’Youcan’thaveabettermanthanMrMason,upthestreetthere。’
’WinthropproposedBorleysatBarchester。’
’No,no,no。BorleysandBonstockarecapitalpeopletopushafellowthroughonachargeofhorse—stealing,ortosqueezeamanforalittlemoney;buttheyarenotthepeopleforMrCrawleyinsuchacaseasthis。Masonisthebetterman;andthenMasonandIknoweachother。’InsayingwhichMrWalkerwinked。
TherewasthenadiscussionbetweenthemwhetherMrRobartsshouldgoatoncetoMrMason;butitwasdecidedatlastthatheshouldseeMrCrawleyandalsowritetothedeanbeforehisdidso。Thedeanmightwishtoemployhisownlawyer,andifsothedoubleexpenseshouldbeavoided。’Alwaysremember,MrRobarts,thatwhenyougointoanattorney’sofficedoor,youwillhavetopayforit,firstorlast。Inhere,yousee,thedingyoldmahogany,bareasitis,makesyousafe。Orelseit’sthesalt—cellar,whichwillnotallowitselftobepollutedbysix—and—eightpennyconsiderations。Butthereistheotherkindoftaxtobepaid。YoumustgoupandseeMrsWalker,oryouwon’tgetherhelpinthematter。’
MrWalkerreturnedtohiswork,eithertosomeprivatedenwithinhishouse,ortohisoffice,andMrRobartswastakenupstairstothedrawing—room。TherehefoundMrsWalkerandherdaughter,andMissAnnePrettyman,whohadjustlookedin,fullofthestoryofMrCrawley’swalktoBarchester。MrThumblehadseenoneofDrTempest’scurates,andhadtoldthewholestory——he,MrThumble,havingheardMrsProudie’sversionofwhathadoccurred,andhaving,ofcourse,drawnhisowndeductionsfromherpremises。AnditseemedthatMrCrawleyhadbeenwatchedashepassedthroughthecloseoutofBarchester。Aminorcanonhadseenhim,andhaddeclaredthathewasgoingattherateofahunt,swinginghisarmsonhighandspeakingveryloud,though——astheminorcanonsaidwithregret——thewordswerehardlyaudible。Buttherehadbeennodoubtastotheman。MrCrawley’soldhat,andshortrustycloak,anddirtyboots,hadbeendulyobservedandchronicledbytheminorcanon;andMrThumblehadbeenenabledtoputtogetheranotaltogetherfalsepictureofwhathadoccurred。AssoonasthegreetingsbetweenMrRobartsandtheladieshadbeenmade,MissAnnePrettymanbrokeoutagain,justwhereshehadleftoffwhenMrRobartscamein。
’TheysaythatMrsProudiedeclaredthatshewillhavehimsenttoBotanyBay!’
’LuckilyMrsProudiewon’thavemuchtodointhematter,’saidMissWalker,whorangedherself,astochurchmatters,intheranksaltogetheropposedtothosecommandedbyMrsProudie。
’Shewillhavenothingtodowithit,mydear,’saidMrsWalker;’andI
daresayMrsProudiewasnotfoolishenoughtosayanythingofthekind。’
’Mamma,shewouldbefoolishenoughtosayanything。WouldshenotMrRobarts?’
’Youforget,MissWalker,thatMrsProudieisinauthorityoverme。’
’Sosheis,forthematterofthat,’saidtheyounglady;’butIknowverywellwhatyouallthinkofher,andsayofhertoo,atFramley。
Yourfriend,LadyLufton,lovesherdearly。IwishIcouldhavebeenbehindacurtaininthepalace,tohearwhatMrCrawleysaidtoher。’
’MrSmiliedeclares,’saidMissPrettyman,’thatthebishophasbeenilleversince。MrSmiliewentovertohismother’satBarchesterforChristmas,andtookpartofthecathedralduty,andwehadMrSpooneroverherinhisplace。SoMrSmilieofcourseheardallaboutit。Onlyfancy,poorMrCrawleywalkingallthewayfromHogglestocktoBarchesterandback;——andIamtoldhehardlyhadashoetohisfoot!Isitnotashame,MrRobarts?’
’Idon’tthinkitwasquiteasbadasyousay,MissPrettyman;but,uponthewhole,Idothinkitisashame。Butwhatcanwedo?’
’IsupposetherearetithesatHogglestock?Whyaretheynotgivenuptothechurch,astheyoughttobe?’
’Mydear,MissPrettyman,thatisaverylongsubject,andIamafraiditcannotbesettledintimetorelieveourpoorfriendfromhisdistress。’ThenMrRobartsescapedfromtheladiesinMrWalker’shouse,who,asitseemedtohim,weretouchingupondangerousground,andwentbacktotheyardoftheGeorgeInnforhisgig——theGeorgeandVultureitwasproperlycalled,andwasthehouseinwhichthemagistrateshadsatwhentheycommittedMrCrawleyfortrial。
’Footediteveryinchoftheway,blowedifhedidn’t,’theostlerwassayingtoagentleman’sgroom,whomMrRobartsrecognisedtobetheservantofhisfriendMajorGrantly;andMrRobartsknewthattheyalsoweretalkingaboutMrCrawley。EverybodyinthecountywastalkingaboutMrCrawley。Athome,atFramley,therewasnoothersubjectofdiscourse。LadyLufton,thedowager,wasfullofit,beingfirmlyconvincedthatMrCrawleywasinnocent,becausethebishopwassupposedtoregardhimasguilty。TherehadbeenafamilyconclaveheldatFramleyCourtoverthatbaskedofprovisionswhichhadbeensentfortheChristmascheeroftheHogglestockparsonage,eachofthethreeladies,thetwoLadyLuftonsandMrsRobarts,havingspecialviewsoftheirown。
HowtheporkhadbeensubstitutedforthebeefbyoldLadyLufton,youngLadyLuftonthinkingthatafterallthebeefmightbedangerous,andhowasmallturkeyhadbeenrashlysuggestedbyMrsRobarts,andhowcertainsmallarticleshadbeeninsertedinthebottomofthebasketwhichMrsCrawleyhadnevershowntoherhusband,neednotherebetoldatlength。
ButMrRobarts,asheheardthetwogroomstalkingaboutMrCrawley,beganthatMrCrawleyhadachievedatleastcelebrity。
ThegroomtouchedhishatasMrRobartswalkedup。’Hasthemajorreturnedhomeyet?’MrRobartsasked。ThegroomsaidthathismasterwasstillatPlumstead,andthathewastogoovertofetchthemajorandMissEdithinadayortwo。ThenMrRobartsgotintohisgig,andashedroveoutoftheyardheheardthewordsofthemenastheyreturnedtothesamesubject。’Footeditalltheway,’saidone。’Andyethe’sagen’leman,too,’saidtheother。MrRobartsthoughtofthisashedroveon,intendingtocallatHogglestockonthatverydayonhiswayhome。
ItwasundoubtedlythefactthatMrCrawleywasrecognisedtobeagentlemanbyallwhoknewhim,highorlow,richorpoor,bythosewhothoughtwellofhimandbythosewhothoughtill。Thesegrooms,whohadbeentellingeachotherthatthisparson,whowastobetriedasathief,hadbeenconstrainedtowalkfromHogglestocktoBarchesterandback,becausehecouldnotaffordtotravelanyotherway,andthathisbootswerecrackedandhisclothesragged,hadstillknownhimtobeagentleman!Nobodydoubtedit;noteventheywhothoughthehadstolenthemoney。MrRobartshimselfwascertainofit,andtoldhimselfthatheknewitbytheevidenceswhichhisowneducationmadecleartohim。
Buthowwasitthatthegroomsknewit?FormypartIthinkthattherearenobetterjudgesofthearticlethanthegrooms。
Thinkingofallwhichhehadheard,MrRobartsfoundhimselfatMrCrawley’sgateatHogglestock。
CHAPTERXXI
MRROBARTSONHISEMBASSY
MrRobartswasnotaltogethereasyinhismindasheapproachedMrCrawley’shouse。Hewasawarethatthetaskbeforehimwasaverydifficultone,andhehadnotconfidenceinhimself——thathewasexactlythemanfittedfortheperformanceofsuchatask。HewasalittleafraidofMrCrawley,acknowledgingtacitlytohimselfthatthemanhadapowerofascendancywithwhichhewouldhardlybeabletocopesuccessfully。InolddayshehadoncebeenrebukedbyMrCrawley,andhadbeencowedbytherebuke;andthoughtherewasnotouchofrancourinhisheartonthisaccount,noslightestremainingvenom——butratherincreasedrespectandfriendship——stillhewasunabletoovercomehisremembranceofthesceneinwhichtheperpetualcurateofHogglestockhadundoubtedlythemasteryofhim。So,whentwodogshavefoughtandonehasconquered,theconquereddogwillalwaysshowanunconscioussubmissiontotheconqueror。
Hehailedaboyontheroadashedrewneartothehouse,knowingthathewouldfindnooneattheparsonagetoholdhishorseforhim,andwasthusablewithoutdelaytowalkthroughthegardenandknockatthedoor。’Papawasnotathome,’Janesaid。’Papawasattheschool。Butpapacouldcertainlybesummoned。’SheherselfwouldrunacrosstotheschoolifMrRobartswouldcomein。SoMrRobartsentered,andfoundMrsCrawleyinthesitting—room。MrCrawleywouldbeindirectly,shesaid。
Andthen,hurryingontothesubjectwithconfusedhaste,inorderthatawordortwomightbespokenbeforeherhusbandcameback,sheexpressedherthanksandhisforthegoodthingswhichhadbeensenttothematChristmas—tide。
’It’soldLadyLufton’sdoings,’saidMrRobarts,tryingtolaughthematterover。
’IknewthatitcamefromFramley,MrRobarts,andIknowhowgoodyouallarethere。IhavenotwrittentothankLadyLufton。Ithoughtitbetternottowrite。Yoursisterwillunderstandwhy,ifnooneelsedoes。Butyouwilltellthemfromme,Iamsure,thatitwas,astheyintended,acomforttous。Yoursisterknowstoomuchofusformetosupposethatourgreatpovertycanbeasecretfromher。And,asfarasIamconcerned,Idonotmuchcarewhoknowsit。’
’Thereisnodisgraceinnotbeingrich,’saidMrRobarts。
’No;andthefeelingofdisgracewhichdoesattachitselftobeingsopoorasweareisdeadenedbytheactualsufferingwhichsuchpovertybringswithit。Atleastithasbecomesowithme。IamnotashamedtosaythatIamverygratefulforwhatyouallhavedoneforusatFramley。Butyoumustnotsayanythingtohimaboutit。’
’OfcourseIwillnot,MrsCrawley。’
’Hisspiritishigherthanmine,Ithink,andhesuffersmorefromthenaturaldisinclinationwhichweallhavefromreceivingalms。Areyougoingtospeaktohimabouttheaffair——thecheque,MrRobarts?’
’Iamgoingtoaskhimtoputhiscaseintosomelawyer’shands。’
’Oh!Iwishhewould!’
’Andwillhenot?’
’Itisverykindofyou,yourcomingtoaskhim,but——’
’Hashesostronganobjection?’
’Hewilltellyouthathehasnomoneytopayalawyer。’
’But,surely,ifhewereconvincedthatitwasabsolutelynecessaryforthevindicationofhisinnocence,hewouldsubmittochargehimselfwithanexpensesonecessary,notonlyforhimself,butforhisfamily?’
’Hewillsayitoughtnottobenecessary。Youknow,MrRobarts,thatinsomerespectsheisnotlikeothermen。YouwillnotletwhatIsayofhimsetyouagainsthim?’
’Indeed,no。’
’Itismostkindofyoutomaketheattempt。Hewillbeheredirectly,andwhenhecomesIwillleaveyoutogether。’
Whileshewasyetspeakinghisstepwasheardalongthegravel—path,andhehurriedintotheroomwithquicksteps。’Icraveyourpardon,MrRobarts,’hesaid,’thatIshouldkeepyouwaiting。’nowMrRobartshadnotbeentheretenminutes,andanysuchaskingofpardonwashardlynecessary。And,eveninhisownhouse,MrCrawleyaffectedamockhumility,asthough,eitherthroughhisowndebasement,orbecauseofthesuperiorstationoftheotherclergyman,hewerenotentitledtoputhimselfonanequalfootingwithhisvisitor。HewouldnothaveshakenhandswithMrRobarts——intendingtoindicatethathedidnotpresumetodosowhilethepresentaccusationwashangingoverhim——hadnottheactionbeenforceduponhim。Andthentherewassomethingofaprotestinhismanner,asthoughremonstratingagainstathingthatwasunbecomingtohim。MrRobarts,withoutanalysingit,understooditall,andknewthatbehindthehumilitytherewasacrushingpride——apridewhich,inallprobability,wouldriseupandcrushhimbeforehecouldgethimselfoutoftheroomagain。Itwas,perhaps,afterall,aquestionwhetherthemanwasnotservedrightlybytheextremitiestowhichhewasreduced。Therewassomethingradicallywrongwithinhim,whichhadputhimintoantagonismwithalltheworld,andwhichproducedthesenever—dyinggrievances。ThereweremanyclergymeninthecountrywithincomesassmallasthatwhichhadfallentothelotofMrCrawley,buttheymanagedtogetonwithoutdisplayingtheirsoresasMrCrawleydisplayedhis。TheydidnotweartheiroldrustycloakswithallthatostentatiousbitternessofpovertywhichseemedtobelongtothatgarmentwhendisplayedonMrCrawley’sshoulders。Such,foramoment,wereMrRobarts’thoughts,andhealmostrepentedhimselfofhispresentmission。ButthenhethoughtofMrsCrawley,andrememberingthathersufferingswereatanyrateundeserved,determinedthathewouldpersevere。
MrsCrawleydisappearedalmostassoonasherhusbandappeared,andMrRobartsfoundhimselfstandinginfrontofhisfriend,whoremainedfixedtothespot,withhishandsfoldedovereachotherandhisneckbentslightlyforward,intokenalsoofhumility。’Iregret,’hesaid,’thatyourhorseshouldbeleftthere,exposedtotheinclemencyoftheweather;but——’
’Thehorsewon’tminditabit,’saidMrRobarts。’Aparson’shorseislikeabutcher’s,andknowshemustn’tbeparticularaboutwaitinginthecold。’
’Ineverhavehadonemyself,’saidMrCrawley。NowMrRobartshadhadmorehorsesthanonebeforenow,andhadbeenthoughtbysometohaveincurredgreaterexpensethanwasbefittinginhisstablecomforts。Thesubject,therefore,wasasoreone,andhewasworriedalittle。’Ijustwantedtosayafewwordstoyou,Crawley,’hesaid,’andifIamnotoccupyingtoomuchofyourtime——’
’Mytimeisaltogetheratyourdisposal。Willyoubeseated?’
ThenMrRobartssatdown,and,swinginghishatbetweenhislegs,bethoughthimselfhowheshouldbeginhiswork。’WehadthearchdeaconoveratFramleytheotherday,’hesaid。’Ofcourseyouknowthearchdeacon?’
’IneverhadtheadvantageofanyacquaintancewithDrGrantly。OfcourseIknowhimwellbyname,andalsopersonally——thatis,bysight。’
’Andbycharacter?’
’Nay;Icanhardlysomuchasthat。ButIamawarethathisnamestandshighwithmanyofhisorder。’
’Exactly;thatiswhatImean。Youknowthathisjudgmentisthoughtmoreofinclericalmattersthanthatofanyotherclergymaninthecounty。’
’Byacertainparty,MrRobarts。’
’Well,yes。Theydon’tthinkmuchofhim,Isuppose,inthepalace。Butthatwon’tlowerhiminyourestimation。’
’IbynomeansderogatefromDrGrantly’shighpositioninhisownarchdeaconry——towhich,asyouareaware,Iamnotattached——nortocriticisehisconductinanyrespect。Itwouldthereforebeunbecominginmetodoso。ButIcannotacceptitasapointinaclergyman’sfavour,thatheshouldbeopposedtohisbishop。’
NowthiswastoomuchforMrRobarts。AfterallthathehadheardofthevisitpaidbyMrCrawleytothepalace——ofthevenomdisplayedbyMrsProudieonthatoccasion,andoftheabsolutewantofsubordinationtoepiscopalauthoritywhichMrCrawleyhimselfwassupposedtohaveshown——MrRobartsdidfeelithardthathisfriendthearchdeaconshouldbesnubbedinthiswaybecausehewasdeficientinreverenceforhisbishop!’Ithought,Crawley,’hesaid,’thatyouyourselfwereinclinedtodisputeorderscomingtoyoufromthepalace。Thatworldatleastsaysasmuchconcerningyou。’
’WhattheworldsaysofmeIhavelearnedtodisregardverymuch,MrRobarts。ButIhopethatIshallneverdisobeytheauthorityoftheChurchwhenproperlyandlegallyexercised。’
’Ihopewithallmyheartyouneverwill;notIeither。Andthearchdeacon,whoknows,tothebreadthofahair,whatabishopoughttodoandwhatheoughtnot,andwhathemaydoandwhathemaynot,will,Ishouldsay,bethelastmaninEnglandtosininthatway。’
’Veryprobably。Iamfarfromcontradictingyouthere。Prayunderstand,MrRobarts,thatIbringnoaccusationagainstthearchdeacon。WhyshouldI?’
’Ididn’tmeantodiscusshimatall。’
’NordidI,MrRobarts。’
’Ionlymentionedhisname,because,asIsaid,hewasoverwithustheotherdayatFramley,andwewerealltalkingaboutyouraffair。’
’Myaffair!’saidMrCrawley。Andthencameafrownuponhisbrow,andagleamoffireintohiseyes,whicheffectuallybanishedthatlookofhumilitywhichhehadassumed。’AndmayIaskwhythearchdeaconwasdiscussing——myaffair?’
’Simplyfromthekindnesswhichhebearstoyou。’
’Iamgratefulforthearchdeacon’skindness,asamanisboundtobeforanykindness,whetherdisplayedwiselyorunwisely。Butitseemstomethatmyaffair,asyoucallit,MrRobarts,isofthatnaturethattheywhowishwelltomewillbetterfurthertheirwishesbysilencethanbyanydiscussion。’
’ThenIcannotagreewithyou。’MrCrawleyshruggedhisshoulders,openedhishandsalittleandthenclosedthem,andbowedhishead。HecouldnothavedeclaredmoreclearlybyanywordsthathedifferedaltogetherfromMrRobarts,andthatasthesubjectwasonesopeculiarlyhisownhehadarighttoexpectthathisopinionshouldbeallowedtoprevailagainstthatofanyotherperson。’Ifyoucometothat,youknow,howisanybody’stonguetobestopped?’
’Thatvaintonguescannotbestopped,Iamwellaware。Idonotexpectthatpeople’stonguesshouldbestopped。Iamnotsayingwhatmenwilldo,butwhatgoodwishesshoulddictate。’
’Well,perhapsyou’llhearmeoutforaminute。’MrCrawleyagainbowedhishead。’Whetherwewerewiseorunwise,wewerediscussingthisaffair。’
’WhetherIstoleMrSoames’smoney?’
’No;nobodysupposedforamomentyouhadstolenit。’
’Icannothowtheycansupposeanythingelse,knowing,astheydo,thatthemagistrateshavecommittedmeforthetheft。ThistookplaceatFramley,yousay,andprobablyinLordLufton’spresence。’
’Exactly。’
’AndLordLuftonwaschairmanatthesittingofthemagistratesatwhichIwascommitted。Howcanitbethatheshouldthinkotherwise?’
’Iamsurethathehasnotanideathatyouwereguilty。NoryethasDrThorne,whowasalsooneofthemagistrates。Idon’tsupposeoneofthemthenthoughtso。’
’Thentheiraction,tosaytheleastofit,wasverystrange。’
’Itwasallbecauseyouhadnobodytomanageitforyou。Ithoroughlybelievethatifyouhadplacedthematterinthehandsofagoodlawyer,youwouldneverhaveheardawordmoreaboutit。ThatseemstobetheopinionofeverybodyIspeaktoonthesubject。’
’Theninthiscountryamanistobepunishedornot,accordingtoabilitytofeealawyer!’
’Iamnottalkingaboutpunishment。’
’Andpresuminganinnocentmantohavetheabilityandnotthewilltodoso,heistobepunished,toberuinedrootandbranch,selfandfamily,characterandpocket,simplybecause,knowinghisowninnocence,hedoesnotchoosetodependonthemercenaryskillofamanwhosetradeheabhorsfortheestablishmentofthatwhichshouldbeclearassunatnoonday!YousayIaminnocent,andyetyoutellmeIamtobecondemnedasaguiltyman,havemygowntakenfromme,betornfrommywifeandchildren,bedisgracedbeforetheeyesofallmen,andmadeabywordandathinghorribletobementioned,becauseIwillnotfeeanattorneytofeeanothermantocomeandlieonmybehalf,tobrowbeatwitnesses,tomakefalseappeals,andperhapsshedfalsetearsindefendingme。Youhavecometomeaskingmetodothis,ifIunderstandyou,tellingmethatthearchdeaconwouldsoadviseme。’
’Thatismyobject。’MrCrawley,ashehadspoken,hadinhisvehemence,risenfromhisseat,andMrRobartswasalsostanding。
’Thentellthearchdeacon,’saidMrCrawley,’thatIwillhavenoneofhisadvice。Iwillhavenoonetherepaidbymetoobstructthecourseofjusticeortohoodwinkajury。Ihavebeeninthecourtsoflaw,andknowwhatistheworkforwhichthesegentlemenarehired。Iwillhavenoneofit,andIwillthankyoutotellthearchdeaconso,withmyrespectfulacknowledgementsofhisconsiderationandcondescension。I
saynothingastomyowninnocence,ormyownguilt。ButIdosaythatifIamdraggedbeforethattribunal,aninnocentman,andamfalselydeclaredtobeguilty,becauseIlackmoneytobribealawyertospeakforme,thenthelawsofthiscountrydeservebutlittleofthatreverencewhichweareaccustomedtopaythem。AndifIbeguilty——’
’Nobodysupposesyoutobeguilty。’
’AndifIbeguilty,’continuedMrCrawley,altogetherignoringtheinterruption,exceptbytherepetitionofhiswords,andaslightraisingofhisvoice,’Iwillnotaddtomyguiltbyhiringanyonetoproveafalsehoodortodisproveatruth。’
’I’msorrythatyoushouldsayso,MrCrawley。’
’IspeakaccordingtowhatlightIhave,MrRobarts;andifIhavebeenover—warmwithyou——andIamconsciousthatIhavebeenatfaultinthatdirection——ImustprayyoutorememberthatIamsomewhathardlytried。
Mysorrowsandtroublesaresogreatthattheyriseagainstmeanddisturbme,anddrivemeon——whitherIwouldnotbedriven。’
’But,myfriend,isnotthatjustthereasonwhyyoushouldtrustinthismattertosomeonewhocanbemorecalmthanyourself?’
’Icannottrusttoanyone——inamatterofconscience。Todoasyouwouldhavemeistomewrong。ShallIdowrongbecauseIamunhappy?’
’Youshouldceasetothinkitwrongwhensoadvisedbypersonsyoucantrust。’
’Icantrustnoonewithmyownconscience;——noteventhearchdeacon,greatasheis。’
’Thearchdeaconhasmeantonlywellbyyou。’
’Iwillpresumeso。Iwillbelieveso。Idothinkso。TellthearchdeaconfrommethatIhumblythankhim;——thatinamatterofchurchquestion,Imightprobablysubmitmyjudgmenttohis;eventhoughhemighthavenoauthorityoverme,knowingasIdothatinsuchmattershisexperiencehasbeengreat。Tellhimalso,thatthoughIwouldfainthatthisunfortunateaffairmightburdenthetongueofnoneofmyneighbours——atleasttillIshallhavestoodbeforethejudgetoreceivetheverdictofthejury,and,ifneedful,hislordship’ssentence——stillIamconvincedthatinwhathehasspoken,asalsoinwhathehasdone,hehasnotyieldedtotheidlenessofgossip,buthasexercisedhisjudgmentwithintendedkindness。’
’Hehascertainlyintendedtodoyouaservice;andasforitsnotbeingtalkedabout,thatisoutofthequestion。’
’Andforyourself,MrRobarts,whomIhaveeverregardedasafriendsincecircumstancesbroughtmeintoyourneighbourhood——foryou,whosesisterIlovetenderlyinmemoryofpastkindness,thoughnowsheisremovedsofarabovemysphere,astomakeitunfitIshouldcallhermyfriend——’
’Shedoesnotthinksoatall。’
’Foryourself,asIwassaying,praybelievemethatthoughfromtheroughnessofmymanner,beingnowunusedtosocialintercourse,Iseemtobeungraciousandforbidding,Iamgratefulandmindful,andthatinthetabletsofmyheartIhavewrittenyoudownasoneinwhomIcouldtrust——wereitgiventometotrustinmenandwomen。’Thenheturnedroundwithhisfacetothewallandhisbacktohisvisitor,andsoremainedtillMrRobartshadlefthim。’Atanyrate,Iwishyouwellthroughyourtrouble,’saidRobarts;andashespokehefoundthathisownwordswerenearlychokedbyasobthatwasrisinginthisthroat。
Hewentawaywithoutanotherword,andgotouttohisgigwithoutseeingMrsCrawley。Duringoneperiodoftheinterviewhehadbeenveryangrywiththeman——soangryastomakehimalmostdeclaretohimselfthathewouldtakenomoretroubleonhisbehalf。ThenhehadbeenbroughttoacknowledgethatMrWalkerwasright,andthatCrawleywascertainlymad。Hewassomad,sofarremovedfromthedominionofsoundsense,thatnojurycouldsaythathewasguiltyandthatheoughttobepunishedforhisguilt。And,ashesoresolved,hecouldnotbutaskhimselfthequestion,whetherthechargeoftheparishoughttobeleftinthehandsofsuchaman?But,atlast,justbeforehewent,thesefeelingsandtheseconvictionsgavewaytopity,andherememberedsimplythetroubleswhichseemedtohavebeenheapedontheheadofthispoorvictimtomisfortune。Ashedrovehomeheresolvedthattherewasnothingleftforhimtodo,buttowritetothedean。Itwasknownbyallwhoknewthemboth,thatthedeanandMrCrawleyhadlivedtogetherontheclosestintimacyatcollege,andthatthefriendshiphadbeenmaintainedthroughlife;——though,fromthepeculiarityofMrCrawley’scharacter,thetwohadnotbeenmuchtogetheroflateyears。Seeinghowthingsweregoingnow,andhearinghowpitifulwastheplightinwhichMrCrawleywasplaced,thedeanwould,nodoubt,feelittobehisdutytohastenhisreturntoEngland。HewasbelievedtobeatthismomentinJerusalem,anditwouldbelongbeforealettercouldreachhim;buttherestillwantedthreemonthstotheassizes,andhisreturnmightbeprobablyeffectedbeforetheendofFebruary。