgirl,whom,forherdearmother’ssakemorethanforherownunquestionableattractiveness,hewouldhaveguardedastheappleofhiseye,howcouldsheestimatehimsoflippantly!
Themortificationofhavingbroughthimselftothispositionwiththeantitype,byhisearlyslightofthetype,blindedhimforthemomenttowhatstruckhimashorttimeafter。Themanuponwhosearmshehungwasnotasoldier。What,then,becameofherentrancedgazeatthesentinel?Shecouldhardlyhavetransferredheraffectionssopromptly;or,togiveherthebenefitofhisowntheory,herBelovedcouldscarcelyhaveflittedfromframetoframeinsoverybriefaninterval。Andwhichofthemhadbeenhewhowhistledsoftlyinthedusktoher?
WithoutfurtherattempttofindAlfredSomersPierstonwalkedhomeward,moodilythinkingthatthedesiretomakereparationtotheoriginalwomanbyweddingandenrichingthecopy——whichlentsuchanunprecedentedpermanencetohisnewlove——wasthwarted,asifbysetintentionofhisdestiny。
Atthedoorofthegroundsaboutthecastletherestoodacarriage。Heobservedthatitwasnotoneofthehomelyflysfromtheunder-hilltown,butapparentlyfromthepopularresortacrossthebay。Wonderingwhythevisitorhadnotdriveninheentered,tofindinthedrawing-
roomNicholaPine-Avon。
Athisfirstglanceuponher,fashionablydressedandgracefulinmovement,sheseemedbeautiful;atthesecond,whenheobservedthatherfacewaspaleandagitated,sheseemedpatheticlikewise。
Altogether,shewasnowaverydifferentfigurefromherwho,sittinginherchairwithsuchfinishedcomposure,hadsnubbedhiminherdrawing-roominHamptonshireSquare。
’Youaresurprisedatthis?Ofcourseyouare!’shesaid,inalow,pleadingvoice,languidlyliftingherheavyeyelids,whilehewasholdingherhand。’ButIcouldn’thelpit!IknowIhavedonesomethingtooffendyou——haveInot?O!whatcanitbe,thatyouhavecomeawaytothisoutlandishrock,tolivewithbarbariansinthemidstoftheLondonseason?’
’Youhavenotoffendedme,dearMrs。Pine-Avon,’hesaid。’HowsorryI
amthatyoushouldhavesupposedit!YetIamglad,too,thatyourfancyshouldhavedonemethegoodturnofbringingyouheretoseeme。’
’IamstayingatBudmouth-Regis,’sheexplained。
’ThenIdidseeyouatachurch-serviceherealittlewhileback?’
Sheblushedfaintlyuponherpallor,andshesighed。Theireyesmet。
’Well,’shesaidatlast,’Idon’tknowwhyIshouldn’tshowthevirtueofcandour。Youknowwhatitmeans。Iwasthestrongeronce;nowIamtheweaker。WhateverpainImayhavegivenyouintheupsanddownsofouracquaintanceIamsorryfor,andwouldwillinglyrepairallerrorsofthepastby——beingamenabletoreasoninthefuture。’
ItwasimpossiblethatJocelynshouldnotfeelatenderimpulsiontowardsthisattractiveandonceindependentwoman,whofromeveryworldlypointofviewwasanexcellentmatchforhim——asuperiormatch,indeed,exceptinmoney。Hetookherhandagainandhelditawhile,andafaintwaveofgladnessseemedtoflowthroughher。Butno——hecouldgonofurther。Thatislandgirl,inhercoquettishSundayfrockandlittlehatwithitsbunchofcock’sfeathersheldhimasbystrandsofManilarope。HedroppedNichola’shand。
’IamleavingBudmouthto-morrow,’shesaid。’ThatwaswhyIfeltI
mustcall。YoudidnotknowIhadbeenthereallthroughtheWhitsunholidays?’
’Ididnot,indeed;orIshouldhavecometoseeyou。’。
’Ididn’tliketowrite。IwishIhad,now!’
’Iwishyouhad,too,dearMrs。Pine-Avon。’
Butitwas’Nichola’thatshewantedtobe。Astheyreachedthelandauhetoldherthatheshouldbebackintownhimselfagainsoon,andwouldcallimmediately。AtthemomentofhiswordsAviceCaro,nowalone,passedclosealongbythecarriageontheotherside,towardsherhousehardathand。Shedidnotturnheadoreyetothepair:
theyseemedtobeinherviewobjectsofindifference。