lightedstreets,withadelicioussenseofsnugnessandsecurity,beingallthemorecloselyunitedfortheirquarrel。Here,fartheruptheavenue,theyhadoncebeentoaparty,andhehaddancedforthefirsttimeinhislifewithEdith。HerewasDelmonico’s,wheretheyhadhadsuchfascinatingluncheonstogether;whereshehadgotastainonherdress,andhehadbeenforcedtoobservethatherdresswasthennotreallyapartofherself,sinceitwasathingthatcouldnotbestained。Herdresshadalwaysseemedtohimassomethingabsoluteandfinal,exaltedabovecriticism,incapableofimprovement。
AsIhavesaid,Halfdanwalkedbrisklyuptheavenue,anditwassomethingafterelevenwhenhereachedthehousewhichhesought。Thegreatcloud—bankinthenorthhadthenbeguntoexpandandstretcheditslongmistyarmseastwardandwestwardovertheheavens。Thewindowsontheground—floorweredark,butthesleepingapartmentsintheupperstorieswerelighted。InEdith’sroomtheinsideshutterswereclosed,butoneofthewindowswasalittledownatthetop。Andashestoodgazingwithtremuloushappinessuptothatwindow,astanzafromHeinewhichheandEdithhadoftenreadtogether,cameintohishead。ItwasthestoryoftheyouthwhogoestotheMadonnaatKevlarandbringsherasavotiveofferingaheartofwax,thatshemayhealhimofhisloveandhissorrow。
"Ibringthiswaxenimage,Theimageofmyheart,Healthoumybittersorrow,Andcuremydeadlysmart!"[4]
[4]Translation,from"Exotics。ByJ。F。C。&C。L。"
Thencamethethoughtthatforhim,too,asforthepooryouthofCologne,therewashealingonlyindeath。AndstillinthismomenthewassonearEdith,shouldseeherperhaps,andthejoyatthiswasstrongerthanallelse,strongereventhandeath。Sohesatdownbesidethestepsofthemansionopposite,wheretherewassomeshelterfromthewind,andwaitedpatientlytillEdithshouldcloseherwin—
dow。Hewascold,perhaps,but,ifso,hehardlyknewit,forthenearjoyofseeingherthrobbedwarmlyinhisveins。Ah,there——theblindswerethrownopen;Edith,inallthelithemagnificenceofherwonderfulform,stoodoutclearandbeautifulagainstthelightwithin;shepushedupthelowerwindowinordertoreachtheupperone,andforamomentleanedoutoverthesill。Oncemoreherwondrousprofiletraceditselfinstrongreliefagainsttheoutergloom。Therecameacryfromthestreetbelow,afeebleinvoluntaryone,butstilldistinctlyaudible。Edithpeeredanxiouslyoutintothedarkness,butthedarknesshadgrowndenserandshecouldseenothing。Thewindowwasfastened,theshuttersclosed,andthebroadpathwayoflightwhichshehadflungoutuponthenighthadvanished。
Halfdanclosedhiseyestryingtoretainthehappyvision。Yes,thereshestoodstill,andtherewasaheavenlysmileuponherlips——ugh,heshivered——thesnowsweptinawildwhirlupthestreet。Hewrappedhisplaidmorecloselyabouthim,andstrainedhiseyestocatchonemoreglimpseofthebelovedEdith。Ah,yes;
thereshewasagain;shecamenearerandnearer,andshetouchedhischeek,gently,warilysmilingallthewhilewithastrangewistfulsmilewhichwassurelynotEdith’s。There,shebentoverhim,——touchedhimagain,——howcoldherhandswere;thetouchchilledhimtotheheart。
Thesnowhadnowbeguntofallinlargescatteredflakes,whirlingfitfullythroughtheair,followingeverychancegustofwind,butstillfalling,falling,andcoveringtheearthwithitswhite,death—likeshroud。
Butsurely——therewasEdithagain,——howwonderful!——inalongsnow—whiterobe,graveandgracious,stillwiththewistfulsmileonherlips。See,shebeckonstohimwithherhand,andherisestofollow,butsomethingheavyclingstohisfeetandhecannotstirfromthespot。Hetriestocryforhelp,buthecannot,——
canonlystretchouthishandstoher,andfeelveryunhappythathecannotfollowher。Butnowshepausesinherflight,turnsabout,andheseesthatshewearsamyrtlegarlandinherhairlikeabride。Shecomestowardhim,hercountenanceallradiantwithloveandhappiness,andshestoopsdownoverhimandspeaks:
"Come;theyarewaitingforus。Iwillfollowtheeinlifeandindeath,whereverthougoest。Come,"repeatsEdith,"theyhavelongbeenwaiting。Theyareallhere。"
Andheimaginesheknowswhotheyallare,althoughhehasneverheardofthem,norcanherecalltheirnames。
"But——but,"hestammers,"I——I——amaforeigner"
Itappearedthenthatforsomereasonthiswasaninsurmountableobjection。AndEdith’shappinessdiesoutofherbeautifulface,andsheturnsawayweeping。
"Edith,beloved!"
Thensheisoncemoreathisside。
"Thouartnomoreaforeignertome,beloved。
Whateverthouart,Iam。"
Andshepressesherlipstohis——itwasthesweetestkissofhislife——thekissofdeath。
Thenextmorning,asEdith,afterhavingputthelasttouchtohertoilet,threwtheshuttersopen,agreatglareofsun—smittensnowburstuponherandforamomentblindedhereyes。
Onthesidewalkopposite,halfadozenmenwithsnow—shovelsintheirhandsandacoupleofpolicemanhadcongregated,and,judgingbytheirmanner,werediscussingsomeobjectofinterest。Presentlytheywerejoinedbyherfather,whohadjustfinishedhisbreakfastandwasonhiswaytotheoffice。Nowhestoopeddownandgazedatsomethinghalfconcealedinthesnow,thensuddenlystartedback,andasshecaughtaglimpseofhisface,shesawthatitwasghastlywhite。Aterribleforebodingseizedher。Shethrewashawlabouthershouldersandrusheddown—stairs。Inthehallshewasmetbyherfather,whowasjustentering,followedbyfourmen,carryingsomethingbetweenthem。Shewellknewwhatitwas。Shewouldfainhaveturnedaway,butshecouldnot:
graspingherfather’sarmandpressingithard,shegazedwithblank,frightenedeyesatthewhiteface,thelinesofwhichDeathhadsostrangelyemphasized。Thesnow—flakeswhichhunginhishairhadtouchedhimwiththeirsuddenage,asiftobridgethegulfbetweenyouthanddeath。Andstillhewasbeautiful——theclearbrow,thepeaceful,happyindolence,thefrozensmilewhichdeathhadperpetuated。
Smiling,hehaddepartedfromtheearthwhichhadnoplaceforhim,andsmilingenteredtherealmwhere,amongthemanymansions,thereis,perhaps,alsooneforagentle,simple—heartedenthusiast。
THESTORYOFANOUTCAST。
THEREwasanancientfeudbetweenthefamilies;andBjarneBlakstadwasnotthemantomakeitup,neitherwasHedinUllern。Sotheylookedaskanceateachotherwhenevertheymetonthehighway,andtheonetookcarenottocrosstheother’spath。ButonSundays,whenthechurch—
bellscalledtheparishionerstogether,theycouldnotverywellavoidseeingeachotheronthechurch—yard;andthen,oneday,manyyearsago,whenthesermonhadhappenedtotouchBjarne’sheart,hehadnoddedtoHedinandsaid:"Fineweatherto—day;"andHedinhadreturnedthenodandanswered:"Trueisthat。"
"NowIhavedonemydutybeforeGodandmen,"thoughtBjarne,"anditishisturntotakethenextstep。""Thefellowisproud,"
saidHedintohimself,"andhewantstoshowoffhisgenerosity。ButIknowthewolfbyhisskin,evenifhehaslearnedtobleatlikeaewe—lamb。"
Whatthefeudreallywasabout,theyhadbothnearlyforgotten。Alltheyknewwasthatsomethirtyyearsagotherehadbeenaquarrelbetweenthepastorandtheparishabouttherightofcarryingarmstothechurch。AndthenBjarne’sfatherhadbeenthespokesmanoftheparish,whileHedin’sgrandsirehadbeenastaunchdefenderofthepastor。Therewasarumor,too,thattheyhadhadafierceencountersomewhereinthewoods,andthattheonehadstabbedtheotherwithaknife;butwhetherthatwasreallytrue,noonecouldtell。
Bjarnewastallandgrave,liketheweather—
beatenfir—treesinhismast—forest。Hehadalargeclean—shavenface,narrowlips,andsmallfierceeyes。Heseldomlaughed,andwhenhedid,hislaughseemedevenfiercerthanhisfrown。Heworehishairlong,ashisfathershaddone,anddressedinthestylesoftwocenturiesago;hisbreecheswereclaspedwithlargesilverbucklesattheknees,andhisredjerkinwasgatheredabouthiswaistwithaleatherngirdle。Helovedeverythingthatwasold,indressaswellasinmanners,tooknonewspapers,andregardedrailroadsandsteamboatsasinventionsofthedevil。Bjarnehadmarriedlateinlife,andhismarriagehadbroughthimtwodaughters,BritaandGrimhild。
HedinUllernwaslookeduponasanupstart。
Hecouldonlycountthreegenerationsback,andhehardlyknewhimselfhowhisgrandfatherhadearnedthemoneythathadenabledhimtobuyafarmandsettledowninthevalley。Hehadreadagreatdeal,andwaswellinformedonthepoliticsoftheday;hisnamehadevenbeenmentionedforstorthingsmand,ormemberofparliamentfromthedistrict,anditwasthecommonopinion,thatifBjarneBlakstadhadnotsovigorouslyopposedhim,hewouldhavebeenelected,beingtheonly"cultivated"peasantinthevalley。Hedinwasnounwelcomeguestinthehousesofgentlefolks,andhewasoftenseenatthejudge’sandthepastor’somberparties。AndforallthisBjarneBlakstadonlyhatedhimthemore。Hedin’swife,Thorgerda,wasfair—haired,tallandstout,anditwasshewhomanagedthefarm,whileherhusbandreadhisbooks,andstudiedpoliticsinthenewspapers;butshehadasharptongueandherneighborswereafraidofher。Theyhadoneson,whosenamewasHalvard。
BritaBlakstad,Bjarne’seldestdaughter,wasamaidwhomitwasajoytolookupon。Theycalledher"Glitter—Brita,"becauseshewasfondofringsandbrooches,andeverythingthatwasbright;whileshewasstillachild,sheoncetooktheoldfamilybridal—crownoutfromthestorehouseandcarrieditaboutonherhead。
"Bewareofthatcrown,child,"herfatherhadsaidtoher,"andwearitnotbeforethetime。
Thereisnotalwaysblessinginthebridalsilver。"Andshelookedwonderinglyupintohiseyesandanswered:"Butitglitters,father;"andfromthattimeforththeyhadnamedherGlitter—Brita。
AndGlitter—Britagrewuptobeafairandwinsomemaiden,andwherevershewentthewooersflockedonherpath。Bjarneshookhisheadather,andoftenhadharshwordsuponhislips,whenhesawherbraidingfield—
flowersintoheryellowtressesorclaspingtheshiningbroochestoherbodice;butalookofhersorasmilewouldcompletelydisarmhim。Shehadamerrywayofdoingthingswhichmadeitallseemlikeplay;butworkwentrapidlyfromherhands,whileherringinglaughterechoedthroughthehouse,andhersunnypresencemadeitbrightintheduskyancestralhalls。Inherkitchenthelongrowsofcopperpotsandpolishedkettlesshoneuponthewalls,andtheneatlyscouredmilk—pailsstoodlikesoldiersonparadeabouttheshelvesundertheceiling。Bjarnewouldoftensitforhourswatchingher,andastrangespring—feelingwouldstealintohisheart。Hefeltafather’sprideinherstatelygrowthandherrichwomanlybeauty。
"Ah!"hewouldsaytohimself,"shehasthepurebloodinherveinsand,astrueasIlive,thefarmshallbehers。"Andthen,quitecontrarytohishabits,hewouldindulgeinalittlereverie,imaginingthetimewhenhe,asanagedman,shouldhavegiventheestateoverintoherhands,andseeingherasaworthymatronpresideatthetable,andhimselfrockinghisgrandchildrenonhisknee。Nowonder,then,thatheeyedcloselytheyoungladswhowerebeginningtohoveraboutthehouse,andthathelookedwithsuspicionuponthosewhoselectedSaturdaynightsfortheirvisits。[5]
WhenBritawastwentyyearsold,however,herfatherthoughtthatitwastimeforhertomakeherchoice。Thereweremanyfine,braveladsinthevalley,and,asBjarnethought,Britawouldhavethegoodsensetochoosethefinestandthebravest。So,whenthewintercame,hesuddenlyflunghisdoorsopentotheyouthoftheparish,andbegantogivepartieswithaleandmeadinthegrandoldstyle。Heeventalkedwiththeyoungmen,attimes,encouragedthemtomanlysports,andurgedthemtotasteofhishome—breweddrinksandtotreadthespring—dancebriskly。AndBritadancedandlaughedsothatherhairflewaroundherandthesilverbroochestinkledandrangonherbosom。Butwhenthemerrimentwasatanend,andanyoneoftheladsremainedbehindtoofferherhishand,shesuddenlygrewgrave,toldhimshewastooyoung,thatshedidnotknowherself,andthatshehadhadnotimeasyettodecidesoseriousaquestion。Thusthewinterpassedandthesummerdrewnear。
[5]InthecountrydistrictsofNorwaySaturdayeveningisregardedas"thewooer’seve。"
InthemiddleofJune,Britawenttothesaeter[6]
withthecattle;andhersister,Grimhild,remainedathometokeephouseonthefarm。Shelovedthelifeinthemountains;thegreatsolitudesometimesmadeherfeelsad,butitwasnotanunpleasantsadness,itwasratheragentletoningdownofalltheshrillandnoisyfeelingsofthesoul。Upthere,intheheartoftheprimevalforest,herwholebeingseemedtoherselfasymphonyofmelodiouswhisperswithavaguedelicioussenseofremotenessandmysteryinthem,whichsheonlyfeltanddidnotattempttoexplain。There,thoseweirdlegendswhich,informerdays,stillheldtheirswayinthefancyofeveryNorsewoman,breathedtheirsecretsintoherear,andshefelthernearnessandkinshiptonature,asatnoothertime。
[6]ThesaeterisaplaceinthemountainswheretheNorwegianpeasantsspendtheirsummerspasturingtheircattle。
Everylargefarmhasitsownsaeter,consistingofoneormorechalets,hedgedinbyafenceofstoneorplanks。
Onenight,asthesunwaslow,andapurplebluishsmokehunglikeathinveiloverthetopsoftheforest,Britahadtakenoutherknittingandseatedherselfonalargemoss—grownstone,onthecroft。Hereyeswanderedoverthebroadvalleywhichwasstretchedoutbelow,andshecouldseetheredroofsoftheBlakstadmansionpeepingforthbetweenthefir—trees。Andshewonderedwhattheyweredoingdownthere,whetherGrimhildhaddonemilking,andwhetherherfatherhadreturnedfromtheford,whereitwashishabitatthishourtoridewiththefootmentowaterthehorses。Asshesatthuswondering,shewasstartledbyacreakinginthedrybrancheshardby,andliftinghereye,shesawatall,ratherclumsilybuilt,youngmanemergingfromthethicket。Hehadabroadbutlowforehead,flaxenhairwhichhungdownoverapairofdullox—likeeyes;hismouthwasratherlargeand,asitwashalfopen,displayedtwomassiverowsofshiningwhiteteeth。Hisredpeakedcaphungonthebackofhisheadand,althoughitwassummer,histhickwadmalvestwasbuttonedcloseuptohisthroat;overhisrightarmhehadflunghisjacket,andinhishandheheldabridle。
"Goodevening,"saidBrita,"andthanksforlastmeeting;"althoughshewasnotsurethatshehadeverseenhimbefore。
"Itwasthatbaymare,youknow,"stammeredthemaninahalfapologetictone,andshookthebridle,asifinfurtherexplanation。
"Ah,youhavelostyourmare,"saidthegirl,andshecouldnothelpsmilingathishelplessnessandhisawkwardmanner。
"Yes,itwasthebaymare,"answeredhe,inthesamediffidenttone;then,encouragedbyhersmile,hestraightenedhimselfalittleandcontinuedrathermorefluently:"Sheneverwasquiterightsincethetimethewolveswereafterher。Andthensincetheytookthecoltawayfromherthemilkhasbeentroublingher,andshehasn’tbeenquitelikeherself。"
"Ihaven’tseenheranywherehereabouts,"
saidBrita;"youmayhavetowanderfar,beforeyougetonthetrackofher。"
"Yes,thatisverylikely。AndIamtiredalready。"
"Won’tyousitdownandrestyourself?"
Hedeliberatelyseatedhimselfinthegrass,andgraduallygainedcouragetolookherstraightintheface;andhisdulleyeremainedsteadfastlyfixedonherinawaywhichbespokeunfeignedsurpriseandadmiration。Slowlyhismouthbroadenedintoasmile;buthissmilehadmoreofsadnessthanofjoyinit。Shehad,fromthemomentshesawhim,beenpossessedofastrangelypatronizingfeelingtowardhim。
Shecouldnotbuttreathimasifhehadbeenagirlorsomepersoninferiortoherinstation。
Inspiteofhislargebody,theimpressionhemadeuponherwasthatofweakness;butshelikedthesincerityandkindnesswhichexpressedthemselvesinhissadsmileandlarge,honestblueeyes。Hisgazeremindedherofthatofanox,butithadnotonlytheox’sdullness,butalsoitssimplicityandgood—nature。
Theysattalkingonforawhileabouttheweather,thecattle,andtheprospectsofthecrops。
"Whatisyourname?"sheasked,atlast。
"HalvardHedinsonUllern。"
Asuddenshockranthroughheratthesoundofthatname;inthenextmomentadeepblushstoleoverhercountenance。
"Andmyname,"shesaid,slowly,"isBritaBjarne’sdaughterBlakstad。"
Shefixedhereyesuponhim,asiftoseewhateffectherwordsproduced。Buthisfeaturesworethesamesadandplacidexpression;
andnolineinhisfaceseemedtobetrayeithersurpriseorill—will。Thenhersenseofpatronagegrewintooneofsympathyandpity。"Hemusteitherbeweak—mindedorveryunhappy,"
thoughtshe,"andwhatrighthaveIthentotreathimharshly。"Andshecontinuedhersimple,straightforwardtalkwiththeyoungman,untilhe,too,grewalmosttalkative,andthesadnessofhissmilebegantogivewaytosomethingwhichalmostresembledhappiness。
Shenoticedthechangeandrejoiced。Atlast,whenthesunhadsunkbehindthewesternmountaintops,sheroseandbadehimgood—
night;inanothermomentthedoorofthesaeter—
cottageclosedbehindher,andheheardherboltingitontheinside。Butforalongtimeheremainedsittingonthegrass,andstrangethoughtspassedthroughhishead。Hehadquiteforgottenhisbaymare。
Thenexteveningwhenthemilkingwasdone,andthecattleweregatheredwithinthesaeterenclosure,Britawasagainsittingonthelargestone,lookingoutoverthevalley。Shefeltakindofcompanionshipwiththepeoplewhenshesawthesmokewhirlingupfromtheirchimneys,andshecouldguesswhattheyweregoingtohaveforsupper。Asshesatthere,sheagainheardacreakinginthebranches,andHalvardUllernstoodagainbeforeher,withhisjacketonhisarm,andthesamebridleinhishand。
"Youhavenotfoundyourbaymareyet?"
sheexclaimed,laughingly。"Andyouthinksheislikelytobeinthisneighborhood?"
"Idon’tknow,"heanswered;"andIdon’tcareifsheisn’t。"
Hespreadhisjacketonthegrass,andsatdownonthespotwherehehadsatthenightbefore。Britalookedathiminsurpriseandremainedsilent;shedidn’tknowhowtointerpretthissecondvisit。
"Youareveryhandsome,"hesaid,suddenly,withagravitywhichleftnodoubtastohissincerity。
"Doyouthinkso?"sheanswered,withamerrylaugh。Heappearedtoheralmostachild,anditneverenteredhermindtofeeloffended。Onthecontrary,shewasnotsurebutthatshefeltpleased。
"Ihavethoughtofyoueversinceyesterday,"
hecontinued,withthesameimperturbablemanner。"Andifyouwerenotangrywithme,I
thoughtIwouldliketolookatyouoncemore。
Youaresodifferentfromotherfolks。"
"Godblessyourfoolishtalk,"criedBrita,withafreshburstofmerriment。"No,indeedIamnotangrywithyou;Ishouldjustassoonthinkofbeingangrywith——withthatcalf,"
sheaddedforwantofanothercomparison。
"YouthinkIdon’tknowmuch,"hestammered。"AndIdon’t。"Thesadsmileagainsettledonhiscountenance。
Afeelingofguiltsentthebloodthrobbingthroughherveins。Shesawthatshehaddonehiminjustice。Heevidentlypossessedmoresense,oratleastafinerinstinct,thanshehadgivenhimcreditfor。
"Halvard,"shefaltered,"ifIhaveoffendedyou,IassureyouIdidn’tmeantodoit;andathousandtimesIbegyourpardon。"
"Youhaven’toffendedme,Brita,"answeredhe,blushinglikeagirl。"Youarethefirstonewhodoesn’tmakemefeelthatIamnotsowiseasotherfolks。"
Shefeltitherdutytobeopenandconfidingwithhiminreturn;andinordernottoseemungenerous,orrathertoputthemonanequalfootingbygivinghimalsoapeepintoherheart,shetoldhimaboutherdailywork,aboutthemerrypartiesatherfather’shouse,andaboutthelustyladswhogatheredintheirhallstodancetheHallingandthespring—dance。Helistenedattentivelywhileshespoke,gazingearnestlyintoherface,butneverinterruptingher。Inhisturnhedescribedtoherinhisslowdeliberateway,howhisfatherconstantlyscoldedhimbecausehewasnotbright,anddidnotcareforpoliticsandnewspapers,andhowhismotherwoundedhimwithhersharptonguebymakingmerrywithhim,eveninthepresenceoftheservantsandstrangers。Hedidnotseemtoimaginethattherewasanythingwronginwhathesaid,orthatheplacedhimselfinaludicrouslight;nordidheseemtospeakfromanyunmanlycravingforsympathy。HismannerwassosimpleandstraightforwardthatwhatBritaprobablywouldhavefoundstrangeinanother,shefoundperfectlynaturalinhim。
Itwasnearlymidnightwhentheyparted{。}
Shehardlysleptatallthatnight,andshewashalfvexedwithherselffortheinterestshetookinthissimpleyouth。Thenextmorningherfathercameuptopayheravisitandtoseehowtheflockswerethriving。SheunderstoodthatitwouldbedangeroustosayanythingtohimaboutHalvard,forsheknewhistemperandfearedtheresult,ifheshouldeverdiscoverhersecret。Therefore,sheshunnedanopportunitytotalkwithhim,andonlybusiedherselfthemorewiththecattleandthecooking。
Bjarnesoonnoticedherdistraction,but,ofcourse,neversuspectedthecause。Beforehelefther,heaskedherifshedidnotfindittoolonelyonthesaeter,andifitwouldnotbewellifhesentheroneofthemaidsforacompanion。
Shehastenedtoassurehimthatthatwasquiteunnecessary;thecattle—boywhowastheretohelpherwasallthecompanyshewanted。
Towardevening,BjarneBlakstadloadedhishorseswithbuckets,filledwithcheeseandbutter,andstartedforthevalley。Britastoodlonglookingafterhimashedescendedtherockyslope,andshecouldhardlyconcealfromherselfthatshefeltrelieved,when,atlast,theforesthidhimfromhersight。Alldayshehadbeenwalkingaboutwithaheavyheart;thereseemedtobesomethingweighingonherbreast,andshecouldnotthrowitoff。Whowasthiswhohadcomebetweenherandherfather?
Hadsheeverbeenafraidofhimbefore,hadshebeengladtohavehimleaveher?Asuddenbitternesstookpossessionofher,forinherdistress,shegaveHalvardtheblameforallthathadhappened。Shethrewherselfdownonthegrassandburstintoapassionatefitofweeping;
shewasguilty,wretchedlymiserable,andallforthesakeofonewhomshehadhardlyknownfortwodays。Ifheshouldcomeinthismoment,shewouldtellhimwhathehaddonetowardher;andherwishmusthavebeenheard,forassheraisedhereyes,hestoodthereatherside,thesadfeatureabouthismouthandhisgreathonesteyesgazingwonderinglyather。
Shefeltherpurposemeltwithinher;helookedsogoodandsounhappy。Thenagaincamethethoughtofherfatherandofherownwrong,andthebitternessagainrevived。
"Goaway,"criedshe,inavoicehalfreluctantlytenderandhalfdefiant。"Goaway,Isay;Idon’twanttoseeyouanymore。"
"Iwillgototheendoftheworldifyouwishit,"heanswered,withastrangefirmness。
Hepickeduphisjacketwhichhehaddroppedontheground,thenturnedslowly,gavehermotherlonglook,aninfinitelysadandhopelessone,andwent。Herbosomheavedviolently——remorse,affectionandfilialdutywrestleddesperatelyinherheart。
"No,no,"shecried,"whydoyougo?Ididnotmeanitso。Ionlywanted——"
Hepausedandreturnedasdeliberatelyashehadgone。
WhyshouldIdwelluponthedaysthatfollowed——
howherheartgrewevermorerestless,howshewouldsuddenlywakeupatnightsandseethoselargeblueeyessadlygazingather,howbyturnsshewouldcondemnherselfandhim,andhowshefeltwithbitterpainthatshewasgrowingawayfromthosewhohadhithertobeennearestanddearesttoher。Andstrangetosay,thisveryisolationfromherfathermadeherclingonlythemoredesperatelytohim。ItseemedtoherasifBjarnehaddeliberatelythrownheroff;thatsheherselfhadbeentheonewhotookthefirststephadhardlyoccurredtoher。Alas,hergriefwasasirrationalasherlove。Bywhatstrangedeviousprocessofreasoningtheseconvictionsbecamesettledinhermind,itisdifficulttotell。Itissufficienttoknowthatshewasawomanandthatsheloved。
Sheevenknewherselfthatshewasirrational,andthisverysensedrewhermorehopelesslyintothemazeofthelabyrinthfromwhichshesawnoescape。
Hisvisitswereasregularasthoseofthesun。
Sheknewthattherewasonlyawordofhersneededtobanishhimfromherpresenceforever。
Andhowmanytimesdidshenotresolvetospeakthatword?Butthewordwasneverspoken。Attimesacompanyoftheladsfromthevalleywouldcometospendamerryeveningatthesaeter;butsheheededthemnot,andtheysoondisappeared。Thusthesummerwentamidpassingmoodsofjoyandsorrow。Shehadlongknownthathelovedher,andwhenatlasthisslowconfessioncame,itaddednothingtoherhappiness;itonlyincreasedherfearsforthefuture。Theylaidmanyplanstogetherinthosedays;butwintercameasasurprisetoboth,thecattlewereremovedfromthemountains,andtheywereagainseparated。
BjarneBlakstadlookedlongandwistfullyathisdaughterthatmorning,whenhecametobringherhome。Sheworenomoreringsandbrooches,anditwasthiswhichexcitedBjarne’ssuspicionthateverythingwasnotrightwithher。Formerlyhewasdispleasedbecausesheworetoomany;nowhegrumbledbecausesheworenone。
II。
Thewinterwashalfgone;andinallthistimeBritahadhardlyonceseenHalvard。Yes,once,——itwasChristmas—day,——shehadventuredtopeepovertohispewinthechurch,andhadseenhim,sittingathisfather’sside,andgazingvacantlyoutintotheemptyspace;butashehadcaughtherglance,hehadblushed,andbeganeagerlytoturntheleavesofhishymn—
book。Ittroubledherthathemadenoefforttoseeher;manyaneveningshehadwalkedalonedownattheriver—side,hopingthathemightcome;butitwasallinvain。Shecouldnotbutbelievethathisfathermusthavemadesomediscovery,andthathewaswatched。Inthemeantimetheblackcloudthickenedoverherhead;forasecretgnawedattheveryrootsofherheart。Itwasatimeofterriblesuspenseandsuffering——suchasamanneverknows,suchasonlyawomancanendure。Itwasalmostareliefwhenthecloudburst,andthestormbrokeloose,aspresentlyitdid。
OneSunday,earlyinApril,Bjarnedidnotreturnattheusualhourfromchurch。Hisdaughterswaitedinvainforhimwiththedinner,andatlastbegantogrowuneasy。Itwasnothishabittokeepirregularhours。Therewasagreatexcitementinthevalleyjustthen;
theAmerica—feverhadbrokenout。Alargevesselwaslyingoutinthefjord,readytotaketheemigrantsaway;andtherewashardlyafamilythatdidnotmournthelossofsomebrave—heartedson,orofsomefairandcherisheddaughter。Theoldfolks,ofcourse,hadtoremainbehind;andwhenthechildrenweregone,whatwasthereleftforthembuttoliedownanddie?Americawastothemasdistantasifitwereonanotherplanet。Thefamilyfeeling,too,haseverbeenstrongintheNorseman’sbreast;helivesforhischildren,andseemstolivehislifeoveragaininthem。ItishisgreatestpridetobeabletotracehisbloodbackintothedaysofSverreandSt。Olaf,andwiththesameconfidenceheexpectstoseehisracespreadintothefutureinthesamesoilwhereonceithasstruckroot。ThencomesthestormfromtheWesternseas,wrestleswiththesturdytrunk,andbreaksit;andtheshatteredbranchesflytoallthefourcornersoftheheavens。Nowonder,then,likeatreethathaslostitscrown,hisstrengthisbrokenandheexpectsbuttosmoulderintotheearthanddie。
BjarneBlakstad,likethesturdyoldpatriotthathewas,hadalwaysfiercelydenouncedtheAmericarage;anditwasnowthehopeofhisdaughtersthat,perhaps,hehadstayedbehindtoremindtherestlessonesamongtheyouthoftheirdutytowardtheirland,ortofrightensomeboldemigrationagentwhomighthavebeentooloudinhisdeclamations。Butitwasalreadyeighto’clockandBjarnewasnotyettobeseen。
Thenightwasdarkandstormy;acoldsleetfiercelylashedthewindow—panes,andthewindroaredinthechimney。Grimhild,theyoungersister,ranrestlesslyoutandinandslammedthedoorsafterher。Britasattightlypressedupagainstthewallinthedarkestcorneroftheroom。Everytimethewindshookthehouseshestartedup;thenagainseatedherselfandshuddered。Darkforebodingsfilledhersoul。
Atlast,——theclockhadjuststruckten,——therewasanoiseheardintheouterhall。Grimhildsprangtothedoorandtoreitopen。Atall,stoopingfigureentered,andbythedresssheatoncerecognizedherfather。
"GoodGod,"criedshe,andranuptohim。
"Goaway,child,"mutteredhe,inavoicethatsoundedstrangelyunfamiliar,andhepushedherroughlyaway。Foramomenthestoodstill,thenstalkeduptothetable,and,withaheavythump,droppeddownintoachair。Thereheremainedwithhiselbowsrestingonhisknees,andabsentlystaringonthefloor。Hislonghairhunginwettanglesdownoverhisface,andthewrinklesabouthismouthseemeddeeperandfiercerthanusual。Nowandthenhesighed,orgaveventtoadeepgroan。Inawhilehiseyesbegantowanderuneasilyabouttheroom;andastheyreachedthecornerwhereBritawassitting,hesuddenlydartedup,asifstungbysomethingpoisonous,seizedabrandfromthehearth,andrushedtowardher。
"TellmeIdidnotseeit,"hebrokeforth,inahoarsewhisper,seizingherbythearmandthrustingtheburningbrandcloseuptoherface。
"Tellmeitisalie——ablack,poisonouslie。"
Sheraisedhereyesslowlytohisandgazedsteadfastlyintohisface。"Ah,"hecontinuedinthesameterriblevoice,"itwaswhatItoldthemdownthereatthechurch——alie——aninfernallie。AndIdrewblood——blood,Isay——I
did——fromtheslanderer。Ha,ha,ha!Whatalustysprawlthatwas!"
ThecolorcameanddepartedfromBrita’scheeks。Andstillshewasstrangelyselfpossessed。Sheevenwonderedatherowncalmness。
Alas,shedidnotknowthatitwasacalmnessthatismoreterriblethanpain,thecorpseofaforlornandhopelessheart。
"Child,"continuedBjarne,andhisvoiceassumedamorenaturaltone,"whydostthounotspeak?Theyhaveliedaboutthee,child,becausethouartfair,theyhaveenviedthee。"
Then,almostimploringly,"Openthymouth,Brita,andtellthyfatherthatthouartpure——
pureasthesnow,child——myown——mybeautifulchild。"
Therewasalongandpainfulpause,inwhichthecracklingofthebrand,andtheheavybreathingoftheoldmanweretheonlysoundstobreakthesilence。Palelikeamarbleimagestoodshebeforehim;nowordofexcuse,noprayerforforgivenessescapedher;onlyaconvulsivequiveringofthelipsbetrayedthelifethatstruggledwithinher。WitheverymomentthehopediedinBjarne’sbosom。Hisvisagewasfearfultobehold。Terrorandfierceindomitablehatredhadgrimlydistortedhisfeatures,andhiseyesburnedlikefire—coalsbeneathhisbushybrows。
"Harlot,"heshrieked,"harlot!"
Acoldgustofwindsweptthroughtheroom。
Thewindowsshook,thedoorsflewopen,asiftouchedbyastronginvisiblehand——andtheoldmanstoodalone,holdingtheflickeringbrandabovehishead。
Itwasaftermidnight,thewindhadabated,butthesnowstillfell,thickandsilent,buryingpathsandfencesunderitscoldwhitemantle。
Onwardshefled——onwardandeveronward。
Andwhither,sheknewnot。Acoldnumbnesshadchilledhersenses,butstillherfeetdroveherirresistiblyonward。Adarkcurrentseemedtohaveseizedher,sheonlyfeltthatshewasadrift,andshecarednotwhitheritboreher。
Inspiteofthestiflingdullnesswhichoppressedher,herbodyseemedaslightasair。Atlast,——
sheknewnotwhere,——sheheardtheroarofthesearesoundinginherears,agenialwarmththawedthenumbnessofhersenses,andshefloatedjoyfullyamongtheclouds——amonggolden,sun—bathedclouds。Whensheopenedhereyes,shefoundherselflyinginacomfortablebed,andayoungwomanwithakindmotherlyfacewassittingatherside。Itwasalllikeadream,andshemadenoefforttoaccountforwhatappearedsostrangeandunaccountable。
Whatsheafterwardheardwasthatafisher—
manhadfoundherinasnow—driftonthestrand,andthathehadcarriedherhometohiscottageandhadgivenherovertothechargeofhiswife。Thiswastheseconddaysinceherarrival。
Theyknewwhoshewas,buthadkeptthedoorslockedandhadtoldnoonethatshewasthere。
Sheheardthestoryofthegoodwomanwithoutemotion;itseemedanintolerableefforttothink。
Butonthethirdday,whenherchildwasborn,hermindwassuddenlyarousedfromitslethargy,andshecalmlymaturedherplans;andforthechild’ssakesheresolvedtoliveandtoact。
Thatsameeveningtherecamealittleboywithabundleforher。Sheopeneditandfoundthereintheclothesshehadleftbehind,and——
herbrooches。Sheknewthatitwashersisterwhohadsentthem;thentherewasonewhostillthoughtofherwithaffection。Andyetherfirstimpulsewastosenditallback,ortothrowitintotheocean;butshelookedatherchildandforbore。
Aweekpassed,andBritarecovered。OfHalvardshehadheardnothing。Onenight,asshelayinahalfdoze,shethoughtshehadSeenapale,frightenedfacepressedupagainstthewindow—pane,andstaringfixedlyatherandherchild;but,afterall,itmighthavebeenmerelyadream。Forherfeveredfancyhadintheselastdaysfrequentlybeguiledherintosimilarvisions。Sheoftenthoughtofhim,but,strangelyenough,nomorewithbitterness,butwithpity。Hadhebeenstrongenoughtobewicked,shecouldhavehatedhim,buthewasweak,andshepitiedhim。Thenitwasthat;oneevening,assheheardthattheAmericanvesselwastosailatdaybreak,shetookherlittleboyandwrappedhimcarefullyinherownclothes,badefarewelltothegoodfishermanandhiswife,andwalkedalonedowntothestrand。Hugecloudsoffantasticshapeschasedeachotherdesperatelyalongthehorizon,andnowandthentheslendernewmoonglancedforthfromthedeepbluegulfsbetween。Shechoseaboatatrandomandwasabouttounmoorit,whenshesawthefigureofamantreadcarefullyoverthestonesandhesitatinglyapproachher。
"Brita,"cameinawhisperfromthestrand。
"Who’sthere?"
"ItisI。Fatherknowsitall,andhehasnearlykilledme;andmother,too。"
"Isthatwhatyouhavecometotellme?"
"No,Iwouldliketohelpyousome。Ihavebeentryingtoseeyouthesemanydays。"Andhesteppedcloseuptotheboat。
"Thankyou;Ineednohelp。"
"But,Brita,"imploredhe,"Ihavesoldmygunandmydog,andeverythingIhad,andthisiswhatIhavegotforit。"Hestretchedouthishandandreachedheraredhandkerchiefwithsomethingheavyboundupinacorner。
Shetookitmechanically,helditinherhandforamoment,thenflungitfaroutintothewater。
Asmileofprofoundcontemptandpitypassedoverhercountenance。
"Farewell,Halvard,"saidshe,calmly,andpushedtheboatintothewater。
"But,Brita,"criedhe,indespair,"whatwouldyouhavemedo?"
Sheliftedthechildinherarms,thenpointedtothevacantseatatherside。Heunderstoodwhatshemeant,andstoodforamomentwavering。
Suddenly,hecoveredhisfacewithhishandsandburstintotears。Withinhalfanhour,Britaboardedthevessel,andasthefirstredstripeofthedawnilluminedthehorizon,thewindfilledthesails,andtheshipglidedwestwardtowardthatlandwherethereisahomeforthemwhomloveandmisfortunehaveexiled。
Itwasalongandwearisomevoyage。TherewasanoldEnglishclergymanonboard,whocollectedcuriosities;tohimshesoldherringsandbrooches,andtherebyobtainedmorethansufficientmoneytopayherpassage。Shehardlyspoketoanyoneexceptherchild。Thoseofherfellow—parishionerswhoknewher,andperhapsguessedherhistory,keptalooffromher,andshewasgratefultothemthattheydid。
Frommorningtillnight,shesatinacornerbetweenapileofdeckfreightandthekitchenskylight,andgazedatherlittleboywhowaslyinginherlap。Allherhopes,herfuture,andherlifewereinhim。Forherself,shehadceasedtohope。
"Icangivetheenofatherland,mychild,"shesaidtohim。"Thoushaltneverknowthenameofhimwhogavetheelife。ThouandI,weshallstruggletogether,and,astrueasthereisaGodabove,whoseesus,Hewillnotleaveeitherofustoperish。Butletusasknoquestions,child,aboutthatwhichispast。Thoushaltgrowandbestrong,andthymothermustgrowwiththee。"
Duringthethirdweekofthevoyage,theEnglishclergymanbaptizedtheboy,andshecalledhimThomas,afterthedayinthealmanaconwhichhewasborn。HeshouldneverknowthatNorwayhadbeenhismother’shome;
thereforeshewouldgivehimnonamewhichmightbetrayhisrace。Onemorning,earlyinthemonthofJune,theyhailedland,andthegreatNewWorldlaybeforethem。
III。
WhyshouldIspeakoftheceaselesscare,thesuffering,andthehardtoil,whichmadethefirstfewmonthsofBrita’slifeonthiscontinentamerecontinuedstruggleforexistence?Theyarefamiliartoeveryemigrantwhohascomeherewithabraveheartandanemptypurse。
Sufficeittosaythatattheendofthesecondmonth,shesucceededinobtainingserviceasmilkmaidwithafamilyintheneighborhoodofNewYork。Withthelinguistictalentpeculiartoherpeople,shesoonlearnedtheEnglishlanguageandevenspokeitwell。Fromhercountrymen,shekeptasfarawayaspossible,notforherownsake,butforthatofherboy;forhewastogrowgreatandstrong,andtheknowledgeofhisbirthmightshatterhisstrengthandbreakhiscourage。ForthesamereasonshealsoexchangedherpicturesqueNorsecostumeforthatofthepeopleamongwhomshewasliving。ShewentcommonlybythenameofMrs。Brita,whichpronouncedintheEnglishway,soundedverymuchlikeMrs。Bright,andthisatlastbecamethenamebywhichshewasknownintheneighborhood。
Thusfiveyearspassed;thentherewasagreatrageforemigratingtothefarWest,andBrita,withmanyothers,startedforChicago。Thereshearrivedintheyear1852,andtookupherlodgingswithanIrishwidow,whowaslivinginalittlecottageinwhatwasthentermedtheoutskirtsofthecity。Thosewhosawherinthosedays,goingaboutthelumber—yardsanddoingaman’swork,wouldhardlyhaverecognizedinherthemerryGlitter—Brita,whointimesofoldtrodthespring—dancesogaylyinthewell—lightedhallsoftheBlakstadmansion。