’DoyouthinkthatIwouldtellyouafalsehoodaboutit?WhatImeantwasthatitisakindofthingthatonedoesn’tliketalkingabout,merelybecausestoriesarebandiedabout。Peoplearesofondofsayingthatthismanisengagedtothatwoman,andofmakinguptales;anditseemssofoolishtocontradictsuchthings。’
  ’Butyouknowthatyouusedtobeveryfondofher。’
  Hehadtakenuphishatwhenhehadrisenfromthesofa,andwasstillstandingwithitreadyinhishand。Hewasevennowhalf—mindedtoescape;andthenameofLilyDaleinMissDemoline’smouthwassodistastefultohimthathewouldhavedoneso——hewouldhavegoneinsheerdisgust,hadshenotstoodinhisway,sothathecouldnotescapewithoutmovingher,orgoingroundbehindthesofa。Shedidnotstirtomakewayforhim,anditmaybethatsheunderstoodthathewasherprisoner,inspiteofherlatecommandtohimtogo。Itmaybe,also,thatsheunderstoodhisvexationandthecauseofit,andthatshesawtheexpediencyofleavingLilyDalealoneforthepresent。Atanyrate,shepressedhimnomoreuponthematter。’Arewetobefriendsagain?’
  shesaid。
  ’Ihopeso,’saidJohnny。
  ’Thereismyhand,then。’SoJohnnytookherhandandpressedit,andhelditforalittlewhile——justlongenoughtoseemtogiveameaningtotheaction。’Youwillgettounderstandmesomeday,’shesaid,’andwilllearnthatIdonotliketobereckonedamongtheeverybodiesbythoseforwhomIreally——really——reallyhavearegard。WhenIamangry,Iamangry。’
  ’Youwereveryangryjustnow,whenyoushowedmethewaytothedoor。’
  ’AndImeantittoo——fortheminute。Onlythink——supposingyouhadgone!Weshouldneverhaveseeneachotheragain;——never,never!Whatachangeonewordmaymake!’
  ’Onewordoftendoesmakeachange。’
  ’Doesitnot?Justalittle"yes"or"no"。A"no"issaidwhena"yes"
  ismeant,andthentherecomesnosecondchance,andwhatachangethatmaybefrombrighthopestodesolation!Or,worseagain,a"yes"issaidwhena"no"shouldbesaid——whenthespeakerknowsthatitshouldbe"no"。Whatadifferencethat"no"makes!Whenonethinksofit,onewondersthatawomanshouldeversayanythingbut"no"。’
  ’Theyneverdidsayanythingelsetome,’saidJohnny。
  ’Idon’tbelieveit。Idaresaythetruthis,youneveraskedanybody。’
  ’Didanybodyeveraskyou?’
  ’Whatwouldyougivetoknow?ButIwilltellyoufrankly;——yes。Andonce——onceIthoughtthatmyanswerwouldnothavebeena"no"。’
  ’Butyouchangedyourmind?’
  ’WhenthemomentcameIcouldnotbringmyselftosaythewordthatshouldrobmeofmylibertyforever。Ihadsaid"no"tohimoftenenoughbefore——poorfellow;andonthisoccasion,hetoldmethathehadaskedmeforthelasttime。"Ishallnotgivemyselfanotherchance,"hesaid,"forIshallbeonboardshipwithinaweek。"Imerelybadehimgood—bye。ItwastheonlyanswerIgavehim。Heunderstoodme,andsincethatdayhisfoothasnotpressedhisnativesoil。’
  ’Andwasitallbecauseyouaresofondofyourliberty?’saidJohnny。
  ’Perhaps——Ididnot——lovehim,’saidMissDemolines,thoughtfully。Shewasnowagainseatedinherchair,andJohnEameshadgonebacktohiscornerofthesofa。’IfIhadreallylovedhim,Isupposeitwouldhavebeenotherwise。Hewasagallantfellow,andhadtwothousandayearofhisown,inIndiastockandothersecurities。’
  ’Dearme!Andhehasnotmarriedyet?’
  ’HewrotemeawordtosaythathewouldnevermarrytillIwasmarried——butthatonthedaythatheshouldhearofmywedding,hewouldgotothefirstsinglewomannearhimandpropose。Itwasadrollthingtosay;wasitnot?’
  ’Thesinglewomanoughttofeelherselfflattered。’
  ’Hewouldfindplentytoaccepthim。Besidesbeingsowelloffhewasaveryhandsomefellow,andisconnectedwithpeopleoftitle。Hehadeverythingtorecommendhim。’
  ’Andyetyourefusedhim?’
  ’Yes。YouthinkIwasfoolish;——doyounot?’
  ’Idon’tthinkyouwerefoolishifyoudidn’tcareforhim。’
  ’Itwasmydestiny,Isuppose;IdaresayIwaswrong。Othergirlsmarrywithoutviolentlove,anddoverywellafterwards。LookatMariaClutterbuck。’
  ThenameofMariaClutterbuckhadbecomeodioustoJohnEames。AslongasMissDemolineswouldcontinuetotalkaboutherselfhecouldlistenwithsomeamountofgratification。ConversationonthatsubjectwasthenaturalprogressoftheBayswaterromance。AndifMadalinawouldonlycallherfriendbyherpresentname,hehadnostrongobjectiontoanoccasionalmentionofthelady;butthecombinednamesofMariaClutterbuckhadcometobeabsolutelydistastefultohim。HedidnotbelieveintheMariaClutterbuckfriendship——eitherinitspastorpresentexistence,asdescribedbyMadalina。Indeed,hedidnotputstrongfaithinanythingthatMadalinasaidtohim。Inthehandsomegentlemanwithtwothousandayear,hedidnotbelieveatall。ButthehandsomegentlemanhadonlybeenmentionedonceinthecourseofhisacquaintancewithMissDemolines,whereasMariaClutterbuckhadcomeupsooften!’UponmywordImustwishyougood—bye,’hesaid。’Itisgoingforeleveno’clock,andIhavetostarttomorrowatseven。’
  ’Whatdifferencedoesthatmake?’
  ’Afellowwantstogetalittlesleep,youknow。’
  ’Go,then;——goandgetyoursleep。Whatasleepy—headgenerationitis。’Johnnylongedtoaskwhetherthelastgenerationwaslesssleepy—headed,andwhetherthegentlemanwithtwothousandayearsatuptalkingallnightbeforehepressedhisfootforthelasttimeonhisnativesoil;buthedidnotdare。Ashesaidtohimselfafterwards,’ItwouldnotdotobringtheBayswaterromancetoosuddenlytotermination!’’Butbeforeyougo,’shecontinued,’Imustsaythewordtoyouaboutthatpicture。DidyouspeaktoMrDalrymple?’
  ’Ididnot。IhavebeensobusywithdifferentthingsthatIhavenotseenhim。’
  ’Andnowyouaregoing?’
  ’Well——totellthetruth,IthinkIshallseehimtonight,inspiteofmybeingsosleepy—headed。IwrotehimalinethatIwouldlookinandsmokeacigarwithhimifhechancedtobeathome!’
  ’Andthatiswhyyouwanttogo。Agentlemancannotlivewithouthiscigarnow。’
  ’ItisespeciallyatyourbiddingthatIamgoingtoseehim。’
  ’Gothen——andmakeyourfriendunderstandthatifhecontinuesthispictureofhis,hewillbringhimselftogreattrouble,andwillprobablyruinthewomanforwhomheprofesses,Ipresume,tofeelsomethinglikefriendship。YoumaytellhimthatMrsVanSieverhasalreadyheardofit。’
  ’Whotoldher?’demandedJohnny。
  ’Nevermind。Youneednotlookatmelikethat。ItwasnotI。Doyousupposethatsecretscanbekeptwhensomanypeopleknowthem?EveryservantinMaria’shouseknowsallaboutit。’
  ’Asforthat,Idon’tsupposeMrsBroughtonmakesanygreatsecretofit。’
  ’DoyouthinkshehastoldMrsBroughton?Iamsureshehasnot。ImaysaythatIknowshehasnot。MariaClutterbuckisinfatuated。Thereisnootherexcusetobemadeforher。’
  ’Good—bye,’saidJohnny,hurriedly。
  ’Andyouarereallygoing?’
  ’Well——yes。Isupposeso。’
  ’Gothen。Ihavenothingmoretosaytoyou。’
  ’IshallcomeandcalldirectlyIreturn,’saidJohnny。
  ’Youmaydoasyoupleaseaboutthat,sir。’
  ’Doyoumeanthatyouwon’tbegladtoseemeagain?’
  ’Iamnotgoingtoflatteryou,MrEames。Mammawillbewellbythattime,Ihope,andIdonotmindtellingyouthatyouareafavouritewithher。’Johnnythoughtthatthiswasparticularlykind,ashehadseensoverylittleoftheoldlady。’Ifyouchoosetocalluponher,’
  saidMadalina,’ofcourseshewillbegladtoseeyou。’
  ’ButIwasspeakingofyourself,youknow?’andJohnnypermittedhimselfforamomenttolooktenderlyather。
  ’ThenfrommyselfprayunderstandthatIwillsaynothingtoflatteryourself—love。’
  ’IthoughtyouwouldbekinderjustwhenIwasgoingaway。’
  ’IthinkIhavebeenquitekindenough。Asyouobservedyourselfjustnow,itisnearlyeleveno’clock,andImustaskyoutogoaway。Bonvoyage,andahappyreturntoyou。’
  ’AndyouwillbegladtoseemewhenIamback?Tellthatyouwillbegladtoseeme。’
  ’Iwilltellyounothingofthekind。MrEames,ifyoudo,Iwillbeveryangrywithyou。’Andthenhewent。
  OnhiswaybacktohisownlodgingshedidcallonConwayDalrymple,andinspiteofhisneedforearlyrising,satsmokingwiththeartistforanhour。’Ifyoudon’ttakecare,youngman,’saidhisfriend,’youwillfindyourselfinascrapewithyourMadalina。’
  ’Whatsortofscrape?’
  ’AsyouwalkawayfromPorchesterTerracesomefineday,youwillhavetocongratulateyourselfonhavingmadeasuccessfuloverturetowardsmatrimony。’
  ’Youdon’tthinkIamsuchafoolasthatcomesto?’
  ’Othermenaswiseasyouhavedonethesamesoughtofthing。MissDemolinesisveryclever,andIdaresayyoufinditamusing。’
  ’Itisn’tsomuchthatshe’sclever,andIcanhardlysaythatitisamusing。Onegetsawfullytiredofit,youknow。Butafellowmusthavesomethingtodo,andthatisasgoodasanythingelse。’
  ’Isupposeyouhavenotheardthatoneyoungmanlevantedlastyeartosavehimselffromabreachofpromisecase?’
  ’IwonderwhetherhehadanymoneyinIndiansecurities?’
  ’Whatmakesyouaskthat?’
  ’Nothinginparticular。’
  ’Whateverlittlehechosetosave,andIthinkthatIheardthathewenttoCanada。HisnamewasShorter;andtheysaythat,ontheeveofhisgoing,Madalinasenthimwordthatshehadnoobjectiontothecolonies,andthat,underthepressingemergencyofhisexpatriation,shewaswillingtobecomeMrsShorterwithmoreexpeditionthanusuallyattendsfashionableweddings。Shorter,however,escaped,andhasneverbeenseenbackagain。’
  Eamesdeclaredthathedidnotbelieveawordofit。Nevertheless,ashewalkedhomehecametotheconclusionthatifMrShortermusthavebeenthehandsomegentlemanwithIndiansecurities,towhom’no’hadbeensaidoncetoooften。
  WhilesittingwithConwayDalrymple,hehadforgottentosayawordaboutJaelandSisera。
  CHAPTERXLVII
  DRTEMPESTATTHEPALACE。
  IntimationhadbeensentfromthepalacetoDrTempestofSilverbridgeofthebishop’sintentionthatacommissionshouldbeheldbyhim,asruraldean,withotherneighbouringclergymen,asassessorswithhim,thatinquirymightbemadeonthepartoftheChurchintothequestionofMrCrawley’sguilt。ItmustbeunderstoodthatbythistimetheopinionhadbecomeverygeneralthatMrCrawleyhadbeenguilty——thathehadfoundthechequeinhishouse,andthathehad,afterholdingitformanymonths,succumbedtotemptation,andappliedittohisownpurposes。Butvariousexcusesweremadeforhimbythosewhosobelieved。Inthefirstplaceitwasfeltbyallwhoreallyknewanythingoftheman’scharacter,thattheveryfactofhiscommittingsuchacrimeprovedhimtobehardlyresponsibleforhisactions。Hemusthaveknown,hadnotalljudgmentinsuchmattersbeentakenfromhim,thatthechequewouldcertainlybetracedbacktohishands。Noattempthadbeenmadeinthedisposingofittodisposeofitinsuchawaythatthetraceshouldbeobliterated。Hehadsimplygivenittoaneighbourwithadirectiontohaveitcashed,andhadwrittenhisownnameonthebackofit。Andtherefore,thoughtherecouldbenodoubtastothetheftinthemindofthosewhosupposedthathehadfoundthechequeinhisownhouse,yettheguiltofthetheftseemedtobealmostannihilatedbythefollyofthethief。Andthenhispoverty,andhisstruggles,andthesufferingsofhiswife,wereremembered;andstoriesweretoldfrommouthtomouthofhisindustryinhisprofession,ofhisgreatzealamongthebrickmakersofHoggleEnd,ofactsofcharitydonebyhimwhichstartledthepeopleofthedistrictintoadmiration:——howhehadworkedwithhisownhandsforthesickpoortowhomhecouldnotgivereliefinmoney,turningawoman’smangleforacoupleofhours,andcarryingaboy’sloadalongthelanes。DrTempestandothersdeclaredthathehadderogatedfromthedignityofhispositionasanEnglishparishclergymanbysuchacts;but,nevertheless,thestoriesofthesedeedsactedstronglyonthemindsofbothmenandwomen,creatinganadmirationforMrCrawleywhichwasmuchstrongerthanthecondemnationofhisguilt。
  EvenMrsWalkerandherdaughter,andtheMissPrettymans,hadsofargivenwaythattheyhadceasedtoasseveratetheirbeliefinMrCrawley’sinnocence。Theycontentedthemselveswithsimplyexpressingahopethathewouldbeacquittedbyajury,andthatwhenheshouldbesoacquittedthethingmightbeallowedtorest。Ifhehadsinned,nodoubthehadrepented。Andthentherewereseriousdebateswhetherhemightnothavestolenthemoneywithoutmuchsin,beingmadorhalf—mad——touchedwithmadnesswhenhetookit;andwhetherhemightnot,inspiteofsuchtemporarytouchofmadness,bewellfittedforhisparishduties。Sorrowhadafflictedhimgrievously;butthatsorrow,thoughithadincapacitatedhimforthemanagementofhisownaffairs,hadnotrenderedhimunfitfortheministrationofhisparish。Suchweretheargumentsnowusedinhisfavourbythewomenaroundhim;andthemenwerenotkeentocontradictthem。Thewishthatheshouldbeacquittedandallowedtoremaininhisparsonagewasverygeneral。
  Whenthereforeitbecameknownthatthebishophaddecidedtoputonfootanotherinvestigation,withtheviewofbringingMrCrawley’sconductunderecclesiasticalcondemnation,almosteverybodyaccusedthebishopofpersecution。TheworldofthediocesedeclaredthatMrsProudiewasatwork,andthatthebishophimselfwasnobetterthanapuppet。Itwasinvainthatcertainclearheadedmenamongtheclergy,ofwhomDrTempesthimselfwasone,pointedoutthatthebishopafterallmightperhapsberight;——thatifMrCrawleywereguilty,andifheshouldbefoundtohavebeensobyajury,itmightbeabsolutelynecessarythatanecclesiasticalcourtshouldtakesomecognizanceofthecrimebeyondthatoftakenbythecivillaw。’Thejury,’saidDrTempest,discussingthecasewithMrRobartsandotherclericalneighbours——’thejurymayprobablyfindhimguiltyandrecommendtohimmercy。Thejudgewillhaveheardhischaracter,andwillhavebeenmadeacquaintedwiththemannerofhislife,andwilldealaslightlywiththecaseasthelawwillallowhim。ForaughtIknowhemaybeimprisonedforamonth。Iwishitmightbefornomorethanaday——oranhour。Butwhenhecomesoutfromhismonth’simprisonment——howthen?
  Surelyitshouldbeacaseforecclesiasticalinquiry,whetheraclergymanwhohascommittedatheftshouldbeallowedtogointohispulpitdirectlyhecomesoutofprison?’ButtheanswertothiswasthatMrCrawleyhadalwaysbeenagoodclergyman,wasagoodclergymanatthismoment,andwouldbeagoodclergymanwhenhedidcomeoutofprison。
  ButDrTempest,thoughhehadarguedinthisway,wasbynomeanseagerforthecommencementofthecommissionoverwhichhewastobecalledupontopreside。Inspiteofsuchargumentsastheabove,whichcamefromtheman’sheadwhenhisheadwasbroughttobearonthematter,therewasathoroughdesirewithinhishearttoopposethebishop。HehadnostrongsympathywithMrCrawley,ashadothers。HewouldhavehadMrCrawleysilencedwithoutregret,presumingMrCrawleytobeguilty。
  Buthehadamuchstrongerfeelingwithregardtothebishop。Hadtherebeenanyquestionofsilencingthebishop——couldithavebeenpossibletotakestepsinthatdirection——hewouldhavebeenveryactive。Itmaythereforebeunderstoodthatinspiteofhisdefenceofthebishop’spresentproceedingsastothecommission,hewasanxiousthatthebishopshouldfail,andanxioustoputimpedimentsinthebishop’sway,shoulditappeartohimthathecoulddosowithjustice。DrTempestwaswellknownamonghisparishionerstobehardandunsympathetic,somesaidunfeelingalso,andcruel;butitwasadmittedbythosewhodislikedhimthemostthathewasbothpracticalandjust,andthathecaredforthewelfareofmany,thoughhewasrarelytouchedbythemiseryofone。SuchwasthemanwhowasrectorofSilverbridgeandruraldeaninthedistrict,andwhowasnowcalleduponbythebishoptoassisthiminmakingfurtherinquiryastothiswretchedchequefortwentypounds。
  OnceatthisperiodArchdeaconGrantlyandDrTempestmeteachotheranddiscussedthequestionofMrCrawley’sguilt。Boththesemenwereinimicaltothepresentbishopofthediocese,andbothhadperhapsrespectedtheoldbishopbeyondallothermen。Buttheyweredifferentinthis,thatthearchdeaconhatedDrProudieasapartisan——whereasDrTempestopposedthebishoponcertainprincipleswhichheendeavouredtomakeclear,atanyratetohimself。’Wrong!’saidthearchdeacon,speakingofthebishop’sintentionofissuingacommission——’ofcoursehe’swrong。Howcouldanythingrightcomefromhimorfromher?Ishouldbesorrytohavetodohisbidding。’
  ’IthinkyouarealittleharduponBishopProudie,’saidDrTempest。
  ’Onecannotbeharduponhim,’saidthearchdeacon。’Heissoscandalouslyweak,andsheissoradicallyvicious,thattheycannotbutbewrongtogether。Theveryfactthatsuchamanshouldbeabishopamongusistometerriblystrongevidenceofevildayscoming。’
  ’YouaremoreimpulsivethanIam,’saidDrTempest。’InthiscaseIamsorryforthepoorman,who,Iamsure,honestinthemain。ButI
  believethatinsuchacaseyourfatherwouldhavedonejustwhatthepresentbishopisdoing;——thathecouldhavedonenothingelse;andasI
  thinkthatDrProudieisrightIshalldoallthatIcantoassisthiminthecommission。’
  Thebishop’ssecretaryhadwrittentoDrTempest,tellinghimofthebishop’spurpose;andnow,inoneofthelastdaysinMarch,thebishophimselfwrotetoDrTempest,askinghimtocomeovertothepalace。Theletterwaswordedmostcourteously,andexpressedveryfeelinglythegreatregretwhichthewriterfeltatbeingobligedtotaketheseproceedingsagainstaclergymaninhisdiocese。BishopProudieknewhowtowritesuchaletter。Bythewritingofsuchletters,andbythemakingofspeechesinthesamestrain,hehadbecomeBishopofBarchester。Now,inthisletter,hebeggedDrTempesttocomeovertohim,sayinghowdelightedMrsProudiewouldbetoseehimatthepalace。
  Thenhewentontoexplainthegreatdifficultywhichhefelt,andgreatsorrowalso,indealingwiththismatterofMrCrawley。Helooked,therefore,confidentlyforDrTempest’sassistance。ThinkingtodothebestforMrCrawley,andanxioustoenableMrCrawleytoremaininquietretirementtillthetrialshouldbeover,hehadsentaclergymanovertoHogglestock,whowouldhaverelievedMrCrawleyfromtheburdenofthechurch—services;——butMrCrawleywouldhavenoneofthisrelief。MrCrawleyhadbeenobstinateandoverbearing,andhadpersistedinclaiminghisrighttohisownpulpit。Thereforewasthebishopobligedtointerferelegally,andthereforewasheunderthenecessityofaskingDrTempesttoassisthim。WouldDrTempestcomeoverontheMonday,andstaytillWednesday?
  Theletterwasaverygoodletter,andDrTempestwasobligedtodoashewasasked。Hesofarmodifiedthebishop’spropositionthathereducedthesojournatthepalacebyonenight。HewrotetosaythathewouldhavethepleasureofdiningwiththebishopandMrsProudieontheMonday,butwouldreturnhomeontheTuesday,assoonasthebusinessinhandwouldpermithim。’Ishallgetonverywellwithhim,’hesaidtohiswife,beforehestarted;’butIamafraidofthewoman。Ifsheinterferestherewillbearow。’’Then,mydear,’saidhiswife,’therewillbearow,forIamtoldthatshealwaysinterferes。’Onreachingthepalacehalf—an—hourbeforedinner—time,DrTempestfoundthatotherguestswereexpected,andondescendingtothegreatyellowdrawing—room,whichwasusedonlyonstateoccasions,heencounteredMrsProudie,andtwoofherdaughtersarrayedinfullpanoplyoffemalearmour。Shereceivedhimwithhersweetestsmiles,andiftherehadbeenanyformerenmitybetweenSilverbridgeandthepalace,itwasnowallforgotten。SheregrettedgreatlythatMrsTempesthadnotaccompaniedthedoctor;——forMrsTempestalsohadbeeninvited。ButMrsTempestwasnotquiteaswellasshemighthavebeen,thedoctorhadsaid,andveryrarelysleptawayfromhome。Andthenthebishopcameinandgreetedhisguestwithhispleasantestgoodhumour。ItwasquiteasorrowtohimthatSilverbridgewassodistant,andthathesawsolittleofDrTempest;buthehopedthatthatmightbesomewhatmendednow,andthatleisuremightbefoundforsocialdelights;——toallwhichDrTempestsaidbutlittle,bowingtothebishopateachseparateexpressionofhislordship’skindness。
  Thereweregueststherethateveningwhodidnotoftensitatthebishop’stable。ThearchdeaconandMrsGrantlyhadbeensummonedfromPlumstead,andhadobeyedthesummons。Greataswastheenmitybetweenthebishopandthearchdeacon,ithadneverquitetakentheformofopenpalpablehostility。Each,therefore,askedtheothertodinnerperhapsonceeveryyear;andeachwenttotheother,perhaps,onceintwoyears。
  AndDrThornefromChaldicoteswastherebutwithouthiswife,whointhesedayswasupinLondon。MrsProudiealwaysexpressedawarmfriendshipforMrsThorne,andonthisoccasionloudlyregrettedherabsence。’Youmusttellher,DrThorne,howexceedinglymuchwemissher。’DrThorne,whowasaccustomedtohearhiswifespeakofherdearfriendMrsProudiewithalmostunmeasuredridicule,promisedthathewoulddoso。’WearesorrytheLufton’scouldn’tcometous,’saidMrsProudie——notalludingtothedowager,ofwhomitwaswellknownthatnoearthlyinducementwouldhavesufficedtomakeherputherfootwithinMrsProudie’sroom——’butoneofthechildrenisill,andshecouldn’tleavehim。’ButtheGreshamsweretherefromBoxallHill,andtheThornesfromUllathorne,and,withtheexceptionofasinglechaplain,whopretendedtocarve,DrTempestandthearchdeaconweretheonlyclericalguestsatthetable。FromallwhichDrTempleknewthatthebishopwasanxioustotreathimwithspecialconsiderationonthepresentoccasion。