Hewonderedwhatthosemenhadeatenthattheycouldbeinsuchhastetoforcetheirwaytogrimchancesofdeath。Ashewatchedhisenvygrewuntilhethoughtthathewishedtochangeliveswithoneofthem。Hewouldhavelikedtohaveusedatremendousforce,hesaid,throwoffhimselfandbecomeabetter。Swiftpicturesofhimself,apart,yetinhimself,cametohim——abluedesperatefigureleadingluridchargeswithonekneeforwardandabrokenbladehigh——ablue,determinedfigurestandingbeforeacrimsonandsteelassault,gettingcalmlykilledonahighplacebeforetheeyesofall。Hethoughtofthemagnificentpathosofhisdeadbody。
  Thesethoughtsupliftedhim。Hefeltthequiverofwardesire。Inhisears,heheardtheringofvictory。Heknewthefrenzyofarapidsuccessfulcharge。Themusicofthetramplingfeet,thesharpvoices,theclankingarmsofthecolumnnearhimmadehimsoarontheredwingsofwar。Forafewmomentshewassublime。
  Hethoughtthathewasabouttostartforthefront。Indeed,hesawapictureofhimself,dust—
  stained,haggard,panting,flyingtothefrontatthepropermomenttoseizeandthrottlethedark,leeringwitchofcalamity。
  Thenthedifficultiesofthethingbegantodragathim。Hehesitated,balancingawkwardlyononefoot。
  Hehadnorifle;hecouldnotfightwithhishands,saidheresentfullytohisplan。Well,riflescouldbehadforthepicking。Theywereextraordinarilyprofuse。
  Also,hecontinued,itwouldbeamiracleifhefoundhisregiment。Well,hecouldfightwithanyregiment。
  Hestartedforwardslowly。Hesteppedasifheexpectedtotreaduponsomeexplosivething。
  Doubtsandhewerestruggling。
  Hewouldtrulybeawormifanyofhiscom—
  radesshouldseehimreturningthus,themarksofhisflightuponhim。Therewasareplythattheintentfightersdidnotcareforwhathappenedrearwardsavingthatnohostilebayonetsap—
  pearedthere。Inthebattle—blurhisfacewould,inawaybehidden,likethefaceofacowledman。
  Butthenhesaidthathistirelessfatewouldbringforth,whenthestrifelulledforamoment,amantoaskofhimanexplanation。Inimagina—
  tionhefeltthescrutinyofhiscompanionsashepainfullylaboredthroughsomelies。
  Eventually,hiscourageexpendeditselfupontheseobjections。Thedebatesdrainedhimofhisfire。
  Hewasnotcastdownbythisdefeatofhisplan,for,uponstudyingtheaffaircarefully,hecouldnotbutadmitthattheobjectionswereveryformidable。
  Furthermore,variousailmentshadbeguntocryout。Intheirpresencehecouldnotpersistinflyinghighwiththewingsofwar;theyrendereditalmostimpossibleforhimtoseehim—
  selfinaheroiclight。Hetumbledheadlong。
  Hediscoveredthathehadascorchingthirst。
  Hisfacewassodryandgrimythathethoughthecouldfeelhisskincrackle。Eachboneofhisbodyhadanacheinit,andseeminglythreatenedtobreakwitheachmovement。Hisfeetwereliketwosores。Also,hisbodywascallingforfood。Itwasmorepowerfulthanadirecthunger。
  Therewasadull,weightlikefeelinginhisstom—
  ach,and,whenhetriedtowalk,hisheadswayedandhetottered。Hecouldnotseewithdistinct—
  ness。Smallpatchesofgreenmistfloatedbeforehisvision。
  Whilehehadbeentossedbymanyemotions,hehadnotbeenawareofailments。Nowtheybesethimandmadeclamor。Ashewasatlastcompelledtopayattentiontothem,hiscapacityforself—hatewasmultiplied。Indespair,hedeclaredthathewasnotlikethoseothers。Henowconcededittobeimpossiblethatheshouldeverbecomeahero。Hewasacravenloon。
  Thosepicturesofglorywerepiteousthings。Hegroanedfromhisheartandwentstaggeringoff。
  Acertainmothlikequalitywithinhimkepthiminthevicinityofthebattle。Hehadagreatdesiretosee,andtogetnews。Hewishedtoknowwhowaswinning。
  Hetoldhimselfthat,despitehisunprecedentedsuffering,hehadneverlosthisgreedforavictory,yet,hesaid,inahalf—apologeticmannertohisconscience,hecouldnotbutknowthatadefeatforthearmythistimemightmeanmanyfavor—
  ablethingsforhim。Theblowsoftheenemywouldsplinterregimentsintofragments。Thus,manymenofcourage,heconsidered,wouldbeobligedtodesertthecolorsandscurrylikechickens。Hewouldappearasoneofthem。
  Theywouldbesullenbrothersindistress,andhecouldtheneasilybelievehehadnotrunanyfartherorfasterthanthey。Andifhehimselfcouldbelieveinhisvirtuousperfection,hecon—
  ceivedthattherewouldbesmalltroubleincon—
  vincingallothers。
  Hesaid,asifinexcuseforthishope,thatpreviouslythearmyhadencounteredgreatdefeatsandinafewmonthshadshakenoffallbloodandtraditionofthem,emergingasbrightandvaliantasanewone;thrustingoutofsightthememoryofdisaster,andappearingwiththevalorandconfidenceofunconqueredlegions。
  Theshrillingvoicesofthepeopleathomewouldpipedismallyforatime,butvariousgeneralswereusuallycompelledtolistentotheseditties。
  Heofcoursefeltnocompunctionsforproposingageneralasasacrifice。Hecouldnottellwhothechosenforthebarbsmightbe,sohecouldcenternodirectsympathyuponhim。Thepeoplewereafarandhedidnotconceivepublicopiniontobeaccurateatlongrange。Itwasquiteprobabletheywouldhitthewrongmanwho,afterhehadrecoveredfromhisamazementwouldperhapsspendtherestofhisdaysinwrit—
  ingrepliestothesongsofhisallegedfailure。Itwouldbeveryunfortunate,nodoubt,butinthiscaseageneralwasofnoconsequencetotheyouth。
  Inadefeattherewouldbearoundaboutvindicationofhimself。Hethoughtitwouldprove,inamanner,thathehadfledearlybecauseofhissuperiorpowersofperception。Aseriousprophetuponpredictingafloodshouldbethefirstmantoclimbatree。Thiswoulddemon—
  stratethathewasindeedaseer。
  Amoralvindicationwasregardedbytheyouthasaveryimportantthing。Withoutsalve,hecouldnot,hethought,wearthesorebadgeofhisdishonorthroughlife。Withhisheartcon—
  tinuallyassuringhimthathewasdespicable,hecouldnotexistwithoutmakingit,throughhisactions,apparenttoallmen。
  Ifthearmyhadgonegloriouslyonhewouldbelost。Ifthedinmeantthatnowhisarmy’sflagsweretiltedforwardhewasacondemnedwretch。Hewouldbecompelledtodoomhimselftoisolation。Ifthemenwereadvancing,theirindifferentfeetweretramplinguponhischancesforasuccessfullife。
  Asthesethoughtswentrapidlythroughhismind,heturneduponthemandtriedtothrustthemaway。Hedenouncedhimselfasavillain。
  Hesaidthathewasthemostunutterablyselfishmaninexistence。Hismindpicturedthesoldierswhowouldplacetheirdefiantbodiesbeforethespearoftheyellingbattlefiend,andashesawtheirdrippingcorpsesonanimaginedfield,hesaidthathewastheirmurderer。
  Againhethoughtthathewishedhewasdead。
  Hebelievedthatheenviedacorpse。Thinkingoftheslain,heachievedagreatcontemptforsomeofthem,asiftheywereguiltyforthusbecominglifeless。Theymighthavebeenkilledbyluckychances,hesaid,beforetheyhadhadopportunitiestofleeorbeforetheyhadbeenreallytested。Yettheywouldreceivelaurelsfromtradition。Hecriedoutbitterlythattheircrownswerestolenandtheirrobesofglori—
  ousmemorieswereshams。However,hestillsaidthatitwasagreatpityhewasnotasthey。
  Adefeatofthearmyhadsuggesteditselftohimasameansofescapefromtheconsequencesofhisfall。Heconsidered,now,however,thatitwasuselesstothinkofsuchapossibility。Hiseducationhadbeenthatsuccessforthatmightybluemachinewascertain;thatitwouldmakevictoriesasacontrivanceturnsoutbuttons。Hepresentlydiscardedallhisspeculationsintheotherdirection。Hereturnedtothecreedofsoldiers。
  Whenheperceivedagainthatitwasnotpossibleforthearmytobedefeated,hetriedtobethinkhimofafinetalewhichhecouldtakebacktohisregiment,andwithitturntheexpectedshaftsofderision。
  But,ashemortallyfearedtheseshafts,itbecameimpossibleforhimtoinventatalehefelthecouldtrust。Heexperimentedwithmanyschemes,butthrewthemasideonebyoneasflimsy。Hewasquicktoseevulnerableplacesinthemall。
  Furthermore,hewasmuchafraidthatsomearrowofscornmightlayhimmentallylowbeforehecouldraisehisprotectingtale。
  Heimaginedthewholeregimentsaying:
  "Where’sHenryFleming?Herun,didn’t’e?
  Oh,my!"Herecalledvariouspersonswhowouldbequitesuretoleavehimnopeaceaboutit。Theywoulddoubtlessquestionhimwithsneers,andlaughathisstammeringhesi—
  tation。Inthenextengagementtheywouldtrytokeepwatchofhimtodiscoverwhenhewouldrun。
  Whereverhewentincamp,hewoulden—
  counterinsolentandlingeringlycruelstares。Asheimaginedhimselfpassingnearacrowdofcomrades,hecouldhearsomeonesay,"Therehegoes!"
  Then,asiftheheadsweremovedbyonemuscle,allthefaceswereturnedtowardhimwithwide,derisivegrins。Heseemedtohearsomeonemakeahumorousremarkinalowtone。
  Atittheothersallcrowedandcackled。Hewasaslangphrase。
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  CHAPTERXII。
  THEcolumnthathadbuttedstoutlyattheobstaclesintheroadwaywasbarelyoutoftheyouth’ssightbeforehesawdarkwavesofmencomesweepingoutofthewoodsanddownthroughthefields。Heknewatoncethatthesteelfibershadbeenwashedfromtheirhearts。
  Theywereburstingfromtheircoatsandtheirequipmentsasfromentanglements。Theychargeddownuponhimliketerrifiedbuffaloes。
  Behindthembluesmokecurledandcloudedabovethetreetops,andthroughthethicketshecouldsometimesseeadistantpinkglare。Thevoicesofthecannonwereclamoringinintermi—
  nablechorus。
  Theyouthwashorrorstricken。Hestaredinagonyandamazement。Heforgotthathewasengagedincombatingtheuniverse。Hethrewasidehismentalpamphletsonthephiloso—
  phyoftheretreatedandrulesfortheguidanceofthedamned。
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  Thefightwaslost。Thedragonswerecom—
  ingwithinvinciblestrides。Thearmy,helplessinthemattedthicketsandblindedbytheover—
  hangingnight,wasgoingtobeswallowed。War,theredanimal,war,theblood—swollengod,wouldhavebloatedfill。
  Withinhimsomethingbadetocryout。Hehadtheimpulsetomakearallyingspeech,tosingabattlehymn,buthecouldonlygethistonguetocallintotheair:"Why——why——what——what’sth’matter?"
  Soonhewasinthemidstofthem。Theywereleapingandscamperingallabouthim。
  Theirblanchedfacesshoneinthedusk。Theyseemed,forthemostpart,tobeveryburlymen。
  Theyouthturnedfromonetoanotherofthemastheygallopedalong。Hisincoherentquestionswerelost。Theywereheedlessofhisappeals。
  Theydidnotseemtoseehim。
  Theysometimesgabbledinsanely。Onehugemanwasaskingofthesky:"Say,wheredeplankroad?Wheredeplankroad!"Itwasasifhehadlostachild。Heweptinhispainanddismay。
  Presently,menwererunninghitherandthitherinallways。Theartillerybooming,forward,rearward,andontheflanksmadejumbleofideasofdirection。Landmarkshadvanishedintothegatheredgloom。Theyouthbegantoimaginethathehadgotintothecenterofthetremendousquarrel,andhecouldperceivenowayoutofit。Fromthemouthsofthefleeingmencameathousandwildquestions,butnoonemadeanswers。
  Theyouth,afterrushingaboutandthrowinginterrogationsattheheedlessbandsofretreatinginfantry,finallyclutchedamanbythearm。Theyswungaroundfacetoface。
  "Why——why——"stammeredtheyouthstrug—
  glingwithhisbalkingtongue。
  Themanscreamed:"Letgome!Letgome!"Hisfacewaslividandhiseyeswereroll—
  inguncontrolled。Hewasheavingandpanting。
  Hestillgraspedhisrifle,perhapshavingfor—
  gottentoreleasehisholduponit。Hetuggedfrantically,andtheyouthbeingcompelledtoleanforwardwasdraggedseveralpaces。
  "Letgome!Letgome!"
  "Why——why——"stutteredtheyouth。
  "Well,then!"bawledthemaninaluridrage。Headroitlyandfiercelyswunghisrifle。
  Itcrushedupontheyouth’shead。Themanranon。
  Theyouth’sfingershadturnedtopasteupontheother’sarm。Theenergywassmittenfromhismuscles。Hesawtheflamingwingsoflight—
  ningflashbeforehisvision。Therewasadeaf—
  eningrumbleofthunderwithinhishead。
  Suddenlyhislegsseemedtodie。Hesankwrithingtotheground。Hetriedtoarise。Inhiseffortsagainstthenumbingpainhewaslikeamanwrestlingwithacreatureoftheair。
  Therewasasinisterstruggle。
  Sometimeshewouldachieveapositionhalferect,battlewiththeairforamoment,andthenfallagain,grabbingatthegrass。Hisfacewasofaclammypallor。Deepgroanswerewrenchedfromhim。
  Atlast,withatwistingmovement,hegotuponhishandsandknees,andfromthence,likeababetryingtowalk,tohisfeet。Pressinghishandstohistempleshewentlurchingoverthegrass。
  Hefoughtanintensebattlewithhisbody。
  Hisdulledsenseswishedhimtoswoonandheopposedthemstubbornly,hismindportrayingunknowndangersandmutilationsifheshouldfalluponthefield。Hewenttallsoldierfashion。
  Heimaginedsecludedspotswherehecouldfallandbeunmolested。Tosearchforonehestroveagainstthetideofhispain。
  Onceheputhishandtothetopofhisheadandtimidlytouchedthewound。Thescratchingpainofthecontactmadehimdrawalongbreaththroughhisclinchedteeth。Hisfingersweredabbledwithblood。Heregardedthemwithafixedstare。
  Aroundhimhecouldhearthegrumbleofjoltedcannonasthescurryinghorseswerelashedtowardthefront。Once,ayoungofficeronabesplashedchargernearlyranhimdown。Heturnedandwatchedthemassofguns,men,andhorsessweepinginawidecurvetowardagapinafence。Theofficerwasmakingexcitedmotionswithagauntletedhand。Thegunsfollowedtheteamswithanairofunwillingness,ofbeingdraggedbytheheels。
  Someofficersofthescatteredinfantrywerecursingandrailinglikefishwives。Theirscold—
  ingvoicescouldbeheardabovethedin。Intotheunspeakablejumbleintheroadwayrodeasquadronofcavalry。Thefadedyellowoftheirfacingsshonebravely。Therewasamightyaltercation。
  Theartillerywereassemblingasifforacon—
  ference。
  Thebluehazeofeveningwasuponthefield。
  Thelinesofforestwerelongpurpleshadows。
  Onecloudlayalongthewesternskypartlysmotheringthered。
  Astheyouthleftthescenebehindhim,heheardthegunssuddenlyroarout。Heimaginedthemshakinginblackrage。Theybelchedandhowledlikebrassdevilsguardingagate。Thesoftairwasfilledwiththetremendousremon—
  strance。Withitcametheshatteringpealofopposinginfantry。Turningtolookbehindhim,hecouldseesheetsoforangelightilluminetheshadowydistance。Thereweresubtleandsuddenlightningsinthefarair。Attimeshethoughthecouldseeheavingmassesofmen。
  Hehurriedoninthedusk。Thedayhadfadeduntilhecouldbarelydistinguishplaceforhisfeet。Thepurpledarknesswasfilledwithmenwholecturedandjabbered。Sometimeshecouldseethemgesticulatingagainsttheblueandsombersky。Thereseemedtobeagreatruckofmenandmunitionsspreadaboutintheforestandinthefields。
  Thelittlenarrowroadwaynowlaylifeless。
  Therewereoverturnedwagonslikesun—driedbowlders。Thebedoftheformertorrentwaschokedwiththebodiesofhorsesandsplinteredpartsofwarmachines。
  Ithadcometopassthathiswoundpainedhimbutlittle。Hewasafraidtomoverapidly,how—
  ever,foradreadofdisturbingit。Heheldhisheadverystillandtookmanyprecautionsagainststumbling。Hewasfilledwithanxiety,andhisfacewaspinchedanddrawninanticipationofthepainofanysuddenmistakeofhisfeetinthegloom。
  Histhoughts,ashewalked,fixedintentlyuponhishurt。Therewasacool,liquidfeelingaboutitandheimaginedbloodmovingslowlydownunderhishair。Hisheadseemedswollentoasizethatmadehimthinkhisnecktobeinadequate。
  Thenewsilenceofhiswoundmademuchworriment。Thelittleblisteringvoicesofpainthathadcalledoutfromhisscalpwere,hethought,definiteintheirexpressionofdanger。
  Bythemhebelievedthathecouldmeasurehisplight。Butwhentheyremainedominouslysilenthebecamefrightenedandimaginedter—
  riblefingersthatclutchedintohisbrain。
  Amidithebegantoreflectuponvariousincidentsandconditionsofthepast。Hebe—
  thoughthimofcertainmealshismotherhadcookedathome,inwhichthosedishesofwhichhewasparticularlyfondhadoccupiedprominentpositions。Hesawthespreadtable。Thepinewallsofthekitchenwereglowinginthewarmlightfromthestove。Too,herememberedhowheandhiscompanionsusedtogofromtheschool—
  housetothebankofashadedpool。Hesawhisclothesindisorderlyarrayuponthegrassofthebank。Hefelttheswashofthefragrantwateruponhisbody。Theleavesoftheoverhangingmaplerustledwithmelodyinthewindofyouth—
  fulsummer。
  Hewasovercomepresentlybyadraggingweariness。Hisheadhungforwardandhisshoulderswerestoopedasifhewerebearingagreatbundle。Hisfeetshuffledalongtheground。
  Heheldcontinuousargumentsastowhetherheshouldliedownandsleepatsomenearspot,orforcehimselfonuntilhereachedacertainhaven。Heoftentriedtodismissthequestion,buthisbodypersistedinrebellionandhissensesnaggedathimlikepamperedbabies。
  Atlastheheardacheeryvoicenearhisshoulder:"Yehseemt’beinaprettybadway,boy?"
  Theyouthdidnotlookup,butheassentedwiththicktongue。"Uh!"
  Theownerofthecheeryvoicetookhimfirmlybythearm。"Well,"hesaid,witharoundlaugh,"I’mgoin’yourway。Th’hullgangisgoin’yourway。An’IguessIkingiveyehalift。"Theybegantowalklikeadrunkenmanandhisfriend。
  Astheywentalong,themanquestionedtheyouthandassistedhimwiththereplieslikeonemanipulatingthemindofachild。Sometimesheinterjectedanecdotes。"Whatreg’mentdoyehb’longteh?Eh?What’sthat?Th’304thN’
  York?Why,whatcorpsisthatin?Oh,itis?
  Why,Ithoughttheywasn’tengagedt’—day——
  they’re’wayoverinth’center。Oh,theywas,eh?Well,prettynearlyeverybodygottheirshare’afightin’t’—day。Bydad,Igivemyselfupferdeadanynumber’atimes。Therewasshootin’
  herean’shootin’there,an’hollerin’herean’
  hollerin’there,inth’damn’darkness,untilI
  couldn’ttellt’savem’soulwhichsideIwason。
  SometimesIthoughtIwassure’noughfromOhier,an’othertimesIcould’asworeIwasfromth’bitterendofFlorida。Itwasth’mostmixedupdernthingIeversee。An’theseherehullwoodsisareg’larmess。It’llbeamiracleifwefindourreg’mentst’—night。Prettysoon,though,we’llmeeta—plentyofguardsan’provost—
  guards,an’onethingan’another。Ho!theretheygowithanoff’cer,Iguess。Lookathishanda—draggin’。He’sgotallth’warhewants,Ibet。
  Hewon’tbetalkin’sobigabouthisreputationan’allwhentheygot’sawin’offhisleg。Poorfeller!Mybrother’sgotwhiskersjestlikethat。
  Howdidyehgit’wayoverhere,anyhow?Yourreg’mentisalongwayfromhere,ain’tit?Well,Iguesswecanfindit。Yehknowtherewasaboykilledinmycomp’nyt’—daythatIthoughtth’worldan’allof。Jackwasanicefeller。Byginger,ithurtlikethundert’seeol’Jackjestgitknockedflat。Wewasa—standin’purtypeaceableferaspell,’thoughtherewasmenrunnin’ev’rywayall’roundus,an’whilewewasa—standin’
  likethat,’longcomeabigfatfeller。Hebegant’peckatJack’selbow,an’heses:’Say,where’sth’roadt’th’river?’An’Jack,heneverpaidnoattention,an’th’fellerkeptona—peckin’athiselbowan’sayin’:’Say,where’sth’roadt’th’
  river?’Jackwasa—lookin’aheadallth’timetryin’t’seeth’Johnniescomin’throughth’
  woods,an’heneverpaidnoattentiont’thisbigfatfellerferalongtime,butatlastheturned’roundan’heses:’Ah,got’hellan’findth’
  roadt’th’river!’An’jestthenashotslappedhimbangonth’sideth’head。Hewasasergeant,too。Themwashislastwords。Thunder,Iwishwewassure’afindin’ourreg’mentst’—night。It’sgoin’t’belonghuntin’。ButIguesswekindoit。"
  Inthesearchwhichfollowed,themanofthecheeryvoiceseemedtotheyouthtopossessawandofamagickind。Hethreadedthemazesofthetangledforestwithastrangefortune。Inencounterswithguardsandpatrolshedisplayedthekeennessofadetectiveandthevalorofagamin。Obstaclesfellbeforehimandbecameofassistance。Theyouth,withhischinstillonhisbreast,stoodwoodenlybywhilehiscompanionbeatwaysandmeansoutofsullenthings。
  Theforestseemedavasthiveofmenbuzzingaboutinfranticcircles,butthecheerymancon—
  ductedtheyouthwithoutmistakes,untilatlasthebegantochucklewithgleeandself—satisfaction。
  "Ah,thereyehare!Seethatfire?"
  Theyouthnoddedstupidly。
  "Well,there’swhereyourreg’mentis。An’
  now,good—by,ol’boy,goodluckt’yeh。"
  Awarmandstronghandclaspedtheyouth’slanguidfingersforaninstant,andthenheheardacheerfulandaudaciouswhistlingasthemanstrodeaway。Ashewhohadsobefriendedhimwasthuspassingoutofhislife,itsuddenlyoc—
  curredtotheyouththathehadnotonceseenhisface。
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  CHAPTERXIII。
  THEyouthwentslowlytowardthefirein—
  dicatedbyhisdepartedfriend。Ashereeled,hebethoughthimofthewelcomehiscomradeswouldgivehim。Hehadaconvictionthathewouldsoonfeelinhissoreheartthebarbedmissilesofridicule。Hehadnostrengthtoin—
  ventatale;hewouldbeasofttarget。
  Hemadevagueplanstogooffintothedeeperdarknessandhide,buttheywerealldestroyedbythevoicesofexhaustionandpainfromhisbody。Hisailments,clamoring,forcedhimtoseektheplaceoffoodandrest,atwhatevercost。
  Heswungunsteadilytowardthefire。Hecouldseetheformsofmenthrowingblackshadowsintheredlight,andashewentneareritbecameknowntohiminsomewaythatthegroundwasstrewnwithsleepingmen。
  Ofasuddenheconfrontedablackandmonstrousfigure。Ariflebarrelcaughtsomeglintingbeams。"Halt!halt!"Hewasdis—
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  mayedforamoment,buthepresentlythoughtthatherecognizedthenervousvoice。Ashestoodtotteringbeforetheriflebarrel,hecalledout:"Why,hello,Wilson,you——youhere?"
  Theriflewasloweredtoapositionofcautionandtheloudsoldiercameslowlyforward。Hepeeredintotheyouth’sface。"Thatyou,Henry?"
  "Yes,it’s——it’sme。"
  "Well,well,ol’boy,"saidtheother,"byginger,I’mgladt’seeyeh!Igiveyehupferagoner。Ithoughtyehwasdeadsureenough。"Therewashuskyemotioninhisvoice。
  Theyouthfoundthatnowhecouldbarelystanduponhisfeet。Therewasasuddensinkingofhisforces。Hethoughthemusthastentopro—
  ducehistaletoprotecthimfromthemissilesalreadyatthelipsofhisredoubtablecomrades。
  So,staggeringbeforetheloudsoldier,hebegan:
  "Yes,yes。I’ve——I’vehadanawfultime。I’vebeenallover。Wayoveronth’right。Ter’blefightin’overthere。Ihadanawfultime。Igotseparatedfromth’reg’ment。Overonth’right,Igotshot。Inth’head。Ineverseesechfightin’。Awfultime。Idon’tseehowIcould’agotseparatedfromth’reg’ment。Igotshot,too。"
  Hisfriendhadsteppedforwardquickly。
  "What?Gotshot?Whydidn’tyehsaysofirst?Poorol’boy,wemust——hol’onaminnit;
  whatamIdoin’。I’llcallSimpson。"
  Anotherfigureatthatmomentloomedinthegloom。Theycouldseethatitwasthecorporal。
  "Whoyehtalkin’to,Wilson?"hedemanded。
  Hisvoicewasanger—toned。"Whoyehtalkin’
  to?Yehth’derndestsentinel——why——hello,Henry,youhere?Why,Ithoughtyouwasdeadfourhoursago!GreatJerusalem,theykeepturnin’upeverytenminutesorso!Wethoughtwe’dlostforty—twomenbystraightcount,butiftheykeepona—comin’thisway,we’llgitth’comp’nyallbackbymornin’yit。Wherewasyeh?"
  "Overonth’right。Igotseparated"——begantheyouthwithconsiderableglibness。
  Buthisfriendhadinterruptedhastily。"Yes,an’hegotshotinth’headan’he’sinafix,an’wemustseet’himrightaway。"Herestedhisrifleinthehollowofhisleftarmandhisrightaroundtheyouth’sshoulder。
  "Gee,itmusthurtlikethunder!"hesaid。
  Theyouthleanedheavilyuponhisfriend。
  "Yes,ithurts——hurtsagooddeal,"hereplied。
  Therewasafalteringinhisvoice。
  "Oh,"saidthecorporal。Helinkedhisarmintheyouth’sanddrewhimforward。"Comeon,Henry。I’lltakekeer’ayeh。"
  Astheywentontogethertheloudprivatecalledoutafterthem:"Put’imt’sleepinmyblanket,Simpson。An’——hol’onaminnit——here’smycanteen。It’sfull’acoffee。Lookathisheadbyth’firean’seehowitlooks。Maybeit’saprettybadun。WhenIgitrelievedinacouple’aminnits,I’llbeoveran’seet’him。"
  Theyouth’ssensesweresodeadenedthathisfriend’svoicesoundedfromafarandhecouldscarcelyfeelthepressureofthecorporal’sarm。
  Hesubmittedpassivelytothelatter’sdirectingstrength。Hisheadwasintheoldmannerhang—
  ingforwarduponhisbreast。Hiskneeswobbled。
  Thecorporalledhimintotheglareofthefire。"Now,Henry,"hesaid,"let’shavelookatyerol’head。"
  Theyouthsatdownobedientlyandthecor—
  poral,layingasidehisrifle,begantofumbleinthebushyhairofhiscomrade。Hewasobligedtoturntheother’sheadsothatthefullflushofthefirelightwouldbeamuponit。Hepuckeredhismouthwithacriticalair。Hedrewbackhislipsandwhistledthroughhisteethwhenhisfingerscameincontactwiththesplashedbloodandtherarewound。
  "Ah,hereweare!"hesaid。Heawkwardlymadefurtherinvestigations。"JestasIthought,"
  headded,presently。"Yeh’vebeengrazedbyaball。It’sraisedaqueerlumpjestasifsomefellerhadlammedyehonth’headwithaclub。
  Itstoppeda—bleedin’longtimeago。Th’mostaboutitisthatinth’mornin’yeh’llfeelthatanumbertenhatwouldn’tfityeh。An’yourhead’llbeallhetupan’feelasdryasburntpork。
  An’yehmaygitalot’aothersicknesses,too,bymornin’。Yehcan’tnevertell。Still,Idon’tmuchthinkso。It’sjestadamn’goodbeltonth’
  head,an’nothin’more。Now,youjestsitherean’don’tmove,whileIgoroutoutth’relief。
  ThenI’llsendWilsont’takekeer’ayeh。"
  Thecorporalwentaway。Theyouthre—
  mainedonthegroundlikeaparcel。Hestaredwithavacantlookintothefire。
  Afteratimehearoused,forsomepart,andthethingsabouthimbegantotakeform。Hesawthatthegroundinthedeepshadowswasclutteredwithmen,sprawlingineverycon—
  ceivableposture。Glancingnarrowlyintothemoredistantdarkness,hecaughtoccasionalglimpsesofvisagesthatloomedpallidandghostly,litwithaphosphorescentglow。Thesefacesexpressedintheirlinesthedeepstuporofthetiredsoldiers。Theymadethemappearlikemendrunkwithwine。Thisbitofforestmighthaveappearedtoanetherealwandererasasceneoftheresultofsomefrightfuldebauch。
  Ontheothersideofthefiretheyouthobservedanofficerasleep,seatedboltupright,withhisbackagainstatree。Therewassome—
  thingperilousinhisposition。Badgeredbydreams,perhaps,heswayedwithlittlebouncesandstarts,likeanoldtoddy—strickengrandfatherinachimneycorner。Dustandstainswereuponhisface。Hislowerjawhungdownasiflackingstrengthtoassumeitsnormalposition。Hewasthepictureofanexhaustedsoldierafterafeastofwar。
  Hehadevidentlygonetosleepwithhisswordinhisarms。Thesetwohadslumberedinanembrace,buttheweaponhadbeenallowedintimetofallunheededtotheground。Thebrass—mountedhiltlayincontactwithsomepartsofthefire。
  Withinthegleamofroseandorangelightfromtheburningstickswereothersoldiers,snoringandheaving,orlyingdeathlikeinslumber。Afewpairsoflegswerestuckforth,rigidandstraight。Theshoesdisplayedthemudordustofmarchesandbitsofroundedtrousers,protrudingfromtheblankets,showedrentsandtearsfromhurriedpitchingsthroughthedensebrambles。
  Thefirecrackledmusically。Fromitswelledlightsmoke。Overheadthefoliagemovedsoftly。Theleaves,withtheirfacesturnedtowardtheblaze,werecoloredshiftinghuesofsilver,oftenedgedwithred。Farofftotheright,throughawindowintheforestcouldbeseenahandfulofstarslying,likeglitteringpebbles,ontheblacklevelofthenight。
  Occasionally,inthislow—archedhall,asoldierwouldarouseandturnhisbodytoanewposi—
  tion,theexperienceofhissleephavingtaughthimofunevenandobjectionableplacesuponthegroundunderhim。Or,perhaps,hewouldlifthimselftoasittingposture,blinkatthefireforanunintelligentmoment,throwaswiftglanceathisprostratecompanion,andthencuddledownagainwithagruntofsleepycontent。
  Theyouthsatinaforlornheapuntilhisfriendtheloudyoungsoldiercame,swingingtwocanteensbytheirlightstrings。"Well,now,Henry,ol’boy,"saidthelatter,"we’llhaveyehfixedupinjestaboutaminnit。"
  Hehadthebustlingwaysofanamateurnurse。Hefussedaroundthefireandstirredthestickstobrilliantexertions。Hemadehispatientdrinklargelyfromthecanteenthatcontainedthecoffee。Itwastotheyouthadeliciousdraught。
  Hetiltedhisheadafarbackandheldthecanteenlongtohislips。Thecoolmixturewentcaress—
  inglydownhisblisteredthroat。Havingfinished,hesighedwithcomfortabledelight。
  Theloudyoungsoldierwatchedhiscomradewithanairofsatisfaction。Helaterproducedanextensivehandkerchieffromhispocket。Hefoldeditintoamannerofbandageandsousedwaterfromtheothercanteenuponthemiddleofit。Thiscrudearrangementheboundovertheyouth’shead,tyingtheendsinaqueerknotatthebackoftheneck。
  "There,"hesaid,movingoffandsurveyinghisdeed,"yehlookliketh’devil,butIbetyehfeelbetter。"
  Theyouthcontemplatedhisfriendwithgrate—
  fuleyes。Uponhisachingandswellingheadthecoldclothwaslikeatenderwoman’shand。
  "Yehdon’thollernersaynothin’,"remarkedhisfriendapprovingly。"IknowI’mablack—
  smithattakin’keer’asickfolks,an’yehneversqueaked。Yeragoodun,Henry。Most’amenwoulda’beeninth’hospitallongago。Ashotinth’headain’tfoolin’business。"
  Theyouthmadenoreply,butbegantofumblewiththebuttonsofhisjacket。
  "Well,come,now,"continuedhisfriend,"comeon。Imustputyeht’bedan’seethatyehgitagoodnight’srest。"
  Theothergotcarefullyerect,andtheloudyoungsoldierledhimamongthesleepingformslyingingroupsandrows。Presentlyhestoopedandpickeduphisblankets。Hespreadtherubberoneuponthegroundandplacedthewoolenoneabouttheyouth’sshoulders。
  "Therenow,"hesaid,"liedownan’gitsomesleep。"
  Theyouth,withhismannerofdoglikeobe—
  dience,gotcarefullydownlikeacronestoop—
  ing。Hestretchedoutwithamurmurofreliefandcomfort。Thegroundfeltlikethesoftestcouch。
  Butofasuddenheejaculated:"Hol’onaminnit!Whereyougoin’t’sleep?"
  Hisfriendwavedhishandimpatiently。
  "Rightdowntherebyyeh。"
  "Well,buthol’onaminnit,"continuedtheyouth。"Whatyehgoin’t’sleepin?I’vegotyour——"
  Theloudyoungsoldiersnarled:"Shetupan’goont’sleep。Don’tbemakin’adamn’fool’ayerself,"hesaidseverely。
  Afterthereprooftheyouthsaidnomore。
  Anexquisitedrowsinesshadspreadthroughhim。
  Thewarmcomfortoftheblanketenvelopedhimandmadeagentlelanguor。Hisheadfellfor—
  wardonhiscrookedarmandhisweightedlidswentsoftlydownoverhiseyes。Hearingasplatterofmusketryfromthedistance,hewonderedindifferentlyifthosemensometimesslept。Hegavealongsigh,snuggleddownintohisblanket,andinamomentwaslikehiscom—
  rades。
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  CHAPTERXIV。
  WHENtheyouthawokeitseemedtohimthathehadbeenasleepforathousandyears,andhefeltsurethatheopenedhiseyesuponanunex—
  pectedworld。Graymistswereslowlyshiftingbeforethefirsteffortsofthesunrays。Anim—
  pendingsplendorcouldbeseenintheeasternsky。Anicydewhadchilledhisface,andim—
  mediatelyuponarousinghecurledfartherdownintohisblanket。Hestaredforawhileattheleavesoverhead,movinginaheraldicwindoftheday。
  Thedistancewassplinteringandblaringwiththenoiseoffighting。Therewasinthesoundanexpressionofadeadlypersistency,asifithadnotbegunandwasnottocease。
  Abouthimweretherowsandgroupsofmenthathehaddimlyseenthepreviousnight。Theyweregettingalastdraughtofsleepbeforetheawakening。Thegaunt,carewornfeaturesanddustyfiguresweremadeplainbythisquaint139
  lightatthedawning,butitdressedtheskinofthemenincorpselikehuesandmadethetangledlimbsappearpulselessanddead。Theyouthstartedupwithalittlecrywhenhiseyesfirstsweptoverthismotionlessmassofmen,thick—
  spreadupontheground,pallid,andinstrangepostures。Hisdisorderedmindinterpretedthehalloftheforestasacharnelplace。Hebelievedforaninstantthathewasinthehouseofthedead,andhedidnotdaretomovelestthesecorpsesstartup,squallingandsquawking。Inasecond,however,heachievedhispropermind。
  Hesworeacomplicatedoathathimself。Hesawthatthissomberpicturewasnotafactofthepresent,butamereprophecy。
  Heheardthenthenoiseofafirecracklingbrisklyinthecoldair,and,turninghishead,hesawhisfriendpotteringbusilyaboutasmallblaze。Afewotherfiguresmovedinthefog,andheheardthehardcrackingofaxeblows。
  Suddenlytherewasahollowrumbleofdrums。Adistantbuglesangfaintly。Similarsounds,varyinginstrength,camefromnearandfarovertheforest。Thebuglescalledtoeachotherlikebrazengamecocks。Thenearthunderoftheregimentaldrumsrolled。
  Thebodyofmeninthewoodsrustled。Therewasageneralupliftingofheads。Amurmuringofvoicesbrokeupontheair。Inittherewasmuchbassofgrumblingoaths。Strangegodswereaddressedincondemnationoftheearlyhoursnecessarytocorrectwar。Anofficer’speremptorytenorrangoutandquickenedthestiffenedmovementofthemen。Thetangledlimbsunraveled。Thecorpse—huedfaceswerehiddenbehindfiststhattwistedslowlyintheeyesockets。
  Theyouthsatupandgaveventtoanenormousyawn。"Thunder!"heremarkedpetulantly。
  Herubbedhiseyes,andthenputtinguphishandfeltcarefullyofthebandageoverhiswound。
  Hisfriend,perceivinghimtobeawake,camefromthefire。"Well,Henry,ol’man,howdoyehfeelthismornin’?"hedemanded。
  Theyouthyawnedagain。Thenhepuckeredhismouthtoalittlepucker。Hishead,intruth,feltpreciselylikeamelon,andtherewasanun—
  pleasantsensationathisstomach。
  "Oh,Lord,Ifeelprettybad,"hesaid。
  "Thunder!"exclaimedtheother。"Ihopedye’dfeelallrightthismornin’。Let’sseeth’
  bandage——Iguessit’sslipped。"Hebegantotinkeratthewoundinratheraclumsywayuntiltheyouthexploded。
  "Gosh—dernit!"hesaidinsharpirritation;
  "you’rethehangdestmanIeversaw!Youwearmuffsonyourhands。Whyingoodthunderationcan’tyoubemoreeasy?I’dratheryou’dstandoffan’throwgunsatit。Now,goslow,an’don’tactasifyouwasnailingdowncarpet。"
  Heglaredwithinsolentcommandathisfriend,butthelatteransweredsoothingly。
  "Well,well,comenow,an’gitsomegrub,"hesaid。"Then,maybe,yeh’llfeelbetter。"
  Atthefiresidetheloudyoungsoldierwatchedoverhiscomrade’swantswithtender—
  nessandcare。Hewasverybusymarshalingthelittleblackvagabondsoftincupsandpour—
  ingintothemthestreaming,ironcoloredmixturefromasmallandsootytinpail。Hehadsomefreshmeat,whichheroastedhurriedlyuponastick。Hesatdownthenandcontemplatedtheyouth’sappetitewithglee。
  Theyouthtooknoteofaremarkablechangeinhiscomradesincethosedaysofcamplifeupontheriverbank。Heseemednomoretobecon—
  tinuallyregardingtheproportionsofhispersonalprowess。Hewasnotfuriousatsmallwordsthatprickedhisconceits。Hewasnomorealoudyoungsoldier。Therewasabouthimnowafinereliance。Heshowedaquietbeliefinhispurposesandhisabilities。Andthisin—
  wardconfidenceevidentlyenabledhimtobeindifferenttolittlewordsofothermenaimedathim。
  Theyouthreflected。Hehadbeenusedtoregardinghiscomradeasablatantchildwithanaudacitygrownfromhisinexperience,thought—
  less,headstrong,jealous,andfilledwithatinselcourage。Aswaggeringbabeaccustomedtostrutinhisowndooryard。Theyouthwonderedwherehadbeenborntheseneweyes;whenhiscomradehadmadethegreatdiscoverythatthereweremanymenwhowouldrefusetobesubjectedbyhim。Apparently,theotherhadnowclimbedapeakofwisdomfromwhichhecouldperceivehimselfasaveryweething。Andtheyouthsawthateverafteritwouldbeeasiertoliveinhisfriend’sneighborhood。
  Hiscomradebalancedhisebonycoffee—cuponhisknee。"Well,Henry,"hesaid,"whatd’yehthinkth’chancesare?D’yehthinkwe’llwal—
  lop’em?"
  Theyouthconsideredforamoment。"Day—
  b’fore—yesterday,"hefinallyreplied,withboldness,"youwould’a’betyou’dlickthehullkit—an’—
  boodleallbyyourself。"
  Hisfriendlookedatrifleamazed。"WouldI?"heasked。Hepondered。"Well,perhapsI
  would,"hedecidedatlast。Hestaredhumblyatthefire。
  Theyouthwasquitedisconcertedatthissur—
  prisingreceptionofhisremarks。"Oh,no,youwouldn’teither,"hesaid,hastilytryingtore—
  trace。
  Buttheothermadeadeprecatinggesture。
  "Oh,yehneedn’tmind,Henry,"hesaid。"Ibe—
  lieveIwasaprettybigfoolinthosedays。"Hespokeasafteralapseofyears。
  Therewasalittlepause。
  "Allth’officerssaywe’vegotth’rebsinaprettytightbox,"saidthefriend,clearinghisthroatinacommonplaceway。"Theyallseemt’thinkwe’vegot’emjestwherewewant’em。"
  "Idon’tknowaboutthat,"theyouthreplied。
  "WhatIseenoveronth’rightmakesmethinkitwasth’otherwayabout。FromwhereIwas,itlookedasifwewasgettin’agoodpoundin’
  yestirday。"
  "D’yehthinkso?"inquiredthefriend。"I
  thoughtwehandled’emprettyroughyestir—
  day。"
  "Notabit,"saidtheyouth。"Why,lord,man,youdidn’tseenothingofthefight。Why!"
  Thenasuddenthoughtcametohim。"Oh!
  JimConklin’sdead。"
  Hisfriendstarted。"What?Ishe?JimConklin?"
  Theyouthspokeslowly。"Yes。He’sdead。
  Shotinth’side。"
  "Yehdon’tsayso。JimConklin……poorcuss!"
  Allaboutthemwereothersmallfiressur—
  roundedbymenwiththeirlittleblackutensils。
  Fromoneofthesenearcamesuddensharpvoicesinarow。Itappearedthattwolight—
  footedsoldiershadbeenteasingahuge,beardedman,causinghimtospillcoffeeuponhisblueknees。Themanhadgoneintoarageandhadsworncomprehensively。Stungbyhislanguage,histormentorshadimmediatelybristledathimwithagreatshowofresentingunjustoaths。
  Possiblytherewasgoingtobeafight。
  Thefriendaroseandwentovertothem,mak—
  ingpacificmotionswithhisarms。"Oh,here,now,boys,what’sth’use?"hesaid。"We’llbeatth’rebsinless’nanhour。What’sth’
  goodfightin’’mongourselves?"
  Oneofthelight—footedsoldiersturneduponhimred—facedandviolent。"Yehneedn’tcomearoundherewithyerpreachin’。Is’poseyehdon’tapprove’afightin’sinceCharleyMorganlickedyeh;butIdon’tseewhatbusinessthishereis’ayoursoranybodyelse。"
  "Well,itain’t,"saidthefriendmildly。"StillIhatet’see——"
  Therewasatangledargument。
  "Well,he——,"saidthetwo,indicatingtheiropponentwithaccusativeforefingers。
  Thehugesoldierwasquitepurplewithrage。
  Hepointedatthetwosoldierswithhisgreathand,extendedclawlike。"Well,they——"
  Butduringthisargumentativetimethede—
  siretodealblowsseemedtopass,althoughtheysaidmuchtoeachother。Finallythefriendre—
  turnedtohisoldseat。Inashortwhilethethreeantagonistscouldbeseentogetherinanamiablebunch。
  "JimmieRogerssesI’llhavet’fighthimafterth’battlet’—day,"announcedthefriendasheagainseatedhimself。"Heseshedon’tallownointerferin’inhisbusiness。Ihatet’seeth’boysfightin’’mongthemselves。"
  Theyouthlaughed。"Yerchangedagoodbit。Yehain’tatalllikeyehwas。Irememberwhenyouan’thatIrishfeller——"Hestoppedandlaughedagain。
  "No,Ididn’tuset’bethatway,"saidhisfriendthoughtfully。"That’strue’nough。"
  "Well,Ididn’tmean——"begantheyouth。
  Thefriendmadeanotherdeprecatorygesture。
  "Oh,yehneedn’tmind,Henry。"
  Therewasanotherlittlepause。
  "Th’reg’mentlostoverhalfth’menyestir—
  day,"remarkedthefriendeventually。"Ithoughtacoursetheywasalldead,but,laws,theykep’
  a—comin’backlastnightuntilitseems,afterall,wedidn’tlosebutafew。They’dbeenscatteredallover,wanderin’aroundinth’woods,fightin’
  withotherreg’ments,an’everything。Jestlikeyoudone。"
  "So?"saidtheyouth。
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  CHAPTERXV。
  THEregimentwasstandingatorderarmsatthesideofalane,waitingforthecommandtomarch,whensuddenlytheyouthrememberedthelittlepacketenwrappedinafadedyellowenvelopewhichtheloudyoungsoldierwithlugu—
  briouswordshadintrustedtohim。Itmadehimstart。Heutteredanexclamationandturnedtowardhiscomrade。
  "Wilson!"
  "What?"
  Hisfriend,athissideintheranks,wasthought—
  fullystaringdowntheroad。Fromsomecausehisexpressionwasatthatmomentverymeek。
  Theyouth,regardinghimwithsidelongglances,feltimpelledtochangehispurpose。"Oh,noth—
  ing,"hesaid。
  Hisfriendturnedhisheadinsomesurprise,"Why,whatwasyehgoin’t’say?"
  "Oh,nothing,"repeatedtheyouth。
  Heresolvednottodealthelittleblow。It148
  wassufficientthatthefactmadehimglad。Itwasnotnecessarytoknockhisfriendontheheadwiththemisguidedpacket。
  Hehadbeenpossessedofmuchfearofhisfriend,forhesawhoweasilyquestioningscouldmakeholesinhisfeelings。Lately,hehadas—
  suredhimselfthatthealteredcomradewouldnottantalizehimwithapersistentcuriosity,buthefeltcertainthatduringthefirstperiodofleisurehisfriendwouldaskhimtorelatehisadventuresofthepreviousday。
  Henowrejoicedinthepossessionofasmallweaponwithwhichhecouldprostratehiscom—
  radeatthefirstsignsofacross—examination。Hewasmaster。Itwouldnowbehewhocouldlaughandshoottheshaftsofderision。
  Thefriendhad,inaweakhour,spokenwithsobsofhisowndeath。Hehaddeliveredamel—
  ancholyorationprevioustohisfuneral,andhaddoubtlessinthepacketofletters,presentedvari—
  ouskeepsakestorelatives。Buthehadnotdied,andthushehaddeliveredhimselfintothehandsoftheyouth。
  Thelatterfeltimmenselysuperiortohisfriend,butheinclinedtocondescension。Headoptedtowardhimanairofpatronizinggoodhumor。
  Hisself—pridewasnowentirelyrestored。Intheshadeofitsflourishinggrowthhestoodwithbracedandself—confidentlegs,andsincenothingcouldnowbediscoveredhedidnotshrinkfromanencounterwiththeeyesofjudges,andallowednothoughtsofhisowntokeephimfromanattitudeofmanfulness。Hehadperformedhismistakesinthedark,sohewasstillaman。
  Indeed,whenherememberedhisfortunesofyesterday,andlookedatthemfromadistancehebegantoseesomethingfinethere。Hehadlicensetobepompousandveteranlike。
  Hispantingagoniesofthepastheputoutofhissight。
  Inthepresent,hedeclaredtohimselfthatitwasonlythedoomedandthedamnedwhoroaredwithsincerityatcircumstance。Fewbuttheyeverdidit。Amanwithafullstomachandtherespectofhisfellowshadnobusinesstoscoldaboutanythingthathemightthinktobewronginthewaysoftheuniverse,orevenwiththewaysofsociety。Lettheunfortunatesrail;theothersmayplaymarbles。
  Hedidnotgiveagreatdealofthoughttothesebattlesthatlaydirectlybeforehim。Itwasnotessentialthatheshouldplanhiswaysinregardtothem。Hehadbeentaughtthatmanyobligationsofalifewereeasilyavoided。Thelessonsofyesterdayhadbeenthatretributionwasalaggardandblind。Withthesefactsbeforehimhedidnotdeemitnecessarythatheshouldbecomefeverishoverthepossibilitiesoftheensuingtwenty—fourhours。Hecouldleavemuchtochance。Besides,afaithinhimselfhadsecretlyblossomed。Therewasalittleflowerofconfidencegrowingwithinhim。Hewasnowamanofexperience。Hehadbeenoutamongthedragons,hesaid,andheassuredhimselfthattheywerenotsohideousashehadimaginedthem。
  Also,theywereinaccurate;theydidnotstingwithprecision。Astoutheartoftendefied,anddefying,escaped。
  And,furthermore,howcouldtheykillhimwhowasthechosenofgodsanddoomedtogreatness?
  Herememberedhowsomeofthemenhadrunfromthebattle。Asherecalledtheirterror—
  struckfaceshefeltascornforthem。Theyhadsurelybeenmorefleetandmorewildthanwasabsolutelynecessary。Theywereweakmortals。
  Asforhimself,hehadfledwithdiscretionanddignity。
  Hewasarousedfromthisreveriebyhisfriend,who,havinghitchedaboutnervouslyandblinkedatthetreesforatime,suddenlycoughedinanintroductoryway,andspoke。
  "Fleming!"
  "What?"
  Thefriendputhishanduptohismouthandcoughedagain。Hefidgetedinhisjacket。
  "Well,"hegulped,atlast,"Iguessyehmightaswellgivemebackthemletters。"Dark,prick—
  lingbloodhadflushedintohischeeksandbrow。
  "Allright,Wilson,"saidtheyouth。Heloosenedtwobuttonsofhiscoat,thrustinhishand,andbroughtforththepacket。Asheex—
  tendedittohisfriendthelatter’sfacewasturnedfromhim。
  Hehadbeenslowintheactofproducingthepacketbecauseduringithehadbeentryingtoinventaremarkablecommentupontheaffair。
  Hecouldconjurenothingofsufficientpoint。Hewascompelledtoallowhisfriendtoescapeunmolestedwithhispacket。Andforthishetookuntohimselfconsiderablecredit。Itwasagenerousthing。
  Hisfriendathissideseemedsufferinggreatshame。Ashecontemplatedhim,theyouthfelthisheartgrowmorestrongandstout。Hehadneverbeencompelledtoblushinsuchmannerforhisacts;hewasanindividualofextraordi—
  naryvirtues。
  Hereflected,withcondescendingpity:"Toobad!Toobad!Thepoordevil,itmakeshimfeeltough!"
  Afterthisincident,andashereviewedthebattlepictureshehadseen,hefeltquitecom—
  petenttoreturnhomeandmaketheheartsofthepeopleglowwithstoriesofwar。Hecouldseehimselfinaroomofwarmtintstellingtalestolisteners。Hecouldexhibitlaurels。Theywereinsignificant;still,inadistrictwherelaurelswereinfrequent,theymightshine。
  Hesawhisgapingaudiencepicturinghimasthecentralfigureinblazingscenes。Andheimaginedtheconsternationandtheejaculationsofhismotherandtheyoungladyattheseminaryastheydrankhisrecitals。Theirvaguefeminineformulaforbelovedonesdoingbravedeedsonthefieldofbattlewithoutriskoflifewouldbedestroyed。
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  CHAPTERXVI。
  ASPUTTERINGofmusketrywasalwaystobeheard。Later,thecannonhadenteredthedis—
  pute。Inthefog—filledairtheirvoicesmadeathuddingsound。Thereverberationswerecon—
  tinued。Thispartoftheworldledastrange,battlefulexistence。
  Theyouth’sregimentwasmarchedtorelieveacommandthathadlainlonginsomedamptrenches。Thementookpositionsbehindacurv—
  inglineofriflepitsthathadbeenturnedup,likealargefurrow,alongthelineofwoods。Beforethemwasalevelstretch,peopledwithshort,deformedstumps。Fromthewoodsbeyondcamethedullpoppingoftheskirmishersandpickets,firinginthefog。Fromtherightcamethenoiseofaterrificfracas。
  Themencuddledbehindthesmallembank—
  mentandsatineasyattitudesawaitingtheirturn。Manyhadtheirbackstothefiring。Theyouth’sfriendlaydown,buriedhisfaceinhis154
  arms,andalmostinstantly,itseemed,hewasinadeepsleep。
  Theyouthleanedhisbreastagainstthebrowndirtandpeeredoveratthewoodsandupanddowntheline。Curtainsoftreesinterferedwithhiswaysofvision。Hecouldseethelowlineoftrenchesbutforashortdistance。Afewidleflagswereperchedonthedirthills。Behindthemwererowsofdarkbodieswithafewheadsstickingcuriouslyoverthetop。
  Alwaysthenoiseofskirmisherscamefromthewoodsonthefrontandleft,andthedinontherighthadgrowntofrightfulproportions。
  Thegunswereroaringwithoutaninstant’spauseforbreath。Itseemedthatthecannonhadcomefromallpartsandwereengagedinastupendouswrangle。Itbecameimpossibletomakeasen—
  tenceheard。
  Theyouthwishedtolaunchajoke——aquota—
  tionfromnewspapers。Hedesiredtosay,"AllquietontheRappahannock,"butthegunsrefusedtopermitevenacommentupontheiruproar。
  Heneversuccessfullyconcludedthesentence。
  Butatlastthegunsstopped,andamongthemenintheriflepitsrumorsagainflew,likebirds,buttheywerenowforthemostpartblackcreatureswhoflappedtheirwingsdrearilyneartothegroundandrefusedtoriseonanywingsofhope。Themen’sfacesgrewdolefulfromtheinterpretingofomens。Talesofhesitationanduncertaintyonthepartofthosehighinplaceandresponsibilitycametotheirears。Storiesofdisasterwereborneintotheirmindswithmanyproofs。Thisdinofmusketryontheright,grow—
  inglikeareleasedgenieofsound,expressedandemphasizedthearmy’splight。
  Themenweredisheartenedandbegantomutter。Theymadegesturesexpressiveofthesentence:"Ah,whatmorecanwedo?"Anditcouldalwaysbeseenthattheywerebewilderedbytheallegednewsandcouldnotfullycompre—
  hendadefeat。
  Beforethegraymistshadbeentotallyob—
  literatedbythesunrays,theregimentwasmarch—
  inginaspreadcolumnthatwasretiringcarefullythroughthewoods。Thedisordered,hurryinglinesoftheenemycouldsometimesbeseendownthroughthegrovesandlittlefields。Theywereyelling,shrillandexultant。
  Atthissighttheyouthforgotmanypersonalmattersandbecamegreatlyenraged。Heex—
  plodedinloudsentences。"B’jiminey,we’regeneraledbyalot’alunkheads。"
  "Morethanonefellerhassaidthatt’—day,"
  observedaman。
  Hisfriend,recentlyaroused,wasstillverydrowsy。Helookedbehindhimuntilhismindtookinthemeaningofthemovement。Thenhesighed。"Oh,well,Is’posewegotlicked,"heremarkedsadly。
  Theyouthhadathoughtthatitwouldnotbehandsomeforhimtofreelycondemnothermen。
  Hemadeanattempttorestrainhimself,butthewordsuponhistongueweretoobitter。Hepresentlybeganalongandintricatedenunciationofthecommanderoftheforces。
  "Mebbe,itwa’n’tallhisfault——notallto—
  gether。Hedidth’bestheknowed。It’sourluckt’gitlickedoften,"saidhisfriendinawearytone。Hewastrudgingalongwithstoopedshouldersandshiftingeyeslikeamanwhohasbeencanedandkicked。
  "Well,don’twefightlikethedevil?Don’twedoallthatmencan?"demandedtheyouthloudly。
  Hewassecretlydumfoundedatthissentimentwhenitcamefromhislips。Foramomenthisfacelostitsvalorandhelookedguiltilyabouthim。Butnoonequestionedhisrighttodealinsuchwords,andpresentlyherecoveredhisairofcourage。Hewentontorepeatastatementhehadheardgoingfromgrouptogroupatthecampthatmorning。"Thebrigadiersaidheneversawanewreg’mentfightthewaywefoughtyestirday,didn’the?Andwedidn’tdobetterthanmanyanotherreg’ment,didwe?
  Well,then,youcan’tsayit’sth’army’sfault,canyou?"
  Inhisreply,thefriend’svoicewasstern。"’A
  coursenot,"hesaid。"Nomandaresaywedon’tfightliketh’devil。Nomanwilleverdaresayit。Th’boysfightlikehell—roosters。Butstill——still,wedon’thavenoluck。"
  "Well,then,ifwefightlikethedevilan’
  don’teverwhip,itmustbethegeneral’sfault,"
  saidtheyouthgrandlyanddecisively。"AndI
  don’tseeanysenseinfightingandfightingandfighting,yetalwayslosingthroughsomedernedoldlunkheadofageneral。"
  Asarcasticmanwhowastrampingattheyouth’sside,thenspokelazily。"Mebbeyehthinkyehfitth’hullbattleyestirday,Fleming,"
  heremarked。
  Thespeechpiercedtheyouth。Inwardlyhewasreducedtoanabjectpulpbythesechancewords。Hislegsquakedprivately。Hecastafrightenedglanceatthesarcasticman。
  "Why,no,"hehastenedtosayinaconcili—
  atingvoice,"Idon’tthinkIfoughtthewholebattleyesterday。"
  Buttheotherseemedinnocentofanydeepermeaning。Apparently,hehadnoinformation。
  Itwasmerelyhishabit。"Oh!"herepliedinthesametoneofcalmderision。
  Theyouth,nevertheless,feltathreat。Hismindshrankfromgoingneartothedanger,andthereafterhewassilent。Thesignificanceofthesarcasticman’swordstookfromhimallloudmoodsthatwouldmakehimappearprominent。
  Hebecamesuddenlyamodestperson。
  Therewaslow—tonedtalkamongthetroops。
  Theofficerswereimpatientandsnappy,theircountenancescloudedwiththetalesofmisfor—
  tune。Thetroops,siftingthroughtheforest,weresullen。Intheyouth’scompanyonceaman’slaughrangout。Adozensoldiersturnedtheirfacesquicklytowardhimandfrownedwithvaguedispleasure。
  Thenoiseoffiringdoggedtheirfootsteps。
  Sometimes,itseemedtobedrivenalittleway,butitalwaysreturnedagainwithincreasedinsolence。Themenmutteredandcursed,throwingblacklooksinitsdirection。
  Inaclearspacethetroopswereatlasthalted。
  Regimentsandbrigades,brokenanddetachedthroughtheirencounterswiththickets,grewtogetheragainandlineswerefacedtowardthepursuingbarkoftheenemy’sinfantry。
  Thisnoise,followingliketheyellingsofeager,metallichounds,increasedtoaloudandjoyousburst,andthen,asthesunwentserenelyupthesky,throwingilluminatingraysintothegloomythickets,itbrokeforthintoprolongedpealings。
  Thewoodsbegantocrackleasifafire。
  "Whoop—a—dadee,"saidaman,"hereweare!
  Everybodyfightin’。Bloodan’destruction。"
  "Iwaswillin’t’betthey’dattackassoonasth’sungotfairlyup,"savagelyassertedthelieutenantwhocommandedtheyouth’scompany。
  Hejerkedwithoutmercyathislittlemustache。
  Hestrodetoandfrowithdarkdignityintherearofhismen,whowerelyingdownbehindwhateverprotectiontheyhadcollected。
  Abatteryhadtrundledintopositionintherearandwasthoughtfullyshellingthedistance。
  Theregiment,unmolestedasyet,awaitedthemomentwhenthegrayshadowsofthewoodsbeforethemshouldbeslashedbythelinesofflame。Therewasmuchgrowlingandswearing。
  "GoodGawd,"theyouthgrumbled,"we’realwaysbeingchasedaroundlikerats!Itmakesmesick。Nobodyseemstoknowwherewegoorwhywego。Wejustgetfiredaroundfrompillartopostandgetlickedhereandgetlickedthere,andnobodyknowswhatit’sdonefor。Itmakesamanfeellikeadamn’kitteninabag。
  Now,I’dliketoknowwhattheeternalthunderswewasmarchedintothesewoodsforanyhow,THEREDBADGEOFCOURAGE161
  unlessitwastogivetherebsaregularpotshotatus。Wecameinhereandgotourlegsalltangledupinthesecussedbriers,andthenwebegintofightandtherebshadaneasytimeofit。
  Don’ttellmeit’sjustluck!Iknowbetter。It’sthisdernedold——"
  Thefriendseemedjaded,butheinterruptedhiscomradewithavoiceofcalmconfidence。
  "It’llturnoutallrightinth’end,"hesaid。
  "Oh,thedevilitwill!Youalwaystalklikeadog—hangedparson。Don’ttellme!Iknow——"
  Atthistimetherewasaninterpositionbythesavage—mindedlieutenant,whowasobligedtoventsomeofhisinwarddissatisfactionuponhismen。"Youboysshutrightup!Therenoneed’ayourwastin’yourbreathinlong—windedargumentsaboutthisan’thatan’th’other。
  You’vebeenjawin’likealot’aoldhens。Allyou’vegott’doistofight,an’you’llgetplenty’athatt’doinabouttenminutes。Lesstalkin’an’
  morefightin’iswhat’sbestforyouboys。Ineversawsechgabblingjackasses。"
  Hepaused,readytopounceuponanymanwhomighthavethetemeritytoreply。Nowordsbeingsaid,heresumedhisdignifiedpacing。
  "There’stoomuchchinmusican’toolittlefightin’inthiswar,anyhow,"hesaidtothem,turninghisheadforafinalremark。
  Thedayhadgrownmorewhite,untilthesunshedhisfullradianceuponthethrongedforest。
  Asortofagustofbattlecamesweepingtowardthatpartofthelinewherelaytheyouth’sregi—
  ment。Thefrontshiftedatrifletomeetitsquare—
  ly。Therewasawait。Inthispartofthefieldtherepassedslowlytheintensemomentsthatpre—
  cedethetempest。
  Asinglerifleflashedinathicketbeforetheregiment。Inaninstantitwasjoinedbymanyothers。Therewasamightysongofclashesandcrashesthatwentsweepingthroughthewoods。
  Thegunsintherear,arousedandenragedbyshellsthathadbeenthrownburlikeatthem,suddenlyinvolvedthemselvesinahideousalter—
  cationwithanotherbandofguns。Thebattleroarsettledtoarollingthunder,whichwasasingle,longexplosion。
  Intheregimenttherewasapeculiarkindofhesitationdenotedintheattitudesofthemen。
  Theywereworn,exhausted,havingsleptbutlit—
  tleandlaboredmuch。Theyrolledtheireyestowardtheadvancingbattleastheystoodawait—
  ingtheshock。Someshrankandflinched。Theystoodasmentiedtostakes。
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  CHAPTERXVII。
  THISadvanceoftheenemyhadseemedtotheyouthlikearuthlesshunting。Hebegantofumewithrageandexasperation。Hebeathisfootupontheground,andscowledwithhateattheswirlingsmokethatwasapproachinglikeaphan—
  tomflood。Therewasamaddeningqualityinthisseemingresolutionofthefoetogivehimnorest,togivehimnotimetositdownandthink。
  Yesterdayhehadfoughtandhadfledrapidly。
  Therehadbeenmanyadventures。Forto—dayhefeltthathehadearnedopportunitiesforcontem—
  plativerepose。Hecouldhaveenjoyedportrayingtouninitiatedlistenersvariousscenesatwhichhehadbeenawitnessorablydiscussingthepro—
  cessesofwarwithotherprovedmen。Tooitwasimportantthatheshouldhavetimeforphysicalrecuperation。Hewassoreandstifffromhisex—
  periences。Hehadreceivedhisfillofallexer—
  tions,andhewishedtorest。
  Butthoseothermenseemednevertogrowweary;theywerefightingwiththeiroldspeed。
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  Hehadawildhatefortherelentlessfoe。Yester—
  day,whenhehadimaginedtheuniversetobeagainsthim,hehadhatedit,littlegodsandbiggods;to—dayhehatedthearmyofthefoewiththesamegreathatred。Hewasnotgoingtobebadgeredofhislife,likeakittenchasedbyboys,hesaid。Itwasnotwelltodrivemenintofinalcorners;atthosemomentstheycouldalldevelopteethandclaws。
  Heleanedandspokeintohisfriend’sear。Hemenacedthewoodswithagesture。"Iftheykeeponchasingus,byGawd,they’dbetterwatchout。Can’tstandTOOmuch。"
  Thefriendtwistedhisheadandmadeacalmreply。"Iftheykeepona—chasin’usthey’lldriveusallintehth’river。"
  Theyouthcriedoutsavagelyatthisstate—
  ment。Hecrouchedbehindalittletree,withhiseyesburninghatefullyandhisteethsetinacur—
  likesnarl。Theawkwardbandagewasstillabouthishead,anduponit,overhiswound,therewasaspotofdryblood。Hishairwaswondrouslytousled,andsomestraggling,movinglockshungovertheclothofthebandagedowntowardhisforehead。Hisjacketandshirtwereopenatthethroat,andexposedhisyoungbronzedneck。
  Therecouldbeseenspasmodicgulpingsathisthroat。
  Hisfingerstwinednervouslyabouthisrifle。
  Hewishedthatitwasanengineofannihilatingpower。Hefeltthatheandhiscompanionswerebeingtauntedandderidedfromsincereconvic—
  tionsthattheywerepoorandpuny。Hisknowl—
  edgeofhisinabilitytotakevengeanceforitmadehisrageintoadarkandstormyspecter,thatpos—
  sessedhimandmadehimdreamofabominablecruelties。Thetormentorswerefliessuckingin—
  solentlyathisblood,andhethoughtthathewouldhavegivenhislifeforarevengeofseeingtheirfacesinpitifulplights。
  Thewindsofbattlehadsweptallabouttheregiment,untiltheonerifle,instantlyfollowedbyothers,flashedinitsfront。Amomentlatertheregimentroaredforthitssuddenandvaliantre—
  tort。Adensewallofsmokesettledslowlydown。
  Itwasfuriouslyslitandslashedbytheknifelikefirefromtherifles。
  Totheyouththefightersresembledanimalstossedforadeathstruggleintoadarkpit。Therewasasensationthatheandhisfellows,atbay,werepushingback,alwayspushingfierceon—
  slaughtsofcreatureswhowereslippery。Theirbeamsofcrimsonseemedtogetnopurchaseuponthebodiesoftheirfoes;thelatterseemedtoevadethemwithease,andcomethrough,between,around,andaboutwithunopposedskill。
  When,inadream,itoccurredtotheyouththathisriflewasanimpotentstick,helostsenseofeverythingbuthishate,hisdesiretosmashintopulptheglitteringsmileofvictorywhichhecouldfeeluponthefacesofhisenemies。
  Thebluesmoke—swallowedlinecurledandwrithedlikeasnakesteppedupon。Itswungitsendstoandfroinanagonyoffearandrage。
  Theyouthwasnotconsciousthathewaserectuponhisfeet。Hedidnotknowthedirectionoftheground。Indeed,onceheevenlostthehabitofbalanceandfellheavily。Hewasupagainimmediately。Onethoughtwentthroughthechaosofhisbrainatthetime。Hewonderedifhehadfallenbecausehehadbeenshot。Butthesuspicionflewawayatonce。Hedidnotthinkmoreofit。
  Hehadtakenupafirstpositionbehindthelit—
  tletree,withadirectdeterminationtoholditagainsttheworld。Hehadnotdeemeditpossi—
  blethathisarmycouldthatdaysucceed,andfromthishefelttheabilitytofightharder。Butthethronghadsurgedinallways,untilhelostdirectionsandlocations,savethatheknewwherelaytheenemy。
  Theflamesbithim,andthehotsmokebroiledhisskin。Hisriflebarrelgrewsohotthatordi—
  narilyhecouldnothaveborneituponhispalms;
  buthekeptonstuffingcartridgesintoit,andpoundingthemwithhisclanking,bendingram—
  rod。Ifheaimedatsomechangingformthroughthesmoke,hepulledhistriggerwithafiercegrunt,asifheweredealingablowofthefistwithallhisstrength。
  Whentheenemyseemedfallingbackbeforehimandhisfellows,hewentinstantlyforward,likeadogwho,seeinghisfoeslagging,turnsandinsistsuponbeingpursued。Andwhenhewascompelledtoretireagain,hediditslowly,sul—
  lenly,takingstepsofwrathfuldespair。
  Oncehe,inhisintenthate,wasalmostalone,andwasfiring,whenallthosenearhimhadceased。
  Hewassoengrossedinhisoccupationthathewasnotawareofalull。
  Hewasrecalledbyahoarselaughandasen—
  tencethatcametohisearsinavoiceofcontemptandamazement。"Yehinfernalfool,don’tyehknowenought’quitwhenthereain’tanythingt’
  shootat?GoodGawd!"
  Heturnedthenand,pausingwithhisriflethrownhalfintoposition,lookedatthebluelineofhiscomrades。Duringthismomentofleisuretheyseemedalltobeengagedinstaringwithastonishmentathim。Theyhadbecomespecta—
  tors。Turningtothefrontagainhesaw,undertheliftedsmoke,adesertedground。
  Helookedbewilderedforamoment。Thenthereappearedupontheglazedvacancyofhiseyesadiamondpointofintelligence。"Oh,"hesaid,comprehending。
  Hereturnedtohiscomradesandthrewhim—
  selfupontheground。Hesprawledlikeamanwhohadbeenthrashed。Hisfleshseemedstrange—
  lyonfire,andthesoundsofthebattlecontinuedinhisears。Hegropedblindlyforhiscanteen。
  Thelieutenantwascrowing。Heseemeddrunkwithfighting。Hecalledouttotheyouth:
  "Byheavens,ifIhadtenthousandwildcatslikeyouIcouldtearth’stomachoutathiswarinless’naweek!"Hepuffedouthischestwithlargedignityashesaidit。
  Someofthemenmutteredandlookedattheyouthinawe—struckways。Itwasplainthatashehadgoneonloadingandfiringandcursingwithouttheproperintermission,theyhadfoundtimetoregardhim。Andtheynowlookeduponhimasawardevil。