Sherosegently,andpouredtheperfumefromthegiftofJuliauponthemarblefloor——sherinseditseveraltimescarefullywiththewaterthatwasbesideher,andtheneasilyfindingthebedofJulia(fornighttoherwasasday),shepressedhertremblinghandunderthepillowandseizedthepotion。Juliastirrednot,herbreathregularlyfannedtheburningcheekoftheblindgirl。Nydia,then,openingthephial,poureditscontentsintothebottle,whicheasilycontainedthem;andthenrefillingtheformerreservoirofthepotionwiththatlimpidwaterwhichJuliahadassuredheritsoresembled,sheoncemoreplacedthephialinitsformerplace。Shethenstoleagaintohercouch,andwaited——withwhatthoughts!——thedawningday。
Thesunhadrisen——Juliasleptstill——Nydianoiselesslydressedherself,placedhertreasurecarefullyinhervest,tookupherstaff,andhastenedtoquitthehouse。
Theporter,Medon,salutedherkindlyasshedescendedthestepsthatledtothestreet:sheheardhimnot;hermindwasconfusedandlostinthewhirloftumultuousthoughts,eachthoughtapassion。Shefeltthepuremorningairuponhercheek,butitcoolednotherscorchingveins。
’Glaucus,’shemurmured,’allthelove—charmsofthewildestmagiccouldnotmaketheelovemeasIlovethee。Ione!——ah;awayhesitation!awayremorse!
Glaucus,myfateisinthysmile;andthine!hope!Ojoy!Otransport,thyfateisinthesehands!’
BOOKTHEFOURTH
ChapterI
REFLECTIONSONTHEZEALOFTHEEARLYCHRISTIANS。TWOMENCOMETOAPERILOUS
RESOLVE。WALLSHAVEEARS,PARTICULARLYSACREDWALLS。
WHOEVERregardstheearlyhistoryofChristianity,willperceivehownecessarytoitstriumphwasthatfiercespiritofzeal,which,fearingnodanger,acceptingnocompromise,inspireditschampionsandsustaineditsmartyrs。InadominantChurchthegeniusofintolerancebetraysitscause——inaweakandpersecutedChurch,thesamegeniusmainlysupports。Itwasnecessarytoscorn,toloathe,toabhorthecreedsofothermen,inordertoconquerthetemptationswhichtheypresented——itwasnecessaryrigidlytobelievenotonlythattheGospelwasthetruefaith,butthesoletruefaiththatsaved,inordertonervethediscipletotheausterityofitsdoctrine,andtoencouragehimtothesacredandperilouschivalryofconvertingthePolytheistandtheHeathen。Thesectariansternnesswhichconfinedvirtueandheaventoachosenfew,whichsawdemonsinothergods,andthepenaltiesofhellinotherreligions——madethebelievernaturallyanxioustoconvertalltowhomhefeltthetiesofhumanaffection;andthecirclethustracedbybenevolencetomanwasyetmorewidenedbyadesireforthegloryofGod。ItwasforthehonouroftheChristianfaiththattheChristianboldlyforceditstenetsuponthescepticismofsome,therepugnanceofothers,thesagecontemptofthephilosopher,thepiousshudderofthepeople——hisveryintolerancesuppliedhimwithhisfittestinstrumentsofsuccess;andthesoftHeathenbeganatlasttoimaginetheremustindeedbesomethingholyinazealwhollyforeigntohisexperience,whichstoppedatnoobstacle,dreadednodanger,andevenatthetorture,oronthescaffold,referredadisputefarotherthanthecalmdifferencesofspeculativephilosophytothetribunalofanEternalJudge。ItwasthusthatthesamefervorwhichmadetheChurchmanofthemiddleageabigotwithoutmercy,madetheChristianoftheearlydaysaherowithoutfear。
Ofthesemorefiery,daring,andearnestnatures,nottheleastardentwasOlinthus。NosoonerhadApaecidesbeenreceivedbytheritesofbaptismintothebosomoftheChurch,thantheNazarenehastenedtomakehimconsciousoftheimpossibilitytoretaintheofficeandrobesofpriesthood。
Hecouldnot,itwasevident,professtoworshipGod,andcontinueevenoutwardlytohonourtheidolatrousaltarsoftheFiend。
Norwasthisall,thesanguineandimpetuousmindofOlinthusbeheldinthepowerofApaecidesthemeansofdivulgingtothedeludedpeoplethejugglingmysteriesoftheoracularIsis。HethoughtHeavenhadsentthisinstrumentofhisdesigninordertodisabusetheeyesofthecrowd,andpreparetheway,perchance,fortheconversionofawholecity。Hedidnothesitatethentoappealtoallthenew—kindledenthusiasmofApaecides,toarousehiscourage,andtostimulatehiszeal。Theymet,accordingtopreviousagreement,theeveningafterthebaptismofApaecides,inthegroveofCybele,whichwehavebeforedescribed。
’Atthenextsolemnconsultationoftheoracle,’saidOlinthus,asheproceededinthewarmthofhisaddress,’advanceyourselftotherailing,proclaimaloudtothepeoplethedeceptiontheyendure,invitethemtoenter,tobethemselvesthewitnessofthegrossbutartfulmechanismofimposturethouhastdescribedtome。Fearnot——theLord,whoprotectedDaniel,shallprotectthee;we,thecommunityofChristians,willbeamongstthecrowd;wewillurgeontheshrinking:andinthefirstflushofthepopularindignationandshame,Imyself,uponthoseveryaltars,willplantthepalm—branchtypicaloftheGospel——andtomytongueshalldescendtherushingSpiritofthelivingGod。’
Heatedandexcitedashewas,thissuggestionwasnotunpleasingtoApaecides。Hewasrejoicedatsoearlyanopportunityofdistinguishinghisfaithinhisnewsect,andtohisholierfeelingswereaddedthoseofavindictiveloathingattheimpositionhehadhimselfsuffered,andadesiretoavengeit。Inthatsanguineandelasticoverboundofobstacles(therashnessnecessarytoallwhoundertakeventurousandloftyactions),neitherOlinthusnortheproselyteperceivedtheimpedimentstothesuccessoftheirscheme,whichmightbefoundinthereverentsuperstitionofthepeoplethemselves,whowouldprobablybeloth,beforethesacredaltarsofthegreatEgyptiangoddess,tobelieveeventhetestimonyofherpriestagainstherpower。
ApaecidesthenassentedtothisproposalwithareadinesswhichdelightedOlinthus。TheypartedwiththeunderstandingthatOlinthusshouldconferwiththemoreimportantofhisChristianbrethrenonhisgreatenterprise,shouldreceivetheiradviceandtheassurancesoftheirsupportontheeventfulday。ItsochancedthatoneofthefestivalsofIsiswastobeheldontheseconddayafterthisconference。Thefestivalprofferedareadyoccasionforthedesign。Theyappointedtomeetoncemoreonthenexteveningatthesamespot;andinthatmeetingwerefinallytobesettledtheorderanddetailsofthedisclosureforthefollowingday。
Ithappenedthatthelatterpartofthisconferencehadbeenheldnearthesacellum,orsmallchapel,whichIhavedescribedintheearlypartofthiswork;andsosoonastheformsoftheChristianandthepriesthaddisappearedfromthegrove,adarkandungainlyfigureemergedfrombehindthechapel。
’Ihavetrackedyouwithsomeeffect,mybrotherflamen,’soliloquisedtheeavesdropper;’you,thepriestofIsis,havenotformereidlediscussionconferredwiththisgloomyChristian。Alas!thatIcouldnothearallyourpreciousplot:enough!Ifind,atleast,thatyoumeditaterevealingthesacredmysteries,andthatto—morrowyoumeetagainatthisplacetoplanthehowandthewhen。MayOsirissharpenmyearsthen,todetectthewholeofyourunheard—ofaudacity!WhenIhavelearnedmore,ImustconferatoncewithArbaces。Wewillfrustrateyou,myfriends,deepasyouthinkyourselves。Atpresent,mybreastisalockedtreasuryofyoursecret。’
Thusmuttering,Calenus,foritwashe,wrappedhisroberoundhim,andstrodethoughtfullyhomeward。
ChapterII
ACLASSICHOST,COOK,ANDKITCHEN。APAECIDESSEEKSIONE。THEIR
CONVERSATION。
ITwasthenthedayforDiomed’sbanquettothemostselectofhisfriends。
ThegracefulGlaucus,thebeautifulIone,theofficialPansa,thehigh—bornClodius,theimmortalFulvius,theexquisiteLepidus,theepicureanSallust,werenottheonlyhonourersofhisfestival。Heexpected,also,aninvalidsenatorfromRome(amanofconsiderablereputeandfavoratcourt),andagreatwarriorfromHerculaneum,whohadfoughtwithTitusagainsttheJews,andhavingenrichedhimselfprodigiouslyinthewars,wasalwaystoldbyhisfriendsthathiscountrywaseternallyindebtedtohisdisinterestedexertions!Theparty,however,extendedtoayetgreaternumber:foralthough,criticallyspeaking,itwas,atonetime,thoughtinelegantamongtheRomanstoentertainlessthanthreeormorethannineattheirbanquets,yetthisrulewaseasilydisregardedbytheostentatious。Andwearetold,indeed,inhistory,thatoneofthemostsplendidoftheseentertainersusuallyfeastedaselectpartyofthreehundred。Diomed,however,moremodest,contentedhimselfwithdoublingthenumberoftheMuses。Hispartyconsistedofeighteen,nounfashionablenumberinthepresentday。
ItwasthemorningofDiomed’sbanquet;andDiomedhimself,thoughhegreatlyaffectedthegentlemanandthescholar,retainedenoughofhismercantileexperiencetoknowthatamaster’seyemakesareadyservant。
Accordingly,withhistunicungirdledonhisportlystomach,hiseasyslippersonhisfeet,asmallwandinhishand,wherewithhenowdirectedthegaze,andnowcorrectedtheback,ofsomedullermenial,hewentfromchambertochamberofhiscostlyvilla。
Hedidnotdisdainevenavisittothatsacredapartmentinwhichthepriestsofthefestivalpreparetheirofferings。Onenteringthekitchen,hisearswereagreeablystunnedbythenoiseofdishesandpans,ofoathsandcommands。SmallasthisindispensablechamberseemstohavebeeninallthehousesofPompeii,itwas,nevertheless,usuallyfittedupwithallthatamazingvarietyofstovesandshapes,stew—pansandsaucepans,cuttersandmoulds,withoutwhichacookofspirit,nomatterwhetherhebeanancientoramodern,declaresitutterlyimpossiblethathecangiveyouanythingtoeat。Andasfuelwasthen,asnow,dearandscarceinthoseregions,greatseemstohavebeenthedexterityexercisedinpreparingasmanythingsaspossiblewithaslittlefire。AnadmirablecontrivanceofthisnaturemaybestillseenintheNeapolitanMuseum,viz。,aportablekitchen,aboutthesizeofafoliovolume,containingstovesforfourdishes,andanapparatusforheatingwaterorotherbeverages。
Acrossthesmallkitchenflittedmanyformswhichthequickeyeofthemasterdidnotrecognize。
’Oh!oh!’grumbledhetohimself,’thatcursedCongriohathinvitedawholelegionofcookstoassisthim。Theywon’tservefornothing,andthisisanotheriteminthetotalofmyday’sexpenses。ByBacchus!thriceluckyshallIbeiftheslavesdonothelpthemselvestosomeofthedrinkingvessels:ready,alas,aretheirhands,capaciousaretheirtunics。Memiserum!’
Thecooks,however,workedon,seeminglyheedlessoftheapparitionofDiomed。
’Ho,Euclio,youregg—pan!What,isthisthelargest?itonlyholdsthirty—threeeggs:inthehousesIusuallyserve,thesmallestegg—panholdsfifty,ifneedbe!’
’Theunconscionablerogue!’thoughtDiomed;’hetalksofeggsasiftheywereasesterceahundred!’
’ByMercury!’criedapertlittleculinarydisciple,scarceinhisnovitiate;’whoeversawsuchantiquesweetmeatshapesasthese?——Itisimpossibletodocredittoone’sartwithsuchrudematerials。Why,Sallust’scommonestsweetmeatshaperepresentsthewholesiegeofTroy;
HectorandParis,andHelen……withlittleAstyanaxandtheWoodenHorseintothebargain!’
’Silence,fool!’saidCongrio,thecookofthehouse,whoseemedtoleavethechiefpartofthebattletohisallies。’Mymaster,Diomed,isnotoneofthoseexpensivegood—for—noughts,whomusthavethelastfashion,costwhatitwill!’
’Thouliest,baseslave!’criedDiomed,inagreatpassion——andthoucostestmealreadyenoughtohaveruinedLucullushimself!Comeoutofthyden,I
wanttotalktothee。’
Theslave,withaslywinkathisconfederates,obeyedthecommand。
’Manofthreeletters,’saidDiomed,withhisfaceofsolemnanger,’howdidstthoudaretoinviteallthoserascalsintomyhouse?——Iseethiefwrittenineverylineoftheirfaces。’
’Yet,Iassureyou,master,thattheyaremenofmostrespectablecharacter——thebestcooksoftheplace;itisagreatfavortogetthem。
Butformysake……’
’Thysake,unhappyCongrio!’interruptedDiomed;andbywhatpurloinedmoneysofmine,bywhatreservedfilchingsfrommarketing,bywhatgoodlymeatsconvertedintogrease,andsoldinthesuburbs,bywhatfalsechargesforbronzesmarred,andearthenwarebroken——hastthoubeenenabledtomakethemservetheeforthysake?’
’Nay,master,donotimpeachmyhonesty!Maythegodsdesertmeif……’
’Swearnot!’againinterruptedthecholericDiomed,’forthenthegodswillsmitetheeforaperjurer,andIshalllosemycookontheeveofdinner。
But,enoughofthisatpresent:keepasharpeyeonthyill—favoredassistants,andtellmenotalesto—morrowofvasesbroken,andcupsmiraculouslyvanished,orthywholebackshallbeonepain。Andharkthee!
thouknowestthouhastmademepayforthosePhrygianattagensenough,byHercules,tohavefeastedasobermanforayeartogether——seethattheybenotoneiotaover—roasted。Thelasttime,OCongrio,thatIgaveabanquettomyfriends,whenthyvanitydidsoboldlyundertakethebecomingappearanceofaMeliancrane——thouknowestitcameuplikeastonefromAEtna——asifallthefiresofPhlegethonhadbeenscorchingoutitsjuices。
Bemodestthistime,Congrio——waryandmodest。Modestyisthenurseofgreatactions;andinallotherthings,asinthis,ifthouwiltnotsparethymaster’spurse,atleastconsultthymaster’sglory。’
’ThereshallnotbesuchacoenaseenatPompeiisincethedaysofHercules。’
’Softly,softly——thycursedboastingagain!ButIsay,Congrio,yonhomunculus——yonpigmyassailantofmycranes——yonpert—tonguedneophyteofthekitchen,wasthereaughtbutinsolenceonhistonguewhenhemalignedthecomelinessofmysweetmeatshapes?Iwouldnotbeoutofthefashion,Congrio。’
’Itisbutthecustomofuscooks,’repliedCongrio,gravely,toundervalueourtools,inordertoincreasetheeffectofourart。Thesweetmeatshapeisafairshape,andalovely;butIwouldrecommendmymaster,atthefirstoccasion,topurchasesomenewonesofa……’
’Thatwillsuffice,’exclaimedDiomed,whoseemedresolvednevertoallowhisslavetofinishhissentences。’Now,resumethycharge——shine————eclipsethyself。LetmenenvyDiomedhiscook——lettheslavesofPompeiistyletheeCongriothegreat!Go!yetstay——thouhastnotspentallthemoneysIgavetheeforthemarketing?’’"All!"alas!thenightingales’tonguesandtheRomantomacula,andtheoystersfromBritain,andsundryotherthings,toonumerousnowtorecite,areyetleftunpaidfor。Butwhatmatter?everyonetruststheArchimagirusofDiomedthewealthy!’
’Oh,unconscionableprodigal!——whatwaste!——whatprofusion!——Iamruined!
Butgo,hasten——inspect!——taste!——perform!——surpassthyself!LettheRomansenatornotdespisethepoorPompeian。Away,slave——andremember,thePhrygianattagens。’
Thechiefdisappearedwithinhisnaturaldomain,andDiomedrolledbackhisportlypresencetothemorecourtlychambers。Allwastohisliking——theflowerswerefresh,thefountainsplayedbriskly,themosaicpavementswereassmoothasmirrors。
’WhereismydaughterJulia?’heasked。
’Atthebath。’
’Ah!thatremindsme!——timewanes!——andImustbathealso。’
OurstoryreturnstoApaecides。Onawakingthatdayfromthebrokenandfeverishsleepwhichhadfollowedhisadoptionofafaithsostrikinglyandsternlyatvariancewiththatinwhichhisyouthhadbeennurtured,theyoungpriestcouldscarcelyimaginethathewasnotyetinadream;hehadcrossedthefatalriver——thepastwashenceforthtohavenosympathywiththefuture;thetwoworldsweredistinctandseparate——thatwhichhadbeen,fromthatwhichwastobe。Towhataboldandadventurousenterprisehehadpledgedhislife!——tounveilthemysteriesinwhichhehadparticipated——todesecratethealtarshehadserved——todenouncethegoddesswhoseministeringrobehewore!Slowlyhebecamesensibleofthehatredandthehorrorheshouldprovokeamongstthepious,evenifsuccessful;iffrustratedinhisdaringattempt,whatpenaltiesmighthenotincurforanoffencehithertounheardof——forwhichnospecificlaw,derivedfromexperience,wasprepared;andwhich,forthatveryreason,precedents,draggedfromthesharpestarmouryofobsoleteandinapplicablelegislation,wouldprobablybedistortedtomeet!Hisfriends——thesisterofhisyouth——couldheexpectjustice,thoughhemightreceivecompassion,fromthem?Thisbraveandheroicactwouldbytheirheatheneyesberegarded,perhaps,asaheinousapostasy——atthebestasapitiablemadness。
Hedared,herenounced,everythinginthisworld,inthehopeofsecuringthateternityinthenext,whichhadsosuddenlybeenrevealedtohim。
Whilethesethoughtsontheonehandinvadedhisbreast,ontheotherhandhispride,hiscourage,andhisvirtue,mingledwithreminiscencesofrevengefordeceit,ofindignantdisgustatfraud,conspiredtoraiseandtosupporthim。
Theconflictwassharpandkeen;buthisnewfeelingstriumphedoverhisold:andamightyargumentinfavorofwrestlingwiththesanctitiesofoldopinionsandhereditaryformsmightbefoundintheconquestoverboth,achievedbythathumblepriest。HadtheearlyChristiansbeenmorecontrolledby’thesolemnplausibilitiesofcustom’——lessofdemocratsinthepureandloftyacceptationofthatpervertedword——Christianitywouldhaveperishedinitscradle!
Aseachpriestinsuccessionsleptseveralnightstogetherinthechambersofthetemple,thetermimposedonApaecideswasnotyetcompleted;andwhenhehadrisenfromhiscouch,attiredhimself,asusual,inhisrobes,andlefthisnarrowchamber,hefoundhimselfbeforethealtarsofthetemple。
Intheexhaustionofhislateemotionshehadsleptfarintothemorning,andtheverticalsunalreadypoureditsfervidbeamsoverthesacredplace。
’Salve,Apaecides!’saidavoice,whosenaturalasperitywassmoothedbylongartificeintoanalmostdispleasingsoftnessoftone。’Thouartlateabroad;hasthegoddessrevealedherselftotheeinvisions?’
’Couldsherevealhertrueselftothepeople,Calenus,howincenselesswouldbethesealtars!’
’That,’repliedCalenus,’maypossiblybetrue;butthedeityiswiseenoughtoholdcommunewithnonebutpriests。’
’Atimemaycomewhenshewillbeunveiledwithoutherownacquiescence。’
’Itisnotlikely:shehastriumphedforcountlessages。Andthatwhichhassolongstoodthetestoftimerarelysuccumbstothelustofnovelty。Butharkye,youngbrother!thesesayingsareindiscreet。’
’Itisnotfortheetosilencethem,’repliedApaecides,haughtily。
’Sohot!——yetIwillnotquarrelwiththee。Why,myApaecides,hasnottheEgyptianconvincedtheeofthenecessityofourdwellingtogetherinunity?
Hashenotconvincedtheeofthewisdomofdeludingthepeopleandenjoyingourselves?Ifnot,oh,brother!heisnotthatgreatmagicianheisesteemed。’
’Thou,then,hastsharedhislessons?’saidApaecides,withahollowsmile。
’Ay!butIstoodlessinneedofthemthanthou。Naturehadalreadygiftedmewiththeloveofpleasure,andthedesireofgainandpower。Longisthewaythatleadsthevoluptuarytotheseveritiesoflife;butitisonlyonestepfrompleasantsintoshelteringhypocrisy。Bewarethevengeanceofthegoddess,iftheshortnessofthatstepbedisclosed!’
’Beware,thou,thehourwhenthetombshallberentandtherottennessexposed,’returnedApaecides,solemnly。’Vale!’
Withthesewordshelefttheflamentohismeditations。Whenhegotafewpacesfromthetemple,heturnedtolookback。Calenushadalreadydisappearedintheentryroomofthepriests,foritnowapproachedthehourofthatrepastwhich,calledprandiumbytheancients,answersinpointofdatetothebreakfastofthemoderns。Thewhiteandgracefulfanegleamedbrightlyinthesun。Uponthealtarsbeforeitrosetheincenseandbloomedthegarlands。Thepriestgazedlongandwistfullyuponthescene——itwasthelasttimethatitwaseverbeheldbyhim!
HethenturnedandpursuedhiswayslowlytowardsthehouseofIone;forbeforepossiblythelasttiethatunitedthemwascutintwain——beforetheuncertainperilofthenextdaywasincurred,hewasanxioustoseehislastsurvivingrelative,hisfondestashisearliestfriend。
Hearrivedatherhouse,andfoundherinthegardenwithNydia。
’Thisiskind,Apaecides,’saidIone,joyfully;’andhoweagerlyhaveI
wishedtoseethee!——whatthanksdoInotowethee?Howchurlishhastthoubeentoanswernoneofmyletters——toabstainfromcominghithertoreceivetheexpressionsofmygratitude!Oh!thouhastassistedtopreservethysisterfromdishonour!What,whatcanshesaytothankthee,nowthouartcomeatlast?’
’MysweetIone,thouowestmenogratitude,forthycausewasmine。Letusavoidthatsubject,letusrecurnottothatimpiousman——howhatefultobothofus!Imayhaveaspeedyopportunitytoteachtheworldthenatureofhispretendedwisdomandhypocriticalseverity。Butletussitdown,mysister;Iamweariedwiththeheatofthesun;letussitinyondershade,and,foralittlewhilelonger,betoeachotherwhatwehavebeen。’
Beneathawideplane—tree,withthecistusandthearbutusiclusteringroundthem,thelivingfountainbefore,thegreenswardbeneaththeirfeet;thegaycicada,oncesodeartoAthens,risingmerrilyeverandanonamidstthegrass;thebutterfly,beautifulemblemofthesoul,dedicatedtoPsyche,andwhichhascontinuedtofurnishillustrationstotheChristianbard,richintheglowingcolorscaughtfromSicilianskies,hoveringaboutthesunnyflowers,itselflikeawingedflower——inthisspot,andthisscene,thebrotherandthesistersattogetherforthelasttimeonearth。Youmaytreadnowonthesameplace;butthegardenisnomore,thecolumnsareshattered,thefountainhasceasedtoplay。LetthetravelersearchamongsttheruinsofPompeiiforthehouseofIone。Itsremainsareyetvisible;butIwillnotbetraythemtothegazeofcommonplacetourists。Hewhoismoresensitivethantheherdwilldiscoverthemeasily:whenhehasdoneso,lethimkeepthesecret。
Theysatdown,andNydia,gladtobealone,retiredtothefartherendofthegarden。
’Ione,mysister,’saidtheyoungconvert,’placeyourhanduponmybrow;
letmefeelyourcooltouch。Speaktome,too,foryourgentlevoiceislikeabreezethathathfreshnessaswellasmusic。Speaktome,butforbeartoblessme!Utternotonewordofthoseformsofspeechwhichourchildhoodwastaughttoconsidersacred!’
’Alas!andwhatthenshallIsay?Ourlanguageofaffectionissowovenwiththatofworship,thatthewordsgrowchilledandtriteifIbanishfromthemallusiontoourgods。’
’Ourgods!’murmuredApaecides,withashudder:’thouslightestmyrequestalready。’
’ShallIspeakthentotheeonlyofIsis?’
’TheEvilSpirit!No,ratherbedumbforever,unlessatleastthoucanst——butaway,awaythistalk!Notnowwillwedisputeandcavil;notnowwillwejudgeharshlyofeachother。Thou,regardingmeasanapostate!andIallsorrowandshamefortheeasanidolater。No,mysister,letusavoidsuchtopicsandsuchthoughts。Inthysweetpresenceacalmfallsovermyspirit。ForalittlewhileIforget。AsIthuslaymytemplesonthybosom,asIthusfeelthygentlearmembraceme,Ithinkthatwearechildrenoncemore,andthattheheavensmilesequallyuponboth。Foroh!
ifhereafterIescape,nomatterwhatperil;anditbepermittedmetoaddresstheeononesacredandawfulsubject;shouldIfindthineearclosedandthyhearthardened,whathopeformyselfcouldcountervailthedespairforthee?Inthee,mysister,Ibeholdalikenessmadebeautiful,madenoble,ofmyself。Shallthemirrorliveforever,andtheformitselfbebrokenasthepotter’sclay?Ah,no——no——thouwiltlistentomeyet!DostthourememberhowwewentintothefieldsbyBaiae,handinhandtogether,toplucktheflowersofspring?Evenso,handinhand,shallweentertheEternalGarden,andcrownourselveswithimperishableasphodel!’
Wonderingandbewilderedbywordsshecouldnotcomprehend,butexcitedeventotearsbytheplaintivenessoftheirtone,Ionelistenedtotheseoutpouringsofafullandoppressedheart。Intruth,Apaecideshimselfwassoftenedmuchbeyondhisordinarymood,whichtooutwardseemingwasusuallyeithersullenorimpetuous。Forthenoblestdesiresareofajealousnature——theyengross,theyabsorbthesoul,andoftenleavethesplenetichumorsstagnantandunheededatthesurface。Unheedingthepettythingsaroundus,wearedeemedmorose;impatientatearthlyinterruptiontothedivinerdreams,wearethoughtirritableandchurlish。Forasthereisnochimeravainerthanthehopethatonehumanheartshallfindsympathyinanother,sononeeverinterpretuswithjustice;andnone,no,notournearestandourdearestties,forbearwithusinmercy!Whenwearedeadandrepentancecomestoolate,bothfriendandfoemaywondertothinkhowlittletherewasinustoforgive!
’Iwilltalktotheethenofourearlyyears,’saidIone。’Shallyonblindgirlsingtotheeofthedaysofchildhood?Hervoiceissweetandmusical,andshehathasongonthatthemewhichcontainsnoneofthoseallusionsitpainstheetohear。’
’Dostthourememberthewords,mysister?’askedApaecides。
’Methinksyes;forthetune,whichissimple,fixedthemonmymemory。’
’Singtomethenthyself。Myearisnotinunisonwithunfamiliarvoices;
andthine,Ione,fullofhouseholdassociations,haseverbeentomemoresweetthanallthehirelingmelodiesofLyciaorofCrete。Singtome!’
Ionebeckonedtoaslavethatstoodintheportico,andsendingforherlute,sang,whenitarrived,toatenderandsimpleair,thefollowingverses:—
REGRETSFORCHILDHOOD
I
ItisnotthatourearlierHeavenEscapesitsAprilshowers,Orthattochildhood’sheartisgivenNosnakeamidsttheflowers。
Ah!twinedwithgriefEachbrightestleaf,That’swreath’dusbytheHours!
Youngthoughwebe,thePastmaysting,Thepresentfeeditssorrow;
ButhopeshinesbrightoneverythingThatwaitsuswiththemorrow。
Likesun—litglades,ThedimmestshadesSomerosybeamcanborrow。