Hewonderedwhatthosemenhadeatenthattheycouldbeinsuchhastetoforcetheirwaytogrimchancesofdeath。Ashewatchedhisenvygrewuntilhethoughtthathewishedtochangeliveswithoneofthem。Hewouldhavelikedtohaveusedatremendousforce,hesaid,throwoffhimselfandbecomeabetter。Swiftpicturesofhimself,apart,yetinhimself,cametohim——abluedesperatefigureleadingluridchargeswithonekneeforwardandabrokenbladehigh——ablue,determinedfigurestandingbeforeacrimsonandsteelassault,gettingcalmlykilledonahighplacebeforetheeyesofall。Hethoughtofthemagnificentpathosofhisdeadbody。
Thesethoughtsupliftedhim。Hefeltthequiverofwardesire。Inhisears,heheardtheringofvictory。Heknewthefrenzyofarapidsuccessfulcharge。Themusicofthetramplingfeet,thesharpvoices,theclankingarmsofthecolumnnearhimmadehimsoarontheredwingsofwar。Forafewmomentshewassublime。
Hethoughtthathewasabouttostartforthefront。Indeed,hesawapictureofhimself,dust—
stained,haggard,panting,flyingtothefrontatthepropermomenttoseizeandthrottlethedark,leeringwitchofcalamity。
Thenthedifficultiesofthethingbegantodragathim。Hehesitated,balancingawkwardlyononefoot。
Hehadnorifle;hecouldnotfightwithhishands,saidheresentfullytohisplan。Well,riflescouldbehadforthepicking。Theywereextraordinarilyprofuse。
Also,hecontinued,itwouldbeamiracleifhefoundhisregiment。Well,hecouldfightwithanyregiment。
Hestartedforwardslowly。Hesteppedasifheexpectedtotreaduponsomeexplosivething。
Doubtsandhewerestruggling。
Hewouldtrulybeawormifanyofhiscom—
radesshouldseehimreturningthus,themarksofhisflightuponhim。Therewasareplythattheintentfightersdidnotcareforwhathappenedrearwardsavingthatnohostilebayonetsap—
pearedthere。Inthebattle—blurhisfacewould,inawaybehidden,likethefaceofacowledman。
Butthenhesaidthathistirelessfatewouldbringforth,whenthestrifelulledforamoment,amantoaskofhimanexplanation。Inimagina—
tionhefeltthescrutinyofhiscompanionsashepainfullylaboredthroughsomelies。
Eventually,hiscourageexpendeditselfupontheseobjections。Thedebatesdrainedhimofhisfire。
Hewasnotcastdownbythisdefeatofhisplan,for,uponstudyingtheaffaircarefully,hecouldnotbutadmitthattheobjectionswereveryformidable。
Furthermore,variousailmentshadbeguntocryout。Intheirpresencehecouldnotpersistinflyinghighwiththewingsofwar;theyrendereditalmostimpossibleforhimtoseehim—
selfinaheroiclight。Hetumbledheadlong。
Hediscoveredthathehadascorchingthirst。
Hisfacewassodryandgrimythathethoughthecouldfeelhisskincrackle。Eachboneofhisbodyhadanacheinit,andseeminglythreatenedtobreakwitheachmovement。Hisfeetwereliketwosores。Also,hisbodywascallingforfood。Itwasmorepowerfulthanadirecthunger。
Therewasadull,weightlikefeelinginhisstom—
ach,and,whenhetriedtowalk,hisheadswayedandhetottered。Hecouldnotseewithdistinct—
ness。Smallpatchesofgreenmistfloatedbeforehisvision。
Whilehehadbeentossedbymanyemotions,hehadnotbeenawareofailments。Nowtheybesethimandmadeclamor。Ashewasatlastcompelledtopayattentiontothem,hiscapacityforself—hatewasmultiplied。Indespair,hedeclaredthathewasnotlikethoseothers。Henowconcededittobeimpossiblethatheshouldeverbecomeahero。Hewasacravenloon。
Thosepicturesofglorywerepiteousthings。Hegroanedfromhisheartandwentstaggeringoff。
Acertainmothlikequalitywithinhimkepthiminthevicinityofthebattle。Hehadagreatdesiretosee,andtogetnews。Hewishedtoknowwhowaswinning。
Hetoldhimselfthat,despitehisunprecedentedsuffering,hehadneverlosthisgreedforavictory,yet,hesaid,inahalf—apologeticmannertohisconscience,hecouldnotbutknowthatadefeatforthearmythistimemightmeanmanyfavor—
ablethingsforhim。Theblowsoftheenemywouldsplinterregimentsintofragments。Thus,manymenofcourage,heconsidered,wouldbeobligedtodesertthecolorsandscurrylikechickens。Hewouldappearasoneofthem。
Theywouldbesullenbrothersindistress,andhecouldtheneasilybelievehehadnotrunanyfartherorfasterthanthey。Andifhehimselfcouldbelieveinhisvirtuousperfection,hecon—
ceivedthattherewouldbesmalltroubleincon—
vincingallothers。
Hesaid,asifinexcuseforthishope,thatpreviouslythearmyhadencounteredgreatdefeatsandinafewmonthshadshakenoffallbloodandtraditionofthem,emergingasbrightandvaliantasanewone;thrustingoutofsightthememoryofdisaster,andappearingwiththevalorandconfidenceofunconqueredlegions。
Theshrillingvoicesofthepeopleathomewouldpipedismallyforatime,butvariousgeneralswereusuallycompelledtolistentotheseditties。
Heofcoursefeltnocompunctionsforproposingageneralasasacrifice。Hecouldnottellwhothechosenforthebarbsmightbe,sohecouldcenternodirectsympathyuponhim。Thepeoplewereafarandhedidnotconceivepublicopiniontobeaccurateatlongrange。Itwasquiteprobabletheywouldhitthewrongmanwho,afterhehadrecoveredfromhisamazementwouldperhapsspendtherestofhisdaysinwrit—
ingrepliestothesongsofhisallegedfailure。Itwouldbeveryunfortunate,nodoubt,butinthiscaseageneralwasofnoconsequencetotheyouth。
Inadefeattherewouldbearoundaboutvindicationofhimself。Hethoughtitwouldprove,inamanner,thathehadfledearlybecauseofhissuperiorpowersofperception。Aseriousprophetuponpredictingafloodshouldbethefirstmantoclimbatree。Thiswoulddemon—
stratethathewasindeedaseer。
Amoralvindicationwasregardedbytheyouthasaveryimportantthing。Withoutsalve,hecouldnot,hethought,wearthesorebadgeofhisdishonorthroughlife。Withhisheartcon—
tinuallyassuringhimthathewasdespicable,hecouldnotexistwithoutmakingit,throughhisactions,apparenttoallmen。
Ifthearmyhadgonegloriouslyonhewouldbelost。Ifthedinmeantthatnowhisarmy’sflagsweretiltedforwardhewasacondemnedwretch。Hewouldbecompelledtodoomhimselftoisolation。Ifthemenwereadvancing,theirindifferentfeetweretramplinguponhischancesforasuccessfullife。
Asthesethoughtswentrapidlythroughhismind,heturneduponthemandtriedtothrustthemaway。Hedenouncedhimselfasavillain。
Hesaidthathewasthemostunutterablyselfishmaninexistence。Hismindpicturedthesoldierswhowouldplacetheirdefiantbodiesbeforethespearoftheyellingbattlefiend,andashesawtheirdrippingcorpsesonanimaginedfield,hesaidthathewastheirmurderer。
Againhethoughtthathewishedhewasdead。
Hebelievedthatheenviedacorpse。Thinkingoftheslain,heachievedagreatcontemptforsomeofthem,asiftheywereguiltyforthusbecominglifeless。Theymighthavebeenkilledbyluckychances,hesaid,beforetheyhadhadopportunitiestofleeorbeforetheyhadbeenreallytested。Yettheywouldreceivelaurelsfromtradition。Hecriedoutbitterlythattheircrownswerestolenandtheirrobesofglori—
ousmemorieswereshams。However,hestillsaidthatitwasagreatpityhewasnotasthey。
Adefeatofthearmyhadsuggesteditselftohimasameansofescapefromtheconsequencesofhisfall。Heconsidered,now,however,thatitwasuselesstothinkofsuchapossibility。Hiseducationhadbeenthatsuccessforthatmightybluemachinewascertain;thatitwouldmakevictoriesasacontrivanceturnsoutbuttons。Hepresentlydiscardedallhisspeculationsintheotherdirection。Hereturnedtothecreedofsoldiers。
Whenheperceivedagainthatitwasnotpossibleforthearmytobedefeated,hetriedtobethinkhimofafinetalewhichhecouldtakebacktohisregiment,andwithitturntheexpectedshaftsofderision。
But,ashemortallyfearedtheseshafts,itbecameimpossibleforhimtoinventatalehefelthecouldtrust。Heexperimentedwithmanyschemes,butthrewthemasideonebyoneasflimsy。Hewasquicktoseevulnerableplacesinthemall。
Furthermore,hewasmuchafraidthatsomearrowofscornmightlayhimmentallylowbeforehecouldraisehisprotectingtale。
Heimaginedthewholeregimentsaying:
"Where’sHenryFleming?Herun,didn’t’e?
Oh,my!"Herecalledvariouspersonswhowouldbequitesuretoleavehimnopeaceaboutit。Theywoulddoubtlessquestionhimwithsneers,andlaughathisstammeringhesi—
tation。Inthenextengagementtheywouldtrytokeepwatchofhimtodiscoverwhenhewouldrun。
Whereverhewentincamp,hewoulden—
counterinsolentandlingeringlycruelstares。Asheimaginedhimselfpassingnearacrowdofcomrades,hecouldhearsomeonesay,"Therehegoes!"
Then,asiftheheadsweremovedbyonemuscle,allthefaceswereturnedtowardhimwithwide,derisivegrins。Heseemedtohearsomeonemakeahumorousremarkinalowtone。
Atittheothersallcrowedandcackled。Hewasaslangphrase。
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CHAPTERXII。
THEcolumnthathadbuttedstoutlyattheobstaclesintheroadwaywasbarelyoutoftheyouth’ssightbeforehesawdarkwavesofmencomesweepingoutofthewoodsanddownthroughthefields。Heknewatoncethatthesteelfibershadbeenwashedfromtheirhearts。
Theywereburstingfromtheircoatsandtheirequipmentsasfromentanglements。Theychargeddownuponhimliketerrifiedbuffaloes。
Behindthembluesmokecurledandcloudedabovethetreetops,andthroughthethicketshecouldsometimesseeadistantpinkglare。Thevoicesofthecannonwereclamoringinintermi—
nablechorus。
Theyouthwashorrorstricken。Hestaredinagonyandamazement。Heforgotthathewasengagedincombatingtheuniverse。Hethrewasidehismentalpamphletsonthephiloso—
phyoftheretreatedandrulesfortheguidanceofthedamned。
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Thefightwaslost。Thedragonswerecom—
ingwithinvinciblestrides。Thearmy,helplessinthemattedthicketsandblindedbytheover—
hangingnight,wasgoingtobeswallowed。War,theredanimal,war,theblood—swollengod,wouldhavebloatedfill。
Withinhimsomethingbadetocryout。Hehadtheimpulsetomakearallyingspeech,tosingabattlehymn,buthecouldonlygethistonguetocallintotheair:"Why——why——what——what’sth’matter?"
Soonhewasinthemidstofthem。Theywereleapingandscamperingallabouthim。
Theirblanchedfacesshoneinthedusk。Theyseemed,forthemostpart,tobeveryburlymen。
Theyouthturnedfromonetoanotherofthemastheygallopedalong。Hisincoherentquestionswerelost。Theywereheedlessofhisappeals。
Theydidnotseemtoseehim。
Theysometimesgabbledinsanely。Onehugemanwasaskingofthesky:"Say,wheredeplankroad?Wheredeplankroad!"Itwasasifhehadlostachild。Heweptinhispainanddismay。
Presently,menwererunninghitherandthitherinallways。Theartillerybooming,forward,rearward,andontheflanksmadejumbleofideasofdirection。Landmarkshadvanishedintothegatheredgloom。Theyouthbegantoimaginethathehadgotintothecenterofthetremendousquarrel,andhecouldperceivenowayoutofit。Fromthemouthsofthefleeingmencameathousandwildquestions,butnoonemadeanswers。
Theyouth,afterrushingaboutandthrowinginterrogationsattheheedlessbandsofretreatinginfantry,finallyclutchedamanbythearm。Theyswungaroundfacetoface。
"Why——why——"stammeredtheyouthstrug—
glingwithhisbalkingtongue。
Themanscreamed:"Letgome!Letgome!"Hisfacewaslividandhiseyeswereroll—
inguncontrolled。Hewasheavingandpanting。
Hestillgraspedhisrifle,perhapshavingfor—
gottentoreleasehisholduponit。Hetuggedfrantically,andtheyouthbeingcompelledtoleanforwardwasdraggedseveralpaces。
"Letgome!Letgome!"
"Why——why——"stutteredtheyouth。
"Well,then!"bawledthemaninaluridrage。Headroitlyandfiercelyswunghisrifle。
Itcrushedupontheyouth’shead。Themanranon。
Theyouth’sfingershadturnedtopasteupontheother’sarm。Theenergywassmittenfromhismuscles。Hesawtheflamingwingsoflight—
ningflashbeforehisvision。Therewasadeaf—
eningrumbleofthunderwithinhishead。
Suddenlyhislegsseemedtodie。Hesankwrithingtotheground。Hetriedtoarise。Inhiseffortsagainstthenumbingpainhewaslikeamanwrestlingwithacreatureoftheair。
Therewasasinisterstruggle。
Sometimeshewouldachieveapositionhalferect,battlewiththeairforamoment,andthenfallagain,grabbingatthegrass。Hisfacewasofaclammypallor。Deepgroanswerewrenchedfromhim。
Atlast,withatwistingmovement,hegotuponhishandsandknees,andfromthence,likeababetryingtowalk,tohisfeet。Pressinghishandstohistempleshewentlurchingoverthegrass。
Hefoughtanintensebattlewithhisbody。
Hisdulledsenseswishedhimtoswoonandheopposedthemstubbornly,hismindportrayingunknowndangersandmutilationsifheshouldfalluponthefield。Hewenttallsoldierfashion。
Heimaginedsecludedspotswherehecouldfallandbeunmolested。Tosearchforonehestroveagainstthetideofhispain。
Onceheputhishandtothetopofhisheadandtimidlytouchedthewound。Thescratchingpainofthecontactmadehimdrawalongbreaththroughhisclinchedteeth。Hisfingersweredabbledwithblood。Heregardedthemwithafixedstare。
Aroundhimhecouldhearthegrumbleofjoltedcannonasthescurryinghorseswerelashedtowardthefront。Once,ayoungofficeronabesplashedchargernearlyranhimdown。Heturnedandwatchedthemassofguns,men,andhorsessweepinginawidecurvetowardagapinafence。Theofficerwasmakingexcitedmotionswithagauntletedhand。Thegunsfollowedtheteamswithanairofunwillingness,ofbeingdraggedbytheheels。
Someofficersofthescatteredinfantrywerecursingandrailinglikefishwives。Theirscold—
ingvoicescouldbeheardabovethedin。Intotheunspeakablejumbleintheroadwayrodeasquadronofcavalry。Thefadedyellowoftheirfacingsshonebravely。Therewasamightyaltercation。
Theartillerywereassemblingasifforacon—
ference。
Thebluehazeofeveningwasuponthefield。
Thelinesofforestwerelongpurpleshadows。
Onecloudlayalongthewesternskypartlysmotheringthered。
Astheyouthleftthescenebehindhim,heheardthegunssuddenlyroarout。Heimaginedthemshakinginblackrage。Theybelchedandhowledlikebrassdevilsguardingagate。Thesoftairwasfilledwiththetremendousremon—
strance。Withitcametheshatteringpealofopposinginfantry。Turningtolookbehindhim,hecouldseesheetsoforangelightilluminetheshadowydistance。Thereweresubtleandsuddenlightningsinthefarair。Attimeshethoughthecouldseeheavingmassesofmen。
Hehurriedoninthedusk。Thedayhadfadeduntilhecouldbarelydistinguishplaceforhisfeet。Thepurpledarknesswasfilledwithmenwholecturedandjabbered。Sometimeshecouldseethemgesticulatingagainsttheblueandsombersky。Thereseemedtobeagreatruckofmenandmunitionsspreadaboutintheforestandinthefields。
Thelittlenarrowroadwaynowlaylifeless。
Therewereoverturnedwagonslikesun—driedbowlders。Thebedoftheformertorrentwaschokedwiththebodiesofhorsesandsplinteredpartsofwarmachines。
Ithadcometopassthathiswoundpainedhimbutlittle。Hewasafraidtomoverapidly,how—
ever,foradreadofdisturbingit。Heheldhisheadverystillandtookmanyprecautionsagainststumbling。Hewasfilledwithanxiety,andhisfacewaspinchedanddrawninanticipationofthepainofanysuddenmistakeofhisfeetinthegloom。
Histhoughts,ashewalked,fixedintentlyuponhishurt。Therewasacool,liquidfeelingaboutitandheimaginedbloodmovingslowlydownunderhishair。Hisheadseemedswollentoasizethatmadehimthinkhisnecktobeinadequate。
Thenewsilenceofhiswoundmademuchworriment。Thelittleblisteringvoicesofpainthathadcalledoutfromhisscalpwere,hethought,definiteintheirexpressionofdanger。
Bythemhebelievedthathecouldmeasurehisplight。Butwhentheyremainedominouslysilenthebecamefrightenedandimaginedter—
riblefingersthatclutchedintohisbrain。
Amidithebegantoreflectuponvariousincidentsandconditionsofthepast。Hebe—
thoughthimofcertainmealshismotherhadcookedathome,inwhichthosedishesofwhichhewasparticularlyfondhadoccupiedprominentpositions。Hesawthespreadtable。Thepinewallsofthekitchenwereglowinginthewarmlightfromthestove。Too,herememberedhowheandhiscompanionsusedtogofromtheschool—
housetothebankofashadedpool。Hesawhisclothesindisorderlyarrayuponthegrassofthebank。Hefelttheswashofthefragrantwateruponhisbody。Theleavesoftheoverhangingmaplerustledwithmelodyinthewindofyouth—
fulsummer。
Hewasovercomepresentlybyadraggingweariness。Hisheadhungforwardandhisshoulderswerestoopedasifhewerebearingagreatbundle。Hisfeetshuffledalongtheground。
Heheldcontinuousargumentsastowhetherheshouldliedownandsleepatsomenearspot,orforcehimselfonuntilhereachedacertainhaven。Heoftentriedtodismissthequestion,buthisbodypersistedinrebellionandhissensesnaggedathimlikepamperedbabies。
Atlastheheardacheeryvoicenearhisshoulder:"Yehseemt’beinaprettybadway,boy?"
Theyouthdidnotlookup,butheassentedwiththicktongue。"Uh!"
Theownerofthecheeryvoicetookhimfirmlybythearm。"Well,"hesaid,witharoundlaugh,"I’mgoin’yourway。Th’hullgangisgoin’yourway。An’IguessIkingiveyehalift。"Theybegantowalklikeadrunkenmanandhisfriend。
Astheywentalong,themanquestionedtheyouthandassistedhimwiththereplieslikeonemanipulatingthemindofachild。Sometimesheinterjectedanecdotes。"Whatreg’mentdoyehb’longteh?Eh?What’sthat?Th’304thN’
York?Why,whatcorpsisthatin?Oh,itis?
Why,Ithoughttheywasn’tengagedt’—day——
they’re’wayoverinth’center。Oh,theywas,eh?Well,prettynearlyeverybodygottheirshare’afightin’t’—day。Bydad,Igivemyselfupferdeadanynumber’atimes。Therewasshootin’
herean’shootin’there,an’hollerin’herean’
hollerin’there,inth’damn’darkness,untilI
couldn’ttellt’savem’soulwhichsideIwason。
SometimesIthoughtIwassure’noughfromOhier,an’othertimesIcould’asworeIwasfromth’bitterendofFlorida。Itwasth’mostmixedupdernthingIeversee。An’theseherehullwoodsisareg’larmess。It’llbeamiracleifwefindourreg’mentst’—night。Prettysoon,though,we’llmeeta—plentyofguardsan’provost—
guards,an’onethingan’another。Ho!theretheygowithanoff’cer,Iguess。Lookathishanda—draggin’。He’sgotallth’warhewants,Ibet。
Hewon’tbetalkin’sobigabouthisreputationan’allwhentheygot’sawin’offhisleg。Poorfeller!Mybrother’sgotwhiskersjestlikethat。
Howdidyehgit’wayoverhere,anyhow?Yourreg’mentisalongwayfromhere,ain’tit?Well,Iguesswecanfindit。Yehknowtherewasaboykilledinmycomp’nyt’—daythatIthoughtth’worldan’allof。Jackwasanicefeller。Byginger,ithurtlikethundert’seeol’Jackjestgitknockedflat。Wewasa—standin’purtypeaceableferaspell,’thoughtherewasmenrunnin’ev’rywayall’roundus,an’whilewewasa—standin’
likethat,’longcomeabigfatfeller。Hebegant’peckatJack’selbow,an’heses:’Say,where’sth’roadt’th’river?’An’Jack,heneverpaidnoattention,an’th’fellerkeptona—peckin’athiselbowan’sayin’:’Say,where’sth’roadt’th’
river?’Jackwasa—lookin’aheadallth’timetryin’t’seeth’Johnniescomin’throughth’
woods,an’heneverpaidnoattentiont’thisbigfatfellerferalongtime,butatlastheturned’roundan’heses:’Ah,got’hellan’findth’
roadt’th’river!’An’jestthenashotslappedhimbangonth’sideth’head。Hewasasergeant,too。Themwashislastwords。Thunder,Iwishwewassure’afindin’ourreg’mentst’—night。It’sgoin’t’belonghuntin’。ButIguesswekindoit。"
Inthesearchwhichfollowed,themanofthecheeryvoiceseemedtotheyouthtopossessawandofamagickind。Hethreadedthemazesofthetangledforestwithastrangefortune。Inencounterswithguardsandpatrolshedisplayedthekeennessofadetectiveandthevalorofagamin。Obstaclesfellbeforehimandbecameofassistance。Theyouth,withhischinstillonhisbreast,stoodwoodenlybywhilehiscompanionbeatwaysandmeansoutofsullenthings。
Theforestseemedavasthiveofmenbuzzingaboutinfranticcircles,butthecheerymancon—
ductedtheyouthwithoutmistakes,untilatlasthebegantochucklewithgleeandself—satisfaction。
"Ah,thereyehare!Seethatfire?"
Theyouthnoddedstupidly。
"Well,there’swhereyourreg’mentis。An’
now,good—by,ol’boy,goodluckt’yeh。"
Awarmandstronghandclaspedtheyouth’slanguidfingersforaninstant,andthenheheardacheerfulandaudaciouswhistlingasthemanstrodeaway。Ashewhohadsobefriendedhimwasthuspassingoutofhislife,itsuddenlyoc—
curredtotheyouththathehadnotonceseenhisface。
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CHAPTERXIII。
THEyouthwentslowlytowardthefirein—
dicatedbyhisdepartedfriend。Ashereeled,hebethoughthimofthewelcomehiscomradeswouldgivehim。Hehadaconvictionthathewouldsoonfeelinhissoreheartthebarbedmissilesofridicule。Hehadnostrengthtoin—
ventatale;hewouldbeasofttarget。
Hemadevagueplanstogooffintothedeeperdarknessandhide,buttheywerealldestroyedbythevoicesofexhaustionandpainfromhisbody。Hisailments,clamoring,forcedhimtoseektheplaceoffoodandrest,atwhatevercost。
Heswungunsteadilytowardthefire。Hecouldseetheformsofmenthrowingblackshadowsintheredlight,andashewentneareritbecameknowntohiminsomewaythatthegroundwasstrewnwithsleepingmen。
Ofasuddenheconfrontedablackandmonstrousfigure。Ariflebarrelcaughtsomeglintingbeams。"Halt!halt!"Hewasdis—
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mayedforamoment,buthepresentlythoughtthatherecognizedthenervousvoice。Ashestoodtotteringbeforetheriflebarrel,hecalledout:"Why,hello,Wilson,you——youhere?"
Theriflewasloweredtoapositionofcautionandtheloudsoldiercameslowlyforward。Hepeeredintotheyouth’sface。"Thatyou,Henry?"
"Yes,it’s——it’sme。"
"Well,well,ol’boy,"saidtheother,"byginger,I’mgladt’seeyeh!Igiveyehupferagoner。Ithoughtyehwasdeadsureenough。"Therewashuskyemotioninhisvoice。
Theyouthfoundthatnowhecouldbarelystanduponhisfeet。Therewasasuddensinkingofhisforces。Hethoughthemusthastentopro—
ducehistaletoprotecthimfromthemissilesalreadyatthelipsofhisredoubtablecomrades。
So,staggeringbeforetheloudsoldier,hebegan:
"Yes,yes。I’ve——I’vehadanawfultime。I’vebeenallover。Wayoveronth’right。Ter’blefightin’overthere。Ihadanawfultime。Igotseparatedfromth’reg’ment。Overonth’right,Igotshot。Inth’head。Ineverseesechfightin’。Awfultime。Idon’tseehowIcould’agotseparatedfromth’reg’ment。Igotshot,too。"
Hisfriendhadsteppedforwardquickly。
"What?Gotshot?Whydidn’tyehsaysofirst?Poorol’boy,wemust——hol’onaminnit;
whatamIdoin’。I’llcallSimpson。"
Anotherfigureatthatmomentloomedinthegloom。Theycouldseethatitwasthecorporal。
"Whoyehtalkin’to,Wilson?"hedemanded。
Hisvoicewasanger—toned。"Whoyehtalkin’
to?Yehth’derndestsentinel——why——hello,Henry,youhere?Why,Ithoughtyouwasdeadfourhoursago!GreatJerusalem,theykeepturnin’upeverytenminutesorso!Wethoughtwe’dlostforty—twomenbystraightcount,butiftheykeepona—comin’thisway,we’llgitth’comp’nyallbackbymornin’yit。Wherewasyeh?"
"Overonth’right。Igotseparated"——begantheyouthwithconsiderableglibness。
Buthisfriendhadinterruptedhastily。"Yes,an’hegotshotinth’headan’he’sinafix,an’wemustseet’himrightaway。"Herestedhisrifleinthehollowofhisleftarmandhisrightaroundtheyouth’sshoulder。
"Gee,itmusthurtlikethunder!"hesaid。
Theyouthleanedheavilyuponhisfriend。
"Yes,ithurts——hurtsagooddeal,"hereplied。
Therewasafalteringinhisvoice。
"Oh,"saidthecorporal。Helinkedhisarmintheyouth’sanddrewhimforward。"Comeon,Henry。I’lltakekeer’ayeh。"
Astheywentontogethertheloudprivatecalledoutafterthem:"Put’imt’sleepinmyblanket,Simpson。An’——hol’onaminnit——here’smycanteen。It’sfull’acoffee。Lookathisheadbyth’firean’seehowitlooks。Maybeit’saprettybadun。WhenIgitrelievedinacouple’aminnits,I’llbeoveran’seet’him。"
Theyouth’ssensesweresodeadenedthathisfriend’svoicesoundedfromafarandhecouldscarcelyfeelthepressureofthecorporal’sarm。
Hesubmittedpassivelytothelatter’sdirectingstrength。Hisheadwasintheoldmannerhang—
ingforwarduponhisbreast。Hiskneeswobbled。
Thecorporalledhimintotheglareofthefire。"Now,Henry,"hesaid,"let’shavelookatyerol’head。"
Theyouthsatdownobedientlyandthecor—
poral,layingasidehisrifle,begantofumbleinthebushyhairofhiscomrade。Hewasobligedtoturntheother’sheadsothatthefullflushofthefirelightwouldbeamuponit。Hepuckeredhismouthwithacriticalair。Hedrewbackhislipsandwhistledthroughhisteethwhenhisfingerscameincontactwiththesplashedbloodandtherarewound。
"Ah,hereweare!"hesaid。Heawkwardlymadefurtherinvestigations。"JestasIthought,"
headded,presently。"Yeh’vebeengrazedbyaball。It’sraisedaqueerlumpjestasifsomefellerhadlammedyehonth’headwithaclub。
Itstoppeda—bleedin’longtimeago。Th’mostaboutitisthatinth’mornin’yeh’llfeelthatanumbertenhatwouldn’tfityeh。An’yourhead’llbeallhetupan’feelasdryasburntpork。
An’yehmaygitalot’aothersicknesses,too,bymornin’。Yehcan’tnevertell。Still,Idon’tmuchthinkso。It’sjestadamn’goodbeltonth’
head,an’nothin’more。Now,youjestsitherean’don’tmove,whileIgoroutoutth’relief。
ThenI’llsendWilsont’takekeer’ayeh。"
Thecorporalwentaway。Theyouthre—
mainedonthegroundlikeaparcel。Hestaredwithavacantlookintothefire。
Afteratimehearoused,forsomepart,andthethingsabouthimbegantotakeform。Hesawthatthegroundinthedeepshadowswasclutteredwithmen,sprawlingineverycon—
ceivableposture。Glancingnarrowlyintothemoredistantdarkness,hecaughtoccasionalglimpsesofvisagesthatloomedpallidandghostly,litwithaphosphorescentglow。Thesefacesexpressedintheirlinesthedeepstuporofthetiredsoldiers。Theymadethemappearlikemendrunkwithwine。Thisbitofforestmighthaveappearedtoanetherealwandererasasceneoftheresultofsomefrightfuldebauch。
Ontheothersideofthefiretheyouthobservedanofficerasleep,seatedboltupright,withhisbackagainstatree。Therewassome—
thingperilousinhisposition。Badgeredbydreams,perhaps,heswayedwithlittlebouncesandstarts,likeanoldtoddy—strickengrandfatherinachimneycorner。Dustandstainswereuponhisface。Hislowerjawhungdownasiflackingstrengthtoassumeitsnormalposition。Hewasthepictureofanexhaustedsoldierafterafeastofwar。
Hehadevidentlygonetosleepwithhisswordinhisarms。Thesetwohadslumberedinanembrace,buttheweaponhadbeenallowedintimetofallunheededtotheground。Thebrass—mountedhiltlayincontactwithsomepartsofthefire。
Withinthegleamofroseandorangelightfromtheburningstickswereothersoldiers,snoringandheaving,orlyingdeathlikeinslumber。Afewpairsoflegswerestuckforth,rigidandstraight。Theshoesdisplayedthemudordustofmarchesandbitsofroundedtrousers,protrudingfromtheblankets,showedrentsandtearsfromhurriedpitchingsthroughthedensebrambles。
Thefirecrackledmusically。Fromitswelledlightsmoke。Overheadthefoliagemovedsoftly。Theleaves,withtheirfacesturnedtowardtheblaze,werecoloredshiftinghuesofsilver,oftenedgedwithred。Farofftotheright,throughawindowintheforestcouldbeseenahandfulofstarslying,likeglitteringpebbles,ontheblacklevelofthenight。
Occasionally,inthislow—archedhall,asoldierwouldarouseandturnhisbodytoanewposi—
tion,theexperienceofhissleephavingtaughthimofunevenandobjectionableplacesuponthegroundunderhim。Or,perhaps,hewouldlifthimselftoasittingposture,blinkatthefireforanunintelligentmoment,throwaswiftglanceathisprostratecompanion,andthencuddledownagainwithagruntofsleepycontent。
Theyouthsatinaforlornheapuntilhisfriendtheloudyoungsoldiercame,swingingtwocanteensbytheirlightstrings。"Well,now,Henry,ol’boy,"saidthelatter,"we’llhaveyehfixedupinjestaboutaminnit。"
Hehadthebustlingwaysofanamateurnurse。Hefussedaroundthefireandstirredthestickstobrilliantexertions。Hemadehispatientdrinklargelyfromthecanteenthatcontainedthecoffee。Itwastotheyouthadeliciousdraught。
Hetiltedhisheadafarbackandheldthecanteenlongtohislips。Thecoolmixturewentcaress—
inglydownhisblisteredthroat。Havingfinished,hesighedwithcomfortabledelight。
Theloudyoungsoldierwatchedhiscomradewithanairofsatisfaction。Helaterproducedanextensivehandkerchieffromhispocket。Hefoldeditintoamannerofbandageandsousedwaterfromtheothercanteenuponthemiddleofit。Thiscrudearrangementheboundovertheyouth’shead,tyingtheendsinaqueerknotatthebackoftheneck。
"There,"hesaid,movingoffandsurveyinghisdeed,"yehlookliketh’devil,butIbetyehfeelbetter。"
Theyouthcontemplatedhisfriendwithgrate—
fuleyes。Uponhisachingandswellingheadthecoldclothwaslikeatenderwoman’shand。
"Yehdon’thollernersaynothin’,"remarkedhisfriendapprovingly。"IknowI’mablack—
smithattakin’keer’asickfolks,an’yehneversqueaked。Yeragoodun,Henry。Most’amenwoulda’beeninth’hospitallongago。Ashotinth’headain’tfoolin’business。"
Theyouthmadenoreply,butbegantofumblewiththebuttonsofhisjacket。
"Well,come,now,"continuedhisfriend,"comeon。Imustputyeht’bedan’seethatyehgitagoodnight’srest。"
Theothergotcarefullyerect,andtheloudyoungsoldierledhimamongthesleepingformslyingingroupsandrows。Presentlyhestoopedandpickeduphisblankets。Hespreadtherubberoneuponthegroundandplacedthewoolenoneabouttheyouth’sshoulders。
"Therenow,"hesaid,"liedownan’gitsomesleep。"
Theyouth,withhismannerofdoglikeobe—
dience,gotcarefullydownlikeacronestoop—
ing。Hestretchedoutwithamurmurofreliefandcomfort。Thegroundfeltlikethesoftestcouch。
Butofasuddenheejaculated:"Hol’onaminnit!Whereyougoin’t’sleep?"
Hisfriendwavedhishandimpatiently。
"Rightdowntherebyyeh。"
"Well,buthol’onaminnit,"continuedtheyouth。"Whatyehgoin’t’sleepin?I’vegotyour——"
Theloudyoungsoldiersnarled:"Shetupan’goont’sleep。Don’tbemakin’adamn’fool’ayerself,"hesaidseverely。
Afterthereprooftheyouthsaidnomore。
Anexquisitedrowsinesshadspreadthroughhim。
Thewarmcomfortoftheblanketenvelopedhimandmadeagentlelanguor。Hisheadfellfor—
wardonhiscrookedarmandhisweightedlidswentsoftlydownoverhiseyes。Hearingasplatterofmusketryfromthedistance,hewonderedindifferentlyifthosemensometimesslept。Hegavealongsigh,snuggleddownintohisblanket,andinamomentwaslikehiscom—
rades。
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CHAPTERXIV。
WHENtheyouthawokeitseemedtohimthathehadbeenasleepforathousandyears,andhefeltsurethatheopenedhiseyesuponanunex—
pectedworld。Graymistswereslowlyshiftingbeforethefirsteffortsofthesunrays。Anim—
pendingsplendorcouldbeseenintheeasternsky。Anicydewhadchilledhisface,andim—
mediatelyuponarousinghecurledfartherdownintohisblanket。Hestaredforawhileattheleavesoverhead,movinginaheraldicwindoftheday。
Thedistancewassplinteringandblaringwiththenoiseoffighting。Therewasinthesoundanexpressionofadeadlypersistency,asifithadnotbegunandwasnottocease。
Abouthimweretherowsandgroupsofmenthathehaddimlyseenthepreviousnight。Theyweregettingalastdraughtofsleepbeforetheawakening。Thegaunt,carewornfeaturesanddustyfiguresweremadeplainbythisquaint139
lightatthedawning,butitdressedtheskinofthemenincorpselikehuesandmadethetangledlimbsappearpulselessanddead。Theyouthstartedupwithalittlecrywhenhiseyesfirstsweptoverthismotionlessmassofmen,thick—
spreadupontheground,pallid,andinstrangepostures。Hisdisorderedmindinterpretedthehalloftheforestasacharnelplace。Hebelievedforaninstantthathewasinthehouseofthedead,andhedidnotdaretomovelestthesecorpsesstartup,squallingandsquawking。Inasecond,however,heachievedhispropermind。
Hesworeacomplicatedoathathimself。Hesawthatthissomberpicturewasnotafactofthepresent,butamereprophecy。
Heheardthenthenoiseofafirecracklingbrisklyinthecoldair,and,turninghishead,hesawhisfriendpotteringbusilyaboutasmallblaze。Afewotherfiguresmovedinthefog,andheheardthehardcrackingofaxeblows。
Suddenlytherewasahollowrumbleofdrums。Adistantbuglesangfaintly。Similarsounds,varyinginstrength,camefromnearandfarovertheforest。Thebuglescalledtoeachotherlikebrazengamecocks。Thenearthunderoftheregimentaldrumsrolled。
Thebodyofmeninthewoodsrustled。Therewasageneralupliftingofheads。Amurmuringofvoicesbrokeupontheair。Inittherewasmuchbassofgrumblingoaths。Strangegodswereaddressedincondemnationoftheearlyhoursnecessarytocorrectwar。Anofficer’speremptorytenorrangoutandquickenedthestiffenedmovementofthemen。Thetangledlimbsunraveled。Thecorpse—huedfaceswerehiddenbehindfiststhattwistedslowlyintheeyesockets。
Theyouthsatupandgaveventtoanenormousyawn。"Thunder!"heremarkedpetulantly。
Herubbedhiseyes,andthenputtinguphishandfeltcarefullyofthebandageoverhiswound。
Hisfriend,perceivinghimtobeawake,camefromthefire。"Well,Henry,ol’man,howdoyehfeelthismornin’?"hedemanded。
Theyouthyawnedagain。Thenhepuckeredhismouthtoalittlepucker。Hishead,intruth,feltpreciselylikeamelon,andtherewasanun—
pleasantsensationathisstomach。
"Oh,Lord,Ifeelprettybad,"hesaid。
"Thunder!"exclaimedtheother。"Ihopedye’dfeelallrightthismornin’。Let’sseeth’
bandage——Iguessit’sslipped。"Hebegantotinkeratthewoundinratheraclumsywayuntiltheyouthexploded。
"Gosh—dernit!"hesaidinsharpirritation;
"you’rethehangdestmanIeversaw!Youwearmuffsonyourhands。Whyingoodthunderationcan’tyoubemoreeasy?I’dratheryou’dstandoffan’throwgunsatit。Now,goslow,an’don’tactasifyouwasnailingdowncarpet。"
Heglaredwithinsolentcommandathisfriend,butthelatteransweredsoothingly。
"Well,well,comenow,an’gitsomegrub,"hesaid。"Then,maybe,yeh’llfeelbetter。"
Atthefiresidetheloudyoungsoldierwatchedoverhiscomrade’swantswithtender—
nessandcare。Hewasverybusymarshalingthelittleblackvagabondsoftincupsandpour—
ingintothemthestreaming,ironcoloredmixturefromasmallandsootytinpail。Hehadsomefreshmeat,whichheroastedhurriedlyuponastick。Hesatdownthenandcontemplatedtheyouth’sappetitewithglee。
Theyouthtooknoteofaremarkablechangeinhiscomradesincethosedaysofcamplifeupontheriverbank。Heseemednomoretobecon—
tinuallyregardingtheproportionsofhispersonalprowess。Hewasnotfuriousatsmallwordsthatprickedhisconceits。Hewasnomorealoudyoungsoldier。Therewasabouthimnowafinereliance。Heshowedaquietbeliefinhispurposesandhisabilities。Andthisin—
wardconfidenceevidentlyenabledhimtobeindifferenttolittlewordsofothermenaimedathim。
Theyouthreflected。Hehadbeenusedtoregardinghiscomradeasablatantchildwithanaudacitygrownfromhisinexperience,thought—
less,headstrong,jealous,andfilledwithatinselcourage。Aswaggeringbabeaccustomedtostrutinhisowndooryard。Theyouthwonderedwherehadbeenborntheseneweyes;whenhiscomradehadmadethegreatdiscoverythatthereweremanymenwhowouldrefusetobesubjectedbyhim。Apparently,theotherhadnowclimbedapeakofwisdomfromwhichhecouldperceivehimselfasaveryweething。Andtheyouthsawthateverafteritwouldbeeasiertoliveinhisfriend’sneighborhood。
Hiscomradebalancedhisebonycoffee—cuponhisknee。"Well,Henry,"hesaid,"whatd’yehthinkth’chancesare?D’yehthinkwe’llwal—
lop’em?"
Theyouthconsideredforamoment。"Day—
b’fore—yesterday,"hefinallyreplied,withboldness,"youwould’a’betyou’dlickthehullkit—an’—
boodleallbyyourself。"
Hisfriendlookedatrifleamazed。"WouldI?"heasked。Hepondered。"Well,perhapsI
would,"hedecidedatlast。Hestaredhumblyatthefire。
Theyouthwasquitedisconcertedatthissur—
prisingreceptionofhisremarks。"Oh,no,youwouldn’teither,"hesaid,hastilytryingtore—
trace。
Buttheothermadeadeprecatinggesture。
"Oh,yehneedn’tmind,Henry,"hesaid。"Ibe—
lieveIwasaprettybigfoolinthosedays。"Hespokeasafteralapseofyears。
Therewasalittlepause。
"Allth’officerssaywe’vegotth’rebsinaprettytightbox,"saidthefriend,clearinghisthroatinacommonplaceway。"Theyallseemt’thinkwe’vegot’emjestwherewewant’em。"
"Idon’tknowaboutthat,"theyouthreplied。
"WhatIseenoveronth’rightmakesmethinkitwasth’otherwayabout。FromwhereIwas,itlookedasifwewasgettin’agoodpoundin’
yestirday。"
"D’yehthinkso?"inquiredthefriend。"I
thoughtwehandled’emprettyroughyestir—
day。"
"Notabit,"saidtheyouth。"Why,lord,man,youdidn’tseenothingofthefight。Why!"
Thenasuddenthoughtcametohim。"Oh!
JimConklin’sdead。"
Hisfriendstarted。"What?Ishe?JimConklin?"
Theyouthspokeslowly。"Yes。He’sdead。
Shotinth’side。"
"Yehdon’tsayso。JimConklin……poorcuss!"
Allaboutthemwereothersmallfiressur—
roundedbymenwiththeirlittleblackutensils。
Fromoneofthesenearcamesuddensharpvoicesinarow。Itappearedthattwolight—
footedsoldiershadbeenteasingahuge,beardedman,causinghimtospillcoffeeuponhisblueknees。Themanhadgoneintoarageandhadsworncomprehensively。Stungbyhislanguage,histormentorshadimmediatelybristledathimwithagreatshowofresentingunjustoaths。
Possiblytherewasgoingtobeafight。
Thefriendaroseandwentovertothem,mak—
ingpacificmotionswithhisarms。"Oh,here,now,boys,what’sth’use?"hesaid。"We’llbeatth’rebsinless’nanhour。What’sth’
goodfightin’’mongourselves?"
Oneofthelight—footedsoldiersturneduponhimred—facedandviolent。"Yehneedn’tcomearoundherewithyerpreachin’。Is’poseyehdon’tapprove’afightin’sinceCharleyMorganlickedyeh;butIdon’tseewhatbusinessthishereis’ayoursoranybodyelse。"
"Well,itain’t,"saidthefriendmildly。"StillIhatet’see——"
Therewasatangledargument。
"Well,he——,"saidthetwo,indicatingtheiropponentwithaccusativeforefingers。
Thehugesoldierwasquitepurplewithrage。
Hepointedatthetwosoldierswithhisgreathand,extendedclawlike。"Well,they——"
Butduringthisargumentativetimethede—
siretodealblowsseemedtopass,althoughtheysaidmuchtoeachother。Finallythefriendre—
turnedtohisoldseat。Inashortwhilethethreeantagonistscouldbeseentogetherinanamiablebunch。
"JimmieRogerssesI’llhavet’fighthimafterth’battlet’—day,"announcedthefriendasheagainseatedhimself。"Heseshedon’tallownointerferin’inhisbusiness。Ihatet’seeth’boysfightin’’mongthemselves。"
Theyouthlaughed。"Yerchangedagoodbit。Yehain’tatalllikeyehwas。Irememberwhenyouan’thatIrishfeller——"Hestoppedandlaughedagain。
"No,Ididn’tuset’bethatway,"saidhisfriendthoughtfully。"That’strue’nough。"
"Well,Ididn’tmean——"begantheyouth。
Thefriendmadeanotherdeprecatorygesture。
"Oh,yehneedn’tmind,Henry。"
Therewasanotherlittlepause。
"Th’reg’mentlostoverhalfth’menyestir—
day,"remarkedthefriendeventually。"Ithoughtacoursetheywasalldead,but,laws,theykep’
a—comin’backlastnightuntilitseems,afterall,wedidn’tlosebutafew。They’dbeenscatteredallover,wanderin’aroundinth’woods,fightin’
withotherreg’ments,an’everything。Jestlikeyoudone。"
"So?"saidtheyouth。
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CHAPTERXV。
THEregimentwasstandingatorderarmsatthesideofalane,waitingforthecommandtomarch,whensuddenlytheyouthrememberedthelittlepacketenwrappedinafadedyellowenvelopewhichtheloudyoungsoldierwithlugu—
briouswordshadintrustedtohim。Itmadehimstart。Heutteredanexclamationandturnedtowardhiscomrade。
"Wilson!"
"What?"
Hisfriend,athissideintheranks,wasthought—
fullystaringdowntheroad。Fromsomecausehisexpressionwasatthatmomentverymeek。
Theyouth,regardinghimwithsidelongglances,feltimpelledtochangehispurpose。"Oh,noth—
ing,"hesaid。
Hisfriendturnedhisheadinsomesurprise,"Why,whatwasyehgoin’t’say?"
"Oh,nothing,"repeatedtheyouth。
Heresolvednottodealthelittleblow。It148
wassufficientthatthefactmadehimglad。Itwasnotnecessarytoknockhisfriendontheheadwiththemisguidedpacket。
Hehadbeenpossessedofmuchfearofhisfriend,forhesawhoweasilyquestioningscouldmakeholesinhisfeelings。Lately,hehadas—
suredhimselfthatthealteredcomradewouldnottantalizehimwithapersistentcuriosity,buthefeltcertainthatduringthefirstperiodofleisurehisfriendwouldaskhimtorelatehisadventuresofthepreviousday。
Henowrejoicedinthepossessionofasmallweaponwithwhichhecouldprostratehiscom—
radeatthefirstsignsofacross—examination。Hewasmaster。Itwouldnowbehewhocouldlaughandshoottheshaftsofderision。
Thefriendhad,inaweakhour,spokenwithsobsofhisowndeath。Hehaddeliveredamel—
ancholyorationprevioustohisfuneral,andhaddoubtlessinthepacketofletters,presentedvari—
ouskeepsakestorelatives。Buthehadnotdied,andthushehaddeliveredhimselfintothehandsoftheyouth。
Thelatterfeltimmenselysuperiortohisfriend,butheinclinedtocondescension。Headoptedtowardhimanairofpatronizinggoodhumor。
Hisself—pridewasnowentirelyrestored。Intheshadeofitsflourishinggrowthhestoodwithbracedandself—confidentlegs,andsincenothingcouldnowbediscoveredhedidnotshrinkfromanencounterwiththeeyesofjudges,andallowednothoughtsofhisowntokeephimfromanattitudeofmanfulness。Hehadperformedhismistakesinthedark,sohewasstillaman。
Indeed,whenherememberedhisfortunesofyesterday,andlookedatthemfromadistancehebegantoseesomethingfinethere。Hehadlicensetobepompousandveteranlike。
Hispantingagoniesofthepastheputoutofhissight。
Inthepresent,hedeclaredtohimselfthatitwasonlythedoomedandthedamnedwhoroaredwithsincerityatcircumstance。Fewbuttheyeverdidit。Amanwithafullstomachandtherespectofhisfellowshadnobusinesstoscoldaboutanythingthathemightthinktobewronginthewaysoftheuniverse,orevenwiththewaysofsociety。Lettheunfortunatesrail;theothersmayplaymarbles。
Hedidnotgiveagreatdealofthoughttothesebattlesthatlaydirectlybeforehim。Itwasnotessentialthatheshouldplanhiswaysinregardtothem。Hehadbeentaughtthatmanyobligationsofalifewereeasilyavoided。Thelessonsofyesterdayhadbeenthatretributionwasalaggardandblind。Withthesefactsbeforehimhedidnotdeemitnecessarythatheshouldbecomefeverishoverthepossibilitiesoftheensuingtwenty—fourhours。Hecouldleavemuchtochance。Besides,afaithinhimselfhadsecretlyblossomed。Therewasalittleflowerofconfidencegrowingwithinhim。Hewasnowamanofexperience。Hehadbeenoutamongthedragons,hesaid,andheassuredhimselfthattheywerenotsohideousashehadimaginedthem。
Also,theywereinaccurate;theydidnotstingwithprecision。Astoutheartoftendefied,anddefying,escaped。
And,furthermore,howcouldtheykillhimwhowasthechosenofgodsanddoomedtogreatness?
Herememberedhowsomeofthemenhadrunfromthebattle。Asherecalledtheirterror—
struckfaceshefeltascornforthem。Theyhadsurelybeenmorefleetandmorewildthanwasabsolutelynecessary。Theywereweakmortals。
Asforhimself,hehadfledwithdiscretionanddignity。
Hewasarousedfromthisreveriebyhisfriend,who,havinghitchedaboutnervouslyandblinkedatthetreesforatime,suddenlycoughedinanintroductoryway,andspoke。
"Fleming!"
"What?"
Thefriendputhishanduptohismouthandcoughedagain。Hefidgetedinhisjacket。
"Well,"hegulped,atlast,"Iguessyehmightaswellgivemebackthemletters。"Dark,prick—
lingbloodhadflushedintohischeeksandbrow。
"Allright,Wilson,"saidtheyouth。Heloosenedtwobuttonsofhiscoat,thrustinhishand,andbroughtforththepacket。Asheex—
tendedittohisfriendthelatter’sfacewasturnedfromhim。
Hehadbeenslowintheactofproducingthepacketbecauseduringithehadbeentryingtoinventaremarkablecommentupontheaffair。
Hecouldconjurenothingofsufficientpoint。Hewascompelledtoallowhisfriendtoescapeunmolestedwithhispacket。Andforthishetookuntohimselfconsiderablecredit。Itwasagenerousthing。
Hisfriendathissideseemedsufferinggreatshame。Ashecontemplatedhim,theyouthfelthisheartgrowmorestrongandstout。Hehadneverbeencompelledtoblushinsuchmannerforhisacts;hewasanindividualofextraordi—
naryvirtues。
Hereflected,withcondescendingpity:"Toobad!Toobad!Thepoordevil,itmakeshimfeeltough!"
Afterthisincident,andashereviewedthebattlepictureshehadseen,hefeltquitecom—
petenttoreturnhomeandmaketheheartsofthepeopleglowwithstoriesofwar。Hecouldseehimselfinaroomofwarmtintstellingtalestolisteners。Hecouldexhibitlaurels。Theywereinsignificant;still,inadistrictwherelaurelswereinfrequent,theymightshine。
Hesawhisgapingaudiencepicturinghimasthecentralfigureinblazingscenes。Andheimaginedtheconsternationandtheejaculationsofhismotherandtheyoungladyattheseminaryastheydrankhisrecitals。Theirvaguefeminineformulaforbelovedonesdoingbravedeedsonthefieldofbattlewithoutriskoflifewouldbedestroyed。
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CHAPTERXVI。
ASPUTTERINGofmusketrywasalwaystobeheard。Later,thecannonhadenteredthedis—
pute。Inthefog—filledairtheirvoicesmadeathuddingsound。Thereverberationswerecon—
tinued。Thispartoftheworldledastrange,battlefulexistence。
Theyouth’sregimentwasmarchedtorelieveacommandthathadlainlonginsomedamptrenches。Thementookpositionsbehindacurv—
inglineofriflepitsthathadbeenturnedup,likealargefurrow,alongthelineofwoods。Beforethemwasalevelstretch,peopledwithshort,deformedstumps。Fromthewoodsbeyondcamethedullpoppingoftheskirmishersandpickets,firinginthefog。Fromtherightcamethenoiseofaterrificfracas。
Themencuddledbehindthesmallembank—
mentandsatineasyattitudesawaitingtheirturn。Manyhadtheirbackstothefiring。Theyouth’sfriendlaydown,buriedhisfaceinhis154
arms,andalmostinstantly,itseemed,hewasinadeepsleep。
Theyouthleanedhisbreastagainstthebrowndirtandpeeredoveratthewoodsandupanddowntheline。Curtainsoftreesinterferedwithhiswaysofvision。Hecouldseethelowlineoftrenchesbutforashortdistance。Afewidleflagswereperchedonthedirthills。Behindthemwererowsofdarkbodieswithafewheadsstickingcuriouslyoverthetop。
Alwaysthenoiseofskirmisherscamefromthewoodsonthefrontandleft,andthedinontherighthadgrowntofrightfulproportions。
Thegunswereroaringwithoutaninstant’spauseforbreath。Itseemedthatthecannonhadcomefromallpartsandwereengagedinastupendouswrangle。Itbecameimpossibletomakeasen—
tenceheard。
Theyouthwishedtolaunchajoke——aquota—
tionfromnewspapers。Hedesiredtosay,"AllquietontheRappahannock,"butthegunsrefusedtopermitevenacommentupontheiruproar。
Heneversuccessfullyconcludedthesentence。
Butatlastthegunsstopped,andamongthemenintheriflepitsrumorsagainflew,likebirds,buttheywerenowforthemostpartblackcreatureswhoflappedtheirwingsdrearilyneartothegroundandrefusedtoriseonanywingsofhope。Themen’sfacesgrewdolefulfromtheinterpretingofomens。Talesofhesitationanduncertaintyonthepartofthosehighinplaceandresponsibilitycametotheirears。Storiesofdisasterwereborneintotheirmindswithmanyproofs。Thisdinofmusketryontheright,grow—
inglikeareleasedgenieofsound,expressedandemphasizedthearmy’splight。
Themenweredisheartenedandbegantomutter。Theymadegesturesexpressiveofthesentence:"Ah,whatmorecanwedo?"Anditcouldalwaysbeseenthattheywerebewilderedbytheallegednewsandcouldnotfullycompre—
hendadefeat。
Beforethegraymistshadbeentotallyob—
literatedbythesunrays,theregimentwasmarch—
inginaspreadcolumnthatwasretiringcarefullythroughthewoods。Thedisordered,hurryinglinesoftheenemycouldsometimesbeseendownthroughthegrovesandlittlefields。Theywereyelling,shrillandexultant。
Atthissighttheyouthforgotmanypersonalmattersandbecamegreatlyenraged。Heex—
plodedinloudsentences。"B’jiminey,we’regeneraledbyalot’alunkheads。"
"Morethanonefellerhassaidthatt’—day,"
observedaman。
Hisfriend,recentlyaroused,wasstillverydrowsy。Helookedbehindhimuntilhismindtookinthemeaningofthemovement。Thenhesighed。"Oh,well,Is’posewegotlicked,"heremarkedsadly。
Theyouthhadathoughtthatitwouldnotbehandsomeforhimtofreelycondemnothermen。
Hemadeanattempttorestrainhimself,butthewordsuponhistongueweretoobitter。Hepresentlybeganalongandintricatedenunciationofthecommanderoftheforces。
"Mebbe,itwa’n’tallhisfault——notallto—
gether。Hedidth’bestheknowed。It’sourluckt’gitlickedoften,"saidhisfriendinawearytone。Hewastrudgingalongwithstoopedshouldersandshiftingeyeslikeamanwhohasbeencanedandkicked。
"Well,don’twefightlikethedevil?Don’twedoallthatmencan?"demandedtheyouthloudly。
Hewassecretlydumfoundedatthissentimentwhenitcamefromhislips。Foramomenthisfacelostitsvalorandhelookedguiltilyabouthim。Butnoonequestionedhisrighttodealinsuchwords,andpresentlyherecoveredhisairofcourage。Hewentontorepeatastatementhehadheardgoingfromgrouptogroupatthecampthatmorning。"Thebrigadiersaidheneversawanewreg’mentfightthewaywefoughtyestirday,didn’the?Andwedidn’tdobetterthanmanyanotherreg’ment,didwe?
Well,then,youcan’tsayit’sth’army’sfault,canyou?"
Inhisreply,thefriend’svoicewasstern。"’A
coursenot,"hesaid。"Nomandaresaywedon’tfightliketh’devil。Nomanwilleverdaresayit。Th’boysfightlikehell—roosters。Butstill——still,wedon’thavenoluck。"
"Well,then,ifwefightlikethedevilan’
don’teverwhip,itmustbethegeneral’sfault,"
saidtheyouthgrandlyanddecisively。"AndI
don’tseeanysenseinfightingandfightingandfighting,yetalwayslosingthroughsomedernedoldlunkheadofageneral。"
Asarcasticmanwhowastrampingattheyouth’sside,thenspokelazily。"Mebbeyehthinkyehfitth’hullbattleyestirday,Fleming,"
heremarked。
Thespeechpiercedtheyouth。Inwardlyhewasreducedtoanabjectpulpbythesechancewords。Hislegsquakedprivately。Hecastafrightenedglanceatthesarcasticman。
"Why,no,"hehastenedtosayinaconcili—
atingvoice,"Idon’tthinkIfoughtthewholebattleyesterday。"
Buttheotherseemedinnocentofanydeepermeaning。Apparently,hehadnoinformation。
Itwasmerelyhishabit。"Oh!"herepliedinthesametoneofcalmderision。
Theyouth,nevertheless,feltathreat。Hismindshrankfromgoingneartothedanger,andthereafterhewassilent。Thesignificanceofthesarcasticman’swordstookfromhimallloudmoodsthatwouldmakehimappearprominent。
Hebecamesuddenlyamodestperson。
Therewaslow—tonedtalkamongthetroops。
Theofficerswereimpatientandsnappy,theircountenancescloudedwiththetalesofmisfor—
tune。Thetroops,siftingthroughtheforest,weresullen。Intheyouth’scompanyonceaman’slaughrangout。Adozensoldiersturnedtheirfacesquicklytowardhimandfrownedwithvaguedispleasure。
Thenoiseoffiringdoggedtheirfootsteps。
Sometimes,itseemedtobedrivenalittleway,butitalwaysreturnedagainwithincreasedinsolence。Themenmutteredandcursed,throwingblacklooksinitsdirection。
Inaclearspacethetroopswereatlasthalted。
Regimentsandbrigades,brokenanddetachedthroughtheirencounterswiththickets,grewtogetheragainandlineswerefacedtowardthepursuingbarkoftheenemy’sinfantry。
Thisnoise,followingliketheyellingsofeager,metallichounds,increasedtoaloudandjoyousburst,andthen,asthesunwentserenelyupthesky,throwingilluminatingraysintothegloomythickets,itbrokeforthintoprolongedpealings。
Thewoodsbegantocrackleasifafire。
"Whoop—a—dadee,"saidaman,"hereweare!
Everybodyfightin’。Bloodan’destruction。"
"Iwaswillin’t’betthey’dattackassoonasth’sungotfairlyup,"savagelyassertedthelieutenantwhocommandedtheyouth’scompany。
Hejerkedwithoutmercyathislittlemustache。
Hestrodetoandfrowithdarkdignityintherearofhismen,whowerelyingdownbehindwhateverprotectiontheyhadcollected。
Abatteryhadtrundledintopositionintherearandwasthoughtfullyshellingthedistance。
Theregiment,unmolestedasyet,awaitedthemomentwhenthegrayshadowsofthewoodsbeforethemshouldbeslashedbythelinesofflame。Therewasmuchgrowlingandswearing。
"GoodGawd,"theyouthgrumbled,"we’realwaysbeingchasedaroundlikerats!Itmakesmesick。Nobodyseemstoknowwherewegoorwhywego。Wejustgetfiredaroundfrompillartopostandgetlickedhereandgetlickedthere,andnobodyknowswhatit’sdonefor。Itmakesamanfeellikeadamn’kitteninabag。
Now,I’dliketoknowwhattheeternalthunderswewasmarchedintothesewoodsforanyhow,THEREDBADGEOFCOURAGE161
unlessitwastogivetherebsaregularpotshotatus。Wecameinhereandgotourlegsalltangledupinthesecussedbriers,andthenwebegintofightandtherebshadaneasytimeofit。
Don’ttellmeit’sjustluck!Iknowbetter。It’sthisdernedold——"
Thefriendseemedjaded,butheinterruptedhiscomradewithavoiceofcalmconfidence。
"It’llturnoutallrightinth’end,"hesaid。
"Oh,thedevilitwill!Youalwaystalklikeadog—hangedparson。Don’ttellme!Iknow——"
Atthistimetherewasaninterpositionbythesavage—mindedlieutenant,whowasobligedtoventsomeofhisinwarddissatisfactionuponhismen。"Youboysshutrightup!Therenoneed’ayourwastin’yourbreathinlong—windedargumentsaboutthisan’thatan’th’other。
You’vebeenjawin’likealot’aoldhens。Allyou’vegott’doistofight,an’you’llgetplenty’athatt’doinabouttenminutes。Lesstalkin’an’
morefightin’iswhat’sbestforyouboys。Ineversawsechgabblingjackasses。"
Hepaused,readytopounceuponanymanwhomighthavethetemeritytoreply。Nowordsbeingsaid,heresumedhisdignifiedpacing。
"There’stoomuchchinmusican’toolittlefightin’inthiswar,anyhow,"hesaidtothem,turninghisheadforafinalremark。
Thedayhadgrownmorewhite,untilthesunshedhisfullradianceuponthethrongedforest。
Asortofagustofbattlecamesweepingtowardthatpartofthelinewherelaytheyouth’sregi—
ment。Thefrontshiftedatrifletomeetitsquare—
ly。Therewasawait。Inthispartofthefieldtherepassedslowlytheintensemomentsthatpre—
cedethetempest。
Asinglerifleflashedinathicketbeforetheregiment。Inaninstantitwasjoinedbymanyothers。Therewasamightysongofclashesandcrashesthatwentsweepingthroughthewoods。
Thegunsintherear,arousedandenragedbyshellsthathadbeenthrownburlikeatthem,suddenlyinvolvedthemselvesinahideousalter—
cationwithanotherbandofguns。Thebattleroarsettledtoarollingthunder,whichwasasingle,longexplosion。
Intheregimenttherewasapeculiarkindofhesitationdenotedintheattitudesofthemen。
Theywereworn,exhausted,havingsleptbutlit—
tleandlaboredmuch。Theyrolledtheireyestowardtheadvancingbattleastheystoodawait—
ingtheshock。Someshrankandflinched。Theystoodasmentiedtostakes。
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CHAPTERXVII。
THISadvanceoftheenemyhadseemedtotheyouthlikearuthlesshunting。Hebegantofumewithrageandexasperation。Hebeathisfootupontheground,andscowledwithhateattheswirlingsmokethatwasapproachinglikeaphan—
tomflood。Therewasamaddeningqualityinthisseemingresolutionofthefoetogivehimnorest,togivehimnotimetositdownandthink。
Yesterdayhehadfoughtandhadfledrapidly。
Therehadbeenmanyadventures。Forto—dayhefeltthathehadearnedopportunitiesforcontem—
plativerepose。Hecouldhaveenjoyedportrayingtouninitiatedlistenersvariousscenesatwhichhehadbeenawitnessorablydiscussingthepro—
cessesofwarwithotherprovedmen。Tooitwasimportantthatheshouldhavetimeforphysicalrecuperation。Hewassoreandstifffromhisex—
periences。Hehadreceivedhisfillofallexer—
tions,andhewishedtorest。
Butthoseothermenseemednevertogrowweary;theywerefightingwiththeiroldspeed。
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Hehadawildhatefortherelentlessfoe。Yester—
day,whenhehadimaginedtheuniversetobeagainsthim,hehadhatedit,littlegodsandbiggods;to—dayhehatedthearmyofthefoewiththesamegreathatred。Hewasnotgoingtobebadgeredofhislife,likeakittenchasedbyboys,hesaid。Itwasnotwelltodrivemenintofinalcorners;atthosemomentstheycouldalldevelopteethandclaws。
Heleanedandspokeintohisfriend’sear。Hemenacedthewoodswithagesture。"Iftheykeeponchasingus,byGawd,they’dbetterwatchout。Can’tstandTOOmuch。"
Thefriendtwistedhisheadandmadeacalmreply。"Iftheykeepona—chasin’usthey’lldriveusallintehth’river。"
Theyouthcriedoutsavagelyatthisstate—
ment。Hecrouchedbehindalittletree,withhiseyesburninghatefullyandhisteethsetinacur—
likesnarl。Theawkwardbandagewasstillabouthishead,anduponit,overhiswound,therewasaspotofdryblood。Hishairwaswondrouslytousled,andsomestraggling,movinglockshungovertheclothofthebandagedowntowardhisforehead。Hisjacketandshirtwereopenatthethroat,andexposedhisyoungbronzedneck。
Therecouldbeseenspasmodicgulpingsathisthroat。
Hisfingerstwinednervouslyabouthisrifle。
Hewishedthatitwasanengineofannihilatingpower。Hefeltthatheandhiscompanionswerebeingtauntedandderidedfromsincereconvic—
tionsthattheywerepoorandpuny。Hisknowl—
edgeofhisinabilitytotakevengeanceforitmadehisrageintoadarkandstormyspecter,thatpos—
sessedhimandmadehimdreamofabominablecruelties。Thetormentorswerefliessuckingin—
solentlyathisblood,andhethoughtthathewouldhavegivenhislifeforarevengeofseeingtheirfacesinpitifulplights。
Thewindsofbattlehadsweptallabouttheregiment,untiltheonerifle,instantlyfollowedbyothers,flashedinitsfront。Amomentlatertheregimentroaredforthitssuddenandvaliantre—
tort。Adensewallofsmokesettledslowlydown。
Itwasfuriouslyslitandslashedbytheknifelikefirefromtherifles。
Totheyouththefightersresembledanimalstossedforadeathstruggleintoadarkpit。Therewasasensationthatheandhisfellows,atbay,werepushingback,alwayspushingfierceon—
slaughtsofcreatureswhowereslippery。Theirbeamsofcrimsonseemedtogetnopurchaseuponthebodiesoftheirfoes;thelatterseemedtoevadethemwithease,andcomethrough,between,around,andaboutwithunopposedskill。
When,inadream,itoccurredtotheyouththathisriflewasanimpotentstick,helostsenseofeverythingbuthishate,hisdesiretosmashintopulptheglitteringsmileofvictorywhichhecouldfeeluponthefacesofhisenemies。
Thebluesmoke—swallowedlinecurledandwrithedlikeasnakesteppedupon。Itswungitsendstoandfroinanagonyoffearandrage。
Theyouthwasnotconsciousthathewaserectuponhisfeet。Hedidnotknowthedirectionoftheground。Indeed,onceheevenlostthehabitofbalanceandfellheavily。Hewasupagainimmediately。Onethoughtwentthroughthechaosofhisbrainatthetime。Hewonderedifhehadfallenbecausehehadbeenshot。Butthesuspicionflewawayatonce。Hedidnotthinkmoreofit。
Hehadtakenupafirstpositionbehindthelit—
tletree,withadirectdeterminationtoholditagainsttheworld。Hehadnotdeemeditpossi—
blethathisarmycouldthatdaysucceed,andfromthishefelttheabilitytofightharder。Butthethronghadsurgedinallways,untilhelostdirectionsandlocations,savethatheknewwherelaytheenemy。
Theflamesbithim,andthehotsmokebroiledhisskin。Hisriflebarrelgrewsohotthatordi—
narilyhecouldnothaveborneituponhispalms;
buthekeptonstuffingcartridgesintoit,andpoundingthemwithhisclanking,bendingram—
rod。Ifheaimedatsomechangingformthroughthesmoke,hepulledhistriggerwithafiercegrunt,asifheweredealingablowofthefistwithallhisstrength。
Whentheenemyseemedfallingbackbeforehimandhisfellows,hewentinstantlyforward,likeadogwho,seeinghisfoeslagging,turnsandinsistsuponbeingpursued。Andwhenhewascompelledtoretireagain,hediditslowly,sul—
lenly,takingstepsofwrathfuldespair。
Oncehe,inhisintenthate,wasalmostalone,andwasfiring,whenallthosenearhimhadceased。
Hewassoengrossedinhisoccupationthathewasnotawareofalull。
Hewasrecalledbyahoarselaughandasen—
tencethatcametohisearsinavoiceofcontemptandamazement。"Yehinfernalfool,don’tyehknowenought’quitwhenthereain’tanythingt’
shootat?GoodGawd!"
Heturnedthenand,pausingwithhisriflethrownhalfintoposition,lookedatthebluelineofhiscomrades。Duringthismomentofleisuretheyseemedalltobeengagedinstaringwithastonishmentathim。Theyhadbecomespecta—
tors。Turningtothefrontagainhesaw,undertheliftedsmoke,adesertedground。
Helookedbewilderedforamoment。Thenthereappearedupontheglazedvacancyofhiseyesadiamondpointofintelligence。"Oh,"hesaid,comprehending。
Hereturnedtohiscomradesandthrewhim—
selfupontheground。Hesprawledlikeamanwhohadbeenthrashed。Hisfleshseemedstrange—
lyonfire,andthesoundsofthebattlecontinuedinhisears。Hegropedblindlyforhiscanteen。
Thelieutenantwascrowing。Heseemeddrunkwithfighting。Hecalledouttotheyouth:
"Byheavens,ifIhadtenthousandwildcatslikeyouIcouldtearth’stomachoutathiswarinless’naweek!"Hepuffedouthischestwithlargedignityashesaidit。
Someofthemenmutteredandlookedattheyouthinawe—struckways。Itwasplainthatashehadgoneonloadingandfiringandcursingwithouttheproperintermission,theyhadfoundtimetoregardhim。Andtheynowlookeduponhimasawardevil。