PARTTHETHIRD——SUMMER
CHAPTERI:DRIVINGOUTOFBUDMOUTH
Aneasybendofneckandgracefulsetofhead;fullandwavybundlesofdark—brownhair;lightfalloflittlefeet;prettydevicesontheskirtofthedress;cleardeepeyes;inshort,abunchofsweets:
itwasFancy!Dick’sheartwentroundtoherwitharush。
ThescenewasthecornerofMaryStreetinBudmouth—Regis,neartheKing’sstatue,atwhichpointthewhiteangleofthelasthouseintherowcutperpendicularlyanembayedandnearlymotionlessexpanseofsaltwaterprojectedfromtheouterocean——to—daylitinbrighttonesofgreenandopal。DickandSmarthadjustemergedfromthestreet,andthereontheright,againstthebrilliantsheetofliquidcolour,stoodFancyDay;andsheturnedandrecognizedhim。
DicksuspendedhisthoughtsoftheletterandwonderathowshecametherebydrivingclosetothechainsoftheEsplanade——incontinentlydisplacingtwochairmen,whohadjustcometolifeforthesummerinnewcleanshirtsandrevivifiedclothes,andbeingalmostdisplacedinturnbyarigidboyrattlingalongwithabaker’scart,andlookingneithertotherightnortheleft。HeaskedifsheweregoingtoMellstockthatnight。
"Yes,I’mwaitingforthecarrier,"shereplied,seeming,too,tosuspendthoughtsoftheletter。
"NowIcandriveyouhomenicely,andyousavehalfanhour。Willyecomewithme?"
AsFancy’spowertowillanythingseemedtohavedepartedinsomemysteriousmanneratthatmoment,Dicksettledthematterbygettingoutandassistingherintothevehiclewithoutanotherword。
Thetemporaryflushuponhercheekchangedtoalesserhue,whichwaspermanent,andatlengththeireyesmet;therewaspresentbetweenthemacertainfeelingofembarrassment,whicharisesatsuchmomentswhenalltheinstinctiveactsdictatedbythepositionhavebeenperformed。Dick,beingengagedwiththereins,thoughtlessofthisawkwardnessthandidFancy,whohadnothingtodobuttofeelhispresence,andtobemoreandmoreconsciousofthefact,thatbyacceptingaseatbesidehiminthiswayshesuccumbedtothetoneofhisnote。Smartjoggedalong,andDickjogged,andthehelplessFancynecessarilyjogged,too;andshefeltthatshewasinameasurecaptureIandmadeaprisoner。
"Iamsomuchobligedtoyouforyourcompany,MissDay,"heobserved,astheydrovepastthetwosemicircularbaysoftheOldRoyalHotel,whereHisMajestyKingGeorgetheThirdhadmanyatimeattendedtheballsoftheburgesses。
ToMissDay,creditinghimwiththesameconsciousnessofmastery——aconsciousnessofwhichhewasperfectlyinnocent——thisremarksoundedlikeamagnanimousintentiontosootheher,thecaptive。
"Ididn’tcomeforthepleasureofobligingyouwithmycompany,"
shesaid。
TheanswerhadanunexpectedmannerofincivilityinitthatmusthavebeenrathersurprisingtoyoungDewy。Atthesametimeitmaybeobserved,thatwhenayoungwomanreturnsarudeanswertoayoungman’scivilremark,herheartisinastatewhicharguesratherhopefullyforhiscasethanotherwise。
Therewassilencebetweenthemtilltheyhadleftthesea—frontandpassedabouttwentyofthetreesthatornamentedtheroadleadingupoutofthetowntowardsCasterbridgeandMellstock。
"ThoughIdidn’tcomeforthatpurposeeither,Iwouldhavedoneit,"saidDickatthetwenty—firsttree。
"Now,Mr。Dewy,noflirtation,becauseit’swrong,andIdon’twishit。"
Dickseatedhimselfafreshjustashehadbeensittingbefore,arrangedhislooksveryemphatically,andclearedhisthroat。
"Really,anybodywouldthinkyouhadmetmeonbusinessandwerejustgoingtocommence,"saidtheladyintractably。
"Yes,theywould。"
"Why,youneverhave,tobesure!"
Thiswasashakybeginning。Hechoppedround,andsaidcheerily,asamanwhohadresolvednevertospoilhisjollitybylovingoneofwomankind——"Well,howareyougettingon,MissDay,atthepresenttime?Gaily,Idon’tdoubtforamoment。"
"Iamnotgay,Dick;youknowthat。"
"Gailydoesn’tmeandeckedingaydresses。"
"Ididn’tsupposegailywasgailydressed。Mightyme,whatascholaryou’vegrown!"
"Lotsofthingshavehappenedtoyouthisspring,Isee。"
"Whathaveyouseen?"
"O,nothing;I’veheard,Imean!"
"Whathaveyouheard?"
"Thenameofaprettyman,withbrassstudsandacopperringandatinwatch—chain,alittlemixedupwithyourown。That’sall。"
"That’saveryunkindpictureofMr。Shiner,forthat’swhoyoumean!Thestudsaregold,asyouknow,andit’sarealsilverchain;theringIcan’tconscientiouslydefend,andheonlyworeitonce。"
"Hemighthavewornitahundredtimeswithoutshowingithalfsomuch。"
"Well,he’snothingtome,"sheserenelyobserved。
"NotanymorethanIam?"
"Now,Mr。Dewy,"saidFancyseverely,"certainlyheisn’tanymoretomethanyouare!"
"Notsomuch?"
Shelookedasidetoconsidertheprecisecompassofthatquestion。
"ThatIcan’texactlyanswer,"sherepliedwithsoftarchness。
Astheyweregoingratherslowly,anotherspring—cart,containingafarmer,farmer’swife,andfarmer’sman,joggedpastthem;andthefarmer’swifeandfarmer’smaneyedthecoupleverycuriously。Thefarmerneverlookedupfromthehorse’stail。
"Whycan’tyouexactlyanswer?"saidDick,quickeningSmartalittle,andjoggingonjustbehindthefarmerandfarmer’swifeandman。
Asnoanswercame,andastheireyeshadnothingelsetodo,theybothcontemplatedthepicturepresentedinfront,andnoticedhowthefarmer’swifesatflattenedbetweenthetwomen,whobulgedovereachendoftheseattogiveherroom,tilltheyalmostsatupontheirrespectivewheels;andtheylookedtooatthefarmer’swife’ssilkmantle,inflatingitselfbetweenhershoulderslikeaballoonandsinkingflatagain,ateachjogofthehorse。Thefarmer’swife,feelingtheireyesstickingintoherback,lookedoverhershoulder。Dickdroppedtenyardsfurtherbehind。
"Fancy,whycan’tyouanswer?"herepeated。
"BecausehowmuchyouaretomedependsuponhowmuchIamtoyou,"
saidsheinlowtones。
"Everything,"saidDick,puttinghishandtowardshers,andcastingemphaticeyesupontheuppercurveofhercheek。
"Now,RichardDewy,notouchingme!Ididn’tsayinwhatwayyourthinkingofmeaffectedthequestion——perhapsinversely,don’tyousee?Notouching,sir!Look;goodnessme,don’t,Dick!"
ThecauseofhersuddenstartwastheunpleasantappearanceoverDick’srightshoulderofanemptytimber—wagonandfourjourneymen—
carpentersreclininginlazyposturesinsideit,theireyesdirectedupwardsatvariousobliqueanglesintothesurroundingworld,thechiefobjectoftheirexistencebeingapparentlytocriticizetotheverybackboneandmarroweveryanimateobjectthatcamewithinthecompassoftheirvision。ThisdifficultyofDick’swasovercomebytrottingontillthewagonandcarpenterswerebeginningtolookrathermistybyreasonofafilmofdustthataccompaniedtheirwagon—wheels,androsearoundtheirheadslikeafog。
"Sayyouloveme,Fancy。"
"No,Dick,certainlynot;’tisn’ttimetodothatyet。"
"Why,Fancy?"
"’MissDay’isbetteratpresent——don’tmindmysayingso;andI
oughtnottohavecalledyouDick。"
"Nonsense!whenyouknowthatIwoulddoanythingonearthforyourlove。Why,youmakeanyonethinkthatlovingisathingthatcanbedoneandundone,andputonandputoffatamerewhim。"
"No,no,Idon’t,"shesaidgently;"buttherearethingswhichtellmeIoughtnottogivewaytomuchthinkingaboutyou,evenif——"
"Butyouwantto,don’tyou?Yes,sayyoudo;itisbesttobetruthful。Whatevertheymaysayaboutawoman’srighttoconcealwhereherlovelies,andpretenditdoesn’texist,andthingslikethat,itisnotbest;Idoknowit,Fancy。Andanhonestwomaninthat,aswellasinallherdailyconcerns,shinesmostbrightly,andisthoughtmostofinthelong—run。"
"Wellthen,perhaps,Dick,Idoloveyoualittle,"shewhisperedtenderly;"butIwishyouwouldn’tsayanymorenow。"
"Iwon’tsayanymorenow,then,ifyoudon’tlikeit,dear。Butyoudolovemealittle,don’tyou?"
"Nowyououghtnottowantmetokeepsayingthingstwice;Ican’tsayanymorenow,andyoumustbecontentwithwhatyouhave。"
"ImayatanyratecallyouFancy?There’snoharminthat。"
"Yes,youmay。"
"Andyou’llnotcallmeMr。Dewyanymore?"
"Verywell。"
CHAPTERII:FURTHERALONGTHEROAD
Dick’sspiritshavingriseninthecourseoftheseadmissionsofhissweetheart,henowtouchedSmartwiththewhip;andonSmart’sneck,notfarbehindhisears。Smart,whohadbeenlostinthoughtforsometime,neverdreamingthatDickcouldreachsofarwithawhipwhich,onthisparticularjourney,hadneverbeenextendedfurtherthanhisflank,tossedhishead,andscamperedalongwithexceedingbriskness,whichwasverypleasanttotheyoungcouplebehindhimtill,turningabendintheroad,theycameinstantlyuponthefarmer,farmer’sman,andfarmer’swifewiththeflappingmantle,alljoggingonjustthesameasever。
"Botherthosepeople!Hereweareuponthemagain。"
"Well,ofcourse。Theyhaveasmuchrighttotheroadaswe。"
"Yes,butitisprovokingtobeoverlookedso。Ilikearoadalltomyself。Lookwhatalumberingaffairtheirsis!"Thewheelsofthefarmer’scart,justatthatmoment,joggedintoadepressionrunningacrosstheroad,givingthecartatwist,whereuponallthreenoddedtotheleft,andoncomingoutofitallthreenoddedtotheright,andwentonjerkingtheirbacksinandoutasusual。"We’llpassthemwhentheroadgetswider。"
Whenanopportunityseemedtoofferitselfforcarryingthisintentionintoeffect,theyheardlightflyingwheelsbehind,andontheirquarteringtherewhizzedalongpastthemabrand—newgig,sobrightlypolishedthatthespokesofthewheelssentforthacontinualquiveringlightatonepointintheircircle,andallthepanelsglaredlikemirrorsinDickandFancy’seyes。Thedriver,andownerasitappeared,wasreallyahandsomeman;hiscompanionwasShiner。BothturnedroundastheypassedDickandFancy,andstaredwithboldadmirationinherfacetilltheywereobligedtoattendtotheoperationofpassingthefarmer。DickglancedforaninstantatFancywhileshewasundergoingtheirscrutiny;thenreturnedtohisdrivingwithratherasadcountenance。
"Whyareyousosilent?"shesaid,afterawhile,withrealconcern。
"Nothing。"
"Yes,itis,Dick。Icouldn’thelpthosepeoplepassing。"
"Iknowthat。"
"Youlookoffendedwithme。WhathaveIdone?"
"Ican’ttellwithoutoffendingyou。"
"Betterout。"
"Well,"saidDick,whoseemedlongingtotell,evenattheriskofoffendingher,"Iwasthinkinghowdifferentyouinlovearefrommeinlove。Whilstthosemenwerestaring,youdismissedmefromyourthoughtsaltogether,and——"
"Youcan’toffendmefurthernow;tellall!"
"Andshoweduponyourfaceapleasedsenseofbeingattractiveto’em。"
"Don’tbesilly,Dick!YouknowverywellIdidn’t。"
Dickshookhisheadsceptically,andsmiled。
"Dick,IalwaysbelieveflatteryIFPOSSIBLE——anditwaspossiblethen。Nowthere’sanopenconfessionofweakness。ButIshowednoconsciousnessofit。"
Dick,perceivingbyherlookthatshewouldadheretoherstatement,charitablyforboresayinganythingthatcouldmakeherprevaricate。
ThesightofShiner,too,hadrecalledanotherbranchofthesubjecttohismind;thatwhichhadbeenhisgreatesttroubletillhercompanyandwordshadobscureditsprobability。
"Bytheway,Fancy,doyouknowwhyourquireistobedismissed?"
"No:exceptthatitisMr。Maybold’swishformetoplaytheorgan。"
"Doyouknowhowitcametobehiswish?"
"ThatIdon’t。"
"Mr。Shiner,beingchurchwarden,haspersuadedthevicar;who,however,waswillingenoughbefore。Shiner,Iknow,iscrazytoseeyouplayingeverySunday;Isupposehe’llturnoveryourmusic,fortheorganwillbeclosetohispew。But——Iknowyouhaveneverencouragedhim?"
"Neveronce!"saidFancyemphatically,andwitheyesfullofearnesttruth。"Idon’tlikehimindeed,andIneverheardofhisdoingthisbefore!IhavealwaysfeltthatIshouldliketoplayinachurch,butIneverwishedtoturnyouandyourchoirout;andI
neverevensaidthatIcouldplaytillIwasasked。Youdon’tthinkforamomentthatIdid,surely,doyou?"
"Iknowyoudidn’t,dear。"
"OrthatIcaretheleastmorselofabitforhim?"
"Iknowyoudon’t。"
ThedistancebetweenBudmouthandMellstockwastenorelevenmiles,andtherebeingagoodinn,"TheShip,"fourmilesoutofBudmouth,withamastandcross—treesinfront,Dick’scustomindrivingthitherwastodividethejourneyintothreestagesbyrestingatthisinngoingandcoming,andnottroublingtheBudmouthstablesatall,wheneverhisvisittothetownwasamerecallanddeposit,asto—day。
Fancywasusheredintoalittletea—room,andDickwenttothestablestoseetothefeedingofSmart。Infaceofthesignificanttwitchesoffeaturethatwerevisibleintheostlerandlabouringmenidlingaround,DickendeavouredtolookunconsciousofthefactthattherewasanysentimentbetweenhimandFancybeyondatranter’sdesiretocarryapassengerhome。HepresentlyenteredtheinnandopenedthedoorofFancy’sroom。
"Dick,doyouknow,ithasstruckmethatitisratherawkward,mybeingherealonewithyoulikethis。Idon’tthinkyouhadbettercomeinwithme。"
"That’sratherunpleasant,dear。"
"Yes,itis,andIwantedyoutohavesometeaaswellasmyselftoo,becauseyoumustbetired。"
"Well,letmehavesomewithyou,then。Iwasdeniedoncebefore,ifyourecollect,Fancy。"
"Yes,yes,nevermind!Anditseemsunfriendlyofmenow,butI
don’tknowwhattodo。"
"Itshallbeasyousay,then。"Dickbegantoretreatwithadissatisfiedwrinklingofface,andafarewellglanceatthecosytea—tray。
"Butyoudon’tseehowitis,Dick,whenyouspeaklikethat,"shesaid,withmoreearnestnessthanshehadevershownbefore。"Youdoknow,thatevenifIcareverymuchforyou,ImustrememberthatI
haveadifficultpositiontomaintain。Thevicarwouldnotlikeme,ashisschoolmistress,toindulgeinatete—a—teteanywherewithanybody。"
"ButIamnotANYbody!"exclaimedDick。
"No,no,Imeanwithayoungman;"andsheaddedsoftly,"unlessI
werereallyengagedtobemarriedtohim。"
"Isthatall?Then,dearest,dearest,whywe’llbeengagedatonce,tobesurewewill,anddownIsit!Thereitis,aseasyasaglove!"
"Ah!butsupposeIwon’t!And,goodnessme,whathaveIdone!"shefaltered,gettingveryred。"Positively,itseemsasifImeantyoutosaythat!"
"Let’sdoit!Imeangetengaged,"saidDick。"Now,Fancy,willyoubemywife?"
"Doyouknow,Dick,itwasratherunkindofyoutosaywhatyoudidcomingalongtheroad,"sheremarked,asifshehadnotheardthelatterpartofhisspeech;thoughanacuteobservermighthavenoticedaboutherbreast,astheword’wife’fellfromDick’slips,asoftsilentescapeofbreaths,withveryshortrestsbetweeneach。
"WhatdidIsay?"
"Aboutmytryingtolookattractivetothosemeninthegig。"
"Youcouldn’thelplookingso,whetheryoutriedorno。And,Fancy,youdocareforme?"
"Yes。"
"Verymuch?"
"Yes。"
"Andyou’llbemyownwife?"
Herheartquickened,addingtoandwithdrawingfromhercheekvaryingtonesofredtomatcheachvaryingthought。Dicklookedexpectantlyattheripetintofherdelicatemouth,waitingforwhatwascomingforth。
"Yes——iffatherwillletme。"
Dickdrewhimselfclosetoher,compressinghislipsandpoutingthemout,asifhewereabouttowhistlethesoftestmelodyknown。
"Ono!"saidFancysolemnly。
ThemodestDickdrewbackalittle。
"Dick,Dick,kissmeandletmegoinstantly!——here’ssomebodycoming!"shewhisperinglyexclaimed。
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HalfanhourafterwardsDickemergedfromtheinn,andifFancy’slipshadbeenrealcherriesprobablyDick’swouldhaveappeareddeeplystained。Thelandlordwasstandingintheyard。
"Heu—heu!hay—hay,MasterDewy!Ho—ho!"helaughed,lettingthelaughslipoutgentlyandbydegreesthatitmightmakelittlenoiseinitsexit,andsmitingDickunderthefifthribatthesametime。
"Thiswillneverdo,uponmylife,MasterDewy!callingfortayforafeymelpassenger,andthengoinginandsittingdownandhavingsometoo,andbidingsuchafinelongtime!"
"Butsurelyyouknow?"saidDick,withgreatapparentsurprise。
"Yes,yes!Ha—ha!"smitingthelandlordundertheribsinreturn。
"Why,what?Yes,yes;ha—ha!"
"Youknow,ofcourse!"
"Yes,ofcourse!But——thatis——Idon’t。"
"Whyabout——betweenthatyoungladyandme?"noddingtothewindowoftheroomthatFancyoccupied。
"No;notI!"saidtheinnkeeper,bringinghiseyesintocircles。
"Andyoudon’t!"
"Notaword,I’lltakemyoath!"
"ButyoulaughedwhenIlaughed。"
"Ay,thatwasmesympathy;sodidyouwhenIlaughed!"
"Really,youdon’tknow?Goodness——notknowingthat!"
"I’lltakemyoathIdon’t!"
"Oyes,"saidDick,withfrigidrhetoricofpityingastonishment,"we’reengagedtobemarried,yousee,andInaturallylookafterher。"
"Ofcourse,ofcourse!Ididn’tknowthat,andIhopeye’llexcuseanylittlefreedomofmine,Mr。Dewy。Butitisaveryoddthing;I
wastalkingtoyourfatherveryintimateaboutfamilymattersonlylastFridayintheworld,andwhoshouldcomeinbutKeeperDay,andweallthenfella—talkingo’familymatters;butneitheroneo’
themsaidamortalwordaboutit;knowenmetoosomanyyears,andI
atyourfather’sownwedding。’Tisn’twhatIshouldhaveexpectedfromanoldneighbour!"
"Well,tosaythetruth,wehadn’ttoldfatheroftheengagementatthattime;infact,’twasn’tsettled。"
"Ah!thebusinesswasdoneSunday。Yes,yes,Sunday’sthecourtingday。Heu—heu!"
"No,’twasn’tdoneSundayinparticular。"
"Afterschool—hoursthisweek?Well,averygoodtime,averypropergoodtime。"
"Ono,’twasn’tdonethen。"
"Comingalongtheroadto—daythen,Isuppose?"
"Notatall;Iwouldn’tthinkofgettingengagedinadog—cart。"
"Dammy——mightaswellhavesaidatonce,theWHENbeblowed!
Anyhow,’tisafineday,andIhopenexttimeyou’llcomeasone。"
Fancywasdulybroughtoutandassistedintothevehicle,andthenewlyaffiancedyouthandmaidenpassedupthesteephilltotheRidgeway,andvanishedinthedirectionofMellstock。
CHAPTERIII:ACONFESSION
Itwasamorningofthelattersummer—time;amorningoflingeringdews,whenthegrassisneverdryintheshade。Fuchsiasanddahliaswereladentilleleveno’clockwithsmalldropsanddashesofwater,changingthecolouroftheirsparkleateverymovementoftheair;andelsewherehangingontwigslikesmallsilverfruit。
Thethreadsofgardenspidersappearedthickandpolished。Inthedryandsunnyplaces,dozensoflong—leggedcrane—flieswhizzedoffthegrassateverystepthepassertook。
FancyDayandherfriendSusanDewythetranter’sdaughter,wereinsuchaspotasthis,pullingdownaboughladenwithearlyapples。
ThreemonthshadelapsedsinceDickandFancyhadjourneyedtogetherfromBudmouth,andthecourseoftheirlovehadrunonvigorouslyduringthewholetime。Therehadbeenjustenoughdifficultyattendingitsdevelopment,andjustenoughfinesserequiredinkeepingitprivate,tolendthepassionanever—increasingfreshnessonFancy’spart,whilst,whetherfromtheseaccessoriesornot,Dick’shearthadbeenatalltimesasfondascouldbedesired。ButtherewasacloudonFancy’shorizonnow。
"Sheissowelloff——betterthananyofus,"SusanDewywassaying。
"Herfatherfarmsfivehundredacres,andshemightmarryadoctororcurateoranythingofthatkindifshecontrivedalittle。"
"Idon’tthinkDickoughttohavegonetothatgipsy—partyatallwhenheknewIcouldn’tgo,"repliedFancyuneasily。
"Hedidn’tknowthatyouwouldnotbetheretillitwastoolatetorefusetheinvitation,"saidSusan。
"Andwhatwasshelike?Tellme。"
"Well,shewasratherpretty,Imustown。"
"Tellstraightonabouther,can’tyou!Come,do,Susan。Howmanytimesdidyousayhedancedwithher?"
"Once。"
"Twice,Ithinkyousaid?"
"IndeedI’msureIdidn’t。"
"Well,andhewantedtoagain,Iexpect。"
"No;Idon’tthinkhedid。Shewantedtodancewithhimagainbadenough,Iknow。EverybodydoeswithDick,becausehe’ssohandsomeandsuchaclevercourter。"
"O,Iwish!——Howdidyousaysheworeherhair?"
"Inlongcurls,——andherhairislight,anditcurlswithoutbeingputinpaper:that’showitisshe’ssoattractive。"
"She’stryingtogethimaway!yes,yes,sheis!AndthroughkeepingthismiserableschoolImustn’twearmyhairincurls!ButIwill;Idon’tcareifIleavetheschoolandgohome,Iwillwearmycurls!Look,Susan,do!isherhairassoftandlongasthis?"
Fancypulledfromitscoilunderherhatatwineofherownhair,andstretcheditdownhershouldertoshowitslength,lookingatSusantocatchheropinionfromhereyes。
"Itisaboutthesamelengthasthat,Ithink,"saidMissDewy。
Fancypausedhopelessly。"Iwishminewaslighter,likehers!"shecontinuedmournfully。"Buthersisn’tsosoft,isit?Tellme,now。"
"Idon’tknow。"
Fancyabstractedlyextendedhervisiontosurveyayellowbutterflyandared—and—blackbutterflythatwereflittingalongincompany,andthenbecameawarethatDickwasadvancingupthegarden。
"Susan,here’sDickcoming;Isupposethat’sbecausewe’vebeentalkingabouthim。"
"Well,then,Ishallgoindoorsnow——youwon’twantme;"andSusanturnedpracticallyandwalkedoff。
Enterthesingle—mindedDick,whoseonlyfaultatthegipsying,orpicnic,hadbeenthatoflovingFancytooexclusively,anddeprivinghimselfoftheinnocentpleasurethegatheringmighthaveaffordedhim,bysighingregretfullyatherabsence,——whohaddancedwiththerivalinsheerdespairofeverbeingabletogetthroughthatstale,flat,andunprofitableafternooninanyotherway;butthisshewouldnotbelieve。
Fancyhadsettledherplanofemotion。ToreproachDick?Ono,no。
"Iamingreattrouble,"saidshe,takingwhatwasintendedtobeahopelesslymelancholysurveyofafewsmallappleslyingunderthetree;yetacriticalearmighthavenoticedinhervoiceatentativetoneastotheeffectofthewordsuponDickwhensheutteredthem。
"Whatareyouintroubleabout?Tellmeofit,"saidDickearnestly。"Darling,Iwillshareitwith’eeandhelp’ee。"
"No,no:youcan’t!Nobodycan!"
"Whynot?Youdon’tdeserveit,whateveritis。Tellme,dear。"
"O,itisn’twhatyouthink!Itisdreadful:myownsin!"
"Sin,Fancy!asifyoucouldsin!Iknowitcan’tbe。"
"’Tis,’tis!"saidtheyounglady,inaprettylittlefrenzyofsorrow。"Ihavedonewrong,andIdon’tliketotellit!Nobodywillforgiveme,nobody!andyouaboveallwillnot!……Ihaveallowedmyselfto——to——fl——"
"What,——notflirt!"hesaid,controllinghisemotionasitwerebyasuddenpressureinwardfromhissurface。"Andyousaidonlythedaybeforeyesterdaythatyouhadn’tflirtedinyourlife!"
"Yes,Idid;andthatwasawickedstory!Ihaveletanotherloveme,and——"
"GoodG——!Well,I’llforgiveyou,——yes,ifyoucouldn’thelpit,——
yes,Iwill!"saidthenowdismalDick。"Didyouencouragehim?"
"O,——Idon’tknow,——yes——no。O,Ithinkso!"
"Whowasit?"Apause。"Tellme!"
"Mr。Shiner。"
Afterasilencethatwasonlydisturbedbythefallofanapple,along—checkedsighfromDick,andasobfromFancy,hesaidwithrealausterity—
"Tellitall;——everyword!"
"Helookedatme,andIlookedathim,andhesaid,"Willyouletmeshowyouhowtocatchbullfinchesdownherebythestream?"AndI——
wantedtoknowverymuch——Ididsolongtohaveabullfinch!I
couldn’thelpthatandIsaid,"Yes!"andthenhesaid,"Comehere。"
AndIwentwithhimdowntothelovelyriver,andthenhesaidtome,"LookandseehowIdoit,andthenyou’llknow:Iputthisbirdlimeroundthistwig,andthenIgohere,"hesaid,"andhideawayunderahush;andpresentlycleverMisterBirdcomesandperchesuponthetwig,andflapshiswings,andyou’vegothimbeforeyoucansayJack"——something;O,O,O,Iforgetwhat!"
"JackSprat,"mournfullysuggestedDickthroughthecloudofhismisery。
"No,notJackSprat,"shesobbed。
"Then’twasJackRobinson!"hesaid,withtheemphasisofamanwhohadresolvedtodiscovereveryiotaofthetruth,ordie。
"Yes,thatwasit!AndthenIputmyhandupontherailofthebridgetogetacross,and——That’sall。"
"Well,thatisn’tmuch,either,"saidDickcritically,andmorecheerfully。"NotthatIseewhatbusinessShinerhastotakeuponhimselftoteachyouanything。Butitseems——itdoseemtheremusthavebeenmorethanthattosetyouupinsuchadreadfultaking?"
HelookedintoFancy’seyes。Miseryofmiseries!——guiltwaswrittentherestill。
"Now,Fancy,you’venottoldmeall!"saidDick,rathersternlyforaquietyoungman。
"O,don’tspeaksocruelly!Iamafraidtotellnow!Ifyouhadn’tbeenharsh,Iwasgoingontotellall;nowIcan’t!"
"Come,dearFancy,tell:come。I’llforgive;Imust,——byheavenandearth,Imust,whetherIwillorno;Iloveyouso!"
"Well,whenIputmyhandonthebridge,hetouchedit——"
"Ascamp!"saidDick,grindinganimaginaryhumanframetopowder。
"Andthenhelookedatme,andatlasthesaid,’AreyouinlovewithDickDewy?’AndIsaid,’PerhapsIam!’andthenhesaid,’I
wishyouweren’tthen,forIwanttomarryyou,withallmysoul。’"
"There’savillainnow!Wanttomarryyou!"AndDickquiveredwiththebitternessofsatiricallaughter。Thensuddenlyrememberingthathemightbereckoningwithouthishost:"Unless,tohesure,youarewillingtohavehim,——perhapsyouare,"hesaid,withthewretchedindifferenceofacastaway。
"No,indeedIamnot!"shesaid,hersobsjustbeginningtotakeafavourableturntowardscure。
"Well,then,"saidDick,comingalittletohissenses,"you’vebeenstretchingitverymuchingivingsuchadreadfulbeginningtosuchamerenothing。AndIknowwhatyou’vedoneitfor,——justbecauseofthatgipsy—party!"Heturnedawayfromherandtookfivepacesdecisively,asifheweretiredofanungratefulcountry,includingherself"Youdidittomakemejealous,andIwon’tstandit!"Heflungthewordstoheroverhisshoulderandthenstalkedon,apparentlyveryanxioustowalktotheremotestoftheColoniesthatveryminute。
"O,O,O,Dick——Dick!"shecried,trottingafterhimlikeapetlamb,andreallyseriouslyalarmedatlast,"you’llkillme!Myimpulsesarebad——miserablywicked,——andIcan’thelpit;forgiveme,Dick!AndIloveyoualways;andthosetimeswhenyoulooksillyanddon’tseemquitegoodenoughforme,——justthesame,Ido,Dick!Andthereissomethingmoreserious,thoughnotconcerningthatwalkwithhim。"
"Well,whatisit?"saidDick,alteringhismindaboutwalkingtotheColoniesinfact,passingtotheotherextreme,andstandingsorootedtotheroadthathewasapparentlynotevengoinghome。
"Whythis,"shesaid,dryingthebeginningofanewfloodoftearsshehadbeengoingtoshed,"thisistheseriouspart。FatherhastoldMr。Shinerthathewouldlikehimforason—in—law,ifhecouldgetme;——thathehashisrightheartyconsenttocomecourtingme!"
CHAPTERIV:ANARRANGEMENT
"ThatISserious,"saidDick,moreintellectuallythanhehadspokenforalongtime。
ThetruthwasthatGeoffreyknewnothingabouthisdaughter’scontinuedwalksandmeetingswithDick。WhenahintthatthereweresymptomsofanattachmentbetweenthemhadfirstreachedGeoffrey’sears,hestatedsoemphaticallythathemustthinkthematteroverbeforeanysuchthingcouldbeallowedthat,ratherunwiselyonDick’spart,whateveritmighthavebeenonthelady’s,theloverswerecarefultobeseentogethernomoreinpublic;andGeoffrey,forgettingthereport,didnotthinkoverthematteratall。SoMr。
ShinerresumedhisoldpositioninGeoffrey’sbrainbymerefluxoftime。EvenShinerbegantobelievethatDickexistedforFancynomore,——thoughthatremarkablyeasy—goingmanhadtakennoactivestepsonhisownaccountasyet。
"AndfatherhasnotonlytoldMr。Shinerthat,"continuedFancy,"buthehaswrittenmealetter,tosayheshouldwishmetoencourageMr。Shiner,if’twasconvenient!"
"Imuststartoffandseeyourfatheratonce!"saidDick,takingtwoorthreevehementstepstothesouth,recollectingthatMr。Daylivedtothenorth,andcomingbackagain。
"Ithinkwehadbetterseehimtogether。Nottellhimwhatyoucomefor,oranythingofthekind,untilhelikesyou,andsowinhisbrainthroughhisheart,whichisalwaysthewaytomanagepeople。
Imeaninthisway:IamgoinghomeonSaturdayweektohelptheminthehoney—taking。Youmightcometheretome,havesomethingtoeatanddrink,andlethimguesswhatyourcomingsignifies,withoutsayingitinsomanywords。"
"We’lldoit,dearest。ButIshallaskhimforyou,flatandplain;
notwaitforhisguessing。"Andtheloverthensteppedclosetoher,andattemptedtogiveheronelittlekissonthecheek,hislipsalightinghowever,onanoutlyingtractofherbackhairbyreasonofanimpulsethathadcausedhertoturnherheadwithajerk。"Yes,andI’llputonmysecond—bestsuitandacleanshirtandcollar,andblackmybootsasif’twasaSunday。’Twillhaveagoodappearance,yousee,andthat’sagreatdealtostartwith。"
"Youwon’twearthatoldwaistcoat,willyou,Dick?"
"Blessyou,no!WhyI——"
"Ididn’tmeantobepersonal,dearDick,"shesaid,fearingshehadhurthisfeelings。"’Tisaverynicewaistcoat,butwhatImeantwas,thatthoughitisanexcellentwaistcoatforasettled—downman,itisnotquiteonefor"(shewaited,andablushexpandedoverherface,andthenshewentonagain)——"forgoingcourtingin。"
"No,I’llwearmybestwinterone,withtheleatherlining,thatmothermade。Itisabeautiful,handsomewaistcoatinside,yes,aseveranybodysaw。Infact,onlytheotherday,Iunbuttonedittoshowachapthatverylining,andhesaiditwasthestrongest,handsomestliningyoucouldwishtoseeontheking’swaistcoathimself。"
"_I_don’tquiteknowwhattowear,"shesaid,asifherhabitualindifferencealonetodresshadkeptbacksoimportantasubjecttillnow。