"Notevenifshe’syourownsister。That’sbecausegirlsaresomuchsofterandweakerthanweare;theyhavetobe,youknow,"headded,"becauseiftheyweren’t,itwouldn’tbeniceforthebabies。
Andthat’swhyalltheanimalsaresogoodtothemotheranimals。
Theyneverfightthem,youknow。"
"Iknow,"saidPeter,interested;"twobuckrabbitswillfightalldayifyouletthem,buttheywon’thurtadoe。"
"No;andquitewildbeasts——lionsandelephants——they’reimmenselygentlewiththefemalebeasts。Andwe’vegottobe,too。"
"Isee,"saidPeter。
"Andtheirheartsaresoft,too,"theDoctorwenton,"andthingsthatweshouldn’tthinkanythingofhurtthemdreadfully。Sothatamanhastobeverycareful,notonlyofhisfists,butofhiswords。
They’reawfullybrave,youknow,"hewenton。"ThinkofBobbiewaitingaloneinthetunnelwiththatpoorchap。It’sanoddthing—
—thesofterandmoreeasilyhurtawomanisthebettershecanscrewherselfuptodowhatHAStobedone。I’veseensomebravewomen——
yourMother’sone,"heendedabruptly。
"Yes,"saidPeter。
"Well,that’sall。Excusemymentioningit。Butnobodyknowseverythingwithoutbeingtold。AndyouseewhatImean,don’tyou?"
"Yes,"saidPeter。"I’msorry。There!"
"Ofcourseyouare!Peoplealwaysare——directlytheyunderstand。
Everyoneoughttobetaughtthesescientificfacts。Solong!"
Theyshookhandsheartily。WhenPetercamehome,hissisterslookedathimdoubtfully。
"It’sPax,"saidPeter,dumpingdownthebasketonthetable。"Dr。
Forresthasbeentalkingscientifictome。No,it’snousemytellingyouwhathesaid;youwouldn’tunderstand。Butitallcomestoyougirlsbeingpoor,soft,weak,frightenedthingslikerabbits,sousmenhavejustgottoputupwiththem。Hesaidyouwerefemalebeasts。ShallItakethisuptoMother,orwillyou?"
"IknowwhatBOYSare,"saidPhyllis,withflamingcheeks;"they’rejustthenastiest,rudest——"
"They’reverybrave,"saidBobbie,"sometimes。"
"Ah,youmeanthechapupstairs?Isee。Goahead,Phil——Ishallputupwithyouwhateveryousaybecauseyou’reapoor,weak,frightened,soft——"
"NotifIpullyourhairyouwon’t,"saidPhyllis,springingathim。
"Hesaid’Pax,’"saidBobbie,pullingheraway。"Don’tyousee,"
shewhisperedasPeterpickedupthebasketandstalkedoutwithit,"he’ssorry,really,onlyhewon’tsayso?Let’ssaywe’resorry。"
"It’ssogoodygoody,"saidPhyllis,doubtfully;"hesaidwewerefemalebeasts,andsoftandfrightened——"
"Thenlet’sshowhimwe’renotfrightenedofhimthinkingusgoodygoody,"saidBobbie;"andwe’renotanymorebeaststhanheis。"
AndwhenPetercameback,stillwithhischinintheair,Bobbiesaid:——
"We’resorrywetiedyouup,Pete。"
"Ithoughtyouwouldbe,"saidPeter,verystiffandsuperior。
Thiswashardtobear。But——
"Well,soweare,"saidBobbie。"Nowlethonourbesatisfiedonbothsides。"
"IdidcallitPax,"saidPeter,inaninjuredtone。
"ThenletitBEPax,"saidBobbie。"Comeon,Phil,let’sgetthetea。Pete,youmightlaythecloth。"
"Isay,"saidPhyllis,whenpeacewasreallyrestored,whichwasnottilltheywerewashingupthecupsaftertea,"Dr。Forrestdidn’tREALLYsaywewerefemalebeasts,didhe?"
"Yes,"saidPeter,firmly,"butIthinkhemeantwemenwerewildbeasts,too。"
"Howfunnyofhim!"saidPhyllis,breakingacup。
******
"MayIcomein,Mother?"PeterwasatthedoorofMother’swritingroom,whereMothersatathertablewithtwocandlesinfrontofher。Theirflameslookedorangeandvioletagainstthecleargreyblueoftheskywherealreadyafewstarsweretwinkling。
"Yes,dear,"saidMother,absently,"anythingwrong?"Shewroteafewmorewordsandthenlaiddownherpenandbegantofoldupwhatshehadwritten。"IwasjustwritingtoJim’sgrandfather。Helivesnearhere,youknow。"
"Yes,yousaidsoattea。That’swhatIwanttosay。Mustyouwritetohim,Mother?Couldn’twekeepJim,andnotsayanythingtohispeopletillhe’swell?Itwouldbesuchasurpriseforthem。"
"Well,yes,"saidMother,laughing,"Ithinkitwould。"
"Yousee,"Peterwenton,"ofcoursethegirlsareallrightandallthat——I’mnotsayinganythingagainstTHEM。ButIshouldlikeitifIhadanotherchaptotalktosometimes。"
"Yes,"saidMother,"Iknowit’sdullforyou,dear。ButIcan’thelpit。NextyearperhapsIcansendyoutoschool——you’dlikethat,wouldn’tyou?"
"Idomisstheotherchaps,rather,"Peterconfessed;"butifJimcouldstayafterhislegwaswell,wecouldhaveawfullarks。"
"I’venodoubtofit,"saidMother。"Well——perhapshecould,butyouknow,dear,we’renotrich。Ican’taffordtogethimeverythinghe’llwant。Andhemusthaveanurse。"
"Can’tyounursehim,Mother?Youdonursepeoplesobeautifully。"
"That’saprettycompliment,Pete——butIcan’tdonursingandmywritingaswell。That’stheworstofit。"
"ThenyouMUSTsendthelettertohisgrandfather?"
"Ofcourse——andtohisschoolmaster,too。Wetelegraphedtothemboth,butImustwriteaswell。They’llbemostdreadfullyanxious。"
"Isay,Mother,whycan’thisgrandfatherpayforanurse?"Petersuggested。"Thatwouldberipping。Iexpecttheoldboy’srollinginmoney。Grandfathersinbooksalwaysare。"
"Well,thisoneisn’tinabook,"saidMother,"sowemustn’texpecthimtorollmuch。"
"Isay,"saidPeter,musingly,"wouldn’titbejollyifweallWERE
inabook,andyouwerewritingit?Thenyoucouldmakeallsortsofjollythingshappen,andmakeJim’slegsgetwellatonceandbeallrightto—morrow,andFathercomehomesoonand——"
"DoyoumissyourFatherverymuch?"Motherasked,rathercoldly,Peterthought。
"Awfully,"saidPeter,briefly。
Motherwasenvelopingandaddressingthesecondletter。
"Yousee,"Peterwentonslowly,"yousee,it’snotonlyhimBEING
Father,butnowhe’sawaythere’snoothermaninthehousebutme——
that’swhyIwantJimtostaysofrightfullymuch。Wouldn’tyouliketobewritingthatbookwithusallinit,Mother,andmakeDaddycomehomesoon?"
Peter’sMotherputherarmroundhimsuddenly,andhuggedhiminsilenceforaminute。Thenshesaid:——
"Don’tyouthinkit’srathernicetothinkthatwe’reinabookthatGod’swriting?IfIwerewritingthebook,Imightmakemistakes。
ButGodknowshowtomakethestoryendjustright——inthewaythat’sbestforus。"
"Doyoureallybelievethat,Mother?"Peteraskedquietly。
"Yes,"shesaid,"Idobelieveit——almostalways——exceptwhenI’msosadthatIcan’tbelieveanything。ButevenwhenIcan’tbelieveit,Iknowit’strue——andItrytobelieve。Youdon’tknowhowI
try,Peter。Nowtaketheletterstothepost,anddon’tlet’sbesadanymore。Courage,courage!That’sthefinestofallthevirtues!IdaresayJimwillbeherefortwoorthreeweeksyet。"
ForwhatwasleftoftheeveningPeterwassoangelicthatBobbiefearedhewasgoingtobeill。ShewasquiterelievedinthemorningtofindhimplaitingPhyllis’shairontothebackofherchairinquitehisoldmanner。
Itwassoonafterbreakfastthataknockcameatthedoor。ThechildrenwerehardatworkcleaningthebrasscandlesticksinhonourofJim’svisit。
"That’llbetheDoctor,"saidMother;"I’llgo。Shutthekitchendoor——you’renotfittobeseen。"
Butitwasn’ttheDoctor。Theyknewthatbythevoiceandbythesoundofthebootsthatwentupstairs。Theydidnotrecognisethesoundoftheboots,buteveryonewascertainthattheyhadheardthevoicebefore。
Therewasalongishinterval。Thebootsandthevoicedidnotcomedownagain。
"Whocanitpossiblybe?"theykeptonaskingthemselvesandeachother。
"Perhaps,"saidPeteratlast,"Dr。Forresthasbeenattackedbyhighwaymenandleftfordead,andthisisthemanhe’stelegraphedfortotakehisplace。Mrs。Vineysaidhehadalocaltenanttodohisworkwhenhewentforaholiday,didn’tyou,Mrs。Viney?"
"Ididso,mydear,"saidMrs。Vineyfromthebackkitchen。
"He’sfallendowninafit,morelikely,saidPhyllis,"allhumanaiddespairedof。AndthisishismancometobreakthenewstoMother。"
"Nonsense!"saidPeter,briskly;"Motherwouldn’thavetakenthemanupintoJim’sbedroom。Whyshouldshe?Listen——thedoor’sopening。
Nowthey’llcomedown。I’llopenthedooracrack。"
Hedid。
"It’snotlistening,"herepliedindignantlytoBobbie’sscandalisedremarks;"nobodyintheirsenseswouldtalksecretsonthestairs。
AndMothercan’thavesecretstotalkwithDr。Forrest’sstable—man—
—andyousaiditwashim。"
"Bobbie,"calledMother’svoice。
Theyopenedthekitchendoor,andMotherleanedoverthestairrailing。
"Jim’sgrandfatherhascome,"shesaid;"washyourhandsandfacesandthenyoucanseehim。Hewantstoseeyou!"Thebedroomdoorshutagain。
"Therenow!"saidPeter;"fancyusnoteventhinkingofthat!Let’shavesomehotwater,Mrs。Viney。I’masblackasyourhat。"
Thethreewereindeeddirty,forthestuffyoucleanbrasscandlestickswithisveryfarfromcleaningtothecleaner。
Theywerestillbusywithsoapandflannelwhentheyheardthebootsandthevoicecomedownthestairsandgointothedining—room。Andwhentheywereclean,thoughstilldamp——becauseittakessuchalongtimetodryyourhandsproperly,andtheywereveryimpatienttoseethegrandfather——theyfiledintothedining—room。
Motherwassittinginthewindow—seat,andintheleather—coveredarmchairthatFatheralwaysusedtositinattheotherhousesat——
THEIROWNOLDGENTLEMAN!
"Well,Ineverdid,"saidPeter,evenbeforehesaid,"Howdoyoudo?"Hewas,asheexplainedafterwards,toosurprisedeventorememberthattherewassuchathingaspoliteness——muchlesstopractiseit。
"It’sourownoldgentleman!"saidPhyllis。
"Oh,it’syou!"saidBobbie。Andthentheyrememberedthemselvesandtheirmannersandsaid,"Howdoyoudo?"verynicely。
"ThisisJim’sgrandfather,Mr。——"saidMother,namingtheoldgentleman’sname。
"Howsplendid!"saidPeter;"that’sjustexactlylikeabook,isn’tit,Mother?"
"Itis,rather,"saidMother,smiling;"thingsdohappeninreallifethatareratherlikebooks,sometimes。"
"IamsoawfullygladitISyou,"saidPhyllis;"whenyouthinkofthetonsofoldgentlementhereareintheworld——itmighthavebeenalmostanyone。"
"Isay,though,"saidPeter,"you’renotgoingtotakeJimaway,though,areyou?"
"Notatpresent,"saidtheoldgentleman。"YourMotherhasmostkindlyconsentedtolethimstayhere。Ithoughtofsendinganurse,butyourMotherisgoodenoughtosaythatshewillnursehimherself。"
"Butwhataboutherwriting?"saidPeter,beforeanyonecouldstophim。"Therewon’tbeanythingforhimtoeatifMotherdoesn’twrite。"
"That’sallright,"saidMother,hastily。
TheoldgentlemanlookedverykindlyatMother。
"Isee,"hesaid,"youtrustyourchildren,andconfideinthem。"
"Ofcourse,"saidMother。
"ThenImaytellthemofourlittlearrangement,"hesaid。"YourMother,mydears,hasconsentedtogiveupwritingforalittlewhileandtobecomeaMatronofmyHospital。"
"Oh!"saidPhyllis,blankly;"andshallwehavetogoawayfromThreeChimneysandtheRailwayandeverything?"
"No,no,darling,"saidMother,hurriedly。
"TheHospitaliscalledThreeChimneysHospital,"saidtheoldgentleman,"andmyunluckyJim’stheonlypatient,andIhopehe’llcontinuetobeso。YourMotherwillbeMatron,andthere’llbeahospitalstaffofahousemaidandacook——tillJim’swell。"
"AndthenwillMothergoonwritingagain?"askedPeter。
"Weshallsee,"saidtheoldgentleman,withaslight,swiftglanceatBobbie;"perhapssomethingnicemayhappenandshewon’thaveto。"
"Ilovemywriting,"saidMother,veryquickly。
"Iknow,"saidtheoldgentleman;"don’tbeafraidthatI’mgoingtotrytointerfere。Butoneneverknows。Verywonderfulandbeautifulthingsdohappen,don’tthey?Andwelivemostofourlivesinthehopeofthem。Imaycomeagaintoseetheboy?"
"Surely,"saidMother,"andIdon’tknowhowtothankyouformakingitpossibleformetonursehim。Dearboy!"
"HekeptcallingMother,Mother,inthenight,"saidPhyllis。"I
wokeuptwiceandheardhim。"
"Hedidn’tmeanme,"saidMother,inalowvoicetotheoldgentleman;"that’swhyIwantedsomuchtokeephim。"
Theoldgentlemanrose。
"I’msoglad,"saidPeter,"thatyou’regoingtokeephim,Mother。"
"TakecareofyourMother,mydears,"saidtheoldgentleman。
"She’sawomaninamillion。"
"Yes,isn’tshe?"whisperedBobbie。
"Godblessher,"saidtheoldgentleman,takingbothMother’shands,"Godblessher!Ay,andsheshallbeblessed。Dearme,where’smyhat?WillBobbiecomewithmetothegate?"
Atthegatehestoppedandsaid:——
"You’reagoodchild,mydear——Igotyourletter。Butitwasn’tneeded。WhenIreadaboutyourFather’scaseinthepapersatthetime,Ihadmydoubts。AndeversinceI’veknownwhoyouwere,I’vebeentryingtofindoutthings。Ihaven’tdoneverymuchyet。ButIhavehopes,mydear——Ihavehopes。"
"Oh!"saidBobbie,chokingalittle。
"Yes——Imaysaygreathopes。Butkeepyoursecretalittlelonger。
Wouldn’tdotoupsetyourMotherwithafalsehope,wouldit?"
"Oh,butitisn’tfalse!"saidBobbie;"IKNOWyoucandoit。I
knewyoucouldwhenIwrote。Itisn’tafalsehope,isit?"
"No,"hesaid,"Idon’tthinkit’safalsehope,orIwouldn’thavetoldyou。AndIthinkyoudeservetobetoldthatthereISahope。"
"Andyoudon’tthinkFatherdidit,doyou?Oh,sayyoudon’tthinkhedid。"
"Mydear,"hesaid,"I’mperfectlyCERTAINhedidn’t。"
Ifitwasafalsehope,itwasnonethelessaveryradiantonethatlaywarmatBobbie’sheart,andthroughthedaysthatfollowedlightedherlittlefaceasaJapaneselanternislightedbythecandlewithin。
ChapterXIV。TheEnd。
LifeattheThreeChimneyswasneverquitethesameagainaftertheoldgentlemancametoseehisgrandson。Althoughtheynowknewhisname,thechildrenneverspokeofhimbyit——atanyrate,whentheywerebythemselves。Tothemhewasalwaystheoldgentleman,andI
thinkhehadbetterbetheoldgentlemantous,too。Itwouldn’tmakehimseemanymorerealtoyou,wouldit,ifIweretotellyouthathisnamewasSnooksorJenkins(whichitwasn’t)?——and,afterall,Imustbeallowedtokeeponesecret。It’stheonlyone;I
havetoldyoueverythingelse,exceptwhatIamgoingtotellyouinthischapter,whichisthelast。Atleast,ofcourse,Ihaven’ttoldyouEVERYTHING。IfIweretodothat,thebookwouldnevercometoanend,andthatwouldbeapity,wouldn’tit?
Well,asIwassaying,lifeatThreeChimneyswasneverquitethesameagain。Thecookandthehousemaidwereverynice(Idon’tmindtellingyoutheirnames——theywereClaraandEthelwyn),buttheytoldMothertheydidnotseemtowantMrs。Viney,andthatshewasanoldmuddler。SoMrs。Vineycameonlytwodaysaweektodowashingandironing。ThenClaraandEthelwynsaidtheycoulddotheworkallrightiftheyweren’tinterferedwith,andthatmeantthatthechildrennolongergottheteaandcleareditawayandwashedupthetea—thingsanddustedtherooms。
Thiswouldhaveleftquiteablankintheirlives,althoughtheyhadoftenpretendedtothemselvesandtoeachotherthattheyhatedhousework。ButnowthatMotherhadnowritingandnohouseworktodo,shehadtimeforlessons。Andlessonsthechildrenhadtodo。
Howevernicethepersonwhoisteachingyoumaybe,lessonsarelessonsalltheworldover,andattheirbestareworsefunthanpeelingpotatoesorlightingafire。
Ontheotherhand,ifMothernowhadtimeforlessons,shealsohadtimeforplay,andtomakeuplittlerhymesforthechildrenassheusedtodo。ShehadnothadmuchtimeforrhymessinceshecametoThreeChimneys。
Therewasoneveryoddthingabouttheselessons。Whateverthechildrenweredoing,theyalwayswantedtobedoingsomethingelse。
WhenPeterwasdoinghisLatin,hethoughtitwouldbenicetobelearningHistorylikeBobbie。BobbiewouldhavepreferredArithmetic,whichwaswhatPhyllishappenedtobedoing,andPhyllisofcoursethoughtLatinmuchthemostinterestingkindoflesson。
Andsoon。
So,oneday,whentheysatdowntolessons,eachofthemfoundalittlerhymeatitsplace。IputtherhymesintoshowyouthattheirMotherreallydidunderstandalittlehowchildrenfeelaboutthings,andalsothekindofwordstheyuse,whichisthecasewithveryfewgrown—uppeople。Isupposemostgrown—upshaveverybadmemories,andhaveforgottenhowtheyfeltwhentheywerelittle。
Ofcourse,theversesaresupposedtobespokenbythechildren。
PETER
IoncethoughtCaesareasypap——
HowverysoftImusthavebeen!
WhentheystartCaesarwithachapHelittleknowwhatthatwillmean。
Oh,verbsaresillystupidthings。
I’dratherlearnthedatesofkings!
BOBBIE
TheworstofallmylessonthingsIslearningwhosucceededwhoInalltherowsofqueensandkings,Withdatestoeverythingtheydo:
Withdatesenoughtomakeyousick;——
IwishitwasArithmetic!
PHYLLIS
SuchpoundsandpoundsofapplesfillMyslate——whatisthepriceyou’dspend?
YouscratchthefiguresoutuntilYoucryuponthedividend。
I’dbreaktheslateandscreamforjoyIfIdidLatinlikeaboy!
Thiskindofthing,ofcourse,madelessonsmuchjollier。Itissomethingtoknowthatthepersonwhoisteachingyouseesthatitisnotallplainsailingforyou,anddoesnotthinkthatitisjustyourstupidnessthatmakesyounotknowyourlessonstillyou’velearnedthem!
ThenasJim’sleggotbetteritwasverypleasanttogoupandsitwithhimandheartalesabouthisschoollifeandtheotherboys。
Therewasoneboy,namedParr,ofwhomJimseemedtohaveformedthelowestpossibleopinion,andanotherboynamedWigsbyMinor,forwhoseviewsJimhadagreatrespect。AlsotherewerethreebrothersnamedPaley,andtheyoungestwascalledPaleyTerts,andwasmuchgiventofighting。
Peterdrankinallthiswithdeepjoy,andMotherseemedtohavelistenedwithsomeinterest,foronedayshegaveJimasheetofpaperonwhichshehadwrittenarhymeaboutParr,bringinginPaleyandWigsbybynameinamostwonderfulway,aswellasallthereasonsJimhadfornotlikingParr,andWigsby’swiseopiniononthematter。Jimwasimmenselypleased。Hehadneverhadarhymewrittenexpresslyforhimbefore。HereadittillheknewitbyheartandthenhesentittoWigsby,wholikeditalmostasmuchasJimdid。Perhapsyoumaylikeit,too。
THENEWBOY
HisnameisParr:hesaysthatheIsgivenbreadandmilkfortea。
Hesayshisfatherkilledabear。
Hesayshismothercutshishair。
Hewearsgolosheswhenit’swet。
I’veheardhispeoplecallhim"Pet"!
Hehasnopropersenseofshame;
HetoldthechapshisChristianname。
Hecannotwicket—keepatall,He’sfrightenedofacricketball。
Hereadsindoorsforhoursandhours。
Heknowsthenamesofbeastlyflowers。
HesayshisFrenchjustlikeMossoo——
Abeastlystuck—upthingtodo——
Hewon’tkeep_cave_,shirkshisturnAndsayshecametoschooltolearn!
Hewon’tplayfootball,saysithurts;
Hewouldn’tfightwithPaleyTerts;
Hecouldn’twhistleifhetried,Andwhenwelaughedathimhecried!
NowWigsbyMinorsaysthatParrIsonlylikeallnewboysare。
Iknowwhen_I_firstcametoschoolIwasn’tsuchajollyfool!
JimcouldneverunderstandhowMothercouldhavebeencleverenoughtodoit。Totheothersitseemednice,butnatural。Youseetheyhadalwaysbeenusedtohavingamotherwhocouldwriteversesjustlikethewaypeopletalk,eventotheshockingexpressionattheendoftherhyme,whichwasJim’sveryown。
JimtaughtPetertoplaychessanddraughtsanddominoes,andaltogetheritwasanicequiettime。
OnlyJim’sleggotbetterandbetter,andageneralfeelingbegantospringupamongBobbie,Peter,andPhyllisthatsomethingoughttobedonetoamusehim;notjustgames,butsomethingreallyhandsome。
Butitwasextraordinarilydifficulttothinkofanything。
"It’snogood,"saidPeter,whenallofthemhadthoughtandthoughttilltheirheadsfeltquiteheavyandswollen;"ifwecan’tthinkofanythingtoamusehim,wejustcan’t,andthere’sanendofit。
Perhapssomethingwilljusthappenofitsownaccordthathe’lllike。"
"ThingsDOhappenbythemselvessometimes,withoutyourmakingthem,"saidPhyllis,ratherasthough,usually,everythingthathappenedintheworldwasherdoing。
"Iwishsomethingwouldhappen,"saidBobbie,dreamily,"somethingwonderful。"
Andsomethingwonderfuldidhappenexactlyfourdaysaftershehadsaidthis。IwishIcouldsayitwasthreedaysafter,becauseinfairytalesitisalwaysthreedaysafterthatthingshappen。Butthisisnotafairystory,andbesides,itreallywasfourandnotthree,andIamnothingifnotstrictlytruthful。
TheyseemedtobehardlyRailwaychildrenatallinthosedays,andasthedayswentoneachhadanuneasyfeelingaboutthiswhichPhyllisexpressedoneday。
"IwonderiftheRailwaymissesus,"shesaid,plaintively。"Wenevergotoseeitnow。"
"Itseemsungrateful,"saidBobbie;"weloveditsowhenwehadn’tanyoneelsetoplaywith。"
"PerksisalwayscominguptoaskafterJim,"saidPeter,"andthesignalman’slittleboyisbetter。Hetoldmeso。"
"Ididn’tmeanthepeople,"explainedPhyllis;"ImeantthedearRailwayitself。"
"ThethingIdon’tlike,"saidBobbie,onthisfourthday,whichwasaTuesday,"isourhavingstoppedwavingtothe9。15andsendingourlovetoFatherbyit。"
"Let’sbeginagain,"saidPhyllis。Andtheydid。
SomehowthechangeofeverythingthatwasmadebyhavingservantsinthehouseandMothernotdoinganywriting,madethetimeseemextremelylongsincethatstrangemorningatthebeginningofthings,whentheyhadgotupsoearlyandburntthebottomoutofthekettleandhadapplepieforbreakfastandfirstseentheRailway。
ItwasSeptembernow,andtheturfontheslopetotheRailwaywasdryandcrisp。Littlelonggrassspikesstooduplikebitsofgoldwire,frailblueharebellstrembledontheirtough,slenderstalks,Gipsyrosesopenedwideandflattheirlilac—coloureddiscs,andthegoldenstarsofSt。John’sWortshoneattheedgesofthepoolthatlayhalfwaytotheRailway。Bobbiegatheredageneroushandfuloftheflowersandthoughthowprettytheywouldlooklyingonthegreen—and—pinkblanketofsilk—wastethatnowcoveredJim’spoorbrokenleg。
"Hurryup,"saidPeter,"orweshallmissthe9。15!"
"Ican’thurrymorethanIamdoing,"saidPhyllis。"Oh,botherit!
MybootlacehascomeundoneAGAIN!"
"Whenyou’remarried,"saidPeter,"yourbootlacewillcomeundonegoingupthechurchaisle,andyourmanthatyou’regoingtogetmarriedtowilltumbleoveritandsmashhisnoseinontheornamentedpavement;andthenyou’llsayyouwon’tmarryhim,andyou’llhavetobeanoldmaid。"
"Ishan’t,"saidPhyllis。"I’dmuchrathermarryamanwithhisnosesmashedinthannotmarryanybody。"
"Itwouldbehorridtomarryamanwithasmashednose,allthesame,"wentonBobbie。"Hewouldn’tbeabletosmelltheflowersatthewedding。Wouldn’tthatbeawful!"
"Bothertheflowersatthewedding!"criedPeter。"Look!thesignal’sdown。Wemustrun!"
Theyran。Andoncemoretheywavedtheirhandkerchiefs,withoutatallmindingwhetherthehandkerchiefswerecleanornot,tothe9。15。
"TakeourlovetoFather!"criedBobbie。Andtheothers,too,shouted:——
"TakeourlovetoFather!"
Theoldgentlemanwavedfromhisfirst—classcarriagewindow。Quiteviolentlyhewaved。Andtherewasnothingoddinthat,forhealwayshadwaved。Butwhatwasreallyremarkablewasthatfromeverywindowhandkerchiefsfluttered,newspaperssignalled,handswavedwildly。Thetrainsweptbywitharustleandroar,thelittlepebblesjumpedanddancedunderitasitpassed,andthechildrenwereleftlookingateachother。
"Well!"saidPeter。
"WELL!"saidBobbie。
"_WELL!_"saidPhyllis。
"Whateveronearthdoesthatmean?"askedPeter,buthedidnotexpectanyanswer。
"_I_don’tknow,"saidBobbie。"Perhapstheoldgentlemantoldthepeopleathisstationtolookoutforusandwave。Heknewweshouldlikeit!"
Now,curiouslyenough,thiswasjustwhathadhappened。Theoldgentleman,whowasverywellknownandrespectedathisparticularstation,hadgotthereearlythatmorning,andhehadwaitedatthedoorwheretheyoungmanstandsholdingtheinterestingmachinethatclipsthetickets,andhehadsaidsomethingtoeverysinglepassengerwhopassedthroughthatdoor。Andafternoddingtowhattheoldgentlemanhadsaid——andthenodsexpressedeveryshadeofsurprise,interest,doubt,cheerfulpleasure,andgrumpyagreement——
eachpassengerhadgoneontotheplatformandreadonecertainpartofhisnewspaper。Andwhenthepassengersgotintothetrain,theyhadtoldtheotherpassengerswhowerealreadytherewhattheoldgentlemanhadsaid,andthentheotherpassengershadalsolookedattheirnewspapersandseemedveryastonishedand,mostly,pleased。
Then,whenthetrainpassedthefencewherethethreechildrenwere,newspapersandhandsandhandkerchiefswerewavedmadly,tillallthatsideofthetrainwasflutterywithwhitelikethepicturesoftheKing’sCoronationinthebiographatMaskelyneandCook’s。Tothechildrenitalmostseemedasthoughthetrainitselfwasalive,andwasatlastrespondingtothelovethattheyhadgivenitsofreelyandsolong。
"Itismostextraordinarilyrum!"saidPeter。
"Moststronery!"echoedPhyllis。
ButBobbiesaid,"Don’tyouthinktheoldgentleman’swavesseemedmoresignificatingthanusual?"
"No,"saidtheothers。
"Ido,"saidBobbie。"Ithoughthewastryingtoexplainsomethingtouswithhisnewspaper。"
"Explainwhat?"askedPeter,notunnaturally。
"_I_don’tknow,"Bobbieanswered,"butIdofeelmostawfullyfunny。Ifeeljustexactlyasifsomethingwasgoingtohappen。"
"Whatisgoingtohappen,"saidPeter,"isthatPhyllis’sstockingisgoingtocomedown。"
Thiswasbuttootrue。Thesuspenderhadgivenwayintheagitationofthewavestothe9。15。Bobbie’shandkerchiefservedasfirstaidtotheinjured,andtheyallwenthome。
LessonsweremorethanusuallydifficulttoBobbiethatday。
Indeed,shedisgracedherselfsodeeplyoveraquitesimplesumaboutthedivisionof48poundsofmeatand36poundsofbreadamong144hungrychildrenthatMotherlookedatheranxiously。
"Don’tyoufeelquitewell,dear?"sheasked。
"Idon’tknow,"wasBobbie’sunexpectedanswer。"Idon’tknowhowI
feel。Itisn’tthatI’mlazy。Mother,willyouletmeofflessonsto—day?IfeelasifIwantedtobequitealonebymyself。"
"Yes,ofcourseI’llletyouoff,"saidMother;"but——"
Bobbiedroppedherslate。Itcrackedjustacrossthelittlegreenmarkthatissousefulfordrawingpatternsround,anditwasneverthesameslateagain。Withoutwaitingtopickitupshebolted。
Mothercaughtherinthehallfeelingblindlyamongthewaterproofsandumbrellasforhergardenhat。
"Whatisit,mysweetheart?"saidMother。"Youdon’tfeelill,doyou?"
"IDON’Tknow,"Bobbieanswered,alittlebreathlessly,"butIwanttobebymyselfandseeifmyheadreallyISallsillyandmyinsideallsquirmy—twisty。"
"Hadn’tyoubetterliedown?"Mothersaid,strokingherhairbackfromherforehead。
"I’dbemorealiveinthegarden,Ithink,"saidBobbie。
Butshecouldnotstayinthegarden。Thehollyhocksandtheastersandthelaterosesallseemedtobewaitingforsomethingtohappen。
Itwasoneofthosestill,shinyautumndays,wheneverythingdoesseemtobewaiting。
Bobbiecouldnotwait。
"I’llgodowntothestation,"shesaid,"andtalktoPerksandaskaboutthesignalman’slittleboy。"
Soshewentdown。OnthewayshepassedtheoldladyfromthePost—
office,whogaveherakissandahug,but,rathertoBobbie’ssurprise,nowordsexcept:——
"Godblessyou,love——"and,afterapause,"runalong——do。"
Thedraper’sboy,whohadsometimesbeenalittlelessthancivilandalittlemorethancontemptuous,nowtouchedhiscap,andutteredtheremarkablewords:——
"’Morning,Miss,I’msure——"
Theblacksmith,comingalongwithanopennewspaperinhishand,wasevenmorestrangeinhismanner。Hegrinnedbroadly,though,asarule,hewasamannotgiventosmiles,andwavedthenewspaperlongbeforehecameuptoher。Andashepassedher,hesaid,inanswertoher"Goodmorning":——
"Goodmorningtoyou,Missie,andmanyofthem!Iwishyoujoy,thatIdo!"
"Oh!"saidBobbietoherself,andherheartquickeneditsbeats,"somethingISgoingtohappen!Iknowitis——everyoneissoodd,likepeopleareindreams。"
TheStationMasterwrungherhandwarmly。Infactheworkeditupanddownlikeapump—handle。Buthegavehernoreasonforthisunusuallyenthusiasticgreeting。Heonlysaid:——
"The11。54’sabitlate,Miss——theextraluggagethisholidaytime,"
andwentawayveryquicklyintothatinnerTempleofhisintowhichevenBobbiedarednotfollowhim。
Perkswasnottobeseen,andBobbiesharedthesolitudeoftheplatformwiththeStationCat。Thistortoiseshelllady,usuallyofaretiringdisposition,cameto—daytorubherselfagainstthebrownstockingsofBobbiewitharchedback,wavingtail,andreverberatingpurrs。
"Dearme!"saidBobbie,stoopingtostrokeher,"howverykindeverybodyisto—day——evenyou,Pussy!"
Perksdidnotappearuntilthe11。54wassignalled,andthenhe,likeeverybodyelsethatmorning,hadanewspaperinhishand。
"Hullo!"hesaid,"’ereyouare。Well,ifTHISisthetrain,it’llbesmartwork!Well,Godblessyou,mydear!Iseeitinthepaper,andIdon’tthinkIwaseversogladofanythinginallmyborndays!"HelookedatBobbieamoment,thensaid,"OneImusthave,Miss,andnooffence,Iknow,onadaylikethis’ere!"andwiththathekissedher,firstononecheekandthenontheother。
"Youain’toffended,areyou?"heaskedanxiously。"Iain’ttooktoogreataliberty?Onadaylikethis,youknow——"
"No,no,"saidBobbie,"ofcourseit’snotaliberty,dearMr。
Perks;weloveyouquiteasmuchasifyouwereanuncleofours——
but——onadaylikeWHAT?"
"Likethis’ere!"saidPerks。"Don’tItellyouIseeitinthepaper?"
"SawWHATinthepaper?"askedBobbie,butalreadythe11。54wassteamingintothestationandtheStationMasterwaslookingatalltheplaceswherePerkswasnotandoughttohavebeen。
Bobbiewasleftstandingalone,theStationCatwatchingherfromunderthebenchwithfriendlygoldeneyes。
Ofcourseyouknowalreadyexactlywhatwasgoingtohappen。Bobbiewasnotsoclever。Shehadthevague,confused,expectantfeelingthatcomestoone’sheartindreams。WhatherheartexpectedI
can’ttell——perhapstheverythingthatyouandIknowwasgoingtohappen——buthermindexpectednothing;itwasalmostblank,andfeltnothingbuttirednessandstupidnessandanemptyfeeling,likeyourbodyhaswhenyouhavebeenalongwalkanditisveryfarindeedpastyourproperdinner—time。
Onlythreepeoplegotoutofthe11。54。Thefirstwasacountrymanwithtwobasketyboxesfulloflivechickenswhostucktheirrussetheadsoutanxiouslythroughthewickerbars;thesecondwasMissPeckitt,thegrocer’swife’scousin,withatinboxandthreebrown—
paperparcels;andthethird——
"Oh!myDaddy,myDaddy!"Thatscreamwentlikeaknifeintotheheartofeveryoneinthetrain,andpeopleputtheirheadsoutofthewindowstoseeatallpalemanwithlipssetinathincloseline,andalittlegirlclingingtohimwitharmsandlegs,whilehisarmswenttightlyroundher。
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"Iknewsomethingwonderfulwasgoingtohappen,"saidBobbie,astheywentuptheroad,"butIdidn’tthinkitwasgoingtobethis。
Oh,myDaddy,myDaddy!"
"Thendidn’tMothergetmyletter?"Fatherasked。
"Thereweren’tanylettersthismorning。Oh!Daddy!itISreallyyou,isn’tit?"
Theclaspofahandshehadnotforgottenassuredherthatitwas。
"Youmustgoinbyyourself,Bobbie,andtellMotherquitequietlythatit’sallright。They’vecaughtthemanwhodidit。Everyoneknowsnowthatitwasn’tyourDaddy。"
"_I_alwaysknewitwasn’t,"saidBobbie。"MeandMotherandouroldgentleman。"
"Yes,"hesaid,"it’sallhisdoing。Motherwroteandtoldmeyouhadfoundout。Andshetoldmewhatyou’dbeentoher。Myownlittlegirl!"Theystoppedaminutethen。
AndnowIseethemcrossingthefield。Bobbiegoesintothehouse,tryingtokeephereyesfromspeakingbeforeherlipshavefoundtherightwordsto"tellMotherquitequietly"thatthesorrowandthestruggleandthepartingareoveranddone,andthatFatherhascomehome。
IseeFatherwalkinginthegarden,waiting——waiting。Heislookingattheflowers,andeachflowerisamiracletoeyesthatallthesemonthsofSpringandSummerhaveseenonlyflagstonesandgravelandalittlegrudginggrass。Buthiseyeskeepturningtowardsthehouse。Andpresentlyheleavesthegardenandgoestostandoutsidethenearestdoor。Itisthebackdoor,andacrosstheyardtheswallowsarecircling。Theyaregettingreadytoflyawayfromcoldwindsandkeenfrosttothelandwhereitisalwayssummer。Theyarethesameswallowsthatthechildrenbuiltthelittleclaynestsfor。
Nowthehousedooropens。Bobbie’svoicecalls:——
"Comein,Daddy;comein!"
Hegoesinandthedoorisshut。Ithinkwewillnotopenthedoororfollowhim。Ithinkthatjustnowwearenotwantedthere。I
thinkitwillbebestforustogoquicklyandquietlyaway。Attheendofthefield,amongthethingoldspikesofgrassandtheharebellsandGipsyrosesandSt。John’sWort,wemayjusttakeonelastlook,overourshoulders,atthewhitehousewhereneitherwenoranyoneelseiswantednow。