Hewasfreenow。Eveninhismisery——forhewasverymiserable——hecouldnotrefrainfromtellinghimselfthat。Nooncecouldnowpressuncalled—forintohisstudy,contradicthiminthepresenceofthosebeforewhomhewasboundtobeauthoritative,androbhimofallhisdignity。Therewasnooneelseofwhomhewasafraid。Shehadatleastkepthimoutofthehandsofothertyrants。Hewasnowhisownmaster,andtherewasthefeeling——Imaynotcallitofrelief,forasyettherewasmoreofpaininitthanofsatisfaction——afeelingasthoughhehadescapedfromanoldtroubleataterriblecostofwhichhecouldnotasyetcalculatetheamount。Heknewthathemightnowgiveupallideaofwritingtothearchbishop。
Shehadinsomeways,andatcertainperiodsofhislife,beenverygoodtohim。Shehadkepthismoneyforhimandmadethingsgostraight,whentheyhadbeenpoor。Hisinterestshadalwaysbeenherinterests。Withoutherhewouldneverhavebeenabishop。So,atleast,hetoldhimselfnow,andsotoldhimselfprobablywithtruth。Shehadbeenverycarefulofhischildren。Shehadneverbeenidle。Shehadneverbeenfondofpleasure。Shehadneglectednoacknowledgedduty。Hedidnotdoubtthatshewasnowonherwaytoheaven。Hetookhishandsfromhishead,andclaspingthemtogether,saidalittleprayer。Itmaybedoubtedwhetherhequiteknewforwhathewaspraying。Theideaofgivinguphersoul,nowthatshewasdead,wouldhavescandalisedhim。Hecertainlywasnotprayingforhisownsoul。IthinkthathewasprayingthatGodmightsavehimfrombeinggladthathiswifewasdead。
Butshewasdead——and,asitwere,inamoment!Hehadnotstirredoutofthatroomsinceshehadbeentherewithhim。Thentherehadbeenangrywordsbetweenthem——perhapsmoredeterminedenmityonhispartthaneverhadexisted;andtheyhadpartedforthelasttimewithbitteranimosity。Buthetoldhimselfthathehadcertainlybeenrightinwhathehaddonethen。Hethoughthehadbeenrightthen。AndsohismindwentbacktotheCrawleyandThumblequestion,andhetriedtoalleviatethemiserywhichthelastinterviewwithhiswifenowcreatedbyassuringhimselfthatheatleastbeenjustifiedinwhathehaddone。
Butyethisthoughtswereverytendertoher。Nothingreopensthespringsoflovesofullyasabsence,andnoabsencesothoroughlyasthatwhichmustneedsbeendless。Wewantthatwhichwehavenot;andespeciallythatwhichwenevercanhave。Shehadtoldhimintheverylastmomentsofherpresencewithhimthathewaswishingsheweredead,andhehadmadenoreply。Atthemomenthehadfelt,withsavageanger,thatsuchwashiswish。Herwordshadnowcometopass,andhewasawidower——andheassuredhimselfthathewouldgiveallthathepossessedintheworldtobringherbackagain。
Yes,hewasawidower,andhemightdoashepleased。Thetyrantwasgone,andhewasfree。Thetyrantwasgone,andthetyrannyhaddoubtlessbeenveryoppressive。Whohadsufferedashehaddone?Butinthusbeingleftwithouthistyranthewaswretchedlydesolate。Mightitnotbethatthetyrannyhadbeengoodforhim?——thattheLordhadknownbestwhatwifewasfitforhim?Thenhethoughtofastorywhichhehadread——andhadwellmarkedashewasreading——ofsomemanwhohadbeenterriblyafflictedbyhiswife,whosewifehadstarvedhimandbeatenhimandreviledhim;andyetthismanhadbeenabletothankGodforhavingmortifiedhimintheflesh。Mightitnotbethatthemortificationwhichhehimselfhaddoubtlesssufferedinhisfleshhadbeenintendedforhiswelfare,andhadbeenverygoodforhim?Butifthiswereso,itmightbethatthemortificationwasnowremovedbecausetheLordknewthathisservanthadbeensufficientlymortified。Hehadnotbeenstarvedorbeaten,butthemortificationhadbeencertainlysevere。Thentherecamethesewords——intohismind,notintohismouth——’TheLordsentthethorn,andtheLordhastakenitaway。BlessedbetheLord。’Afterthathewasveryangrywithhimself,andtriedtopraythathemightbeforgiven。Whilehewassostrivingtherecamealowknockatthedoor,andMrsDraperagainenteredtheroom。
’DrFilgrave,mylord,wasnotathome,’saidMrsDraper;’buthewillbesentthemomentwhenhearrives。’
’Verywell,MrsDraper。’
’But,mylord,willyounotcomeouttodinner?Alittlesoup,oramorselofsomethingtoeat,andaglassofwine,willenableyourlordshiptobearitbetter。’HeallowedMrsDrapertopersuadehim,andfollowedherintothedining—room。’Donotgo,MrsDraper,’hesaid;’I
wouldratherthatyoushouldstaywithme。’SoMrsDraperstayedwithhim,andadministeredtohiswants。Hewasdesirousofbeingseenbyasfeweyesaspossibleinthesefirstmomentsofhisfreedom。
HesawDrFilgravetwice,bothbeforeandafterthedoctorhadbeenupstairs。Therewasnodoubt,DrFilgravesaid,thatitwasasMrsDraperhadsurmised。Thepoorladywassuffering,andhadforyearsbeensuffering,fromheart—complaint。Toherhusbandshehadneversaidawordonthesubject。ToMrsDraperawordhadbeensaidnowandagain——awordwhensomemomentoffearwouldcome,whensomesharpstrokeofagonywouldtellofdanger。ButMrsDraperhadkeptthesecretofhermistress,andnoneofthefamilyhadknownthattherewasaughttobefeared。DrFilgrave,indeed,didtellthebishopthathehaddreadedallalongexactlythatwhichhadhappened。HehadsaidthesametoMrRerechild,thesurgeon,whentheytwohadhadaconsultationatthepalaceontheoccasionofasomewhatalarmingbirthofagrandchild。ButhemixedupthisinformationwithsomuchmedicalLatin,andwassopompousoverit,andthebishopwassoanxioustoberidofhim,thathiswordsdidnothavemucheffect。Whatdiditallmatter?Thethornwasgone,andthewifewasdead,andthewidowermustbalancehisgainandthelossasbesthemight。
Hesleptwellbutwhenhewokeinthemorningthedrearinessofhislonelinesswasverystrongonhim。Hemustdosomething,andmustseesomebody,buthefeltthathedidnotknowhowtobearhimselfinhisnewposition。Hemustsendofcourseforhischaplain,andtellhischaplaintoopenalllettersandtoanswerthemforaweek。Thenherememberedhowmanyofhislettersindaysofyorehadbeenopenedandansweredbythehelpmate,whohadjustgonefromhim。SinceDrTempest’svisithehadinsistedthatthepalaceletter—bagshouldalwaysbebroughtinthefirstinstancetohim——andthishadbeendone,greatlytotheannoyanceofhiswife。Inorderthatitmightbedonethebishophadbeenupeverymorninganhourbeforetheusualtime;andeverybodyinthehouseholdhadknownwhyitwasso。Hethoughtofthisnowasthebagwasbroughttohimonthefirstmorningofhisfreedom。Hecouldhaveitwherehepleasednow——eitherinhisbedroomorleftforhimuntouchedonthebreakfast—tabletillheshouldgotoit。’BlessedbethenameoftheLord,’hesaidashethoughtofallthis;buthedidnotstoptoanalysewhathewassaying。Onthismorninghewouldnotenjoyhisliberty,butdesiredthattheletter—bagmightbetakentoMrSnapper,thechaplain。
ThenewsofMrsProudie’sdeathhadspreadalloverBarchesterontheeveningofitsoccurrence,andhadbeenreceivedwiththatfeelingofdistantawewhichisalwaysaccompaniedbysomedegreeofpleasurablesensation。TherewasnooneinBarchestertolamentamother,orasister,orafriendwhowasreallyloved。Therewerethose,doubtless,whoregrettedthewoman’sdeath——andevensomewhoregretteditwithoutanyfeelingofpersonaldamagedonetothemselves。TherehadcometobearoundMrsProudieapartywhothoughtasshethoughtonchurchmatters,andsuchpeoplehadlosttheirhead,andtherebytheirstrength。Andshehadbeenstaunchtoherownparty,preferringbadteafromalow—churchgrocer,togoodteafromagrocerwhowenttotheritualisticchurchortonochurchatall。Anditisduetohertosaythatshedidnotforgetthosewhoweretruetoher——lookingafterthemmindfullywherelookingaftermightbeprofitable,andfightingtheirbattleswherefightingmightbemoreserviceable。IdonotthinkthattheappetiteforbreakfastofanymanorwomaninBarchesterwasdisturbedbythenewsofMrsProudie’sdeath,butthereweresomewhofeltthatatroublehadfallenonthem。
TidingsofthecatastrophereachedHiram’sHospitalontheeveningofitsoccurrence——Hiram’sHospital,wheredweltMrandMrsQuiverfulwithalltheirchildren。NowMrsQuiverfulowedadebtofgratitudetoMrsProudie,havingbeenplacedinherpresentcomfortablehomebythatlady’spatronage。MrsQuiverfulperhapsunderstoodthecharacterofthedeceasedwoman,andexpressedheropinionrespectingit,asgraphicallydidanyoneinBarchester。TherewasthenaturalsurprisefeltattheWarden’sLodgeintheHospitalwhenthetidingswerefirstreceivedthere,andtheQuiverfulfamilywasatfirsttoofullofdismay,regrets,andsurmisestobeabletogivethemselvesimpartiallytocriticism。Butonthefollowingmorning,conversationatthebreakfast—tablenaturallyreferringtothegreatlosswhichthebishophadsustained,MrsQuiverfulthuspronouncedheropinionofherfriend’scharacter:’You’llfindthathe’llfeelit,Q。,’shesaidtoherhusband,inanswertosomesarcasticremarkmadebyhimastotheremovalofthethorn。’He’llfeelit,thoughshewasalmosttoomanyforhimwhileshewasalive。’
’Idaresayhe’llfeelitatfirst,’saidQuiverful;’butIthinkhe’llbemorecomfortablethanhehasbeen。’
’Ofcoursehe’llfeelit,andgoonfeelingittillhedies,ifhe’sthemanItakehimtobe。You’renottothinkthattherehasbeennolovebecausethereusedtobesomewords,thathe’llfindhimselfthehappierhecandomorethingsashepleases。Shewasagreathelptohim,andhemusthaveknownthatshewas,inspiteofthesharpnessofhertongue。
Nodoubthertonguewassharp。Nodoubtshewasupsetting。Andshecouldmakeherselfafooltooinherstrugglestohaveeverythingherownway。
But,Q。,therewereworsewomenthanMrsProudie。Shewasneveroneofyouridleones,andI’mquitesurethatnomanorwomaneverheardhersayawordagainstherhusbandbehindhisback。’
’Allthesame,shegavehimaterriblybadlifeofit,ifallistruethatwehear。’
’Therearemenwhomusthavewhatyoucallaterriblybadlifeofit,whateverwayitgoeswiththem。Thebishopisweak,andhewantssomebodyneartohimtobestrong。Shewasstrong——perhapstoostrong;
buthehadhisadvantageofit。AfterallIdon’tknowthathislifehasbeensoterriblybad。Idaresayhe’shadeverythingverycomfortableabouthim。Andamanoughttobegratefulforthat,thoughveryfewmeneverare。’
MrQuiverful’spredecessorattheHospital,oldMrHarding,whosehalcyondaysinBarchesterhadbeenpassedbeforethecomingoftheProudies,wasinbedplayingcat’s—cradlewithPosyseatedonthecounterpane,whentidingsofMrsProudie’sdeathwerebroughttohimbyMrsBaxter。’Oh,sir,’saidMrsBaxter,seatingherselfonachairbythebed—side。MrHardinglikedMrsBaxtertositdown,becausehewasalmostsureonsuchoccasionstohavetheadvantageofaprolongedconversation。
’Whatisit,MrsBaxter?’
’Oh,sir!’
’Isanythingthematter?’Andtheoldmanattemptedtoraisehimselfinhisbed。
’Youmustn’tfrightengrandpa,’saidPosy。
’No,mydear;andthereisn’tnothingtofrightenhim。Thereisn’tindeed,MrHarding。They’reallwellatPlumstead,andwhenIheardfromthemissusatVenice,everythingwasgoingonwell。’
’Butwhatisit,MrsBaxter?’
’Godforgiveallhersins——MrsProudieain’tnomore。’Nowtherehadbeenaterriblefeudbetweenthepalaceandthedeaneryforyears,incarryingonwhichthepersonsoftheopposedhouseholdswerewonttoexpressthemselveswitheageranimosity。MrsBaxterandMrsDraperneverdaredspeaktoeachother。Thetwocoachmeneachlongedforanopportunitytotaketheotherbeforethemagistrateforsomebreachofthelawoftheroadindriving。Thefootmenabusedeachother,andthegroomsoccasionallyfought。Themastersandmistressescontentedthemselveswithsimplehatred。ThereforeitwasnotsurprisingthatMrsBaxterinspeakingofthedeathofMrsProudie,shouldrememberfirsthersins。
’MrsProudiedead!’saidtheoldman。
’Indeed,sheis,MrHarding,’saidMrsBaxter,puttingbothherhandstogetherpiously。’We’rejustasgrass,ain’twe,sir!Andustandclayandflowersofthefield?’WhetherMrsProudiehadmostpartakenoftheclayeynatureoroftheflowerynature,MrsBaxterdidnotstoptoconsider。
’MrsProudiedead!’withasolemnitythatwasallherown。’Thenshewon’tscoldthepoorbishopanymore。’
’No,mydear;shewon’tscoldanybodyanymore;anditwillbeablessingforsome,Imustsay。Everybodyisalwayssoconsiderateinthishouse,MissPosy,thatwenoneofusknownothingaboutwhatthatis。’
’Dead!’saidMrHardingagain。’Ithink,ifyouplease,MrsBaxter,youshallleavemeforlittletime,andtakeMissPosywithyou。’HehadbeeninthecityofBarchestersomefiftyyears,andherewasonewhomighthavebeenhisdaughter,whohadcometherescarcelytenyearssince,andwhohadnowgonebeforehim!HehadneverlovedMrsProudie。
PerhapshehadcomeasneartodislikingMrsProudieashehadevercometodislikinganyperson。MrsProudiehadwoundedhimineverypartthatwasmostsensitive。Itwouldbelongtotell,norneeditbetoldnow,howshehadridiculedhiscathedralwork,howshehadmadenothingofhim,howshehaddespisedhim,alwaysmanifestinghercontemptplainly。
Hehadbeenevendriventorebukeher,andithadperhapsbeentheonlypersonalrebukewhichhehadeverutteredinBarchester。Butnowshewasgone;andhethoughtofhersimplyasanactivepiouswoman,whohadbeentakenawayfromherwordbeforehertime。Andforthebishop,noideaeverenteredMrHarding’smindastotheremovalofathorn。Themanhadlosthislife’scompanionatthattimeoflifewhensuchacompanionismostneeded;andMrHardinggrievedforhimwithsincerity。
ThenewswentouttoPlumsteadEpiscopibythepostman,andhappenedtoreachthearchdeaconashewastalkingtohisrectoratthelittlegateleadingintothechurchyard。’MrsProudieisdead!’healmostshouted,asthepostmannotifiedthefacttohim。’Impossible!’
’Itbesoforzartain,yerreverence,’saidthepostman,whowasproudofhisnews。
’Heavens!’ejaculatedthearchdeacon,andthenhurriedintohiswife。
’Mydear,’hesaid——andashespokehecouldhardlydeliverhimselfofthewords,soeagerwashetospeakthem——’whodoyouthinkisdead?
Graciousheavens!MrsProudieisdead!’MrsGrantlydroppedfromherhandtheteaspoonfulofteathatwasjustgoingintothepot,andrepeatedherhusband’slastwords。’MrsProudiedead?’Therewasapause,duringwhichtheylookedintoeachother’sfaces。’Mydear,I
don’tbelieveit,’saidMrsGrantly。
Butshedidbelieveitveryshortly。TherewerenoprayersatPlumsteadrectorythatmorning。Thearchdeaconimmediatelywentoutintothevillage,andsoonobtainedsufficientevidenceofthetruthofthatwhichthepostmanhadtoldhim。Thenherushedbacktohiswife。’It’strue,’hesaid。’It’squitetrue。She’sdead。There’snodoubtaboutthat。She’sdead。Itwaslastnightaboutseven。Thatwaswhentheyfoundher,atleast,andshemayhavediedaboutanhourbefore。
Filgravesaysnotmorethananhour。’
’Andhowdidshedie?’
’Heart—complaint。Shewasstandingup,takingholdofthebedstead,andsotheyfoundher。’Thentherewasapause,duringwhichthearchdeaconsatdowntohisbreakfast。’Iwonderhowhefeltwhenheheardit?’
’Ofcoursehewasterriblyshocked。’
’I’venodoubthewasshocked。Anymanwouldbeshocked。Butwhenyoucometothinkofit,whatarelief!’
’Howcanyouspeakofitinthatway?’saidMrsGrantly。
’HowamItospeakofitinanyotherway?’saidthearchdeacon。’OfcourseIshouldn’tgoandsayitoutinthestreet。’
’Idon’tthinkyououghttosayitanywhere,’saidMrsGrantly。’Thepoormannodoubtfeelsabouthiswifeinthesamewaythatanybodyelsewould。’
’Andofanyotherpoormanhasgotsuchawifeasshewas,youmaybequitesurethathewouldbegladtogetridofher。Idon’tsaythathewishedhertodie,orthathewouldhavedoneanythingtocontriveherdeath——’
’Gracious,archdeacon;doprayholdyourtongue。’
’Butitstandstoreasonthathergoingwillbeagreatrelieftohim。
Whathasshedoneforhim?Shehasmadehimcontemptibletoeverybodyinthediocesebyherinterference,andhislifehasbeenaburdentohimthroughherviolence。’
’IsthatthewayyoucarryoutyourproverbDemortuis?’askedMrsGrantly。
’TheproverbofDemortuisisfoundedonhumbug。Humbugoutofdoorsisnecessary。ItwouldnotdoforyouandmetogointotheHighStreetjustnowandsaywhatwethinkaboutMrsProudie;butIdon’tsupposethatkindofthingneedtobekeptupinhere——souncomfortablethatI
cannotbelievethatanyonewillregrether。Dearme!Onlytothinkthatshehasgone!Youmayaswellgivememytea。’
IdonotthinkthatMrsGrantly’sopiniondifferedmuchfromthatexpressedbyherhusband,orthatshewas,intruth,theleastoffendedbythearchdeacon’splainspeech。ButitmustberememberedthattherewasprobablynohouseinthedioceseinwhichMrsProudiehadbeensothoroughlyhatedasshehadbeenatthePlumsteadrectory。Therehadbeenhatredinthedeanery;butthehatredatthedeaneryhadbeenmildincomparisonwiththehatredatPlumstead。Thearchdeaconwasasoundfriend;buthewasalsoasoundenemy。FromtheveryarrivaloftheProudiesatBarchester,MrsProudiehadthrowndownhergauntlettohim,andhehadnotbeenslowinpickingitup。Thewarhadbeeninternecine,andeachhadgiventheotherterriblewounds。Ithadbeenunderstoodthatthereshouldbenoquarter,andtherehadbeennone。Hisenemywasnowdead,andthearchdeaconcouldnotbringhimselftoadoptbeforehiswifethenamby—pambyeverydaydecencyofspeakingwellofoneofwhomhehadeverthoughtill,orexpressingregretwhennoregretcouldbefelt。
’Mayallhersinsbeforgivenher,’saidMrsGrantly。’Amen,’saidthearchdeacon。TherewassomethinginthetoneofhisAmenwhichthoroughlyimpliedthatitwasutteredonlyontheunderstandingthatherdeparturefromtheexistingworldwastoberegardedasanunmitigatedgood,andthatsheshould,atanyrate,nevercomebackagaintoBarchester。
WhenLadyLuftonheardthetidings,shewasnotsoboldinspeakingofitaswasherfriendthearchdeacon。’MrsProudiedead!,’shesaidtoherdaughter—in—law。Thiswassomehoursafterthenewshadreachedthehouse,andwhenthefactofthepoorlady’sdeathhadbeenfullyrecognised。’Whatwillhedowithouther?’
’Thesameasothermendo,’saidtheyoungLadyLufton。
’But,mydear,heisnotthesameasothermen。Heisnotatalllikeothermen。Nodoubtshewasavirago,awomanwhocouldnotcontrolhertemperforamoment!Nodoubtshehadledhimaterriblelife!Ihaveoftenpitiedhimwithallmyheart。But,nevertheless,shewasusefultohim。Isupposeshewasusefultohim。IcanhardlybelievethatMrsProudieisdead。Hadhegone,itwouldhaveseemedsomuchmorenatural。
Poorwoman。Idaresayshehadhergoodpoints。’ThereaderwillbepleasedtorememberthattheLuftonshadeverbeenstrongpartisansonthesideoftheGrantlys。
ThenewsmadeitswayeventoHogglestockonthesameday。MrsCrawley,whensheheardit,wentoutafterherhusband,whowasintheschool。
’Dead!’hesaidinanswertoherwhisper。’Doyoutellmethatthewomanisdead?’ThenMrsCrawleyexplainedthatthetidingswerecredible。
’MayGodforgiveherallhersins,’saidMrsCrawley。’Shewasaviolentwoman,certainly,andIthinkthatshemisunderstoodherduties;butI
donotsaythatshewasabadwoman。Iaminclinedtothinkthatshewasearnestinherendeavourstodogood。’ItneveroccurredtoMrCrawleythatheandhisaffair,had,intruth,beenthecauseofherdeath。
Itwasthusthatshewasspokenofforafewdays;andthemenandwomenceasedtospeakmuchofher,andbegantotalkofthebishopinstead。A
monthhadnotpassedbeforeitwassurmisedthatamansolongaccustomedtothecomfortsofmarriedlifewouldmarryagain;andeventhenoneladyconnectedwithlow—churchclergymeninandaroundthecitywasnamedasaprobablesuccessortothegreatladywhowasgone。
FormyselfIaminclinedtothinkthatthebishopwillforthefuturebecontenttoleanuponhischaplain。
Themonumentthatwasputuptoourfriend’smemoryinoneoftheaislesofthechoirofthecathedralwassupposedtobedesignedandexecutedingoodtaste。Therewasabrokencolumn,andonthecolumnsimplythewords’Mybelovedwife!’Thentherewasaslabbythecolumn,bearingMrsProudie’sname,withthedateofherlifeanddeath。Beneaththiswasthecommoninscription:—
’Requiescatinpace。’
CHAPTERLXVIII
THEOBSTINACYOFMRCRAWLEY
DrTempest,whenheheardthenews,sentimmediatelytoMrRobarts,begginghimtocomeovertoSilverbridge。ButthismessagewasnotoccasionedsolelybythedeathofMrsProudie。DrTempesthadalsoheardthatMrCrawleyhadsubmittedhimselftothebishop,thatinstantadvantage——and,asDrTempestthought,——unfairadvantage——hadbeentakenofMrCrawley’ssubmission,andthattheperniciousMrThumblehadbeenatoncesentovertoHogglestock。HadthesepalacedoingswithreferencetoMrCrawleybeenunaccompaniedbythecatastrophewhichhadhappened,thedoctor,muchashemighthaveregrettedthem,wouldprobablyhavefeltthattherewasnothingtobedone。HecouldnotinsuchcasehavepreventedMrThumble’sjourneytoHogglestockonthenextSunday,andcertainlyhecouldnothavesoftenedtheheartofthepresidinggeniusatthepalace。Butthingswereverydifferentnow。Thepresidinggeniuswasgone。Everybodyatthepalacewouldbeforawhileweakandvacillating。Thumblewouldbethenthoroughlycowed;anditmightatanyratebepossibletomakesomemovementinMrCrawley’sfavour。DrTempest,therefore,sentforMrRobarts。
’I’mgivingyouagreatdealoftrouble,Robarts,’saidthedoctor;’butthenyouaresomuchyoungerthanIam,andI’veanideathatyouwoulddomoreforthispoormanthananyoneelseinthediocese。’MrRobartsofcoursedeclaredthathedidnotbegrudgehistrouble,andthathewoulddoanythinginhispowerforthepoorman。’Ithinkthatyoushouldseehimagain,andthatyoushouldthenseeThumblealso。Idon’tknowwhetheryoucancondescendtobeciviltoThumble。Icouldnot。’
’Iamnotquitesurethatincivilitywouldnotbemoreefficacious。’
’Verylikely。Therearemenwhoaredeafasadderstocourtesy,butwhoarecompelledtoobedienceatoncebyill—usage。VerylikelyThumbleisoneofthem;butofthatyouwillbethebestjudgeyourself。IwouldseeCrawleyfirst,andgethisconsent。’
’That’sthedifficulty。’
’ThenIshouldgowithouthisconsent,andIwouldseeThumbleandthebishop’schaplainSnapper。Ithinkyoumightmanagejustatthismoment,whentheywillallbeabashedandperplexedbythiswoman’sdeath,toarrangethatsimplynothingshallbedone。ThegreatthingwillbethatCrawleyshouldgoonwiththedutytilltheassizes。IfitshouldhappenthathegoesintoBarchesterandisacquitted,andcomesbackagain,thewholethingwillbeover,andtherewillbenofurtherinterferenceintheparish。IfIwereyou,IthinkIwouldtryit。’MrRobartssaidthathewouldtryit。’IdaresayMrCrawleywillbealittlestiff—neckedwithyou。’
’Hewillbeverystiff—neckedwithme,’saidMrRobarts。
’ButIcanhardlythinkthathewillthrowawaytheonlymeanshehasofsupportinghiswifeandchildren,whenhefindsthattherecanbenooccasionforhisdoingso。Idonotsupposethatanypersonwisheshimtothrowuphisworknowthatthepoorwomanhasgone。’
MrCrawleyhadbeenalmostingoodspiritssincethelastvisitwhichMrThumblehadmadehim。Itseemedasthoughthelossofeverythingintheworldwasinsomewaysatisfactorytohim。Hehadnowgivenuphislivingbyhisowndoing,andhadafterafashionacknowledgedhisguiltbythisact。Hehadproclaimedtoallaroundhimthathedidnotthinkhimselftobeanylongerfittoperformthesacredfunctionsofhisoffice。Hespokeofhistrialasthoughaverdictagainsthimmustbetheresult。Heknewthatingoingintoprisonhewouldleavehiswifeandchildrendependentonthecharityoftheirfriends——oncharitywhichtheymustcondescendtoaccept,thoughhecouldnotcondescendtoaskit。Andyethewasabletocarryhimselfnowwithagreatershowoffortitudethanhadbeenwithinhispowerwhentheextentofhiscalamitywasmoredoubtful。Imustnotaskthereadertosupposethathewascheerful。Tohavebeencheerfulundersuchcircumstanceswouldhavebeeninhuman。Buthecarriedhisheadonhigh,andwalkedfirmly,andgavehisorderswithaclearvoice。Hiswife,whowasnecessarilymoredespondentthanever,wonderedathim——butwonderedinsilence。Itcertainlyseemedasthoughtheveryextremityofill—fortunewasgoodforhim。Andhewasverydiligentwithhisschool,passingthegreaterpartofthemorningwithhischildren。MrThumblehadtoldhimthathewouldcomeonSunday,andthathewouldthentakechargeoftheparish。