InthattimeIletmybeardgrow,andtrainedmyhairintoapatrioticunkemptness。Then,infilthygarments,likeanytrueRepublican,Isetouttocrossthefrontier。AsIapproachedit,IwasfilledwithfearsthatImightnotwinacross,andthen,inthemomentofmydoubtings,Icameuponthatmostopportuneofcouriers。Ihadthenotiontochangeplaceswithhim,andIdid。
  HewasthebearerofalettertotheDeputyLaBoulaye,ofwhomyoumayhaveheard,andthisletterIopenedtodiscoverthatitchargedhimtoeffectmyarrest。"
  IfLaBoulayewasstartled,hisfaceneverbetrayedit,notbysomuchasthequiverofaneyelid。Hesaton,hisjawinhispalm,hiseyesadmiringlybentuponthespeaker。
  "Youmayjudgeofmyhonesty,andofhowfullysensibleIwasofthetrustIhadundertaken,whenItellyouthatwithmyownhandI
  deliveredtheletterthismorningtothatanimalLaBoulayeatBoisvert。"Heseemedtoswellwithprideinhisachievement。
  "Diable!"hecontinued。"Minewasafinepieceofacting。Iwouldyoucouldhaveseenmeplaythepartofthepatriot。Thinkoftheironyofit!IwonoutofFrancewiththeverypapersorderingmyarrest。Mafoi!Youshouldhaveseenmebefoolthatdirtofadeputy!ItwasaperformanceworthyofTalmahimself。"AndhelookedfromCadouxtoLaBoulayeforapplause。
  "Idoubtnot,"saidtheDeputycoldly。"Itmusthavebeenworthwitnessing。Butdoesitnotseemapitytospoileverythingandtoneutralisesowonderfulanachievementforthemeresakeofboastingofittoapoor,ignorantpeasant,MonsieurleVicomteAnatoled’Ombreval?"
  Withasuddencry,thepseudocourierleapttohisfeet,whilstDesCadouxturnedonthestoolheoccupiedtostarealarmedlyatthespeaker。
  "NameofGod!Whoareyou?"demandedOmbrevaladvancingastep。
  WithhissleeveLaBoulayerubbedpartofthedisfiguringsmearfromhisfaceashestoodupandmadeanswercoolly:
  "IamthatdirtofaDeputywhomyoubefooledatBoisvert。"Then,raisinghisvoice,"Garin!"heshouted,andimmediatelythedooropenedandthesoldiersfiledin。
  Ombrevalstoodlikeastatue,thunderstruckwithamazementatthismostunlooked—forturningofthetables,hisfaceashen,hisweakmouthfallenopenandhiseyesfearful。
  DesCadoux,whohadalsorisen,seemedtotakeinthesituationataglance。Likeawell—bredgamesterwhoknowshowtolosewithagoodgracetheoldgentlemanlaugheddrilytohimselfashetappedhissnuff—box。
  "Wearedelightfullytaken,cherVicomte,"hemurmured,applyingthetobaccotohisnostrilashespoke。"It’soddsyouwon’tbeabletorepeatthatprettystorytoanymoreofyourfriends。Iwarnedyouthatyouinclinedtorelateittoooften。"
  Withasuddenoath,Ombreval—movedtovalourbytheblindragethatpossessedhim—sprangatLaBoulaye。But,assuddenly,Garincaughthisarmsfrombehindandheldhimfast。
  "Removethemboth,"LaBoulayecommanded。"Placetheminsafetyforthenight,andseethattheydonotescapeyou,Garin,asyouvalueyourneck。"
  DesCoudaxshuthissnuff—boxwithasnap。
  "Formypart,Iamready,Monsieur—yourpardon—Citizen,"hesaid,"andIshallgiveyounotrouble。ButsinceIamnot,Itakeit,includedintheordersyouhavereceived,Ihaveaproposaltomakewhichmayprovemutuallyconvenient。"
  "Praymakeit,Citizen,"saidLaBoulaye。
  "ItoccurstomethatitmayoccasionyousomemeasureofannoyancetocarrymeallthewaytoParis—andcertainly,formypart,I
  shouldmuchprefernottoundertakethejourney。Foronething,itwillbefatiguing,foranother,Ihavenodesiretolookuponthenextworldthroughthelittlewindowoftheguillotine。Iwish,then,topropose,Citizen,"pursuedtheoldnobleman,nonchalantlydustingsomefragmentsoftobaccofromhiscravat。"thatyoudealwithmeoutofhand。"
  "How,Citizen?"inquiredLaBoulaye。
  "Why,yourmen,Itakeitaretolerablemarksmen。Ithinkthatitmightprovemoreconvenienttobothofusifyouweretohavemeshotassoonasthereislightenough。"
  LaBoulaye’seyesrestedinalmostimperceptiblekindnessuponDesCadoux。Here,atleast,wasanaristocratwithaspirittobeadmiredandemulated。
  "Youarechoosingthelesseroftwoevils,Citizen,"saidtheDeputy。
  "Precisely,"answeredDesCadoux。
  "Butpossibly,Citizen,itmaybeyourstoavoidboth。Youshallhearfrommeinthemorning。Ibegthatyouwillsleeptranquillyinthemeantime。Garin,removetheprisoners。"
  CHAPTERXV
  LABOULAYEBAITSHISHOOK
  ForfullyanhouraftertheirprisonershadbeenremovedLaBoulayepacedthenarrowlimitsofthekitchenwithfaceinscrutableandbusymind。HerecalledwhatSuzannehadsaidtouchingherbetrothaltoOmbreval,whomshelookedtomeetatTreves。Thismiserableindividual,then,wasthemanforwhosesakeshehaddupedhim。ButOmbrevalatleastwasinCaron’spower,anditcametohimnowthatbyvirtueofthatcircumstancehemightdeviseawaytobringherbackwithouttheneedtogoafterher。Hewouldsendherword—aye,andproof—thathehadtakenhimcaptive,anditshouldbeherstochoosewhethershewouldcometohisrescueandhumbleherselftosavehimorleavehimtohisfate。InthathouritseemedallonetoLaBoulayewhichcourseshefollowed,sincebyeither,hereasoned,shemustbebroughttosuffer。Thathelovedherwaswithhimnowamatterthathadsunkintocomparativeinsignificance。
  Thesentimentthatruledhismindwasanger,withitsnaturalconcomitant—thedesiretopunish。
  AndwhenmorningcametheDeputy’sviewofthesituationwasstillunchanged。Hewasastiratanearlyhour,andwithoutsomuchaswaitingtobreakhisfast,hebadeGarinbringintheprisoners。
  Theirappearancewasineachcasetypical。Ombrevalwassullenandhisdressuntidy,evenwhenallowancehadbeenmadefortheinherentuntidinessoftheRepublicandisguisewhichhehadadoptedtosolittlepurpose。DesCadouxlookedwellandfreshafterhisrest,andgavetheDeputyanairy"Goodmorning"asheentered。Hehadbeenatsomepains,too,withhistoilet,andalthoughhishairwasslightlydisarrangedandmostofthepowderwasgonefromtherightside,suggestingthathehadlainonit,hisappearanceinthemainwascreditablyelegant。
  "CitizenOmbreval,"saidLaBoulaye,inthatstern,emotionlessvoicethatwasbecomingcharacteristicofhim,"sinceyouhaveacquaintedyourselfwiththecontentsoftheletteryoustolefromthemanyoumurdered,youcannotbeindoubtastomyintentionsconcerningyou。"
  TheVicomtereddenedwithanger。
  "ForyourintentionsIcarenothing,"heansweredhotly—renderedverybravebypassion—"butIwillhaveyouconsideryourwords。
  DoyousaythatIstoleandmurdered?Youforget,M。leRepublican,thatIamagentlemen。"
  "Meaning,ofcourse,thattheclassthatsodescribeditselfcoulddothesethingswithimpunitywithouthavingthemcalledbytheirpropernames,isitnotso?ButyoualsoforgetthattheRepublichasabolishedgentlemen,andwiththem,theirdisgracefulprivileges。"
  "Canaille!"growledtheVicomte,hiseyesablazewithwrath。
  "Citizen—aristocrat,consideryourwords!"LaBoulayehadsteppedcloseuptohim,andhisvoicethrobbedwithasuddenangernowhitlesscompellingthanOmbreval’s。"Fool!letmehearthatwordagain,appliedeithertomeortoanyofmyfollowers,andI’llhaveyoubeatenlikeadog。"
  Andasthelessereverdoesgivewaybeforethegreater,sonowdidtheangerthathadsustainedOmbrevalgodownandvanishbeforetheoverwhelmingpassionofLaBoulaye。HegrewpaletothelipsattheDeputy’sthreat,andhiseyescravenlyavoidedthesteadygazeofhiscaptor。
  "Youdeservelittleconsiderationatmyhands,Citizen,"saidLaBoulaye,morequietly,"andyetIhaveamindtogiveyoualessoningenerosity。WestartforParisinhalf—an—hour。Ifanywhereyoushouldhavefriendsexpectingyou,whomyoumightwishtoappriseofyourposition,youmayspendthehalf—hourthatisleftinwritingtothem。Iwillseethatyourletterreachesitsdestination。"
  Ombreval’spallorseemedtointensify。HiseyeslookedtroubledastheywereraisedtoLaBoulaye’s。Thentheyfellagain,andtherewasapause。Atlast—
  "Ishallbegladtoavailmyselfofyouroffer,"hesaid,inavoicethatformeeknesswasludicrouslyatvariancewithhislateutterances。
  "Thenpraydosoatonce。"AndLaBoulayetookdownaninkhornaquill,andasheafofpaperfromthemantel—shelfbehindhim。
  Theseheplacedonthetable,andsettingachair,hesignedtothearistocrattobeseated。
  "Andnow,CitizenCadoux,"saidLaBoulaye,turningtotheoldnobleman,"IshallbegladifyouwillhonourmebysharingmybreakfastwhileCitizenOmbrevalisathiswriting。"
  DesCadouxlookedupinsomesurprise。
  "Youaretoogood,Monsieur,"saidhe,inclininghishead。"Butafterwards?"
  "Ihavedecided,"saidLaBoulaye,withtheghostofasmile,"todealwithyourcasemyself,Citizen。"
  Theolddandytookadeepbreath,buttheglanceofhisblueeyeswassteadfast,andhislipssmiledashemadeanswer:
  "Againyouaretoogood。IfearedthatyouwouldcarrymetoParis,andatmyagethejourneyisatiresomeone。Iamgrateful,andmeanwhile,—why,sinceyouaresogoodastoinviteme,letusbreakfast,byallmeans。"
  Theysatdownatasmalltableintheembrasureofthewindow,andtheirhostessplacedbeforethemaboiledfowl,adishofeggs,astewofherbs,andaflaskofredwine,allofwhichLaBoulayehadbiddenherprepare。
  "Why,itisafeast,"declaredDesCadoux,inexcellenthumour,andforallthathewasundertheimpressionthathewastodieinhalf—an—hourheatewiththeheartiestgood—will,chattingpleasantlythewhilewiththeRepublican—thefirstRepublicanwithwhomithadeverbeenhisaristocraticlottositattable。AndwhattimethemealproceededOmbreval—withtwosoldiersstandingbehindhischair—pennedhislettertoMademoiselledeBellecour。
  HadLaBoulaye—inspiredbythedesiretoavengehimselfforthetreacheryofwhichhehadbeenthevictim—dictatedthatepistle,tcouldnothavebeenindictedinamannerbettersuitedtohisends。
  Itwasamaudlin,piteousletter,inwhich,ratherthanmakinghisfarewells,theVicomtebesoughttheaidofSuzanne。Hewas,hewrote,inthehandsofmenwhomightbebribed,andsinceshewasrich—forheknewofthetreasurewithwhichshehadescaped—hebasedhishopesuponheremployingaportionofherrichestoobtaininghisenlargement。She,hecontinued,washisonlyhope,andforthesakeoftheirlove,forthesakeoftheircommonnobility,hebesoughthernottofailhimnow。Carriedawaybythepiteousnessofhisentreatiesthetearswelleduptohiseyesandtrickleddownhischeeks,oneortwoofthemfindingtheirwaytothepaperthussmearingitwithanappealmorepiteousstillifpossiblethanthatofhismaudlinwords。
  Atlasttheletterwasended。Hesealeditwithawaferandwrotethesuperscription:
  "ToMademoiselledeBellecour。Atthe’HoteldesTroisRois,’
  Treves。"
  Heannouncedthecompletionofhistask,andLaBoulayebadehimgojoinDesCadouxatthenexttableandtakesomefoodbeforesettingout,whilsttheDeputyhimselfnowsatdowntowrite。
  "Citoyenne,’hewrote,"themantowhomyouarebetrothed,forwhosesakeyoustoopedtotreacheryandattemptedmurder,isinmyhands。
  ThushasHeavensetitinmypowertopunishyou,iftheknowledgethathetravelstotheguillotineislikelytoproveapunishment。
  Ifyouwouldrescuehim,cometomeinParis,and,conditionally,Imaygiveyouhislife。"
  That,hethoughtshouldhumbleher。HefoldedhisletterroundOmbreval’sandhavingsealedthepackage,headdresseditasOmbrevalhadaddressedhisownmissive。
  "Garin,"hecommandedbriefly,"removetheCitizenOmbreval。"
  Whenhehadbeenobeyed,andGarinhadconductedtheVicomtefromtheroom,LaBoulayeturnedagaintoDesCadoux。Theywerealone,savingthetwosoldiersguardingthedoor。
  Theoldmanrose,andmakingthesignofthecross,hesteppedforward,calmandintrepidofbearing。
  "Monsieur,"heannouncedtoLaBoulaye,whowaseyeinghimwiththefaintesttingeofsurprise,"Iamquiteready。"
  "Haveyoualwaysbeensodevout,Citizen?"inquiredtheDeputy。
  "Alas!noMonsieur。Buttherecomesatimeinthelifeofeverymanwhen,forafewmomentsatleast,heispronetogrowmindfulofthelessonslearntinchildhood。"
  ThesurpriseincreasedinLaBoulaye’scountenance。Atlastheshruggedhisshoulders,afterthemannerofonewhoabandonsaproblemthathasgrowntooknotty。
  "CitizendesCadoux,"saidhe,"IhavedeliberatedthatsinceI
  havereceivednoordersfromParisconcerningyou,andalsosinceIamnotbyprofessionacatch—pollthereisnoreasonwhateverwhyIshouldcarryyoutoParis。Infact,Citizen,IknowofnoreasonwhyIshouldinterferewithyourfreedomatall。OnthecontrarywhenIrecallthekindnessyousoughttodomethatday,yearsago,atBellecour,IfindeveryreasonwhyIshouldfurtheryourescapefromtheRevolutionarytribunal。Ahorse,Citizen,standsreadysaddledforyou,andyouarefreetodepart,withtheonecondition,however,thatyouwillconsenttobecomemycourierforonce,andcarryaletterforme—amatterwhichshouldoccasionyou,Ithink,nodeviationfromyourjourney。"
  Theolddandy,inwhoseintrepidspiritthedeathwhichhehadbelievedimminenthadoccasionednotrembling,turnedpaleasLaBoulayeceased。HisblueeyeswereliftedalmosttimidlytotheDeputy’sface,andhislipquivered。
  "Youarenotgoingtohavemeshot,then?"hefaltered。
  "Shot?"echoedLaBoulaye,andthenherememberedtheprecisewordsoftherequestwhichDesCadouxhadpreferredthenightbefore,butwhich,atthetime,hehadtreatedlightly。"Mafoi,youdonotflatterme!"hecried。"AmIamurderer,then?Come,come,Citizen,hereistheletterthatyouaretocarry。ItisaddressedtoMademoiselledeBellecour,atTreves,andenclosesOmbreval’sfarewellepistletothatlady。"
  "But,gladly,Monsieur,"exclaimedDesCadoux。
  Andthen,asiftocoverhissuddenaccessofemotion,ofwhichhewasmostheartilyashamed,hefumbledforhissnuff—box,and,havingfoundit,hetookanenormouspinch。
  Theypartedontheverybestoftermsdidthesetwo—thearistocratandtheRevolutionary—actuatedbyamutualesteemtemperedineachcasewithgratitude。
  WhenatlastDesCadouxhadtakenasympatheticleaveofOmbrevalanddeparted,CaronorderedtheVicomtetobebroughtbeforehimagain,andatthesametimebadehismenmakereadyfortheroad。
  "Citizen,"saidLaBoulaye,"westartforParisatonce。Ifyouwillpassmeyourwordofhonourtoattemptnoescapeyoushalltravelwithusincompletefreedomandwithalldignity。"
  Ombrevallookedathimwithinsolentsurprise,hisweaksuperciliousmouthgrowingmoresuperciliouseventhanitswont。Hehadrecoveredagooddealofhisspiritbynow。
  "Passyoumywordofhonour?"heechoed。"MonDieu!mygoodfellowawordofhonourisabondbetweengentlemen。IthinktoowellofminetopassittothefirstgreasyrascaloftheRepublicthatasksitofme。"
  LaBoulayeeyedhimasecondwithaglancebeforewhichthearistocratgrewpale,andalreadyregrettedhimofhiswords。TheveinsintheDeputy’stempleswereswollen。
  "Iwarnedyou,"saidhe,inadullvoice。ThentothesoldiersstandingoneithersideofOmbreval—"Takehimout,"hesaid,"mounthimonhorseback。Lethimridewithhishandspinionedbehindhisback,andhisfeetlashedtogetherunderthehorse’sbelly。Attendtoit!"
  "Monsieur,"criedtheyoungman,inanappealingvoice,"Iwillgiveyoumywordofhonournottoescape。Iwill—"
  "Takehimout,"LaBoulayerepeated,withadullbarkofcontempt。
  "Youhadyourchance,Citizen—aristocrat。"
  Ombrevalsethisteethandclenchedhishands。
  "Canaille!"hesnarled,inhisfury。
  "Hold!"Caroncalledafterthedepartingmen。
  Theyobeyed,andnowthiswretchedVicomte,ofsuchunstablespiritdroppedallhisangeragain,assuddenlyashehadcaughtitup。
  Fearpaledhischeekandpalsiedhislimbsoncemore,forLaBoulaye’sexpressionwasveryterrible。
  "YouknowwhatIsaidthatIwouldhavedonetoyouifyouusedthatwordagain?"LaBoulayequestionedhimcoldly。
  "I—Iwasbesidemyself,Monsieur,"theothergasped,intheintensityofhisfear。AndatthesightofhispitiableconditiontheangerfellawayfromLaBoulaye,andhesmiledscornfully。
  "Myfaith,"hesneered。"Youarehotonemomentandcoldthenext。
  Citizen,Iamafraidthatyouarenobetterthanavulgarcoward。
  Takehimaway,"heended,wavinghishandtowardsthedoor,andashewatchedthemleadinghimouthereflectedbitterlythatthiswasthemantowhomSuzannewasbetrothed—themanwhom,notadoubtofit,sheloved,sinceforhimshehadstoopedsolow。Thismiserablecravenshepreferredtohim,becausetheman,soignobleofnature,wasnoblebytheaccidentofbirth。
  PARTIII
  THEEVERLASTINGRULE
  Loverulesthecourt,thecamp,thegrove,Andmenbelowandsaintsabove,ForloveisHeavenandHeavenislove。
  TheLayoftheLastMinstrel。
  CHAPTERXVI
  CECILEDESHAIX
  InhislodgingsatthecorneroftheRue—St。HonoreandtheRuedelaRepublique—latelychanged,intheall—encompassingmetamorphosis,from"RueRoyale"sattheDeputyCaronLaBoulayeathiswriting—table。
  Therewasaflushonhisfaceandasparkleintheeyesthatlookedpensivelybeforehimwhattimehegnawedthefeatheredendofhisquill。InhisearsstillrangtheacclamationsthathadgreetedhisbrilliantspeechintheAssemblythatday。HewasofthepartyoftheMountain—aswasbutnaturalinaprotegeoftheSeagreenRobespierre—apartymorefamedforitsdirectnessofpurposethaneleganceofexpression,andinitsrankstherewasroomandtospareforsuchoratorsashe。TheseasonwasMarchof’93—aseasonmarkedbythedeadlyfeudraging’twixttheGirondinsandtheMountain,andinthatbattleoftonguesLaBoulayewascoveringhimselfwithgloryanddoingcredittohispatron,theIncorruptible。
  HewasofarhetoricnotinferiortoVergniaud’s—thatmosteloquentGirondon—andofaquicknessofwitandhonestyofaimunrivalledinthewholebodyoftheConvention,andwiththesegiftsheharassedtonolittlepurposethosesmooth—tonguedlegislatorsoftheGironde,whomDumouriezcalledtheJesuitsoftheRevolution。HispopularitywiththemenoftheMountainandwiththemassesofPariswasgrowingdaily,andthecrushingreplyhehadthatdaydeliveredtothechargespreferredbyVergniaudwaslikelytoincreasehisfame。
  Well,therefore,mighthesitwithflushedcheeksandsparklingeyeschewingthebuttofhispenandsmilingtohimselfatthememoryoftheenthusiasmofwhichhehadbeenthecentreahalf—hourago。
  Here,indeed,wassomethingthatamanmightlivefor,somethingthatamanmighttakepridein,andsomethingthatmightconsoleamanforawoman’streachery。What,indeed,couldwoman’slovegivehimthatmightcomparewiththis?Wasitnotmoregloriousfartomakehimselftheadmired,therevered,theveryidolofthosesternmen,thanthebelovedofasimperinggirl?Thelatteranycoxcombwithawell—cutcoatmightencompass,buttheformerachievementwasaman’swork。
  Andyet,forallthathereasonedthusspeciouslyandphilosophically,therewasamomentwhenhisbrowgrewcloudedandhiseyeslosttheirsparkle。HewasthinkingofthatnightintheinnatBoisvert,whenhehadkneltbesideherandshehadliedtohim。Hewasthinkingofthehappiness,thatforafewbriefhourshadbeenhis,untilhediscoveredhowbaselyshehaddeceivedhim,andforallthefull—flavourofhispresentelationitseemedtohimthatinthatotherhappinesswhichhenowaffectedtodespisebycontrast,therehaddweltagreater,amorecontentingsweetness。
  WouldshecometoParis?Hehadaskedhimselfthatquestioneverydayofthetwentythatwerespentsincehisreturn。AndinthemeantimetheVicomted’OmbrevallayintheprisonoftheLuxembourgawaitingtrial。ThathehadnotyetbeenarraignedhehadtothanktheeffortsofLaBoulaye。TheyoungDeputyhadinformedRobespierrethatforreasonsofhisownhewishedtheci—devantVicomte,tobekeptinprisonsomelittletime,andtheIncorruptible,peeringathimoverhishorn—rimmedspectacles,hadshruggedhisshouldersandanswered:
  "Butcertainly,cherCaron,sinceitisyourwish。HewillbesafeintheLuxembourg。"
  Hehadpressedhisprotegeforareason,butLaBoulayehadevadedthequestion,promisingtoenlightenhimlater。
  SincethenCaronhadwaited,andnowitwasmorethantimethatMademoisellemadesomesign。OrwasitthatneitherOmbreval’scravenentreatiesnorhisownshortmessagehadaffectedher?WasshewhollyheartlessandlikelytoproveasfaithlesstotheVicomteinhishourofneedasshehadprovedtohim?
  Withatossoftheheadhedismissedherfromhisthoughts,anddippinghisquill,hebegantowrite。
  >Fromthestreetcamethedullrollofbeatendrumsandtherhythmicalfallofmarchingfeet。ButthesoundwastoocommoninrevolutionaryParistoarrestattention,andhewroteon,heedingitaslittleashedidthegruffvoiceofapastry—cookcryinghiswares,theshrillercallofamilkman,ortheoccasionalrumblingsofpassingvehicles。Butofasuddenoneofthoserumblingsceasedabruptlyathisdoor。Heheardtherattleofhoofsandthegrindofthewheelagainstthepavement,andlookingup,heglancedacrossattheormolutimepieceonhisovermantel。Itwasnotyetfouro’clock。
  Wonderingwhetherthevisitormightbeforhimorforthetenantofthefloorabove,hesatlisteninguntilhisdooropenedandhisofficial—theeuphemismof"servant"intherevolutionarylexicon—cametoannouncethatawomanwasbelow,askingtoseehim。
  NowforallthathebelievedhimselftohavebecomeaboveemotionswhereMademoiselledeBellecourwasconcerned,hefelthispulsesquickenattheverythoughtthatthismightbesheatlast。
  "Whatmannerofwoman,Brutus?"heasked。
  "Aprettywoman,Citizen,"answeredBrutus,withagrin。"ItistheCitoyenneDeshaix。"
  LaBoulayemadeanimpatientgesture。
  "Fool。whydidyounotsayso,"hecriedsharply。
  "Fool,youdidnotaskme,"answeredtheservant,withthattouching,fraternalfranknessadoptedbyalltruepatriots。Hewasathin,under—sizedmanofperhapsthirtyyearsofage,anddressedinblack,withadecency—underLaBoulaye’ssuasion—thatwasratheratvariancewithhisextremedemocracy。HisrealnamewasFerdinand,but,followingafashionprevailingamongtheultra—republicans,hehadrenamedhimselfafterthefamousRomanpatriot。
  LaBoulayetoyedamomentwithhispen,afrowndarkeninghisbrow。
  Then:
  "Admither,"hesighedwearily。
  Andpresentlyshecame,aprettywoman,asBrutushaddeclared,veryfair,andwiththeinnocenteyesofababy。Shewassmallofstature,andbytheegregiousheightofherplume—crownedhead—dressitwouldseemasifshesoughtbyarttoaddtotheinchesshehadreceivedfromNature。Fortherestsheworeapinkpetticoat,veryextravagantlybeflounced,andapinkcorsagecutextravagantlylow。
  Inonehandshecarriedafan—hardlyasaweaponagainstheat,seeingthatthewinterwasnotyetout—intheotherahugebunchofearlyroses。
  "Tevoile!"washergreeting,merrily—roguishly—delivered,andiftheRevolutionhaddonenothingelseforher,ithad,atleast,enabledhertoaddressLaBoulayebythe"Thou"ofintimacywhichthenewvocabularyprescribed。
  LaBoulayerose,laidasidehispen,andpolitely,ifcoolly,returnedhergreetingandsetachairforher。
  "Youare,"saidhe,"averyharbingerofSpring,Citoyenne,withyourflowersandyourravishingtoilette。"
  "Ah!Ipleaseyou,then,foronce,"saidshewithouttheleastembarrassment。"Tellme—howdoyoufindme?"And,laughing,sheturnedaboutthathemightadmireherfromallpointsofview。
  Helookedathergravelyforamoment,sogravelythatthelaughterbegantofadefromhereyes。
  "Ifindyoucharming,Citoyenne,"heansweredatlast。"YouremindmeofDiana。"
  "Compliments?"quothshe,hereyebrowsgoingupandhereyesbeamingwithsurpriseanddelight。"ComplimentsfromLaBoulaye!Butsurelyitistheendoftheworld。Tellme,monami,"shebegged,greedilyanglingformore,"inwhatdoIremindyouofthesylvangoddess?"
  "Inthescantinessofyourraiment,Citoyenne,"heansweredacidly。
  "ItsortsbetterwithArcadiathanwithParis。"
  Hereyebrowscamedown,hercheeksflushedwithresentmentanddiscomfiture。Tocoverthissheflungherrosesamongthepapersofhiswriting—table,anddroppingintoachairshefannedherselfvigorously。
  "Citoyenne,yourelievemyanxieties,"saidhe。"Ifearedthatyoustoodindangeroffreezing。"
  "Tofreezeisnomorethanonemightexpectinyourcompany,"sheanswered,stiflingheranger。
  Hemadenoreply。Hemovedtothewindow,andstooddrummingabsentlyonthepanes。HewasinuredtotheseinvasionsonthepartofCecileDeshaixandtothebold,unwomanlyadvancesthatrepelledhim。To—dayhispatiencewithherwasevenshorterthanitswont,haplybecausewhenhisofficialhadannouncedawomanhehadforamomentpermittedhimselftothinkthatitmightbeSuzanne。Thesilencegrewawkward,andatlasthebrokeit。
  "TheCitizenRobespierreiswell?"heasked,withoutturning。
  "Yes,"saidshe,andforallthattherewaschagrintospareintheglancewithwhichsheadmiredthebackofhisstraightandshapelyfigure,shecontrivedtorenderhervoiceairilyindifferent。
  "Wewereattheplaylastnight。"
  "Ah!"hemurmuredpolitely。"AndwasTalmainveine?"
  "Morebrilliantthanever,"answeredshe。
  "Heisagreatactor,Citoyenne。"
  Ashadeofannoyancecrossedherface。
  "WhydoyoualwaysaddressmeasCitoyenne?"sheasked,withsometestiness。
  Heturnedatlastandlookedatheramoment。
  "Weliveinacensoriousworld,Citoyenne,"heansweredgravely。
  Shetossedherheadwithanexclamationofimpatience。
  "Weliveinafreeworld,Citizen。Freedomisourmotto。IsitfornothingthatweareRepublicans?"
  "Freedomofactionbegetsfreedomofwords,"saidhe,"andfreedomofwordsleadstofreedomofcriticism—andthatisathingtowhichnowisewomanwillexposeherself,nomatterunderwhatregimewelive。Youwouldbewell—advised,Citoyenne,inthinkingofthatwhenyoucomehere。"
  "Butyounevercometous,Caron,"shereturned,inavoiceofmildcomplaint。"YouhavenotbeenoncetoDuplay’ssinceyourreturnfromBelgium。Andyouseemdifferent,too,sinceyourjourneytothearmy。"Sherosenowandapproachedhim。"Whatisit,cherCaron?"sheasked,hervoiceaverycaressofseductiveness,hereyeslookingupintohis。"Issomethingtroublingyou?"
  "Troublingme?"heechoed,musingly。"No。ButthenIamabusyman,Citoyenne。"
  Awaveofredseemedtosweepacrossherface,andherheelbeattheparquetfloor。
  "IfyoucallmeCitoyenneagainIshallstrikeyou,"shethreatenedhim。
  Helookeddownather,andshehadthefeelingthatbehindtheinscrutablemaskofhiscountenancehewaslaughingather。
  "Itwouldsortwellwithyouraudacity,"hemadeanswercoolly。
  Shefeltinthatmomentthatshehatedhim,anditwasamiraclethatshedidnotdoasshehadthreatened,forwithallhermeeklookssheownedaveryfiercestoftempers。Shedrewbackapaceortwo,andherglancefell。
  "Ishallnottroubleyouinfuture,"shevowed。"Ishallnotcomehereagain。"
  Hebowedslightly。
  "Iapplaudthewisdomofyourresolve—Cit—Cecile。Theworld,asIhavesaid,iscensorious。"
  Shelookedathimasecond,thenshelaughed,butitwaslaughterofthelipsonly;theeyeslookedsteelyasdaggersandascapableofmischief。
  "Adieu,CitizenLaBoulaye,"shemurmuredmockingly。
  "Aurevoir,CitoyenneDeshaix,"herepliedurbanely。
  "Ough!"shegasped,andwiththatsuddenexclamationofpent—upwrath,shewhiskedaboutandwentrustlingtothedoor。
  "Citoyenne,"hecalledafterher,"youareforgettingyourflowers。"
  Shehalted,andseemedforasecondtohesitate,lookingathimoddly。Thenshecamebacktothetableandtookupherroses。
  Againshelookedathim,andletthebouquetfallbackamongthepapers。
  "Ibroughtthemforyou,Caron,"shesaid,"andI’llleavethemwithyou。Wecanatleastbefriends,canwenot?"
  "Friends?Butwereweeveraughtelse?"heasked。
  "Alas!no,"shesaidtoherself,whilstaloudshemurmured:"I
  thoughtthatyouwouldlikethem。Yourroomhassuchagloomy,sombreair,andafewrosesseemtodiffusesomeofthesunshineonwhichtheyhavebeennurtured。"
  "Youaretoogood,Cecile’’heanswered,and,forallhiscoldness,hewastouchedalittlebythisthoughtfulness。
  Shelookedupatthealteredtone,andtheexpressionofherfaceseemedtosoften。Butbeforeshecouldmakeanswertherewasarapatthedoor。Itopened,andBrutusstoodinthedoorway。
  "Citizen,"heannounced,inhissourtones,"thereisanotherwomanbelowaskingtoseeyou。"
  LaBoulayestarted,asagainhisthoughtsflewtoSuzanne,andadullflushcreptintohispalecheeksandmountedtohisbrow。
  Cecile’seyeswereuponhim,herglancehardeningassheobservedthesesigns。Bitterenoughhaditbeentoendurehiscoldnesswhilstshehadimaginedthatitsprangfromtheausterityofhisnatureandtheabsorptionofhissoulinmatterspolitical。Butnowthatitseemedshemighthavecausetotemperherbitternesswithjealousyhersoulwasturnedtogall。
  "Whatmannerofwoman,Brutus?"heaskedafterasecond’spause。
  "Tall,pale,straight,blackhair,blackeyes,silkgown—andsavoursthearistocrataleagueoff,"answeredBrutus。
  "Yourofficialseemsgiftedwithaverycomprehensiveeye,"saidCeciletartly。
  ButLaBoulayepaidnoheedtoher。Theflushdeepenedonhisface,thenfadedagain,andhegrewoddlypale。Hisofficial’sinventoryofhercharacteristicsfittedMademoiselledeBellecourineverydetail。
  "Admither,Brutus,"hecommanded,andhisvoicehadahuskysound。
  Then,turningtoCecile,"Youwillgivemeleave?"hesaid,cloakingrudedismissalinitspolitestform。
  "Assuredly,"sheansweredbitterly,makingshifttogo。"Yourvisitorisnodoubtpolitical?"shehalf—askedhalf—asserted。
  Buthemadenoanswerasheheldthedoorforher,andbowedlowasshepassedout。Withawhitefaceandlipstightlycompressedshewent,andhalf—wayonthestairsshemetahandsomewoman,tallandofqueenlybearing,whoascended。HertoilettelackedtheelaboratenessofCecile’s,butshecarrieditwithanairwhichnotallthemodistesofFrancecouldhavesucceededinimpartingtotheCitoyenneDeshaix。
  SodeadwasRobespierre’sniecetoeverysenseoffitnessthat,havingdrawnasidetoletthewomanpass,shestoodgazingafterheruntilshedisappearedroundtheangleofthelanding。Then,inafury,shesweptfromthehouseandintoherwaitingcoach,andasshedrovebacktoDuplay’sintheRueSt。Honoreshewasweepingbitterlyinherjealousrage。
  CHAPTERXVII
  LABOULAYE’SPROMISE
  LaBoulayeremainedamomentbythedoorafterCecile’sdeparture;
  thenhemovedawaytowardshisdesk,strivingtomasterthetumultuousthrobbingofhispulses。HiseyealightedonCecile’sroses,and,scarceknowingwhyhedidit,hepickedthemupandflungthembehindabookcase。Itwasbutdonewhenagainthedooropened,andhisofficialusheredinMademoiselledeBellecour。
  Oddlyenough,atsightofher,LaBoulayegrewmasterofhimself。
  Hereceivedherwithapoliteandveryformalbow—atrifleover—gracefulforapatriot。
  "So,Citoyenne,"saidhe,andsocoldwashisvoicethatitseemedeventingedwithmockery,"youarecomeatlast。"
  "Icouldnotcomebefore,Monsieur,"sheanswered,trembling。"Theywouldnotletme。"Then,afterasecond’spause:"AmItoolate,Monsieur?"sheasked。
  "No,"heansweredher。"Theci—devantVicomted’Ombrevalstillliesawaitingtrial。Willyounotbeseated?"
  "Idonotlooktoremainlong。"
  "Asyouplease,Citoyenne。IhavedelayedOmbreval’strialthinkingthatifnotmyletterwhythenhismightbringyou,soonerorlater,tohisrescue。Itmayinterestyoutohear,"hecontinuedwithanunmistakablenoteofirony,"thatthatbravebuthaplessgentlemanismuchfrettedathisincarceration。"
  Ashadowcrossedherface,whichremainedotherwisecalmandcomposed—thebeautiful,intrepidfacethathadmorethanoncebeenLaBoulaye’sundoing。
  "Iamgladthatyouhavewaited,Monsieur。Insodoingyouneedhavenodoubtsconcerningme。M。d’Ombrevalismybetrothed,andthetrothIplightedhimbindsmeinhonourtosuccourhimnow。"
  LaBoulayelookedsteadilyatherforamoment。
  "Uponmysoul,"hesaidatlast,anoteofineffablesarcasmvibratinginhisvoice,"Ishallneverceasetoadmiretheeffronteryofyourclass,andthecoolnesswithwhich,indespiteofdishonourableaction,youmakehigh—soundingtalkofhonourandthethingstowhichitbindsyou。Ihaveadimrecollection,Citoyenne,ofsomethinguncommonlylikeyourtrothwhichyouplightedmeonenightatBoisvert。ButsolittledidthatpromisebindyouthatwhenIsoughttoenforceyourfulfilmentofityoubrokemyheadandleftmetodieintheroad。"
  Hiswordsshookheroutofhercalm。Herbosomroseandfell,hereyesseemedtogrowhaggardandherhandswereclaspedconvulsively。
  "Monsieur,"sheanswered,"whenIgaveyoumypromisethatnightI
  hadeveryintentionofkeepingit。Iswearit,asHeavenismywitness。"
  "Youractionsmorethanprovedit,"hesaiddryly。
  "Begenerous,Monsieur,"shebegged。"Itwasmymotherprevaileduponmetoaltermydetermination。SheurgedthatIshouldbedishonouredifIdidnot。"
  "Thatwordagain!"hecried。"Whatpartitplaysinthelifeofthenoblesse。Allthatitsuitsyoutodo,youdobecausehonourbidsyou,alltowhichyouhaveboundyourselves,butwhichisdistasteful,youdiscoverthathonourforbids,andthatyouwouldbedishonoureddidyoupersist。ButIaminterruptingyou,Citoyenne。Didyourmotheradvanceanyarguments?"
  "Thestrongestargumentofalllayhere,inmyheart,Monsieur,"
  sheansweredhim,rousedandhardenedbyhisscorn。"Youmustseethatithadbecomewithmeamatterofchoosingthelesseroftwoevils。UponreflectionIdiscoveredthatIwasboundtotwomen,anditbehovedmetokeepthemorebindingofmypledges。"
  "WhichyoudiscoveredtobeyourwordtoOmbreval,"hesaid,andhisvoicegrewunconsciouslysofter,forhebegantorealisethequandaryinwhichshehadfoundherself。
  Sheinclinedherheadassentingly。
  "TohimIhadgiventheearlierpromise,andthen,again,hewasofmyownclasswhilstyou—"
  "Spareme,Citoyenne,"hecried。"Iknowwhatyouwouldsay。I
  amoftherabble,andoflittlemoreaccountinamatterofhonourthana,beastofthefield。Itisthusthatyoureason,andyet,monDieu!Ihadthoughtthaterenowsuchnotionshaddiedoutwithyou,andthat,stupidenoughthoughyourclasshasproveditself,itwouldatleasthavedisplayedtheintelligencetoperceivethatitsdayisended,itssunset。"Heturnedandpacedtheapartmentashespoke。"TheLiliesofFrancehavebeenshornfromtheirstems,theyhavewitheredbytheroadside,andtheyhavebeentrampledintothedustbythemenofthenewregime,andyetitseemsthatyouothersofthenoblessehavenotlearntyourlesson。YouhavenotyetdiscoveredthathereinFrancethemanwhowasbornatillerofthesoilisstillaman,and,byhismanhood,theequalofaking,who,afterall,canbenomorethanaman,andissometimesless。
  Enfin!"heendedbrusquely。"ThisisnottheNationalAssembly,andItalktoearsuntutoredinsuchthings。Letusdealratherwiththebusinessuponwhichyouarecome。"
  Sheeyedhimoutofapaleface,witheyesthatseemedfascinated。
  Thatshortburstofthefieryeloquencethathadmadehimfamousrevealedhimtoherinanewlight:thelightofastrengthandcapacityaboveandbeyondthatwhich,already,shehadperceivedwashis。
  "Willyoubelieve,Monsieur,thatitcostmemanytearstouseyouasIdid?Ifyoubutknew—"Andthereshepausedabruptly。ShehadallbuttoldhimofthekissthatshehadleftuponhisunconsciouslipsthateveningontheroadtoLiege。"MonDieuhowIhatedmyself!"Andsheshudderedasshespoke。
  Heobservedallthis,andwithabrusquenessthatwaspartlyassumedhehastenedtoherrescue。
  "Whatisdoneisdone,Citoyenne。Come,letusleavereminiscences。
  Youareheretoatone,Itakeit。"
  Atthatshestarted。Hiswordsremindedherofthoseofhisletter。
  "MonsieurLaBoulaye—"
  "Ifitisallonetoyou,Citoyenne,Ishouldpreferthatyoucallmecitizen。"
  "Citizen,then,"sheamended。"IhavebroughtwithmethegemswhichItoldyouwouldconstitutemydowry。InhislettertometheVicomtesuggestedthat—"Shepaused。
  "ThatsomeRepublicanblackguardmightbebribed,"heconcluded,verygently。
  Hisgentlenessdeceivedher。Sheimaginedthatitmeantthathemightnotbeunwillingtoacceptsuchabribe,andthereuponshesetherselftopleadwithhim。Helisteneddispassionately,hishandsbehindhisback,hiseyesbentuponher,yetbetrayingnothingofhisthoughts。AtlastshebroughtherprayerforOmbreval’slifetoanend,andproducedasmallleatherbagwhichshesetuponthetable,beseechinghimtosatisfyhimselfastothevalueofthecontents。
  Nowatlasthestirred。Hisfacegrewcrimsontotherootsofhishair,andhiseyesseemedofasuddentotakefire。Heseizedthatlittlebagandhelditinhishand。
  "Andso,MademoiselledeBellecour,"saidhe,inaconcentratedvoice,"youhavelearntsolittleofmethatyoubringmeabribeofgems。AmIahelot,thatyoushouldoffertobuymyverysoul?
  Doyouthinkmyhonourissocheapathingthatyoucanhaveitforthematterofsomebitsofglass?Ordoyouimaginethatweofthenewregime,becausewedonotmouththewordateveryturn,havenosuchthingashonour?Forshame!"Hepaused,hiswrathboilingoverashesoughtwordsinwhichtogiveitutterance。Andthen,wordsfailinghimtoexpressthehalfofwhatwasinhim,heliftedthebaghighabovehishead,andhurleditatherfeetwithaforcethatsenthalftheglitteringcontentsrollingabouttheparquetfloor。"Citoyenne,yourjourneyhasbeeninvain。Iwillnottreatwithyouanotherinstant。"
  Sherecoiledbeforehiswrath,awhiteandfrightenedthingthatbutaninstantbackhadbeensocalmandself—possessed。Shegavenothoughttotheflashingjewelsscatteredaboutthefloor。Throughallthefearthatnowpossessedherrosetheconsiderationofthisman—thismanwhomshehadalmostconfessedhalf—shamedlytoherselfthatsheloved,thatnightontheLiegeroad;thismanwhoateveryturnamazedherandfilledherwithanewsenseofhisstrengthanddignity。
  Then,bethinkingherofOmbrevalandofhermission,shetookhercourageinbothhands,and,advancingastep,shecastherselfuponherkneesbeforeCaron。
  "Monsieur,forgiveme,"shebesoughthim。"Imeantyounoinsult。
  HowcouldI,whenmyeverywishistopropitiateyou?Bethinkyou,Monsieur,IhavejourneyedallthewayfromPrussiatosavethatman,becausemyhon—becauseheismybetrothed。Remember,Monsieur,youheldouttomethepromiseinyourletterthatifIcameyouwouldtreatwithme,andthatImightbuyhislifefromyou。"
  "Why,soIdid,"heanswered,touchedbyherhumiliationandhertears。"Butyouwenttoofastinyourconclusions。"
  "Forgivemethat。See!Iamonmykneestoyou。AmInothumbledenough?HaveInotsufferedenoughforthewrongImayhavedoneyou?"
  "ItwouldtakethesufferingsofagenerationtoatoneforthewrongsI
  haveenduredatthehandsofyourfamily,Citoyenne。"
  "Iwilldowhatyouwill,Monsieur。BethinkyouthatIampleadingforthelifeofthemanIamtomarry。"
  Helookeddownuponhernowinanemotionthatinitswaywasaspowerfulasherown。Yethisvoicewashardandsternlygovernedashenowaskedher"Isthatanargument,Mademoiselle?Isitanargumentlikelytoprevailwiththemanwho,forhistwice—confessedloveofyou,hassufferedsoretrials?"
  Hefeltthatinawayshehadconqueredhim;hiscareer,whichbutthatdayhadseemedall—sufficingtohim,wasnowfallenintothelimboofdisregard。Theonethingwhosepossessionwouldrenderhislifeahappyone,whoseabsencewouldleavehimnowalastingunhappiness,knelthereathisfeet。Forgottenwerethewrongshehadsuffered,forgottenthepurposetohumbleandtopunish。
  Everythingwasforgottenandsilencedbythecompellingvoiceofhisblood,whichcriedoutthathelovedher。Hestoopedtoherandcaughtherwristsinagripthatmadeherwince。Hisvoicegrewtense。
  "Ifyouwouldbribemetosavehislife,Suzanne,thereisbutonepricethatyoucanpay。"
  "Andthat?"shegaspedhereyeslookingupwithascaredexpressionintohismasterfulface。
  "Yourself,"hewhispered,withanardourthatalmostamountedtofierceness。
  Shegazedasecondathimingrowingalarm,thenshedraggedherhandsfromhisgrasp,andcoveringherfaceshefella—sobbing。
  "Donotmisunderstandme,"hecried,ashestooderectoverher。
  "IfyouwouldhaveOmbrevalsavedandsentoutofFranceyoumustbecomemywife。"
  "Yourwife?"sheechoed,pausinginherweeping,andforamomentanoddhappinessseemedtofillher。Butassuddenlyasithadarisendidshestifleit。WasshenotthenobledaughterofthenobleMarquisdeBellecourandwasnotthisalowlybornmemberofarabblegovernment?Therecouldbenosuchmating。Ashudderranthroughher。"Icannot,Monsieur,Icannot!"shesobbed。
  Helookedatheramomentwithaglancethatwasalmostofsurprise,then,withaslightcompressionofthelipsandthefaintestraisingoftheshoulders,heturnedfromherandstrodeovertothewindow。
  TherewasaconsiderableconcourseofpeopleontheirwaytothePlacedelaRepublique,forthehourofthetumbrilswasathand。
  Ahalf—dozenofthoseunsexedviragosproducedbytheRevolution,infilthygarments,redbonnetsandstreaminghair,weremarchingbytotheraucouschorusofthe"Caira!"
  Heturnedfromthesightindisgust,andagainfacedhisvisitor。
  "Citoyenne,"hesaid,inacomposedvoice,"Iamafraidthatyourjourneyhasbeeninvain。"
  Sherosenowfromherknees,andadvancedtowardshim。
  "Monsieur,youwillnotbesocruelastosendmeawayempty—handed?"
  shecried,scarceknowingwhatshewassaying。
  Buthelookedathergravely,andwithoutanysignofmelting。
  "Onwhat,"heasked,"doyoubaseanyclaimuponme?"
  "Onwhat?"sheechoed,andherglancevastroubledwithperplexity。
  Thenofasuddenitcleared。"Onthelovethatyouhaveconfessedforme,"shecried。
  Helaughedashortlaugh—halfamazement,halfscorn。
  "MonDieu!"heexclaimed,tossinghisarmstoHeaven,"afineclaimthat,asIlive;afineargumentbywhichtoinducemetoplaceanothermaninyourarms。IamtodoitbecauseIloveyou!"
  Theygazedateachothernow,shewithaglanceofstrainedanxiety,hewiththesamelookofhalf—contemptuouswonder。Andthenacreakingrumblefrombelowattractedhisattention,andhelookedround。Hemovedforwardandthrewthewindowwide,lettinginwiththeMarchairanoddmedleyofsoundstowhichtherollingofdrumsaffordedamostcongruousaccompaniment。
  "Look,Citoyenne,"hesaid,andhepointedoutthefirsttumbril,whichwascomingroundthecorneroftheRueSt。Honore。
  Sheapproachedwithsomeshrinkingbegottenbyasuspicionofwhatshewasdesiredtosee。
  Inthestreetbelow,amongavociferatingcrowdofallsortsandconditions,theblackdeath—cartmovedonitswaytotheguillotine。
  ItwasprecededbyacompanyofNationalGuards,andfollowedbythedrummersandanothercompanyonfoot。Withinthefatalvehicletravelledthreemenandtwowomen,accompaniedbyaconstitutionalpriest—oneofthoserenegadeswhohadtakentheoathimposedbytheConvention。Thetwowomensatmotionless,morelikestatuesthanlivingbeings,theirfaceslividandhorriblyexpressionless,sonumbedweretheirintelligencesbyfear。Ofthemen,onestoodcalmanddignified,anotherkneltathisprayers,andwassubject,therefore,tothegreaterportionofthegibesthemobwasofferingthesepoorvictims;thethird,averyelegantgentlemaninagreencoatandbuckskinbreeches,leantnonchalantlyupontherailofthetumbrilandexchangedgibeswiththepeople。Allfiveofthemwereintheprimeoflife,and,bytheirtoilettesandtheairthatclungtothem,belongedunmistakablytothenoblesse。
  OneglancedidMademoisellebestowuponthattragicspectacle,thenwithashuddershedrewback,herfacegoingdeathlywhite。
  "Whydidyoubidmelook?"shemoaned。