ForMaisie’ssake,andtosoothetheself—respectthatitseemedtohimhelosteachSunday,hewouldnotconsciouslyturnoutbadstuff,but,sinceMaisiedidnotcareevenforhisbest,itwerebetternottodoanythingatallsavewaitandmarktimebetweenSundayandSunday。Torpenhowwasdisgustedastheweekswentbyfruitless,andthenattackedhimoneSundayeveningwhenDickfeltutterlyexhaustedafterthreehours’
bitingself—restraintinMaisie’spresence。TherewasLanguage,andTorpenhowwithdrewtoconsulttheNilghai,whohadcomeittotalkcontinentalpolitics。
’Bone—idle,ishe?Careless,andtouchedinthetemper?’saidtheNilghai。
’Itisn’tworthworryingover。Dickisprobablyplayingthefoolwithawoman。’
’Isn’tthatbadenough?’
’No。Shemaythrowhimoutofgearandknockhisworktopiecesforawhile。Shemayeventurnupheresomedayandmakeasceneonthestaircase:oneneverknows。ButuntilDickspeaksofhisownaccordyouhadbetternottouchhim。Heisnoeasy—temperedmantohandle。’
’No;Iwishhewere。Heissuchanaggressive,cocksure,you—be—damnedfellow。’
’He’llgetthatknockedoutofhimintime。Hemustlearnthathecan’tstormupanddowntheworldwithaboxofmoisttubesandaslickbrush。
You’refondofhim?’
’I’dtakeanypunishmentthat’sinstoreforhimifIcould;buttheworstofitis,nomancansavehisbrother。’
’No,andtheworserofitis,thereisnodischargeinthiswar。Dickmustlearnhislessonliketherestofus。Talkingofwar,there’llbetroubleintheBalkansinthespring。’
’Thattroubleislongcoming。IwonderifwecoulddragDickouttherewhenitcomesoff?’
Dickenteredtheroomsoonafterwards,andthequestionwasputtohim。
’Notgoodenough,’hesaidshortly。’I’mtoocomf’ywhereIam。’
’Surelyyouaren’ttakingallthestuffinthepapersseriously?’saidtheNilghai。’Yourvoguewillbeendedinlessthansixmonths,——thepublicwillknowyourtouchandgoontosomethingnew,——andwherewillyoubethen?’
’Here,inEngland。’
’Whenyoumightbedoingdecentworkamongusoutthere?Nonsense!I
shallgo,theKeneuwillbethere,Torpwillbethere,Cassavettiwillbethere,andthewholelotofuswillbethere,andweshallhaveasmuchaseverwecando,withunlimitedfightingandthechanceforyouofseeingthingsthatwouldmakethereputationofthreeVerestchagins。’
’Um!’saidDick,pullingathispipe。
’Youprefertostayhereandimaginethatalltheworldisgapingatyourpictures?Justthinkhowfullanaverageman’slifeisofhisownpursuitsandpleasures。Whentwentythousandofhimfindtimetolookupbetweenmouthfulsandgruntsomethingaboutsomethingtheyaren’ttheleastinterestedin,thenetresultiscalledfame,reputation,ornotoriety,accordingtothetasteandfancyofthespellermylord。’
’Iknowthataswellasyoudo。Givemecreditforalittlegumption。’
’BehangedifIdo!’
’Behanged,then;youprobablywillbe,——foraspy,byexcitedTurks。
Heigh—ho!I’mweary,deadweary,andvirtuehasgoneoutofme。’Dickdroppedintoachair,andwasfastasleepinaminute。
’That’sabadsign,’saidtheNilghai,inanundertone。
Torpenhowpickedthepipefromthewaistcoatwhereitwasbeginningtoburn,andputapillowbehindthehead。’Wecan’thelp;wecan’thelp,’hesaid。’It’sagooduglysortofoldcocoanut,andI’mfondofit。There’sthescarofthewipehegotwhenhewascutoverinthesquare。’
’Shouldn’twonderifthathasmadehimatriflemad。’
’Ishould。He’samostbusinesslikemadman。’
ThenDickbegantosnorefuriously。
’Oh,here,noaffectioncanstandthissortofthing。Wakeup,Dick,andgoandsleepsomewhereelse,ifyouintendtomakeanoiseaboutit。’
’Whenacathasbeenoutonthetilesallnight,’saidtheNilghai,inhisbeard,’Inoticethatsheusuallysleepsallday。Thisisnaturalhistory。’
Dickstaggeredawayrubbinghiseyesandyawning。Inthenight—watcheshewasovertakenwithanidea,sosimpleandsoluminousthathewonderedhehadneverconceiveditbefore。Itwasfullofcraft。HewouldseekMaisieonaweek—day,——wouldsuggestanexcursion,andwouldtakeherbytraintoFortKeeling,overtheverygroundthattheytwohadtroddentogethertenyearsago。
’Asageneralrule,’heexplainedtohischin—latheredreflectioninthemorning,’itisn’tsafetocrossanoldtrailtwice。Thingsremindoneofthings,andacoldwindgetsup,andyoufeelsaid;butthisisanexceptiontoeveryrulethateverwas。I’llgotoMaisieatonce。’
Fortunately,thered—hairedgirlwasoutshoppingwhenhearrived,andMaisieinapaint—spatteredblousewaswarringwithhercanvas。Shewasnotpleasedtoseehim;forweek—dayvisitswereastretchofthebond;
anditneededallhiscouragetoexplainhiserrand。
’Iknowyou’vebeenworkingtoohard,’heconcluded,withanairofauthority。’Ifyoudothat,you’llbreakdown。Youhadmuchbettercome。’
’Where?’saidMaisie,wearily。Shehadbeenstandingbeforehereaseltoolong,andwasverytired。
’Anywhereyouplease。We’lltakeatrainto—morrowandseewhereitstops。We’llhavelunchsomewhere,andI’llbringyoubackintheevening。’
’Ifthere’sagoodworkinglightto—morrow,Iloseaday。’Maisiebalancedtheheavywhitechestnutpaletteirresolutely。
Dickbitbackanoaththatwashurryingtohislips。Hehadnotyetlearnedpatiencewiththemaidentowhomherworkwasallinall。
’You’llloseeversomanymore,dear,ifyouuseeveryhourofworkinglight。Overwork’sonlymurderousidleness。Don’tbeunreasonable。I’llcallforyouto—morrowafterbreakfastearly。’
’Butsurelyyouaregoingtoask————’
’No,Iamnot。Iwantyouandnobodyelse。Besides,shehatesmeasmuchasIhateher。Shewon’tcaretocome。To—morrow,then;andpraythatwegetsunshine。’
Dickwentawaydelighted,andbyconsequencedidnoworkwhatever。
Hestrangledawilddesiretoorderaspecialtrain,butboughtagreatgraykangaroocloaklinedwithglossyblackmarten,andthenretiredintohimselftoconsiderthings。
’I’mgoingoutforthedayto—morrowwithDick,’saidMaisietothered—hairedgirlwhenthelatterreturned,tired,frommarketingintheEdgwareroad。
’Hedeservesit。Ishallhavethestudiofloorthoroughlyscrubbedwhileyou’reaway。It’sverydirty。’
Maisiehadenjoyednosortofholidayformonthsandlookedforwardtothelittleexcitement,butnotwithoutmisgivings。
’There’snobodynicerthanDickwhenhetalkssensibly,shethough,butI’msurehe’llbesillyandworryme,andI’msureIcan’ttellhimanythinghe’dliketohear。Ifhe’donlybesensible,Ishouldlikehimsomuchbetter。’
Dick’seyeswerefullofjoywhenhemadehisappearancenextmorningandsawMaisie,gray—ulsteredandblack—velvet—hatted,standinginthehallway。Palacesofmarble,andnotsordidimitationofgrainedwood,weresurelythefittestbackgroundforsuchadivinity。Thered—hairedgirldrewherintothestudioforamomentandkissedherhurriedly。
Maisie’seyebrowsclimbedtothetopofherforehead;shewasaltogetherunusedtothesedemonstrations。’Mindmyhat,’shesaid,hurryingaway,andrandownthestepstoDickwaitingbythehansom。
’Areyouquitewarmenough!Areyousureyouwouldn’tlikesomemorebreakfast?Putthecloakoveryouknees。’
’I’mquitecomf’y,thanks。Wherearewegoing,Dick?Oh,dostopsinginglikethat。Peoplewillthinkwe’remad。’
’Let’emthink,——iftheexertiondoesn’tkillthem。Theydon’tknowwhoweare,andI’msureIdon’tcarewhotheyare。Myfaith,Maisie,you’relookinglovely!’
Maisiestareddirectlyinfrontofheranddidnotreply。Thewindofakeenclearwintermorninghadputcolourintohercheeks。Overhead,thecreamy—yellowsmoke—cloudswerethinningawayonebyoneagainstapale—bluesky,andtheimprovidentsparrowsbrokeofffromwater—spoutcommitteesandcab—rankcabalstoclamourofthecomingofspring。
’Itwillbelovelyweatherinthecountry,’saidDick。
’Butwherearewegoing?’
’Waitandsee。’
ThestoppedatVictoria,andDicksoughttickets。ForlessthanhalfthefractionofaninstantitoccurredtoMaisie,comfortablysettledbythewaiting—roomfire,thatitwasmuchmorepleasanttosendamantothebooking—officethantoelbowone’sownwaythroughthecrowd。DickputherintoaPullman,——solelyonaccountofthewarmththere;andsheregardedtheextravagancewithgravescandalisedeyesasthetrainmovedoutintothecountry。
’IwishIknewwherewearegoing,’sherepeatedforthetwentiethtime。
Thenameofawell—rememberedstationflashedby,towardstheendoftherun,andMaisiewasdelighted。
’Oh,Dick,youvillain!’
’Well,Ithoughtyoumightliketoseetheplaceagain。Youhaven’tbeenheresincetheoldtimes,haveyou?’
’No。InevercaredtoseeMrs。Jennettagain;andshewasallthatwaseverthere。’
’Notquite。Lookoutaminute。There’sthewindmillabovethepotato—fields;theyhaven’tbuiltvillasthereyet;d’yourememberwhenI
shutyouupinit?’
’Yes。Howshebeatyouforit!Inevertolditwasyou。’
’Sheguessed。IjammedastickunderthedoorandtoldyouthatIwasburyingAmommaaliveinthepotatoes,andyoubelievedme。Youhadatrustingnatureinthosedays。’
Theylaughedandleanedtolookout,identifyingancientlandmarkswithmanyreminiscences。DickfixedhisweathereyeonthecurveofMaisie’scheek,verynearhisown,andwatchedthebloodriseundertheclearskin。Hecongratulatedhimselfuponhiscunning,andlookedthattheeveningwouldbringhimagreatreward。
Whenthetrainstoppedtheywentouttolookatanoldtownwithneweyes。First,butfromadistance,theyregardedthehouseofMrs。Jennett。
’Supposesheshouldcomeoutnow,whatwouldyoudo?’saidDick,withmockterror。
’Ishouldmakeaface。’
’Show,then,’saidDick,droppingintothespeechofchildhood。
Maisiemadethatfaceinthedirectionofthemeanlittlevilla,andDicklaughed。
’"Thisisdisgraceful,"’saidMaisie,mimickingMrs。Jennett’stone。
’"Maisie,youruninatonce,andlearnthecollect,gospel,andepistleforthenextthreeSundays。AfterallI’vetaughtyou,too,andthreehelpseverySundayatdinner!Dick’salwaysleadingyouintomischief。Ifyouaren’tagentleman,Dick,youmightatleast——"’
Thesentenceendedabruptly。Maisierememberedwhenithadlastbeenused。
’"Trytobehavelikeone,"’saidDick,promptly。’Quiteright。Nowwe’llgetsomelunchandgoontoFortKeeling,——unlessyou’dratherdrivethere?’
’Wemustwalk,outofrespecttotheplace。Howlittlechangeditallis!’
Theyturnedinthedirectionoftheseathroughunalteredstreets,andtheinfluenceofoldthingslayuponthem。Presentlytheypassedaconfectioner’sshopmuchconsideredinthedayswhentheirjointpocket—moneyamountedtoashillingaweek。
’Dick,haveyouanypennies?’saidMaisie,halftoherself。
’Onlythree;andifyouthinkyou’regoingtohavetwoof’emtobuypeppermintswith,you’rewrong。Shesayspeppermintsaren’tladylike。’
Againtheylaughed,andagainthecolourcameintoMaisie’scheeksasthebloodboiledthroughDick’sheart。AfteralargelunchtheywentdowntothebeachandtoFortKeelingacrossthewaste,wind—bittenlandthatnobuilderhadthoughtitworthhiswhiletodefile。Thewinterbreezecameinfromtheseaandsangabouttheirears。
’Maisie,’saidDick,’yournoseisgettingacrudePrussianblueatthetip。
I’llraceyouasfarasyoupleaseforasmuchasyouplease。’
Shelookedroundcautiously,andwithalaughsetoff,swiftlyastheulsterallowed,tillshewasoutofbreath。
’Weusedtorunmiles,’shepanted。’It’sabsurdthatwecan’trunnow。’
’Oldage,dear。Thisitistogetfatandsleekintown。WhenIwishedtopullyouhairyougenerallyranforthreemiles,shriekingatthetopofyourvoice。Ioughttoknow,becausethoseshrieksofyoursweremeanttocallupMrs。Jennettwithacaneand————’
’Dick,Inevergotyouabeatingonpurposeinmylife。’
’No,ofcourseyouneverdid。Goodheavens!lookatthesea。’
’Why,it’sthesameasever!’saidMaisie。
TorpenhowhadgatheredfromMr。BeetonthatDick,properlydressedandshaved,hadleftthehouseathalf—pasteightinthemorningwithatravelling—rugoverhisarm。TheNilghairolledinatmid—dayforchessandpoliteconversation。
’It’sworsethananythingIimagined,’saidTorpenhow。
’Oh,theeverlastingDick,Isuppose!Youfussoverhimlikeahenwithonechick。Lethimrunriotifhethinksit’llamusehim。Youcanwhipayoungpupofffeather,butyoucan’twhipayoungman。’
’Itisn’tawoman。It’sonewoman;andit’sagirl。’
’Where’syourproof?’
’Hegotupandwentoutateightthismorning,——gotupinthemiddleofthenight,byJove!athingheneverdoesexceptwhenhe’sonservice。
Eventhen,remember,wehadtokickhimoutofhisblanketsbeforethefightbeganatEl—Maghrib。It’sdisgusting。’
’Itlooksodd;butmaybehe’sdecidedtobuyahorseatlast。Hemightgetupforthat,mightn’the?’
’Buyablazingwheelbarrow!He’dhavetoldusiftherewasahorseinthewind。It’sagirl。’
’Don’tbecertain。Perhapsit’sonlyamarriedwoman。’
’Dickhassomesenseofhumour,ifyouhaven’t。Whogetsupinthegraydawntocallonanotherman’swife?It’sagirl。’
’Letitbeagirl,then。Shemayteachhimthatthere’ssomebodyelseintheworldbesideshimself。’
’She’llspoilhishand。She’llwastehistime,andshe’llmarryhim,andruinhisworkforever。He’llbearespectablemarriedmanbeforewecanstophim,and——he’llevergoonthelongtrailagain。’
’Allquitepossible,buttheearthwon’tspintheotherwaywhenthathappens……No!ho!I’dgivesomethingtoseeDick"gowooingwiththeboys。"Don’tworryaboutit。ThesethingsbewithAllah,andwecanonlylookon。Getthechessmen。’?
Thered—hairedgirlwaslyingdowninherownroom,staringattheceiling。Thefootstepsofpeopleonthepavementsounded,astheygrewindistinctinthedistance,likeamany—times—repeatedkissthatwasallonelongkiss。Herhandswerebyherside,andtheyopenedandshutsavagelyfromtimetotime。
Thecharwomaninchargeofthescrubbingofthestudioknockedatherdoor:’Begy’pardon,miss,butincleanin’ofafloorthere’stwo,nottosaythree,kindofsoap,whichisyaller,an’mottled,an’disinfectink。
Now,jistbeforeItookmypailintothepassageIthoughitwouldbepre’apsjestaswellifIwastocomeup’erean’askyouwhatsortofsoapyouwaswishfulthatIshoulduseonthemboards。Theyallersoap,miss————’
Therewasnothinginthespeechtohavecausedtheparoxysmoffurythatdrovethered—hairedgirlintothemiddleoftheroom,almostshouting——
’DoyousupposeIcarewhatyouuse?Anykindwilldo!——anykind!’
Thewomanfled,andthered—hairedgirllookedatherownreflectionintheglassforaninstantandcoveredherfacewithherhands。Itwasasthoughshehadshoutedsomeshamelesssecretaloud。
CHAPTERVII
RosesredandroseswhitePluckedIformylove’sdelight。
Shewouldnoneofallmyposies,——
Bademegatherherblueroses。
HalftheworldIwanderedthrough,Seekingwheresuchflowersgrew;
HalftheworlduntomyquestAnsweredbutwithlaughandjest。
ItmaybebeyondthegraveSheshallfindwhatshewouldhave。
Minewasbutanidlequest,——
Roseswhiteandredarebest!——BlueRoses。?
THESEAhadnotchanged。Itswaterswerelowonthemud—banks,andtheMarazionBell—buoyclankedandswunginthetide—way。Onthewhitebeach—sanddriedstumpsofsea—poppyshiveredandchattered。
’Idon’tseetheoldbreakwater,’saidMaisie,underherbreath。
’Let’sbethankfulthatwehaveasmuchaswehave。Idon’tbelievethey’vemountedasinglenewgunonthefortsincewewerehere。Comeandlook。’
TheycametotheglacisofFortKeeling,andsatdowninanookshelteredfromthewindunderthetarredthroatofaforty—poundercannon。
’Now,ifAmmomawereonlyhere!’saidMaisie。
Foralongtimebothweresilent。ThenDicktookMaisie’shandandcalledherbyhername。
Sheshookherheadandlookedouttosea。
’Maisie,darling,doesn’titmakeanydifference?’
’No!’betweenclenchedteeth。’I’d——I’dtellyouifitdid;butitdoesn’t,Oh,Dick,pleasebesensible。’
’Don’tyouthinkthatiteverwill?’
’No,I’msureitwon’t。’
’Why?’
Maisierestedherchinonherhand,and,stillregardingthesea,spokehurriedly——
’Iknowwhatyouwantperfectlywell,butIcan’tgiveittoyou,Dick。Itisn’tmyfault;indeed,itisn’t。IfIfeltthatIcouldcareforanyone————
ButIdon’tfeelthatIcare。Isimplydon’tunderstandwhatthefeelingmeans。’
’Isthattrue,dear?’
’You’vebeenverygoodtome,Dickie;andtheonlywayIcanpayyoubackisbyspeakingthetruth。Idaren’ttellafib。Idespisemyselfquitenoughasitis。’
’Whatintheworldfor?’
’Because——becauseItakeeverythingthatyougivemeandIgiveyounothinginreturn。It’smeanandselfishofme,andwheneverIthinkofititworriesme。’
’Understandonceforall,then,thatIcanmanagemyownaffairs,andifI
choosetodoanythingyouaren’ttoblame。Youhaven’tasinglethingtoreproachyourselfwith,darling。’
’Yes,Ihave,andtalkingonlymakesitworse。’
’Thendon’ttalkaboutit。’
’HowcanIhelpmyself?Ifyoufindmealoneforaminuteyouarealwaystalkingaboutit;andwhenyouaren’tyoulookit。Youdon’tknowhowI
despisemyselfsometimes。’
’Greatgoodness!’saidDick,nearlyjumpingtohisfeet。’Speakthetruthnow,Maisie,ifyouneverspeakitagain!DoI——doesthisworryingboreyou?’
’No。Itdoesnot。’
’You’dtellmeifitdid?’
’Ishouldletyouknow,Ithink。’
’Thankyou。Theotherthingisfatal。Butyoumustlearntoforgiveamanwhenhe’sinlove。He’salwaysanuisance。Youmusthaveknownthat?’
Maisiedidnotconsiderthelastquestionworthanswering,andDickwasforcedtorepeatit。
’Therewereothermen,ofcourse。TheyalwaysworriedjustwhenIwasinthemiddleofmywork,andwantedmetolistentothem。’
’Didyoulisten?’
’Atfirst;andtheycouldn’tunderstandwhyIdidn’tcare。Andtheyusedtopraisemypictures;andIthoughttheymeantit。Iusedtobeproudofthepraise,andtellKami,and——Ishallneverforget——onceKamilaughedatme。’
’Youdon’tlikebeinglaughedat,Maisie,doyou?’
’Ihateit。Ineverlaughatotherpeopleunless——unlesstheydobadwork。
Dick,tellmehonestlywhatyouthinkofmypicturesgenerally,——ofeverythingofminethatyou’veseen。’
’"Honest,honest,andhonestover!"’quotedDickfromacatchwordoflongago。’TellmewhatKamialwayssays。’
Maisiehesitated。’He——hesaysthatthereisfeelinginthem。’
’Howdareyoutellmeafiblikethat?Remember,IwasunderKamifortwoyears。Iknowexactlywhathesays。’
’Itisn’tafib。’
’It’sworse;it’sahalf—truth。Kamisays,whenheputshisheadononeside,——so,——"Ilyadusentiment,maisiln’yapasdepartipris。"’Herolledtherthreateningly,asKamiusedtodo。
’Yes,thatiswhathesays;andI’mbeginningtothinkthatheisright。’
’Certainlyheis。’Dickadmittedthattwopeopleintheworldcoulddoandsaynowrong。Kamiwastheman。
’Andnowyousaythesamething。It’ssodisheartening。’
’I’msorry,butyouaskedmetospeakthetruth。Besides,Iloveyoutoomuchtopretendaboutyourwork。It’sstrong,it’spatientsometimes,——notalways,——andsometimesthere’spowerinit,butthere’snospecialreasonwhyitshouldbedoneatall。Atleast,that’showitstrikesme。’
’There’snospecialreasonwhyanythingintheworldshouldeverbedone。YouknowthataswellasIdo。Ionlywantsuccess。’
’You’regoingthewrongwaytogetit,then。Hasn’tKamievertoldyouso?’
’Don’tquoteKamitome。Iwanttoknowwhatyouthink。Mywork’sbad,tobeginwith。’
’Ididn’tsaythat,andIdon’tthinkit。’
’It’samateurish,then。’
’Thatitmostcertainlyisnot。You’reawork—woman,darling,toyourboot—heels,andIrespectyouforthat。’
’Youdon’tlaughatmebehindmyback?’
’No,dear。Yousee,youaremoretomethananyoneelse。Putthiscloakthingroundyou,oryou’llgetchilled。’
Maisiewrappedherselfinthesoftmartenskins,turningthegraykangaroofurtotheoutside。
’Thisisdelicious,’shesaid,rubbingherchinthoughtfullyalongthefur。
’Well?WhyamIwrongintryingtogetalittlesuccess?’
’Justbecauseyoutry。Don’tyouunderstand,darling?Goodworkhasnothingtodowith——doesn’tbelongto——thepersonwhodoesit。It’sputintohimorherfromoutside。’
’Buthowdoesthataffect————’
’Waitaminute。Allwecandoistolearnhowtodoourwork,tobemastersofourmaterialsinsteadofservants,andnevertobeafraidofanything。’
’Iunderstandthat。’
’Everythingelsecomesfromoutsideourselves。Verygood。Ifwesitdownquietlytoworkoutnotionsthataresenttous,wemayorwemaynotdosomethingthatisn’tbad。Agreatdealdependsonbeingmasterofthebricksandmortarofthetrade。Buttheinstantwebegintothinkaboutsuccessandtheeffectofourwork——toplaywithoneeyeonthegallery——welosepowerandtouchandeverythingelse。Atleastthat’showIhavefoundit。Insteadofbeingquietandgivingeverypoweryoupossesstoyourwork,you’refrettingoversomethingwhichyoucanneitherhelpnohinderbyaminute。See?’
’It’ssoeasyforyoutotalkinthatway。Peoplelikewhatyoudo。Don’tyoueverthinkaboutthegallery?’
’Muchtoooften;butI’malwayspunishedforitbylossofpower。It’sassimpleastheRuleofThree。Ifwemakelightofourworkbyusingitforourownends,ourworkwillmakelightofus,and,aswe’retheweaker,weshallsuffer。’
’Idon’ttreatmyworklightly。Youknowthatit’severythingtome。’
’Ofcourse;but,whetheryourealiseitornot,yougivetwostrokesforyourselftooneforyourwork。Itisn’tyourfault,darling。Idoexactlythesamething,andknowthatI’mdoingit。MostoftheFrenchschools,andalltheschoolshere,drivethestudentstoworkfortheirowncredit,andforthesakeoftheirpride。Iwastoldthatalltheworldwasinterestedinmywork,andeverybodyatKami’stalkedturpentine,andIhonestlybelievedthattheworldneededelevatingandinfluencing,andallmannerofimpertinences,bymybrushes。ByJove,Iactuallybelievedthat!WhenmylittleheadwasburstingwithanotionthatIcouldn’thandlebecauseI
hadn’tsufficientknowledgeofmycraft,Iusedtorunaboutwonderingatmyownmagnificenceandgettingreadytoastonishtheworld。’
’Butsurelyonecandothatsometimes?’
’Veryseldomwithmaliceaforethought,darling。Andwhenit’sdoneit’ssuchatinything,andtheworld’ssobig,andallbutamillionthpartofitdoesn’tcare。Maisie,comewithmeandI’llshowyousomethingofthesizeoftheworld。Onecannomoreavoidworkingthaneating,——thatgoesonbyitself,——buttrytoseewhatyouareworkingfor。IknowsuchlittleheavensthatIcouldtakeyouto,——islandstuckedawayundertheLine。
Yousightthemafterweeksofcrashingthroughwaterasblackasblackmarblebecauseit’ssodeep,andyousitinthefore—chainsdayafterdayandseethesunrisealmostafraidbecausethesea’ssolonely。’
’Whoisafraid?——you,orthesun?’
’Thesun,ofcourse。Andtherearenoisesunderthesea,andsoundsoverheadinaclearsky。Thenyoufindyourislandalivewithhotmoistorchidsthatmakemouthsatyouandcandoeverythingexcepttalk。
There’sawaterfallinitthreehundredfeethigh,justlikeasliverofgreenjadelacedwithsilver;andmillionsofwildbeesliveupintherocks;andyoucanhearthefatcocoanutsfallingfromthepalms;andyouorderanivory—whiteservanttoslingyoualongyellowhammockwithtasselsonitlikeripemaize,andyouputupyourfeetandhearthebeeshumandthewaterfalltillyougotosleep。’
’Canoneworkthere?’
’Certainly。Onemustdosomethingalways。Youhangyourcanvasupinapalmtreeandlettheparrotscriticise。Whenthescuffleyouheavearipecustard—appleatthem,anditburstsinalatherofcream。Therearehundredsofplaces。Comeandseethem。’
’Idon’tquitelikethatplace。Itsoundslazy。Tellmeanother。’
’Whatdoyouthinkofabig,red,deadcitybuiltofredsandstone,withrawgreenaloesgrowingbetweenthestones,lyingoutneglectedonhoney—colouredsands?Therearefortydeadkingsthere,Maisie,eachinagorgeoustombfinerthanalltheothers。Youlookatthepalacesandstreetsandshopsandtanks,andthinkthatmenmustlivethere,tillyoufindaweegraysquirrelrubbingitsnoseallaloneinthemarket—place,andajewelledpeacockstrutsoutofacarveddoorwayandspreadsitstailagainstamarblescreenasfinepiercedaspoint—lace。Thenamonkey——alittleblackmonkey——walksthroughthemainsquaretogetadrinkfromatankfortyfeetdeep。Heslidesdownthecreeperstothewater’sedge,andafriendholdshimbythetail,incaseheshouldfallin。’
’Isthatalltrue?’
’Ihavebeenthereandseen。Theneveningcomes,andthelightschangetillit’sjustasthoughyoustoodintheheartofaking—opal。Alittlebeforesundown,aspunctuallyasclockwork,abigbristlywildboar,withallhisfamilyfollowing,trotsthroughthecitygate,churningthefoamonhistusks。Youclimbontheshoulderofablindblackstonegodandwatchthatpigchoosehimselfapalaceforthenightandstumpinwagginghistail。Thenthenight—windgetsup,andthesandsmove,andyouhearthedesertoutsidethecitysinging,"NowIlaymedowntosleep,"andeverythingisdarktillthemoonrises。Maisie,darling,comewithmeandseewhattheworldisreallylike。It’sverylovely,andit’sveryhorrible,——butIwon’tletyouseeanythinghorrid,——anditdoesn’tcareyourlifeormineforpicturesoranythingelseexceptdoingitsownworkandmakinglove。Come,andI’llshowyouhowtobrewsangaree,andslingahammock,and——oh,thousandsofthings,andyou’llseeforyourselfwhatcolourmeans,andwe’llfindouttogetherwhatlovemeans,andthen,maybe,weshallbeallowedtodosomegoodwork。Comeaway!’
’Why?’saidMaisie。
’Howcanyoudoanythinguntilyouhaveseeneverything,orasmuchasyoucan?Andbesides,darling,Iloveyou。Comealongwithme。Youhavenobusinesshere;youdon’tbelongtothisplace;you’rehalfagipsy,——yourfacetellsthat;andI——eventhesmellofopenwatermakesmerestless。Comeacrosstheseaandbehappy!’
Hehadrisentohisfeet,andstoodintheshadowofthegun,lookingdownatthegirl。Theveryshortwinterafternoonhadwornaway,and,beforetheyknew,thewintermoonwaswalkingtheuntroubledsea。Longruledlinesofsilvershowedwherearippleoftherisingtidewasturningoverthemud—banks。Thewindhaddropped,andintheintensestillnesstheycouldhearadonkeycroppingthefrostygrassmanyyardsaway。Afaintbeating,likethatofamuffleddrum,cameoutofthemoon—haze。
’What’sthat?’saidMaisie,quickly。’Itsoundslikeaheartbeating。
Whereisit?’
Dickwassoangryatthissuddenwrenchtohispleadingsthathecouldnottrusthimselftospeak,andinthissilencecaughtthesound。Maisiefromherseatunderthegunwatchedhimwithacertainamountoffear。
Shewishedsomuchthathewouldbesensibleandceasetoworryherwithover—seaemotionthatshebothcouldandcouldnotunderstand。Shewasnotprepared,however,forthechangeinhisfaceashelistened。
’It’sasteamer,’hesaid,——’atwin—screwsteamer,bythebeat。Ican’tmakeherout,butshemustbestandingveryclosein—shore。Ah!’astheredofarocketstreakedthehaze,’she’sstandingintosignalbeforesheclearstheChannel。’
’Isitawreck?’saidMaisie,towhomthesewordswereasGreek。
Dick’seyeswereturnedtothesea。’Wreck!Whatnonsense!She’sonlyreportingherself。Redrocketforward——there’sagreenlightaftnow,andtworedrocketsfromthebridge。’
’Whatdoesthatmean?’
’It’sthesignaloftheCrossKeysLinerunningtoAustralia。Iwonderwhichsteameritis。’Thenoteofhisvoicehadchanged;heseemedtobetalkingtohimself,andMaisiedidnotapproveofit。Themoonlightbrokethehazeforamoment,touchingtheblacksidesofalongsteamerworkingdownChannel。’Fourmastsandthreefunnels——she’sindeepdraught,too。ThatmustbetheBarralong,ortheBhutia。No,theBhutiahasaclopperbow。It’stheBarralong,toAustralia。She’lllifttheSouthernCrossinaweek,——luckyoldtub!——oh,luckyoldtub!’
Hestaredintently,andmoveduptheslopeoftheforttogetabetterview,butthemistontheseathickenedagain,andthebeatingofthescrewsgrewfainter。Maisiecalledtohimalittleangrily,andhereturned,stillkeepinghiseyestoseaward。’HaveyoueverseentheSouthernCrossblazingrightoveryourhead?’heasked。’It’ssuperb!’
’No,’shesaidshortly,’andIdon’twantto。Ifyouthinkit’ssolovely,whydon’tyougoandseeityourself?’
Sheraisedherfacefromthesoftblacknessofthemartenskinsaboutherthroat,andhereyesshonelikediamonds。Themoonlightonthegraykangaroofurturnedittofrostedsilverofthecoldest。
’ByJove,Maisie,youlooklikealittleheathenidoltuckedupthere。’Theeyesshowedthattheydidnotappreciatethecompliment。’I’msorry,’hecontinued。’TheSouthernCrossisn’tworthlookingatunlesssomeonehelpsyoutosee。Thatsteamer’soutofhearing。’
’Dick,’shesaidquietly,’supposeIweretocometoyounow,——bequietaminute,——justasIam,andcaringforyoujustasmuchasIdo。’
’Notasabrother,thoughYousaidyoudidn’t——inthePark。’
’Ineverhadabrother。SupposeIsaid,"Takemetothoseplaces,andintime,perhaps,Imightreallycareforyou,"whatwouldyoudo?’
’Sendyoustraightbacktowhereyoucamefrom,inacab。No,I
wouldn’t;I’dletyouwalk。Butyoucouldn’tdoit,dear。AndIwouldn’truntherisk。You’reworthwaitingfortillyoucancomewithoutreservation。’
’Doyouhonestlybelievethat?’
’IhaveahazysortofideathatIdo。Hasitneverstruckyouinthatlight?’
’Ye——es。Ifeelsowickedaboutit。’
’Wickederthanusual?’
’Youdon’tknowallIthink。It’salmosttooawfultotell。’
’Nevermind。Youpromisedtotellmethetruth——atleast。’
’It’ssoungratefulofme,but——but,thoughIknowyoucareforme,andI
liketohaveyouwithme,I’d——I’devensacrificeyou,ifthatwouldbringmewhatIwant。’
’Mypoorlittledarling!Iknowthatstateofmind。Itdoesn’tleadtogoodwork。’
’Youaren’tangry?Remember,Idodespisemyself。’
’I’mnotexactlyflattered,——Ihadguessedasmuchbefore,——butI’mnotangry。I’msorryforyou。Surelyyououghttohaveleftalittlenesslikethatbehindyou,yearsago。’
’You’venorighttopatroniseme!IonlywantwhatIhaveworkedforsolong。Itcametoyouwithoutanytrouble,and——andIdon’tthinkit’sfair。’
’WhatcanIdo?I’dgivetenyearsofmylifetogetyouwhatyouwant。
ButIcan’thelpyou;evenIcan’thelp。’
AmurmurofdissentfromMaisie。Hewenton——
’AndIknowbywhatyouhavejustsaidthatyou’reonthewrongroadtosuccess。Itisn’tgotatbysacrificingotherpeople,——I’vehadthatmuchknockedintome;youmustsacrificeyourself,andliveunderorders,andneverthinkforyourself,andneverhaverealsatisfactioninyourworkexceptjustatthebeginning,whenyou’rereachingoutafteranotion。’
’Howcanyoubelieveallthat?’
’There’snoquestionofbeliefordisbelief。That’sthelaw,andyoutakeitorrefuseitasyouplease。Itrytoobey,butIcan’t,andthenmyworkturnsbadonmyhands。Underanycircumstances,remember,four—fifthsofeverybody’sworkmustbebad。Buttheremnantisworththetroubleforit’sownsake。’
’Isn’titnicetogetcreditevenforbadwork?’
’It’smuchtoonice。But————MayItellyousomething?Itisn’taprettytale,butyou’resolikeamanthatIforgetwhenI’mtalkingtoyou。’
’Tellme。’
’OncewhenIwasoutintheSoudanIwentoversomegroundthatwehadbeenfightingonforthreedays。Thereweretwelvehundreddead;
andwehadn’ttimetoburythem。’
’Howghastly!’
’Ihadbeenatworkonabigdouble—sheetsketch,andIwaswonderingwhatpeoplewouldthinkofitathome。Thesightofthatfieldtaughtmeagooddeal。Itlookedjustlikeabedofhorribletoadstoolsinallcolours,and——I’dneverseenmeninbulkgobacktotheirbeginningsbefore。SoI
begantounderstandthatmenandwomenwereonlymaterialtoworkwith,andthatwhattheysaidordidwasofnoconsequence。See?Strictlyspeaking,youmightjustaswellputyoureardowntothepalettetocatchwhatyourcoloursaresaying。’
’Dick,that’sdisgraceful!’
’Waitaminute。Isaid,strictlyspeaking。Unfortunately,everybodymustbeeitheramanorawoman。’
’I’mgladyouallowthatmuch。’
’InyourcaseIdon’t。Youaren’tawoman。Butordinarypeople,Maisie,mustbehaveandworkassuch。That’swhatmakesmesosavage。’Hehurledapebbletowardstheseaashespoke。’Iknowthatitisoutsidemybusinesstocarewhatpeoplesay;IcanseethatitspoilsmyoutputifI
listento’em;andyet,confounditall,’——anotherpebbleflewseaward,——’I
can’thelppurringwhenI’mrubbedtherightway。EvenwhenIcanseeonaman’sforeheadthatheislyinghiswaythroughaclumpofprettyspeeches,thoseliesmakemehappyandplaythemischiefwithmyhand。’
’Andwhenhedoesn’tsayprettythings?’
’Then,belovedest,’——Dickgrinned,——’IforgetthatIamthestewardofthesegifts,andIwanttomakethatmanloveandappreciatemyworkwithathickstick。It’stoohumiliatingaltogether;butIsupposeevenifonewereanangelandpaintedhumansaltogetherfromoutside,onewouldloseintouchwhatonegainedingrip。’
MaisielaughedattheideaofDickasanangel。
’Butyouseemtothink,’shesaid,’thateverythingnicespoilsyourhand。’
’Idon’tthink。It’sthelaw,——justthesameasitwasatMrs。Jennett’s。
Everythingthatisnicedoesspoilyourhand。I’mgladyouseesoclearly。’
’Idon’tliketheview。’
’NorI。But——havegotorders:whatcando?Areyoustrongenoughtofaceitalone?’
’IsupposeImust。’
’Letmehelp,darling。Wecanholdeachotherverytightandtrytowalkstraight。Weshallblunderhorribly,butitwillbebetterthanstumblingapart。Maisie,can’tyouseereason?’
’Idon’tthinkweshouldgetontogether。Weshouldbetwoofatrade,soweshouldneveragree。’
’HowIshouldliketomeetthemanwhomadethatproverb!Helivedinacaveandaterawbear,Ifancy。I’dmakehimchewhisownarrow—heads。
Well?’
’Ishouldbeonlyhalfmarriedtoyou。Ishouldworryandfussaboutmywork,asIdonow。FourdaysoutofthesevenI’mnotfittospeakto。’
’Youtalkasifnooneelseintheworldhadeverusedabrush。D’yousupposethatIdon’tknowthefeelingofworryandbotherandcan’t—get—at—ness?You’reluckyifyouonlyhaveitfourdaysoutoftheseven。Whatdifferencewouldthatmake?’
’Agreatdeal——ifyouhadittoo。’
’Yes,butIcouldrespectit。Anothermanmightnot。Hemightlaughatyou。Butthere’snousetalkingaboutit。Ifyoucanthinkinthatwayyoucan’tcareforme——yet。’
Thetidehadnearlycoveredthemud—banksandtwentylittleripplesbrokeonthebeachbeforeMaisiechosetospeak。
’Dick,’shesaidslowly,’IbelieveverymuchthatyouarebetterthanI
am。’
’Thisdoesn’tseemtobearontheargument——butinwhatway?’
’Idon’tquiteknow,butinwhatyousaidaboutworkandthings;andthenyou’resopatient。Yes,you’rebetterthanIam。’
Dickconsideredrapidlythemurkinessofanaverageman’slife。Therewasnothinginthereviewtofillhimwithasenseofvirtue。Heliftedthehemofthecloaktohislips。
’Why,’saidMaisie,makingasthoughshehadnotnoticed,’canyouseethingsthatIcan’t?Idon’tbelievewhatyoubelieve;butyou’reright,I
believe。’
’IfI’veseenanything,GodknowsIcouldn’thaveseenitbutforyou,andIknowthatIcouldn’thavesaiditexcepttoyou。Youseemedtomakeeverythingclearforaminute;butIdon’tpracticewhatIpreach。Youwouldhelpme……Thereareonlyustwointheworldforallpurposes,and——andyouliketohavemewithyou?’
’OfcourseIdo。IwonderifyoucanrealisehowutterlylonelyIam!’
’Darling,IthinkIcan。’
’Twoyearsago,whenIfirsttookthelittlehouse,Iusedtowalkupanddowntheback—gardentryingtocry。Inevercancry。Canyou?’
’It’ssometimesinceItried。Whatwasthetrouble?Overwork?’
’Idon’tknow;butIusedtodreamthatIhadbrokendown,andhadnomoney,andwasstarvinginLondon。Ithoughtaboutitallday,anditfrightenedme——oh,howitfrightenedme!’
’Iknowthatfear。It’sthemostterribleofall。Itwakesmeupinthenightsometimes。Yououghtn’ttoknowanythingaboutit。’
’Howdoyouknow?’
’Nevermind。Isyourthreehundredayearsafe?’
’It’sinConsols。’
’Verywell。Ifanyonecomestoyouandrecommendsabetterinvestment,——evenifIshouldcometoyou,——don’tyoulisten。Nevershiftthemoneyforaminute,andneverlendapennyofit,——eventothered—hairedgirl。’
’Don’tscoldmeso!I’mnotlikelytobefoolish。’
’Theearthisfullofmenwho’dselltheirsoulsforthreehundredayear;
andwomencomeandtalk,andborrowafive—poundnotehereandaten—poundnotethere;andawomanhasnoconscienceinamoneydebt。
Sticktoyourmoney,Maisie,forthere’snothingmoreghastlyintheworldthanpovertyinLondon。It’sscaredme。ByJove,itputthefearintome!Andoneoughtn’ttobeafraidofanything。’
Toeachmanisappointedhisparticulardread,——theterrorthat,ifhedoesnotfightagainstit,mustcowhimeventothelossofhismanhood。Dick’sexperienceofthesordidmiseryofwanthadenteredintothedeepsofhim,and,lesthemightfindvirtuetooeasy,thatmemorystoodbehindhim,temptingtoshame,whendealerscametobuyhiswares。AstheNilghaiquakedagainsthiswillatthestillgreenwaterofalakeoramill—dam,asTorpenhowflinchedbeforeanywhitearmthatcouldcutorstabandloathedhimselfforflinching,Dickfearedthepovertyhehadoncetastedhalfinjest。Hisburdenwasheavierthantheburdensofhiscompanions。
Maisiewatchedthefaceworkinginthemoonlight。
’You’veplentyofpenniesnow,’shesaidsoothingly。
’Ishallneverhaveenough,’hebegan,withviciousemphasis。Then,laughing,’Ishallalwaysbethree—penceshortinmyaccounts。’
’Whythreepence?’
’Icarriedaman’sbagoncefromLiverpoolStreetStationtoBlackfriar’sBridge。Itwasasixpennyjob,——youneedn’tlaugh;indeeditwas,——andI
wantedthemoneydesperately。Heonlygavemethreepence;andhehadn’teventhedecencytopayinsilver。WhatevermoneyImake,Ishallnevergetthatoddthreepenceoutoftheworld。’
Thiswasnotlanguagebefittingthemanwhohadpreachedofthesanctityofwork。ItjarredonMaisie,whopreferredherpaymentinapplause,which,sinceallmendesireit,mustbeofheright。Shehuntedforherlittlepurseandgravelytookoutathreepennybit。
’Thereitis,’shesaid。’I’llpayyou,Dickie;anddon’tworryanymore;itisn’tworthwhile。Areyoupaid?’
’Iam,’saidtheveryhumanapostleoffaircraft,takingthecoin。’I’mpaidathousandtimes,andwe’llclosethataccount。Itshallliveonmywatch—chain;andyou’reanangel,Maisie。’
’I’mverycramped,andI’mfeelingalittlecold。Goodgracious!thecloakisallwhite,andsoisyourmoustache!Ineverknewitwassochilly。’
AlightfrostlaywhiteontheshoulderofDick’sulster。He,too,hadforgottenthestateoftheweather。Theylaughedtogether,andwiththatlaughendedallseriousdiscourse。
Theyraninlandacrossthewastetowarmthemselves,thenturnedtolookatthegloryofthefulltideunderthemoonlightandtheintenseblackshadowsofthefurzebushes。ItwasanadditionaljoytoDickthatMaisiecouldseecolourevenashesawit,——couldseetheblueinthewhiteofthemist,thevioletthatisingraypalings,andallthingselseastheyare,——notofonehue,butathousand。AndthemoonlightcameintoMaisie’ssoul,sothatshe,usuallyreserved,chatteredofherselfandofthethingsshetookinterestin,——ofKami,wisestofteachers,andofthegirlsinthestudio,——ofthePoles,whowillkillthemselveswithoverworkiftheyarenotchecked;oftheFrench,whotalkatgreatlengthofmuchmorethantheywilleveraccomplish;oftheslovenlyEnglish,whotoilhopelesslyandcannotunderstandthatinclinationdoesnotimplypower;
oftheAmericans,whoseraspingvoicesinthehushofahotafternoonstraintense—drawnnervestobreaking—point,andwhosesuppersleadtoindigestion;oftempestuousRussians,neithertoholdnortobind,whotellthegirlsghost—storiestillthegirlsshriek;ofstolidGermans,whocometolearnonething,and,havingmasteredthatmuch,stolidlygoawayandcopypicturesforevermore。DicklistenedenrapturedbecauseitwasMaisiewhospoke。Heknewtheoldlife。
’Ithasn’tchangedmuch,’hesaid。’Dotheystillstealcoloursatlunch—time?’
’Notsteal。Attractistheword。Ofcoursetheydo。I’mgood——Ionlyattractultramarine;buttherearestudentswho’dattractflake—white。’
’I’vedoneitmyself。Youcan’thelpitwhenthepalettesarehungup。
Everycolouriscommonpropertyonceitrunsdown,——eventhoughyoudostartitwithadropofoil。Itteachespeoplenottowastetheirtubes。’
’Ishouldliketoattractsomeofyourcolours,Dick。PerhapsImightcatchyoursuccesswiththem。’
’Imustn’tsayabadword,butIshouldliketo。Whatintheworld,whichyou’vejustmissedalovelychanceofseeing,doessuccessorwantofsuccess,orathree—storiedsuccess,mattercomparedwith————No,Iwon’topenthatquestionagain。It’stimetogobacktotown。’
’I’msorry,Dick,but————’
’You’remuchmoreinterestedinthatthanyouareinme。’
’Idon’tknow,Idon’tthinkIam。’
’WhatwillyougivemeifItellyouasureshort—cuttoeverythingyouwant,——thetroubleandthefussandthetangleandalltherest?Willyoupromisetoobeyme?’
’Ofcourse。’
’Inthefirstplace,youmustneverforgetamealbecauseyouhappentobeatwork。Youforgotyourlunchtwicelastweek,’saidDick,ataventure,forheknewwithwhomhewasdealing。’
’No,no,——onlyonce,really。’
’That’sbadenough。Andyoumustn’ttakeacupofteaandabiscuitinplaceofaregulardinner,becausedinnerhappenstobeatrouble。’
’You’remakingfunofme!’
’Ineverwasmoreinearnestinmylife。Oh,mylove,mylove,hasn’titdawnedonyouyetwhatyouaretome?Here’sthewholeearthinaconspiracytogiveyouachill,orrunoveryou,ordrenchyoutotheskin,orcheatyououtofyourmoney,orletyoudieofoverworkandunderfeeding,andIhaven’tthemererighttolookafteryou。Why,I
don’tevenknowifyouhavesenseenoughtoputonwarmthingswhentheweather’scold。’
’Dick,you’rethemostawfulboytotalkto——really!HowdoyousupposeI
managedwhenyouwereaway?’
’Iwasn’there,andIdidn’tknow。ButnowI’mbackI’dgiveeverythingI
havefortherightoftellingyoutocomeinoutoftherain。’
’Yoursuccesstoo?’
ThistimeitcostDickaseverestruggletorefrainfrombadwords。
’AsMrs。Jennettusedtosay,you’reatrial,Maisie!You’vebeencoopedupintheschoolstoolong,andyouthinkeveryoneislookingatyou。
Therearen’ttwelvehundredpeopleintheworldwhounderstandpictures。Theotherspretendanddon’tcare。Remember,I’veseentwelvehundredmendeadintoadstool—beds。It’sonlythevoiceofthetiniestlittlefractionofpeoplethatmakessuccess。Therealworlddoesn’tcareatinker’s——doesn’tcareabit。ForaughtyouorIknow,everymanintheworldmaybearguingwithaMaisieofhisown。’
’PoorMaisie!’
’PoorDick,Ithink。Doyoubelievewhilehe’sfightingforwhat’sdearerthanhislifehewantstolookatapicture?Andevenifhedid,andifalltheworlddid,andathousandmillionpeopleroseupandshoutedhymnstomyhonourandglory,wouldthatmakeuptomefortheknowledgethatyouwereoutshoppingintheEdgwareRoadonarainydaywithoutanumbrella?Nowwe’llgotothestation。’
’Butyousaidonthebeach————’persistedMaisie,withacertainfear。
Dickgroanedaloud:’Yes,IknowwhatIsaid。MyworkiseverythingI
have,oram,orhopetobe,tome,andIbelieveI’velearntthelawthatgovernsit;butI’vesomelingeringsenseoffunleft,——thoughyou’venearlyknockeditoutofme。Icanjustseethatitisn’teverythingtoalltheworld。DowhatIsay,andnotwhatIdo。’
Maisiewascarefulnottoreopendebatablematters,andtheyreturnedtoLondonjoyously。TheterminusstoppedDickinthemidstofaneloquentharangueonthebeautiesofexercise。HewouldbuyMaisieahorse,——suchahorseasneveryetbowedheadtobit,——wouldstableit,withacompanion,sometwentymilesfromLondon,andMaisie,solelyforherhealth’ssakeshouldridewithhimtwiceorthriceaweek。
’That’sabsurd,’saidshe。’Itwouldn’tbeproper。’
’Now,whoinallLondonto—nightwouldhavesufficientinterestoraudacitytocallustwotoaccountforanythingwechosetodo?’
Maisielookedatthelamps,thefog,andthehideousturmoil。Dickwasright;buthorsefleshdidnotmakeforArtassheunderstoodit。
’You’reverynicesometimes,butyou’reveryfoolishmoretimes。I’mnotgoingtoletyougivemehorses,ortakeyououtofyourwayto—night。I’llgohomebymyself。OnlyIwantyoutopromisemesomething。Youwon’tthinkanymoreaboutthatextrathreepence,willyou?Remember,you’vebeenpaid;andIwon’tallowyoutobespitefulanddobadworkforalittlethinglikethat。Youcanbesobigthatyoumustn’tbetiny。’
Thiswasturningthetableswithavengeance。ThereremainedonlytoputMaisieintoherhansom。
’Good—bye,’shesaidsimply。’You’llcomeonSunday。Ithasbeenabeautifulday,Dick。Whycan’titbelikethisalways?’
’Becauselove’slikeline—work:youmustgoforwardorbackward;youcan’tstandstill。Bytheway,goonwithyourline—work。Good—night,and,formy——formysake,takecareofyourself。’
Heturnedtowalkhome,meditating。Thedayhadbroughthimnothingthathehopedfor,but——surelythiswasworthmanydays——ithadbroughthimnearertoMaisie。Theendwasonlyaquestionoftimenow,andtheprizewellworththewaiting。Byinstinct,oncemore,heturnedtotheriver。
’Andsheunderstoodatonce,’hesaid,lookingatthewater。’Shefoundoutmypetbesettingsinonthespot,andpaiditoff。MyGod,howsheunderstood!AndshesaidIwasbetterthanshewas!Betterthanshewas!’Helaughedattheabsurdityofthenotion。’Iwonderifgirlsguessatone—halfaman’slife。Theycan’t,or——theywouldn’tmarryus。’Hetookhergiftoutofhispocket,andconsidereditinthelightofamiracleandapledgeofthecomprehensionthat,oneday,wouldleadtoperfecthappiness。Meantime,MaisiewasaloneinLondon,withnonetosaveherfromdanger。Andthepackedwildernesswasveryfullofdanger。
DickmadehisprayertoFatedisjointedlyafterthemanneroftheheathenashethrewthepieceofsilverintotheriver。Ifanyevilweretobefal,lethimbeartheburdenandletMaisiegounscathed,sincethethreepennypiecewasdearesttohimofallhispossessions。Itwasasmallcoininitself,butMaisiehadgivenit,andtheThamesheldit,andsurelytheFateswouldbebribedforthisonce。
ThedrowningofthecoinseemedtocuthimfreefromthoughtofMaisieforthemoment。Hetookhimselfoffthebridgeandwentwhistlingtohischamberswithastrongyearningforsomeman—talkandtobaccoafterhisfirstexperienceofanentiredayspentinthesocietyofawoman。TherewasastrongerdesireathisheartwhenthererosebeforehimanunsolicitedvisionoftheBarralongdippingdeepandsailingfreefortheSouthernCross。
CHAPTERVIII
Andthesetwo,asIhavetoldyou,WerethefriendsofHiawatha,Chibiabos,themusician,Andtheverystrongman,Kwasind。
——Hiawatha。?
TORPENHOWwaspagingthelastsheetsofsomemanuscript,whiletheNilghai,whohadcomeforchessandremainedtotalktactics,wasreadingthroughthefirstpart,commentingscornfullythewhile。
’It’spicturesqueenoughandit’ssketchy,’saidhe;’butasaseriousconsiderationofaffairsinEasternEurope,it’snotworthmuch。’
’It’soffmyhandsatanyrate……Thirty—seven,thirty—eight,thirty—nineslipsaltogether,aren’tthere?Thatshouldmakebetweenelevenandtwelvepagesofvaluablemisinformation。Heigho!’Torpenhowshuffledthewritingtogetherandhummed——
Younglambstosell,younglambstosell,IfI’dasmuchmoneyasIcouldtell,Ineverwouldcry,Younglambstosell!?
Dickentered,self—consciousandalittledefiant,butinthebestoftemperswithalltheworld。
’Backatlast?’saidTorpenhow。
’Moreorless。Whathaveyoubeendoing?’
’Work。Dickie,youbehaveasthoughtheBankofEnglandwerebehindyou。Here’sSunday,Monday,andTuesdaygoneandyouhaven’tdonealine。It’sscandalous。’
’Thenotionscomeandgo,mychildren——theycomeandgolikeour’baccy,’heanswered,fillinghispipe。’Moreover,’hestoopedtothrustaspillintothegrate,’Apollodoesnotalwaysstretchhis————Oh,confoundyourclumsyjests,Nilghai!’
’Thisisnottheplacetopreachthetheoryofdirectinspiration,’saidtheNilghai,returningTorpenhow’slargeandworkmanlikebellowstotheirnailonthewall。’Webelieveincobblers’wax。La!——whereyousitdown。’
’Ifyouweren’tsobigandfat,’saidDick,lookingroundforaweapon,’I’d————’
’Noskylarkinginmyrooms。Youtwosmashedhalfmyfurniturelasttimeyouthrewthecushionsabout。YoumighthavethedecencytosayHowd’youdo?toBinkie。Lookathim。’
BinkiehadjumpeddownfromthesofaandwasfawningroundDick’sknee,andscratchingathisboots。
’Dearman!’saidDick,snatchinghimup,andkissinghimontheblackpatchabovehisrighteye。’Didumswas,Binks?DidthatuglyNilghaiturnyouoffthesofa?Bitehim,Mr。Binkie。’HepitchedhimontheNilghai’sstomach,asthebigmanlayatease,andBinkiepretendedtodestroytheNilghaiinchbyinch,tillasofacushionextinguishedhim,andpantinghestuckouthistongueatthecompany。
’TheBinkie—boywentforawalkthismorningbeforeyouwereup,Torp。
Isawhimmakinglovetothebutcheratthecornerwhentheshutterswerebeingtakendown——justasifhehadn’tenoughtoeatinhisownproperhouse,’saidDick。
’Binks,isthatatruebill?’saidTorpenhow,severely。Thelittledogretreatedunderthesofacushion,andshowedbythefatwhitebackofhimthathereallyhadnofurtherinterestinthediscussion。
’Strikesmethatanotherdisreputabledogwentforawalk,too,’saidtheNilghai。’Whatmadeyougetupsoearly?Torpsaidyoumightbebuyingahorse。’
’Heknowsitwouldneedthreeofusforaseriousbusinesslikethat。No,I
feltlonesomeandunhappy,soIwentouttolookatthesea,andwatchtheprettyshipsgoby。’
’Wheredidyougo?’
’SomewhereontheChannel。ProglyorSnigly,orsomewatering—placewasitsname;I’veforgotten;butitwasonlytwohours’runfromLondonandtheshipswentby。’
’Didyouseeanythingyouknew?’
’OnlytheBarralongoutwardstoAustralia,andanOdessagrain—boatloadeddownbythehead。Itwasathickday,buttheseasmeltgood。’
’Whereforeputonone’sbesttrouserstoseetheBarralong?’saidTorpenhow,pointing。
’BecauseI’venothingexceptthesethingsandmypaintingduds。Besides,Iwantedtodohonourtothesea。’
’DidShemakeyoufeelrestless?’askedtheNilghai,keenly。
’Crazy。Don’tspeakofit。I’msorryIwent。’
TorpenhowandtheNilghaiexchangedalookasDick,stooping,busiedhimselfamongtheformer’sbootsandtrees。