Jimmywastobeburiedatfive,anditwasalongdaytillthen——adayofmentaldisquietandevenofphysicaldisturbance。Wetooknointerestinourworkand,veryproperly,wererebukedforit。This,inourconstantstateofhungryirritation,wasexasperating。Donkinworkedwithhisbrowboundinadirtyrag,andlookedsoghastlythatMr。Bakerwastouchedwithcompassionatthesightofthispluckysuffering。——‘Ough!
You,Donkin!Putdownyourworkandgolay—upthiswatch。Youlookill。’
——‘Hiham,sir——inmy’ead,’hesaidinasubduedvoice,andvanishedspeedily。Thisannoyedmany,andtheythoughtthemate‘bloomin’softto—day。’CaptainAllistouncouldbeseenonthepoopwatchingtheskycloudoverfromthesouth—west,anditsoongottobeknownaboutthedecksthatthebarometerhadbeguntofallinthenightandthatabreezemightbeexpectedbeforelong。This,byasubtleassociationofideas,ledtoviolentquarrellingastotheexactmomentofJimmy’sdeath。Wasitbeforeorafter‘that’ereglassstarteddown’?Itwasimpossibletoknowanditcausedmuchcontemptuousgrowlingatoneanother。Allofasuddentherewasagreattumultforward。
PacificKnowlesandgood—temperedDavieshadcometoblowsoverit。Thewatchbelowinterferedwithspirit,andfortenminutestherewasanoisyscrimmageroundthehatch,where,inthebalancingshadeofthesails,Jimmy’sbody,wrappedPage117
upinawhiteblanket,waswatchedoverbythesorrowfulBelfast,who,inhisdesolation,disdainedthefray。Whenthenoisehadceased,andthepassionshadcalmedintosurlysilence,hestoodupattheheadoftheswathedbody,andliftingbotharmsonhigh,criedwithpainedindignation:
——‘Yououghttobeashamedofyour—selves!……’Wewere。
Belfasttookhisbereavementveryhard。Hegaveproofsofunextinguishabledevotion。Itwashe,andnootherman,whowouldhelpthesailmakertopreparewhatwasleftofJimmyforasolemnsurrendertotheinsatiablesea。Hearrangedtheweightscarefullyatthefeet;twoholystones,anoldanchor—shacklewithoutitspin,somebrokenlinksofaworn—outstreamcable。Hearrangedthemthisway,thenthat。‘Blessmysoul!youaren’tafraidhewillchafehisheel?’saidthesailmaker,whohatedthejob。Hepushedtheneedle,puffingfuriously,withhisheadinacloudoftobaccosmoke;heturnedtheflapsover,pulledatthestitches,stretchedthecanvas。——‘Lifthisshoulders……Pulltoyouabit……So——o——o——。Steady。’Belfastobeyed,pulled,lifted,overcomewithsorrow,droppingtearsonthetarredtwine。——‘Don’tyoudragthecanvastootautoverhispoorface,Sails,’heentreatedtearfully。——‘Whatareyoufashingyourselffor?Hewillbecomfortableenough,’assuredthesailmaker,cuttingthethreadafterthelaststitch,thatcameaboutthemiddleofJimmy’sforehead。
Herolleduptheremainingcanvas,putawaytheneedles。‘Whatmakesyoutakeonso?’heasked。Belfastlookeddownatthelongpackageofgreysailcloth。——‘Ipulledhimout,’hewhispered,‘andhedidnotwanttogo。IfIhadsatupwithhimlastnighthewouldhavekeptaliveforme……butsomethingmademetired。’
Thesailmakertookvigorousdrawsathispipeandmumbled:——‘WhenI……WestIndiaStation……IntheBlanchefrigate……YellowJack……sewedintwentymenaday……Portsmouth——Devonportmen——townies——knewtheirfathers,mothers——sisters——thewholeboilingof’em。Thoughtnothingofit。Andtheseniggerslikethisone——youdon’tknowwhereitcomesfrom。Gotnobody。Nousetonobody。Whowillmisshim?’——‘I
do——Ipulledhimout,’mournedBelfastdismally。
Ontwoplanksnailedtogether,andapparentlyresignedandstillunderthefoldsoftheUnionJackwithawhiteborder,JamesWait,carriedaftbyfourmen,wasdepositedslowly,withhisfeetpointingatanopenport。Aswellhadsetinfromthewestward,andfollowingontherolloftheship,theredensign,athalf—mast,dartedoutandcollapsedagainonthegreysky,likeatongueofflickeringfire;Charleytolledthebell;andateveryswingtostarboardthewholevastsemi—circleofsteelywatersvisibleonthatsideseemedtocomeupwitharushtotheedgeoftheport,asifimpatienttogetatourJimmy。EveryonewastherebutDonkin,whowastooilltocome;theCaptainandMr。Creightonstoodbareheadedonthebreakofthepoop;Mr。Baker,directedbythemaster,whohadsaidtohimgravely:——‘YouknowmoreabouttheprayerbookthanIdo,’cameoutofthecabindoorquicklyandalittleembarrassed。Allthecapswentoff。Hebegantoreadinalowtone,andwithhisusualharmlesslymenacingutterance,asthoughhehadbeenforthelasttimereprovingconfidentiallythatdeadseamanathisfeet。Themenlistenedinscatteredgroups;theyleanedonthefiferail,gazingonthedeck;theyheldtheirchinsintheirhandsthoughtfully,or,withcrossedarmsandonekneeslightlybent,hungtheirheadsinanattitudeofuprightmeditation。Wamibodreamed。Mr。Bakerreadon,gruntingreverentlyattheturnofeverypage。Thewords,missingtheunsteadyheartsofmen,rolledouttowanderwithoutahomeupontheheartlesssea;andJamesWait,silencedforever,layuncriticalandpassiveunderthehoarsemurmurofdespairandhopes。
Twomenmadereadyandwaitedforthosewordsthatsendsomanyofourbrotherstotheirlastplunge。Mr。Bakerbeganthelastpassage。‘Standby。’mutteredtheboatswain。Mr。Bakerreadout:‘Tothedeep,’andpaused。Themenliftedtheinboardendoftheplanks,theboatswainsnatchedofftheUnionJack,andJamesWaitdidnotmove。——‘Higher,’mutteredtheboatswainangrily。Alltheheadswereraised;everymanstirreduneasily,butJamesWaitgavenosignofgoing。Indeathandswathedupforalleternity,heyetseemedtohangontotheshipwiththegripofanundyingfear。
‘Higher!Lift!’whisperedtheboatswainfiercely。——
‘Hewon’tgo,’stammeredoneofthemenshakily,andbothappearedreadytodropeverything。Mr。Bakerwaited,buryinghisfaceinthebook,andshufflinghisfeetnervously。Allthemenlookedprofoundlydisturbed,fromtheirmidstafainthummingnoisespreadout——
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growinglouder……‘Jimmy!’criedBelfastinawailingtone,andtherewasasecondofshudderingdismay。
‘Jimmy,beaman!’heshriekedpassionately。
Everymouthwaswideopen,notaneyelidwinked。Hestaredwildly,twitchingallover;hebenthisbodyforwardlikeamanpeeringatanhorror。‘Go,Jimmy!——Jimmy,go!Go!’Hisfingerstouchedtheheadofthebodyandthegreypackagestartedreluctantlyto,allatonce,whizzofftheliftedplankswiththesuddennessofaflashoflightning。Thecrowdsteppedforwardlikeoneman;adeepAh——h——h!cameoutvibratingfromthebroadchests。Theshiprolledasifrelievedofanunfairburden;thesailsflapped。Belfast,supportedbyArchie,gaspedhysterically;andCharley,whoanxioustoseeJimmy’slastdive,leapedheadlongontherail,wastoolatetoseeanythingbutthefaintcircleofavanishingripple。
Mr。Baker,perspiringabundantly,readoutthelastprayerinadeeprumourofexcitedmenandflutteringsails。‘Amen!’
hesaidinanunsteadygrowl,andclosedthebook。
‘Squaretheyards!’thunderedavoiceabovehishead。Allhandsgaveajump;oneortwodroppedtheircaps;Mr。
Bakerlookedupsurprised。Themaster,standingonthebreakofthepoop,pointedtothewestward。‘Breezecoming,’hesaid,‘squaretheyards。Lookalive,men!’Mr。Bakercrammedthebookhurriedlyintohispocket。——‘Forwardthere——letgotheforetack!’hehailedjoyfullybareheadedandbrisk;‘Squaretheforeyard,youport—watch!’——‘Fairwind——fairwind,’mutteredthemengoingtothebraces。——‘WhatdidItellyou?’mumbledoldSingleton,flingingdowncoilaftercoilwithhastyenergy;‘Iknowedit!——he’sgone,andhereitcomes。’
Itcamewiththesoundofaloftyandpowerfulsigh。Thesailsfilled,theshipgatheredway,andthewakingseabegantomurmursleepilyofhometotheearsofmen。
Thatnight,whiletheshiprushedfoamingtotheNorthwardbeforeafresheninggale,theboatswainunbosomedhimselftothepettyofficers’berth:——‘Thechapwasnothingbuttrouble,’
hesaid,‘fromthemomenthecameaboard——d’yeremember——
thatnightinBombay?Beenbullyingallthatsoftycrowd——cheekedtheoldman——wehadtogofoolingalloverahalf—drownedshiptosavePage120
him。Dam’nighamutinyallforhim——andnowthemateabusedmelikeapickpocketforforgettingtodabalumpofgreaseonthemplanks。SoIdid,butyououghttohaveknownbettertoo,thantoleaveanailstickingup——hey,Chips?’‘Andyououghttohaveknownbetterthantochuckallmytoolsoverboardfor’im,likeaskearygreenhorn,’
retortedthemorosecarpenter。‘Well——he’sgoneafter’emnow,’
headdedinanunforgivingtone。‘OntheChinaStation,Irememberonce,theAdmiralhesaystome……’beganthesailmaker。
AweekafterwardstheNarcissusenteredthechopsoftheChannel。
Underwhitewingssheskimmedlowoverthebluesealikeagreattiredbirdspeedingtoitsnest。Thecloudsracedwithhermastheads;
theyroseasternenormousandwhite,soaredtothezenith,flewpast,andfallingdownthewidecurveoftheskyseemedtodashheadlongintothesea——thecloudsswifterthantheship,morefree,butwithoutahome。
Thecoasttowelcomehersteppedoutofspaceintothesunshine。Theloftyheadlandstrodmasterfullyintothesea;thewidebayssmiledinthelight;
theshadowsofhomelesscloudsranalongthesunnyplains,leapedovervalleys,withoutacheckdartedupthehills,rolleddowntheslopes;andthesunshinepursuedthemwithpatchesofrunningbrightness。Onthebrowsofdarkcliffswhitelighthousesshoneinpillarsoflight。TheChannelglitteredlikeabluemantleshotwithgoldandstarredbythesilverofthecappingseas。TheNarcissusrushedpasttheheadlandsandthebays。Outward—boundvesselscrossedhertrack,lyingover,andwiththeirmastsstrippedforasloggingfightwiththehardsou’wester。And,inshore,astringofsmokingsteamboatswaddled,huggingthecoast,likemigratingandamphibiousmonsters,distrustfuloftherestlesswaves。
Atnighttheheadlandsretreated,thebaysadvancedintooneunbrokenlineofgloom。Thelightsoftheearthmingledwiththelightsofheaven;andabovethetossinglanternsofatrawlingfleetagreatlighthouseshonesteadily,suchasanenormousridinglightburningaboveavesseloffabulousdimensionsBelowitssteadyglow,thecoast,stretchingawaystraightandblack,resembledthehighsideofanindestructiblecraftridingmotionlessupontheimmortalandunrestingsea。ThedarklandlayaloneinthemidstPage121
ofwaters,likeamightyshipbestarredwithvigilantlights——ashipcarryingtheburdenofmillionsoflives——ashipfreightedwithdrossandwithjewels,withgoldandwithsteel。Shetoweredupimmenseandstrong,guardingpricelesstraditionsanduntoldsuffering,shelteringgloriousmemoriesandbaseforgetfulness,ignoblevirtuesandsplendidtransgressions。
Agreatship!Forageshadtheoceanbatteredinvainherenduringsides;
shewastherewhenthewasvasteranddarker,whentheseawasgreatandmysterious,andreadytosurrendertheprizeoffametoaudaciousmen。
Ashipmotheroffleetsandnations!Thegreatflagshipoftherace;strongerthanthestorms!andanchoredintheopensea。
TheNarcissus,heelingovertooff—shoregusts,roundedtheSouthForeland,passedthroughtheDowns,and,intow,enteredtheriver。Shornofthegloryofherwhitewings,shewoundobedientlyafterthetugthroughthemazeofinvisiblechannels。Asshepassedthemthered—paintedlight—vessels,swungattheirmooringsseemedforaninstanttosailwithgreatspeedintherushoftide,andthenextmomentwerelefthopelesslybehind。Thebigbuoysonthetailsofbanksslippedpasthersidesverylow,and,droppinginherwake,tuggedattheirchainslikefiercewatch—dogs。Thereachnarrowed;frombothsidesthelandapproachedtheship。Shewentsteadilyuptheriver。Ontheriversideslopesthehousesappearedingroups——seemedtostreamdownthedeclivitiesataruntoseeherpass,and,checkedbythemudoftheforeshore,crowdedonthebanks。Furtheron,thetallfactorychimneysappearedininsolentbandsandwatchedhergoby,likeastragglingcrowdofslimgiantsswaggeringanduprightundertheblackplummetsofsmokecavalierlyaslant。Shesweptroundthebends;animpurebreezeshriekedawelcomebetweenherstrippedspars;andtheland,closingin,steppedbetweentheshipandthesea。
Alowcloudhungbeforeher——agreatopalescentandtremulouscloud,thatseemedtorisefromthesteamingbrowsofmillionsofmen。
Longdriftsofsmokyvapourssoileditwithlividtrails;itthrobbedtothebeatofmillionsofhearts,andfromitcameanimmenseandlamentablemurmur——themurmurofmillionsoflipspraying,cursing,sighing,jeering——theundyingmurmuroffolly,regret,andhopeexhaledbythecrowdsoftheanxiousearth。TheNarcissusenteredthecloud;theshadowsdeepened;onallsidesPage122
therewastheclangofiron,thesoundofmightyblows,shrieks,yells。
Blackbargesdriftedstealthilyonthemurkystream。Amadjumbleofbegrimedwallsloomedupvaguelyinthesmoke,bewilderingandmournful,likeavisionofdisaster。Thetugs,pantingfuriously,backedandfilledinthestream,toholdtheshipsteadyatthedock—gates;fromherbowstwolineswentthroughtheairwhistling,andstruckatthelandviciously,likeapairofsnakes。Abridgebrokeintwobeforeher,asifbyenchantment;
bighydrauliccapstansbegantoturnallbythemselves,asthoughanimatedbyamysteriousandunholyspell。Shemovedthroughanarrowlaneofwaterbetweentwolowwallsofgranite,andmenwithcheck—ropesintheirhandskeptpacewithher,walkingonthebroadflagstones。Agroupwaitedimpatientlyoneachsideofthevanishedbridge:roughheavymenincaps;sallow—facedmeninhighhats;twobareheadedwomen;raggedchildren,fascinatedandwithwideeyes。Acartcomingatajerkytrotpulledupsharply。Oneofthewomenscreamedatthesilentship——‘Hallo,Jack!’
withoutlookingatanyoneinparticular,andallhandslookedatherfromtheforecastlehead。——‘Standclear!Standclearofthatrope!’
criedthedockmen,bendingoverstoneposts。Thecrowdmurmured,stampedwheretheystood。——‘Letgoyourquarter—checks!Letgo!sangoutaruddy—facedoldmanonthequay。Theropessplashedheavilyfallinginthewater,andtheNarcissusenteredthedock。
Thestonyshoresranawayrightandleftinstraightlines,enclosingasombreandrectangularpool。brickwallsrosehighabovethewater——soullesswalls,staringthroughhundredsofwindowsastroubledanddullastheeyesofover—fedbrutes。Attheirbasemonstrousironcranescrouched,withchainshangingfromtheirlongnecks,balancingcruel—lookinghooksoverthedecksoflifelessships。Anoiseofwheelsrollingoverstones,thethumpofheavythingsfalling,theracketoffeverishwinches,thegrindingofstrainedchains,floatedontheair。Betweenhighbuildingsthedustofallthecontinentssoaredinshortflights;andapenetratingsmellofperfumesanddirt,ofspicesandhides,ofthingscostlyandofthingsfilthy,pervadedthespace,madeforitanatmospherepreciousanddisgusting。TheNarcissuscamegentlyintoherberth;theshadowsofsoullesswallsfelluponher,thedustofallthecontinentsPage123
leapeduponherdeck,andaswarmofstrangemen,clamberinguphersides,tookpossessionofherinthenameofthesordidearth。Shehadceasedtolive。
Atoffinablackcoatandhighhatscrambledwithagility,cameuptothesecondmate,shookhands,andsaid:——‘Hallo,Herbert。’Itwashisbrother。Aladyappearedsuddenly。Areallady,inablackdressandwithaparasol。Shelookedextremelyelegantinthemidstofus,andasstrangeasifshehadfallentherefromthesky。Mr。Bakertouchedhiscaptoher。Itwasthemaster’swife。AndverysoontheCaptain,dressedverysmartlyandinawhiteshirt,wentwithherovertheside。Wedidn’trecognisehimatalltill,turningonthequay,hecalledtoMr。Baker:——‘Remembertowindupthechronometersto—morrowmorning。’Anunderhandlotofseedy—lookingchapswithshiftyeyeswanderedinandoutoftheforecastlelookingforajob——
theysaid——‘Morelikelyforsomethingtosteal,’
commentedKnowlescheerfully。Poorbeggars。Whocared?Weren’twehome!
ButMr。Bakerwentforoneofthemwhohadgivenhimsomecheek,andweweredelighted。Everythingwasdelightful——‘I’vefinishedaft,sir,’calledoutMr。Creighton。——‘Nowaterinthewell,sir,’reportedforthelasttimethecarpenter,sounding—rodinhand。Mr。Bakerglancedalongthedecksattheexpectantgroupsofmen,glancedaloftattheyards。——‘Ough!Thatwilldo,men。’
hegrunted。Thegroupsbrokeup。Thevoyagewasended。
Rolled—upbedswentflyingovertherail;lashedchestswentslidingalongthegangway——mightyfewofbothatthat。‘TherestishavingacruiseofftheCape,’explainedKnowlesenigmaticallytoadock—loaferwithwhomhehadstruckasuddenfriendship。Menran,callingtooneanother,hailingutterstrangersto‘lendahandwiththedunnage,’thensuddendecorumapproachedthematetoshakehandsbeforegoingashore。——‘Good—bye,sir,’
theyrepeatedinvarioustones。Mr。Bakergraspedhardpalms,gruntedinafriendlymannerateveryone,hiseyestwinkled。——‘Takecareofyourmoney,Knowles。Ough!Soongetanicewifeifyoudo。’
Thelamemanwasdelighted。——‘Good—bye,sir,’saidBelfastwithemotion,wringingthemate’shand,andlookedupwithswimmingeyes。‘IthoughtIwouldtake’imashorewithme,’
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kindly:——‘Takecareofyourself,Craik,’andthebereavedBelfastwentovertherailmourningandalone。
Mr。Bakerinthesuddenpeaceoftheshipmovedaboutsolitaryandgrunting,tryingdoorhandlespeeringintodarkplaces,neverdone——amodelchiefmate!Noonewaitedforhimashore。Motherdead;fatherandtwobrothers,Yarmouthfishermen,drownedtogetherontheDoggerBank;
sistermarriedandunfriendly。Quitealady。Marriedtotheleadingtailorofalittletown,anditsleadingpolitician,whodidnotthinkhissailorbrother—in—lawquiterespectableenoughforhim。Quitealady,quitealady,hethought,sittingdownforamoment’srestonthequarter—hatch。
Timeenoughtogoashoreandgetabite,andsup,andabedsomewhere。
Hedidn’tliketopartwiththeship。Noonetothinkaboutthen。Thedarknessofamistyeveningfell,coldanddamp,uponthedeserteddeck;andMr。
Bakersatsmoking,thinkingofallthesuccessiveshipstowhomthroughmanyyearshehadgiventhebestofaseaman’scare。Andneveracommandinsight。Notonce!——‘Ihaven’tsomehowthecutofaskipperaboutme,’hemeditatedplacidly,whiletheshipkeeper(whohadtakenpossessionofthegalley),awizenedoldmanwithblearedeyes,cursedhim,inwhispersfor‘hangingaboutso。’——‘NowCreighton,’hepursuedtheunenvioustrainofthought。‘quiteagentleman……swellfriends……willgeton。Fineyoungfellow……alittlemoreexperience。’Hegotupandshookhimself。‘I’llbebackfirstthingto—morrowmorningforthehatches。Don’tyouletthemtouchanythingbeforeIcome,shipkeeper,’hecalledout。Then,atlast,healsowentashore——amodelchiefmate!
Themenscatteredbythedissolvingcontractofthelandcametogetheroncemoreintheshippingoffice。——‘TheNarcissuspaysoff,’shoutedoutsideaglazeddoorabrass—boundoldfellowwithacrownandthecapitalsB。T。onhiscap。Alottroopedinatoncebutmanywerelate。Theroomwaslarge,white—washed,andbare;acountersurmountedbyabrass—wiregratingfencedoffathirdofthedustyspace,andbehindthegratingapasty—facedclerk,withhishairpartedinthemiddle,hadthequick,glitteringeyesandthevivacious,jerkymovementsofacagedbird。PoorCaptainAllistounalsointhere,andsittingbeforealittletablewithpilesofgoldandnotesonit,appearedsubduedbyhiscaptivity。AnotherBoardofPage125
Tradebirdwasperchingonahighstoolnearthedoor;anoldbirdthatdidnotmindthechaffofelatedsailors。ThecrewoftheNarcissus,brokenupintoknots,pushedinthecorners。Theyhadnewshoretogs,smartjacketsthatlookedasiftheyhadbeenshapedwithanaxe,glossytrousersthatseemedmadeofcrumpledsheet—iron,collarlessflannelshirts,shinynewboots。Theytappedonshoulders,button—holedoneanother,slappedtheirthighs,stamped,withburstsofsubduedlaughter。Mosthadcleanradiantfaces;onlyoneortwoweredishevelledandsad;thetwoyoungNorwegianslookedtidy,meek,andaltogetherofapromisingmaterialforthekindladiesthatpatronizetheScandinavianHome。Wamibo,stillinhisworkingclothes,dreamed,uprightandburlyinthemiddleoftheroom,and,whenArchiecamein,wokeupforasmile。Butthewide—awakeclerkcalledoutaname,andthepaying—offbusinessbegan。
Onebyonetheycameuptothepay—tabletogetthewagesoftheirgloriousandobscuretoil。Theysweptthemoneywithcareintobroadpalms,rammedittrustfullyintotrouserspockets,or,turningtheirbacksonthetable,reckonedwithdifficultyinthehollowoftheirstiffhands。——‘Moneyright?Signtherelease。There——there,’
repeatedtheclerk,impatiently。‘Howstupidthosesailorsare!’
hethought。Singletoncameup,venerable——anduncertainastodaylight;
browndropsoftobaccojuicemaculatedhiswhitebeard;hishands,thatneverhesitatedinthegreatlightoftheopensea,couldhardlyfindthesmallpileofgoldintheprofounddarknessoftheshore。‘Can’twrite?’saidtheclerk,shocked。‘Makeamark,then。’
Singletonpainfullysketchedinaheavycross,blottedthepage。‘Whatadisgustingoldbrute,’mutteredtheclerk。Somebodyopenedthedoorforhim,andthepatriarchalseamanpassedthroughunsteadily,withoutasmuchasaglanceatanyofus。
Archiehadapocket—book。hewaschaffed。Belfast,wholookedwild,asthoughhehadalreadyluffedupthroughapublic—houseortwo,gavesignsofemotionandwantedtospeaktoCaptainprivately。
Themasterwassurprised。Theyspokethroughthewires,andwecouldheartheCaptainsaying:——‘I’vegivenituptotheBoardofTrade。’
‘Ishould’velikedtogetsomethingofhis,’mumbledBelfast。‘Butyoucan’t,myman。It’sgivenup,lockedandsealed,totheMarineOffice,’expostulatedthemaster;andBelfaststoodback,withdroopingmouthandtroubledeyes。Inapauseofthebusinessweheardthemasterandtheclerktalking。Wecaught‘JamesWait——deceased——foundnopapersofanykind——norelations——notrace——theofficemustholdhiswagesthen。’Donkinentered。Heseemedoutofbreath,wasgrave,fullofbusiness。Hewentstraighttothedesk,talkedwithanimationtotheclerk,whothoughthimanintelligentman。
Theydiscussedtheaccount,droppingh’sagainstoneanotherasifforawager——veryfriendly。CaptainAllistounpaid。‘Igiveyouabaddischarge,’hesaid,quietly。Donkinraisedhisvoice:
——‘Idon’twantyourbloomin’discharge——keepit。I’mgoin’
ter’aveajobhashore。’Heturnedtous。‘Nomorebloomin’seafurme,’hesaid,aloud。Alllookedathim。Hehadbetterclothes,hadaneasyair,appearedmoreathomethananyofus;
hestaredwithassurance,enjoyingtheeffectofhisdeclaration。‘Yuss。
I’avefriendswellhoff。That’smore’nyergot。ButIhamaman。Yershipmatesforallthat。Who’scomin’furadrink?’
Noonemoved。Therewasasilence;asilenceofblankfacesandstonylooks。Hewaitedamoment,smiledbitterly,andwenttothedoor。
Therehefacedroundoncemore。‘Yerwon’t?Yerbloomin’lotof’ypocrites。No?What’aveIdonetoyer?DidIbullyyer?DidIhurtyer?DidI?……Yerwon’tdrink?……No!……Thenmayyerdieofthirst,heverymother’ssonofyer!Notoneofyer’asthesperritofabug。Ye’rethescumoftheworld。Workandstarve!’
Hewentout,andslammedthedoorwithsuchviolencethattheoldBoardofTradebirdnearlyfelloffhisperch。
‘He’smad,’saidArchie。‘No!
No!He’sdrunk,’insistedBelfast,lurchingabout,andinamaudlintone。CaptainAllistounsatsmilingthoughtfullyattheclearedpay—table。
Outside,onTowerHill,theyblinked,hesitatedclumsily,asifblindedbythestrangequalityofthehazylight,asifdiscomposedbytheviewofsomanymen;andtheywhocouldhearoneanotherinthehowlofgalesseemeddeafenedanddistractedbythedullroarofthebusyearth。——‘TotheBlackHorse!TotheBlackHorse!’
criedsome。‘Letushaveadrinktogetherbeforewepart。’
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wanderedoffalone。AsIcameupIsawared—faced,blowsywoman,inagreyshawl,andwithdusty,fluffyhair,fallonCharley’sneck。Itwashismother。Sheslobberedoverhim:——‘O,myboy!Myboy!’
——‘Leggoofme,’saidCharley,‘Leggo,mother!’
Iwaspassinghimatthetime,andovertheuntidyheadoftheblubberingwomanhegavemeahumoroussmileandaglanceironic,courageous,andprofound,thatseemedtoputallmyknowledgeoflifetoshame。Inoddedandpassedon,butheardhimsayagain,good—naturedly:——‘Ifyouleggoofmethisminyt——yeshall’aveabobforadrinkoutofmypay。’InthenextfewstepsIcameuponBelfast。Hecaughtmyarmwithtremulousenthusiasm。——‘Icouldn’tgowi’’em,’
hestammered,indicatingbyanodournoisycrowd,thatdriftedslowlyalongtheothersidewalk。‘WhenIthinkofJimmy……PoorJim!
WhenIthinkofhimIhavenoheartfordrink。Youwerehischum,too……butIpulledhimout……didn’tI?Shortwoolhehad……Yes。AndIstolethebloomingpie……Hewouldn’tgo……Hewouldn’tgofornobody。’
Heburstintotears。‘Inevertouchedhim——never——never——
’hesobbed。‘Hewentformelike……like……alamb。’
Idisengagedmyselfgently。Belfast’scryingfitsgenerallyendedinafightwithsomeone,andIwasn’tanxioustostandthebruntofhisinconsolablesorrow。Moreover,twobulkypolicemenstoodnearby,lookingatuswithadisapprovingandincorruptiblegaze。——‘Solong!’Isaid,andwentoff。
ButatthecornerIstoppedtotakemylastlookatthecrewoftheNarcissus。Theywereswaying,irresoluteandnoisyonthebroadflagstonesbeforetheMint。TheywereboundfortheBlackHorse,wheremen,infurcaps,withbrutalfacesandinshirtsleeves,dispenseoutofvarnishedbarrelstheillusionsofstrength,mirth,happiness;theillusionofsplendourandpoetryoflife,tothepaid—offcrewsofsouthern—goingships。FromafarIsawthemdiscoursing,withjovialeyesandclumsygestures,whiletheseaoflifethunderedintotheirearsceaselessandunheeded。
Andswayingaboutthereonthewhitestones,surroundedbythehurryandclamourofmen,theyappearedtobecreaturesofanotherkind——lost,alone,forgetful,anddoomed;theywerelikecastaways,likerecklessandjoyouscastaways,likemadcastawaysmakingmerryinthestormanduponaninsecureledgeofatreacherousrock。
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Theroarofthetownresembledtheroaroftoppingbreakers,mercilessandstrong,withaloudvoiceandcruelpurpose;butoverheadthecloudsbroke;afloodofsunshinestreameddownthewallsofgrimyhouses。Thedarkknotofseamendriftedinsunshine。TotheleftofthemthetreesinTowerGardenssighed,thestonesoftheTowergleaming,seemedtostirintheplayoflight,asifrememberingsuddenlyallthegreatjoysandsorrowsofthepast,thefightingprototypesofthesemen;press—gangs;
mutinouscries;thewailingofwomenbytheriverside,andtheshoutsofmenwelcomingvictories。Thesunshineofheavenfelllikeagiftofgraceonthemudoftheearth,ontherememberingandmutestones,ongreed,selfishness;ontheanxiousfacesofforgetfulmen。AndtotherightofthedarkgroupthestainedfrontoftheMint,cleansedbythefloodoflight,stoodoutforamoment,dazzlingandwhitelikeamarblepalaceinafairytale。ThecrewoftheNarcissusdriftedoutofsight。
Ineversawthemagain。Theseatooksome,thesteamerstookothers,thegraveyardsoftheearthwillaccountfortherest。Singletonhasnodoubttakenwithhimthelongrecordofhisfaithfulworkintothepeacefuldepthsofanhospitablesea。AndDonkin,whoneverdidadecentday’sworkinhislife,nodoubtearnshislivingbydiscoursingwithfilthyeloquenceupontherightoflabourtolive。Sobeit!Lettheearthandtheseaeachhaveitsown。
Agoneshipmate,likeanyotherman,isgoneforever;
andIneversawoneofthemagain。Butattimesthespring—floodofmemorysetswithforceupthedarkRiveroftheNineBends。Thenonthewatersoftheforlornstreamdriftsaship——ashadowyshipmannedbyacrewofShades。Theypassandmakeasign,inashadowyhall。Haven’twe,togetherandupontheimmortalsea,wrungoutameaningfromoursinfullives?Good—byebrothers!Youwereagoodcrowd。Asgoodacrowdaseverfistedwithwildcriesthebeatingcanvasofaheavyforesail;ortossingaloft,invisibleinthenight,gavebackyellforyelltoawesterlygale。