"Idon’tthinkofSundayonprinciple,"saidGogolsimply,"anymorethanIstareatthesunatnoonday。"
"Well,thatisapointofview,"saidSymethoughtfully。"Whatdoyousay,Professor?"
TheProfessorwaswalkingwithbentheadandtrailingstick,andhedidnotansweratall。
"Wakeup,Professor!"saidSymegenially。"TelluswhatyouthinkofSunday。"
TheProfessorspokeatlastveryslowly。
"Ithinksomething,"hesaid,"thatIcannotsayclearly。Or,rather,IthinksomethingthatIcannoteventhinkclearly。Butitissomethinglikethis。Myearlylife,asyouknow,wasabittoolargeandloose。
Well,whenIsawSunday’sfaceIthoughtitwastoolarge——
everybodydoes,butIalsothoughtitwastooloose。Thefacewassobig,thatonecouldn’tfocusitormakeitafaceatall。
Theeyewassofarawayfromthenose,thatitwasn’taneye。
Themouthwassomuchbyitself,thatonehadtothinkofitbyitself。Thewholethingistoohardtoexplain。"
Hepausedforalittle,stilltrailinghisstick,andthenwenton——
"Butputitthisway。Walkinguparoadatnight,Ihaveseenalampandalightedwindowandacloudmaketogetheramostcompleteandunmistakableface。IfanyoneinheavenhasthatfaceIshallknowhimagain。YetwhenIwalkedalittlefartherIfoundthattherewasnoface,thatthewindowwastenyardsaway,thelamptenhundredyards,thecloudbeyondtheworld。Well,Sunday’sfaceescapedme;itranawaytorightandleft,assuchchancepicturesrunaway。Andsohisfacehasmademe,somehow,doubtwhetherthereareanyfaces。Idon’tknowwhetheryourface,Bull,isafaceoracombinationinperspective。Perhapsoneblackdiscofyourbeastlyglassesisquitecloseandanotherfiftymilesaway。Oh,thedoubtsofamaterialistarenotworthadump。Sundayhastaughtmethelastandtheworstdoubts,thedoubtsofaspiritualist。IamaBuddhist,Isuppose;andBuddhismisnotacreed,itisadoubt。MypoordearBull,Idonotbelievethatyoureallyhaveaface。I
havenotfaithenoughtobelieveinmatter。"
Syme’seyeswerestillfixedupontheerrantorb,which,reddenedintheeveninglight,lookedlikesomerosierandmoreinnocentworld。
"Haveyounoticedanoddthing,"hesaid,"aboutallyourdescriptions?EachmanofyoufindsSundayquitedifferent,yeteachmanofyoucanonlyfindonethingtocomparehimto——theuniverseitself。Bullfindshimliketheearthinspring,Gogollikethesunatnoonday。TheSecretaryisremindedoftheshapelessprotoplasm,andtheInspectorofthecarelessnessofvirginforests。TheProfessorsaysheislikeachanginglandscape。Thisisqueer,butitisqueererstillthatIalsohavehadmyoddnotionaboutthePresident,andIalsofindthatIthinkofSundayasIthinkofthewholeworld。"
"Getonalittlefaster,Syme,"saidBull;"nevermindtheballoon。"
"WhenIfirstsawSunday,"saidSymeslowly,"Ionlysawhisback;
andwhenIsawhisback,Iknewhewastheworstmanintheworld。
Hisneckandshoulderswerebrutal,likethoseofsomeapishgod。
Hisheadhadastoopthatwashardlyhuman,likethestoopofanox。Infact,Ihadatoncetherevoltingfancythatthiswasnotamanatall,butabeastdressedupinmen’sclothes。"
"Geton,"saidDr。Bull。
"Andthenthequeerthinghappened。Ihadseenhisbackfromthestreet,ashesatinthebalcony。ThenIenteredthehotel,andcomingroundtheothersideofhim,sawhisfaceinthesunlight。
Hisfacefrightenedme,asitdideveryone;butnotbecauseitwasbrutal,notbecauseitwasevil。Onthecontrary,itfrightenedmebecauseitwassobeautiful,becauseitwassogood。"
"Syme,"exclaimedtheSecretary,"areyouill?"
"Itwaslikethefaceofsomeancientarchangel,judgingjustlyafterheroicwars。Therewaslaughterintheeyes,andinthemouthhonourandsorrow。Therewasthesamewhitehair,thesamegreat,grey—cladshouldersthatIhadseenfrombehind。ButwhenIsawhimfrombehindIwascertainhewasananimal,andwhenIsawhiminfrontIknewhewasagod。"
"Pan,"saidtheProfessordreamily,"wasagodandananimal。"
"Then,andagainandalways,"wentonSymelikeamantalkingtohimself,"thathasbeenformethemysteryofSunday,anditisalsothemysteryoftheworld。WhenIseethehorribleback,Iamsurethenoblefaceisbutamask。WhenIseethefacebutforaninstant,Iknowthebackisonlyajest。Badissobad,thatwecannotbutthinkgoodanaccident;goodissogood,thatwefeelcertainthatevilcouldbeexplained。ButthewholecametoakindofcrestyesterdaywhenIracedSundayforthecab,andwasjustbehindhimalltheway。"
"Hadyoutimeforthinkingthen?"askedRatcliffe。
"Time,"repliedSyme,"foroneoutrageousthought。Iwassuddenlypossessedwiththeideathattheblind,blankbackofhisheadreallywashisface——anawful,eyelessfacestaringatme!AndI
fanciedthatthefigurerunninginfrontofmewasreallyafigurerunningbackwards,anddancingasheran。"
"Horrible!"saidDr。Bull,andshuddered。
"Horribleisnottheword,"saidSyme。"Itwasexactlytheworstinstantofmylife。Andyettenminutesafterwards,whenheputhisheadoutofthecabandmadeagrimacelikeagargoyle,Iknewthathewasonlylikeafatherplayinghide—and—seekwithhischildren。"
"Itisalonggame,"saidtheSecretary,andfrownedathisbrokenboots。
"Listentome,"criedSymewithextraordinaryemphasis。"ShallI
tellyouthesecretofthewholeworld?Itisthatwehaveonlyknownthebackoftheworld。Weseeeverythingfrombehind,anditlooksbrutal。Thatisnotatree,butthebackofatree。Thatisnotacloud,butthebackofacloud。Cannotyouseethateverythingisstoopingandhidingaface?Ifwecouldonlygetroundinfront——"
"Look!"criedoutBullclamorously,"theballooniscomingdown!"
TherewasnoneedtocryouttoSyme,whohadnevertakenhiseyesoffit。Hesawthegreatluminousglobesuddenlystaggerinthesky,rightitself,andthensinkslowlybehindthetreeslikeasettingsun。
ThemancalledGogol,whohadhardlyspokenthroughalltheirwearytravels,suddenlythrewuphishandslikealostspirit。
"Heisdead!"hecried。"AndnowIknowhewasmyfriend——myfriendinthedark!"
"Dead!"snortedtheSecretary。"Youwillnotfindhimdeadeasily。
Ifhehasbeentippedoutofthecar,weshallfindhimrollingasacoltrollsinafield,kickinghislegsforfun。"
"Clashinghishoofs,"saidtheProfessor。"Thecoltsdo,andsodidPan。"
"Panagain!"saidDr。Bullirritably。"YouseemtothinkPaniseverything。"
"Soheis,"saidtheProfessor,"inGreek。Hemeanseverything。"
"Don’tforget,"saidtheSecretary,lookingdown,"thathealsomeansPanic。"
Symehadstoodwithouthearinganyoftheexclamations。
"Itfelloverthere,"hesaidshortly。"Letusfollowit!"
Thenheaddedwithanindescribablegesture——
"Oh,ifhehascheatedusallbygettingkilled!Itwouldbelikeoneofhislarks。"
Hestrodeofftowardsthedistanttreeswithanewenergy,hisragsandribbonsflutteringinthewind。Theothersfollowedhiminamorefootsoreanddubiousmanner。Andalmostatthesamemomentallsixmenrealisedthattheywerenotaloneinthelittlefield。
Acrossthesquareofturfatallmanwasadvancingtowardsthem,leaningonastrangelongstafflikeasceptre。Hewascladinafinebutold—fashionedsuitwithknee—breeches;itscolourwasthatshadebetweenblue,violetandgreywhichcanbeseenincertainshadowsofthewoodland。Hishairwaswhitishgrey,andatthefirstglance,takenalongwithhisknee—breeches,lookedasifitwaspowdered。Hisadvancewasveryquiet;butforthesilverfrostuponhishead,hemighthavebeenonetotheshadowsofthewood。
"Gentlemen,"hesaid,"mymasterhasacarriagewaitingforyouintheroadjustby。"
"Whoisyourmaster?"askedSyme,standingquitestill。
"Iwastoldyouknewhisname,"saidthemanrespectfully。
Therewasasilence,andthentheSecretarysaid——
"Whereisthiscarriage?"
"Ithasbeenwaitingonlyafewmoments,"saidthestranger。"Mymasterhasonlyjustcomehome。"
Symelookedleftandrightuponthepatchofgreenfieldinwhichhefoundhimself。Thehedgeswereordinaryhedges,thetreesseemedordinarytrees;yethefeltlikeamanentrappedinfairyland。
Helookedthemysteriousambassadorupanddown,buthecoulddiscovernothingexceptthattheman’scoatwastheexactcolourofthepurpleshadows,andthattheman’sfacewastheexactcolouroftheredandbrownandgoldensky。
"Showustheplace,"Symesaidbriefly,andwithoutawordthemaninthevioletcoatturnedhisbackandwalkedtowardsagapinthehedge,whichletinsuddenlythelightofawhiteroad。
Asthesixwanderersbrokeoutuponthisthoroughfare,theysawthewhiteroadblockedbywhatlookedlikealongrowofcarriages,sucharowofcarriagesasmightclosetheapproachtosomehouseinParkLane。Alongthesideofthesecarriagesstoodarankofsplendidservants,alldressedinthegrey—blueuniform,andallhavingacertainqualityofstatelinessandfreedomwhichwouldnotcommonlybelongtotheservantsofagentleman,butrathertotheofficialsandambassadorsofagreatking。Therewerenolessthansixcarriageswaiting,oneforeachofthetatteredandmiserableband。Alltheattendants(asifincourt—dress)woreswords,andaseachmancrawledintohiscarriagetheydrewthem,andsalutedwithasuddenblazeofsteel。
"Whatcanitallmean?"askedBullofSymeastheyseparated。"IsthisanotherjokeofSunday’s?"
"Idon’tknow,"saidSymeashesankwearilybackinthecushionsofhiscarriage;"butifitis,it’soneofthejokesyoutalkabout。It’sagood—naturedone。"
Thesixadventurershadpassedthroughmanyadventures,butnotonehadcarriedthemsoutterlyofftheirfeetasthislastadventureofcomfort。Theyhadallbecomeinuredtothingsgoingroughly;butthingssuddenlygoingsmoothlyswampedthem。Theycouldnotevenfeeblyimaginewhatthecarriageswere;itwasenoughforthemtoknowthattheywerecarriages,andcarriageswithcushions。Theycouldnotconceivewhotheoldmanwaswhohadledthem;butitwasquiteenoughthathehadcertainlyledthemtothecarriages。
Symedrovethroughadriftingdarknessoftreesinutterabandonment。Itwastypicalofhimthatwhilehehadcarriedhisbeardedchinforwardfiercelysolongasanythingcouldbedone,whenthewholebusinesswastakenoutofhishandshefellbackonthecushionsinafrankcollapse。
Verygraduallyandveryvaguelyherealisedintowhatrichroadsthecarriagewascarryinghim。Hesawthattheypassedthestonegatesofwhatmighthavebeenapark,thattheybegangraduallytoclimbahillwhich,whilewoodedonbothsides,wassomewhatmoreorderlythanaforest。Thentherebegantogrowuponhim,asuponamanslowlywakingfromahealthysleep,apleasureineverything。
Hefeltthatthehedgeswerewhathedgesshouldbe,livingwalls;
thatahedgeislikeahumanarmy,disciplined,butallthemorealive。Hesawhighelmsbehindthehedges,andvaguelythoughthowhappyboyswouldbeclimbingthere。Thenhiscarriagetookaturnofthepath,andhesawsuddenlyandquietly,likealong,low,sunsetcloud,along,lowhouse,mellowinthemildlightofsunset。Allthesixfriendscomparednotesafterwardsandquarrelled;buttheyallagreedthatinsomeunaccountablewaytheplaceremindedthemoftheirboyhood。Itwaseitherthiselm—toporthatcrookedpath,itwaseitherthisscrapoforchardorthatshapeofawindow;buteachmanofthemdeclaredthathecouldrememberthisplacebeforehecouldrememberhismother。
Whenthecarriageseventuallyrolleduptoalarge,low,cavernousgateway,anothermaninthesameuniform,butwearingasilverstaronthegreybreastofhiscoat,cameouttomeetthem。ThisimpressivepersonsaidtothebewilderedSyme——
"Refreshmentsareprovidedforyouinyourroom。"
Syme,undertheinfluenceofthesamemesmericsleepofamazement,wentupthelargeoakenstairsaftertherespectfulattendant。Heenteredasplendidsuiteofapartmentsthatseemedtobedesignedspeciallyforhim。Hewalkeduptoalongmirrorwiththeordinaryinstinctofhisclass,topullhistiestraightortosmoothhishair;andtherehesawthefrightfulfigurethathewas——bloodrunningdownhisfacefromwheretheboughhadstruckhim,hishairstandingoutlikeyellowragsofrankgrass,hisclothestornintolong,waveringtatters。Atoncethewholeenigmasprangup,simplyasthequestionofhowhehadgotthere,andhowhewastogetoutagain。Exactlyatthesamemomentamaninblue,whohadbeenappointedashisvalet,saidverysolemnly——
"Ihaveputoutyourclothes,sir。"
"Clothes!"saidSymesardonically。"Ihavenoclothesexceptthese,"andheliftedtwolongstripsofhisfrock—coatinfascinatingfestoons,andmadeamovementasiftotwirllikeaballetgirl。
"Mymasterasksmetosay,"saidtheattendant,thatthereisafancydressballtonight,andthathedesiresyoutoputonthecostumethatIhavelaidout。Meanwhile,sir,thereisabottleofBurgundyandsomecoldpheasant,whichhehopesyouwillnotrefuse,asitissomehoursbeforesupper。"
"Coldpheasantisagoodthing,"saidSymereflectively,"andBurgundyisaspankinggoodthing。ButreallyIdonotwanteitherofthemsomuchasIwanttoknowwhatthedevilallthismeans,andwhatsortofcostumeyouhavegotlaidoutforme。Whereisit?"
Theservantliftedoffakindofottomanalongpeacock—bluedrapery,ratherofthenatureofadomino,onthefrontofwhichwasemblazonedalargegoldensun,andwhichwassplashedhereandtherewithflamingstarsandcrescents。
"You’retobedressedasThursday,sir,"saidthevaletsomewhataffably。
"DressedasThursday!"saidSymeinmeditation。"Itdoesn’tsoundawarmcostume。"
"Oh,yes,sir,"saidtheothereagerly,"theThursdaycostumeisquitewarm,sir。Itfastensuptothechin。"
"Well,Idon’tunderstandanything,"saidSyme,sighing。"Ihavebeenusedsolongtouncomfortableadventuresthatcomfortableadventuresknockmeout。Still,ImaybeallowedtoaskwhyI
shouldbeparticularlylikeThursdayinagreenfrockspottedalloverwiththesunandmoon。Thoseorbs,Ithink,shineonotherdays。IoncesawthemoononTuesday,Iremember。"
"Begpardon,sir,"saidthevalet,"Biblealsoprovidedforyou,"
andwitharespectfulandrigidfingerhepointedoutapassageinthefirstchapterofGenesis。Symereaditwondering。Itwasthatinwhichthefourthdayoftheweekisassociatedwiththecreationofthesunandmoon。Here,however,theyreckonedfromaChristianSunday。
"Thisisgettingwilderandwilder,"saidSyme,ashesatdowninachair。"WhoarethesepeoplewhoprovidecoldpheasantandBurgundy,andgreenclothesandBibles?Dotheyprovideeverything?"
"Yes,sir,everything,"saidtheattendantgravely。"ShallIhelpyouonwithyourcostume?"
"Oh,hitchtheballythingon!"saidSymeimpatiently。
Butthoughheaffectedtodespisethemummery,hefeltacuriousfreedomandnaturalnessinhismovementsastheblueandgoldgarmentfellabouthim;andwhenhefoundthathehadtowearasword,itstirredaboyishdream。Ashepassedoutoftheroomheflungthefoldsacrosshisshoulderwithagesture,hisswordstoodoutatanangle,andhehadalltheswaggerofatroubadour。
Forthesedisguisesdidnotdisguise,butreveal。
CHAPTERXV
THEACCUSER
ASSymestrodealongthecorridorhesawtheSecretarystandingatthetopofagreatflightofstairs。Themanhadneverlookedsonoble。Hewasdrapedinalongrobeofstarlessblack,downthecentreofwhichfellabandorbroadstripeofpurewhite,likeasingleshaftoflight。Thewholelookedlikesomeverysevereecclesiasticalvestment。TherewasnoneedforSymetosearchhismemoryortheBibleinordertorememberthatthefirstdayofcreationmarkedthemerecreationoflightoutofdarkness。Thevestmentitselfwouldalonehavesuggestedthesymbol;andSymefeltalsohowperfectlythispatternofpurewhiteandblackexpressedthesoulofthepaleandaustereSecretary,withhisinhumanveracityandhiscoldfrenzy,whichmadehimsoeasilymakewarontheanarchists,andyetsoeasilypassforoneofthem。Symewasscarcelysurprisedtonoticethat,amidalltheeaseandhospitalityoftheirnewsurroundings,thisman’seyeswerestillstern。NosmellofaleororchardscouldmaketheSecretaryceasetoaskareasonablequestion。
IfSymehadbeenabletoseehimself,hewouldhaverealisedthathe,too,seemedtobeforthefirsttimehimselfandnooneelse。
ForiftheSecretarystoodforthatphilosopherwholovestheoriginalandformlesslight,Symewasatypeofthepoetwhoseeksalwaystomakethelightinspecialshapes,tosplititupintosunandstar。Thephilosophermaysometimeslovetheinfinite;thepoetalwayslovesthefinite。Forhimthegreatmomentisnotthecreationoflight,butthecreationofthesunandmoon。
AstheydescendedthebroadstairstogethertheyovertookRatcliffe,whowascladinspringgreenlikeahuntsman,andthepatternuponwhosegarmentwasagreentangleoftrees。Forhestoodforthatthirddayonwhichtheearthandgreenthingsweremade,andhissquare,sensibleface,withitsnotunfriendlycynicism,seemedappropriateenoughtoit。
TheywereledoutofanotherbroadandlowgatewayintoaverylargeoldEnglishgarden,fulloftorchesandbonfires,bythebrokenlightofwhichavastcarnivalofpeopleweredancinginmotleydress。SymeseemedtoseeeveryshapeinNatureimitatedinsomecrazycostume。Therewasamandressedasawindmillwithenormoussails,amandressedasanelephant,amandressedasaballoon;thetwolast,together,seemedtokeepthethreadoftheirfarcicaladventures。Symeevensaw,withaqueerthrill,onedancerdressedlikeanenormoushornbill,withabeaktwiceasbigashimself——thequeerbirdwhichhadfixeditselfonhisfancylikealivingquestionwhilehewasrushingdownthelongroadattheZoologicalGardens。Therewereathousandothersuchobjects,however。Therewasadancinglamp—post,adancingappletree,adancingship。Onewouldhavethoughtthattheuntamabletuneofsomemadmusicianhadsetallthecommonobjectsoffieldandstreetdancinganeternaljig。Andlongafterwards,whenSymewasmiddle—agedandatrest,hecouldneverseeoneofthoseparticularobjects——alamppost,oranappletree,orawindmill——
withoutthinkingthatitwasastrayedrevellerfromthatrevelofmasquerade。
Ononesideofthislawn,alivewithdancers,wasasortofgreenbank,liketheterraceinsuchold—fashionedgardens。
Alongthis,inakindofcrescent,stoodsevengreatchairs,thethronesofthesevendays。GogolandDr。Bullwerealreadyintheirseats;theProfessorwasjustmountingtohis。Gogol,orTuesday,hadhissimplicitywellsymbolisedbyadressdesigneduponthedivisionofthewaters,adressthatseparateduponhisforeheadandfelltohisfeet,greyandsilver,likeasheetofrain。TheProfessor,whosedaywasthatonwhichthebirdsandfishes——theruderformsoflife——werecreated,hadadressofdimpurple,overwhichsprawledgoggle—eyedfishesandoutrageoustropicalbirds,theunioninhimofunfathomablefancyandofdoubt。Dr。Bull,thelastdayofCreation,woreacoatcoveredwithheraldicanimalsinredandgold,andonhiscrestamanrampant。Helaybackinhischairwithabroadsmile,thepictureofanoptimistinhiselement。
Onebyonethewanderersascendedthebankandsatintheirstrangeseats。Aseachofthemsatdownaroarofenthusiasmrosefromthecarnival,suchasthatwithwhichcrowdsreceivekings。
Cupswereclashedandtorchesshaken,andfeatheredhatsflungintheair。Themenforwhomthesethroneswerereservedweremencrownedwithsomeextraordinarylaurels。Butthecentralchairwasempty。
SymewasonthelefthandofitandtheSecretaryontheright。
TheSecretarylookedacrosstheemptythroneatSyme,andsaid,compressinghislips——
"Wedonotknowyetthatheisnotdeadinafield。"
AlmostasSymeheardthewords,hesawontheseaofhumanfacesinfrontofhimafrightfulandbeautifulalteration,asifheavenhadopenedbehindhishead。ButSundayhadonlypassedsilentlyalongthefrontlikeashadow,andhadsatinthecentralseat。Hewasdrapedplainly,inapureandterriblewhite,andhishairwaslikeasilverflameonhisforehead。
Foralongtime——itseemedforhours——thathugemasqueradeofmankindswayedandstampedinfrontofthemtomarchingandexultantmusic。Everycoupledancingseemedaseparateromance;
itmightbeafairydancingwithapillar—box,orapeasantgirldancingwiththemoon;butineachcaseitwas,somehow,asabsurdasAliceinWonderland,yetasgraveandkindasalovestory。Atlast,however,thethickcrowdbegantothinitself。
Couplesstrolledawayintothegarden—walks,orbegantodrifttowardsthatendofthebuildingwherestoodsmoking,inhugepotslikefish—kettles,somehotandscentedmixturesofoldaleorwine。Aboveallthese,uponasortofblackframeworkontheroofofthehouse,roaredinitsironbasketagiganticbonfire,whichlitupthelandformiles。Itflungthehomelyeffectoffirelightoverthefaceofvastforestsofgreyorbrown,anditseemedtofillwithwarmtheventheemptinessofuppernight。
Yetthisalso,afteratime,wasallowedtogrowfainter;thedimgroupsgatheredmoreandmoreroundthegreatcauldrons,orpassed,laughingandclattering,intotheinnerpassagesofthatancienthouse。Soontherewereonlysometenloiterersinthegarden;soononlyfour。Finallythelaststraymerry—makerranintothehousewhoopingtohiscompanions。Thefirefaded,andtheslow,strongstarscameout。Andthesevenstrangemenwereleftalone,likesevenstonestatuesontheirchairsofstone。
Notoneofthemhadspokenaword。
Theyseemedinnohastetodoso,butheardinsilencethehumofinsectsandthedistantsongofonebird。ThenSundayspoke,butsodreamilythathemighthavebeencontinuingaconversationratherthanbeginningone。
"Wewilleatanddrinklater,"hesaid。"Letusremaintogetheralittle,wewhohavelovedeachothersosadly,andhavefoughtsolong。Iseemtorememberonlycenturiesofheroicwar,inwhichyouwerealwaysheroes——epiconepic,iliadoniliad,andyoualwaysbrothersinarms。Whetheritwasbutrecently(fortimeisnothing),oratthebeginningoftheworld,Isentyououttowar。Isatinthedarkness,wherethereisnotanycreatedthing,andtoyouIwasonlyavoicecommandingvalourandanunnaturalvirtue。Youheardthevoiceinthedark,andyouneverhearditagain。Thesuninheavendeniedit,theearthandskydeniedit,allhumanwisdomdeniedit。AndwhenImetyouinthedaylightI
denieditmyself。"
Symestirredsharplyinhisseat,butotherwisetherewassilence,andtheincomprehensiblewenton。
"Butyouweremen。Youdidnotforgetyoursecrethonour,thoughthewholecosmosturnedanengineoftorturetotearitoutofyou。Iknewhownearyouweretohell。Iknowhowyou,Thursday,crossedswordswithKingSatan,andhowyou,Wednesday,namedmeinthehourwithouthope。"
Therewascompletesilenceinthestarlitgarden,andthentheblack—browedSecretary,implacable,turnedinhischairtowardsSunday,andsaidinaharshvoice——
"Whoandwhatareyou?"
"IamtheSabbath,"saidtheotherwithoutmoving。"IamthepeaceofGod。"
TheSecretarystartedup,andstoodcrushinghiscostlyrobeinhishand。
"Iknowwhatyoumean,"hecried,"anditisexactlythatthatI
cannotforgiveyou。Iknowyouarecontentment,optimism,whatdotheycallthething,anultimatereconciliation。Well,Iamnotreconciled。Ifyouwerethemaninthedarkroom,whywereyoualsoSunday,anoffensetothesunlight?Ifyouwerefromthefirstourfatherandourfriend,whywereyoualsoourgreatestenemy?Wewept,wefledinterror;theironenteredintooursouls——andyouarethepeaceofGod!Oh,IcanforgiveGodHisanger,thoughitdestroyednations;butIcannotforgiveHimHispeace。"
Sundayanswerednotaword,butveryslowlyheturnedhisfaceofstoneuponSymeasifaskingaquestion。
"No,"saidSyme,"Idonotfeelfiercelikethat。Iamgratefultoyou,notonlyforwineandhospitalityhere,butformanyafinescamperandfreefight。ButIshouldliketoknow。Mysoulandheartareashappyandquiethereasthisoldgarden,butmyreasonisstillcryingout。Ishouldliketoknow。"
SundaylookedatRatcliffe,whoseclearvoicesaid——
"Itseemssosillythatyoushouldhavebeenonbothsidesandfoughtyourself。"
Bullsaid——
"lunderstandnothing,butIamhappy。Infact,Iamgoingtosleep。"
"Iamnothappy,"saidtheProfessorwithhisheadinhishands,"becauseIdonotunderstand。Youletmestrayalittletooneartohell。"
AndthenGogolsaid,withtheabsolutesimplicityofachild——
"IwishIknewwhyIwashurtsomuch。"
StillSundaysaidnothing,butonlysatwithhismightychinuponhishand,andgazedatthedistance。Thenatlasthesaid——
"Ihaveheardyourcomplaintsinorder。Andhere,Ithink,comesanothertocomplain,andwewillhearhimalso。"
Thefallingfireinthegreatcressetthrewalastlonggleam,likeabarofburninggold,acrossthedimgrass。Againstthisfierybandwasoutlinedinutterblacktheadvancinglegsofablack—cladfigure。Heseemedtohaveafineclosesuitwithknee—breechessuchasthatwhichwaswornbytheservantsofthehouse,onlythatitwasnotblue,butofthisabsolutesable。Hehad,liketheservants,akindofwordbyhisside。Itwasonlywhenhehadcomequiteclosetothecrescentofthesevenandflunguphisfacetolookatthem,thatSymesaw,withthunder—struckclearness,thatthefacewasthebroad,almostape—likefaceofhisoldfriendGregory,withitsrankredhairanditsinsultingsmile。
"Gregory!"gaspedSyme,half—risingfromhisseat。"Why,thisistherealanarchist!"
"Yes,"saidGregory,withagreatanddangerousrestraint,"Iamtherealanarchist。"
"’Nowtherewasaday,’"murmuredBull,whoseemedreallytohavefallenasleep,"’whenthesonsofGodcametopresentthemselvesbeforetheLord,andSatancamealsoamongthem。’"
"Youareright,"saidGregory,andgazedallround。"Iamadestroyer。IwoulddestroytheworldifIcould。"
AsenseofapathosfarundertheearthstirredupinSyme,andhespokebrokenlyandwithoutsequence。
"Oh,mostunhappyman,"hecried,"trytobehappy!Youhaveredhairlikeyoursister。"
"Myredhair,likeredflames,shallburnuptheworld,"saidGregory。"IthoughtIhatedeverythingmorethancommonmencanhateanything;butIfindthatIdonothateeverythingsomuchasIhateyou!"
"Ineverhatedyou,"saidSymeverysadly。
Thenoutofthisunintelligiblecreaturethelastthundersbroke。
"You!"hecried。"Youneverhatedbecauseyouneverlived。Iknowwhatyouareallofyou,fromfirsttolast——youarethepeopleinpower!Youarethepolice——thegreatfat,smilingmeninblueandbuttons!YouaretheLaw,andyouhaveneverbeenbroken。Butisthereafreesoulalivethatdoesnotlongtobreakyou,onlybecauseyouhaveneverbeenbroken?WeinrevolttalkallkindofnonsensedoubtlessaboutthiscrimeorthatcrimeoftheGovernment。Itisallfolly!TheonlycrimeoftheGovernmentisthatitgoverns。Theunpardonablesinofthesupremepoweristhatitissupreme。Idonotcurseyouforbeingcruel。Idonotcurseyou(thoughImight)forbeingkind。Icurseyouforbeingsafe!Yousitinyourchairsofstone,andhavenevercomedownfromthem。Youarethesevenangelsofheaven,andyouhavehadnotroubles。Oh,Icouldforgiveyoueverything,youthatruleallmankind,ifIcouldfeelforoncethatyouhadsufferedforonehourarealagonysuchasI——"
Symesprangtohisfeet,shakingfromheadtofoot。
"Iseeeverything,"hecried,"everythingthatthereis。Whydoeseachthingontheearthwaragainsteachotherthing?Whydoeseachsmallthingintheworldhavetofightagainsttheworlditself?Whydoesaflyhavetofightthewholeuniverse?Whydoesadandelionhavetofightthewholeuniverse?ForthesamereasonthatIhadtobealoneinthedreadfulCounciloftheDays。Sothateachthingthatobeyslawmayhavethegloryandisolationoftheanarchist。Sothateachmanfightingforordermaybeasbraveandgoodamanasthedynamiter。SothatthereallieofSatanmaybeflungbackinthefaceofthisblasphemer,sothatbytearsandtorturewemayearntherighttosaytothisman,’Youlie!’Noagoniescanbetoogreattobuytherighttosaytothisaccuser,’Wealsohavesuffered。’
"Itisnottruethatwehaveneverbeenbroken。Wehavebeenbrokenuponthewheel。Itisnottruethatwehaveneverdescendedfromthesethrones。Wehavedescendedintohell。Wewerecomplainingofunforgettablemiseriesevenattheverymomentwhenthismanenteredinsolentlytoaccuseusofhappiness。Irepeltheslander;
wehavenotbeenhappy。IcananswerforeveryoneofthegreatguardsofLawwhomhehasaccused。Atleast——"
HehadturnedhiseyessoastoseesuddenlythegreatfaceofSunday,whichworeastrangesmile。
"Haveyou,"hecriedinadreadfulvoice,"haveyoueversuffered?"
Ashegazed,thegreatfacegrewtoanawfulsize,grewlargerthanthecolossalmaskofMemnon,whichhadmadehimscreamasachild。
Itgrewlargerandlarger,fillingthewholesky;theneverythingwentblack。Onlyintheblacknessbeforeitentirelydestroyedhisbrainheseemedtohearadistantvoicesayingacommonplacetextthathehadheardsomewhere,"CanyedrinkofthecupthatIdrinkof?"
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Whenmeninbooksawakefromavision,theycommonlyfindthemselvesinsomeplaceinwhichtheymighthavefallenasleep;
theyyawninachair,orliftthemselveswithbruisedlimbsfromafield。Syme’sexperiencewassomethingmuchmorepsychologicallystrangeiftherewasindeedanythingunreal,intheearthlysense,aboutthethingshehadgonethrough。ForwhilehecouldalwaysrememberafterwardsthathehadswoonedbeforethefaceofSunday,hecouldnotrememberhavingevercometoatall。Hecouldonlyrememberthatgraduallyandnaturallyheknewthathewasandhadbeenwalkingalongacountrylanewithaneasyandconversationalcompanion。Thatcompanionhadbeenapartofhisrecentdrama;itwasthered—hairedpoetGregory。Theywerewalkinglikeoldfriends,andwereinthemiddleofaconversationaboutsometriviality。ButSymecouldonlyfeelanunnaturalbuoyancyinhisbodyandacrystalsimplicityinhismindthatseemedtobesuperiortoeverythingthathesaidordid。Hefelthewasinpossessionofsomeimpossiblegoodnews,whichmadeeveryotherthingatriviality,butanadorabletriviality。
Dawnwasbreakingovereverythingincoloursatonceclearandtimid;asifNaturemadeafirstattemptatyellowandafirstattemptatrose。Abreezeblewsocleanandsweet,thatonecouldnotthinkthatitblewfromthesky;itblewratherthroughsomeholeinthesky。Symefeltasimplesurprisewhenhesawrisingallroundhimonbothsidesoftheroadthered,irregularbuildingsofSaffronPark。HehadnoideathathehadwalkedsonearLondon。Hewalkedbyinstinctalongonewhiteroad,onwhichearlybirdshoppedandsang,andfoundhimselfoutsideafencedgarden。TherehesawthesisterofGregory,thegirlwiththegold—redhair,cuttinglilacbeforebreakfast,withthegreatunconsciousgravityofagirl。